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Single, my dear, to be sure! A single man of large +fortune; four or five thousand a year. What a fine thing for our +girls!" + +"How so? How can it affect them?" + +"My dear Mr. Bennet," replied his wife, "how can you be so +tiresome! You must know that I am thinking of his marrying +one of them." + +"Is that his design in settling here?" + +"Design! Nonsense, how can you talk so! But it is very likely +that he _may_ fall in love with one of them, and therefore you +must visit him as soon as he comes." + +"I see no occasion for that. You and the girls may go, or you +may send them by themselves, which perhaps will be still +better, for as you are as handsome as any of them, Mr. Bingley +may like you the best of the party." + +"My dear, you flatter me. I certainly _have_ had my share of +beauty, but I do not pretend to be anything extraordinary now. +When a woman has five grown-up daughters, she ought to give +over thinking of her own beauty." + +"In such cases, a woman has not often much beauty to think of." + +"But, my dear, you must indeed go and see Mr. Bingley when +he comes into the neighbourhood." + +"It is more than I engage for, I assure you." + +"But consider your daughters. Only think what an establishment +it would be for one of them. Sir William and Lady Lucas are +determined to go, merely on that account, for in general, you +know, they visit no newcomers. Indeed you must go, for it will +be impossible for _us_ to visit him if you do not." + +"You are over-scrupulous, surely. I dare say Mr. Bingley will +be very glad to see you; and I will send a few lines by you to +assure him of my hearty consent to his marrying whichever he +chooses of the girls; though I must throw in a good word for +my little Lizzy." + +"I desire you will do no such thing. Lizzy is not a bit better +than the others; and I am sure she is not half so handsome as +Jane, nor half so good-humoured as Lydia. But you are always +giving _her_ the preference." + +"They have none of them much to recommend them," replied he; +"they are all silly and ignorant like other girls; but Lizzy +has something more of quickness than her sisters." + +"Mr. Bennet, how _can_ you abuse your own children in such a +way? You take delight in vexing me. You have no compassion +for my poor nerves." + +"You mistake me, my dear. I have a high respect for your +nerves. They are my old friends. I have heard you mention +them with consideration these last twenty years at least." + +Mr. Bennet was so odd a mixture of quick parts, sarcastic humour, +reserve, and caprice, that the experience of three-and-twenty +years had been insufficient to make his wife understand his +character. _Her_ mind was less difficult to develop. She was a +woman of mean understanding, little information, and uncertain +temper. When she was discontented, she fancied herself nervous. +The business of her life was to get her daughters married; its +solace was visiting and news. + + + +Chapter 2 + + +Mr. Bennet was among the earliest of those who waited on Mr. +Bingley. He had always intended to visit him, though to the last +always assuring his wife that he should not go; and till the +evening after the visit was paid she had no knowledge of it. +It was then disclosed in the following manner. Observing his +second daughter employed in trimming a hat, he suddenly +addressed her with: + +"I hope Mr. Bingley will like it, Lizzy." + +"We are not in a way to know _what_ Mr. Bingley likes," said +her mother resentfully, "since we are not to visit." + +"But you forget, mamma," said Elizabeth, "that we shall meet +him at the assemblies, and that Mrs. Long promised to introduce +him." + +"I do not believe Mrs. Long will do any such thing. She has two +nieces of her own. She is a selfish, hypocritical woman, and I +have no opinion of her." + +"No more have I," said Mr. Bennet; "and I am glad to find that +you do not depend on her serving you." + +Mrs. Bennet deigned not to make any reply, but, unable to +contain herself, began scolding one of her daughters. + +"Don't keep coughing so, Kitty, for Heaven's sake! Have a little +compassion on my nerves. You tear them to pieces." + +"Kitty has no discretion in her coughs," said her father; "she +times them ill." + +"I do not cough for my own amusement," replied Kitty fretfully. +"When is your next ball to be, Lizzy?" + +"To-morrow fortnight." + +"Aye, so it is," cried her mother, "and Mrs. Long does not come +back till the day before; so it will be impossible for her to +introduce him, for she will not know him herself." + +"Then, my dear, you may have the advantage of your friend, and +introduce Mr. Bingley to _her_." + +"Impossible, Mr. Bennet, impossible, when I am not acquainted +with him myself; how can you be so teasing?" + +"I honour your circumspection. A fortnight's acquaintance is +certainly very little. One cannot know what a man really is by +the end of a fortnight. But if _we_ do not venture somebody else +will; and after all, Mrs. Long and her daughters must stand their +chance; and, therefore, as she will think it an act of kindness, +if you decline the office, I will take it on myself." + +The girls stared at their father. Mrs. Bennet said only, +"Nonsense, nonsense!" + +"What can be the meaning of that emphatic exclamation?" cried +he. "Do you consider the forms of introduction, and the stress +that is laid on them, as nonsense? I cannot quite agree with +you _there_. What say you, Mary? For you are a young lady of +deep reflection, I know, and read great books and make extracts." + +Mary wished to say something sensible, but knew not how. + +"While Mary is adjusting her ideas," he continued, "let us return +to Mr. Bingley." + +"I am sick of Mr. Bingley," cried his wife. + +"I am sorry to hear _that_; but why did not you tell me that +before? If I had known as much this morning I certainly would +not have called on him. It is very unlucky; but as I have +actually paid the visit, we cannot escape the acquaintance now." + +The astonishment of the ladies was just what he wished; that of +Mrs. Bennet perhaps surpassing the rest; though, when the first +tumult of joy was over, she began to declare that it was what she +had expected all the while. + +"How good it was in you, my dear Mr. Bennet! But I knew I should +persuade you at last. I was sure you loved your girls too well +to neglect such an acquaintance. Well, how pleased I am! and it +is such a good joke, too, that you should have gone this morning +and never said a word about it till now." + +"Now, Kitty, you may cough as much as you choose," said Mr. +Bennet; and, as he spoke, he left the room, fatigued with the +raptures of his wife. + +"What an excellent father you have, girls!" said she, when the +door was shut. "I do not know how you will ever make him +amends for his kindness; or me, either, for that matter. At our +time of life it is not so pleasant, I can tell you, to be making +new acquaintances every day; but for your sakes, we would do +anything. Lydia, my love, though you _are_ the youngest, I dare +say Mr. Bingley will dance with you at the next ball." + +"Oh!" said Lydia stoutly, "I am not afraid; for though I _am_ the +youngest, I'm the tallest." + +The rest of the evening was spent in conjecturing how soon he +would return Mr. Bennet's visit, and determining when they +should ask him to dinner. + + + +Chapter 3 + + +Not all that Mrs. Bennet, however, with the assistance of her +five daughters, could ask on the subject, was sufficient to draw +from her husband any satisfactory description of Mr. Bingley. +They attacked him in various ways--with barefaced questions, +ingenious suppositions, and distant surmises; but he eluded the +skill of them all, and they were at last obliged to accept the +second-hand intelligence of their neighbour, Lady Lucas. Her +report was highly favourable. Sir William had been delighted +with him. He was quite young, wonderfully handsome, extremely +agreeable, and, to crown the whole, he meant to be at the next +assembly with a large party. Nothing could be more delightful! +To be fond of dancing was a certain step towards falling in love; +and very lively hopes of Mr. Bingley's heart were entertained. + +"If I can but see one of my daughters happily settled at +Netherfield," said Mrs. Bennet to her husband, "and all the +others equally well married, I shall have nothing to wish for." + +In a few days Mr. Bingley returned Mr. Bennet's visit, and sat +about ten minutes with him in his library. He had entertained +hopes of being admitted to a sight of the young ladies, of +whose beauty he had heard much; but he saw only the father. +The ladies were somewhat more fortunate, for they had the +advantage of ascertaining from an upper window that he wore +a blue coat, and rode a black horse. + +An invitation to dinner was soon afterwards dispatched; and +already had Mrs. Bennet planned the courses that were to do +credit to her housekeeping, when an answer arrived which +deferred it all. Mr. Bingley was obliged to be in town the +following day, and, consequently, unable to accept the honour +of their invitation, etc. Mrs. Bennet was quite disconcerted. +She could not imagine what business he could have in town so +soon after his arrival in Hertfordshire; and she began to fear +that he might be always flying about from one place to another, +and never settled at Netherfield as he ought to be. Lady Lucas +quieted her fears a little by starting the idea of his being gone +to London only to get a large party for the ball; and a report +soon followed that Mr. Bingley was to bring twelve ladies and +seven gentlemen with him to the assembly. The girls grieved +over such a number of ladies, but were comforted the day +before the ball by hearing, that instead of twelve he brought +only six with him from London--his five sisters and a cousin. +And when the party entered the assembly room it consisted of +only five altogether--Mr. Bingley, his two sisters, the husband +of the eldest, and another young man. + +Mr. Bingley was good-looking and gentlemanlike; he had a pleasant +countenance, and easy, unaffected manners. His sisters were fine +women, with an air of decided fashion. His brother-in-law, Mr. +Hurst, merely looked the gentleman; but his friend Mr. Darcy soon +drew the attention of the room by his fine, tall person, handsome +features, noble mien, and the report which was in general +circulation within five minutes after his entrance, of his having +ten thousand a year. The gentlemen pronounced him to be a fine +figure of a man, the ladies declared he was much handsomer than +Mr. Bingley, and he was looked at with great admiration for about +half the evening, till his manners gave a disgust which turned +the tide of his popularity; for he was discovered to be proud; +to be above his company, and above being pleased; and not all his +large estate in Derbyshire could then save him from having a most +forbidding, disagreeable countenance, and being unworthy to be +compared with his friend. + +Mr. Bingley had soon made himself acquainted with all the +principal people in the room; he was lively and unreserved, +danced every dance, was angry that the ball closed so early, +and talked of giving one himself at Netherfield. Such amiable +qualities must speak for themselves. What a contrast between +him and his friend! Mr. Darcy danced only once with Mrs. Hurst +and once with Miss Bingley, declined being introduced to any +other lady, and spent the rest of the evening in walking about +the room, speaking occasionally to one of his own party. His +character was decided. He was the proudest, most disagreeable +man in the world, and everybody hoped that he would never come +there again. Amongst the most violent against him was Mrs. +Bennet, whose dislike of his general behaviour was sharpened +into particular resentment by his having slighted one of her +daughters. + +Elizabeth Bennet had been obliged, by the scarcity of gentlemen, +to sit down for two dances; and during part of that time, +Mr. Darcy had been standing near enough for her to hear a +conversation between him and Mr. Bingley, who came from the +dance for a few minutes, to press his friend to join it. + +"Come, Darcy," said he, "I must have you dance. I hate to see +you standing about by yourself in this stupid manner. You had +much better dance." + +"I certainly shall not. You know how I detest it, unless I am +particularly acquainted with my partner. At such an assembly as +this it would be insupportable. Your sisters are engaged, and +there is not another woman in the room whom it would not be a +punishment to me to stand up with." + +"I would not be so fastidious as you are," cried Mr. Bingley, +"for a kingdom! Upon my honour, I never met with so many +pleasant girls in my life as I have this evening; and there are +several of them you see uncommonly pretty." + +"_You_ are dancing with the only handsome girl in the room," +said Mr. Darcy, looking at the eldest Miss Bennet. + +"Oh! She is the most beautiful creature I ever beheld! But +there is one of her sisters sitting down just behind you, who is +very pretty, and I dare say very agreeable. Do let me ask my +partner to introduce you." + +"Which do you mean?" and turning round he looked for a +moment at Elizabeth, till catching her eye, he withdrew his own +and coldly said: "She is tolerable, but not handsome enough to +tempt _me_; I am in no humour at present to give consequence +to young ladies who are slighted by other men. You had better +return to your partner and enjoy her smiles, for you are wasting +your time with me." + +Mr. Bingley followed his advice. Mr. Darcy walked off; and +Elizabeth remained with no very cordial feelings toward him. +She told the story, however, with great spirit among her friends; +for she had a lively, playful disposition, which delighted in +anything ridiculous. + +The evening altogether passed off pleasantly to the whole +family. Mrs. Bennet had seen her eldest daughter much +admired by the Netherfield party. Mr. Bingley had danced with +her twice, and she had been distinguished by his sisters. Jane +was as much gratified by this as her mother could be, though in +a quieter way. Elizabeth felt Jane's pleasure. Mary had heard +herself mentioned to Miss Bingley as the most accomplished +girl in the neighbourhood; and Catherine and Lydia had been +fortunate enough never to be without partners, which was all +that they had yet learnt to care for at a ball. They returned, +therefore, in good spirits to Longbourn, the village where they +lived, and of which they were the principal inhabitants. They +found Mr. Bennet still up. With a book he was regardless of +time; and on the present occasion he had a good deal of +curiosity as to the events of an evening which had raised such +splendid expectations. He had rather hoped that his wife's +views on the stranger would be disappointed; but he soon +found out that he had a different story to hear. + +"Oh! my dear Mr. Bennet," as she entered the room, "we have +had a most delightful evening, a most excellent ball. I wish you +had been there. Jane was so admired, nothing could be like it. +Everybody said how well she looked; and Mr. Bingley thought +her quite beautiful, and danced with her twice! Only think of +_that_, my dear; he actually danced with her twice! and she was +the only creature in the room that he asked a second time. +First of all, he asked Miss Lucas. I was so vexed to see him +stand up with her! But, however, he did not admire her at all; +indeed, nobody can, you know; and he seemed quite struck with +Jane as she was going down the dance. So he inquired who she +was, and got introduced, and asked her for the two next. Then +the two third he danced with Miss King, and the two fourth with +Maria Lucas, and the two fifth with Jane again, and the two +sixth with Lizzy, and the _Boulanger_--" + +"If he had had any compassion for _me_," cried her husband +impatiently, "he would not have danced half so much! For God's +sake, say no more of his partners. O that he had sprained +his ankle in the first place!" + +"Oh! my dear, I am quite delighted with him. He is so +excessively handsome! And his sisters are charming women. +I never in my life saw anything more elegant than their dresses. +I dare say the lace upon Mrs. Hurst's gown--" + +Here she was interrupted again. Mr. Bennet protested against +any description of finery. She was therefore obliged to seek +another branch of the subject, and related, with much bitterness +of spirit and some exaggeration, the shocking rudeness of Mr. +Darcy. + +"But I can assure you," she added, "that Lizzy does not lose +much by not suiting _his_ fancy; for he is a most disagreeable, +horrid man, not at all worth pleasing. So high and so conceited +that there was no enduring him! He walked here, and he walked +there, fancying himself so very great! Not handsome enough to +dance with! I wish you had been there, my dear, to have given +him one of your set-downs. I quite detest the man." + + + +Chapter 4 + + +When Jane and Elizabeth were alone, the former, who had been +cautious in her praise of Mr. Bingley before, expressed to her +sister just how very much she admired him. + +"He is just what a young man ought to be," said she, "sensible, +good-humoured, lively; and I never saw such happy manners!--so +much ease, with such perfect good breeding!" + +"He is also handsome," replied Elizabeth, "which a young man +ought likewise to be, if he possibly can. His character is thereby +complete." + +"I was very much flattered by his asking me to dance a second +time. I did not expect such a compliment." + +"Did not you? I did for you. But that is one great difference +between us. Compliments always take _you_ by surprise, and +_me_ never. What could be more natural than his asking you +again? He could not help seeing that you were about five times +as pretty as every other woman in the room. No thanks to his +gallantry for that. Well, he certainly is very agreeable, and I +give you leave to like him. You have liked many a stupider +person." + +"Dear Lizzy!" + +"Oh! you are a great deal too apt, you know, to like people in +general. You never see a fault in anybody. All the world are +good and agreeable in your eyes. I never heard you speak ill of +a human being in your life." + +"I would not wish to be hasty in censuring anyone; but I always +speak what I think." + +"I know you do; and it is _that_ which makes the wonder. With _your_ +good sense, to be so honestly blind to the follies and nonsense +of others! Affectation of candour is common enough--one meets +with it everywhere. But to be candid without ostentation or +design--to take the good of everybody's character and make it +still better, and say nothing of the bad--belongs to you alone. +And so you like this man's sisters, too, do you? Their manners +are not equal to his." + +"Certainly not--at first. But they are very pleasing women when +you converse with them. Miss Bingley is to live with her +brother, and keep his house; and I am much mistaken if we shall +not find a very charming neighbour in her." + +Elizabeth listened in silence, but was not convinced; their +behaviour at the assembly had not been calculated to please in +general; and with more quickness of observation and less pliancy +of temper than her sister, and with a judgement too unassailed by +any attention to herself, she was very little disposed to approve +them. They were in fact very fine ladies; not deficient in good +humour when they were pleased, nor in the power of making +themselves agreeable when they chose it, but proud and +conceited. They were rather handsome, had been educated in +one of the first private seminaries in town, had a fortune of +twenty thousand pounds, were in the habit of spending more +than they ought, and of associating with people of rank, and +were therefore in every respect entitled to think well of +themselves, and meanly of others. They were of a respectable +family in the north of England; a circumstance more deeply +impressed on their memories than that their brother's fortune +and their own had been acquired by trade. + +Mr. Bingley inherited property to the amount of nearly a +hundred thousand pounds from his father, who had intended to +purchase an estate, but did not live to do it. Mr. Bingley +intended it likewise, and sometimes made choice of his county; +but as he was now provided with a good house and the liberty of +a manor, it was doubtful to many of those who best knew the +easiness of his temper, whether he might not spend the +remainder of his days at Netherfield, and leave the next +generation to purchase. + +His sisters were anxious for his having an estate of his own; but, +though he was now only established as a tenant, Miss Bingley +was by no means unwilling to preside at his table--nor was Mrs. +Hurst, who had married a man of more fashion than fortune, less +disposed to consider his house as her home when it suited her. +Mr. Bingley had not been of age two years, when he was tempted +by an accidental recommendation to look at Netherfield House. +He did look at it, and into it for half-an-hour--was pleased with +the situation and the principal rooms, satisfied with what the +owner said in its praise, and took it immediately. + +Between him and Darcy there was a very steady friendship, in +spite of great opposition of character. Bingley was endeared to +Darcy by the easiness, openness, and ductility of his temper, +though no disposition could offer a greater contrast to his own, +and though with his own he never appeared dissatisfied. On the +strength of Darcy's regard, Bingley had the firmest reliance, and +of his judgement the highest opinion. In understanding, Darcy +was the superior. Bingley was by no means deficient, but Darcy +was clever. He was at the same time haughty, reserved, and +fastidious, and his manners, though well-bred, were not inviting. +In that respect his friend had greatly the advantage. Bingley was +sure of being liked wherever he appeared, Darcy was continually +giving offense. + +The manner in which they spoke of the Meryton assembly was +sufficiently characteristic. Bingley had never met with more +pleasant people or prettier girls in his life; everybody had been +most kind and attentive to him; there had been no formality, no +stiffness; he had soon felt acquainted with all the room; and, as +to Miss Bennet, he could not conceive an angel more beautiful. +Darcy, on the contrary, had seen a collection of people in whom +there was little beauty and no fashion, for none of whom he had +felt the smallest interest, and from none received either attention +or pleasure. Miss Bennet he acknowledged to be pretty, but she +smiled too much. + +Mrs. Hurst and her sister allowed it to be so--but still they +admired her and liked her, and pronounced her to be a sweet +girl, and one whom they would not object to know more of. +Miss Bennet was therefore established as a sweet girl, and their +brother felt authorized by such commendation to think of her as +he chose. + + + +Chapter 5 + + +Within a short walk of Longbourn lived a family with whom +the Bennets were particularly intimate. Sir William Lucas +had been formerly in trade in Meryton, where he had made a +tolerable fortune, and risen to the honour of knighthood by an +address to the king during his mayoralty. The distinction had +perhaps been felt too strongly. It had given him a disgust +to his business, and to his residence in a small market town; +and, in quitting them both, he had removed with his family +to a house about a mile from Meryton, denominated from that +period Lucas Lodge, where he could think with pleasure of his +own importance, and, unshackled by business, occupy himself +solely in being civil to all the world. For, though elated by his +rank, it did not render him supercilious; on the contrary, he was +all attention to everybody. By nature inoffensive, friendly, and +obliging, his presentation at St. James's had made him courteous. + +Lady Lucas was a very good kind of woman, not too clever to +be a valuable neighbour to Mrs. Bennet. They had several +children. The eldest of them, a sensible, intelligent young +woman, about twenty-seven, was Elizabeth's intimate friend. + +That the Miss Lucases and the Miss Bennets should meet to +talk over a ball was absolutely necessary; and the morning after +the assembly brought the former to Longbourn to hear and to +communicate. + +"_You_ began the evening well, Charlotte," said Mrs. Bennet with +civil self-command to Miss Lucas. "_You_ were Mr. Bingley's +first choice." + +"Yes; but he seemed to like his second better." + +"Oh! you mean Jane, I suppose, because he danced with her +twice. To be sure that _did_ seem as if he admired her--indeed +I rather believe he _did_--I heard something about it--but I +hardly know what--something about Mr. Robinson." + +"Perhaps you mean what I overheard between him and Mr. Robinson; +did not I mention it to you? Mr. Robinson's asking him how he +liked our Meryton assemblies, and whether he did not think there +were a great many pretty women in the room, and _which_ he thought +the prettiest? and his answering immediately to the last +question: 'Oh! the eldest Miss Bennet, beyond a doubt; there +cannot be two opinions on that point.'" + +"Upon my word! Well, that is very decided indeed--that does +seem as if--but, however, it may all come to nothing, you know." + +"_My_ overhearings were more to the purpose than _yours_, Eliza," +said Charlotte. "Mr. Darcy is not so well worth listening to +as his friend, is he?--poor Eliza!--to be only just _tolerable_." + +"I beg you would not put it into Lizzy's head to be vexed by +his ill-treatment, for he is such a disagreeable man, that it +would be quite a misfortune to be liked by him. Mrs. Long +told me last night that he sat close to her for half-an-hour +without once opening his lips." + +"Are you quite sure, ma'am?--is not there a little mistake?" +said Jane. "I certainly saw Mr. Darcy speaking to her." + +"Aye--because she asked him at last how he liked Netherfield, +and he could not help answering her; but she said he seemed +quite angry at being spoke to." + +"Miss Bingley told me," said Jane, "that he never speaks much, +unless among his intimate acquaintances. With _them_ he is +remarkably agreeable." + +"I do not believe a word of it, my dear. If he had been so very +agreeable, he would have talked to Mrs. Long. But I can guess +how it was; everybody says that he is eat up with pride, and I +dare say he had heard somehow that Mrs. Long does not keep +a carriage, and had come to the ball in a hack chaise." + +"I do not mind his not talking to Mrs. Long," said Miss Lucas, +"but I wish he had danced with Eliza." + +"Another time, Lizzy," said her mother, "I would not dance +with _him_, if I were you." + +"I believe, ma'am, I may safely promise you _never_ to dance +with him." + +"His pride," said Miss Lucas, "does not offend _me_ so much as +pride often does, because there is an excuse for it. One cannot +wonder that so very fine a young man, with family, fortune, +everything in his favour, should think highly of himself. If I +may so express it, he has a _right_ to be proud." + +"That is very true," replied Elizabeth, "and I could easily +forgive _his_ pride, if he had not mortified _mine_." + +"Pride," observed Mary, who piqued herself upon the solidity +of her reflections, "is a very common failing, I believe. By +all that I have ever read, I am convinced that it is very common +indeed; that human nature is particularly prone to it, and +that there are very few of us who do not cherish a feeling of +self-complacency on the score of some quality or other, real +or imaginary. Vanity and pride are different things, though +the words are often used synonymously. A person may be proud +without being vain. Pride relates more to our opinion of +ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us." + +"If I were as rich as Mr. Darcy," cried a young Lucas, who +came with his sisters, "I should not care how proud I was. I +would keep a pack of foxhounds, and drink a bottle of wine a +day." + +"Then you would drink a great deal more than you ought," said +Mrs. Bennet; "and if I were to see you at it, I should take away +your bottle directly." + +The boy protested that she should not; she continued to declare +that she would, and the argument ended only with the visit. + + + +Chapter 6 + + +The ladies of Longbourn soon waited on those of Netherfield. +The visit was soon returned in due form. Miss Bennet's +pleasing manners grew on the goodwill of Mrs. Hurst and Miss +Bingley; and though the mother was found to be intolerable, +and the younger sisters not worth speaking to, a wish of +being better acquainted with _them_ was expressed towards +the two eldest. By Jane, this attention was received with the +greatest pleasure, but Elizabeth still saw superciliousness in +their treatment of everybody, hardly excepting even her sister, +and could not like them; though their kindness to Jane, such as it +was, had a value as arising in all probability from the influence +of their brother's admiration. It was generally evident +whenever they met, that he _did_ admire her and to _her_ it was +equally evident that Jane was yielding to the preference which +she had begun to entertain for him from the first, and was in a +way to be very much in love; but she considered with pleasure +that it was not likely to be discovered by the world in general, +since Jane united, with great strength of feeling, a composure +of temper and a uniform cheerfulness of manner which would +guard her from the suspicions of the impertinent. She +mentioned this to her friend Miss Lucas. + +"It may perhaps be pleasant," replied Charlotte, "to be able to +impose on the public in such a case; but it is sometimes a +disadvantage to be so very guarded. If a woman conceals her +affection with the same skill from the object of it, she may lose +the opportunity of fixing him; and it will then be but poor +consolation to believe the world equally in the dark. There is +so much of gratitude or vanity in almost every attachment, that +it is not safe to leave any to itself. We can all _begin_ freely--a +slight preference is natural enough; but there are very few of us +who have heart enough to be really in love without encouragement. +In nine cases out of ten a women had better show _more_ affection +than she feels. Bingley likes your sister undoubtedly; but he +may never do more than like her, if she does not help him on." + +"But she does help him on, as much as her nature will allow. +If I can perceive her regard for him, he must be a simpleton, +indeed, not to discover it too." + +"Remember, Eliza, that he does not know Jane's disposition as +you do." + +"But if a woman is partial to a man, and does not endeavour to +conceal it, he must find it out." + +"Perhaps he must, if he sees enough of her. But, though +Bingley and Jane meet tolerably often, it is never for many +hours together; and, as they always see each other in large +mixed parties, it is impossible that every moment should be +employed in conversing together. Jane should therefore make +the most of every half-hour in which she can command his +attention. When she is secure of him, there will be more leisure +for falling in love as much as she chooses." + +"Your plan is a good one," replied Elizabeth, "where nothing is +in question but the desire of being well married, and if I were +determined to get a rich husband, or any husband, I dare say I +should adopt it. But these are not Jane's feelings; she is not +acting by design. As yet, she cannot even be certain of the +degree of her own regard nor of its reasonableness. She has +known him only a fortnight. She danced four dances with him +at Meryton; she saw him one morning at his own house, and +has since dined with him in company four times. This is not +quite enough to make her understand his character." + +"Not as you represent it. Had she merely _dined_ with him, she +might only have discovered whether he had a good appetite; but +you must remember that four evenings have also been spent +together--and four evenings may do a great deal." + +"Yes; these four evenings have enabled them to ascertain that +they both like Vingt-un better than Commerce; but with respect +to any other leading characteristic, I do not imagine that much +has been unfolded." + +"Well," said Charlotte, "I wish Jane success with all my heart; +and if she were married to him to-morrow, I should think she +had as good a chance of happiness as if she were to be studying +his character for a twelvemonth. Happiness in marriage is +entirely a matter of chance. If the dispositions of the parties +are ever so well known to each other or ever so similar beforehand, +it does not advance their felicity in the least. They always +continue to grow sufficiently unlike afterwards to have their +share of vexation; and it is better to know as little as possible +of the defects of the person with whom you are to pass your life." + +"You make me laugh, Charlotte; but it is not sound. You know +it is not sound, and that you would never act in this way +yourself." + +Occupied in observing Mr. Bingley's attentions to her sister, +Elizabeth was far from suspecting that she was herself becoming +an object of some interest in the eyes of his friend. Mr. Darcy +had at first scarcely allowed her to be pretty; he had looked at +her without admiration at the ball; and when they next met, he +looked at her only to criticise. But no sooner had he made it +clear to himself and his friends that she hardly had a good feature +in her face, than he began to find it was rendered uncommonly +intelligent by the beautiful expression of her dark eyes. To this +discovery succeeded some others equally mortifying. Though he +had detected with a critical eye more than one failure of perfect +symmetry in her form, he was forced to acknowledge her figure +to be light and pleasing; and in spite of his asserting that her +manners were not those of the fashionable world, he was caught +by their easy playfulness. Of this she was perfectly unaware; +to her he was only the man who made himself agreeable nowhere, +and who had not thought her handsome enough to dance with. + +He began to wish to know more of her, and as a step towards +conversing with her himself, attended to her conversation with +others. His doing so drew her notice. It was at Sir William +Lucas's, where a large party were assembled. + +"What does Mr. Darcy mean," said she to Charlotte, "by +listening to my conversation with Colonel Forster?" + +"That is a question which Mr. Darcy only can answer." + +"But if he does it any more I shall certainly let him know that I +see what he is about. He has a very satirical eye, and if I do not +begin by being impertinent myself, I shall soon grow afraid of +him." + +On his approaching them soon afterwards, though without +seeming to have any intention of speaking, Miss Lucas defied +her friend to mention such a subject to him; which immediately +provoking Elizabeth to do it, she turned to him and said: + +"Did you not think, Mr. Darcy, that I expressed myself +uncommonly well just now, when I was teasing Colonel Forster +to give us a ball at Meryton?" + +"With great energy; but it is always a subject which makes a lady +energetic." + +"You are severe on us." + +"It will be _her_ turn soon to be teased," said Miss Lucas. "I +am going to open the instrument, Eliza, and you know what +follows." + +"You are a very strange creature by way of a friend!--always +wanting me to play and sing before anybody and everybody! +If my vanity had taken a musical turn, you would have been +invaluable; but as it is, I would really rather not sit down +before those who must be in the habit of hearing the very best +performers." On Miss Lucas's persevering, however, she added, +"Very well, if it must be so, it must." And gravely glancing at +Mr. Darcy, "There is a fine old saying, which everybody here is of +course familiar with: 'Keep your breath to cool your porridge'; +and I shall keep mine to swell my song." + +Her performance was pleasing, though by no means capital. +After a song or two, and before she could reply to the entreaties +of several that she would sing again, she was eagerly succeeded +at the instrument by her sister Mary, who having, in consequence +of being the only plain one in the family, worked hard for +knowledge and accomplishments, was always impatient for +display. + +Mary had neither genius nor taste; and though vanity had given +her application, it had given her likewise a pedantic air and +conceited manner, which would have injured a higher degree of +excellence than she had reached. Elizabeth, easy and unaffected, +had been listened to with much more pleasure, though not +playing half so well; and Mary, at the end of a long concerto, +was glad to purchase praise and gratitude by Scotch and Irish +airs, at the request of her younger sisters, who, with some of the +Lucases, and two or three officers, joined eagerly in dancing at +one end of the room. + +Mr. Darcy stood near them in silent indignation at such a mode +of passing the evening, to the exclusion of all conversation, and +was too much engrossed by his thoughts to perceive that Sir +William Lucas was his neighbour, till Sir William thus began: + +"What a charming amusement for young people this is, Mr. Darcy! +There is nothing like dancing after all. I consider it as one +of the first refinements of polished society." + +"Certainly, sir; and it has the advantage also of being in vogue +amongst the less polished societies of the world. Every savage +can dance." + +Sir William only smiled. "Your friend performs delightfully," he +continued after a pause, on seeing Bingley join the group; "and I +doubt not that you are an adept in the science yourself, Mr. +Darcy." + +"You saw me dance at Meryton, I believe, sir." + +"Yes, indeed, and received no inconsiderable pleasure from the +sight. Do you often dance at St. James's?" + +"Never, sir." + +"Do you not think it would be a proper compliment to the +place?" + +"It is a compliment which I never pay to any place if I can +avoid it." + +"You have a house in town, I conclude?" + +Mr. Darcy bowed. + +"I had once had some thought of fixing in town myself--for I am +fond of superior society; but I did not feel quite certain that the +air of London would agree with Lady Lucas." + +He paused in hopes of an answer; but his companion was not +disposed to make any; and Elizabeth at that instant moving +towards them, he was struck with the action of doing a very +gallant thing, and called out to her: + +"My dear Miss Eliza, why are you not dancing? Mr. Darcy, you +must allow me to present this young lady to you as a very +desirable partner. You cannot refuse to dance, I am sure when +so much beauty is before you." And, taking her hand, he would +have given it to Mr. Darcy who, though extremely surprised, +was not unwilling to receive it, when she instantly drew back, +and said with some discomposure to Sir William: + +"Indeed, sir, I have not the least intention of dancing. I entreat +you not to suppose that I moved this way in order to beg for a +partner." + +Mr. Darcy, with grave propriety, requested to be allowed the +honour of her hand, but in vain. Elizabeth was determined; nor +did Sir William at all shake her purpose by his attempt at +persuasion. + +"You excel so much in the dance, Miss Eliza, that it is cruel to +deny me the happiness of seeing you; and though this gentleman +dislikes the amusement in general, he can have no objection, I +am sure, to oblige us for one half-hour." + +"Mr. Darcy is all politeness," said Elizabeth, smiling. + +"He is, indeed; but, considering the inducement, my dear Miss +Eliza, we cannot wonder at his complaisance--for who would +object to such a partner?" + +Elizabeth looked archly, and turned away. Her resistance had +not injured her with the gentleman, and he was thinking of her +with some complacency, when thus accosted by Miss Bingley: + +"I can guess the subject of your reverie." + +"I should imagine not." + +"You are considering how insupportable it would be to pass many +evenings in this manner--in such society; and indeed I am quite +of your opinion. I was never more annoyed! The insipidity, and +yet the noise--the nothingness, and yet the self-importance of all +those people! What would I give to hear your strictures on them!" + +"You conjecture is totally wrong, I assure you. My mind was +more agreeably engaged. I have been meditating on the very +great pleasure which a pair of fine eyes in the face of a pretty +woman can bestow." + +Miss Bingley immediately fixed her eyes on his face, and desired +he would tell her what lady had the credit of inspiring such +reflections. Mr. Darcy replied with great intrepidity: + +"Miss Elizabeth Bennet." + +"Miss Elizabeth Bennet!" repeated Miss Bingley. "I am all +astonishment. How long has she been such a favourite?--and +pray, when am I to wish you joy?" + +"That is exactly the question which I expected you to ask. A +lady's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from admiration to +love, from love to matrimony, in a moment. I knew you would +be wishing me joy." + +"Nay, if you are serious about it, I shall consider the matter is +absolutely settled. You will be having a charming mother-in-law, +indeed; and, of course, she will always be at Pemberley with you." + +He listened to her with perfect indifference while she chose to +entertain herself in this manner; and as his composure convinced +her that all was safe, her wit flowed long. + + + +Chapter 7 + + +Mr. Bennet's property consisted almost entirely in an estate of +two thousand a year, which, unfortunately for his daughters, was +entailed, in default of heirs male, on a distant relation; and their +mother's fortune, though ample for her situation in life, could +but ill supply the deficiency of his. Her father had been an +attorney in Meryton, and had left her four thousand pounds. + +She had a sister married to a Mr. Phillips, who had been a clerk +to their father and succeeded him in the business, and a brother +settled in London in a respectable line of trade. + +The village of Longbourn was only one mile from Meryton; a +most convenient distance for the young ladies, who were usually +tempted thither three or four times a week, to pay their duty to +their aunt and to a milliner's shop just over the way. The two +youngest of the family, Catherine and Lydia, were particularly +frequent in these attentions; their minds were more vacant than +their sisters', and when nothing better offered, a walk to +Meryton was necessary to amuse their morning hours and +furnish conversation for the evening; and however bare of news +the country in general might be, they always contrived to learn +some from their aunt. At present, indeed, they were well +supplied both with news and happiness by the recent arrival of +a militia regiment in the neighbourhood; it was to remain the +whole winter, and Meryton was the headquarters. + +Their visits to Mrs. Phillips were now productive of the most +interesting intelligence. Every day added something to their +knowledge of the officers' names and connections. Their +lodgings were not long a secret, and at length they began to +know the officers themselves. Mr. Phillips visited them all, and +this opened to his nieces a store of felicity unknown before. +They could talk of nothing but officers; and Mr. Bingley's large +fortune, the mention of which gave animation to their mother, +was worthless in their eyes when opposed to the regimentals of +an ensign. + +After listening one morning to their effusions on this subject, Mr. +Bennet coolly observed: + +"From all that I can collect by your manner of talking, you must +be two of the silliest girls in the country. I have suspected it +some time, but I am now convinced." + +Catherine was disconcerted, and made no answer; but Lydia, +with perfect indifference, continued to express her admiration of +Captain Carter, and her hope of seeing him in the course of the +day, as he was going the next morning to London. + +"I am astonished, my dear," said Mrs. Bennet, "that you should +be so ready to think your own children silly. If I wished to think +slightingly of anybody's children, it should not be of my own, +however." + +"If my children are silly, I must hope to be always sensible of it." + +"Yes--but as it happens, they are all of them very clever." + +"This is the only point, I flatter myself, on which we do not +agree. I had hoped that our sentiments coincided in every +particular, but I must so far differ from you as to think our two +youngest daughters uncommonly foolish." + +"My dear Mr. Bennet, you must not expect such girls to have +the sense of their father and mother. When they get to our age, I +dare say they will not think about officers any more than we do. +I remember the time when I liked a red coat myself very well--and, +indeed, so I do still at my heart; and if a smart young colonel, +with five or six thousand a year, should want one of my girls I +shall not say nay to him; and I thought Colonel Forster looked +very becoming the other night at Sir William's in his regimentals." + +"Mamma," cried Lydia, "my aunt says that Colonel Forster and +Captain Carter do not go so often to Miss Watson's as they did +when they first came; she sees them now very often standing in +Clarke's library." + +Mrs. Bennet was prevented replying by the entrance of the +footman with a note for Miss Bennet; it came from Netherfield, +and the servant waited for an answer. Mrs. Bennet's eyes +sparkled with pleasure, and she was eagerly calling out, while +her daughter read, + +"Well, Jane, who is it from? What is it about? What does he +say? Well, Jane, make haste and tell us; make haste, my love." + +"It is from Miss Bingley," said Jane, and then read it aloud. + +"MY DEAR FRIEND,-- + +"If you are not so compassionate as to dine to-day with Louisa +and me, we shall be in danger of hating each other for the rest +of our lives, for a whole day's tete-a-tete between two women +can never end without a quarrel. Come as soon as you can on +receipt of this. My brother and the gentlemen are to dine with +the officers.--Yours ever, + +"CAROLINE BINGLEY" + +"With the officers!" cried Lydia. "I wonder my aunt did not tell +us of _that_." + +"Dining out," said Mrs. Bennet, "that is very unlucky." + +"Can I have the carriage?" said Jane. + +"No, my dear, you had better go on horseback, because it seems +likely to rain; and then you must stay all night." + +"That would be a good scheme," said Elizabeth, "if you were +sure that they would not offer to send her home." + +"Oh! but the gentlemen will have Mr. Bingley's chaise to go to +Meryton, and the Hursts have no horses to theirs." + +"I had much rather go in the coach." + +"But, my dear, your father cannot spare the horses, I am sure. +They are wanted in the farm, Mr. Bennet, are they not?" + +"They are wanted in the farm much oftener than I can get them." + +"But if you have got them to-day," said Elizabeth, "my mother's +purpose will be answered." + +She did at last extort from her father an acknowledgment that +the horses were engaged. Jane was therefore obliged to go on +horseback, and her mother attended her to the door with many +cheerful prognostics of a bad day. Her hopes were answered; +Jane had not been gone long before it rained hard. Her sisters +were uneasy for her, but her mother was delighted. The rain +continued the whole evening without intermission; Jane certainly +could not come back. + +"This was a lucky idea of mine, indeed!" said Mrs. Bennet more +than once, as if the credit of making it rain were all her own. Till +the next morning, however, she was not aware of all the felicity +of her contrivance. Breakfast was scarcely over when a servant +from Netherfield brought the following note for Elizabeth: + +"MY DEAREST LIZZY,-- + +"I find myself very unwell this morning, which, I suppose, is to +be imputed to my getting wet through yesterday. My kind friends +will not hear of my returning till I am better. They insist also +on my seeing Mr. Jones--therefore do not be alarmed if you should +hear of his having been to me--and, excepting a sore throat and +headache, there is not much the matter with me.--Yours, etc." + +"Well, my dear," said Mr. Bennet, when Elizabeth had read the +note aloud, "if your daughter should have a dangerous fit of +illness--if she should die, it would be a comfort to know that it +was all in pursuit of Mr. Bingley, and under your orders." + +"Oh! I am not afraid of her dying. People do not die of little +trifling colds. She will be taken good care of. As long as she +stays there, it is all very well. I would go and see her if I could +have the carriage." + +Elizabeth, feeling really anxious, was determined to go to her, +though the carriage was not to be had; and as she was no +horsewoman, walking was her only alternative. She declared her +resolution. + +"How can you be so silly," cried her mother, "as to think of such +a thing, in all this dirt! You will not be fit to be seen when you +get there." + +"I shall be very fit to see Jane--which is all I want." + +"Is this a hint to me, Lizzy," said her father, "to send for +the horses?" + +"No, indeed, I do not wish to avoid the walk. The distance is +nothing when one has a motive; only three miles. I shall be back +by dinner." + +"I admire the activity of your benevolence," observed Mary, "but +every impulse of feeling should be guided by reason; and, in my +opinion, exertion should always be in proportion to what is +required." + +"We will go as far as Meryton with you," said Catherine and +Lydia. Elizabeth accepted their company, and the three young +ladies set off together. + +"If we make haste," said Lydia, as they walked along, "perhaps +we may see something of Captain Carter before he goes." + +In Meryton they parted; the two youngest repaired to the lodgings of +one of the officers' wives, and Elizabeth continued her walk alone, +crossing field after field at a quick pace, jumping over stiles +and springing over puddles with impatient activity, and finding +herself at last within view of the house, with weary ankles, dirty +stockings, and a face glowing with the warmth of exercise. + +She was shown into the breakfast-parlour, where all but Jane +were assembled, and where her appearance created a great deal +of surprise. That she should have walked three miles so early +in the day, in such dirty weather, and by herself, was almost +incredible to Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley; and Elizabeth was +convinced that they held her in contempt for it. She was +received, however, very politely by them; and in their brother's +manners there was something better than politeness; there was +good humour and kindness. Mr. Darcy said very little, and Mr. +Hurst nothing at all. The former was divided between admiration +of the brilliancy which exercise had given to her complexion, +and doubt as to the occasion's justifying her coming so far +alone. The latter was thinking only of his breakfast. + +Her inquiries after her sister were not very favourably answered. +Miss Bennet had slept ill, and though up, was very feverish, and +not well enough to leave her room. Elizabeth was glad to be +taken to her immediately; and Jane, who had only been withheld +by the fear of giving alarm or inconvenience from expressing in +her note how much she longed for such a visit, was delighted at +her entrance. She was not equal, however, to much conversation, +and when Miss Bingley left them together, could attempt little +besides expressions of gratitude for the extraordinary kindness +she was treated with. Elizabeth silently attended her. + +When breakfast was over they were joined by the sisters; and +Elizabeth began to like them herself, when she saw how much +affection and solicitude they showed for Jane. The apothecary +came, and having examined his patient, said, as might be +supposed, that she had caught a violent cold, and that they must +endeavour to get the better of it; advised her to return to bed, +and promised her some draughts. The advice was followed +readily, for the feverish symptoms increased, and her head ached +acutely. Elizabeth did not quit her room for a moment; nor were +the other ladies often absent; the gentlemen being out, they had, +in fact, nothing to do elsewhere. + +When the clock struck three, Elizabeth felt that she must go, and +very unwillingly said so. Miss Bingley offered her the carriage, +and she only wanted a little pressing to accept it, when Jane +testified such concern in parting with her, that Miss Bingley was +obliged to convert the offer of the chaise to an invitation to +remain at Netherfield for the present. Elizabeth most thankfully +consented, and a servant was dispatched to Longbourn to +acquaint the family with her stay and bring back a supply of +clothes. + + + +Chapter 8 + + +At five o'clock the two ladies retired to dress, and at half-past +six Elizabeth was summoned to dinner. To the civil inquiries +which then poured in, and amongst which she had the pleasure +of distinguishing the much superior solicitude of Mr. Bingley's, +she could not make a very favourable answer. Jane was by no +means better. The sisters, on hearing this, repeated three or four +times how much they were grieved, how shocking it was to have +a bad cold, and how excessively they disliked being ill +themselves; and then thought no more of the matter: and their +indifference towards Jane when not immediately before them +restored Elizabeth to the enjoyment of all her former dislike. + +Their brother, indeed, was the only one of the party whom she +could regard with any complacency. His anxiety for Jane was +evident, and his attentions to herself most pleasing, and +they prevented her feeling herself so much an intruder as she +believed she was considered by the others. She had very little +notice from any but him. Miss Bingley was engrossed by Mr. +Darcy, her sister scarcely less so; and as for Mr. Hurst, by +whom Elizabeth sat, he was an indolent man, who lived only to +eat, drink, and play at cards; who, when he found her to prefer +a plain dish to a ragout, had nothing to say to her. + +When dinner was over, she returned directly to Jane, and Miss +Bingley began abusing her as soon as she was out of the room. +Her manners were pronounced to be very bad indeed, a mixture +of pride and impertinence; she had no conversation, no style, no +beauty. Mrs. Hurst thought the same, and added: + +"She has nothing, in short, to recommend her, but being an +excellent walker. I shall never forget her appearance this +morning. She really looked almost wild." + +"She did, indeed, Louisa. I could hardly keep my countenance. +Very nonsensical to come at all! Why must _she_ be scampering +about the country, because her sister had a cold? Her hair, so +untidy, so blowsy!" + +"Yes, and her petticoat; I hope you saw her petticoat, six inches +deep in mud, I am absolutely certain; and the gown which had +been let down to hide it not doing its office." + +"Your picture may be very exact, Louisa," said Bingley; "but +this was all lost upon me. I thought Miss Elizabeth Bennet +looked remarkably well when she came into the room this +morning. Her dirty petticoat quite escaped my notice." + +"_You_ observed it, Mr. Darcy, I am sure," said Miss Bingley; +"and I am inclined to think that you would not wish to see +_your_ sister make such an exhibition." + +"Certainly not." + +"To walk three miles, or four miles, or five miles, or whatever it +is, above her ankles in dirt, and alone, quite alone! What could +she mean by it? It seems to me to show an abominable sort of +conceited independence, a most country-town indifference to +decorum." + +"It shows an affection for her sister that is very pleasing," said +Bingley. + +"I am afraid, Mr. Darcy," observed Miss Bingley in a half +whisper, "that this adventure has rather affected your +admiration of her fine eyes." + +"Not at all," he replied; "they were brightened by the exercise." +A short pause followed this speech, and Mrs. Hurst began again: + +"I have a excessive regard for Miss Jane Bennet, she is really +a very sweet girl, and I wish with all my heart she were well +settled. But with such a father and mother, and such low +connections, I am afraid there is no chance of it." + +"I think I have heard you say that their uncle is an attorney on +Meryton." + +"Yes; and they have another, who lives somewhere near Cheapside." + +"That is capital," added her sister, and they both laughed heartily. + +"If they had uncles enough to fill _all_ Cheapside," cried +Bingley, "it would not make them one jot less agreeable." + +"But it must very materially lessen their chance of marrying men +of any consideration in the world," replied Darcy. + +To this speech Bingley made no answer; but his sisters gave it +their hearty assent, and indulged their mirth for some time at the +expense of their dear friend's vulgar relations. + +With a renewal of tenderness, however, they returned to her +room on leaving the dining-parlour, and sat with her till +summoned to coffee. She was still very poorly, and Elizabeth +would not quit her at all, till late in the evening, when she had +the comfort of seeing her sleep, and when it seemed to her rather +right than pleasant that she should go downstairs herself. On +entering the drawing-room she found the whole party at loo, and +was immediately invited to join them; but suspecting them to be +playing high she declined it, and making her sister the excuse, +said she would amuse herself for the short time she could stay +below, with a book. Mr. Hurst looked at her with astonishment. + +"Do you prefer reading to cards?" said he; "that is rather +singular." + +"Miss Eliza Bennet," said Miss Bingley, "despises cards. She is +a great reader, and has no pleasure in anything else." + +"I deserve neither such praise nor such censure," cried Elizabeth; +"I am _not_ a great reader, and I have pleasure in many things." + +"In nursing your sister I am sure you have pleasure," said Bingley; +"and I hope it will be soon increased by seeing her quite well." + +Elizabeth thanked him from her heart, and then walked towards +the table where a few books were lying. He immediately offered +to fetch her others--all that his library afforded. + +"And I wish my collection were larger for your benefit and my +own credit; but I am an idle fellow, and though I have not many, +I have more than I ever looked into." + +Elizabeth assured him that she could suit herself perfectly with +those in the room. + +"I am astonished," said Miss Bingley, "that my father should +have left so small a collection of books. What a delightful library +you have at Pemberley, Mr. Darcy!" + +"It ought to be good," he replied, "it has been the work of many +generations." + +"And then you have added so much to it yourself, you are +always buying books." + +"I cannot comprehend the neglect of a family library in such days +as these." + +"Neglect! I am sure you neglect nothing that can add to the +beauties of that noble place. Charles, when you build _your_ +house, I wish it may be half as delightful as Pemberley." + +"I wish it may." + +"But I would really advise you to make your purchase in that +neighbourhood, and take Pemberley for a kind of model. There +is not a finer county in England than Derbyshire." + +"With all my heart; I will buy Pemberley itself if Darcy will +sell it." + +"I am talking of possibilities, Charles." + +"Upon my word, Caroline, I should think it more possible to get +Pemberley by purchase than by imitation." + +Elizabeth was so much caught with what passed, as to leave her +very little attention for her book; and soon laying it wholly +aside, she drew near the card-table, and stationed herself +between Mr. Bingley and his eldest sister, to observe the game. + +"Is Miss Darcy much grown since the spring?" said Miss +Bingley; "will she be as tall as I am?" + +"I think she will. She is now about Miss Elizabeth Bennet's +height, or rather taller." + +"How I long to see her again! I never met with anybody who +delighted me so much. Such a countenance, such manners! And +so extremely accomplished for her age! Her performance on the +pianoforte is exquisite." + +"It is amazing to me," said Bingley, "how young ladies can have +patience to be so very accomplished as they all are." + +"All young ladies accomplished! My dear Charles, what do you mean?" + +"Yes, all of them, I think. They all paint tables, cover screens, +and net purses. I scarcely know anyone who cannot do all this, +and I am sure I never heard a young lady spoken of for the first +time, without being informed that she was very accomplished." + +"Your list of the common extent of accomplishments," said Darcy, +"has too much truth. The word is applied to many a woman who +deserves it no otherwise than by netting a purse or covering +a screen. But I am very far from agreeing with you in your +estimation of ladies in general. I cannot boast of knowing +more than half-a-dozen, in the whole range of my acquaintance, +that are really accomplished." + +"Nor I, I am sure," said Miss Bingley. + +"Then," observed Elizabeth, "you must comprehend a great deal +in your idea of an accomplished woman." + +"Yes, I do comprehend a great deal in it." + +"Oh! certainly," cried his faithful assistant, "no one can be really +esteemed accomplished who does not greatly surpass what is +usually met with. A woman must have a thorough knowledge of +music, singing, drawing, dancing, and the modern languages, to +deserve the word; and besides all this, she must possess a certain +something in her air and manner of walking, the tone of her +voice, her address and expressions, or the word will be but +half-deserved." + +"All this she must possess," added Darcy, "and to all this she +must yet add something more substantial, in the improvement of +her mind by extensive reading." + +"I am no longer surprised at your knowing _only_ six accomplished +women. I rather wonder now at your knowing _any_." + +"Are you so severe upon your own sex as to doubt the possibility +of all this?" + +"I never saw such a woman. I never saw such capacity, and +taste, and application, and elegance, as you describe united." + +Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley both cried out against the injustice +of her implied doubt, and were both protesting that they knew +many women who answered this description, when Mr. Hurst +called them to order, with bitter complaints of their inattention +to what was going forward. As all conversation was thereby at +an end, Elizabeth soon afterwards left the room. + +"Elizabeth Bennet," said Miss Bingley, when the door was +closed on her, "is one of those young ladies who seek to +recommend themselves to the other sex by undervaluing their +own; and with many men, I dare say, it succeeds. But, in my +opinion, it is a paltry device, a very mean art." + +"Undoubtedly," replied Darcy, to whom this remark was chiefly +addressed, "there is a meanness in _all_ the arts which ladies +sometimes condescend to employ for captivation. Whatever +bears affinity to cunning is despicable." + +Miss Bingley was not so entirely satisfied with this reply as to +continue the subject. + +Elizabeth joined them again only to say that her sister was worse, +and that she could not leave her. Bingley urged Mr. Jones being +sent for immediately; while his sisters, convinced that no country +advice could be of any service, recommended an express to town for +one of the most eminent physicians. This she would not hear of; +but she was not so unwilling to comply with their brother's +proposal; and it was settled that Mr. Jones should be sent for +early in the morning, if Miss Bennet were not decidedly better. +Bingley was quite uncomfortable; his sisters declared that they +were miserable. They solaced their wretchedness, however, by +duets after supper, while he could find no better relief to his +feelings than by giving his housekeeper directions that every +attention might be paid to the sick lady and her sister. + + + +Chapter 9 + + +Elizabeth passed the chief of the night in her sister's room, and +in the morning had the pleasure of being able to send a tolerable +answer to the inquiries which she very early received from Mr. +Bingley by a housemaid, and some time afterwards from the two +elegant ladies who waited on his sisters. In spite of this +amendment, however, she requested to have a note sent to Longbourn, +desiring her mother to visit Jane, and form her own judgement of +her situation. The note was immediately dispatched, and its +contents as quickly complied with. Mrs. Bennet, accompanied by +her two youngest girls, reached Netherfield soon after the family +breakfast. + +Had she found Jane in any apparent danger, Mrs. Bennet would +have been very miserable; but being satisfied on seeing her that +her illness was not alarming, she had no wish of her recovering +immediately, as her restoration to health would probably remove +her from Netherfield. She would not listen, therefore, to her +daughter's proposal of being carried home; neither did the +apothecary, who arrived about the same time, think it at all +advisable. After sitting a little while with Jane, on Miss +Bingley's appearance and invitation, the mother and three +daughter all attended her into the breakfast parlour. Bingley met +them with hopes that Mrs. Bennet had not found Miss Bennet +worse than she expected. + +"Indeed I have, sir," was her answer. "She is a great deal too +ill to be moved. Mr. Jones says we must not think of moving her. +We must trespass a little longer on your kindness." + +"Removed!" cried Bingley. "It must not be thought of. My +sister, I am sure, will not hear of her removal." + +"You may depend upon it, Madam," said Miss Bingley, with cold +civility, "that Miss Bennet will receive every possible attention +while she remains with us." + +Mrs. Bennet was profuse in her acknowledgments. + +"I am sure," she added, "if it was not for such good friends I do +not know what would become of her, for she is very ill indeed, +and suffers a vast deal, though with the greatest patience in the +world, which is always the way with her, for she has, without +exception, the sweetest temper I have ever met with. I often tell +my other girls they are nothing to _her_. You have a sweet room +here, Mr. Bingley, and a charming prospect over the gravel walk. +I do not know a place in the country that is equal to Netherfield. +You will not think of quitting it in a hurry, I hope, though you +have but a short lease." + +"Whatever I do is done in a hurry," replied he; "and therefore if I +should resolve to quit Netherfield, I should probably be off in +five minutes. At present, however, I consider myself as quite +fixed here." + +"That is exactly what I should have supposed of you," said +Elizabeth. + +"You begin to comprehend me, do you?" cried he, turning +towards her. + +"Oh! yes--I understand you perfectly." + +"I wish I might take this for a compliment; but to be so easily +seen through I am afraid is pitiful." + +"That is as it happens. It does not follow that a deep, intricate +character is more or less estimable than such a one as yours." + +"Lizzy," cried her mother, "remember where you are, and do not +run on in the wild manner that you are suffered to do at home." + +"I did not know before," continued Bingley immediately, "that +you were a studier of character. It must be an amusing study." + +"Yes, but intricate characters are the _most_ amusing. They +have at least that advantage." + +"The country," said Darcy, "can in general supply but a few +subjects for such a study. In a country neighbourhood you move +in a very confined and unvarying society." + +"But people themselves alter so much, that there is something +new to be observed in them for ever." + +"Yes, indeed," cried Mrs. Bennet, offended by his manner of +mentioning a country neighbourhood. "I assure you there is +quite as much of _that_ going on in the country as in town." + +Everybody was surprised, and Darcy, after looking at her for a +moment, turned silently away. Mrs. Bennet, who fancied she +had gained a complete victory over him, continued her triumph. + +"I cannot see that London has any great advantage over the +country, for my part, except the shops and public places. The +country is a vast deal pleasanter, is it not, Mr. Bingley?" + +"When I am in the country," he replied, "I never wish to leave it; +and when I am in town it is pretty much the same. They have +each their advantages, and I can be equally happy in either." + +"Aye--that is because you have the right disposition. But that +gentleman," looking at Darcy, "seemed to think the country was +nothing at all." + +"Indeed, Mamma, you are mistaken," said Elizabeth, blushing for +her mother. "You quite mistook Mr. Darcy. He only meant that +there was not such a variety of people to be met with in the +country as in the town, which you must acknowledge to be +true." + +"Certainly, my dear, nobody said there were; but as to not +meeting with many people in this neighbourhood, I believe +there are few neighbourhoods larger. I know we dine with +four-and-twenty families." + +Nothing but concern for Elizabeth could enable Bingley to keep +his countenance. His sister was less delicate, and directed her +eyes towards Mr. Darcy with a very expressive smile. Elizabeth, +for the sake of saying something that might turn her mother's +thoughts, now asked her if Charlotte Lucas had been at +Longbourn since _her_ coming away. + +"Yes, she called yesterday with her father. What an agreeable +man Sir William is, Mr. Bingley, is not he? So much the man of +fashion! So genteel and easy! He had always something to say +to everybody. _That_ is my idea of good breeding; and those +persons who fancy themselves very important, and never open +their mouths, quite mistake the matter." + +"Did Charlotte dine with you?" + +"No, she would go home. I fancy she was wanted about the +mince-pies. For my part, Mr. Bingley, I always keep servants +that can do their own work; _my_ daughters are brought up very +differently. But everybody is to judge for themselves, and the +Lucases are a very good sort of girls, I assure you. It is a pity +they are not handsome! Not that I think Charlotte so _very_ +plain--but then she is our particular friend." + +"She seems a very pleasant young woman." + +"Oh! dear, yes; but you must own she is very plain. Lady Lucas +herself has often said so, and envied me Jane's beauty. I do not +like to boast of my own child, but to be sure, Jane--one does +not often see anybody better looking. It is what everybody says. +I do not trust my own partiality. When she was only fifteen, +there was a man at my brother Gardiner's in town so much in +love with her that my sister-in-law was sure he would make her +an offer before we came away. But, however, he did not. +Perhaps he thought her too young. However, he wrote some +verses on her, and very pretty they were." + +"And so ended his affection," said Elizabeth impatiently. "There +has been many a one, I fancy, overcome in the same way. I +wonder who first discovered the efficacy of poetry in driving +away love!" + +"I have been used to consider poetry as the _food_ of love," said +Darcy. + +"Of a fine, stout, healthy love it may. Everything nourishes +what is strong already. But if it be only a slight, thin sort of +inclination, I am convinced that one good sonnet will starve it +entirely away." + +Darcy only smiled; and the general pause which ensued made +Elizabeth tremble lest her mother should be exposing herself +again. She longed to speak, but could think of nothing to say; +and after a short silence Mrs. Bennet began repeating her thanks +to Mr. Bingley for his kindness to Jane, with an apology for +troubling him also with Lizzy. Mr. Bingley was unaffectedly +civil in his answer, and forced his younger sister to be civil +also, and say what the occasion required. She performed her +part indeed without much graciousness, but Mrs. Bennet was +satisfied, and soon afterwards ordered her carriage. Upon this +signal, the youngest of her daughters put herself forward. The +two girls had been whispering to each other during the whole +visit, and the result of it was, that the youngest should tax +Mr. Bingley with having promised on his first coming into the +country to give a ball at Netherfield. + +Lydia was a stout, well-grown girl of fifteen, with a fine +complexion and good-humoured countenance; a favourite with her +mother, whose affection had brought her into public at an early +age. She had high animal spirits, and a sort of natural +self-consequence, which the attention of the officers, to whom +her uncle's good dinners, and her own easy manners recommended +her, had increased into assurance. She was very equal, +therefore, to address Mr. Bingley on the subject of the ball, and +abruptly reminded him of his promise; adding, that it would be +the most shameful thing in the world if he did not keep it. His +answer to this sudden attack was delightful to their mother's ear: + +"I am perfectly ready, I assure you, to keep my engagement; and +when your sister is recovered, you shall, if you please, name the +very day of the ball. But you would not wish to be dancing +when she is ill." + +Lydia declared herself satisfied. "Oh! yes--it would be much +better to wait till Jane was well, and by that time most likely +Captain Carter would be at Meryton again. And when you have +given _your_ ball," she added, "I shall insist on their giving one +also. I shall tell Colonel Forster it will be quite a shame if he +does not." + +Mrs. Bennet and her daughters then departed, and Elizabeth +returned instantly to Jane, leaving her own and her relations' +behaviour to the remarks of the two ladies and Mr. Darcy; the +latter of whom, however, could not be prevailed on to join in +their censure of _her_, in spite of all Miss Bingley's witticisms on +_fine eyes_. + + + +Chapter 10 + + +The day passed much as the day before had done. Mrs. Hurst +and Miss Bingley had spent some hours of the morning with the +invalid, who continued, though slowly, to mend; and in the +evening Elizabeth joined their party in the drawing-room. The +loo-table, however, did not appear. Mr. Darcy was writing, and +Miss Bingley, seated near him, was watching the progress of his +letter and repeatedly calling off his attention by messages to +his sister. Mr. Hurst and Mr. Bingley were at piquet, and Mrs. +Hurst was observing their game. + +Elizabeth took up some needlework, and was sufficiently +amused in attending to what passed between Darcy and his +companion. The perpetual commendations of the lady, either on +his handwriting, or on the evenness of his lines, or on the length +of his letter, with the perfect unconcern with which her praises +were received, formed a curious dialogue, and was exactly in +union with her opinion of each. + +"How delighted Miss Darcy will be to receive such a letter!" + +He made no answer. + +"You write uncommonly fast." + +"You are mistaken. I write rather slowly." + +"How many letters you must have occasion to write in the +course of a year! Letters of business, too! How odious I should +think them!" + +"It is fortunate, then, that they fall to my lot instead of yours." + +"Pray tell your sister that I long to see her." + +"I have already told her so once, by your desire." + +"I am afraid you do not like your pen. Let me mend it for you. +I mend pens remarkably well." + +"Thank you--but I always mend my own." + +"How can you contrive to write so even?" + +He was silent. + +"Tell your sister I am delighted to hear of her improvement on +the harp; and pray let her know that I am quite in raptures with +her beautiful little design for a table, and I think it infinitely +superior to Miss Grantley's." + +"Will you give me leave to defer your raptures till I write again? +At present I have not room to do them justice." + +"Oh! it is of no consequence. I shall see her in January. But do +you always write such charming long letters to her, Mr. Darcy?" + +"They are generally long; but whether always charming it is not +for me to determine." + +"It is a rule with me, that a person who can write a long letter +with ease, cannot write ill." + +"That will not do for a compliment to Darcy, Caroline," cried +her brother, "because he does _not_ write with ease. He studies +too much for words of four syllables. Do not you, Darcy?" + +"My style of writing is very different from yours." + +"Oh!" cried Miss Bingley, "Charles writes in the most careless +way imaginable. He leaves out half his words, and blots the +rest." + +"My ideas flow so rapidly that I have not time to express +them--by which means my letters sometimes convey no ideas +at all to my correspondents." + +"Your humility, Mr. Bingley," said Elizabeth, "must disarm +reproof." + +"Nothing is more deceitful," said Darcy, "than the appearance of +humility. It is often only carelessness of opinion, and sometimes +an indirect boast." + +"And which of the two do you call _my_ little recent piece of +modesty?" + +"The indirect boast; for you are really proud of your defects in +writing, because you consider them as proceeding from a +rapidity of thought and carelessness of execution, which, if not +estimable, you think at least highly interesting. The power of +doing anything with quickness is always prized much by the +possessor, and often without any attention to the imperfection of +the performance. When you told Mrs. Bennet this morning that +if you ever resolved upon quitting Netherfield you should be +gone in five minutes, you meant it to be a sort of panegyric, of +compliment to yourself--and yet what is there so very laudable +in a precipitance which must leave very necessary business +undone, and can be of no real advantage to yourself or anyone +else?" + +"Nay," cried Bingley, "this is too much, to remember at night all +the foolish things that were said in the morning. And yet, upon +my honour, I believe what I said of myself to be true, and I +believe it at this moment. At least, therefore, I did not assume +the character of needless precipitance merely to show off before +the ladies." + +"I dare say you believed it; but I am by no means convinced that +you would be gone with such celerity. Your conduct would be +quite as dependent on chance as that of any man I know; and if, +as you were mounting your horse, a friend were to say, 'Bingley, +you had better stay till next week,' you would probably do it, +you would probably not go--and at another word, might stay a +month." + +"You have only proved by this," cried Elizabeth, "that Mr. +Bingley did not do justice to his own disposition. You have +shown him off now much more than he did himself." + +"I am exceedingly gratified," said Bingley, "by your converting +what my friend says into a compliment on the sweetness of my +temper. But I am afraid you are giving it a turn which that +gentleman did by no means intend; for he would certainly think +better of me, if under such a circumstance I were to give a flat +denial, and ride off as fast as I could." + +"Would Mr. Darcy then consider the rashness of your original +intentions as atoned for by your obstinacy in adhering to it?" + +"Upon my word, I cannot exactly explain the matter; Darcy must +speak for himself." + +"You expect me to account for opinions which you choose to +call mine, but which I have never acknowledged. Allowing the +case, however, to stand according to your representation, you +must remember, Miss Bennet, that the friend who is supposed to +desire his return to the house, and the delay of his plan, has +merely desired it, asked it without offering one argument in +favour of its propriety." + +"To yield readily--easily--to the _persuasion_ of a friend is +no merit with you." + +"To yield without conviction is no compliment to the understanding +of either." + +"You appear to me, Mr. Darcy, to allow nothing for the +influence of friendship and affection. A regard for the requester +would often make one readily yield to a request, without waiting +for arguments to reason one into it. I am not particularly +speaking of such a case as you have supposed about Mr. +Bingley. We may as well wait, perhaps, till the circumstance +occurs before we discuss the discretion of his behaviour +thereupon. But in general and ordinary cases between friend and +friend, where one of them is desired by the other to change a +resolution of no very great moment, should you think ill of that +person for complying with the desire, without waiting to be +argued into it?" + +"Will it not be advisable, before we proceed on this subject, to +arrange with rather more precision the degree of importance +which is to appertain to this request, as well as the degree of +intimacy subsisting between the parties?" + +"By all means," cried Bingley; "let us hear all the particulars, +not forgetting their comparative height and size; for that will +have more weight in the argument, Miss Bennet, than you may be +aware of. I assure you, that if Darcy were not such a great tall +fellow, in comparison with myself, I should not pay him half so +much deference. I declare I do not know a more awful object +than Darcy, on particular occasions, and in particular places; at +his own house especially, and of a Sunday evening, when he has +nothing to do." + +Mr. Darcy smiled; but Elizabeth thought she could perceive that +he was rather offended, and therefore checked her laugh. Miss +Bingley warmly resented the indignity he had received, in an +expostulation with her brother for talking such nonsense. + +"I see your design, Bingley," said his friend. "You dislike an +argument, and want to silence this." + +"Perhaps I do. Arguments are too much like disputes. If you and +Miss Bennet will defer yours till I am out of the room, I shall +be very thankful; and then you may say whatever you like of me." + +"What you ask," said Elizabeth, "is no sacrifice on my side; and +Mr. Darcy had much better finish his letter." + +Mr. Darcy took her advice, and did finish his letter. + +When that business was over, he applied to Miss Bingley and +Elizabeth for an indulgence of some music. Miss Bingley moved +with some alacrity to the pianoforte; and, after a polite request +that Elizabeth would lead the way which the other as politely +and more earnestly negatived, she seated herself. + +Mrs. Hurst sang with her sister, and while they were thus +employed, Elizabeth could not help observing, as she turned +over some music-books that lay on the instrument, how frequently +Mr. Darcy's eyes were fixed on her. She hardly knew how to +suppose that she could be an object of admiration to so great a +man; and yet that he should look at her because he disliked her, +was still more strange. She could only imagine, however, at last +that she drew his notice because there was something more wrong +and reprehensible, according to his ideas of right, than in any +other person present. The supposition did not pain her. She +liked him too little to care for his approbation. + +After playing some Italian songs, Miss Bingley varied the charm +by a lively Scotch air; and soon afterwards Mr. Darcy, drawing +near Elizabeth, said to her: + +"Do not you feel a great inclination, Miss Bennet, to seize such +an opportunity of dancing a reel?" + +She smiled, but made no answer. He repeated the question, with +some surprise at her silence. + +"Oh!" said she, "I heard you before, but I could not immediately +determine what to say in reply. You wanted me, I know, to say +'Yes,' that you might have the pleasure of despising my taste; +but I always delight in overthrowing those kind of schemes, +and cheating a person of their premeditated contempt. I have, +therefore, made up my mind to tell you, that I do not want to +dance a reel at all--and now despise me if you dare." + +"Indeed I do not dare." + +Elizabeth, having rather expected to affront him, was amazed at +his gallantry; but there was a mixture of sweetness and archness +in her manner which made it difficult for her to affront anybody; +and Darcy had never been so bewitched by any woman as he +was by her. He really believed, that were it not for the +inferiority of her connections, he should be in some danger. + +Miss Bingley saw, or suspected enough to be jealous; and her +great anxiety for the recovery of her dear friend Jane received +some assistance from her desire of getting rid of Elizabeth. + +She often tried to provoke Darcy into disliking her guest, by +talking of their supposed marriage, and planning his happiness in +such an alliance. + +"I hope," said she, as they were walking together in the +shrubbery the next day, "you will give your mother-in-law a few +hints, when this desirable event takes place, as to the advantage +of holding her tongue; and if you can compass it, do sure the +younger girls of running after officers. And, if I may mention so +delicate a subject, endeavour to check that little something, +bordering on conceit and impertinence, which your lady +possesses." + +"Have you anything else to propose for my domestic felicity?" + +"Oh! yes. Do let the portraits of your uncle and aunt Phillips be +placed in the gallery at Pemberley. Put them next to your +great-uncle the judge. They are in the same profession, you +know, only in different lines. As for your Elizabeth's picture, you +must not have it taken, for what painter could do justice to those +beautiful eyes?" + +"It would not be easy, indeed, to catch their expression, but their +colour and shape, and the eyelashes, so remarkably fine, might +be copied." + +At that moment they were met from another walk by Mrs. Hurst +and Elizabeth herself. + +"I did not know that you intended to walk," said Miss Bingley, +in some confusion, lest they had been overheard. + +"You used us abominably ill," answered Mrs. Hurst, "running +away without telling us that you were coming out." + +Then taking the disengaged arm of Mr. Darcy, she left Elizabeth +to walk by herself. The path just admitted three. Mr. Darcy felt +their rudeness, and immediately said: + +"This walk is not wide enough for our party. We had better go +into the avenue." + +But Elizabeth, who had not the least inclination to remain with +them, laughingly answered: + +"No, no; stay where you are. You are charmingly grouped, and +appear to uncommon advantage. The picturesque would be +spoilt by admitting a fourth. Good-bye." + +She then ran gaily off, rejoicing as she rambled about, in the +hope of being at home again in a day or two. Jane was already +so much recovered as to intend leaving her room for a couple of +hours that evening. + + + +Chapter 11 + + +When the ladies removed after dinner, Elizabeth ran up to her +sister, and seeing her well guarded from cold, attended her into +the drawing-room, where she was welcomed by her two friends +with many professions of pleasure; and Elizabeth had never seen +them so agreeable as they were during the hour which passed +before the gentlemen appeared. Their powers of conversation +were considerable. They could describe an entertainment with +accuracy, relate an anecdote with humour, and laugh at their +acquaintance with spirit. + +But when the gentlemen entered, Jane was no longer the first +object; Miss Bingley's eyes were instantly turned toward Darcy, +and she had something to say to him before he had advanced +many steps. He addressed himself to Miss Bennet, with a polite +congratulation; Mr. Hurst also made her a slight bow, and said +he was "very glad;" but diffuseness and warmth remained for +Bingley's salutation. He was full of joy and attention. The first +half-hour was spent in piling up the fire, lest she should suffer +from the change of room; and she removed at his desire to the +other side of the fireplace, that she might be further from the +door. He then sat down by her, and talked scarcely to anyone +else. Elizabeth, at work in the opposite corner, saw it all with +great delight. + +When tea was over, Mr. Hurst reminded his sister-in-law of the +card-table--but in vain. She had obtained private intelligence +that Mr. Darcy did not wish for cards; and Mr. Hurst soon found +even his open petition rejected. She assured him that no one +intended to play, and the silence of the whole party on the +subject seemed to justify her. Mr. Hurst had therefore nothing +to do, but to stretch himself on one of the sofas and go to +sleep. Darcy took up a book; Miss Bingley did the same; and +Mrs. Hurst, principally occupied in playing with her bracelets +and rings, joined now and then in her brother's conversation +with Miss Bennet. + +Miss Bingley's attention was quite as much engaged in watching +Mr. Darcy's progress through _his_ book, as in reading her own; +and she was perpetually either making some inquiry, or looking +at his page. She could not win him, however, to any conversation; +he merely answered her question, and read on. At length, quite +exhausted by the attempt to be amused with her own book, which +she had only chosen because it was the second volume of his, +she gave a great yawn and said, "How pleasant it is to spend an +evening in this way! I declare after all there is no enjoyment +like reading! How much sooner one tires of anything than of a +book! When I have a house of my own, I shall be miserable if +I have not an excellent library." + +No one made any reply. She then yawned again, threw aside her +book, and cast her eyes round the room in quest for some +amusement; when hearing her brother mentioning a ball to Miss +Bennet, she turned suddenly towards him and said: + +"By the bye, Charles, are you really serious in meditating a dance +at Netherfield? I would advise you, before you determine on it, +to consult the wishes of the present party; I am much mistaken if +there are not some among us to whom a ball would be rather a +punishment than a pleasure." + +"If you mean Darcy," cried her brother, "he may go to bed, if he +chooses, before it begins--but as for the ball, it is quite a settled +thing; and as soon as Nicholls has made white soup enough, I +shall send round my cards." + +"I should like balls infinitely better," she replied, "if they +were carried on in a different manner; but there is something +insufferably tedious in the usual process of such a meeting. It +would surely be much more rational if conversation instead of +dancing were made the order of the day." + +"Much more rational, my dear Caroline, I dare say, but it would +not be near so much like a ball." + +Miss Bingley made no answer, and soon afterwards she got up +and walked about the room. Her figure was elegant, and she +walked well; but Darcy, at whom it was all aimed, was still +inflexibly studious. In the desperation of her feelings, she +resolved on one effort more, and, turning to Elizabeth, said: + +"Miss Eliza Bennet, let me persuade you to follow my example, +and take a turn about the room. I assure you it is very +refreshing after sitting so long in one attitude." + +Elizabeth was surprised, but agreed to it immediately. Miss +Bingley succeeded no less in the real object of her civility; +Mr. Darcy looked up. He was as much awake to the novelty of +attention in that quarter as Elizabeth herself could be, and +unconsciously closed his book. He was directly invited to join +their party, but he declined it, observing that he could imagine +but two motives for their choosing to walk up and down the +room together, with either of which motives his joining them +would interfere. "What could he mean? She was dying to know +what could be his meaning?"--and asked Elizabeth whether she +could at all understand him? + +"Not at all," was her answer; "but depend upon it, he means to +be severe on us, and our surest way of disappointing him will be +to ask nothing about it." + +Miss Bingley, however, was incapable of disappointing Mr. +Darcy in anything, and persevered therefore in requiring an +explanation of his two motives. + +"I have not the smallest objection to explaining them," said he, +as soon as she allowed him to speak. "You either choose this +method of passing the evening because you are in each other's +confidence, and have secret affairs to discuss, or because you are +conscious that your figures appear to the greatest advantage in +walking; if the first, I would be completely in your way, and if +the second, I can admire you much better as I sit by the fire." + +"Oh! shocking!" cried Miss Bingley. "I never heard anything so +abominable. How shall we punish him for such a speech?" + +"Nothing so easy, if you have but the inclination," said Elizabeth. +"We can all plague and punish one another. Tease him--laugh +at him. Intimate as you are, you must know how it is to be +done." + +"But upon my honour, I do _not_. I do assure you that my +intimacy has not yet taught me _that_. Tease calmness of +manner and presence of mind! No, no--feel he may defy us +there. And as to laughter, we will not expose ourselves, if you +please, by attempting to laugh without a subject. Mr. Darcy may +hug himself." + +"Mr. Darcy is not to be laughed at!" cried Elizabeth. "That is +an uncommon advantage, and uncommon I hope it will continue, for +it would be a great loss to _me_ to have many such acquaintances. +I dearly love a laugh." + +"Miss Bingley," said he, "has given me more credit than can be. +The wisest and the best of men--nay, the wisest and best of their +actions--may be rendered ridiculous by a person whose first +object in life is a joke." + +"Certainly," replied Elizabeth--"there are such people, but I +hope I am not one of _them_. I hope I never ridicule what is +wise and good. Follies and nonsense, whims and +inconsistencies, _do_ divert me, I own, and I laugh at them +whenever I can. But these, I suppose, are precisely what you +are without." + +"Perhaps that is not possible for anyone. But it has been the +study of my life to avoid those weaknesses which often expose a +strong understanding to ridicule." + +"Such as vanity and pride." + +"Yes, vanity is a weakness indeed. But pride--where there is a +real superiority of mind, pride will be always under good +regulation." + +Elizabeth turned away to hide a smile. + +"Your examination of Mr. Darcy is over, I presume," said Miss +Bingley; "and pray what is the result?" + +"I am perfectly convinced by it that Mr. Darcy has no defect. +He owns it himself without disguise." + +"No," said Darcy, "I have made no such pretension. I have +faults enough, but they are not, I hope, of understanding. +My temper I dare not vouch for. It is, I believe, too little +yielding--certainly too little for the convenience of the world. +I cannot forget the follies and vices of other so soon as I ought, +nor their offenses against myself. My feelings are not puffed +about with every attempt to move them. My temper would perhaps be +called resentful. My good opinion once lost, is lost forever." + +"_That_ is a failing indeed!" cried Elizabeth. "Implacable +resentment _is_ a shade in a character. But you have chosen your +fault well. I really cannot _laugh_ at it. You are safe from me." + +"There is, I believe, in every disposition a tendency to some +particular evil--a natural defect, which not even the best +education can overcome." + +"And _your_ defect is to hate everybody." + +"And yours," he replied with a smile, "is willfully to +misunderstand them." + +"Do let us have a little music," cried Miss Bingley, tired of a +conversation in which she had no share. "Louisa, you will not +mind my waking Mr. Hurst?" + +Her sister had not the smallest objection, and the pianoforte was +opened; and Darcy, after a few moments' recollection, was not +sorry for it. He began to feel the danger of paying Elizabeth too +much attention. + + + +Chapter 12 + + +In consequence of an agreement between the sisters, Elizabeth +wrote the next morning to their mother, to beg that the carriage +might be sent for them in the course of the day. But Mrs. +Bennet, who had calculated on her daughters remaining at +Netherfield till the following Tuesday, which would exactly +finish Jane's week, could not bring herself to receive them with +pleasure before. Her answer, therefore, was not propitious, at +least not to Elizabeth's wishes, for she was impatient to get +home. Mrs. Bennet sent them word that they could not possibly +have the carriage before Tuesday; and in her postscript it was +added, that if Mr. Bingley and his sister pressed them to stay +longer, she could spare them very well. Against staying longer, +however, Elizabeth was positively resolved--nor did she much +expect it would be asked; and fearful, on the contrary, as being +considered as intruding themselves needlessly long, she urged +Jane to borrow Mr. Bingley's carriage immediately, and at +length it was settled that their original design of leaving +Netherfield that morning should be mentioned, and the request +made. + +The communication excited many professions of concern; and +enough was said of wishing them to stay at least till the +following day to work on Jane; and till the morrow their going +was deferred. Miss Bingley was then sorry that she had +proposed the delay, for her jealousy and dislike of one sister +much exceeded her affection for the other. + +The master of the house heard with real sorrow that they were +to go so soon, and repeatedly tried to persuade Miss Bennet that +it would not be safe for her--that she was not enough recovered; +but Jane was firm where she felt herself to be right. + +To Mr. Darcy it was welcome intelligence--Elizabeth had been +at Netherfield long enough. She attracted him more than he +liked--and Miss Bingley was uncivil to _her_, and more teasing +than usual to himself. He wisely resolved to be particularly +careful that no sign of admiration should _now_ escape him, +nothing that could elevate her with the hope of influencing his +felicity; sensible that if such an idea had been suggested, +his behaviour during the last day must have material weight in +confirming or crushing it. Steady to his purpose, he scarcely +spoke ten words to her through the whole of Saturday, and +though they were at one time left by themselves for half-an-hour, +he adhered most conscientiously to his book, and would not +even look at her. + +On Sunday, after morning service, the separation, so agreeable +to almost all, took place. Miss Bingley's civility to Elizabeth +increased at last very rapidly, as well as her affection for Jane; +and when they parted, after assuring the latter of the pleasure +it would always give her to see her either at Longbourn or +Netherfield, and embracing her most tenderly, she even shook +hands with the former. Elizabeth took leave of the whole party +in the liveliest of spirits. + +They were not welcomed home very cordially by their mother. +Mrs. Bennet wondered at their coming, and thought them very +wrong to give so much trouble, and was sure Jane would have +caught cold again. But their father, though very laconic in his +expressions of pleasure, was really glad to see them; he had felt +their importance in the family circle. The evening conversation, +when they were all assembled, had lost much of its animation, +and almost all its sense by the absence of Jane and Elizabeth. + +They found Mary, as usual, deep in the study of thorough-bass +and human nature; and had some extracts to admire, and some +new observations of threadbare morality to listen to. Catherine +and Lydia had information for them of a different sort. Much +had been done and much had been said in the regiment since the +preceding Wednesday; several of the officers had dined lately +with their uncle, a private had been flogged, and it had actually +been hinted that Colonel Forster was going to be married. + + + +Chapter 13 + + +"I hope, my dear," said Mr. Bennet to his wife, as they were +at breakfast the next morning, "that you have ordered a good +dinner to-day, because I have reason to expect an addition to +our family party." + +"Who do you mean, my dear? I know of nobody that is coming, +I am sure, unless Charlotte Lucas should happen to call in--and +I hope _my_ dinners are good enough for her. I do not believe +she often sees such at home." + +"The person of whom I speak is a gentleman, and a stranger." + +Mrs. Bennet's eyes sparkled. "A gentleman and a stranger! It is +Mr. Bingley, I am sure! Well, I am sure I shall be extremely glad +to see Mr. Bingley. But--good Lord! how unlucky! There is not +a bit of fish to be got to-day. Lydia, my love, ring the bell--I +must speak to Hill this moment." + +"It is _not_ Mr. Bingley," said her husband; "it is a person whom +I never saw in the whole course of my life." + +This roused a general astonishment; and he had the pleasure of +being eagerly questioned by his wife and his five daughters at +once. + +After amusing himself some time with their curiosity, he thus +explained: + +"About a month ago I received this letter; and about a fortnight +ago I answered it, for I thought it a case of some delicacy, and +requiring early attention. It is from my cousin, Mr. Collins, who, +when I am dead, may turn you all out of this house as soon as he +pleases." + +"Oh! my dear," cried his wife, "I cannot bear to hear that +mentioned. Pray do not talk of that odious man. I do think it is +the hardest thing in the world, that your estate should be entailed +away from your own children; and I am sure, if I had been you, I +should have tried long ago to do something or other about it." + +Jane and Elizabeth tried to explain to her the nature of an entail. +They had often attempted to do it before, but it was a subject +on which Mrs. Bennet was beyond the reach of reason, and she +continued to rail bitterly against the cruelty of settling an +estate away from a family of five daughters, in favour of a man +whom nobody cared anything about. + +"It certainly is a most iniquitous affair," said Mr. Bennet, +"and nothing can clear Mr. Collins from the guilt of inheriting +Longbourn. But if you will listen to his letter, you may perhaps +be a little softened by his manner of expressing himself." + +"No, that I am sure I shall not; and I think it is very impertinent +of him to write to you at all, and very hypocritical. I hate such +false friends. Why could he not keep on quarreling with you, as +his father did before him?" + +"Why, indeed; he does seem to have had some filial scruples on +that head, as you will hear." + +"Hunsford, near Westerham, Kent, +15th October. + +"Dear Sir,-- + +"The disagreement subsisting between yourself and my late +honoured father always gave me much uneasiness, and since I +have had the misfortune to lose him, I have frequently wished +to heal the breach; but for some time I was kept back by my own +doubts, fearing lest it might seem disrespectful to his memory +for me to be on good terms with anyone with whom it had always +pleased him to be at variance.--'There, Mrs. Bennet.'--My +mind, however, is now made up on the subject, for having +received ordination at Easter, I have been so fortunate as to +be distinguished by the patronage of the Right Honourable Lady +Catherine de Bourgh, widow of Sir Lewis de Bourgh, whose +bounty and beneficence has preferred me to the valuable rectory +of this parish, where it shall be my earnest endeavour to demean +myself with grateful respect towards her ladyship, and be ever +ready to perform those rites and ceremonies which are instituted +by the Church of England. As a clergyman, moreover, I feel it +my duty to promote and establish the blessing of peace in all +families within in the reach of my influence; and on these +grounds I flatter myself that my present overtures are highly +commendable, and that the circumstance of my being next in the +entail of Longbourn estate will be kindly overlooked on your +side, and not lead you to reject the offered olive-branch. +I cannot be otherwise than concerned at being the means of +injuring your amiable daughters, and beg leave to apologise for +it, as well as to assure you of my readiness to make them every +possible amends--but of this hereafter. If you should have +no objection to receive me into your house, I propose myself +the satisfaction of waiting on you and your family, Monday, +November 18th, by four o'clock, and shall probably trespass on +your hospitality till the Saturday se'ennight following, which I +can do without any inconvenience, as Lady Catherine is far from +objecting to my occasional absence on a Sunday, provided that +some other clergyman is engaged to do the duty of the day.--I +remain, dear sir, with respectful compliments to your lady and +daughters, your well-wisher and friend, + +"WILLIAM COLLINS" + +"At four o'clock, therefore, we may expect this peace-making +gentleman," said Mr. Bennet, as he folded up the letter. "He +seems to be a most conscientious and polite young man, upon +my word, and I doubt not will prove a valuable acquaintance, +especially if Lady Catherine should be so indulgent as to let +him come to us again." + +"There is some sense in what he says about the girls, however, +and if he is disposed to make them any amends, I shall not be +the person to discourage him." + +"Though it is difficult," said Jane, "to guess in what way he can +mean to make us the atonement he thinks our due, the wish is +certainly to his credit." + +Elizabeth was chiefly struck by his extraordinary deference for +Lady Catherine, and his kind intention of christening, marrying, +and burying his parishioners whenever it were required. + +"He must be an oddity, I think," said she. "I cannot make him +out.--There is something very pompous in his style.--And what +can he mean by apologising for being next in the entail?--We +cannot suppose he would help it if he could.--Could he be a +sensible man, sir?" + +"No, my dear, I think not. I have great hopes of finding him +quite the reverse. There is a mixture of servility and +self-importance in his letter, which promises well. I am +impatient to see him." + +"In point of composition," said Mary, "the letter does not seem +defective. The idea of the olive-branch perhaps is not wholly +new, yet I think it is well expressed." + +To Catherine and Lydia, neither the letter nor its writer were +in any degree interesting. It was next to impossible that their +cousin should come in a scarlet coat, and it was now some +weeks since they had received pleasure from the society of a +man in any other colour. As for their mother, Mr. Collins's +letter had done away much of her ill-will, and she was preparing +to see him with a degree of composure which astonished her +husband and daughters. + +Mr. Collins was punctual to his time, and was received with +great politeness by the whole family. Mr. Bennet indeed said +little; but the ladies were ready enough to talk, and Mr. Collins +seemed neither in need of encouragement, nor inclined to be +silent himself. He was a tall, heavy-looking young man of +five-and-twenty. His air was grave and stately, and his +manners were very formal. He had not been long seated before +he complimented Mrs. Bennet on having so fine a family of +daughters; said he had heard much of their beauty, but that in +this instance fame had fallen short of the truth; and added, +that he did not doubt her seeing them all in due time disposed +of in marriage. This gallantry was not much to the taste of +some of his hearers; but Mrs. Bennet, who quarreled with no +compliments, answered most readily. + +"You are very kind, I am sure; and I wish with all my heart it +may prove so, for else they will be destitute enough. Things are +settled so oddly." + +"You allude, perhaps, to the entail of this estate." + +"Ah! sir, I do indeed. It is a grievous affair to my poor girls, +you must confess. Not that I mean to find fault with _you_, for +such things I know are all chance in this world. There is no +knowing how estates will go when once they come to be entailed." + +"I am very sensible, madam, of the hardship to my fair cousins, +and could say much on the subject, but that I am cautious of +appearing forward and precipitate. But I can assure the young +ladies that I come prepared to admire them. At present I will +not say more; but, perhaps, when we are better acquainted--" + +He was interrupted by a summons to dinner; and the girls smiled +on each other. They were not the only objects of Mr. Collins's +admiration. The hall, the dining-room, and all its furniture, +were examined and praised; and his commendation of everything +would have touched Mrs. Bennet's heart, but for the mortifying +supposition of his viewing it all as his own future property. +The dinner too in its turn was highly admired; and he begged to +know to which of his fair cousins the excellency of its cooking +was owing. But he was set right there by Mrs. Bennet, who +assured him with some asperity that they were very well able to +keep a good cook, and that her daughters had nothing to do in +the kitchen. He begged pardon for having displeased her. In a +softened tone she declared herself not at all offended; but he +continued to apologise for about a quarter of an hour. + + + +Chapter 14 + + +During dinner, Mr. Bennet scarcely spoke at all; but when the +servants were withdrawn, he thought it time to have some +conversation with his guest, and therefore started a subject in +which he expected him to shine, by observing that he seemed +very fortunate in his patroness. Lady Catherine de Bourgh's +attention to his wishes, and consideration for his comfort, +appeared very remarkable. Mr. Bennet could not have chosen +better. Mr. Collins was eloquent in her praise. The subject +elevated him to more than usual solemnity of manner, and with a +most important aspect he protested that "he had never in his life +witnessed such behaviour in a person of rank--such affability +and condescension, as he had himself experienced from Lady +Catherine. She had been graciously pleased to approve of both +of the discourses which he had already had the honour of +preaching before her. She had also asked him twice to dine at +Rosings, and had sent for him only the Saturday before, to make +up her pool of quadrille in the evening. Lady Catherine was +reckoned proud by many people he knew, but _he_ had never +seen anything but affability in her. She had always spoken to +him as she would to any other gentleman; she made not the +smallest objection to his joining in the society of the +neighbourhood nor to his leaving the parish occasionally for a +week or two, to visit his relations. She had even condescended +to advise him to marry as soon as he could, provided he chose +with discretion; and had once paid him a visit in his humble +parsonage, where she had perfectly approved all the alterations +he had been making, and had even vouchsafed to suggest some +herself--some shelves in the closet upstairs." + +"That is all very proper and civil, I am sure," said Mrs. Bennet, +"and I dare say she is a very agreeable woman. It is a pity that +great ladies in general are not more like her. Does she live near +you, sir?" + +"The garden in which stands my humble abode is separated only +by a lane from Rosings Park, her ladyship's residence." + +"I think you said she was a widow, sir? Has she any family?" + +"She has only one daughter, the heiress of Rosings, and of very +extensive property." + +"Ah!" said Mrs. Bennet, shaking her head, "then she is better off +than many girls. And what sort of young lady is she? Is she +handsome?" + +"She is a most charming young lady indeed. Lady Catherine +herself says that, in point of true beauty, Miss de Bourgh is far +superior to the handsomest of her sex, because there is that in +her features which marks the young lady of distinguished birth. +She is unfortunately of a sickly constitution, which has prevented +her from making that progress in many accomplishments which +she could not have otherwise failed of, as I am informed by the +lady who superintended her education, and who still resides with +them. But she is perfectly amiable, and often condescends to +drive by my humble abode in her little phaeton and ponies." + +"Has she been presented? I do not remember her name among +the ladies at court." + +"Her indifferent state of health unhappily prevents her being +in town; and by that means, as I told Lady Catherine one day, +has deprived the British court of its brightest ornaments. +Her ladyship seemed pleased with the idea; and you may imagine +that I am happy on every occasion to offer those little +delicate compliments which are always acceptable to ladies. +I have more than once observed to Lady Catherine, that her +charming daughter seemed born to be a duchess, and that the +most elevated rank, instead of giving her consequence, would +be adorned by her. These are the kind of little things which +please her ladyship, and it is a sort of attention which I +conceive myself peculiarly bound to pay." + +"You judge very properly," said Mr. Bennet, "and it is happy for +you that you possess the talent of flattering with delicacy. May I +ask whether these pleasing attentions proceed from the impulse +of the moment, or are the result of previous study?" + +"They arise chiefly from what is passing at the time, and though +I sometimes amuse myself with suggesting and arranging such +little elegant compliments as may be adapted to ordinary occasions, +I always wish to give them as unstudied an air as possible." + +Mr. Bennet's expectations were fully answered. His cousin was +as absurd as he had hoped, and he listened to him with the +keenest enjoyment, maintaining at the same time the most +resolute composure of countenance, and, except in an occasional +glance at Elizabeth, requiring no partner in his pleasure. + +By tea-time, however, the dose had been enough, and Mr. +Bennet was glad to take his guest into the drawing-room again, +and, when tea was over, glad to invite him to read aloud to the +ladies. Mr. Collins readily assented, and a book was produced; +but, on beholding it (for everything announced it to be from a +circulating library), he started back, and begging pardon, +protested that he never read novels. Kitty stared at him, and +Lydia exclaimed. Other books were produced, and after some +deliberation he chose Fordyce's Sermons. Lydia gaped as he +opened the volume, and before he had, with very monotonous +solemnity, read three pages, she interrupted him with: + +"Do you know, mamma, that my uncle Phillips talks of turning +away Richard; and if he does, Colonel Forster will hire him. My +aunt told me so herself on Saturday. I shall walk to Meryton +to-morrow to hear more about it, and to ask when Mr. Denny +comes back from town." + +Lydia was bid by her two eldest sisters to hold her tongue; but +Mr. Collins, much offended, laid aside his book, and said: + +"I have often observed how little young ladies are interested by +books of a serious stamp, though written solely for their benefit. +It amazes me, I confess; for, certainly, there can be nothing so +advantageous to them as instruction. But I will no longer +importune my young cousin." + +Then turning to Mr. Bennet, he offered himself as his antagonist +at backgammon. Mr. Bennet accepted the challenge, observing +that he acted very wisely in leaving the girls to their own trifling +amusements. Mrs. Bennet and her daughters apologised most +civilly for Lydia's interruption, and promised that it should not +occur again, if he would resume his book; but Mr. Collins, after +assuring them that he bore his young cousin no ill-will, and +should never resent her behaviour as any affront, seated himself +at another table with Mr. Bennet, and prepared for backgammon. + + + +Chapter 15 + + +Mr. Collins was not a sensible man, and the deficiency of nature +had been but little assisted by education or society; the greatest +part of his life having been spent under the guidance of an +illiterate and miserly father; and though he belonged to one of +the universities, he had merely kept the necessary terms, without +forming at it any useful acquaintance. The subjection in which +his father had brought him up had given him originally great +humility of manner; but it was now a good deal counteracted by +the self-conceit of a weak head, living in retirement, and the +consequential feelings of early and unexpected prosperity. A +fortunate chance had recommended him to Lady Catherine de +Bourgh when the living of Hunsford was vacant; and the respect +which he felt for her high rank, and his veneration for her as his +patroness, mingling with a very good opinion of himself, of his +authority as a clergyman, and his right as a rector, made him +altogether a mixture of pride and obsequiousness, +self-importance and humility. + +Having now a good house and a very sufficient income, he +intended to marry; and in seeking a reconciliation with the +Longbourn family he had a wife in view, as he meant to choose +one of the daughters, if he found them as handsome and amiable +as they were represented by common report. This was his plan +of amends--of atonement--for inheriting their father's estate; +and he thought it an excellent one, full of eligibility and +suitableness, and excessively generous and disinterested on his +own part. + +His plan did not vary on seeing them. Miss Bennet's lovely face +confirmed his views, and established all his strictest notions of +what was due to seniority; and for the first evening _she_ was his +settled choice. The next morning, however, made an alteration; +for in a quarter of an hour's tete-a-tete with Mrs. Bennet before +breakfast, a conversation beginning with his parsonage-house, +and leading naturally to the avowal of his hopes, that a mistress +might be found for it at Longbourn, produced from her, amid +very complaisant smiles and general encouragement, a caution +against the very Jane he had fixed on. "As to her _younger_ +daughters, she could not take upon her to say--she could not +positively answer--but she did not _know_ of any prepossession; +her _eldest_ daughter, she must just mention--she felt it +incumbent on her to hint, was likely to be very soon engaged." + +Mr. Collins had only to change from Jane to Elizabeth--and it +was soon done--done while Mrs. Bennet was stirring the fire. +Elizabeth, equally next to Jane in birth and beauty, succeeded +her of course. + +Mrs. Bennet treasured up the hint, and trusted that she might +soon have two daughters married; and the man whom she could +not bear to speak of the day before was now high in her good +graces. + +Lydia's intention of walking to Meryton was not forgotten; +every sister except Mary agreed to go with her; and Mr. Collins +was to attend them, at the request of Mr. Bennet, who was most +anxious to get rid of him, and have his library to himself; for +thither Mr. Collins had followed him after breakfast; and there he +would continue, nominally engaged with one of the largest folios +in the collection, but really talking to Mr. Bennet, with little +cessation, of his house and garden at Hunsford. Such doings +discomposed Mr. Bennet exceedingly. In his library he had been +always sure of leisure and tranquillity; and though prepared, as +he told Elizabeth, to meet with folly and conceit in every other +room of the house, he was used to be free from them there; his +civility, therefore, was most prompt in inviting Mr. Collins to +join his daughters in their walk; and Mr. Collins, being in fact +much better fitted for a walker than a reader, was extremely +pleased to close his large book, and go. + +In pompous nothings on his side, and civil assents on that of +his cousins, their time passed till they entered Meryton. The +attention of the younger ones was then no longer to be gained by +him. Their eyes were immediately wandering up in the street in +quest of the officers, and nothing less than a very smart bonnet +indeed, or a really new muslin in a shop window, could recall +them. + +But the attention of every lady was soon caught by a young man, +whom they had never seen before, of most gentlemanlike +appearance, walking with another officer on the other side of the +way. The officer was the very Mr. Denny concerning whose +return from London Lydia came to inquire, and he bowed as +they passed. All were struck with the stranger's air, all +wondered who he could be; and Kitty and Lydia, determined if +possible to find out, led the way across the street, under pretense +of wanting something in an opposite shop, and fortunately had +just gained the pavement when the two gentlemen, turning back, +had reached the same spot. Mr. Denny addressed them directly, +and entreated permission to introduce his friend, Mr. Wickham, +who had returned with him the day before from town, and he +was happy to say had accepted a commission in their corps. +This was exactly as it should be; for the young man wanted only +regimentals to make him completely charming. His appearance +was greatly in his favour; he had all the best part of beauty, a +fine countenance, a good figure, and very pleasing address. The +introduction was followed up on his side by a happy readiness of +conversation--a readiness at the same time perfectly correct and +unassuming; and the whole party were still standing and talking +together very agreeably, when the sound of horses drew their +notice, and Darcy and Bingley were seen riding down the street. +On distinguishing the ladies of the group, the two gentlemen +came directly towards them, and began the usual civilities. +Bingley was the principal spokesman, and Miss Bennet the +principal object. He was then, he said, on his way to Longbourn +on purpose to inquire after her. Mr. Darcy corroborated it with +a bow, and was beginning to determine not to fix his eyes on +Elizabeth, when they were suddenly arrested by the sight of the +stranger, and Elizabeth happening to see the countenance of +both as they looked at each other, was all astonishment at the +effect of the meeting. Both changed colour, one looked white, +the other red. Mr. Wickham, after a few moments, touched his +hat--a salutation which Mr. Darcy just deigned to return. What +could be the meaning of it? It was impossible to imagine; it was +impossible not to long to know. + +In another minute, Mr. Bingley, but without seeming to have +noticed what passed, took leave and rode on with his friend. + +Mr. Denny and Mr. Wickham walked with the young ladies to +the door of Mr. Phillip's house, and then made their bows, in +spite of Miss Lydia's pressing entreaties that they should come +in, and even in spite of Mrs. Phillips's throwing up the parlour +window and loudly seconding the invitation. + +Mrs. Phillips was always glad to see her nieces; and the two +eldest, from their recent absence, were particularly welcome, and +she was eagerly expressing her surprise at their sudden return +home, which, as their own carriage had not fetched them, she +should have known nothing about, if she had not happened to +see Mr. Jones's shop-boy in the street, who had told her that +they were not to send any more draughts to Netherfield because +the Miss Bennets were come away, when her civility was +claimed towards Mr. Collins by Jane's introduction of him. She +received him with her very best politeness, which he returned +with as much more, apologising for his intrusion, without any +previous acquaintance with her, which he could not help +flattering himself, however, might be justified by his relationship +to the young ladies who introduced him to her notice. Mrs. +Phillips was quite awed by such an excess of good breeding; but +her contemplation of one stranger was soon put to an end by +exclamations and inquiries about the other; of whom, however, +she could only tell her nieces what they already knew, that Mr. +Denny had brought him from London, and that he was to have a +lieutenant's commission in the ----shire. She had been watching +him the last hour, she said, as he walked up and down the street, +and had Mr. Wickham appeared, Kitty and Lydia would certainly +have continued the occupation, but unluckily no one passed +windows now except a few of the officers, who, in comparison +with the stranger, were become "stupid, disagreeable fellows." +Some of them were to dine with the Phillipses the next day, and +their aunt promised to make her husband call on Mr. Wickham, +and give him an invitation also, if the family from Longbourn +would come in the evening. This was agreed to, and Mrs. +Phillips protested that they would have a nice comfortable noisy +game of lottery tickets, and a little bit of hot supper afterwards. +The prospect of such delights was very cheering, and they parted +in mutual good spirits. Mr. Collins repeated his apologies in +quitting the room, and was assured with unwearying civility that +they were perfectly needless. + +As they walked home, Elizabeth related to Jane what she had +seen pass between the two gentlemen; but though Jane would +have defended either or both, had they appeared to be in the +wrong, she could no more explain such behaviour than her sister. + +Mr. Collins on his return highly gratified Mrs. Bennet by +admiring Mrs. Phillips's manners and politeness. He protested +that, except Lady Catherine and her daughter, he had never seen +a more elegant woman; for she had not only received him with +the utmost civility, but even pointedly included him in her +invitation for the next evening, although utterly unknown to her +before. Something, he supposed, might be attributed to his +connection with them, but yet he had never met with so much +attention in the whole course of his life. + + + +Chapter 16 + + +As no objection was made to the young people's engagement +with their aunt, and all Mr. Collins's scruples of leaving Mr. +and Mrs. Bennet for a single evening during his visit were most +steadily resisted, the coach conveyed him and his five cousins +at a suitable hour to Meryton; and the girls had the pleasure of +hearing, as they entered the drawing-room, that Mr. Wickham +had accepted their uncle's invitation, and was then in the house. + +When this information was given, and they had all taken their +seats, Mr. Collins was at leisure to look around him and admire, +and he was so much struck with the size and furniture of the +apartment, that he declared he might almost have supposed +himself in the small summer breakfast parlour at Rosings; a +comparison that did not at first convey much gratification; but +when Mrs. Phillips understood from him what Rosings was, and +who was its proprietor--when she had listened to the description +of only one of Lady Catherine's drawing-rooms, and found that +the chimney-piece alone had cost eight hundred pounds, she felt +all the force of the compliment, and would hardly have resented +a comparison with the housekeeper's room. + +In describing to her all the grandeur of Lady Catherine and her +mansion, with occasional digressions in praise of his own humble +abode, and the improvements it was receiving, he was happily +employed until the gentlemen joined them; and he found in +Mrs. Phillips a very attentive listener, whose opinion of +his consequence increased with what she heard, and who was +resolving to retail it all among her neighbours as soon as she +could. To the girls, who could not listen to their cousin, +and who had nothing to do but to wish for an instrument, and +examine their own indifferent imitations of china on the +mantelpiece, the interval of waiting appeared very long. It was +over at last, however. The gentlemen did approach, and when +Mr. Wickham walked into the room, Elizabeth felt that she had +neither been seeing him before, nor thinking of him since, with +the smallest degree of unreasonable admiration. The officers of +the ----shire were in general a very creditable, gentlemanlike +set, and the best of them were of the present party; but Mr. +Wickham was as far beyond them all in person, countenance, air, +and walk, as _they_ were superior to the broad-faced, stuffy +uncle Phillips, breathing port wine, who followed them into +the room. + +Mr. Wickham was the happy man towards whom almost every +female eye was turned, and Elizabeth was the happy woman by +whom he finally seated himself; and the agreeable manner in +which he immediately fell into conversation, though it was only +on its being a wet night, made her feel that the commonest, +dullest, most threadbare topic might be rendered interesting by +the skill of the speaker. + +With such rivals for the notice of the fair as Mr. Wickham and +the officers, Mr. Collins seemed to sink into insignificance; to +the young ladies he certainly was nothing; but he had still at +intervals a kind listener in Mrs. Phillips, and was by her +watchfulness, most abundantly supplied with coffee and muffin. +When the card-tables were placed, he had the opportunity of +obliging her in turn, by sitting down to whist. + +"I know little of the game at present," said he, "but I shall be +glad to improve myself, for in my situation in life--" Mrs. Phillips +was very glad for his compliance, but could not wait for his +reason. + +Mr. Wickham did not play at whist, and with ready delight was he +received at the other table between Elizabeth and Lydia. At first +there seemed danger of Lydia's engrossing him entirely, for she +was a most determined talker; but being likewise extremely fond +of lottery tickets, she soon grew too much interested in the +game, too eager in making bets and exclaiming after prizes to +have attention for anyone in particular. Allowing for the +common demands of the game, Mr. Wickham was therefore at leisure +to talk to Elizabeth, and she was very willing to hear him, +though what she chiefly wished to hear she could not hope to be +told--the history of his acquaintance with Mr. Darcy. She dared +not even mention that gentleman. Her curiosity, however, was +unexpectedly relieved. Mr. Wickham began the subject himself. +He inquired how far Netherfield was from Meryton; and, after +receiving her answer, asked in a hesitating manner how long +Mr. Darcy had been staying there. + +"About a month," said Elizabeth; and then, unwilling to let the +subject drop, added, "He is a man of very large property in +Derbyshire, I understand." + +"Yes," replied Mr. Wickham; "his estate there is a noble one. +A clear ten thousand per annum. You could not have met with a +person more capable of giving you certain information on that +head than myself, for I have been connected with his family in +a particular manner from my infancy." + +Elizabeth could not but look surprised. + +"You may well be surprised, Miss Bennet, at such an assertion, +after seeing, as you probably might, the very cold manner of our +meeting yesterday. Are you much acquainted with Mr. Darcy?" + +"As much as I ever wish to be," cried Elizabeth very warmly. +"I have spent four days in the same house with him, and I think +him very disagreeable." + +"I have no right to give _my_ opinion," said Wickham, "as to his +being agreeable or otherwise. I am not qualified to form one. I +have known him too long and too well to be a fair judge. It is +impossible for _me_ to be impartial. But I believe your opinion +of him would in general astonish--and perhaps you would not +express it quite so strongly anywhere else. Here you are in your +own family." + +"Upon my word, I say no more _here_ than I might say in any +house in the neighbourhood, except Netherfield. He is not at all +liked in Hertfordshire. Everybody is disgusted with his pride. +You will not find him more favourably spoken of by anyone." + +"I cannot pretend to be sorry," said Wickham, after a short +interruption, "that he or that any man should not be estimated +beyond their deserts; but with _him_ I believe it does not often +happen. The world is blinded by his fortune and consequence, +or frightened by his high and imposing manners, and sees him +only as he chooses to be seen." + +"I should take him, even on _my_ slight acquaintance, to be an +ill-tempered man." Wickham only shook his head. + +"I wonder," said he, at the next opportunity of speaking, +"whether he is likely to be in this country much longer." + +"I do not at all know; but I _heard_ nothing of his going away +when I was at Netherfield. I hope your plans in favour of the +----shire will not be affected by his being in the neighbourhood." + +"Oh! no--it is not for _me_ to be driven away by Mr. Darcy. If +_he_ wishes to avoid seeing _me_, he must go. We are not on +friendly terms, and it always gives me pain to meet him, but I +have no reason for avoiding _him_ but what I might proclaim +before all the world, a sense of very great ill-usage, and most +painful regrets at his being what he is. His father, Miss Bennet, +the late Mr. Darcy, was one of the best men that ever breathed, +and the truest friend I ever had; and I can never be in company +with this Mr. Darcy without being grieved to the soul by a +thousand tender recollections. His behaviour to myself has been +scandalous; but I verily believe I could forgive him anything and +everything, rather than his disappointing the hopes and +disgracing the memory of his father." + +Elizabeth found the interest of the subject increase, and listened +with all her heart; but the delicacy of it prevented further inquiry. + +Mr. Wickham began to speak on more general topics, Meryton, +the neighbourhood, the society, appearing highly pleased with all +that he had yet seen, and speaking of the latter with gentle but +very intelligible gallantry. + +"It was the prospect of constant society, and good society," he +added, "which was my chief inducement to enter the ----shire. +I knew it to be a most respectable, agreeable corps, and my +friend Denny tempted me further by his account of their +present quarters, and the very great attentions and excellent +acquaintances Meryton had procured them. Society, I own, is +necessary to me. I have been a disappointed man, and my spirits +will not bear solitude. I _must_ have employment and society. +A military life is not what I was intended for, but circumstances +have now made it eligible. The church _ought_ to have been +my profession--I was brought up for the church, and I should at +this time have been in possession of a most valuable living, had +it pleased the gentleman we were speaking of just now." + +"Indeed!" + +"Yes--the late Mr. Darcy bequeathed me the next presentation +of the best living in his gift. He was my godfather, and +excessively attached to me. I cannot do justice to his kindness. +He meant to provide for me amply, and thought he had done it; +but when the living fell, it was given elsewhere." + +"Good heavens!" cried Elizabeth; "but how could _that_ be? +How could his will be disregarded? Why did you not seek legal +redress?" + +"There was just such an informality in the terms of the bequest +as to give me no hope from law. A man of honour could not have +doubted the intention, but Mr. Darcy chose to doubt it--or to +treat it as a merely conditional recommendation, and to assert that +I had forfeited all claim to it by extravagance, imprudence--in +short anything or nothing. Certain it is, that the living became +vacant two years ago, exactly as I was of an age to hold it, and +that it was given to another man; and no less certain is it, that +I cannot accuse myself of having really done anything to deserve +to lose it. I have a warm, unguarded temper, and I may have +spoken my opinion _of_ him, and _to_ him, too freely. I can recall +nothing worse. But the fact is, that we are very different sort +of men, and that he hates me." + +"This is quite shocking! He deserves to be publicly disgraced." + +"Some time or other he _will_ be--but it shall not be by _me_. +Till I can forget his father, I can never defy or expose _him_." + +Elizabeth honoured him for such feelings, and thought him +handsomer than ever as he expressed them. + +"But what," said she, after a pause, "can have been his motive? +What can have induced him to behave so cruelly?" + +"A thorough, determined dislike of me--a dislike which I cannot +but attribute in some measure to jealousy. Had the late Mr. +Darcy liked me less, his son might have borne with me better; +but his father's uncommon attachment to me irritated him, I +believe, very early in life. He had not a temper to bear the sort of +competition in which we stood--the sort of preference which +was often given me." + +"I had not thought Mr. Darcy so bad as this--though I have +never liked him. I had not thought so very ill of him. I had +supposed him to be despising his fellow-creatures in general, but +did not suspect him of descending to such malicious revenge, +such injustice, such inhumanity as this." + +After a few minutes' reflection, however, she continued, +"I _do_ remember his boasting one day, at Netherfield, of the +implacability of his resentments, of his having an unforgiving +temper. His disposition must be dreadful." + +"I will not trust myself on the subject," replied Wickham; "I +can hardly be just to him." + +Elizabeth was again deep in thought, and after a time exclaimed, +"To treat in such a manner the godson, the friend, the favourite +of his father!" She could have added, "A young man, too, +like _you_, whose very countenance may vouch for your being +amiable"--but she contented herself with, "and one, too, who +had probably been his companion from childhood, connected +together, as I think you said, in the closest manner!" + +"We were born in the same parish, within the same park; the +greatest part of our youth was passed together; inmates of the +same house, sharing the same amusements, objects of the same +parental care. _My_ father began life in the profession which +your uncle, Mr. Phillips, appears to do so much credit to--but +he gave up everything to be of use to the late Mr. Darcy and +devoted all his time to the care of the Pemberley property. +He was most highly esteemed by Mr. Darcy, a most intimate, +confidential friend. Mr. Darcy often acknowledged himself +to be under the greatest obligations to my father's active +superintendence, and when, immediately before my father's +death, Mr. Darcy gave him a voluntary promise of providing for +me, I am convinced that he felt it to be as much a debt of +gratitude to _him_, as of his affection to myself." + +"How strange!" cried Elizabeth. "How abominable! I wonder +that the very pride of this Mr. Darcy has not made him just to +you! If from no better motive, that he should not have been too +proud to be dishonest--for dishonesty I must call it." + +"It _is_ wonderful," replied Wickham, "for almost all his actions +may be traced to pride; and pride had often been his best friend. +It has connected him nearer with virtue than with any other +feeling. But we are none of us consistent, and in his behaviour +to me there were stronger impulses even than pride." + +"Can such abominable pride as his have ever done him good?" + +"Yes. It has often led him to be liberal and generous, to give his +money freely, to display hospitality, to assist his tenants, and +relieve the poor. Family pride, and _filial_ pride--for he is very +proud of what his father was--have done this. Not to appear to +disgrace his family, to degenerate from the popular qualities, or +lose the influence of the Pemberley House, is a powerful motive. +He has also _brotherly_ pride, which, with _some_ brotherly +affection, makes him a very kind and careful guardian of his +sister, and you will hear him generally cried up as the most +attentive and best of brothers." + +"What sort of girl is Miss Darcy?" + +He shook his head. "I wish I could call her amiable. It gives +me pain to speak ill of a Darcy. But she is too much like her +brother--very, very proud. As a child, she was affectionate +and pleasing, and extremely fond of me; and I have devoted hours +and hours to her amusement. But she is nothing to me now. +She is a handsome girl, about fifteen or sixteen, and, I +understand, highly accomplished. Since her father's death, +her home has been London, where a lady lives with her, and +superintends her education." + +After many pauses and many trials of other subjects, Elizabeth +could not help reverting once more to the first, and saying: + +"I am astonished at his intimacy with Mr. Bingley! How can Mr. +Bingley, who seems good humour itself, and is, I really believe, +truly amiable, be in friendship with such a man? How can they +suit each other? Do you know Mr. Bingley?" + +"Not at all." + +"He is a sweet-tempered, amiable, charming man. He cannot +know what Mr. Darcy is." + +"Probably not; but Mr. Darcy can please where he chooses. He +does not want abilities. He can be a conversible companion if he +thinks it worth his while. Among those who are at all his equals +in consequence, he is a very different man from what he is to the +less prosperous. His pride never deserts him; but with the rich +he is liberal-minded, just, sincere, rational, honourable, and +perhaps agreeable--allowing something for fortune and figure." + +The whist party soon afterwards breaking up, the players +gathered round the other table and Mr. Collins took his station +between his cousin Elizabeth and Mrs. Phillips. The usual +inquiries as to his success was made by the latter. It had not +been very great; he had lost every point; but when Mrs. Phillips +began to express her concern thereupon, he assured her with +much earnest gravity that it was not of the least importance, that +he considered the money as a mere trifle, and begged that she +would not make herself uneasy. + +"I know very well, madam," said he, "that when persons sit down +to a card-table, they must take their chances of these things, and +happily I am not in such circumstances as to make five shillings +any object. There are undoubtedly many who could not say the +same, but thanks to Lady Catherine de Bourgh, I am removed +far beyond the necessity of regarding little matters." + +Mr. Wickham's attention was caught; and after observing Mr. +Collins for a few moments, he asked Elizabeth in a low voice +whether her relation was very intimately acquainted with the +family of de Bourgh. + +"Lady Catherine de Bourgh," she replied, "has very lately given +him a living. I hardly know how Mr. Collins was first +introduced to her notice, but he certainly has not known her +long." + +"You know of course that Lady Catherine de Bourgh and Lady +Anne Darcy were sisters; consequently that she is aunt to the +present Mr. Darcy." + +"No, indeed, I did not. I knew nothing at all of Lady Catherine's +connections. I never heard of her existence till the day before +yesterday." + +"Her daughter, Miss de Bourgh, will have a very large fortune, +and it is believed that she and her cousin will unite the two +estates." + +This information made Elizabeth smile, as she thought of poor +Miss Bingley. Vain indeed must be all her attentions, vain and +useless her affection for his sister and her praise of himself, +if he were already self-destined for another. + +"Mr. Collins," said she, "speaks highly both of Lady Catherine +and her daughter; but from some particulars that he has related +of her ladyship, I suspect his gratitude misleads him, and that in +spite of her being his patroness, she is an arrogant, conceited +woman." + +"I believe her to be both in a great degree," replied Wickham; +"I have not seen her for many years, but I very well remember that +I never liked her, and that her manners were dictatorial and +insolent. She has the reputation of being remarkably sensible +and clever; but I rather believe she derives part of her abilities +from her rank and fortune, part from her authoritative manner, +and the rest from the pride for her nephew, who chooses that +everyone connected with him should have an understanding of +the first class." + +Elizabeth allowed that he had given a very rational account of it, +and they continued talking together, with mutual satisfaction +till supper put an end to cards, and gave the rest of the ladies +their share of Mr. Wickham's attentions. There could be no +conversation in the noise of Mrs. Phillips's supper party, but +his manners recommended him to everybody. Whatever he said, +was said well; and whatever he did, done gracefully. Elizabeth +went away with her head full of him. She could think of nothing +but of Mr. Wickham, and of what he had told her, all the way +home; but there was not time for her even to mention his name +as they went, for neither Lydia nor Mr. Collins were once silent. +Lydia talked incessantly of lottery tickets, of the fish she had +lost and the fish she had won; and Mr. Collins in describing the +civility of Mr. and Mrs. Phillips, protesting that he did not in +the least regard his losses at whist, enumerating all the dishes +at supper, and repeatedly fearing that he crowded his cousins, +had more to say than he could well manage before the carriage +stopped at Longbourn House. + + + +Chapter 17 + + +Elizabeth related to Jane the next day what had passed between +Mr. Wickham and herself. Jane listened with astonishment and +concern; she knew not how to believe that Mr. Darcy could be +so unworthy of Mr. Bingley's regard; and yet, it was not in her +nature to question the veracity of a young man of such amiable +appearance as Wickham. The possibility of his having endured +such unkindness, was enough to interest all her tender feelings; +and nothing remained therefore to be done, but to think well of +them both, to defend the conduct of each, and throw into the +account of accident or mistake whatever could not be otherwise +explained. + +"They have both," said she, "been deceived, I dare say, in some +way or other, of which we can form no idea. Interested people +have perhaps misrepresented each to the other. It is, in short, +impossible for us to conjecture the causes or circumstances +which may have alienated them, without actual blame on either +side." + +"Very true, indeed; and now, my dear Jane, what have you got +to say on behalf of the interested people who have probably been +concerned in the business? Do clear _them_ too, or we shall be +obliged to think ill of somebody." + +"Laugh as much as you choose, but you will not laugh me out of +my opinion. My dearest Lizzy, do but consider in what a +disgraceful light it places Mr. Darcy, to be treating his father's +favourite in such a manner, one whom his father had promised to +provide for. It is impossible. No man of common humanity, no +man who had any value for his character, could be capable of it. +Can his most intimate friends be so excessively deceived in him? +Oh! no." + +"I can much more easily believe Mr. Bingley's being imposed on, +than that Mr. Wickham should invent such a history of himself +as he gave me last night; names, facts, everything mentioned +without ceremony. If it be not so, let Mr. Darcy contradict it. +Besides, there was truth in his looks." + +"It is difficult indeed--it is distressing. One does not know what +to think." + +"I beg your pardon; one knows exactly what to think." + +But Jane could think with certainty on only one point--that Mr. +Bingley, if he _had_ been imposed on, would have much to suffer +when the affair became public. + +The two young ladies were summoned from the shrubbery, +where this conversation passed, by the arrival of the very +persons of whom they had been speaking; Mr. Bingley and his +sisters came to give their personal invitation for the +long-expected ball at Netherfield, which was fixed for the +following Tuesday. The two ladies were delighted to see their +dear friend again, called it an age since they had met, and +repeatedly asked what she had been doing with herself since +their separation. To the rest of the family they paid little +attention; avoiding Mrs. Bennet as much as possible, saying not +much to Elizabeth, and nothing at all to the others. They were +soon gone again, rising from their seats with an activity which +took their brother by surprise, and hurrying off as if eager to +escape from Mrs. Bennet's civilities. + +The prospect of the Netherfield ball was extremely agreeable to +every female of the family. Mrs. Bennet chose to consider it as +given in compliment to her eldest daughter, and was particularly +flattered by receiving the invitation from Mr. Bingley himself, +instead of a ceremonious card. Jane pictured to herself a happy +evening in the society of her two friends, and the attentions of +her brother; and Elizabeth thought with pleasure of dancing a +great deal with Mr. Wickham, and of seeing a confirmation of +everything in Mr. Darcy's look and behavior. The happiness +anticipated by Catherine and Lydia depended less on any single +event, or any particular person, for though they each, like +Elizabeth, meant to dance half the evening with Mr. Wickham, +he was by no means the only partner who could satisfy them, and +a ball was, at any rate, a ball. And even Mary could assure her +family that she had no disinclination for it. + +"While I can have my mornings to myself," said she, "it is +enough--I think it is no sacrifice to join occasionally in evening +engagements. Society has claims on us all; and I profess myself +one of those who consider intervals of recreation and amusement +as desirable for everybody." + +Elizabeth's spirits were so high on this occasion, that though she +did not often speak unnecessarily to Mr. Collins, she could not +help asking him whether he intended to accept Mr. Bingley's +invitation, and if he did, whether he would think it proper to join +in the evening's amusement; and she was rather surprised to find +that he entertained no scruple whatever on that head, and was +very far from dreading a rebuke either from the Archbishop, or +Lady Catherine de Bourgh, by venturing to dance. + +"I am by no means of the opinion, I assure you," said he, "that +a ball of this kind, given by a young man of character, to +respectable people, can have any evil tendency; and I am so +far from objecting to dancing myself, that I shall hope to be +honoured with the hands of all my fair cousins in the course of +the evening; and I take this opportunity of soliciting yours, Miss +Elizabeth, for the two first dances especially, a preference which +I trust my cousin Jane will attribute to the right cause, and not +to any disrespect for her." + +Elizabeth felt herself completely taken in. She had fully +proposed being engaged by Mr. Wickham for those very dances; +and to have Mr. Collins instead! her liveliness had never been +worse timed. There was no help for it, however. Mr. Wickham's +happiness and her own were perforce delayed a little longer, +and Mr. Collins's proposal accepted with as good a grace as she +could. She was not the better pleased with his gallantry from +the idea it suggested of something more. It now first struck +her, that _she_ was selected from among her sisters as worthy of +being mistress of Hunsford Parsonage, and of assisting to form +a quadrille table at Rosings, in the absence of more eligible +visitors. The idea soon reached to conviction, as she observed +his increasing civilities toward herself, and heard his +frequent attempt at a compliment on her wit and vivacity; and +though more astonished than gratified herself by this effect +of her charms, it was not long before her mother gave her to +understand that the probability of their marriage was extremely +agreeable to _her_. Elizabeth, however, did not choose to take +the hint, being well aware that a serious dispute must be the +consequence of any reply. Mr. Collins might never make the +offer, and till he did, it was useless to quarrel about him. + +If there had not been a Netherfield ball to prepare for and talk +of, the younger Miss Bennets would have been in a very pitiable +state at this time, for from the day of the invitation, to the day +of the ball, there was such a succession of rain as prevented their +walking to Meryton once. No aunt, no officers, no news could +be sought after--the very shoe-roses for Netherfield were got +by proxy. Even Elizabeth might have found some trial of her +patience in weather which totally suspended the improvement of +her acquaintance with Mr. Wickham; and nothing less than a +dance on Tuesday, could have made such a Friday, Saturday, +Sunday, and Monday endurable to Kitty and Lydia. + + + +Chapter 18 + + +Till Elizabeth entered the drawing-room at Netherfield, and +looked in vain for Mr. Wickham among the cluster of red coats +there assembled, a doubt of his being present had never occurred +to her. The certainty of meeting him had not been checked by +any of those recollections that might not unreasonably have +alarmed her. She had dressed with more than usual care, and +prepared in the highest spirits for the conquest of all that +remained unsubdued of his heart, trusting that it was not more +than might be won in the course of the evening. But in an +instant arose the dreadful suspicion of his being purposely +omitted for Mr. Darcy's pleasure in the Bingleys' invitation +to the officers; and though this was not exactly the case, the +absolute fact of his absence was pronounced by his friend Denny, +to whom Lydia eagerly applied, and who told them that Wickham +had been obliged to go to town on business the day before, and +was not yet returned; adding, with a significant smile, "I do not +imagine his business would have called him away just now, if he +had not wanted to avoid a certain gentleman here." + +This part of his intelligence, though unheard by Lydia, was +caught by Elizabeth, and, as it assured her that Darcy was not +less answerable for Wickham's absence than if her first surmise +had been just, every feeling of displeasure against the former +was so sharpened by immediate disappointment, that she could +hardly reply with tolerable civility to the polite inquiries +which he directly afterwards approached to make. Attendance, +forbearance, patience with Darcy, was injury to Wickham. She +was resolved against any sort of conversation with him, and +turned away with a degree of ill-humour which she could not +wholly surmount even in speaking to Mr. Bingley, whose blind +partiality provoked her. + +But Elizabeth was not formed for ill-humour; and though every +prospect of her own was destroyed for the evening, it could not +dwell long on her spirits; and having told all her griefs to +Charlotte Lucas, whom she had not seen for a week, she was +soon able to make a voluntary transition to the oddities of her +cousin, and to point him out to her particular notice. The first +two dances, however, brought a return of distress; they were +dances of mortification. Mr. Collins, awkward and solemn, +apologising instead of attending, and often moving wrong +without being aware of it, gave her all the shame and misery +which a disagreeable partner for a couple of dances can give. +The moment of her release from him was ecstasy. + +She danced next with an officer, and had the refreshment of +talking of Wickham, and of hearing that he was universally liked. +When those dances were over, she returned to Charlotte Lucas, +and was in conversation with her, when she found herself +suddenly addressed by Mr. Darcy who took her so much by surprise +in his application for her hand, that, without knowing what she +did, she accepted him. He walked away again immediately, and +she was left to fret over her own want of presence of mind; +Charlotte tried to console her: + +"I dare say you will find him very agreeable." + +"Heaven forbid! _That_ would be the greatest misfortune of all! +To find a man agreeable whom one is determined to hate! Do not +wish me such an evil." + +When the dancing recommenced, however, and Darcy approached to +claim her hand, Charlotte could not help cautioning her in a +whisper, not to be a simpleton, and allow her fancy for Wickham +to make her appear unpleasant in the eyes of a man ten times his +consequence. Elizabeth made no answer, and took her place in +the set, amazed at the dignity to which she was arrived in being +allowed to stand opposite to Mr. Darcy, and reading in her +neighbours' looks, their equal amazement in beholding it. They +stood for some time without speaking a word; and she began to +imagine that their silence was to last through the two dances, +and at first was resolved not to break it; till suddenly +fancying that it would be the greater punishment to her partner +to oblige him to talk, she made some slight observation on the +dance. He replied, and was again silent. After a pause of +some minutes, she addressed him a second time with:--"It is +_your_ turn to say something now, Mr. Darcy. I talked about +the dance, and _you_ ought to make some sort of remark on the +size of the room, or the number of couples." + +He smiled, and assured her that whatever she wished him to say +should be said. + +"Very well. That reply will do for the present. Perhaps by and +by I may observe that private balls are much pleasanter than +public ones. But _now_ we may be silent." + +"Do you talk by rule, then, while you are dancing?" + +"Sometimes. One must speak a little, you know. It would look +odd to be entirely silent for half an hour together; and yet for +the advantage of _some_, conversation ought to be so arranged, as +that they may have the trouble of saying as little as possible." + +"Are you consulting your own feelings in the present case, or do +you imagine that you are gratifying mine?" + +"Both," replied Elizabeth archly; "for I have always seen a great +similarity in the turn of our minds. We are each of an unsocial, +taciturn disposition, unwilling to speak, unless we expect to say +something that will amaze the whole room, and be handed down +to posterity with all the eclat of a proverb." + +"This is no very striking resemblance of your own character, +I am sure," said he. "How near it may be to _mine_, I cannot +pretend to say. _You_ think it a faithful portrait undoubtedly." + +"I must not decide on my own performance." + +He made no answer, and they were again silent till they had gone +down the dance, when he asked her if she and her sisters did not +very often walk to Meryton. She answered in the affirmative, +and, unable to resist the temptation, added, "When you met us +there the other day, we had just been forming a new acquaintance." + +The effect was immediate. A deeper shade of _hauteur_ overspread +his features, but he said not a word, and Elizabeth, though +blaming herself for her own weakness, could not go on. At +length Darcy spoke, and in a constrained manner said, "Mr. +Wickham is blessed with such happy manners as may ensure his +_making_ friends--whether he may be equally capable of _retaining_ +them, is less certain." + +"He has been so unlucky as to lose _your_ friendship," replied +Elizabeth with emphasis, "and in a manner which he is likely to +suffer from all his life." + +Darcy made no answer, and seemed desirous of changing the +subject. At that moment, Sir William Lucas appeared close to +them, meaning to pass through the set to the other side of the +room; but on perceiving Mr. Darcy, he stopped with a bow of +superior courtesy to compliment him on his dancing and his +partner. + +"I have been most highly gratified indeed, my dear sir. Such +very superior dancing is not often seen. It is evident that you +belong to the first circles. Allow me to say, however, that your +fair partner does not disgrace you, and that I must hope to have +this pleasure often repeated, especially when a certain desirable +event, my dear Eliza (glancing at her sister and Bingley) shall +take place. What congratulations will then flow in! I appeal to +Mr. Darcy:--but let me not interrupt you, sir. You will not +thank me for detaining you from the bewitching converse of that +young lady, whose bright eyes are also upbraiding me." + +The latter part of this address was scarcely heard by Darcy; +but Sir William's allusion to his friend seemed to strike him +forcibly, and his eyes were directed with a very serious +expression towards Bingley and Jane, who were dancing together. +Recovering himself, however, shortly, he turned to his partner, +and said, "Sir William's interruption has made me forget what +we were talking of." + +"I do not think we were speaking at all. Sir William could not +have interrupted two people in the room who had less to say for +themselves. We have tried two or three subjects already without +success, and what we are to talk of next I cannot imagine." + +"What think you of books?" said he, smiling. + +"Books--oh! no. I am sure we never read the same, or not with +the same feelings." + +"I am sorry you think so; but if that be the case, there can at +least be no want of subject. We may compare our different +opinions." + +"No--I cannot talk of books in a ball-room; my head is always +full of something else." + +"The _present_ always occupies you in such scenes--does it?" +said he, with a look of doubt. + +"Yes, always," she replied, without knowing what she said, +for her thoughts had wandered far from the subject, as soon +afterwards appeared by her suddenly exclaiming, "I remember +hearing you once say, Mr. Darcy, that you hardly ever forgave, +that your resentment once created was unappeasable. You are +very cautious, I suppose, as to its _being created_." + +"I am," said he, with a firm voice. + +"And never allow yourself to be blinded by prejudice?" + +"I hope not." + +"It is particularly incumbent on those who never change their +opinion, to be secure of judging properly at first." + +"May I ask to what these questions tend?" + +"Merely to the illustration of _your_ character," said she, +endeavouring to shake off her gravity. "I am trying to make +it out." + +"And what is your success?" + +She shook her head. "I do not get on at all. I hear such +different accounts of you as puzzle me exceedingly." + +"I can readily believe," answered he gravely, "that reports may +vary greatly with respect to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, +that you were not to sketch my character at the present moment, +as there is reason to fear that the performance would reflect no +credit on either." + +"But if I do not take your likeness now, I may never have +another opportunity." + +"I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours," he coldly +replied. She said no more, and they went down the other dance +and parted in silence; and on each side dissatisfied, though not +to an equal degree, for in Darcy's breast there was a tolerable +powerful feeling towards her, which soon procured her pardon, +and directed all his anger against another. + +They had not long separated, when Miss Bingley came towards +her, and with an expression of civil disdain accosted her: + +"So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite delighted with George +Wickham! Your sister has been talking to me about him, and +asking me a thousand questions; and I find that the young man +quite forgot to tell you, among his other communication, that +he was the son of old Wickham, the late Mr. Darcy's steward. +Let me recommend you, however, as a friend, not to give implicit +confidence to all his assertions; for as to Mr. Darcy's using +him ill, it is perfectly false; for, on the contrary, he has +always been remarkably kind to him, though George Wickham has +treated Mr. Darcy in a most infamous manner. I do not know the +particulars, but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the +least to blame, that he cannot bear to hear George Wickham +mentioned, and that though my brother thought that he could not +well avoid including him in his invitation to the officers, he +was excessively glad to find that he had taken himself out of the +way. His coming into the country at all is a most insolent thing, +indeed, and I wonder how he could presume to do it. I pity you, +Miss Eliza, for this discovery of your favourite's guilt; but +really, considering his descent, one could not expect much better." + +"His guilt and his descent appear by your account to be the +same," said Elizabeth angrily; "for I have heard you accuse him +of nothing worse than of being the son of Mr. Darcy's steward, +and of _that_, I can assure you, he informed me himself." + +"I beg your pardon," replied Miss Bingley, turning away with a +sneer. "Excuse my interference--it was kindly meant." + +"Insolent girl!" said Elizabeth to herself. "You are much +mistaken if you expect to influence me by such a paltry attack +as this. I see nothing in it but your own wilful ignorance and +the malice of Mr. Darcy." She then sought her eldest sister, who +has undertaken to make inquiries on the same subject of Bingley. +Jane met her with a smile of such sweet complacency, a glow of +such happy expression, as sufficiently marked how well she was +satisfied with the occurrences of the evening. Elizabeth instantly +read her feelings, and at that moment solicitude for Wickham, +resentment against his enemies, and everything else, gave way +before the hope of Jane's being in the fairest way for happiness. + +"I want to know," said she, with a countenance no less smiling +than her sister's, "what you have learnt about Mr. Wickham. +But perhaps you have been too pleasantly engaged to think of +any third person; in which case you may be sure of my pardon." + +"No," replied Jane, "I have not forgotten him; but I have nothing +satisfactory to tell you. Mr. Bingley does not know the whole of +his history, and is quite ignorant of the circumstances which have +principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will vouch for the good +conduct, the probity, and honour of his friend, and is perfectly +convinced that Mr. Wickham has deserved much less attention +from Mr. Darcy than he has received; and I am sorry to say by +his account as well as his sister's, Mr. Wickham is by no means a +respectable young man. I am afraid he has been very imprudent, +and has deserved to lose Mr. Darcy's regard." + +"Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham himself?" + +"No; he never saw him till the other morning at Meryton." + +"This account then is what he has received from Mr. Darcy. +I am satisfied. But what does he say of the living?" + +"He does not exactly recollect the circumstances, though he has +heard them from Mr. Darcy more than once, but he believes that +it was left to him _conditionally_ only." + +"I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley's sincerity," said Elizabeth +warmly; "but you must excuse my not being convinced by +assurances only. Mr. Bingley's defense of his friend was a very +able one, I dare say; but since he is unacquainted with several +parts of the story, and has learnt the rest from that friend +himself, I shall venture to still think of both gentlemen as I +did before." + +She then changed the discourse to one more gratifying to each, +and on which there could be no difference of sentiment. +Elizabeth listened with delight to the happy, though modest +hopes which Jane entertained of Mr. Bingley's regard, and said +all in her power to heighten her confidence in it. On their being +joined by Mr. Bingley himself, Elizabeth withdrew to Miss +Lucas; to whose inquiry after the pleasantness of her last partner +she had scarcely replied, before Mr. Collins came up to them, +and told her with great exultation that he had just been so +fortunate as to make a most important discovery. + +"I have found out," said he, "by a singular accident, that there +is now in the room a near relation of my patroness. I happened +to overhear the gentleman himself mentioning to the young lady who +does the honours of the house the names of his cousin Miss de +Bourgh, and of her mother Lady Catherine. How wonderfully these +sort of things occur! Who would have thought of my meeting with, +perhaps, a nephew of Lady Catherine de Bourgh in this assembly! +I am most thankful that the discovery is made in time for me to +pay my respects to him, which I am now going to do, and trust +he will excuse my not having done it before. My total ignorance +of the connection must plead my apology." + +"You are not going to introduce yourself to Mr. Darcy!" + +"Indeed I am. I shall entreat his pardon for not having done it +earlier. I believe him to be Lady Catherine's _nephew_. It will +be in my power to assure him that her ladyship was quite well +yesterday se'nnight." + +Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a scheme, +assuring him that Mr. Darcy would consider his addressing him +without introduction as an impertinent freedom, rather than a +compliment to his aunt; that it was not in the least necessary +there should be any notice on either side; and that if it were, +it must belong to Mr. Darcy, the superior in consequence, to +begin the acquaintance. Mr. Collins listened to her with the +determined air of following his own inclination, and, when she +ceased speaking, replied thus: + +"My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest opinion in the world +in your excellent judgement in all matters within the scope of +your understanding; but permit me to say, that there must be a +wide difference between the established forms of ceremony amongst +the laity, and those which regulate the clergy; for, give me +leave to observe that I consider the clerical office as equal in +point of dignity with the highest rank in the kingdom--provided +that a proper humility of behaviour is at the same time +maintained. You must therefore allow me to follow the dictates +of my conscience on this occasion, which leads me to perform what +I look on as a point of duty. Pardon me for neglecting to profit +by your advice, which on every other subject shall be my constant +guide, though in the case before us I consider myself more fitted +by education and habitual study to decide on what is right than +a young lady like yourself." And with a low bow he left her to +attack Mr. Darcy, whose reception of his advances she eagerly +watched, and whose astonishment at being so addressed was very +evident. Her cousin prefaced his speech with a solemn bow and +though she could not hear a word of it, she felt as if hearing +it all, and saw in the motion of his lips the words "apology," +"Hunsford," and "Lady Catherine de Bourgh." It vexed her to +see him expose himself to such a man. Mr. Darcy was eyeing him +with unrestrained wonder, and when at last Mr. Collins allowed +him time to speak, replied with an air of distant civility. Mr. +Collins, however, was not discouraged from speaking again, and +Mr. Darcy's contempt seemed abundantly increasing with the length +of his second speech, and at the end of it he only made him a +slight bow, and moved another way. Mr. Collins then returned +to Elizabeth. + +"I have no reason, I assure you," said he, "to be dissatisfied +with my reception. Mr. Darcy seemed much pleased with the +attention. He answered me with the utmost civility, and even +paid me the compliment of saying that he was so well convinced +of Lady Catherine's discernment as to be certain she could never +bestow a favour unworthily. It was really a very handsome +thought. Upon the whole, I am much pleased with him." + +As Elizabeth had no longer any interest of her own to pursue, +she turned her attention almost entirely on her sister and Mr. +Bingley; and the train of agreeable reflections which her +observations gave birth to, made her perhaps almost as happy as +Jane. She saw her in idea settled in that very house, in all the +felicity which a marriage of true affection could bestow; and she +felt capable, under such circumstances, of endeavouring even to +like Bingley's two sisters. Her mother's thoughts she plainly +saw were bent the same way, and she determined not to venture +near her, lest she might hear too much. When they sat down to +supper, therefore, she considered it a most unlucky perverseness +which placed them within one of each other; and deeply was she +vexed to find that her mother was talking to that one person +(Lady Lucas) freely, openly, and of nothing else but her +expectation that Jane would soon be married to Mr. Bingley. It +was an animating subject, and Mrs. Bennet seemed incapable of +fatigue while enumerating the advantages of the match. His +being such a charming young man, and so rich, and living but +three miles from them, were the first points of self-gratulation; +and then it was such a comfort to think how fond the two sisters +were of Jane, and to be certain that they must desire the +connection as much as she could do. It was, moreover, such a +promising thing for her younger daughters, as Jane's marrying so +greatly must throw them in the way of other rich men; and lastly, +it was so pleasant at her time of life to be able to consign her +single daughters to the care of their sister, that she might not +be obliged to go into company more than she liked. It was +necessary to make this circumstance a matter of pleasure, +because on such occasions it is the etiquette; but no one was less +likely than Mrs. Bennet to find comfort in staying home at any +period of her life. She concluded with many good wishes that +Lady Lucas might soon be equally fortunate, though evidently +and triumphantly believing there was no chance of it. + +In vain did Elizabeth endeavour to check the rapidity of her +mother's words, or persuade her to describe her felicity in a +less audible whisper; for, to her inexpressible vexation, she +could perceive that the chief of it was overheard by Mr. Darcy, +who sat opposite to them. Her mother only scolded her for +being nonsensical. + +"What is Mr. Darcy to me, pray, that I should be afraid of him? +I am sure we owe him no such particular civility as to be obliged +to say nothing _he_ may not like to hear." + +"For heaven's sake, madam, speak lower. What advantage can +it be for you to offend Mr. Darcy? You will never recommend +yourself to his friend by so doing!" + +Nothing that she could say, however, had any influence. Her +mother would talk of her views in the same intelligible tone. +Elizabeth blushed and blushed again with shame and vexation. +She could not help frequently glancing her eye at Mr. Darcy, +though every glance convinced her of what she dreaded; for +though he was not always looking at her mother, she was +convinced that his attention was invariably fixed by her. +The expression of his face changed gradually from indignant +contempt to a composed and steady gravity. + +At length, however, Mrs. Bennet had no more to say; and Lady +Lucas, who had been long yawning at the repetition of delights +which she saw no likelihood of sharing, was left to the comforts +of cold ham and chicken. Elizabeth now began to revive. But +not long was the interval of tranquillity; for, when supper was +over, singing was talked of, and she had the mortification of +seeing Mary, after very little entreaty, preparing to oblige the +company. By many significant looks and silent entreaties, did +she endeavour to prevent such a proof of complaisance, but in +vain; Mary would not understand them; such an opportunity of +exhibiting was delightful to her, and she began her song. +Elizabeth's eyes were fixed on her with most painful sensations, +and she watched her progress through the several stanzas with +an impatience which was very ill rewarded at their close; for +Mary, on receiving, amongst the thanks of the table, the hint of +a hope that she might be prevailed on to favour them again, after +the pause of half a minute began another. Mary's powers were +by no means fitted for such a display; her voice was weak, and +her manner affected. Elizabeth was in agonies. She looked at +Jane, to see how she bore it; but Jane was very composedly +talking to Bingley. She looked at his two sisters, and saw +them making signs of derision at each other, and at Darcy, who +continued, however, imperturbably grave. She looked at her +father to entreat his interference, lest Mary should be singing all +night. He took the hint, and when Mary had finished her second +song, said aloud, "That will do extremely well, child. You have +delighted us long enough. Let the other young ladies have time +to exhibit." + +Mary, though pretending not to hear, was somewhat disconcerted; +and Elizabeth, sorry for her, and sorry for her father's speech, +was afraid her anxiety had done no good. Others of the party +were now applied to. + +"If I," said Mr. Collins, "were so fortunate as to be able to sing, +I should have great pleasure, I am sure, in obliging the company +with an air; for I consider music as a very innocent diversion, +and perfectly compatible with the profession of a clergyman. I do +not mean, however, to assert that we can be justified in devoting +too much of our time to music, for there are certainly other things +to be attended to. The rector of a parish has much to do. In the +first place, he must make such an agreement for tithes as may be +beneficial to himself and not offensive to his patron. He must +write his own sermons; and the time that remains will not be too +much for his parish duties, and the care and improvement of his +dwelling, which he cannot be excused from making as comfortable +as possible. And I do not think it of light importance that he +should have attentive and conciliatory manner towards everybody, +especially towards those to whom he owes his preferment. I +cannot acquit him of that duty; nor could I think well of the +man who should omit an occasion of testifying his respect +towards anybody connected with the family." And with a bow to +Mr. Darcy, he concluded his speech, which had been spoken so +loud as to be heard by half the room. Many stared--many smiled; +but no one looked more amused than Mr. Bennet himself, while +his wife seriously commended Mr. Collins for having spoken so +sensibly, and observed in a half-whisper to Lady Lucas, that he +was a remarkably clever, good kind of young man. + +To Elizabeth it appeared that, had her family made an agreement +to expose themselves as much as they could during the +evening, it would have been impossible for them to play their +parts with more spirit or finer success; and happy did she think +it for Bingley and her sister that some of the exhibition had +escaped his notice, and that his feelings were not of a sort to +be much distressed by the folly which he must have witnessed. +That his two sisters and Mr. Darcy, however, should have such +an opportunity of ridiculing her relations, was bad enough, and +she could not determine whether the silent contempt of the +gentleman, or the insolent smiles of the ladies, were more +intolerable. + +The rest of the evening brought her little amusement. She was +teased by Mr. Collins, who continued most perseveringly by her +side, and though he could not prevail on her to dance with him +again, put it out of her power to dance with others. In vain +did she entreat him to stand up with somebody else, and offer to +introduce him to any young lady in the room. He assured her, +that as to dancing, he was perfectly indifferent to it; that his +chief object was by delicate attentions to recommend himself to +her and that he should therefore make a point of remaining close +to her the whole evening. There was no arguing upon such a +project. She owed her greatest relief to her friend Miss Lucas, +who often joined them, and good-naturedly engaged Mr. Collins's +conversation to herself. + +She was at least free from the offense of Mr. Darcy's further +notice; though often standing within a very short distance of her, +quite disengaged, he never came near enough to speak. She felt +it to be the probable consequence of her allusions to Mr. Wickham, +and rejoiced in it. + +The Longbourn party were the last of all the company to depart, +and, by a manoeuvre of Mrs. Bennet, had to wait for their +carriage a quarter of an hour after everybody else was gone, +which gave them time to see how heartily they were wished +away by some of the family. Mrs. Hurst and her sister scarcely +opened their mouths, except to complain of fatigue, and were +evidently impatient to have the house to themselves. They +repulsed every attempt of Mrs. Bennet at conversation, and by +so doing threw a languor over the whole party, which was very +little relieved by the long speeches of Mr. Collins, who was +complimenting Mr. Bingley and his sisters on the elegance of +their entertainment, and the hospitality and politeness which had +marked their behaviour to their guests. Darcy said nothing at all. +Mr. Bennet, in equal silence, was enjoying the scene. Mr. +Bingley and Jane were standing together, a little detached from +the rest, and talked only to each other. Elizabeth preserved as +steady a silence as either Mrs. Hurst or Miss Bingley; and even +Lydia was too much fatigued to utter more than the occasional +exclamation of "Lord, how tired I am!" accompanied by a +violent yawn. + +When at length they arose to take leave, Mrs. Bennet was most +pressingly civil in her hope of seeing the whole family soon +at Longbourn, and addressed herself especially to Mr. Bingley, +to assure him how happy he would make them by eating a family +dinner with them at any time, without the ceremony of a formal +invitation. Bingley was all grateful pleasure, and he readily +engaged for taking the earliest opportunity of waiting on her, +after his return from London, whither he was obliged to go the +next day for a short time. + +Mrs. Bennet was perfectly satisfied, and quitted the house under +the delightful persuasion that, allowing for the necessary +preparations of settlements, new carriages, and wedding clothes, +she should undoubtedly see her daughter settled at Netherfield in +the course of three or four months. Of having another daughter +married to Mr. Collins, she thought with equal certainty, and +with considerable, though not equal, pleasure. Elizabeth was the +least dear to her of all her children; and though the man and the +match were quite good enough for _her_, the worth of each was +eclipsed by Mr. Bingley and Netherfield. + + + +Chapter 19 + + +The next day opened a new scene at Longbourn. Mr. Collins +made his declaration in form. Having resolved to do it without +loss of time, as his leave of absence extended only to the +following Saturday, and having no feelings of diffidence to make +it distressing to himself even at the moment, he set about it +in a very orderly manner, with all the observances, which +he supposed a regular part of the business. On finding Mrs. +Bennet, Elizabeth, and one of the younger girls together, soon +after breakfast, he addressed the mother in these words: + +"May I hope, madam, for your interest with your fair daughter +Elizabeth, when I solicit for the honour of a private audience +with her in the course of this morning?" + +Before Elizabeth had time for anything but a blush of surprise, +Mrs. Bennet answered instantly, "Oh dear!--yes--certainly. I +am sure Lizzy will be very happy--I am sure she can have no +objection. Come, Kitty, I want you upstairs." And, gathering +her work together, she was hastening away, when Elizabeth +called out: + +"Dear madam, do not go. I beg you will not go. Mr. Collins +must excuse me. He can have nothing to say to me that anybody +need not hear. I am going away myself." + +"No, no, nonsense, Lizzy. I desire you to stay where you are." +And upon Elizabeth's seeming really, with vexed and embarrassed +looks, about to escape, she added: "Lizzy, I _insist_ upon your +staying and hearing Mr. Collins." + +Elizabeth would not oppose such an injunction--and a moment's +consideration making her also sensible that it would be wisest to +get it over as soon and as quietly as possible, she sat down again +and tried to conceal, by incessant employment the feelings which +were divided between distress and diversion. Mrs. Bennet and Kitty +walked off, and as soon as they were gone, Mr. Collins began. + +"Believe me, my dear Miss Elizabeth, that your modesty, so far +from doing you any disservice, rather adds to your other +perfections. You would have been less amiable in my eyes had +there _not_ been this little unwillingness; but allow me to assure +you, that I have your respected mother's permission for this +address. You can hardly doubt the purport of my discourse, +however your natural delicacy may lead you to dissemble; my +attentions have been too marked to be mistaken. Almost as soon +as I entered the house, I singled you out as the companion of +my future life. But before I am run away with by my feelings on +this subject, perhaps it would be advisable for me to state my +reasons for marrying--and, moreover, for coming into Hertfordshire +with the design of selecting a wife, as I certainly did." + +The idea of Mr. Collins, with all his solemn composure, being +run away with by his feelings, made Elizabeth so near laughing, +that she could not use the short pause he allowed in any attempt +to stop him further, and he continued: + +"My reasons for marrying are, first, that I think it a right +thing for every clergyman in easy circumstances (like myself) to +set the example of matrimony in his parish; secondly, that I am +convinced that it will add very greatly to my happiness; and +thirdly--which perhaps I ought to have mentioned earlier, that +it is the particular advice and recommendation of the very noble +lady whom I have the honour of calling patroness. Twice has +she condescended to give me her opinion (unasked too!) on this +subject; and it was but the very Saturday night before I left +Hunsford--between our pools at quadrille, while Mrs. Jenkinson +was arranging Miss de Bourgh's footstool, that she said, 'Mr. +Collins, you must marry. A clergyman like you must marry. +Choose properly, choose a gentlewoman for _my_ sake; and for +your _own_, let her be an active, useful sort of person, not brought +up high, but able to make a small income go a good way. This is +my advice. Find such a woman as soon as you can, bring her to +Hunsford, and I will visit her.' Allow me, by the way, to +observe, my fair cousin, that I do not reckon the notice and +kindness of Lady Catherine de Bourgh as among the least of the +advantages in my power to offer. You will find her manners +beyond anything I can describe; and your wit and vivacity, I +think, must be acceptable to her, especially when tempered with +the silence and respect which her rank will inevitably excite. +Thus much for my general intention in favour of matrimony; +it remains to be told why my views were directed towards +Longbourn instead of my own neighbourhood, where I can +assure you there are many amiable young women. But the fact +is, that being, as I am, to inherit this estate after the death of +your honoured father (who, however, may live many years +longer), I could not satisfy myself without resolving to choose a +wife from among his daughters, that the loss to them might be as +little as possible, when the melancholy event takes place--which, +however, as I have already said, may not be for several years. +This has been my motive, my fair cousin, and I flatter myself it +will not sink me in your esteem. And now nothing remains but +for me but to assure you in the most animated language of the +violence of my affection. To fortune I am perfectly indifferent, +and shall make no demand of that nature on your father, since I +am well aware that it could not be complied with; and that one +thousand pounds in the four per cents, which will not be yours +till after your mother's decease, is all that you may ever be +entitled to. On that head, therefore, I shall be uniformly silent; +and you may assure yourself that no ungenerous reproach shall +ever pass my lips when we are married." + +It was absolutely necessary to interrupt him now. + +"You are too hasty, sir," she cried. "You forget that I have +made no answer. Let me do it without further loss of time. +Accept my thanks for the compliment you are paying me. I am +very sensible of the honour of your proposals, but it is +impossible for me to do otherwise than to decline them." + +"I am not now to learn," replied Mr. Collins, with a formal wave +of the hand, "that it is usual with young ladies to reject the +addresses of the man whom they secretly mean to accept, when +he first applies for their favour; and that sometimes the refusal +is repeated a second, or even a third time. I am therefore by no +means discouraged by what you have just said, and shall hope to +lead you to the altar ere long." + +"Upon my word, sir," cried Elizabeth, "your hope is a rather +extraordinary one after my declaration. I do assure you that I +am not one of those young ladies (if such young ladies there are) +who are so daring as to risk their happiness on the chance of +being asked a second time. I am perfectly serious in my refusal. +You could not make _me_ happy, and I am convinced that I am +the last woman in the world who could make you so. Nay, were +your friend Lady Catherine to know me, I am persuaded she +would find me in every respect ill qualified for the situation." + +"Were it certain that Lady Catherine would think so," said Mr. +Collins very gravely--"but I cannot imagine that her ladyship +would at all disapprove of you. And you may be certain when I +have the honour of seeing her again, I shall speak in the very +highest terms of your modesty, economy, and other amiable +qualification." + +"Indeed, Mr. Collins, all praise of me will be unnecessary. +You must give me leave to judge for myself, and pay me the +compliment of believing what I say. I wish you very happy and +very rich, and by refusing your hand, do all in my power to +prevent your being otherwise. In making me the offer, you must +have satisfied the delicacy of your feelings with regard to my +family, and may take possession of Longbourn estate whenever +it falls, without any self-reproach. This matter may be +considered, therefore, as finally settled." And rising as she +thus spoke, she would have quitted the room, had Mr. Collins +not thus addressed her: + +"When I do myself the honour of speaking to you next on the +subject, I shall hope to receive a more favourable answer than +you have now given me; though I am far from accusing you of +cruelty at present, because I know it to be the established +custom of your sex to reject a man on the first application, and +perhaps you have even now said as much to encourage my suit +as would be consistent with the true delicacy of the female +character." + +"Really, Mr. Collins," cried Elizabeth with some warmth, "you +puzzle me exceedingly. If what I have hitherto said can appear +to you in the form of encouragement, I know not how to express +my refusal in such a way as to convince you of its being one." + +"You must give me leave to flatter myself, my dear cousin, that +your refusal of my addresses is merely words of course. My +reasons for believing it are briefly these: It does not appear +to me that my hand is unworthy your acceptance, or that the +establishment I can offer would be any other than highly +desirable. My situation in life, my connections with the family +of de Bourgh, and my relationship to your own, are circumstances +highly in my favour; and you should take it into further +consideration, that in spite of your manifold attractions, it is +by no means certain that another offer of marriage may ever be +made you. Your portion is unhappily so small that it will in +all likelihood undo the effects of your loveliness and amiable +qualifications. As I must therefore conclude that you are not +serious in your rejection of me, I shall choose to attribute it +to your wish of increasing my love by suspense, according to the +usual practice of elegant females." + +"I do assure you, sir, that I have no pretensions whatever to that +kind of elegance which consists in tormenting a respectable man. +I would rather be paid the compliment of being believed sincere. +I thank you again and again for the honour you have done me in +your proposals, but to accept them is absolutely impossible. My +feelings in every respect forbid it. Can I speak plainer? Do not +consider me now as an elegant female, intending to plague you, +but as a rational creature, speaking the truth from her heart." + +"You are uniformly charming!" cried he, with an air of awkward +gallantry; "and I am persuaded that when sanctioned by the +express authority of both your excellent parents, my proposals +will not fail of being acceptable." + +To such perseverance in wilful self-deception Elizabeth would +make no reply, and immediately and in silence withdrew; +determined, if he persisted in considering her repeated +refusals as flattering encouragement, to apply to her father, +whose negative might be uttered in such a manner as to be +decisive, and whose behavior at least could not be mistaken +for the affectation and coquetry of an elegant female. + + + +Chapter 20 + + +Mr. Collins was not left long to the silent contemplation of his +successful love; for Mrs. Bennet, having dawdled about in the +vestibule to watch for the end of the conference, no sooner saw +Elizabeth open the door and with quick step pass her towards +the staircase, than she entered the breakfast-room, and +congratulated both him and herself in warm terms on the happy +prospect or their nearer connection. Mr. Collins received and +returned these felicitations with equal pleasure, and then +proceeded to relate the particulars of their interview, with the +result of which he trusted he had every reason to be satisfied, +since the refusal which his cousin had steadfastly given him +would naturally flow from her bashful modesty and the genuine +delicacy of her character. + +This information, however, startled Mrs. Bennet; she would +have been glad to be equally satisfied that her daughter had +meant to encourage him by protesting against his proposals, +but she dared not believe it, and could not help saying so. + +"But, depend upon it, Mr. Collins," she added, "that Lizzy shall +be brought to reason. I will speak to her about it directly. +She is a very headstrong, foolish girl, and does not know her +own interest but I will _make_ her know it." + +"Pardon me for interrupting you, madam," cried Mr. Collins; +"but if she is really headstrong and foolish, I know not whether +she would altogether be a very desirable wife to a man in my +situation, who naturally looks for happiness in the marriage +state. If therefore she actually persists in rejecting my suit, +perhaps it were better not to force her into accepting me, +because if liable to such defects of temper, she could not +contribute much to my felicity." + +"Sir, you quite misunderstand me," said Mrs. Bennet, alarmed. +"Lizzy is only headstrong in such matters as these. In everything +else she is as good-natured a girl as ever lived. I will go +directly to Mr. Bennet, and we shall very soon settle it with her, +I am sure." + +She would not give him time to reply, but hurrying instantly to +her husband, called out as she entered the library, "Oh! Mr. +Bennet, you are wanted immediately; we are all in an uproar. +You must come and make Lizzy marry Mr. Collins, for she vows +she will not have him, and if you do not make haste he will +change his mind and not have _her_." + +Mr. Bennet raised his eyes from his book as she entered, and +fixed them on her face with a calm unconcern which was not in +the least altered by her communication. + +"I have not the pleasure of understanding you," said he, when +she had finished her speech. "Of what are you talking?" + +"Of Mr. Collins and Lizzy. Lizzy declares she will not have +Mr. Collins, and Mr. Collins begins to say that he will not +have Lizzy." + +"And what am I to do on the occasion? It seems an hopeless +business." + +"Speak to Lizzy about it yourself. Tell her that you insist upon +her marrying him." + +"Let her be called down. She shall hear my opinion." + +Mrs. Bennet rang the bell, and Miss Elizabeth was summoned to +the library. + +"Come here, child," cried her father as she appeared. "I have +sent for you on an affair of importance. I understand that Mr. +Collins has made you an offer of marriage. Is it true?" Elizabeth +replied that it was. "Very well--and this offer of marriage you +have refused?" + +"I have, sir." + +"Very well. We now come to the point. Your mother insists +upon your accepting it. Is it not so, Mrs. Bennet?" + +"Yes, or I will never see her again." + +"An unhappy alternative is before you, Elizabeth. From this day +you must be a stranger to one of your parents. Your mother will +never see you again if you do _not_ marry Mr. Collins, and I will +never see you again if you _do_." + +Elizabeth could not but smile at such a conclusion of such a +beginning, but Mrs. Bennet, who had persuaded herself that her +husband regarded the affair as she wished, was excessively +disappointed. + +"What do you mean, Mr. Bennet, in talking this way? You +promised me to _insist_ upon her marrying him." + +"My dear," replied her husband, "I have two small favours to +request. First, that you will allow me the free use of my +understanding on the present occasion; and secondly, of my +room. I shall be glad to have the library to myself as soon as +may be." + +Not yet, however, in spite of her disappointment in her husband, +did Mrs. Bennet give up the point. She talked to Elizabeth again +and again; coaxed and threatened her by turns. She endeavoured +to secure Jane in her interest; but Jane, with all possible +mildness, declined interfering; and Elizabeth, sometimes with +real earnestness, and sometimes with playful gaiety, replied to +her attacks. Though her manner varied, however, her determination +never did. + +Mr. Collins, meanwhile, was meditating in solitude on what had +passed. He thought too well of himself to comprehend on what +motives his cousin could refuse him; and though his pride was +hurt, he suffered in no other way. His regard for her was quite +imaginary; and the possibility of her deserving her mother's +reproach prevented his feeling any regret. + +While the family were in this confusion, Charlotte Lucas came to +spend the day with them. She was met in the vestibule by Lydia, +who, flying to her, cried in a half whisper, "I am glad you are +come, for there is such fun here! What do you think has +happened this morning? Mr. Collins has made an offer to Lizzy, +and she will not have him." + +Charlotte hardly had time to answer, before they were joined by +Kitty, who came to tell the same news; and no sooner had they +entered the breakfast-room, where Mrs. Bennet was alone, than +she likewise began on the subject, calling on Miss Lucas for her +compassion, and entreating her to persuade her friend Lizzy to +comply with the wishes of all her family. "Pray do, my dear +Miss Lucas," she added in a melancholy tone, "for nobody is on +my side, nobody takes part with me. I am cruelly used, nobody +feels for my poor nerves." + +Charlotte's reply was spared by the entrance of Jane and +Elizabeth. + +"Aye, there she comes," continued Mrs. Bennet, "looking as +unconcerned as may be, and caring no more for us than if we +were at York, provided she can have her own way. But I tell +you, Miss Lizzy--if you take it into your head to go on refusing +every offer of marriage in this way, you will never get a husband +at all--and I am sure I do not know who is to maintain you +when your father is dead. I shall not be able to keep you--and +so I warn you. I have done with you from this very day. I told +you in the library, you know, that I should never speak to you +again, and you will find me as good as my word. I have no +pleasure in talking to undutiful children. Not that I have much +pleasure, indeed, in talking to anybody. People who suffer as +I do from nervous complaints can have no great inclination for +talking. Nobody can tell what I suffer! But it is always so. +Those who do not complain are never pitied." + +Her daughters listened in silence to this effusion, sensible +that any attempt to reason with her or soothe her would only +increase the irritation. She talked on, therefore, without +interruption from any of them, till they were joined by Mr. +Collins, who entered the room with an air more stately than +usual, and on perceiving whom, she said to the girls, "Now, I do +insist upon it, that you, all of you, hold your tongues, and +let me and Mr. Collins have a little conversation together." + +Elizabeth passed quietly out of the room, Jane and Kitty +followed, but Lydia stood her ground, determined to hear all she +could; and Charlotte, detained first by the civility of Mr. Collins, +whose inquiries after herself and all her family were very minute, +and then by a little curiosity, satisfied herself with walking to +the window and pretending not to hear. In a doleful voice Mrs. +Bennet began the projected conversation: "Oh! Mr. Collins!" + +"My dear madam," replied he, "let us be for ever silent on this +point. Far be it from me," he presently continued, in a voice that +marked his displeasure, "to resent the behaviour of your daughter. +Resignation to inevitable evils is the evil duty of us all; the +peculiar duty of a young man who has been so fortunate as I +have been in early preferment; and I trust I am resigned. +Perhaps not the less so from feeling a doubt of my positive +happiness had my fair cousin honoured me with her hand; for I +have often observed that resignation is never so perfect as when +the blessing denied begins to lose somewhat of its value in our +estimation. You will not, I hope, consider me as showing any +disrespect to your family, my dear madam, by thus withdrawing +my pretensions to your daughter's favour, without having paid +yourself and Mr. Bennet the compliment of requesting you to +interpose your authority in my behalf. My conduct may, I fear, +be objectionable in having accepted my dismission from your +daughter's lips instead of your own. But we are all liable to +error. I have certainly meant well through the whole affair. My +object has been to secure an amiable companion for myself, with +due consideration for the advantage of all your family, and if +my _manner_ has been at all reprehensible, I here beg leave to +apologise." + + + +Chapter 21 + + +The discussion of Mr. Collins's offer was now nearly at an end, +and Elizabeth had only to suffer from the uncomfortable feelings +necessarily attending it, and occasionally from some peevish +allusions of her mother. As for the gentleman himself, _his_ +feelings were chiefly expressed, not by embarrassment or +dejection, or by trying to avoid her, but by stiffness of manner +and resentful silence. He scarcely ever spoke to her, and the +assiduous attentions which he had been so sensible of himself +were transferred for the rest of the day to Miss Lucas, whose +civility in listening to him was a seasonable relief to them all, +and especially to her friend. + +The morrow produced no abatement of Mrs. Bennet's ill-humour +or ill health. Mr. Collins was also in the same state of angry +pride. Elizabeth had hoped that his resentment might shorten his +visit, but his plan did not appear in the least affected by it. +He was always to have gone on Saturday, and to Saturday he meant +to stay. + +After breakfast, the girls walked to Meryton to inquire if Mr. +Wickham were returned, and to lament over his absence from +the Netherfield ball. He joined them on their entering the town, +and attended them to their aunt's where his regret and vexation, +and the concern of everybody, was well talked over. To +Elizabeth, however, he voluntarily acknowledged that the +necessity of his absence _had_ been self-imposed. + +"I found," said he, "as the time drew near that I had better not +meet Mr. Darcy; that to be in the same room, the same party +with him for so many hours together, might be more than I could +bear, and that scenes might arise unpleasant to more than +myself." + +She highly approved his forbearance, and they had leisure for a +full discussion of it, and for all the commendation which they +civilly bestowed on each other, as Wickham and another officer +walked back with them to Longbourn, and during the walk he +particularly attended to her. His accompanying them was a +double advantage; she felt all the compliment it offered to +herself, and it was most acceptable as an occasion of introducing +him to her father and mother. + +Soon after their return, a letter was delivered to Miss Bennet; +it came from Netherfield. The envelope contained a sheet of +elegant, little, hot-pressed paper, well covered with a lady's fair, +flowing hand; and Elizabeth saw her sister's countenance change +as she read it, and saw her dwelling intently on some particular +passages. Jane recollected herself soon, and putting the letter +away, tried to join with her usual cheerfulness in the general +conversation; but Elizabeth felt an anxiety on the subject which +drew off her attention even from Wickham; and no sooner had +he and he companion taken leave, than a glance from Jane +invited her to follow her upstairs. When they had gained their +own room, Jane, taking out the letter, said: + +"This is from Caroline Bingley; what it contains has surprised me +a good deal. The whole party have left Netherfield by this time, +and are on their way to town--and without any intention of coming +back again. You shall hear what she says." + +She then read the first sentence aloud, which comprised the +information of their having just resolved to follow their brother +to town directly, and of their meaning to dine in Grosvenor +Street, where Mr. Hurst had a house. The next was in these +words: "I do not pretend to regret anything I shall leave in +Hertfordshire, except your society, my dearest friend; but we +will hope, at some future period, to enjoy many returns of that +delightful intercourse we have known, and in the meanwhile may +lessen the pain of separation by a very frequent and most +unreserved correspondence. I depend on you for that." To +these highflown expressions Elizabeth listened with all the +insensibility of distrust; and though the suddenness of their +removal surprised her, she saw nothing in it really to lament; +it was not to be supposed that their absence from Netherfield +would prevent Mr. Bingley's being there; and as to the loss of +their society, she was persuaded that Jane must cease to regard +it, in the enjoyment of his. + +"It is unlucky," said she, after a short pause, "that you should +not be able to see your friends before they leave the country. +But may we not hope that the period of future happiness to +which Miss Bingley looks forward may arrive earlier than she is +aware, and that the delightful intercourse you have known as +friends will be renewed with yet greater satisfaction as sisters? +Mr. Bingley will not be detained in London by them." + +"Caroline decidedly says that none of the party will return into +Hertfordshire this winter. I will read it to you:" + +"When my brother left us yesterday, he imagined that the +business which took him to London might be concluded in three +or four days; but as we are certain it cannot be so, and at the +same time convinced that when Charles gets to town he will be +in no hurry to leave it again, we have determined on following +him thither, that he may not be obliged to spend his vacant hours +in a comfortless hotel. Many of my acquaintances are already +there for the winter; I wish that I could hear that you, my dearest +friend, had any intention of making one of the crowd--but of +that I despair. I sincerely hope your Christmas in Hertfordshire +may abound in the gaieties which that season generally brings, +and that your beaux will be so numerous as to prevent your +feeling the loss of the three of whom we shall deprive you." + +"It is evident by this," added Jane, "that he comes back no more +this winter." + +"It is only evident that Miss Bingley does not mean that he +_should_." + +"Why will you think so? It must be his own doing. He is his +own master. But you do not know _all_. I _will_ read you the +passage which particularly hurts me. I will have no reserves +from _you_." + +"Mr. Darcy is impatient to see his sister; and, to confess the +truth, _we_ are scarcely less eager to meet her again. I really do +not think Georgiana Darcy has her equal for beauty, elegance, +and accomplishments; and the affection she inspires in Louisa +and myself is heightened into something still more interesting, +from the hope we dare entertain of her being hereafter our +sister. I do not know whether I ever before mentioned to you +my feelings on this subject; but I will not leave the country +without confiding them, and I trust you will not esteem them +unreasonable. My brother admires her greatly already; he will +have frequent opportunity now of seeing her on the most +intimate footing; her relations all wish the connection as much as +his own; and a sister's partiality is not misleading me, I think, +when I call Charles most capable of engaging any woman's +heart. With all these circumstances to favour an attachment, and +nothing to prevent it, am I wrong, my dearest Jane, in indulging +the hope of an event which will secure the happiness of so many?" + +"What do you think of _this_ sentence, my dear Lizzy?" said +Jane as she finished it. "Is it not clear enough? Does it not +expressly declare that Caroline neither expects nor wishes me to +be her sister; that she is perfectly convinced of her brother's +indifference; and that if she suspects the nature of my feelings +for him, she means (most kindly!) to put me on my guard? Can +there be any other opinion on the subject?" + +"Yes, there can; for mine is totally different. Will you hear it?" + +"Most willingly." + +"You shall have it in a few words. Miss Bingley sees that her +brother is in love with you, and wants him to marry Miss Darcy. +She follows him to town in hope of keeping him there, and tries +to persuade you that he does not care about you." + +Jane shook her head. + +"Indeed, Jane, you ought to believe me. No one who has ever +seen you together can doubt his affection. Miss Bingley, I am +sure, cannot. She is not such a simpleton. Could she have seen +half as much love in Mr. Darcy for herself, she would have +ordered her wedding clothes. But the case is this: We are not +rich enough or grand enough for them; and she is the more +anxious to get Miss Darcy for her brother, from the notion that +when there has been _one_ intermarriage, she may have less +trouble in achieving a second; in which there is certainly some +ingenuity, and I dare say it would succeed, if Miss de Bourgh +were out of the way. But, my dearest Jane, you cannot seriously +imagine that because Miss Bingley tells you her brother greatly +admires Miss Darcy, he is in the smallest degree less sensible +of _your_ merit than when he took leave of you on Tuesday, or +that it will be in her power to persuade him that, instead of +being in love with you, he is very much in love with her friend." + +"If we thought alike of Miss Bingley," replied Jane, "your +representation of all this might make me quite easy. But I know +the foundation is unjust. Caroline is incapable of wilfully +deceiving anyone; and all that I can hope in this case is that +she is deceiving herself." + +"That is right. You could not have started a more happy idea, +since you will not take comfort in mine. Believe her to be +deceived, by all means. You have now done your duty by her, +and must fret no longer." + +"But, my dear sister, can I be happy, even supposing the best, in +accepting a man whose sisters and friends are all wishing him to +marry elsewhere?" + +"You must decide for yourself," said Elizabeth; "and if, upon +mature deliberation, you find that the misery of disobliging his +two sisters is more than equivalent to the happiness of being his +wife, I advise you by all means to refuse him." + +"How can you talk so?" said Jane, faintly smiling. "You must +know that though I should be exceedingly grieved at their +disapprobation, I could not hesitate." + +"I did not think you would; and that being the case, I cannot +consider your situation with much compassion." + +"But if he returns no more this winter, my choice will never be +required. A thousand things may arise in six months!" + +The idea of his returning no more Elizabeth treated with the +utmost contempt. It appeared to her merely the suggestion of +Caroline's interested wishes, and she could not for a moment +suppose that those wishes, however openly or artfully spoken, +could influence a young man so totally independent of everyone. + +She represented to her sister as forcibly as possible what she +felt on the subject, and had soon the pleasure of seeing its +happy effect. Jane's temper was not desponding, and she was +gradually led to hope, though the diffidence of affection +sometimes overcame the hope, that Bingley would return to +Netherfield and answer every wish of her heart. + +They agreed that Mrs. Bennet should only hear of the departure +of the family, without being alarmed on the score of the +gentleman's conduct; but even this partial communication gave +her a great deal of concern, and she bewailed it as exceedingly +unlucky that the ladies should happen to go away just as they +were all getting so intimate together. After lamenting it, +however, at some length, she had the consolation that Mr. +Bingley would be soon down again and soon dining at Longbourn, +and the conclusion of all was the comfortable declaration, +that though he had been invited only to a family dinner, she +would take care to have two full courses. + + + +Chapter 22 + + +The Bennets were engaged to dine with the Lucases and again +during the chief of the day was Miss Lucas so kind as to listen +to Mr. Collins. Elizabeth took an opportunity of thanking her. +"It keeps him in good humour," said she, "and I am more obliged +to you than I can express." Charlotte assured her friend of +her satisfaction in being useful, and that it amply repaid her +for the little sacrifice of her time. This was very amiable, +but Charlotte's kindness extended farther than Elizabeth had +any conception of; its object was nothing else than to secure +her from any return of Mr. Collins's addresses, by engaging +them towards herself. Such was Miss Lucas's scheme; and +appearances were so favourable, that when they parted at night, +she would have felt almost secure of success if he had not been +to leave Hertfordshire so very soon. But here she did injustice +to the fire and independence of his character, for it led +him to escape out of Longbourn House the next morning with +admirable slyness, and hasten to Lucas Lodge to throw himself +at her feet. He was anxious to avoid the notice of his cousins, +from a conviction that if they saw him depart, they could not +fail to conjecture his design, and he was not willing to have +the attempt known till its success might be known likewise; for +though feeling almost secure, and with reason, for Charlotte had +been tolerably encouraging, he was comparatively diffident since +the adventure of Wednesday. His reception, however, was of +the most flattering kind. Miss Lucas perceived him from an +upper window as he walked towards the house, and instantly set +out to meet him accidentally in the lane. But little had she +dared to hope that so much love and eloquence awaited her there. + +In as short a time as Mr. Collins's long speeches would allow, +everything was settled between them to the satisfaction of both; +and as they entered the house he earnestly entreated her to name +the day that was to make him the happiest of men; and though +such a solicitation must be waived for the present, the lady felt +no inclination to trifle with his happiness. The stupidity with +which he was favoured by nature must guard his courtship from +any charm that could make a woman wish for its continuance; +and Miss Lucas, who accepted him solely from the pure and +disinterested desire of an establishment, cared not how soon +that establishment were gained. + +Sir William and Lady Lucas were speedily applied to for their +consent; and it was bestowed with a most joyful alacrity. Mr. +Collins's present circumstances made it a most eligible match for +their daughter, to whom they could give little fortune; and his +prospects of future wealth were exceedingly fair. Lady Lucas +began directly to calculate, with more interest than the +matter had ever excited before, how many years longer Mr. +Bennet was likely to live; and Sir William gave it as his decided +opinion, that whenever Mr. Collins should be in possession of the +Longbourn estate, it would be highly expedient that both he and +his wife should make their appearance at St. James's. The whole +family, in short, were properly overjoyed on the occasion. +The younger girls formed hopes of _coming out_ a year or two +sooner than they might otherwise have done; and the boys were +relieved from their apprehension of Charlotte's dying an old +maid. Charlotte herself was tolerably composed. She had +gained her point, and had time to consider of it. Her reflections +were in general satisfactory. Mr. Collins, to be sure, was +neither sensible nor agreeable; his society was irksome, and his +attachment to her must be imaginary. But still he would be her +husband. Without thinking highly either of men or matrimony, +marriage had always been her object; it was the only provision +for well-educated young women of small fortune, and however +uncertain of giving happiness, must be their pleasantest +preservative from want. This preservative she had now +obtained; and at the age of twenty-seven, without having ever +been handsome, she felt all the good luck of it. The least +agreeable circumstance in the business was the surprise it must +occasion to Elizabeth Bennet, whose friendship she valued +beyond that of any other person. Elizabeth would wonder, and +probably would blame her; and though her resolution was not to +be shaken, her feelings must be hurt by such a disapprobation. +She resolved to give her the information herself, and therefore +charged Mr. Collins, when he returned to Longbourn to dinner, +to drop no hint of what had passed before any of the family. A +promise of secrecy was of course very dutifully given, but it +could not be kept without difficulty; for the curiosity excited +by his long absence burst forth in such very direct questions on +his return as required some ingenuity to evade, and he was at the +same time exercising great self-denial, for he was longing to +publish his prosperous love. + +As he was to begin his journey too early on the morrow to see +any of the family, the ceremony of leave-taking was performed +when the ladies moved for the night; and Mrs. Bennet, with +great politeness and cordiality, said how happy they should be +to see him at Longbourn again, whenever his engagements might +allow him to visit them. + +"My dear madam," he replied, "this invitation is particularly +gratifying, because it is what I have been hoping to receive; and +you may be very certain that I shall avail myself of it as soon +as possible." + +They were all astonished; and Mr. Bennet, who could by no +means wish for so speedy a return, immediately said: + +"But is there not danger of Lady Catherine's disapprobation +here, my good sir? You had better neglect your relations than +run the risk of offending your patroness." + +"My dear sir," replied Mr. Collins, "I am particularly obliged +to you for this friendly caution, and you may depend upon my not +taking so material a step without her ladyship's concurrence." + +"You cannot be too much upon your guard. Risk anything +rather than her displeasure; and if you find it likely to be raised +by your coming to us again, which I should think exceedingly +probable, stay quietly at home, and be satisfied that _we_ shall +take no offence." + +"Believe me, my dear sir, my gratitude is warmly excited by +such affectionate attention; and depend upon it, you will speedily +receive from me a letter of thanks for this, and for every other +mark of your regard during my stay in Hertfordshire. As for my +fair cousins, though my absence may not be long enough to +render it necessary, I shall now take the liberty of wishing them +health and happiness, not excepting my cousin Elizabeth." + +With proper civilities the ladies then withdrew; all of them +equally surprised that he meditated a quick return. Mrs. Bennet +wished to understand by it that he thought of paying his +addresses to one of her younger girls, and Mary might have been +prevailed on to accept him. She rated his abilities much higher +than any of the others; there was a solidity in his reflections +which often struck her, and though by no means so clever as +herself, she thought that if encouraged to read and improve +himself by such an example as hers, he might become a very +agreeable companion. But on the following morning, every +hope of this kind was done away. Miss Lucas called soon after +breakfast, and in a private conference with Elizabeth related the +event of the day before. + +The possibility of Mr. Collins's fancying herself in love with her +friend had once occurred to Elizabeth within the last day or two; +but that Charlotte could encourage him seemed almost as far +from possibility as she could encourage him herself, and her +astonishment was consequently so great as to overcome at first +the bounds of decorum, and she could not help crying out: + +"Engaged to Mr. Collins! My dear Charlotte--impossible!" + +The steady countenance which Miss Lucas had commanded in +telling her story, gave way to a momentary confusion here on +receiving so direct a reproach; though, as it was no more than +she expected, she soon regained her composure, and calmly +replied: + +"Why should you be surprised, my dear Eliza? Do you think it +incredible that Mr. Collins should be able to procure any +woman's good opinion, because he was not so happy as to +succeed with you?" + +But Elizabeth had now recollected herself, and making a strong +effort for it, was able to assure with tolerable firmness that the +prospect of their relationship was highly grateful to her, and +that she wished her all imaginable happiness. + +"I see what you are feeling," replied Charlotte. "You must be +surprised, very much surprised--so lately as Mr. Collins was +wishing to marry you. But when you have had time to think it +over, I hope you will be satisfied with what I have done. I am +not romantic, you know; I never was. I ask only a comfortable +home; and considering Mr. Collins's character, connection, and +situation in life, I am convinced that my chance of happiness +with him is as fair as most people can boast on entering the +marriage state." + +Elizabeth quietly answered "Undoubtedly;" and after an +awkward pause, they returned to the rest of the family. +Charlotte did not stay much longer, and Elizabeth was then left +to reflect on what she had heard. It was a long time before she +became at all reconciled to the idea of so unsuitable a match. +The strangeness of Mr. Collins's making two offers of marriage +within three days was nothing in comparison of his being now +accepted. She had always felt that Charlotte's opinion of +matrimony was not exactly like her own, but she had not +supposed it to be possible that, when called into action, she +would have sacrificed every better feeling to worldly advantage. +Charlotte the wife of Mr. Collins was a most humiliating picture! +And to the pang of a friend disgracing herself and sunk in her +esteem, was added the distressing conviction that it was +impossible for that friend to be tolerably happy in the lot +she had chosen. + + + +Chapter 23 + + +Elizabeth was sitting with her mother and sisters, reflecting on +what she had heard, and doubting whether she was authorised to +mention it, when Sir William Lucas himself appeared, sent by his +daughter, to announce her engagement to the family. With many +compliments to them, and much self-gratulation on the prospect +of a connection between the houses, he unfolded the matter--to +an audience not merely wondering, but incredulous; for Mrs. +Bennet, with more perseverance than politeness, protested he +must be entirely mistaken; and Lydia, always unguarded and +often uncivil, boisterously exclaimed: + +"Good Lord! Sir William, how can you tell such a story? Do not +you know that Mr. Collins wants to marry Lizzy?" + +Nothing less than the complaisance of a courtier could have +borne without anger such treatment; but Sir William's good +breeding carried him through it all; and though he begged leave +to be positive as to the truth of his information, he listened +to all their impertinence with the most forbearing courtesy. + +Elizabeth, feeling it incumbent on her to relieve him from so +unpleasant a situation, now put herself forward to confirm his +account, by mentioning her prior knowledge of it from Charlotte +herself; and endeavoured to put a stop to the exclamations of her +mother and sisters by the earnestness of her congratulations to +Sir William, in which she was readily joined by Jane, and by +making a variety of remarks on the happiness that might be +expected from the match, the excellent character of Mr. Collins, +and the convenient distance of Hunsford from London. + +Mrs. Bennet was in fact too much overpowered to say a great +deal while Sir William remained; but no sooner had he left them +than her feelings found a rapid vent. In the first place, she +persisted in disbelieving the whole of the matter; secondly, she +was very sure that Mr. Collins had been taken in; thirdly, she +trusted that they would never be happy together; and fourthly, +that the match might be broken off. Two inferences, however, +were plainly deduced from the whole: one, that Elizabeth was +the real cause of the mischief; and the other that she herself had +been barbarously misused by them all; and on these two points +she principally dwelt during the rest of the day. Nothing could +console and nothing could appease her. Nor did that day wear +out her resentment. A week elapsed before she could see +Elizabeth without scolding her, a month passed away before she +could speak to Sir William or Lady Lucas without being rude, +and many months were gone before she could at all forgive their +daughter. + +Mr. Bennet's emotions were much more tranquil on the occasion, +and such as he did experience he pronounced to be of a most +agreeable sort; for it gratified him, he said, to discover that +Charlotte Lucas, whom he had been used to think tolerably +sensible, was as foolish as his wife, and more foolish than his +daughter! + +Jane confessed herself a little surprised at the match; but she +said less of her astonishment than of her earnest desire for their +happiness; nor could Elizabeth persuade her to consider it as +improbable. Kitty and Lydia were far from envying Miss Lucas, +for Mr. Collins was only a clergyman; and it affected them in no +other way than as a piece of news to spread at Meryton. + +Lady Lucas could not be insensible of triumph on being able to +retort on Mrs. Bennet the comfort of having a daughter well +married; and she called at Longbourn rather oftener than usual +to say how happy she was, though Mrs. Bennet's sour looks and +ill-natured remarks might have been enough to drive happiness +away. + +Between Elizabeth and Charlotte there was a restraint which +kept them mutually silent on the subject; and Elizabeth felt +persuaded that no real confidence could ever subsist between +them again. Her disappointment in Charlotte made her turn with +fonder regard to her sister, of whose rectitude and delicacy +she was sure her opinion could never be shaken, and for whose +happiness she grew daily more anxious, as Bingley had now been +gone a week and nothing more was heard of his return. + +Jane had sent Caroline an early answer to her letter, and was +counting the days till she might reasonably hope to hear again. +The promised letter of thanks from Mr. Collins arrived on +Tuesday, addressed to their father, and written with all the +solemnity of gratitude which a twelvemonth's abode in the +family might have prompted. After discharging his conscience +on that head, he proceeded to inform them, with many rapturous +expressions, of his happiness in having obtained the affection of +their amiable neighbour, Miss Lucas, and then explained that it +was merely with the view of enjoying her society that he had +been so ready to close with their kind wish of seeing him again +at Longbourn, whither he hoped to be able to return on Monday +fortnight; for Lady Catherine, he added, so heartily approved +his marriage, that she wished it to take place as soon as possible, +which he trusted would be an unanswerable argument with his +amiable Charlotte to name an early day for making him the +happiest of men. + +Mr. Collins's return into Hertfordshire was no longer a matter +of pleasure to Mrs. Bennet. On the contrary, she was as much +disposed to complain of it as her husband. It was very strange +that he should come to Longbourn instead of to Lucas Lodge; it +was also very inconvenient and exceedingly troublesome. She +hated having visitors in the house while her health was so +indifferent, and lovers were of all people the most disagreeable. +Such were the gentle murmurs of Mrs. Bennet, and they gave way +only to the greater distress of Mr. Bingley's continued absence. + +Neither Jane nor Elizabeth were comfortable on this subject. +Day after day passed away without bringing any other tidings of +him than the report which shortly prevailed in Meryton of his +coming no more to Netherfield the whole winter; a report which +highly incensed Mrs. Bennet, and which she never failed to +contradict as a most scandalous falsehood. + +Even Elizabeth began to fear--not that Bingley was indifferent--but +that his sisters would be successful in keeping him away. +Unwilling as she was to admit an idea so destructive of Jane's +happiness, and so dishonorable to the stability of her lover, she +could not prevent its frequently occurring. The united efforts of +his two unfeeling sisters and of his overpowering friend, assisted +by the attractions of Miss Darcy and the amusements of London +might be too much, she feared, for the strength of his attachment. + +As for Jane, _her_ anxiety under this suspense was, of course, +more painful than Elizabeth's, but whatever she felt she was +desirous of concealing, and between herself and Elizabeth, +therefore, the subject was never alluded to. But as no such +delicacy restrained her mother, an hour seldom passed in which +she did not talk of Bingley, express her impatience for his arrival, +or even require Jane to confess that if he did not come back she +would think herself very ill used. It needed all Jane's steady +mildness to bear these attacks with tolerable tranquillity. + +Mr. Collins returned most punctually on Monday fortnight, but +his reception at Longbourn was not quite so gracious as it had +been on his first introduction. He was too happy, however, to +need much attention; and luckily for the others, the business +of love-making relieved them from a great deal of his company. +The chief of every day was spent by him at Lucas Lodge, and he +sometimes returned to Longbourn only in time to make an +apology for his absence before the family went to bed. + +Mrs. Bennet was really in a most pitiable state. The very +mention of anything concerning the match threw her into an +agony of ill-humour, and wherever she went she was sure of +hearing it talked of. The sight of Miss Lucas was odious to +her. As her successor in that house, she regarded her with +jealous abhorrence. Whenever Charlotte came to see them, +she concluded her to be anticipating the hour of possession; +and whenever she spoke in a low voice to Mr. Collins, was +convinced that they were talking of the Longbourn estate, and +resolving to turn herself and her daughters out of the house, +as soon as Mr. Bennet were dead. She complained bitterly of +all this to her husband. + +"Indeed, Mr. Bennet," said she, "it is very hard to think that +Charlotte Lucas should ever be mistress of this house, that I +should be forced to make way for _her_, and live to see her take +her place in it!" + +"My dear, do not give way to such gloomy thoughts. Let us +hope for better things. Let us flatter ourselves that I may be +the survivor." + +This was not very consoling to Mrs. Bennet, and therefore, instead +of making any answer, she went on as before. + +"I cannot bear to think that they should have all this estate. +If it was not for the entail, I should not mind it." + +"What should not you mind?" + +"I should not mind anything at all." + +"Let us be thankful that you are preserved from a state of such +insensibility." + +"I never can be thankful, Mr. Bennet, for anything about the +entail. How anyone could have the conscience to entail away an +estate from one's own daughters, I cannot understand; and all +for the sake of Mr. Collins too! Why should _he_ have it more +than anybody else?" + +"I leave it to yourself to determine," said Mr. Bennet. + + + +Chapter 24 + + +Miss Bingley's letter arrived, and put an end to doubt. The very +first sentence conveyed the assurance of their being all settled +in London for the winter, and concluded with her brother's regret +at not having had time to pay his respects to his friends in +Hertfordshire before he left the country. + +Hope was over, entirely over; and when Jane could attend to the +rest of the letter, she found little, except the professed affection +of the writer, that could give her any comfort. Miss Darcy's +praise occupied the chief of it. Her many attractions were again +dwelt on, and Caroline boasted joyfully of their increasing +intimacy, and ventured to predict the accomplishment of the +wishes which had been unfolded in her former letter. She wrote +also with great pleasure of her brother's being an inmate of Mr. +Darcy's house, and mentioned with raptures some plans of the +latter with regard to new furniture. + +Elizabeth, to whom Jane very soon communicated the chief of +all this, heard it in silent indignation. Her heart was divided +between concern for her sister, and resentment against all others. +To Caroline's assertion of her brother's being partial to Miss +Darcy she paid no credit. That he was really fond of Jane, she +doubted no more than she had ever done; and much as she had +always been disposed to like him, she could not think without +anger, hardly without contempt, on that easiness of temper, that +want of proper resolution, which now made him the slave of his +designing friends, and led him to sacrifice of his own happiness +to the caprice of their inclination. Had his own happiness, +however, been the only sacrifice, he might have been allowed to +sport with it in whatever manner he thought best, but her sister's +was involved in it, as she thought he must be sensible himself. +It was a subject, in short, on which reflection would be long +indulged, and must be unavailing. She could think of nothing +else; and yet whether Bingley's regard had really died away, or +were suppressed by his friends' interference; whether he had +been aware of Jane's attachment, or whether it had escaped his +observation; whatever were the case, though her opinion of him +must be materially affected by the difference, her sister's +situation remained the same, her peace equally wounded. + +A day or two passed before Jane had courage to speak of her +feelings to Elizabeth; but at last, on Mrs. Bennet's leaving them +together, after a longer irritation than usual about Netherfield +and its master, she could not help saying: + +"Oh, that my dear mother had more command over herself! She +can have no idea of the pain she gives me by her continual +reflections on him. But I will not repine. It cannot last long. +He will be forgot, and we shall all be as we were before." + +Elizabeth looked at her sister with incredulous solicitude, but +said nothing. + +"You doubt me," cried Jane, slightly colouring; "indeed, you +have no reason. He may live in my memory as the most amiable +man of my acquaintance, but that is all. I have nothing either +to hope or fear, and nothing to reproach him with. Thank God! I +have not _that_ pain. A little time, therefore--I shall certainly +try to get the better." + +With a stronger voice she soon added, "I have this comfort +immediately, that it has not been more than an error of fancy on +my side, and that it has done no harm to anyone but myself." + +"My dear Jane!" exclaimed Elizabeth, "you are too good. Your +sweetness and disinterestedness are really angelic; I do not know +what to say to you. I feel as if I had never done you justice, or +loved you as you deserve." + +Miss Bennet eagerly disclaimed all extraordinary merit, and +threw back the praise on her sister's warm affection. + +"Nay," said Elizabeth, "this is not fair. _You_ wish to think all +the world respectable, and are hurt if I speak ill of anybody. I +only want to think _you_ perfect, and you set yourself against it. +Do not be afraid of my running into any excess, of my encroaching +on your privilege of universal good-will. You need not. There +are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think +well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied +with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of +all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be +placed on the appearance of merit or sense. I have met with two +instances lately, one I will not mention; the other is Charlotte's +marriage. It is unaccountable! In every view it is unaccountable!" + +"My dear Lizzy, do not give way to such feelings as these. They +will ruin your happiness. You do not make allowance enough +for difference of situation and temper. Consider Mr. Collins's +respectability, and Charlotte's steady, prudent character. +Remember that she is one of a large family; that as to fortune, +it is a most eligible match; and be ready to believe, for +everybody's sake, that she may feel something like regard and +esteem for our cousin." + +"To oblige you, I would try to believe almost anything, but no +one else could be benefited by such a belief as this; for were I +persuaded that Charlotte had any regard for him, I should only +think worse of her understanding than I now do of her heart. +My dear Jane, Mr. Collins is a conceited, pompous, narrow-minded, +silly man; you know he is, as well as I do; and you must feel, +as well as I do, that the woman who married him cannot have a +proper way of thinking. You shall not defend her, though it is +Charlotte Lucas. You shall not, for the sake of one individual, +change the meaning of principle and integrity, nor endeavour to +persuade yourself or me, that selfishness is prudence, and +insensibility of danger security for happiness." + +"I must think your language too strong in speaking of both," +replied Jane; "and I hope you will be convinced of it by seeing +them happy together. But enough of this. You alluded to +something else. You mentioned _two_ instances. I cannot +misunderstand you, but I entreat you, dear Lizzy, not to pain +me by thinking _that person_ to blame, and saying your opinion +of him is sunk. We must not be so ready to fancy ourselves +intentionally injured. We must not expect a lively young man to +be always so guarded and circumspect. It is very often nothing +but our own vanity that deceives us. Women fancy admiration +means more than it does." + +"And men take care that they should." + +"If it is designedly done, they cannot be justified; but I have no +idea of there being so much design in the world as some persons +imagine." + +"I am far from attributing any part of Mr. Bingley's conduct to +design," said Elizabeth; "but without scheming to do wrong, or +to make others unhappy, there may be error, and there may be +misery. Thoughtlessness, want of attention to other people's +feelings, and want of resolution, will do the business." + +"And do you impute it to either of those?" + +"Yes; to the last. But if I go on, I shall displease you by saying +what I think of persons you esteem. Stop me whilst you can." + +"You persist, then, in supposing his sisters influence him?" + +"Yes, in conjunction with his friend." + +"I cannot believe it. Why should they try to influence him? +They can only wish his happiness; and if he is attached to me, +no other woman can secure it." + +"Your first position is false. They may wish many things besides +his happiness; they may wish his increase of wealth and +consequence; they may wish him to marry a girl who has all the +importance of money, great connections, and pride." + +"Beyond a doubt, they _do_ wish him to choose Miss Darcy," +replied Jane; "but this may be from better feelings than you are +supposing. They have known her much longer than they have +known me; no wonder if they love her better. But, whatever +may be their own wishes, it is very unlikely they should have +opposed their brother's. What sister would think herself at +liberty to do it, unless there were something very objectionable? +If they believed him attached to me, they would not try to part +us; if he were so, they could not succeed. By supposing such +an affection, you make everybody acting unnaturally and wrong, +and me most unhappy. Do not distress me by the idea. I am not +ashamed of having been mistaken--or, at least, it is light, it +is nothing in comparison of what I should feel in thinking ill +of him or his sisters. Let me take it in the best light, in +the light in which it may be understood." + +Elizabeth could not oppose such a wish; and from this time +Mr. Bingley's name was scarcely ever mentioned between them. + +Mrs. Bennet still continued to wonder and repine at his returning +no more, and though a day seldom passed in which Elizabeth did +not account for it clearly, there was little chance of her ever +considering it with less perplexity. Her daughter endeavoured +to convince her of what she did not believe herself, that his +attentions to Jane had been merely the effect of a common and +transient liking, which ceased when he saw her no more; but +though the probability of the statement was admitted at the time, +she had the same story to repeat every day. Mrs. Bennet's best +comfort was that Mr. Bingley must be down again in the +summer. + +Mr. Bennet treated the matter differently. "So, Lizzy," said he +one day, "your sister is crossed in love, I find. I congratulate +her. Next to being married, a girl likes to be crossed a little in +love now and then. It is something to think of, and it gives her a +sort of distinction among her companions. When is your turn to +come? You will hardly bear to be long outdone by Jane. Now is +your time. Here are officers enough in Meryton to disappoint all +the young ladies in the country. Let Wickham be _your_ man. He +is a pleasant fellow, and would jilt you creditably." + +"Thank you, sir, but a less agreeable man would satisfy me. We +must not all expect Jane's good fortune." + +"True," said Mr. Bennet, "but it is a comfort to think that +whatever of that kind may befall you, you have an affectionate +mother who will make the most of it." + +Mr. Wickham's society was of material service in dispelling the +gloom which the late perverse occurrences had thrown on many +of the Longbourn family. They saw him often, and to his other +recommendations was now added that of general unreserve. +The whole of what Elizabeth had already heard, his claims on +Mr. Darcy, and all that he had suffered from him, was now +openly acknowledged and publicly canvassed; and everybody +was pleased to know how much they had always disliked Mr. +Darcy before they had known anything of the matter. + +Miss Bennet was the only creature who could suppose there might +be any extenuating circumstances in the case, unknown to the +society of Hertfordshire; her mild and steady candour always +pleaded for allowances, and urged the possibility of mistakes--but +by everybody else Mr. Darcy was condemned as the worst of men. + + + +Chapter 25 + + +After a week spent in professions of love and schemes of felicity, +Mr. Collins was called from his amiable Charlotte by the arrival +of Saturday. The pain of separation, however, might be +alleviated on his side, by preparations for the reception of his +bride; as he had reason to hope, that shortly after his return into +Hertfordshire, the day would be fixed that was to make him the +happiest of men. He took leave of his relations at Longbourn +with as much solemnity as before; wished his fair cousins health +and happiness again, and promised their father another letter of +thanks. + +On the following Monday, Mrs. Bennet had the pleasure of +receiving her brother and his wife, who came as usual to spend +the Christmas at Longbourn. Mr. Gardiner was a sensible, +gentlemanlike man, greatly superior to his sister, as well by +nature as education. The Netherfield ladies would have had +difficulty in believing that a man who lived by trade, and within +view of his own warehouses, could have been so well-bred and +agreeable. Mrs. Gardiner, who was several years younger than +Mrs. Bennet and Mrs. Phillips, was an amiable, intelligent, +elegant woman, and a great favourite with all her Longbourn +nieces. Between the two eldest and herself especially, there +subsisted a particular regard. They had frequently been staying +with her in town. + +The first part of Mrs. Gardiner's business on her arrival was to +distribute her presents and describe the newest fashions. When +this was done she had a less active part to play. It became her +turn to listen. Mrs. Bennet had many grievances to relate, and +much to complain of. They had all been very ill-used since she +last saw her sister. Two of her girls had been upon the point of +marriage, and after all there was nothing in it. + +"I do not blame Jane," she continued, "for Jane would have got +Mr. Bingley if she could. But Lizzy! Oh, sister! It is very hard +to think that she might have been Mr. Collins's wife by this time, +had it not been for her own perverseness. He made her an offer +in this very room, and she refused him. The consequence of it is, +that Lady Lucas will have a daughter married before I have, and +that the Longbourn estate is just as much entailed as ever. The +Lucases are very artful people indeed, sister. They are all for +what they can get. I am sorry to say it of them, but so it is. +It makes me very nervous and poorly, to be thwarted so in my own +family, and to have neighbours who think of themselves before +anybody else. However, your coming just at this time is the +greatest of comforts, and I am very glad to hear what you tell us, +of long sleeves." + +Mrs. Gardiner, to whom the chief of this news had been given +before, in the course of Jane and Elizabeth's correspondence +with her, made her sister a slight answer, and, in compassion to +her nieces, turned the conversation. + +When alone with Elizabeth afterwards, she spoke more on the +subject. "It seems likely to have been a desirable match for +Jane," said she. "I am sorry it went off. But these things +happen so often! A young man, such as you describe Mr. Bingley, +so easily falls in love with a pretty girl for a few weeks, and +when accident separates them, so easily forgets her, that these +sort of inconsistencies are very frequent." + +"An excellent consolation in its way," said Elizabeth, "but it will +not do for _us_. We do not suffer by _accident_. It does not often +happen that the interference of friends will persuade a young +man of independent fortune to think no more of a girl whom he +was violently in love with only a few days before." + +"But that expression of 'violently in love' is so hackneyed, +so doubtful, so indefinite, that it gives me very little idea. +It is as often applied to feelings which arise from a half-hour's +acquaintance, as to a real, strong attachment. Pray, how +_violent was_ Mr. Bingley's love?" + +"I never saw a more promising inclination; he was growing quite +inattentive to other people, and wholly engrossed by her. Every +time they met, it was more decided and remarkable. At his own +ball he offended two or three young ladies, by not asking them to +dance; and I spoke to him twice myself, without receiving an answer. +Could there be finer symptoms? Is not general incivility the very +essence of love?" + +"Oh, yes!--of that kind of love which I suppose him to have felt. +Poor Jane! I am sorry for her, because, with her disposition, she +may not get over it immediately. It had better have happened to +_you_, Lizzy; you would have laughed yourself out of it sooner. +But do you think she would be prevailed upon to go back with +us? Change of scene might be of service--and perhaps a little +relief from home may be as useful as anything." + +Elizabeth was exceedingly pleased with this proposal, and felt +persuaded of her sister's ready acquiescence. + +"I hope," added Mrs. Gardiner, "that no consideration with +regard to this young man will influence her. We live in so +different a part of town, all our connections are so different, and, +as you well know, we go out so little, that it is very improbable +that they should meet at all, unless he really comes to see her." + +"And _that_ is quite impossible; for he is now in the custody of +his friend, and Mr. Darcy would no more suffer him to call on +Jane in such a part of London! My dear aunt, how could you +think of it? Mr. Darcy may perhaps have _heard_ of such a +place as Gracechurch Street, but he would hardly think a +month's ablution enough to cleanse him from its impurities, were +he once to enter it; and depend upon it, Mr. Bingley never stirs +without him." + +"So much the better. I hope they will not meet at all. But does +not Jane correspond with his sister? _She_ will not be able to +help calling." + +"She will drop the acquaintance entirely." + +But in spite of the certainty in which Elizabeth affected to place +this point, as well as the still more interesting one of Bingley's +being withheld from seeing Jane, she felt a solicitude on the +subject which convinced her, on examination, that she did not +consider it entirely hopeless. It was possible, and sometimes she +thought it probable, that his affection might be reanimated, and +the influence of his friends successfully combated by the more +natural influence of Jane's attractions. + +Miss Bennet accepted her aunt's invitation with pleasure; and +the Bingleys were no otherwise in her thoughts at the same time, +than as she hoped by Caroline's not living in the same house +with her brother, she might occasionally spend a morning with +her, without any danger of seeing him. + +The Gardiners stayed a week at Longbourn; and what with the +Phillipses, the Lucases, and the officers, there was not a day +without its engagement. Mrs. Bennet had so carefully provided +for the entertainment of her brother and sister, that they did +not once sit down to a family dinner. When the engagement was +for home, some of the officers always made part of it--of +which officers Mr. Wickham was sure to be one; and on these +occasion, Mrs. Gardiner, rendered suspicious by Elizabeth's +warm commendation, narrowly observed them both. Without +supposing them, from what she saw, to be very seriously in love, +their preference of each other was plain enough to make her a +little uneasy; and she resolved to speak to Elizabeth on the +subject before she left Hertfordshire, and represent to her the +imprudence of encouraging such an attachment. + +To Mrs. Gardiner, Wickham had one means of affording pleasure, +unconnected with his general powers. About ten or a dozen years +ago, before her marriage, she had spent a considerable time in +that very part of Derbyshire to which he belonged. They had, +therefore, many acquaintances in common; and though Wickham had +been little there since the death of Darcy's father, it was yet +in his power to give her fresher intelligence of her former +friends than she had been in the way of procuring. + +Mrs. Gardiner had seen Pemberley, and known the late Mr. Darcy +by character perfectly well. Here consequently was an +inexhaustible subject of discourse. In comparing her recollection +of Pemberley with the minute description which Wickham could +give, and in bestowing her tribute of praise on the character of +its late possessor, she was delighting both him and herself. On +being made acquainted with the present Mr. Darcy's treatment +of him, she tried to remember some of that gentleman's reputed +disposition when quite a lad which might agree with it, and was +confident at last that she recollected having heard Mr. +Fitzwilliam Darcy formerly spoken of as a very proud, ill-natured +boy. + + + +Chapter 26 + + +Mrs. Gardiner's caution to Elizabeth was punctually and kindly +given on the first favourable opportunity of speaking to her +alone; after honestly telling her what she thought, she thus went +on: + +"You are too sensible a girl, Lizzy, to fall in love merely because +you are warned against it; and, therefore, I am not afraid of +speaking openly. Seriously, I would have you be on your guard. +Do not involve yourself or endeavour to involve him in an +affection which the want of fortune would make so very +imprudent. I have nothing to say against _him_; he is a most +interesting young man; and if he had the fortune he ought to +have, I should think you could not do better. But as it is, you +must not let your fancy run away with you. You have sense, and +we all expect you to use it. Your father would depend on +_your_ resolution and good conduct, I am sure. You must not +disappoint your father." + +"My dear aunt, this is being serious indeed." + +"Yes, and I hope to engage you to be serious likewise." + +"Well, then, you need not be under any alarm. I will take care +of myself, and of Mr. Wickham too. He shall not be in love with +me, if I can prevent it." + +"Elizabeth, you are not serious now." + +"I beg your pardon, I will try again. At present I am not in +love with Mr. Wickham; no, I certainly am not. But he is, beyond +all comparison, the most agreeable man I ever saw--and if he +becomes really attached to me--I believe it will be better that +he should not. I see the imprudence of it. Oh! _that_ abominable +Mr. Darcy! My father's opinion of me does me the greatest +honour, and I should be miserable to forfeit it. My father, +however, is partial to Mr. Wickham. In short, my dear aunt, +I should be very sorry to be the means of making any of you +unhappy; but since we see every day that where there is +affection, young people are seldom withheld by immediate want +of fortune from entering into engagements with each other, how +can I promise to be wiser than so many of my fellow-creatures +if I am tempted, or how am I even to know that it would be +wisdom to resist? All that I can promise you, therefore, is not +to be in a hurry. I will not be in a hurry to believe myself his +first object. When I am in company with him, I will not be +wishing. In short, I will do my best." + +"Perhaps it will be as well if you discourage his coming here so +very often. At least, you should not _remind_ you mother of +inviting him." + +"As I did the other day," said Elizabeth with a conscious smile: +"very true, it will be wise in me to refrain from _that_. But do +not imagine that he is always here so often. It is on your +account that he has been so frequently invited this week. You +know my mother's ideas as to the necessity of constant company +for her friends. But really, and upon my honour, I will try to do +what I think to be the wisest; and now I hope you are satisfied." + +Her aunt assured her that she was, and Elizabeth having thanked +her for the kindness of her hints, they parted; a wonderful +instance of advice being given on such a point, without being +resented. + +Mr. Collins returned into Hertfordshire soon after it had been +quitted by the Gardiners and Jane; but as he took up his abode +with the Lucases, his arrival was no great inconvenience to Mrs. +Bennet. His marriage was now fast approaching, and she was at +length so far resigned as to think it inevitable, and even +repeatedly to say, in an ill-natured tone, that she "_wished_ they +might be happy." Thursday was to be the wedding day, and on +Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her farewell visit; and when she +rose to take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of her mother's +ungracious and reluctant good wishes, and sincerely affected +herself, accompanied her out of the room. As they went +downstairs together, Charlotte said: + +"I shall depend on hearing from you very often, Eliza." + +"_That_ you certainly shall." + +"And I have another favour to ask you. Will you come and see +me?" + +"We shall often meet, I hope, in Hertfordshire." + +"I am not likely to leave Kent for some time. Promise me, +therefore, to come to Hunsford." + +Elizabeth could not refuse, though she foresaw little pleasure +in the visit. + +"My father and Maria are coming to me in March," added +Charlotte, "and I hope you will consent to be of the party. +Indeed, Eliza, you will be as welcome as either of them." + +The wedding took place; the bride and bridegroom set off for +Kent from the church door, and everybody had as much to say, +or to hear, on the subject as usual. Elizabeth soon heard from +her friend; and their correspondence was as regular and frequent +as it had ever been; that it should be equally unreserved was +impossible. Elizabeth could never address her without feeling +that all the comfort of intimacy was over, and though determined +not to slacken as a correspondent, it was for the sake of what +had been, rather than what was. Charlotte's first letters were +received with a good deal of eagerness; there could not but be +curiosity to know how she would speak of her new home, how +she would like Lady Catherine, and how happy she would dare +pronounce herself to be; though, when the letters were read, +Elizabeth felt that Charlotte expressed herself on every point +exactly as she might have foreseen. She wrote cheerfully, +seemed surrounded with comforts, and mentioned nothing which +she could not praise. The house, furniture, neighbourhood, and +roads, were all to her taste, and Lady Catherine's behaviour +was most friendly and obliging. It was Mr. Collins's picture +of Hunsford and Rosings rationally softened; and Elizabeth +perceived that she must wait for her own visit there to know the +rest. + +Jane had already written a few lines to her sister to announce +their safe arrival in London; and when she wrote again, Elizabeth +hoped it would be in her power to say something of the +Bingleys. + +Her impatience for this second letter was as well rewarded as +impatience generally is. Jane had been a week in town without +either seeing or hearing from Caroline. She accounted for it, +however, by supposing that her last letter to her friend from +Longbourn had by some accident been lost. + +"My aunt," she continued, "is going to-morrow into that part of +the town, and I shall take the opportunity of calling in Grosvenor +Street." + +She wrote again when the visit was paid, and she had seen Miss +Bingley. "I did not think Caroline in spirits," were her words, +"but she was very glad to see me, and reproached me for giving +her no notice of my coming to London. I was right, therefore, +my last letter had never reached her. I inquired after their +brother, of course. He was well, but so much engaged with Mr. +Darcy that they scarcely ever saw him. I found that Miss Darcy +was expected to dinner. I wish I could see her. My visit was +not long, as Caroline and Mrs. Hurst were going out. I dare say +I shall see them soon here." + +Elizabeth shook her head over this letter. It convinced her that +accident only could discover to Mr. Bingley her sister's being in +town. + +Four weeks passed away, and Jane saw nothing of him. She +endeavoured to persuade herself that she did not regret it; but +she could no longer be blind to Miss Bingley's inattention. After +waiting at home every morning for a fortnight, and inventing +every evening a fresh excuse for her, the visitor did at last +appear; but the shortness of her stay, and yet more, the alteration +of her manner would allow Jane to deceive herself no longer. +The letter which she wrote on this occasion to her sister will +prove what she felt. + +"My dearest Lizzy will, I am sure, be incapable of triumphing in +her better judgement, at my expense, when I confess myself to +have been entirely deceived in Miss Bingley's regard for me. +But, my dear sister, though the event has proved you right, do +not think me obstinate if I still assert that, considering what +her behaviour was, my confidence was as natural as your suspicion. +I do not at all comprehend her reason for wishing to be intimate +with me; but if the same circumstances were to happen again, I +am sure I should be deceived again. Caroline did not return my +visit till yesterday; and not a note, not a line, did I receive +in the meantime. When she did come, it was very evident that she +had no pleasure in it; she made a slight, formal apology, for not +calling before, said not a word of wishing to see me again, and +was in every respect so altered a creature, that when she went +away I was perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no +longer. I pity, though I cannot help blaming her. She was very +wrong in singling me out as she did; I can safely say that every +advance to intimacy began on her side. But I pity her, because +she must feel that she has been acting wrong, and because I am +very sure that anxiety for her brother is the cause of it. I need +not explain myself farther; and though _we_ know this anxiety to +be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it will easily account +for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear as he is to his +sister, whatever anxiety she must feel on his behalf is natural +and amiable. I cannot but wonder, however, at her having any +such fears now, because, if he had at all cared about me, we +must have met, long ago. He knows of my being in town, I am +certain, from something she said herself; and yet it would seem, +by her manner of talking, as if she wanted to persuade herself +that he is really partial to Miss Darcy. I cannot understand it. +If I were not afraid of judging harshly, I should be almost +tempted to say that there is a strong appearance of duplicity in +all this. But I will endeavour to banish every painful thought, +and think only of what will make me happy--your affection, and +the invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt. Let me hear +from you very soon. Miss Bingley said something of his never +returning to Netherfield again, of giving up the house, but not +with any certainty. We had better not mention it. I am extremely +glad that you have such pleasant accounts from our friends at +Hunsford. Pray go to see them, with Sir William and Maria. I am +sure you will be very comfortable there.--Yours, etc." + +This letter gave Elizabeth some pain; but her spirits returned as +she considered that Jane would no longer be duped, by the sister +at least. All expectation from the brother was now absolutely +over. She would not even wish for a renewal of his attentions. +His character sunk on every review of it; and as a punishment for +him, as well as a possible advantage to Jane, she seriously hoped +he might really soon marry Mr. Darcy's sister, as by Wickham's +account, she would make him abundantly regret what he had +thrown away. + +Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth of her promise +concerning that gentleman, and required information; and +Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give contentment to +her aunt than to herself. His apparent partiality had subsided, +his attentions were over, he was the admirer of some one else. +Elizabeth was watchful enough to see it all, but she could see it +and write of it without material pain. Her heart had been but +slightly touched, and her vanity was satisfied with believing that +_she_ would have been his only choice, had fortune permitted it. +The sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most +remarkable charm of the young lady to whom he was now rendering +himself agreeable; but Elizabeth, less clear-sighted perhaps in +this case than in Charlotte's, did not quarrel with him for his +wish of independence. Nothing, on the contrary, could be more +natural; and while able to suppose that it cost him a few struggles +to relinquish her, she was ready to allow it a wise and desirable +measure for both, and could very sincerely wish him happy. + +All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner; and after relating +the circumstances, she thus went on: "I am now convinced, my +dear aunt, that I have never been much in love; for had I really +experienced that pure and elevating passion, I should at present +detest his very name, and wish him all manner of evil. But my +feelings are not only cordial towards _him_; they are even +impartial towards Miss King. I cannot find out that I hate her at +all, or that I am in the least unwilling to think her a very good +sort of girl. There can be no love in all this. My watchfulness +has been effectual; and though I certainly should be a more +interesting object to all my acquaintances were I distractedly +in love with him, I cannot say that I regret my comparative +insignificance. Importance may sometimes be purchased too +dearly. Kitty and Lydia take his defection much more to heart +than I do. They are young in the ways of the world, and not +yet open to the mortifying conviction that handsome young men +must have something to live on as well as the plain." + + + +Chapter 27 + + +With no greater events than these in the Longbourn family, and +otherwise diversified by little beyond the walks to Meryton, +sometimes dirty and sometimes cold, did January and February +pass away. March was to take Elizabeth to Hunsford. She had +not at first thought very seriously of going thither; but Charlotte, +she soon found, was depending on the plan and she gradually +learned to consider it herself with greater pleasure as well as +greater certainty. Absence had increased her desire of seeing +Charlotte again, and weakened her disgust of Mr. Collins. There +was novelty in the scheme, and as, with such a mother and such +uncompanionable sisters, home could not be faultless, a little +change was not unwelcome for its own sake. The journey +would moreover give her a peep at Jane; and, in short, as the +time drew near, she would have been very sorry for any delay. +Everything, however, went on smoothly, and was finally settled +according to Charlotte's first sketch. She was to accompany Sir +William and his second daughter. The improvement of spending +a night in London was added in time, and the plan became +perfect as plan could be. + +The only pain was in leaving her father, who would certainly +miss her, and who, when it came to the point, so little liked her +going, that he told her to write to him, and almost promised to +answer her letter. + +The farewell between herself and Mr. Wickham was perfectly +friendly; on his side even more. His present pursuit could not +make him forget that Elizabeth had been the first to excite and to +deserve his attention, the first to listen and to pity, the first +to be admired; and in his manner of bidding her adieu, wishing +her every enjoyment, reminding her of what she was to expect in +Lady Catherine de Bourgh, and trusting their opinion of her--their +opinion of everybody--would always coincide, there was a solicitude, +an interest which she felt must ever attach her to him with a most +sincere regard; and she parted from him convinced that, whether +married or single, he must always be her model of the amiable and +pleasing. + +Her fellow-travellers the next day were not of a kind to make her +think him less agreeable. Sir William Lucas, and his daughter +Maria, a good-humoured girl, but as empty-headed as himself, +had nothing to say that could be worth hearing, and were +listened to with about as much delight as the rattle of the chaise. +Elizabeth loved absurdities, but she had known Sir William's too +long. He could tell her nothing new of the wonders of his +presentation and knighthood; and his civilities were worn out, +like his information. + +It was a journey of only twenty-four miles, and they began it so +early as to be in Gracechurch Street by noon. As they drove +to Mr. Gardiner's door, Jane was at a drawing-room window +watching their arrival; when they entered the passage she was +there to welcome them, and Elizabeth, looking earnestly in her +face, was pleased to see it healthful and lovely as ever. On the +stairs were a troop of little boys and girls, whose eagerness for +their cousin's appearance would not allow them to wait in the +drawing-room, and whose shyness, as they had not seen her for +a twelvemonth, prevented their coming lower. All was joy and +kindness. The day passed most pleasantly away; the morning in +bustle and shopping, and the evening at one of the theatres. + +Elizabeth then contrived to sit by her aunt. Their first object was +her sister; and she was more grieved than astonished to hear, in +reply to her minute inquiries, that though Jane always struggled +to support her spirits, there were periods of dejection. It was +reasonable, however, to hope that they would not continue long. +Mrs. Gardiner gave her the particulars also of Miss Bingley's +visit in Gracechurch Street, and repeated conversations +occurring at different times between Jane and herself, which +proved that the former had, from her heart, given up the +acquaintance. + +Mrs. Gardiner then rallied her niece on Wickham's desertion, +and complimented her on bearing it so well. + +"But my dear Elizabeth," she added, "what sort of girl is Miss +King? I should be sorry to think our friend mercenary." + +"Pray, my dear aunt, what is the difference in matrimonial +affairs, between the mercenary and the prudent motive? Where +does discretion end, and avarice begin? Last Christmas you +were afraid of his marrying me, because it would be imprudent; +and now, because he is trying to get a girl with only ten +thousand pounds, you want to find out that he is mercenary." + +"If you will only tell me what sort of girl Miss King is, I shall +know what to think." + +"She is a very good kind of girl, I believe. I know no harm of +her." + +"But he paid her not the smallest attention till her grandfather's +death made her mistress of this fortune." + +"No--what should he? If it were not allowable for him to gain +_my_ affections because I had no money, what occasion could +there be for making love to a girl whom he did not care about, +and who was equally poor?" + +"But there seems an indelicacy in directing his attentions +towards her so soon after this event." + +"A man in distressed circumstances has not time for all those +elegant decorums which other people may observe. If _she_ does +not object to it, why should _we_?" + +"_Her_ not objecting does not justify _him_. It only shows her +being deficient in something herself--sense or feeling." + +"Well," cried Elizabeth, "have it as you choose. _He_ shall be +mercenary, and _she_ shall be foolish." + +"No, Lizzy, that is what I do _not_ choose. I should be sorry, +you know, to think ill of a young man who has lived so long in +Derbyshire." + +"Oh! if that is all, I have a very poor opinion of young men +who live in Derbyshire; and their intimate friends who live +in Hertfordshire are not much better. I am sick of them all. +Thank Heaven! I am going to-morrow where I shall find a man +who has not one agreeable quality, who has neither manner nor +sense to recommend him. Stupid men are the only ones worth +knowing, after all." + +"Take care, Lizzy; that speech savours strongly of disappointment." + +Before they were separated by the conclusion of the play, she +had the unexpected happiness of an invitation to accompany her +uncle and aunt in a tour of pleasure which they proposed taking +in the summer. + +"We have not determined how far it shall carry us," said Mrs. +Gardiner, "but, perhaps, to the Lakes." + +No scheme could have been more agreeable to Elizabeth, and +her acceptance of the invitation was most ready and grateful. +"Oh, my dear, dear aunt," she rapturously cried, "what delight! +what felicity! You give me fresh life and vigour. Adieu to +disappointment and spleen. What are young men to rocks and +mountains? Oh! what hours of transport we shall spend! And +when we _do_ return, it shall not be like other travellers, +without being able to give one accurate idea of anything. We +_will_ know where we have gone--we _will_ recollect what we have +seen. Lakes, mountains, and rivers shall not be jumbled together +in our imaginations; nor when we attempt to describe any +particular scene, will we begin quarreling about its relative +situation. Let _our_ first effusions be less insupportable than +those of the generality of travellers." + + + +Chapter 28 + + +Every object in the next day's journey was new and interesting +to Elizabeth; and her spirits were in a state of enjoyment; for +she had seen her sister looking so well as to banish all fear for +her health, and the prospect of her northern tour was a constant +source of delight. + +When they left the high road for the lane to Hunsford, every eye +was in search of the Parsonage, and every turning expected to +bring it in view. The palings of Rosings Park was their boundary +on one side. Elizabeth smiled at the recollection of all that she +had heard of its inhabitants. + +At length the Parsonage was discernible. The garden sloping to +the road, the house standing in it, the green pales, and the laurel +hedge, everything declared they were arriving. Mr. Collins and +Charlotte appeared at the door, and the carriage stopped at the +small gate which led by a short gravel walk to the house, amidst +the nods and smiles of the whole party. In a moment they were +all out of the chaise, rejoicing at the sight of each other. +Mrs. Collins welcomed her friend with the liveliest pleasure, +and Elizabeth was more and more satisfied with coming when she +found herself so affectionately received. She saw instantly that +her cousin's manners were not altered by his marriage; his formal +civility was just what it had been, and he detained her some +minutes at the gate to hear and satisfy his inquiries after +all her family. They were then, with no other delay than his +pointing out the neatness of the entrance, taken into the house; +and as soon as they were in the parlour, he welcomed them a +second time, with ostentatious formality to his humble abode, +and punctually repeated all his wife's offers of refreshment. + +Elizabeth was prepared to see him in his glory; and she could +not help in fancying that in displaying the good proportion of +the room, its aspect and its furniture, he addressed himself +particularly to her, as if wishing to make her feel what she +had lost in refusing him. But though everything seemed neat +and comfortable, she was not able to gratify him by any sigh of +repentance, and rather looked with wonder at her friend that +she could have so cheerful an air with such a companion. When +Mr. Collins said anything of which his wife might reasonably be +ashamed, which certainly was not unseldom, she involuntarily +turned her eye on Charlotte. Once or twice she could discern +a faint blush; but in general Charlotte wisely did not hear. +After sitting long enough to admire every article of furniture in +the room, from the sideboard to the fender, to give an account +of their journey, and of all that had happened in London, Mr. +Collins invited them to take a stroll in the garden, which was +large and well laid out, and to the cultivation of which he +attended himself. To work in this garden was one of his most +respectable pleasures; and Elizabeth admired the command of +countenance with which Charlotte talked of the healthfulness of +the exercise, and owned she encouraged it as much as possible. +Here, leading the way through every walk and cross walk, and +scarcely allowing them an interval to utter the praises he asked +for, every view was pointed out with a minuteness which left +beauty entirely behind. He could number the fields in every +direction, and could tell how many tress there were in the most +distant clump. But of all the views which his garden, or which +the country or kingdom could boast, none were to be compared +with the prospect of Rosings, afforded by an opening in the trees +that bordered the park nearly opposite the front of his house. It +was a handsome modern building, well situated on rising ground. + +From his garden, Mr. Collins would have led them round his two +meadows; but the ladies, not having shoes to encounter the +remains of a white frost, turned back; and while Sir William +accompanied him, Charlotte took her sister and friend over the +house, extremely well pleased, probably, to have the opportunity +of showing it without her husband's help. It was rather small, +but well built and convenient; and everything was fitted up and +arranged with a neatness and consistency of which Elizabeth +gave Charlotte all the credit. When Mr. Collins could be +forgotten, there was really an air of great comfort throughout, +and by Charlotte's evident enjoyment of it, Elizabeth supposed +he must be often forgotten. + +She had already learnt that Lady Catherine was still in the +country. It was spoken of again while they were at dinner, +when Mr. Collins joining in, observed: + +"Yes, Miss Elizabeth, you will have the honour of seeing Lady +Catherine de Bourgh on the ensuing Sunday at church, and I +need not say you will be delighted with her. She is all affability +and condescension, and I doubt not but you will be honoured +with some portion of her notice when service is over. I have +scarcely any hesitation in saying she will include you and my +sister Maria in every invitation with which she honours us during +your stay here. Her behaviour to my dear Charlotte is charming. +We dine at Rosings twice every week, and are never allowed to +walk home. Her ladyship's carriage is regularly ordered for us. +I _should_ say, one of her ladyship's carriages, for she has +several." + +"Lady Catherine is a very respectable, sensible woman indeed," +added Charlotte, "and a most attentive neighbour." + +"Very true, my dear, that is exactly what I say. She is the sort +of woman whom one cannot regard with too much deference." + +The evening was spent chiefly in talking over Hertfordshire +news, and telling again what had already been written; and when +it closed, Elizabeth, in the solitude of her chamber, had to +meditate upon Charlotte's degree of contentment, to understand +her address in guiding, and composure in bearing with, her +husband, and to acknowledge that it was all done very well. She +had also to anticipate how her visit would pass, the quiet tenor +of their usual employments, the vexatious interruptions of Mr. +Collins, and the gaieties of their intercourse with Rosings. +A lively imagination soon settled it all. + +About the middle of the next day, as she was in her room getting +ready for a walk, a sudden noise below seemed to speak the +whole house in confusion; and, after listening a moment, she +heard somebody running upstairs in a violent hurry, and calling +loudly after her. She opened the door and met Maria in the +landing place, who, breathless with agitation, cried out-- + +"Oh, my dear Eliza! pray make haste and come into the dining-room, +for there is such a sight to be seen! I will not tell you what +it is. Make haste, and come down this moment." + +Elizabeth asked questions in vain; Maria would tell her nothing +more, and down they ran into the dining-room, which fronted +the lane, in quest of this wonder; It was two ladies stopping in +a low phaeton at the garden gate. + +"And is this all?" cried Elizabeth. "I expected at least that the +pigs were got into the garden, and here is nothing but Lady +Catherine and her daughter." + +"La! my dear," said Maria, quite shocked at the mistake, "it is +not Lady Catherine. The old lady is Mrs. Jenkinson, who lives +with them; the other is Miss de Bourgh. Only look at her. She +is quite a little creature. Who would have thought that she could +be so thin and small?" + +"She is abominably rude to keep Charlotte out of doors in all this +wind. Why does she not come in?" + +"Oh, Charlotte says she hardly ever does. It is the greatest of +favours when Miss de Bourgh comes in." + +"I like her appearance," said Elizabeth, struck with other ideas. +"She looks sickly and cross. Yes, she will do for him very well. +She will make him a very proper wife." + +Mr. Collins and Charlotte were both standing at the gate in +conversation with the ladies; and Sir William, to Elizabeth's +high diversion, was stationed in the doorway, in earnest +contemplation of the greatness before him, and constantly +bowing whenever Miss de Bourgh looked that way. + +At length there was nothing more to be said; the ladies drove on, +and the others returned into the house. Mr. Collins no sooner +saw the two girls than he began to congratulate them on their +good fortune, which Charlotte explained by letting them know +that the whole party was asked to dine at Rosings the next day. + + + +Chapter 29 + + +Mr. Collins's triumph, in consequence of this invitation, was +complete. The power of displaying the grandeur of his patroness +to his wondering visitors, and of letting them see her civility +towards himself and his wife, was exactly what he had wished +for; and that an opportunity of doing it should be given so soon, +was such an instance of Lady Catherine's condescension, as he +knew not how to admire enough. + +"I confess," said he, "that I should not have been at all surprised +by her ladyship's asking us on Sunday to drink tea and spend the +evening at Rosings. I rather expected, from my knowledge of +her affability, that it would happen. But who could have +foreseen such an attention as this? Who could have imagined +that we should receive an invitation to dine there (an invitation, +moreover, including the whole party) so immediately after your +arrival!" + +"I am the less surprised at what has happened," replied Sir +William, "from that knowledge of what the manners of the great +really are, which my situation in life has allowed me to acquire. +About the court, such instances of elegant breeding are not +uncommon." + +Scarcely anything was talked of the whole day or next morning +but their visit to Rosings. Mr. Collins was carefully instructing +them in what they were to expect, that the sight of such rooms, +so many servants, and so splendid a dinner, might not wholly +overpower them. + +When the ladies were separating for the toilette, he said to +Elizabeth-- + +"Do not make yourself uneasy, my dear cousin, about your +apparel. Lady Catherine is far from requiring that elegance of +dress in us which becomes herself and her daughter. I would +advise you merely to put on whatever of your clothes is superior +to the rest--there is no occasion for anything more. Lady +Catherine will not think the worse of you for being simply +dressed. She likes to have the distinction of rank preserved." + +While they were dressing, he came two or three times to their +different doors, to recommend their being quick, as Lady +Catherine very much objected to be kept waiting for her dinner. +Such formidable accounts of her ladyship, and her manner of +living, quite frightened Maria Lucas who had been little used to +company, and she looked forward to her introduction at Rosings +with as much apprehension as her father had done to his +presentation at St. James's. + +As the weather was fine, they had a pleasant walk of about half +a mile across the park. Every park has its beauty and its +prospects; and Elizabeth saw much to be pleased with, though +she could not be in such raptures as Mr. Collins expected the +scene to inspire, and was but slightly affected by his enumeration +of the windows in front of the house, and his relation of what the +glazing altogether had originally cost Sir Lewis de Bourgh. + +When they ascended the steps to the hall, Maria's alarm was +every moment increasing, and even Sir William did not look +perfectly calm. Elizabeth's courage did not fail her. She had +heard nothing of Lady Catherine that spoke her awful from any +extraordinary talents or miraculous virtue, and the mere +stateliness of money or rank she thought she could witness +without trepidation. + +From the entrance-hall, of which Mr. Collins pointed out, with a +rapturous air, the fine proportion and the finished ornaments, +they followed the servants through an ante-chamber, to the room +where Lady Catherine, her daughter, and Mrs. Jenkinson were +sitting. Her ladyship, with great condescension, arose to receive +them; and as Mrs. Collins had settled it with her husband that the +office of introduction should be hers, it was performed in a +proper manner, without any of those apologies and thanks which +he would have thought necessary. + +In spite of having been at St. James's Sir William was so +completely awed by the grandeur surrounding him, that he had +but just courage enough to make a very low bow, and take his +seat without saying a word; and his daughter, frightened almost +out of her senses, sat on the edge of her chair, not knowing +which way to look. Elizabeth found herself quite equal to the +scene, and could observe the three ladies before her composedly. +Lady Catherine was a tall, large woman, with strongly-marked +features, which might once have been handsome. Her air was +not conciliating, nor was her manner of receiving them such as +to make her visitors forget their inferior rank. She was not +rendered formidable by silence; but whatever she said was +spoken in so authoritative a tone, as marked her self-importance, +and brought Mr. Wickham immediately to Elizabeth's mind; and +from the observation of the day altogether, she believed Lady +Catherine to be exactly what he represented. + +When, after examining the mother, in whose countenance and +deportment she soon found some resemblance of Mr. Darcy, she +turned her eyes on the daughter, she could almost have joined +in Maria's astonishment at her being so thin and so small. There +was neither in figure nor face any likeness between the ladies. +Miss de Bourgh was pale and sickly; her features, though not +plain, were insignificant; and she spoke very little, except in +a low voice, to Mrs. Jenkinson, in whose appearance there was +nothing remarkable, and who was entirely engaged in listening to +what she said, and placing a screen in the proper direction before +her eyes. + +After sitting a few minutes, they were all sent to one of the +windows to admire the view, Mr. Collins attending them to +point out its beauties, and Lady Catherine kindly informing +them that it was much better worth looking at in the summer. + +The dinner was exceedingly handsome, and there were all the +servants and all the articles of plate which Mr. Collins had +promised; and, as he had likewise foretold, he took his seat at +the bottom of the table, by her ladyship's desire, and looked as +if he felt that life could furnish nothing greater. He carved, +and ate, and praised with delighted alacrity; and every dish was +commended, first by him and then by Sir William, who was now +enough recovered to echo whatever his son-in-law said, in a +manner which Elizabeth wondered Lady Catherine could bear. +But Lady Catherine seemed gratified by their excessive admiration, +and gave most gracious smiles, especially when any dish on the +table proved a novelty to them. The party did not supply much +conversation. Elizabeth was ready to speak whenever there was +an opening, but she was seated between Charlotte and Miss de +Bourgh--the former of whom was engaged in listening to Lady +Catherine, and the latter said not a word to her all dinner-time. +Mrs. Jenkinson was chiefly employed in watching how little Miss +de Bourgh ate, pressing her to try some other dish, and fearing +she was indisposed. Maria thought speaking out of the question, +and the gentlemen did nothing but eat and admire. + +When the ladies returned to the drawing-room, there was little +to be done but to hear Lady Catherine talk, which she did +without any intermission till coffee came in, delivering her +opinion on every subject in so decisive a manner, as proved +that she was not used to have her judgement controverted. She +inquired into Charlotte's domestic concerns familiarly and +minutely, gave her a great deal of advice as to the management +of them all; told her how everything ought to be regulated in so +small a family as hers, and instructed her as to the care of her +cows and her poultry. Elizabeth found that nothing was beneath +this great lady's attention, which could furnish her with an +occasion of dictating to others. In the intervals of her discourse +with Mrs. Collins, she addressed a variety of questions to Maria +and Elizabeth, but especially to the latter, of whose connections +she knew the least, and who she observed to Mrs. Collins was a +very genteel, pretty kind of girl. She asked her, at different +times, how many sisters she had, whether they were older or +younger than herself, whether any of them were likely to be +married, whether they were handsome, where they had been +educated, what carriage her father kept, and what had been her +mother's maiden name? Elizabeth felt all the impertinence of her +questions but answered them very composedly. Lady Catherine +then observed, + +"Your father's estate is entailed on Mr. Collins, I think. For +your sake," turning to Charlotte, "I am glad of it; but otherwise I +see no occasion for entailing estates from the female line. It was +not thought necessary in Sir Lewis de Bourgh's family. Do you +play and sing, Miss Bennet?" + +"A little." + +"Oh! then--some time or other we shall be happy to hear you. +Our instrument is a capital one, probably superior to----You +shall try it some day. Do your sisters play and sing?" + +"One of them does." + +"Why did not you all learn? You ought all to have learned. The +Miss Webbs all play, and their father has not so good an income +as yours. Do you draw?" + +"No, not at all." + +"What, none of you?" + +"Not one." + +"That is very strange. But I suppose you had no opportunity. +Your mother should have taken you to town every spring for the +benefit of masters." + +"My mother would have had no objection, but my father hates +London." + +"Has your governess left you?" + +"We never had any governess." + +"No governess! How was that possible? Five daughters brought +up at home without a governess! I never heard of such a thing. +Your mother must have been quite a slave to your education." + +Elizabeth could hardly help smiling as she assured her that had +not been the case. + +"Then, who taught you? who attended to you? Without a +governess, you must have been neglected." + +"Compared with some families, I believe we were; but such of us +as wished to learn never wanted the means. We were always +encouraged to read, and had all the masters that were necessary. +Those who chose to be idle, certainly might." + +"Aye, no doubt; but that is what a governess will prevent, and +if I had known your mother, I should have advised her most +strenuously to engage one. I always say that nothing is to be +done in education without steady and regular instruction, and +nobody but a governess can give it. It is wonderful how many +families I have been the means of supplying in that way. I am +always glad to get a young person well placed out. Four nieces +of Mrs. Jenkinson are most delightfully situated through my +means; and it was but the other day that I recommended another +young person, who was merely accidentally mentioned to me, +and the family are quite delighted with her. Mrs. Collins, did I +tell you of Lady Metcalf's calling yesterday to thank me? She +finds Miss Pope a treasure. 'Lady Catherine,' said she, 'you +have given me a treasure.' Are any of your younger sisters out, +Miss Bennet?" + +"Yes, ma'am, all." + +"All! What, all five out at once? Very odd! And you only +the second. The younger ones out before the elder ones are +married! Your younger sisters must be very young?" + +"Yes, my youngest is not sixteen. Perhaps _she_ is full young to +be much in company. But really, ma'am, I think it would be +very hard upon younger sisters, that they should not have their +share of society and amusement, because the elder may not have +the means or inclination to marry early. The last-born has as +good a right to the pleasures of youth at the first. And to be +kept back on _such_ a motive! I think it would not be very likely +to promote sisterly affection or delicacy of mind." + +"Upon my word," said her ladyship, "you give your opinion very +decidedly for so young a person. Pray, what is your age?" + +"With three younger sisters grown up," replied Elizabeth, +smiling, "your ladyship can hardly expect me to own it." + +Lady Catherine seemed quite astonished at not receiving a direct +answer; and Elizabeth suspected herself to be the first creature +who had ever dared to trifle with so much dignified impertinence. + +"You cannot be more than twenty, I am sure, therefore you need +not conceal your age." + +"I am not one-and-twenty." + +When the gentlemen had joined them, and tea was over, the +card-tables were placed. Lady Catherine, Sir William, and Mr. +and Mrs. Collins sat down to quadrille; and as Miss de Bourgh +chose to play at cassino, the two girls had the honour of +assisting Mrs. Jenkinson to make up her party. Their table was +superlatively stupid. Scarcely a syllable was uttered that did +not relate to the game, except when Mrs. Jenkinson expressed her +fears of Miss de Bourgh's being too hot or too cold, or having +too much or too little light. A great deal more passed at the +other table. Lady Catherine was generally speaking--stating +the mistakes of the three others, or relating some anecdote of +herself. Mr. Collins was employed in agreeing to everything +her ladyship said, thanking her for every fish he won, and +apologising if he thought he won too many. Sir William did not +say much. He was storing his memory with anecdotes and noble +names. + +When Lady Catherine and her daughter had played as long as +they chose, the tables were broken up, the carriage was offered +to Mrs. Collins, gratefully accepted and immediately ordered. +The party then gathered round the fire to hear Lady Catherine +determine what weather they were to have on the morrow. From +these instructions they were summoned by the arrival of the +coach; and with many speeches of thankfulness on Mr. Collins's +side and as many bows on Sir William's they departed. As soon +as they had driven from the door, Elizabeth was called on by her +cousin to give her opinion of all that she had seen at Rosings, +which, for Charlotte's sake, she made more favourable than it +really was. But her commendation, though costing her some +trouble, could by no means satisfy Mr. Collins, and he was very +soon obliged to take her ladyship's praise into his own hands. + + + +Chapter 30 + + +Sir William stayed only a week at Hunsford, but his visit was +long enough to convince him of his daughter's being most +comfortably settled, and of her possessing such a husband and +such a neighbour as were not often met with. While Sir William +was with them, Mr. Collins devoted his morning to driving him +out in his gig, and showing him the country; but when he went +away, the whole family returned to their usual employments, and +Elizabeth was thankful to find that they did not see more of +her cousin by the alteration, for the chief of the time between +breakfast and dinner was now passed by him either at work in +the garden or in reading and writing, and looking out of the +window in his own book-room, which fronted the road. The +room in which the ladies sat was backwards. Elizabeth had at +first rather wondered that Charlotte should not prefer the +dining-parlour for common use; it was a better sized room, and +had a more pleasant aspect; but she soon saw that her friend +had an excellent reason for what she did, for Mr. Collins would +undoubtedly have been much less in his own apartment, had they +sat in one equally lively; and she gave Charlotte credit for +the arrangement. + +From the drawing-room they could distinguish nothing in the +lane, and were indebted to Mr. Collins for the knowledge of +what carriages went along, and how often especially Miss de +Bourgh drove by in her phaeton, which he never failed coming +to inform them of, though it happened almost every day. She +not unfrequently stopped at the Parsonage, and had a few +minutes' conversation with Charlotte, but was scarcely ever +prevailed upon to get out. + +Very few days passed in which Mr. Collins did not walk to +Rosings, and not many in which his wife did not think it +necessary to go likewise; and till Elizabeth recollected that +there might be other family livings to be disposed of, she could +not understand the sacrifice of so many hours. Now and then +they were honoured with a call from her ladyship, and nothing +escaped her observation that was passing in the room during +these visits. She examined into their employments, looked at +their work, and advised them to do it differently; found fault +with the arrangement of the furniture; or detected the housemaid +in negligence; and if she accepted any refreshment, seemed to do +it only for the sake of finding out that Mrs. Collins's joints of +meat were too large for her family. + +Elizabeth soon perceived, that though this great lady was not in +commission of the peace of the county, she was a most active +magistrate in her own parish, the minutest concerns of which +were carried to her by Mr. Collins; and whenever any of the +cottagers were disposed to be quarrelsome, discontented, or +too poor, she sallied forth into the village to settle their +differences, silence their complaints, and scold them into +harmony and plenty. + +The entertainment of dining at Rosings was repeated about twice +a week; and, allowing for the loss of Sir William, and there being +only one card-table in the evening, every such entertainment was +the counterpart of the first. Their other engagements were few, +as the style of living in the neighbourhood in general was beyond +Mr. Collins's reach. This, however, was no evil to Elizabeth, +and upon the whole she spent her time comfortably enough; +there were half-hours of pleasant conversation with Charlotte, +and the weather was so fine for the time of year that she had +often great enjoyment out of doors. Her favourite walk, and +where she frequently went while the others were calling on Lady +Catherine, was along the open grove which edged that side of +the park, where there was a nice sheltered path, which no one +seemed to value but herself, and where she felt beyond the reach +of Lady Catherine's curiosity. + +In this quiet way, the first fortnight of her visit soon passed +away. Easter was approaching, and the week preceding it was +to bring an addition to the family at Rosings, which in so small +a circle must be important. Elizabeth had heard soon after her +arrival that Mr. Darcy was expected there in the course of a few +weeks, and though there were not many of her acquaintances whom +she did not prefer, his coming would furnish one comparatively +new to look at in their Rosings parties, and she might be amused +in seeing how hopeless Miss Bingley's designs on him were, by +his behaviour to his cousin, for whom he was evidently destined +by Lady Catherine, who talked of his coming with the greatest +satisfaction, spoke of him in terms of the highest admiration, +and seemed almost angry to find that he had already been +frequently seen by Miss Lucas and herself. + +His arrival was soon known at the Parsonage; for Mr. Collins +was walking the whole morning within view of the lodges +opening into Hunsford Lane, in order to have the earliest +assurance of it, and after making his bow as the carriage turned +into the Park, hurried home with the great intelligence. On the +following morning he hastened to Rosings to pay his respects. +There were two nephews of Lady Catherine to require them, for +Mr. Darcy had brought with him a Colonel Fitzwilliam, the +younger son of his uncle Lord ----, and, to the great surprise +of all the party, when Mr. Collins returned, the gentleman +accompanied him. Charlotte had seen them from her husband's +room, crossing the road, and immediately running into the other, +told the girls what an honour they might expect, adding: + +"I may thank you, Eliza, for this piece of civility. Mr. Darcy +would never have come so soon to wait upon me." + +Elizabeth had scarcely time to disclaim all right to the +compliment, before their approach was announced by the +door-bell, and shortly afterwards the three gentlemen entered +the room. Colonel Fitzwilliam, who led the way, was about +thirty, not handsome, but in person and address most truly the +gentleman. Mr. Darcy looked just as he had been used to look +in Hertfordshire--paid his compliments, with his usual reserve, +to Mrs. Collins, and whatever might be his feelings toward her +friend, met her with every appearance of composure. Elizabeth +merely curtseyed to him without saying a word. + +Colonel Fitzwilliam entered into conversation directly with +the readiness and ease of a well-bred man, and talked very +pleasantly; but his cousin, after having addressed a slight +observation on the house and garden to Mrs. Collins, sat for +some time without speaking to anybody. At length, however, +his civility was so far awakened as to inquire of Elizabeth after +the health of her family. She answered him in the usual way, +and after a moment's pause, added: + +"My eldest sister has been in town these three months. Have +you never happened to see her there?" + +She was perfectly sensible that he never had; but she wished +to see whether he would betray any consciousness of what had +passed between the Bingleys and Jane, and she thought he +looked a little confused as he answered that he had never been +so fortunate as to meet Miss Bennet. The subject was pursued +no farther, and the gentlemen soon afterwards went away. + + + +Chapter 31 + + +Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners were very much admired at the +Parsonage, and the ladies all felt that he must add considerably +to the pleasures of their engagements at Rosings. It was some +days, however, before they received any invitation thither--for +while there were visitors in the house, they could not be +necessary; and it was not till Easter-day, almost a week after the +gentlemen's arrival, that they were honoured by such an +attention, and then they were merely asked on leaving church to +come there in the evening. For the last week they had seen very +little of Lady Catherine or her daughter. Colonel Fitzwilliam had +called at the Parsonage more than once during the time, but Mr. +Darcy they had seen only at church. + +The invitation was accepted of course, and at a proper hour they +joined the party in Lady Catherine's drawing-room. Her ladyship +received them civilly, but it was plain that their company was by +no means so acceptable as when she could get nobody else; and +she was, in fact, almost engrossed by her nephews, speaking to +them, especially to Darcy, much more than to any other person +in the room. + +Colonel Fitzwilliam seemed really glad to see them; anything +was a welcome relief to him at Rosings; and Mrs. Collins's +pretty friend had moreover caught his fancy very much. He now +seated himself by her, and talked so agreeably of Kent and +Hertfordshire, of travelling and staying at home, of new books +and music, that Elizabeth had never been half so well entertained +in that room before; and they conversed with so much spirit and +flow, as to draw the attention of Lady Catherine herself, as well +as of Mr. Darcy. _His_ eyes had been soon and repeatedly turned +towards them with a look of curiosity; and that her ladyship, +after a while, shared the feeling, was more openly acknowledged, +for she did not scruple to call out: + +"What is that you are saying, Fitzwilliam? What is it you are +talking of? What are you telling Miss Bennet? Let me hear +what it is." + +"We are speaking of music, madam," said he, when no longer +able to avoid a reply. + +"Of music! Then pray speak aloud. It is of all subjects my +delight. I must have my share in the conversation if you are +speaking of music. There are few people in England, I suppose, +who have more true enjoyment of music than myself, or a better +natural taste. If I had ever learnt, I should have been a great +proficient. And so would Anne, if her health had allowed her to +apply. I am confident that she would have performed delightfully. +How does Georgiana get on, Darcy?" + +Mr. Darcy spoke with affectionate praise of his sister's +proficiency. + +"I am very glad to hear such a good account of her," said Lady +Catherine; "and pray tell her from me, that she cannot expect to +excel if she does not practice a good deal." + +"I assure you, madam," he replied, "that she does not need such +advice. She practises very constantly." + +"So much the better. It cannot be done too much; and when I +next write to her, I shall charge her not to neglect it on any +account. I often tell young ladies that no excellence in music +is to be acquired without constant practice. I have told Miss +Bennet several times, that she will never play really well unless +she practises more; and though Mrs. Collins has no instrument, +she is very welcome, as I have often told her, to come to Rosings +every day, and play on the pianoforte in Mrs. Jenkinson's room. +She would be in nobody's way, you know, in that part of the house." + +Mr. Darcy looked a little ashamed of his aunt's ill-breeding, and +made no answer. + +When coffee was over, Colonel Fitzwilliam reminded Elizabeth +of having promised to play to him; and she sat down directly to +the instrument. He drew a chair near her. Lady Catherine +listened to half a song, and then talked, as before, to her other +nephew; till the latter walked away from her, and making with +his usual deliberation towards the pianoforte stationed himself +so as to command a full view of the fair performer's countenance. +Elizabeth saw what he was doing, and at the first convenient +pause, turned to him with an arch smile, and said: + +"You mean to frighten me, Mr. Darcy, by coming in all this state +to hear me? I will not be alarmed though your sister _does_ play +so well. There is a stubbornness about me that never can bear to +be frightened at the will of others. My courage always rises at +every attempt to intimidate me." + +"I shall not say you are mistaken," he replied, "because you +could not really believe me to entertain any design of alarming +you; and I have had the pleasure of your acquaintance long +enough to know that you find great enjoyment in occasionally +professing opinions which in fact are not your own." + +Elizabeth laughed heartily at this picture of herself, and said to +Colonel Fitzwilliam, "Your cousin will give you a very pretty +notion of me, and teach you not to believe a word I say. I am +particularly unlucky in meeting with a person so able to expose +my real character, in a part of the world where I had hoped to +pass myself off with some degree of credit. Indeed, Mr. Darcy, +it is very ungenerous in you to mention all that you knew to my +disadvantage in Hertfordshire--and, give me leave to say, very +impolitic too--for it is provoking me to retaliate, and such +things may come out as will shock your relations to hear." + +"I am not afraid of you," said he, smilingly. + +"Pray let me hear what you have to accuse him of," cried +Colonel Fitzwilliam. "I should like to know how he behaves +among strangers." + +"You shall hear then--but prepare yourself for something very +dreadful. The first time of my ever seeing him in Hertfordshire, +you must know, was at a ball--and at this ball, what do you +think he did? He danced only four dances, though gentlemen +were scarce; and, to my certain knowledge, more than one +young lady was sitting down in want of a partner. Mr. Darcy, +you cannot deny the fact." + +"I had not at that time the honour of knowing any lady in the +assembly beyond my own party." + +"True; and nobody can ever be introduced in a ball-room. Well, +Colonel Fitzwilliam, what do I play next? My fingers wait your +orders." + +"Perhaps," said Darcy, "I should have judged better, had I +sought an introduction; but I am ill-qualified to recommend +myself to strangers." + +"Shall we ask your cousin the reason of this?" said Elizabeth, +still addressing Colonel Fitzwilliam. "Shall we ask him why a +man of sense and education, and who has lived in the world, is +ill qualified to recommend himself to strangers?" + +"I can answer your question," said Fitzwilliam, "without +applying to him. It is because he will not give himself the +trouble." + +"I certainly have not the talent which some people possess," said +Darcy, "of conversing easily with those I have never seen before. +I cannot catch their tone of conversation, or appear interested +in their concerns, as I often see done." + +"My fingers," said Elizabeth, "do not move over this instrument +in the masterly manner which I see so many women's do. They +have not the same force or rapidity, and do not produce the +same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my +own fault--because I will not take the trouble of practising. +It is not that I do not believe _my_ fingers as capable as any +other woman's of superior execution." + +Darcy smiled and said, "You are perfectly right. You have +employed your time much better. No one admitted to the +privilege of hearing you can think anything wanting. We neither +of us perform to strangers." + +Here they were interrupted by Lady Catherine, who called out to +know what they were talking of. Elizabeth immediately began +playing again. Lady Catherine approached, and, after listening +for a few minutes, said to Darcy: + +"Miss Bennet would not play at all amiss if she practised more, +and could have the advantage of a London master. She has a +very good notion of fingering, though her taste is not equal to +Anne's. Anne would have been a delightful performer, had her +health allowed her to learn." + +Elizabeth looked at Darcy to see how cordially he assented to +his cousin's praise; but neither at that moment nor at any other +could she discern any symptom of love; and from the whole of +his behaviour to Miss de Bourgh she derived this comfort for +Miss Bingley, that he might have been just as likely to marry +_her_, had she been his relation. + +Lady Catherine continued her remarks on Elizabeth's performance, +mixing with them many instructions on execution and taste. +Elizabeth received them with all the forbearance of civility, +and, at the request of the gentlemen, remained at the instrument +till her ladyship's carriage was ready to take them all home. + + + +Chapter 32 + + +Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning, and writing to +Jane while Mrs. Collins and Maria were gone on business into +the village, when she was startled by a ring at the door, the +certain signal of a visitor. As she had heard no carriage, she +thought it not unlikely to be Lady Catherine, and under that +apprehension was putting away her half-finished letter that she +might escape all impertinent questions, when the door opened, +and, to her very great surprise, Mr. Darcy, and Mr. Darcy only, +entered the room. + +He seemed astonished too on finding her alone, and apologised +for his intrusion by letting her know that he had understood all +the ladies were to be within. + +They then sat down, and when her inquiries after Rosings were +made, seemed in danger of sinking into total silence. It was +absolutely necessary, therefore, to think of something, and in +this emergence recollecting _when_ she had seen him last in +Hertfordshire, and feeling curious to know what he would say +on the subject of their hasty departure, she observed: + +"How very suddenly you all quitted Netherfield last November, +Mr. Darcy! It must have been a most agreeable surprise to Mr. +Bingley to see you all after him so soon; for, if I recollect right, +he went but the day before. He and his sisters were well, I hope, +when you left London?" + +"Perfectly so, I thank you." + +She found that she was to receive no other answer, and, after a +short pause added: + +"I think I have understood that Mr. Bingley has not much idea of +ever returning to Netherfield again?" + +"I have never heard him say so; but it is probable that he may +spend very little of his time there in the future. He has many +friends, and is at a time of life when friends and engagements are +continually increasing." + +"If he means to be but little at Netherfield, it would be better for +the neighbourhood that he should give up the place entirely, for +then we might possibly get a settled family there. But, perhaps, +Mr. Bingley did not take the house so much for the convenience +of the neighbourhood as for his own, and we must expect him to +keep it or quit it on the same principle." + +"I should not be surprised," said Darcy, "if he were to give it up +as soon as any eligible purchase offers." + +Elizabeth made no answer. She was afraid of talking longer of +his friend; and, having nothing else to say, was now determined +to leave the trouble of finding a subject to him. + +He took the hint, and soon began with, "This seems a very +comfortable house. Lady Catherine, I believe, did a great deal to +it when Mr. Collins first came to Hunsford." + +"I believe she did--and I am sure she could not have bestowed +her kindness on a more grateful object." + +"Mr. Collins appears to be very fortunate in his choice of a wife." + +"Yes, indeed, his friends may well rejoice in his having met with +one of the very few sensible women who would have accepted +him, or have made him happy if they had. My friend has an +excellent understanding--though I am not certain that I consider +her marrying Mr. Collins as the wisest thing she ever did. She +seems perfectly happy, however, and in a prudential light it is +certainly a very good match for her." + +"It must be very agreeable for her to be settled within so easy a +distance of her own family and friends." + +"An easy distance, do you call it? It is nearly fifty miles." + +"And what is fifty miles of good road? Little more than half a +day's journey. Yes, I call it a _very_ easy distance." + +"I should never have considered the distance as one of the +_advantages_ of the match," cried Elizabeth. "I should never +have said Mrs. Collins was settled _near_ her family." + +"It is a proof of your own attachment to Hertfordshire. +Anything beyond the very neighbourhood of Longbourn, I +suppose, would appear far." + +As he spoke there was a sort of smile which Elizabeth fancied +she understood; he must be supposing her to be thinking of Jane +and Netherfield, and she blushed as she answered: + +"I do not mean to say that a woman may not be settled too near +her family. The far and the near must be relative, and depend on +many varying circumstances. Where there is fortune to make the +expenses of travelling unimportant, distance becomes no evil. +But that is not the case _here_. Mr. and Mrs. Collins have a +comfortable income, but not such a one as will allow of frequent +journeys--and I am persuaded my friend would not call herself +_near_ her family under less than _half_ the present distance." + +Mr. Darcy drew his chair a little towards her, and said, "_You_ +cannot have a right to such very strong local attachment. +_You_ cannot have been always at Longbourn." + +Elizabeth looked surprised. The gentleman experienced some +change of feeling; he drew back his chair, took a newspaper +from the table, and glancing over it, said, in a colder voice: + +"Are you pleased with Kent?" + +A short dialogue on the subject of the country ensued, on either +side calm and concise--and soon put an end to by the entrance +of Charlotte and her sister, just returned from her walk. The +tete-a-tete surprised them. Mr. Darcy related the mistake which +had occasioned his intruding on Miss Bennet, and after sitting a +few minutes longer without saying much to anybody, went away. + +"What can be the meaning of this?" said Charlotte, as soon as he +was gone. "My dear, Eliza, he must be in love with you, or he +would never have called us in this familiar way." + +But when Elizabeth told of his silence; it did not seem very +likely, even to Charlotte's wishes, to be the case; and after +various conjectures, they could at last only suppose his visit to +proceed from the difficulty of finding anything to do, which was +the more probable from the time of year. All field sports were +over. Within doors there was Lady Catherine, books, and a +billiard-table, but gentlemen cannot always be within doors; and +in the nearness of the Parsonage, or the pleasantness of the walk +to it, or of the people who lived in it, the two cousins found a +temptation from this period of walking thither almost every day. +They called at various times of the morning, sometimes +separately, sometimes together, and now and then accompanied +by their aunt. It was plain to them all that Colonel Fitzwilliam +came because he had pleasure in their society, a persuasion +which of course recommended him still more; and Elizabeth was +reminded by her own satisfaction in being with him, as well as by +his evident admiration of her, of her former favourite George +Wickham; and though, in comparing them, she saw there was +less captivating softness in Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners, she +believed he might have the best informed mind. + +But why Mr. Darcy came so often to the Parsonage, it was more +difficult to understand. It could not be for society, as he +frequently sat there ten minutes together without opening his +lips; and when he did speak, it seemed the effect of necessity +rather than of choice--a sacrifice to propriety, not a pleasure +to himself. He seldom appeared really animated. Mrs. Collins +knew not what to make of him. Colonel Fitzwilliam's occasionally +laughing at his stupidity, proved that he was generally different, +which her own knowledge of him could not have told her; and as +she would liked to have believed this change the effect of love, +and the object of that love her friend Eliza, she set herself +seriously to work to find it out. She watched him whenever they +were at Rosings, and whenever he came to Hunsford; but without +much success. He certainly looked at her friend a great deal, +but the expression of that look was disputable. It was an +earnest, steadfast gaze, but she often doubted whether there +were much admiration in it, and sometimes it seemed nothing but +absence of mind. + +She had once or twice suggested to Elizabeth the possibility of +his being partial to her, but Elizabeth always laughed at the idea; +and Mrs. Collins did not think it right to press the subject, from +the danger of raising expectations which might only end in +disappointment; for in her opinion it admitted not of a doubt, +that all her friend's dislike would vanish, if she could suppose +him to be in her power. + + +In her kind schemes for Elizabeth, she sometimes planned her +marrying Colonel Fitzwilliam. He was beyond comparison the +most pleasant man; he certainly admired her, and his situation in +life was most eligible; but, to counterbalance these advantages, +Mr. Darcy had considerable patronage in the church, and his +cousin could have none at all. + + + +Chapter 33 + + +More than once did Elizabeth, in her ramble within the park, +unexpectedly meet Mr. Darcy. She felt all the perverseness of +the mischance that should bring him where no one else was brought, +and, to prevent its ever happening again, took care to inform him +at first that it was a favourite haunt of hers. How it could occur +a second time, therefore, was very odd! Yet it did, and even a +third. It seemed like wilful ill-nature, or a voluntary penance, +for on these occasions it was not merely a few formal inquiries +and an awkward pause and then away, but he actually thought it +necessary to turn back and walk with her. He never said a great +deal, nor did she give herself the trouble of talking or of +listening much; but it struck her in the course of their third +rencontre that he was asking some odd unconnected questions--about +her pleasure in being at Hunsford, her love of solitary walks, and +her opinion of Mr. and Mrs. Collins's happiness; and that in +speaking of Rosings and her not perfectly understanding the house, +he seemed to expect that whenever she came into Kent again she +would be staying _there_ too. His words seemed to imply it. Could +he have Colonel Fitzwilliam in his thoughts? She supposed, if he +meant anything, he must mean an allusion to what might arise in +that quarter. It distressed her a little, and she was quite glad +to find herself at the gate in the pales opposite the Parsonage. + +She was engaged one day as she walked, in perusing Jane's last +letter, and dwelling on some passages which proved that Jane +had not written in spirits, when, instead of being again surprised +by Mr. Darcy, she saw on looking up that Colonel Fitzwilliam +was meeting her. Putting away the letter immediately and +forcing a smile, she said: + +"I did not know before that you ever walked this way." + +"I have been making the tour of the park," he replied, "as I +generally do every year, and intend to close it with a call at the +Parsonage. Are you going much farther?" + +"No, I should have turned in a moment." + +And accordingly she did turn, and they walked towards the +Parsonage together. + +"Do you certainly leave Kent on Saturday?" said she. + +"Yes--if Darcy does not put it off again. But I am at his +disposal. He arranges the business just as he pleases." + +"And if not able to please himself in the arrangement, he has +at least pleasure in the great power of choice. I do not know +anybody who seems more to enjoy the power of doing what he +likes than Mr. Darcy." + +"He likes to have his own way very well," replied Colonel +Fitzwilliam. "But so we all do. It is only that he has better +means of having it than many others, because he is rich, and +many others are poor. I speak feelingly. A younger son, you +know, must be inured to self-denial and dependence." + +"In my opinion, the younger son of an earl can know very +little of either. Now seriously, what have you ever known of +self-denial and dependence? When have you been prevented by +want of money from going wherever you chose, or procuring +anything you had a fancy for?" + +"These are home questions--and perhaps I cannot say that I +have experienced many hardships of that nature. But in matters +of greater weight, I may suffer from want of money. Younger +sons cannot marry where they like." + +"Unless where they like women of fortune, which I think they +very often do." + +"Our habits of expense make us too dependent, and there are too +many in my rank of life who can afford to marry without some +attention to money." + +"Is this," thought Elizabeth, "meant for me?" and she coloured +at the idea; but, recovering herself, said in a lively tone, "And +pray, what is the usual price of an earl's younger son? Unless +the elder brother is very sickly, I suppose you would not ask +above fifty thousand pounds." + +He answered her in the same style, and the subject dropped. To +interrupt a silence which might make him fancy her affected with +what had passed, she soon afterwards said: + +"I imagine your cousin brought you down with him chiefly for +the sake of having someone at his disposal. I wonder he does +not marry, to secure a lasting convenience of that kind. But, +perhaps, his sister does as well for the present, and, as she is +under his sole care, he may do what he likes with her." + +"No," said Colonel Fitzwilliam, "that is an advantage which he +must divide with me. I am joined with him in the guardianship +of Miss Darcy." + +"Are you indeed? And pray what sort of guardians do you +make? Does your charge give you much trouble? Young ladies +of her age are sometimes a little difficult to manage, and if she +has the true Darcy spirit, she may like to have her own way." + +As she spoke she observed him looking at her earnestly; and +the manner in which he immediately asked her why she supposed +Miss Darcy likely to give them any uneasiness, convinced her +that she had somehow or other got pretty near the truth. She +directly replied: + +"You need not be frightened. I never heard any harm of her; and +I dare say she is one of the most tractable creatures in the world. +She is a very great favourite with some ladies of my acquaintance, +Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley. I think I have heard you say that +you know them." + +"I know them a little. Their brother is a pleasant gentlemanlike +man--he is a great friend of Darcy's." + +"Oh! yes," said Elizabeth drily; "Mr. Darcy is uncommonly kind +to Mr. Bingley, and takes a prodigious deal of care of him." + +"Care of him! Yes, I really believe Darcy _does_ take care of +him in those points where he most wants care. From something +that he told me in our journey hither, I have reason to think +Bingley very much indebted to him. But I ought to beg his +pardon, for I have no right to suppose that Bingley was the +person meant. It was all conjecture." + +"What is it you mean?" + +"It is a circumstance which Darcy could not wish to be generally +known, because if it were to get round to the lady's family, it +would be an unpleasant thing." + +"You may depend upon my not mentioning it." + +"And remember that I have not much reason for supposing it +to be Bingley. What he told me was merely this: that he +congratulated himself on having lately saved a friend from +the inconveniences of a most imprudent marriage, but without +mentioning names or any other particulars, and I only suspected +it to be Bingley from believing him the kind of young man to get +into a scrape of that sort, and from knowing them to have been +together the whole of last summer." + +"Did Mr. Darcy give you reasons for this interference?" + +"I understood that there were some very strong objections +against the lady." + +"And what arts did he use to separate them?" + +"He did not talk to me of his own arts," said Fitzwilliam, smiling. +"He only told me what I have now told you." + +Elizabeth made no answer, and walked on, her heart swelling +with indignation. After watching her a little, Fitzwilliam asked +her why she was so thoughtful. + +"I am thinking of what you have been telling me," said she. +"Your cousin's conduct does not suit my feelings. Why was he +to be the judge?" + +"You are rather disposed to call his interference officious?" + +"I do not see what right Mr. Darcy had to decide on the +propriety of his friend's inclination, or why, upon his own +judgement alone, he was to determine and direct in what manner +his friend was to be happy. But," she continued, recollecting +herself, "as we know none of the particulars, it is not fair to +condemn him. It is not to be supposed that there was much +affection in the case." + +"That is not an unnatural surmise," said Fitzwilliam, "but it is a +lessening of the honour of my cousin's triumph very sadly." + +This was spoken jestingly; but it appeared to her so just a picture +of Mr. Darcy, that she would not trust herself with an answer, +and therefore, abruptly changing the conversation talked on +indifferent matters until they reached the Parsonage. There, shut +into her own room, as soon as their visitor left them, she could +think without interruption of all that she had heard. It was not +to be supposed that any other people could be meant than those +with whom she was connected. There could not exist in the +world _two_ men over whom Mr. Darcy could have such boundless +influence. That he had been concerned in the measures taken to +separate Bingley and Jane she had never doubted; but she had +always attributed to Miss Bingley the principal design and +arrangement of them. If his own vanity, however, did not mislead +him, _he_ was the cause, his pride and caprice were the cause, of +all that Jane had suffered, and still continued to suffer. He +had ruined for a while every hope of happiness for the most +affectionate, generous heart in the world; and no one could say +how lasting an evil he might have inflicted. + +"There were some very strong objections against the lady," +were Colonel Fitzwilliam's words; and those strong objections +probably were, her having one uncle who was a country attorney, +and another who was in business in London. + +"To Jane herself," she exclaimed, "there could be no possibility +of objection; all loveliness and goodness as she is!--her +understanding excellent, her mind improved, and her manners +captivating. Neither could anything be urged against my father, +who, though with some peculiarities, has abilities Mr. Darcy +himself need not disdain, and respectability which he will +probably never each." When she thought of her mother, her +confidence gave way a little; but she would not allow that any +objections _there_ had material weight with Mr. Darcy, whose +pride, she was convinced, would receive a deeper wound from +the want of importance in his friend's connections, than from +their want of sense; and she was quite decided, at last, that he +had been partly governed by this worst kind of pride, and partly +by the wish of retaining Mr. Bingley for his sister. + +The agitation and tears which the subject occasioned, brought on +a headache; and it grew so much worse towards the evening, +that, added to her unwillingness to see Mr. Darcy, it determined +her not to attend her cousins to Rosings, where they were +engaged to drink tea. Mrs. Collins, seeing that she was really +unwell, did not press her to go and as much as possible +prevented her husband from pressing her; but Mr. Collins could +not conceal his apprehension of Lady Catherine's being rather +displeased by her staying at home. + + + +Chapter 34 + + +When they were gone, Elizabeth, as if intending to exasperate +herself as much as possible against Mr. Darcy, chose for her +employment the examination of all the letters which Jane had +written to her since her being in Kent. They contained no actual +complaint, nor was there any revival of past occurrences, or any +communication of present suffering. But in all, and in almost +every line of each, there was a want of that cheerfulness which +had been used to characterise her style, and which, proceeding +from the serenity of a mind at ease with itself and kindly +disposed towards everyone, had been scarcely ever clouded. +Elizabeth noticed every sentence conveying the idea of uneasiness, +with an attention which it had hardly received on the first +perusal. Mr. Darcy's shameful boast of what misery he had been +able to inflict, gave her a keener sense of her sister's +sufferings. It was some consolation to think that his visit +to Rosings was to end on the day after the next--and, a still +greater, that in less than a fortnight she should herself be with +Jane again, and enabled to contribute to the recovery of her +spirits, by all that affection could do. + +She could not think of Darcy's leaving Kent without remembering +that his cousin was to go with him; but Colonel Fitzwilliam had +made it clear that he had no intentions at all, and agreeable +as he was, she did not mean to be unhappy about him. + +While settling this point, she was suddenly roused by the sound +of the door-bell, and her spirits were a little fluttered by the +idea of its being Colonel Fitzwilliam himself, who had once +before called late in the evening, and might now come to inquire +particularly after her. But this idea was soon banished, and +her spirits were very differently affected, when, to her utter +amazement, she saw Mr. Darcy walk into the room. In an +hurried manner he immediately began an inquiry after her health, +imputing his visit to a wish of hearing that she were better. +She answered him with cold civility. He sat down for a few +moments, and then getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth +was surprised, but said not a word. After a silence of +several minutes, he came towards her in an agitated manner, +and thus began: + +"In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not +be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire +and love you." + +Elizabeth's astonishment was beyond expression. She stared, +coloured, doubted, and was silent. This he considered sufficient +encouragement; and the avowal of all that he felt, and had long +felt for her, immediately followed. He spoke well; but there +were feelings besides those of the heart to be detailed; and he +was not more eloquent on the subject of tenderness than of pride. +His sense of her inferiority--of its being a degradation--of the +family obstacles which had always opposed to inclination, were +dwelt on with a warmth which seemed due to the consequence he +was wounding, but was very unlikely to recommend his suit. + +In spite of her deeply-rooted dislike, she could not be insensible +to the compliment of such a man's affection, and though her +intentions did not vary for an instant, she was at first sorry for +the pain he was to receive; till, roused to resentment by his +subsequent language, she lost all compassion in anger. She +tried, however, to compose herself to answer him with patience, +when he should have done. He concluded with representing to +her the strength of that attachment which, in spite of all his +endeavours, he had found impossible to conquer; and with +expressing his hope that it would now be rewarded by her +acceptance of his hand. As he said this, she could easily +see that he had no doubt of a favourable answer. He _spoke_ of +apprehension and anxiety, but his countenance expressed real +security. Such a circumstance could only exasperate farther, +and, when he ceased, the colour rose into her cheeks, and she +said: + +"In such cases as this, it is, I believe, the established mode +to express a sense of obligation for the sentiments avowed, +however unequally they may be returned. It is natural that +obligation should be felt, and if I could _feel_ gratitude, I would +now thank you. But I cannot--I have never desired your good +opinion, and you have certainly bestowed it most unwillingly. I +am sorry to have occasioned pain to anyone. It has been most +unconsciously done, however, and I hope will be of short +duration. The feelings which, you tell me, have long prevented +the acknowledgment of your regard, can have little difficulty in +overcoming it after this explanation." + +Mr. Darcy, who was leaning against the mantelpiece with his +eyes fixed on her face, seemed to catch her words with no less +resentment than surprise. His complexion became pale with +anger, and the disturbance of his mind was visible in every +feature. He was struggling for the appearance of composure, +and would not open his lips till he believed himself to have +attained it. The pause was to Elizabeth's feelings dreadful. +At length, with a voice of forced calmness, he said: + +"And this is all the reply which I am to have the honour of +expecting! I might, perhaps, wish to be informed why, with so +little _endeavour_ at civility, I am thus rejected. But it is of +small importance." + +"I might as well inquire," replied she, "why with so evident a +desire of offending and insulting me, you chose to tell me that +you liked me against your will, against your reason, and even +against your character? Was not this some excuse for incivility, +if I _was_ uncivil? But I have other provocations. You know I +have. Had not my feelings decided against you--had they been +indifferent, or had they even been favourable, do you think that +any consideration would tempt me to accept the man who has +been the means of ruining, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a +most beloved sister?" + +As she pronounced these words, Mr. Darcy changed colour; but +the emotion was short, and he listened without attempting +to interrupt her while she continued: + +"I have every reason in the world to think ill of you. No motive +can excuse the unjust and ungenerous part you acted _there_. +You dare not, you cannot deny, that you have been the principal, +if not the only means of dividing them from each other--of +exposing one to the censure of the world for caprice and +instability, and the other to its derision for disappointed hopes, +and involving them both in misery of the acutest kind." + +She paused, and saw with no slight indignation that he was +listening with an air which proved him wholly unmoved by any +feeling of remorse. He even looked at her with a smile of +affected incredulity. + +"Can you deny that you have done it?" she repeated. + +With assumed tranquillity he then replied: "I have no wish of +denying that I did everything in my power to separate my friend +from your sister, or that I rejoice in my success. Towards _him_ +I have been kinder than towards myself." + +Elizabeth disdained the appearance of noticing this civil +reflection, but its meaning did not escape, nor was it likely to +conciliate her. + +"But it is not merely this affair," she continued, "on which my +dislike is founded. Long before it had taken place my opinion +of you was decided. Your character was unfolded in the recital +which I received many months ago from Mr. Wickham. On this +subject, what can you have to say? In what imaginary act +of friendship can you here defend yourself? or under what +misrepresentation can you here impose upon others?" + +"You take an eager interest in that gentleman's concerns," said +Darcy, in a less tranquil tone, and with a heightened colour. + +"Who that knows what his misfortunes have been, can help +feeling an interest in him?" + +"His misfortunes!" repeated Darcy contemptuously; "yes, his +misfortunes have been great indeed." + +"And of your infliction," cried Elizabeth with energy. "You +have reduced him to his present state of poverty--comparative +poverty. You have withheld the advantages which you must +know to have been designed for him. You have deprived the +best years of his life of that independence which was no less his +due than his desert. You have done all this! and yet you can +treat the mention of his misfortune with contempt and ridicule." + +"And this," cried Darcy, as he walked with quick steps across +the room, "is your opinion of me! This is the estimation in +which you hold me! I thank you for explaining it so fully. My +faults, according to this calculation, are heavy indeed! But +perhaps," added he, stopping in his walk, and turning towards +her, "these offenses might have been overlooked, had not your +pride been hurt by my honest confession of the scruples that had +long prevented my forming any serious design. These bitter +accusations might have been suppressed, had I, with greater +policy, concealed my struggles, and flattered you into the belief +of my being impelled by unqualified, unalloyed inclination; by +reason, by reflection, by everything. But disguise of every sort +is my abhorrence. Nor am I ashamed of the feelings I related. +They were natural and just. Could you expect me to rejoice in +the inferiority of your connections?--to congratulate myself on +the hope of relations, whose condition in life is so decidedly +beneath my own?" + +Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment; yet she +tried to the utmost to speak with composure when she said: + +"You are mistaken, Mr. Darcy, if you suppose that the mode of +your declaration affected me in any other way, than as it spared +the concern which I might have felt in refusing you, had you +behaved in a more gentlemanlike manner." + +She saw him start at this, but he said nothing, and she continued: + +"You could not have made the offer of your hand in any possible +way that would have tempted me to accept it." + +Again his astonishment was obvious; and he looked at her with +an expression of mingled incredulity and mortification. She went +on: + +"From the very beginning--from the first moment, I may almost +say--of my acquaintance with you, your manners, impressing me +with the fullest belief of your arrogance, your conceit, and your +selfish disdain of the feelings of others, were such as to form the +groundwork of disapprobation on which succeeding events have +built so immovable a dislike; and I had not known you a month +before I felt that you were the last man in the world whom I +could ever be prevailed on to marry." + +"You have said quite enough, madam. I perfectly comprehend +your feelings, and have now only to be ashamed of what my own +have been. Forgive me for having taken up so much of your +time, and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness." + +And with these words he hastily left the room, and Elizabeth +heard him the next moment open the front door and quit the +house. + +The tumult of her mind, was now painfully great. She knew not +how to support herself, and from actual weakness sat down and +cried for half-an-hour. Her astonishment, as she reflected on +what had passed, was increased by every review of it. That she +should receive an offer of marriage from Mr. Darcy! That he +should have been in love with her for so many months! So much +in love as to wish to marry her in spite of all the objections +which had made him prevent his friend's marrying her sister, +and which must appear at least with equal force in his own +case--was almost incredible! It was gratifying to have inspired +unconsciously so strong an affection. But his pride, his +abominable pride--his shameless avowal of what he had done with +respect to Jane--his unpardonable assurance in acknowledging, +though he could not justify it, and the unfeeling manner in +which he had mentioned Mr. Wickham, his cruelty towards whom +he had not attempted to deny, soon overcame the pity which the +consideration of his attachment had for a moment excited. She +continued in very agitated reflections till the sound of Lady +Catherine's carriage made her feel how unequal she was to +encounter Charlotte's observation, and hurried her away to +her room. + + + +Chapter 35 + + +Elizabeth awoke the next morning to the same thoughts and +meditations which had at length closed her eyes. She could +not yet recover from the surprise of what had happened; it was +impossible to think of anything else; and, totally indisposed +for employment, she resolved, soon after breakfast, to indulge +herself in air and exercise. She was proceeding directly to her +favourite walk, when the recollection of Mr. Darcy's sometimes +coming there stopped her, and instead of entering the park, she +turned up the lane, which led farther from the turnpike-road. +The park paling was still the boundary on one side, and she +soon passed one of the gates into the ground. + +After walking two or three times along that part of the lane, she +was tempted, by the pleasantness of the morning, to stop at the +gates and look into the park. The five weeks which she had now +passed in Kent had made a great difference in the country, and +every day was adding to the verdure of the early trees. She was +on the point of continuing her walk, when she caught a glimpse +of a gentleman within the sort of grove which edged the park; +he was moving that way; and, fearful of its being Mr. Darcy, +she was directly retreating. But the person who advanced was +now near enough to see her, and stepping forward with eagerness, +pronounced her name. She had turned away; but on hearing +herself called, though in a voice which proved it to be Mr. +Darcy, she moved again towards the gate. He had by that time +reached it also, and, holding out a letter, which she instinctively +took, said, with a look of haughty composure, "I have been +walking in the grove some time in the hope of meeting you. Will +you do me the honour of reading that letter?" And then, with a +slight bow, turned again into the plantation, and was soon out of +sight. + +With no expectation of pleasure, but with the strongest curiosity, +Elizabeth opened the letter, and, to her still increasing wonder, +perceived an envelope containing two sheets of letter-paper, +written quite through, in a very close hand. The envelope itself +was likewise full. Pursuing her way along the lane, she then +began it. It was dated from Rosings, at eight o'clock in the +morning, and was as follows:-- + +"Be not alarmed, madam, on receiving this letter, by the +apprehension of its containing any repetition of those sentiments +or renewal of those offers which were last night so disgusting to +you. I write without any intention of paining you, or humbling +myself, by dwelling on wishes which, for the happiness of both, +cannot be too soon forgotten; and the effort which the formation +and the perusal of this letter must occasion, should have been +spared, had not my character required it to be written and read. +You must, therefore, pardon the freedom with which I demand +your attention; your feelings, I know, will bestow it unwillingly, +but I demand it of your justice. + +"Two offenses of a very different nature, and by no means of +equal magnitude, you last night laid to my charge. The first +mentioned was, that, regardless of the sentiments of either, I had +detached Mr. Bingley from your sister, and the other, that I had, +in defiance of various claims, in defiance of honour and +humanity, ruined the immediate prosperity and blasted the +prospects of Mr. Wickham. Wilfully and wantonly to have +thrown off the companion of my youth, the acknowledged +favourite of my father, a young man who had scarcely any other +dependence than on our patronage, and who had been brought +up to expect its exertion, would be a depravity, to which the +separation of two young persons, whose affection could be the +growth of only a few weeks, could bear no comparison. But +from the severity of that blame which was last night so liberally +bestowed, respecting each circumstance, I shall hope to be in the +future secured, when the following account of my actions and +their motives has been read. If, in the explanation of them, +which is due to myself, I am under the necessity of relating +feelings which may be offensive to yours, I can only say that I +am sorry. The necessity must be obeyed, and further apology +would be absurd. + +"I had not been long in Hertfordshire, before I saw, in common +with others, that Bingley preferred your elder sister to any other +young woman in the country. But it was not till the evening of +the dance at Netherfield that I had any apprehension of his +feeling a serious attachment. I had often seen him in love before. +At that ball, while I had the honour of dancing with you, I was +first made acquainted, by Sir William Lucas's accidental +information, that Bingley's attentions to your sister had given +rise to a general expectation of their marriage. He spoke of it +as a certain event, of which the time alone could be undecided. +From that moment I observed my friend's behaviour attentively; +and I could then perceive that his partiality for Miss Bennet +was beyond what I had ever witnessed in him. Your sister I +also watched. Her look and manners were open, cheerful, and +engaging as ever, but without any symptom of peculiar regard, +and I remained convinced from the evening's scrutiny, that +though she received his attentions with pleasure, she did not +invite them by any participation of sentiment. If _you_ have not +been mistaken here, _I_ must have been in error. Your superior +knowledge of your sister must make the latter probable. If it be +so, if I have been misled by such error to inflict pain on her, +your resentment has not been unreasonable. But I shall not scruple +to assert, that the serenity of your sister's countenance and air +was such as might have given the most acute observer a conviction +that, however amiable her temper, her heart was not likely to be +easily touched. That I was desirous of believing her indifferent +is certain--but I will venture to say that my investigation and +decisions are not usually influenced by my hopes or fears. I did +not believe her to be indifferent because I wished it; I believed +it on impartial conviction, as truly as I wished it in reason. +My objections to the marriage were not merely those which I last +night acknowledged to have the utmost force of passion to put +aside, in my own case; the want of connection could not be so +great an evil to my friend as to me. But there were other causes +of repugnance; causes which, though still existing, and existing +to an equal degree in both instances, I had myself endeavoured +to forget, because they were not immediately before me. These +causes must be stated, though briefly. The situation of +your mother's family, though objectionable, was nothing in +comparison to that total want of propriety so frequently, so +almost uniformly betrayed by herself, by your three younger +sisters, and occasionally even by your father. Pardon me. It +pains me to offend you. But amidst your concern for the defects +of your nearest relations, and your displeasure at this +representation of them, let it give you consolation to consider +that, to have conducted yourselves so as to avoid any share of +the like censure, is praise no less generally bestowed on you and +your elder sister, than it is honourable to the sense and +disposition of both. I will only say farther that from what passed +that evening, my opinion of all parties was confirmed, and every +inducement heightened which could have led me before, to +preserve my friend from what I esteemed a most unhappy +connection. He left Netherfield for London, on the day +following, as you, I am certain, remember, with the design of +soon returning. + +"The part which I acted is now to be explained. His sisters' +uneasiness had been equally excited with my own; our coincidence +of feeling was soon discovered, and, alike sensible that no time +was to be lost in detaching their brother, we shortly resolved +on joining him directly in London. We accordingly went--and +there I readily engaged in the office of pointing out to my +friend the certain evils of such a choice. I described, and +enforced them earnestly. But, however this remonstrance might +have staggered or delayed his determination, I do not suppose +that it would ultimately have prevented the marriage, had it not +been seconded by the assurance that I hesitated not in giving, of +your sister's indifference. He had before believed her to return +his affection with sincere, if not with equal regard. But Bingley +has great natural modesty, with a stronger dependence on my +judgement than on his own. To convince him, therefore, that he +had deceived himself, was no very difficult point. To persuade +him against returning into Hertfordshire, when that conviction +had been given, was scarcely the work of a moment. I cannot +blame myself for having done thus much. There is but one part +of my conduct in the whole affair on which I do not reflect with +satisfaction; it is that I condescended to adopt the measures of +art so far as to conceal from him your sister's being in town. I +knew it myself, as it was known to Miss Bingley; but her brother +is even yet ignorant of it. That they might have met without ill +consequence is perhaps probable; but his regard did not appear +to me enough extinguished for him to see her without some danger. +Perhaps this concealment, this disguise was beneath me; it is +done, however, and it was done for the best. On this subject +I have nothing more to say, no other apology to offer. If I +have wounded your sister's feelings, it was unknowingly done and +though the motives which governed me may to you very naturally +appear insufficient, I have not yet learnt to condemn them. + +"With respect to that other, more weighty accusation, of having +injured Mr. Wickham, I can only refute it by laying before you +the whole of his connection with my family. Of what he has +_particularly_ accused me I am ignorant; but of the truth of +what I shall relate, I can summon more than one witness of +undoubted veracity. + +"Mr. Wickham is the son of a very respectable man, who had for +many years the management of all the Pemberley estates, and +whose good conduct in the discharge of his trust naturally +inclined my father to be of service to him; and on George +Wickham, who was his godson, his kindness was therefore +liberally bestowed. My father supported him at school, and +afterwards at Cambridge--most important assistance, as his own +father, always poor from the extravagance of his wife, would +have been unable to give him a gentleman's education. My +father was not only fond of this young man's society, whose +manner were always engaging; he had also the highest opinion of +him, and hoping the church would be his profession, intended to +provide for him in it. As for myself, it is many, many years since +I first began to think of him in a very different manner. The +vicious propensities--the want of principle, which he was careful +to guard from the knowledge of his best friend, could not escape +the observation of a young man of nearly the same age with +himself, and who had opportunities of seeing him in unguarded +moments, which Mr. Darcy could not have. Here again shall +give you pain--to what degree you only can tell. But whatever +may be the sentiments which Mr. Wickham has created, a +suspicion of their nature shall not prevent me from unfolding +his real character--it adds even another motive. + +"My excellent father died about five years ago; and his attachment +to Mr. Wickham was to the last so steady, that in his will he +particularly recommended it to me, to promote his advancement in +the best manner that his profession might allow--and if he took +orders, desired that a valuable family living might be his as soon +as it became vacant. There was also a legacy of one thousand +pounds. His own father did not long survive mine, and within half +a year from these events, Mr. Wickham wrote to inform me that, +having finally resolved against taking orders, he hoped I should +not think it unreasonable for him to expect some more immediate +pecuniary advantage, in lieu of the preferment, by which he could +not be benefited. He had some intention, he added, of studying +law, and I must be aware that the interest of one thousand pounds +would be a very insufficient support therein. I rather wished, +than believed him to be sincere; but, at any rate, was perfectly +ready to accede to his proposal. I knew that Mr. Wickham +ought not to be a clergyman; the business was therefore soon +settled--he resigned all claim to assistance in the church, were +it possible that he could ever be in a situation to receive it, +and accepted in return three thousand pounds. All connection +between us seemed now dissolved. I thought too ill of him to +invite him to Pemberley, or admit his society in town. In town +I believe he chiefly lived, but his studying the law was a mere +pretence, and being now free from all restraint, his life was a +life of idleness and dissipation. For about three years I heard +little of him; but on the decease of the incumbent of the living +which had been designed for him, he applied to me again by letter +for the presentation. His circumstances, he assured me, and I +had no difficulty in believing it, were exceedingly bad. He had +found the law a most unprofitable study, and was now absolutely +resolved on being ordained, if I would present him to the living +in question--of which he trusted there could be little doubt, as +he was well assured that I had no other person to provide for, +and I could not have forgotten my revered father's intentions. +You will hardly blame me for refusing to comply with this entreaty, +or for resisting every repetition to it. His resentment was in +proportion to the distress of his circumstances--and he was +doubtless as violent in his abuse of me to others as in his +reproaches to myself. After this period every appearance of +acquaintance was dropped. How he lived I know not. But last +summer he was again most painfully obtruded on my notice. + +"I must now mention a circumstance which I would wish to +forget myself, and which no obligation less than the present +should induce me to unfold to any human being. Having said +thus much, I feel no doubt of your secrecy. My sister, who is +more than ten years my junior, was left to the guardianship of +my mother's nephew, Colonel Fitzwilliam, and myself. About a +year ago, she was taken from school, and an establishment +formed for her in London; and last summer she went with the +lady who presided over it, to Ramsgate; and thither also went +Mr. Wickham, undoubtedly by design; for there proved to have +been a prior acquaintance between him and Mrs. Younge, in +whose character we were most unhappily deceived; and by +her connivance and aid, he so far recommended himself to +Georgiana, whose affectionate heart retained a strong impression +of his kindness to her as a child, that she was persuaded to +believe herself in love, and to consent to an elopement. She was +then but fifteen, which must be her excuse; and after stating her +imprudence, I am happy to add, that I owed the knowledge of it +to herself. I joined them unexpectedly a day or two before the +intended elopement, and then Georgiana, unable to support the +idea of grieving and offending a brother whom she almost +looked up to as a father, acknowledged the whole to me. You +may imagine what I felt and how I acted. Regard for my sister's +credit and feelings prevented any public exposure; but I wrote +to Mr. Wickham, who left the place immediately, and Mrs. Younge +was of course removed from her charge. Mr. Wickham's chief +object was unquestionably my sister's fortune, which is thirty +thousand pounds; but I cannot help supposing that the hope of +revenging himself on me was a strong inducement. His revenge +would have been complete indeed. + +"This, madam, is a faithful narrative of every event in which +we have been concerned together; and if you do not absolutely +reject it as false, you will, I hope, acquit me henceforth +of cruelty towards Mr. Wickham. I know not in what manner, +under what form of falsehood he had imposed on you; but his +success is not perhaps to be wondered at. Ignorant as you +previously were of everything concerning either, detection +could not be in your power, and suspicion certainly not in +your inclination. + +"You may possibly wonder why all this was not told you last +night; but I was not then master enough of myself to know what +could or ought to be revealed. For the truth of everything here +related, I can appeal more particularly to the testimony of +Colonel Fitzwilliam, who, from our near relationship and +constant intimacy, and, still more, as one of the executors of +my father's will, has been unavoidably acquainted with every +particular of these transactions. If your abhorrence of _me_ +should make _my_ assertions valueless, you cannot be prevented +by the same cause from confiding in my cousin; and that there +may be the possibility of consulting him, I shall endeavour to +find some opportunity of putting this letter in your hands in +the course of the morning. I will only add, God bless you. + +"FITZWILLIAM DARCY" + + + +Chapter 36 + + +If Elizabeth, when Mr. Darcy gave her the letter, did not expect +it to contain a renewal of his offers, she had formed no +expectation at all of its contents. But such as they were, it +may well be supposed how eagerly she went through them, and what +a contrariety of emotion they excited. Her feelings as she +read were scarcely to be defined. With amazement did she first +understand that he believed any apology to be in his power; and +steadfastly was she persuaded, that he could have no explanation +to give, which a just sense of shame would not conceal. With a +strong prejudice against everything he might say, she began his +account of what had happened at Netherfield. She read with an +eagerness which hardly left her power of comprehension, and +from impatience of knowing what the next sentence might bring, +was incapable of attending to the sense of the one before her +eyes. His belief of her sister's insensibility she instantly +resolved to be false; and his account of the real, the worst +objections to the match, made her too angry to have any wish of +doing him justice. He expressed no regret for what he had done +which satisfied her; his style was not penitent, but haughty. +It was all pride and insolence. + +But when this subject was succeeded by his account of Mr. +Wickham--when she read with somewhat clearer attention a +relation of events which, if true, must overthrow every cherished +opinion of his worth, and which bore so alarming an affinity to +his own history of himself--her feelings were yet more acutely +painful and more difficult of definition. Astonishment, +apprehension, and even horror, oppressed her. She wished to +discredit it entirely, repeatedly exclaiming, "This must be false! +This cannot be! This must be the grossest falsehood!"--and +when she had gone through the whole letter, though scarcely +knowing anything of the last page or two, put it hastily away, +protesting that she would not regard it, that she would never +look in it again. + +In this perturbed state of mind, with thoughts that could rest on +nothing, she walked on; but it would not do; in half a minute the +letter was unfolded again, and collecting herself as well as she +could, she again began the mortifying perusal of all that related +to Wickham, and commanded herself so far as to examine the +meaning of every sentence. The account of his connection with +the Pemberley family was exactly what he had related himself; +and the kindness of the late Mr. Darcy, though she had not +before known its extent, agreed equally well with his own +words. So far each recital confirmed the other; but when she +came to the will, the difference was great. What Wickham had +said of the living was fresh in her memory, and as she recalled +his very words, it was impossible not to feel that there was gross +duplicity on one side or the other; and, for a few moments, she +flattered herself that her wishes did not err. But when she +read and re-read with the closest attention, the particulars +immediately following of Wickham's resigning all pretensions to +the living, of his receiving in lieu so considerable a sum as +three thousand pounds, again was she forced to hesitate. She +put down the letter, weighed every circumstance with what she +meant to be impartiality--deliberated on the probability of each +statement--but with little success. On both sides it was only +assertion. Again she read on; but every line proved more clearly +that the affair, which she had believed it impossible that any +contrivance could so represent as to render Mr. Darcy's conduct +in it less than infamous, was capable of a turn which must make +him entirely blameless throughout the whole. + +The extravagance and general profligacy which he scrupled not +to lay at Mr. Wickham's charge, exceedingly shocked her; the +more so, as she could bring no proof of its injustice. She had +never heard of him before his entrance into the ----shire Militia, +in which he had engaged at the persuasion of the young man +who, on meeting him accidentally in town, had there renewed a +slight acquaintance. Of his former way of life nothing had been +known in Hertfordshire but what he told himself. As to his real +character, had information been in her power, she had never felt +a wish of inquiring. His countenance, voice, and manner had +established him at once in the possession of every virtue. She +tried to recollect some instance of goodness, some distinguished +trait of integrity or benevolence, that might rescue him from the +attacks of Mr. Darcy; or at least, by the predominance of virtue, +atone for those casual errors under which she would endeavour +to class what Mr. Darcy had described as the idleness and vice +of many years' continuance. But no such recollection befriended +her. She could see him instantly before her, in every charm of +air and address; but she could remember no more substantial +good than the general approbation of the neighbourhood, and +the regard which his social powers had gained him in the mess. +After pausing on this point a considerable while, she once more +continued to read. But, alas! the story which followed, of his +designs on Miss Darcy, received some confirmation from what +had passed between Colonel Fitzwilliam and herself only the +morning before; and at last she was referred for the truth of +every particular to Colonel Fitzwilliam himself--from whom she +had previously received the information of his near concern in +all his cousin's affairs, and whose character she had no reason +to question. At one time she had almost resolved on applying +to him, but the idea was checked by the awkwardness of the +application, and at length wholly banished by the conviction +that Mr. Darcy would never have hazarded such a proposal, if +he had not been well assured of his cousin's corroboration. + +She perfectly remembered everything that had passed in +conversation between Wickham and herself, in their first evening +at Mr. Phillips's. Many of his expressions were still fresh in +her memory. She was _now_ struck with the impropriety of such +communications to a stranger, and wondered it had escaped her +before. She saw the indelicacy of putting himself forward as +he had done, and the inconsistency of his professions with his +conduct. She remembered that he had boasted of having no fear +of seeing Mr. Darcy--that Mr. Darcy might leave the country, +but that _he_ should stand his ground; yet he had avoided the +Netherfield ball the very next week. She remembered also that, +till the Netherfield family had quitted the country, he had told +his story to no one but herself; but that after their removal it +had been everywhere discussed; that he had then no reserves, no +scruples in sinking Mr. Darcy's character, though he had assured +her that respect for the father would always prevent his exposing +the son. + +How differently did everything now appear in which he was +concerned! His attentions to Miss King were now the consequence +of views solely and hatefully mercenary; and the mediocrity of +her fortune proved no longer the moderation of his wishes, but +his eagerness to grasp at anything. His behaviour to herself +could now have had no tolerable motive; he had either been +deceived with regard to her fortune, or had been gratifying his +vanity by encouraging the preference which she believed she had +most incautiously shown. Every lingering struggle in his favour +grew fainter and fainter; and in farther justification of Mr. +Darcy, she could not but allow Mr. Bingley, when questioned +by Jane, had long ago asserted his blamelessness in the affair; +that proud and repulsive as were his manners, she had never, in +the whole course of their acquaintance--an acquaintance which +had latterly brought them much together, and given her a sort of +intimacy with his ways--seen anything that betrayed him to be +unprincipled or unjust--anything that spoke him of irreligious +or immoral habits; that among his own connections he was +esteemed and valued--that even Wickham had allowed him +merit as a brother, and that she had often heard him speak so +affectionately of his sister as to prove him capable of _some_ +amiable feeling; that had his actions been what Mr. Wickham +represented them, so gross a violation of everything right could +hardly have been concealed from the world; and that friendship +between a person capable of it, and such an amiable man as Mr. +Bingley, was incomprehensible. + +She grew absolutely ashamed of herself. Of neither Darcy nor +Wickham could she think without feeling she had been blind, +partial, prejudiced, absurd. + +"How despicably I have acted!" she cried; "I, who have prided +myself on my discernment! I, who have valued myself on my +abilities! who have often disdained the generous candour of my +sister, and gratified my vanity in useless or blameable mistrust! +How humiliating is this discovery! Yet, how just a humiliation! +Had I been in love, I could not have been more wretchedly blind! +But vanity, not love, has been my folly. Pleased with the +preference of one, and offended by the neglect of the other, +on the very beginning of our acquaintance, I have courted +prepossession and ignorance, and driven reason away, where +either were concerned. Till this moment I never knew myself." + +From herself to Jane--from Jane to Bingley, her thoughts were +in a line which soon brought to her recollection that Mr. Darcy's +explanation _there_ had appeared very insufficient, and she read +it again. Widely different was the effect of a second perusal. +How could she deny that credit to his assertions in one instance, +which she had been obliged to give in the other? He declared +himself to be totally unsuspicious of her sister's attachment; +and she could not help remembering what Charlotte's opinion +had always been. Neither could she deny the justice of his +description of Jane. She felt that Jane's feelings, though fervent, +were little displayed, and that there was a constant complacency +in her air and manner not often united with great sensibility. + +When she came to that part of the letter in which her family were +mentioned in terms of such mortifying, yet merited reproach, her +sense of shame was severe. The justice of the charge struck her +too forcibly for denial, and the circumstances to which he +particularly alluded as having passed at the Netherfield ball, +and as confirming all his first disapprobation, could not have +made a stronger impression on his mind than on hers. + +The compliment to herself and her sister was not unfelt. It +soothed, but it could not console her for the contempt which had +thus been self-attracted by the rest of her family; and as she +considered that Jane's disappointment had in fact been the work +of her nearest relations, and reflected how materially the credit +of both must be hurt by such impropriety of conduct, she felt +depressed beyond anything she had ever known before. + +After wandering along the lane for two hours, giving way to +every variety of thought--re-considering events, determining +probabilities, and reconciling herself, as well as she could, to +a change so sudden and so important, fatigue, and a recollection +of her long absence, made her at length return home; and she +entered the house with the wish of appearing cheerful as usual, +and the resolution of repressing such reflections as must make +her unfit for conversation. + +She was immediately told that the two gentlemen from Rosings +had each called during her absence; Mr. Darcy, only for a few +minutes, to take leave--but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had been +sitting with them at least an hour, hoping for her return, and +almost resolving to walk after her till she could be found. +Elizabeth could but just _affect_ concern in missing him; she +really rejoiced at it. Colonel Fitzwilliam was no longer an +object; she could think only of her letter. + + + +Chapter 37 + + +The two gentlemen left Rosings the next morning, and Mr. +Collins having been in waiting near the lodges, to make them +his parting obeisance, was able to bring home the pleasing +intelligence, of their appearing in very good health, and in as +tolerable spirits as could be expected, after the melancholy scene +so lately gone through at Rosings. To Rosings he then hastened, +to console Lady Catherine and her daughter; and on his return +brought back, with great satisfaction, a message from her +ladyship, importing that she felt herself so dull as to make +her very desirous of having them all to dine with her. + +Elizabeth could not see Lady Catherine without recollecting that, +had she chosen it, she might by this time have been presented to +her as her future niece; nor could she think, without a smile, of +what her ladyship's indignation would have been. "What would +she have said? how would she have behaved?" were questions with +which she amused herself. + +Their first subject was the diminution of the Rosings party. +"I assure you, I feel it exceedingly," said Lady Catherine; "I +believe no one feels the loss of friends so much as I do. But +I am particularly attached to these young men, and know them to +be so much attached to me! They were excessively sorry to go! +But so they always are. The dear Colonel rallied his spirits +tolerably till just at last; but Darcy seemed to feel it most +acutely, more, I think, than last year. His attachment to +Rosings certainly increases." + +Mr. Collins had a compliment, and an allusion to throw in here, +which were kindly smiled on by the mother and daughter. + +Lady Catherine observed, after dinner, that Miss Bennet seemed +out of spirits, and immediately accounting for it by herself, +by supposing that she did not like to go home again so soon, +she added: + +"But if that is the case, you must write to your mother and beg +that you may stay a little longer. Mrs. Collins will be very glad +of your company, I am sure." + +"I am much obliged to your ladyship for your kind invitation," +replied Elizabeth, "but it is not in my power to accept it. +I must be in town next Saturday." + +"Why, at that rate, you will have been here only six weeks. I +expected you to stay two months. I told Mrs. Collins so before +you came. There can be no occasion for your going so soon. +Mrs. Bennet could certainly spare you for another fortnight." + +"But my father cannot. He wrote last week to hurry my return." + +"Oh! your father of course may spare you, if your mother can. +Daughters are never of so much consequence to a father. And if +you will stay another _month_ complete, it will be in my power +to take one of you as far as London, for I am going there early +in June, for a week; and as Dawson does not object to the +barouche-box, there will be very good room for one of you--and +indeed, if the weather should happen to be cool, I should not +object to taking you both, as you are neither of you large." + +"You are all kindness, madam; but I believe we must abide by +our original plan." + +Lady Catherine seemed resigned. "Mrs. Collins, you must send +a servant with them. You know I always speak my mind, and I +cannot bear the idea of two young women travelling post by +themselves. It is highly improper. You must contrive to send +somebody. I have the greatest dislike in the world to that sort +of thing. Young women should always be properly guarded and +attended, according to their situation in life. When my niece +Georgiana went to Ramsgate last summer, I made a point of her +having two men-servants go with her. Miss Darcy, the daughter +of Mr. Darcy, of Pemberley, and Lady Anne, could not have +appeared with propriety in a different manner. I am excessively +attentive to all those things. You must send John with the young +ladies, Mrs. Collins. I am glad it occurred to me to mention it; +for it would really be discreditable to _you_ to let them go +alone." + +"My uncle is to send a servant for us." + +"Oh! Your uncle! He keeps a man-servant, does he? I am very +glad you have somebody who thinks of these things. Where +shall you change horses? Oh! Bromley, of course. If you +mention my name at the Bell, you will be attended to." + +Lady Catherine had many other questions to ask respecting their +journey, and as she did not answer them all herself, attention was +necessary, which Elizabeth believed to be lucky for her; or, with +a mind so occupied, she might have forgotten where she was. +Reflection must be reserved for solitary hours; whenever she +was alone, she gave way to it as the greatest relief; and not a +day went by without a solitary walk, in which she might indulge +in all the delight of unpleasant recollections. + +Mr. Darcy's letter she was in a fair way of soon knowing by +heart. She studied every sentence; and her feelings towards its +writer were at times widely different. When she remembered the +style of his address, she was still full of indignation; but when +she considered how unjustly she had condemned and upbraided him, +her anger was turned against herself; and his disappointed +feelings became the object of compassion. His attachment +excited gratitude, his general character respect; but she could +not approve him; nor could she for a moment repent her refusal, +or feel the slightest inclination ever to see him again. In +her own past behaviour, there was a constant source of vexation +and regret; and in the unhappy defects of her family, a subject +of yet heavier chagrin. They were hopeless of remedy. Her father, +contented with laughing at them, would never exert himself to +restrain the wild giddiness of his youngest daughters; and her +mother, with manners so far from right herself, was entirely +insensible of the evil. Elizabeth had frequently united with Jane +in an endeavour to check the imprudence of Catherine and Lydia; +but while they were supported by their mother's indulgence, what +chance could there be of improvement? Catherine, weak-spirited, +irritable, and completely under Lydia's guidance, had been always +affronted by their advice; and Lydia, self-willed and careless, +would scarcely give them a hearing. They were ignorant, idle, and +vain. While there was an officer in Meryton, they would flirt +with him; and while Meryton was within a walk of Longbourn, they +would be going there forever. + +Anxiety on Jane's behalf was another prevailing concern; and +Mr. Darcy's explanation, by restoring Bingley to all her former +good opinion, heightened the sense of what Jane had lost. His +affection was proved to have been sincere, and his conduct +cleared of all blame, unless any could attach to the implicitness +of his confidence in his friend. How grievous then was the +thought that, of a situation so desirable in every respect, so +replete with advantage, so promising for happiness, Jane had +been deprived, by the folly and indecorum of her own family! + +When to these recollections was added the development of Wickham's +character, it may be easily believed that the happy spirits which +had seldom been depressed before, were now so much affected as to +make it almost impossible for her to appear tolerably cheerful. + +Their engagements at Rosings were as frequent during the last +week of her stay as they had been at first. The very last evening +was spent there; and her ladyship again inquired minutely into +the particulars of their journey, gave them directions as to the +best method of packing, and was so urgent on the necessity of +placing gowns in the only right way, that Maria thought herself +obliged, on her return, to undo all the work of the morning, and +pack her trunk afresh. + +When they parted, Lady Catherine, with great condescension, +wished them a good journey, and invited them to come to +Hunsford again next year; and Miss de Bourgh exerted herself +so far as to curtsey and hold out her hand to both. + + + +Chapter 38 + + +On Saturday morning Elizabeth and Mr. Collins met for breakfast +a few minutes before the others appeared; and he took the +opportunity of paying the parting civilities which he deemed +indispensably necessary. + +"I know not, Miss Elizabeth," said he, "whether Mrs. Collins has +yet expressed her sense of your kindness in coming to us; but I +am very certain you will not leave the house without receiving +her thanks for it. The favor of your company has been much +felt, I assure you. We know how little there is to tempt anyone +to our humble abode. Our plain manner of living, our small +rooms and few domestics, and the little we see of the world, +must make Hunsford extremely dull to a young lady like +yourself; but I hope you will believe us grateful for the +condescension, and that we have done everything in our power +to prevent your spending your time unpleasantly." + +Elizabeth was eager with her thanks and assurances of happiness. +She had spent six weeks with great enjoyment; and the pleasure +of being with Charlotte, and the kind attentions she had received, +must make _her_ feel the obliged. Mr. Collins was gratified, and +with a more smiling solemnity replied: + +"It gives me great pleasure to hear that you have passed your +time not disagreeably. We have certainly done our best; and +most fortunately having it in our power to introduce you to very +superior society, and, from our connection with Rosings, the +frequent means of varying the humble home scene, I think we +may flatter ourselves that your Hunsford visit cannot have been +entirely irksome. Our situation with regard to Lady Catherine's +family is indeed the sort of extraordinary advantage and blessing +which few can boast. You see on what a footing we are. You +see how continually we are engaged there. In truth I must +acknowledge that, with all the disadvantages of this humble +parsonage, I should not think anyone abiding in it an object of +compassion, while they are sharers of our intimacy at Rosings." + +Words were insufficient for the elevation of his feelings; and +he was obliged to walk about the room, while Elizabeth tried to +unite civility and truth in a few short sentences. + +"You may, in fact, carry a very favourable report of us into +Hertfordshire, my dear cousin. I flatter myself at least that you +will be able to do so. Lady Catherine's great attentions to Mrs. +Collins you have been a daily witness of; and altogether I trust +it does not appear that your friend has drawn an unfortunate--but +on this point it will be as well to be silent. Only let me +assure you, my dear Miss Elizabeth, that I can from my heart most +cordially wish you equal felicity in marriage. My dear Charlotte +and I have but one mind and one way of thinking. There is in +everything a most remarkable resemblance of character and ideas +between us. We seem to have been designed for each other." + +Elizabeth could safely say that it was a great happiness where +that was the case, and with equal sincerity could add, that she +firmly believed and rejoiced in his domestic comforts. She was +not sorry, however, to have the recital of them interrupted by +the lady from whom they sprang. Poor Charlotte! it was +melancholy to leave her to such society! But she had chosen it +with her eyes open; and though evidently regretting that her +visitors were to go, she did not seem to ask for compassion. +Her home and her housekeeping, her parish and her poultry, and +all their dependent concerns, had not yet lost their charms. + +At length the chaise arrived, the trunks were fastened on, the +parcels placed within, and it was pronounced to be ready. After +an affectionate parting between the friends, Elizabeth was +attended to the carriage by Mr. Collins, and as they walked +down the garden he was commissioning her with his best +respects to all her family, not forgetting his thanks for the +kindness he had received at Longbourn in the winter, and his +compliments to Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, though unknown. He +then handed her in, Maria followed, and the door was on the +point of being closed, when he suddenly reminded them, with +some consternation, that they had hitherto forgotten to leave +any message for the ladies at Rosings. + +"But," he added, "you will of course wish to have your humble +respects delivered to them, with your grateful thanks for their +kindness to you while you have been here." + +Elizabeth made no objection; the door was then allowed to be +shut, and the carriage drove off. + +"Good gracious!" cried Maria, after a few minutes' silence, "it +seems but a day or two since we first came! and yet how many +things have happened!" + +"A great many indeed," said her companion with a sigh. + +"We have dined nine times at Rosings, besides drinking tea there +twice! How much I shall have to tell!" + +Elizabeth added privately, "And how much I shall have to conceal!" + +Their journey was performed without much conversation, or any +alarm; and within four hours of their leaving Hunsford they +reached Mr. Gardiner's house, where they were to remain a few +days. + +Jane looked well, and Elizabeth had little opportunity of +studying her spirits, amidst the various engagements which the +kindness of her aunt had reserved for them. But Jane was to go +home with her, and at Longbourn there would be leisure enough +for observation. + +It was not without an effort, meanwhile, that she could wait +even for Longbourn, before she told her sister of Mr. Darcy's +proposals. To know that she had the power of revealing what +would so exceedingly astonish Jane, and must, at the same time, +so highly gratify whatever of her own vanity she had not yet +been able to reason away, was such a temptation to openness +as nothing could have conquered but the state of indecision +in which she remained as to the extent of what she should +communicate; and her fear, if she once entered on the subject, +of being hurried into repeating something of Bingley which +might only grieve her sister further. + + + +Chapter 39 + + +It was the second week in May, in which the three young ladies +set out together from Gracechurch Street for the town of ----, +in Hertfordshire; and, as they drew near the appointed inn where +Mr. Bennet's carriage was to meet them, they quickly perceived, +in token of the coachman's punctuality, both Kitty and Lydia +looking out of a dining-room upstairs. These two girls had been +above an hour in the place, happily employed in visiting an +opposite milliner, watching the sentinel on guard, and dressing a +salad and cucumber. + +After welcoming their sisters, they triumphantly displayed a table +set out with such cold meat as an inn larder usually affords, +exclaiming, "Is not this nice? Is not this an agreeable surprise?" + +"And we mean to treat you all," added Lydia, "but you must lend +us the money, for we have just spent ours at the shop out there." +Then, showing her purchases--"Look here, I have bought this bonnet. +I do not think it is very pretty; but I thought I might as well +buy it as not. I shall pull it to pieces as soon as I get home, +and see if I can make it up any better." + +And when her sisters abused it as ugly, she added, with perfect +unconcern, "Oh! but there were two or three much uglier in the +shop; and when I have bought some prettier-coloured satin to +trim it with fresh, I think it will be very tolerable. Besides, +it will not much signify what one wears this summer, after the +----shire have left Meryton, and they are going in a fortnight." + +"Are they indeed!" cried Elizabeth, with the greatest satisfaction. + +"They are going to be encamped near Brighton; and I do so +want papa to take us all there for the summer! It would be such +a delicious scheme; and I dare say would hardly cost anything at +all. Mamma would like to go too of all things! Only think what +a miserable summer else we shall have!" + +"Yes," thought Elizabeth, "_that_ would be a delightful scheme +indeed, and completely do for us at once. Good Heaven! +Brighton, and a whole campful of soldiers, to us, who have been +overset already by one poor regiment of militia, and the monthly +balls of Meryton!" + +"Now I have got some news for you," said Lydia, as they sat down +at table. "What do you think? It is excellent news--capital +news--and about a certain person we all like!" + +Jane and Elizabeth looked at each other, and the waiter was told +he need not stay. Lydia laughed, and said: + +"Aye, that is just like your formality and discretion. You +thought the waiter must not hear, as if he cared! I dare say he +often hears worse things said than I am going to say. But he is +an ugly fellow! I am glad he is gone. I never saw such a long +chin in my life. Well, but now for my news; it is about dear +Wickham; too good for the waiter, is it not? There is no danger +of Wickham's marrying Mary King. There's for you! She is gone +down to her uncle at Liverpool: gone to stay. Wickham is safe." + +"And Mary King is safe!" added Elizabeth; "safe from a +connection imprudent as to fortune." + +"She is a great fool for going away, if she liked him." + +"But I hope there is no strong attachment on either side," +said Jane. + +"I am sure there is not on _his_. I will answer for it, he never +cared three straws about her--who could about such a nasty +little freckled thing?" + +Elizabeth was shocked to think that, however incapable of +such coarseness of _expression_ herself, the coarseness of the +_sentiment_ was little other than her own breast had harboured +and fancied liberal! + +As soon as all had ate, and the elder ones paid, the carriage was +ordered; and after some contrivance, the whole party, with all +their boxes, work-bags, and parcels, and the unwelcome addition +of Kitty's and Lydia's purchases, were seated in it. + +"How nicely we are all crammed in," cried Lydia. "I am glad I +bought my bonnet, if it is only for the fun of having another +bandbox! Well, now let us be quite comfortable and snug, and +talk and laugh all the way home. And in the first place, let +us hear what has happened to you all since you went away. Have +you seen any pleasant men? Have you had any flirting? I was +in great hopes that one of you would have got a husband before +you came back. Jane will be quite an old maid soon, I declare. +She is almost three-and-twenty! Lord, how ashamed I should be of +not being married before three-and-twenty! My aunt Phillips wants +you so to get husbands, you can't think. She says Lizzy had +better have taken Mr. Collins; but _I_ do not think there would +have been any fun in it. Lord! how I should like to be married +before any of you; and then I would chaperon you about to all +the balls. Dear me! we had such a good piece of fun the other +day at Colonel Forster's. Kitty and me were to spend the day +there, and Mrs. Forster promised to have a little dance in the +evening; (by the bye, Mrs. Forster and me are _such_ friends!) and +so she asked the two Harringtons to come, but Harriet was ill, +and so Pen was forced to come by herself; and then, what do you +think we did? We dressed up Chamberlayne in woman's clothes on +purpose to pass for a lady, only think what fun! Not a soul +knew of it, but Colonel and Mrs. Forster, and Kitty and me, +except my aunt, for we were forced to borrow one of her gowns; +and you cannot imagine how well he looked! When Denny, and +Wickham, and Pratt, and two or three more of the men came in, +they did not know him in the least. Lord! how I laughed! and +so did Mrs. Forster. I thought I should have died. And _that_ +made the men suspect something, and then they soon found out +what was the matter." + +With such kinds of histories of their parties and good jokes, did +Lydia, assisted by Kitty's hints and additions, endeavour to +amuse her companions all the way to Longbourn. Elizabeth +listened as little as she could, but there was no escaping the +frequent mention of Wickham's name. + +Their reception at home was most kind. Mrs. Bennet rejoiced to +see Jane in undiminished beauty; and more than once during +dinner did Mr. Bennet say voluntarily to Elizabeth: + +"I am glad you are come back, Lizzy." + +Their party in the dining-room was large, for almost all the +Lucases came to meet Maria and hear the news; and various +were the subjects that occupied them: Lady Lucas was inquiring +of Maria, after the welfare and poultry of her eldest daughter; +Mrs. Bennet was doubly engaged, on one hand collecting an +account of the present fashions from Jane, who sat some way +below her, and, on the other, retailing them all to the younger +Lucases; and Lydia, in a voice rather louder than any other +person's, was enumerating the various pleasures of the morning +to anybody who would hear her. + +"Oh! Mary," said she, "I wish you had gone with us, for we had +such fun! As we went along, Kitty and I drew up the blinds, +and pretended there was nobody in the coach; and I should have +gone so all the way, if Kitty had not been sick; and when we got +to the George, I do think we behaved very handsomely, for we +treated the other three with the nicest cold luncheon in the +world, and if you would have gone, we would have treated you +too. And then when we came away it was such fun! I thought +we never should have got into the coach. I was ready to die +of laughter. And then we were so merry all the way home! we +talked and laughed so loud, that anybody might have heard us +ten miles off!" + +To this Mary very gravely replied, "Far be it from me, my dear +sister, to depreciate such pleasures! They would doubtless be +congenial with the generality of female minds. But I confess +they would have no charms for _me_--I should infinitely prefer a +book." + +But of this answer Lydia heard not a word. She seldom listened +to anybody for more than half a minute, and never attended to +Mary at all. + +In the afternoon Lydia was urgent with the rest of the girls +to walk to Meryton, and to see how everybody went on; but +Elizabeth steadily opposed the scheme. It should not be said +that the Miss Bennets could not be at home half a day before +they were in pursuit of the officers. There was another reason +too for her opposition. She dreaded seeing Mr. Wickham again, +and was resolved to avoid it as long as possible. The comfort +to _her_ of the regiment's approaching removal was indeed beyond +expression. In a fortnight they were to go--and once gone, she +hoped there could be nothing more to plague her on his account. + +She had not been many hours at home before she found that the +Brighton scheme, of which Lydia had given them a hint at the inn, +was under frequent discussion between her parents. Elizabeth +saw directly that her father had not the smallest intention of +yielding; but his answers were at the same time so vague and +equivocal, that her mother, though often disheartened, had never +yet despaired of succeeding at last. + + + +Chapter 40 + + +Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what had happened +could no longer be overcome; and at length, resolving to +suppress every particular in which her sister was concerned, +and preparing her to be surprised, she related to her the next +morning the chief of the scene between Mr. Darcy and herself. + +Miss Bennet's astonishment was soon lessened by the strong +sisterly partiality which made any admiration of Elizabeth appear +perfectly natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in other +feelings. She was sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his +sentiments in a manner so little suited to recommend them; but +still more was she grieved for the unhappiness which her sister's +refusal must have given him. + +"His being so sure of succeeding was wrong," said she, "and +certainly ought not to have appeared; but consider how much it +must increase his disappointment!" + +"Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am heartily sorry for him; but he +has other feelings, which will probably soon drive away his +regard for me. You do not blame me, however, for refusing him?" + +"Blame you! Oh, no." + +"But you blame me for having spoken so warmly of Wickham?" + +"No--I do not know that you were wrong in saying what you +did." + +"But you _will_ know it, when I tell you what happened the very +next day." + +She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole of its contents +as far as they concerned George Wickham. What a stroke was +this for poor Jane! who would willingly have gone through the +world without believing that so much wickedness existed in the +whole race of mankind, as was here collected in one individual. +Nor was Darcy's vindication, though grateful to her feelings, +capable of consoling her for such discovery. Most earnestly did +she labour to prove the probability of error, and seek to clear the +one without involving the other. + +"This will not do," said Elizabeth; "you never will be able to +make both of them good for anything. Take your choice, but +you must be satisfied with only one. There is but such a quantity +of merit between them; just enough to make one good sort of +man; and of late it has been shifting about pretty much. For my +part, I am inclined to believe it all Darcy's; but you shall do +as you choose." + +It was some time, however, before a smile could be extorted +from Jane. + +"I do not know when I have been more shocked," said she. +"Wickham so very bad! It is almost past belief. And poor Mr. +Darcy! Dear Lizzy, only consider what he must have suffered. +Such a disappointment! and with the knowledge of your ill +opinion, too! and having to relate such a thing of his sister! +It is really too distressing. I am sure you must feel it so." + +"Oh! no, my regret and compassion are all done away by seeing +you so full of both. I know you will do him such ample justice, +that I am growing every moment more unconcerned and indifferent. +Your profusion makes me saving; and if you lament over him much +longer, my heart will be as light as a feather." + +"Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of goodness in his +countenance! such an openness and gentleness in his manner!" + +"There certainly was some great mismanagement in the education +of those two young men. One has got all the goodness, and the +other all the appearance of it." + +"I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in the _appearance_ +of it as you used to do." + +"And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking so decided +a dislike to him, without any reason. It is such a spur to one's +genius, such an opening for wit, to have a dislike of that kind. +One may be continually abusive without saying anything just; but +one cannot always be laughing at a man without now and then +stumbling on something witty." + +"Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am sure you could not +treat the matter as you do now." + +"Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable enough, I may say +unhappy. And with no one to speak to about what I felt, no +Jane to comfort me and say that I had not been so very weak and +vain and nonsensical as I knew I had! Oh! how I wanted you!" + +"How unfortunate that you should have used such very strong +expressions in speaking of Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for now they +_do_ appear wholly undeserved." + +"Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with bitterness +is a most natural consequence of the prejudices I had been +encouraging. There is one point on which I want your advice. +I want to be told whether I ought, or ought not, to make our +acquaintances in general understand Wickham's character." + +Miss Bennet paused a little, and then replied, "Surely there can +be no occasion for exposing him so dreadfully. What is your +opinion?" + +"That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy has not +authorised me to make his communication public. On the +contrary, every particular relative to his sister was meant to +be kept as much as possible to myself; and if I endeavour to +undeceive people as to the rest of his conduct, who will believe +me? The general prejudice against Mr. Darcy is so violent, that +it would be the death of half the good people in Meryton to +attempt to place him in an amiable light. I am not equal to it. +Wickham will soon be gone; and therefore it will not signify to +anyone here what he really is. Some time hence it will be all +found out, and then we may laugh at their stupidity in not +knowing it before. At present I will say nothing about it." + +"You are quite right. To have his errors made public might ruin +him for ever. He is now, perhaps, sorry for what he has done, +and anxious to re-establish a character. We must not make him +desperate." + +The tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this conversation. +She had got rid of two of the secrets which had weighed on her +for a fortnight, and was certain of a willing listener in Jane, +whenever she might wish to talk again of either. But there was +still something lurking behind, of which prudence forbade the +disclosure. She dared not relate the other half of Mr. Darcy's +letter, nor explain to her sister how sincerely she had been +valued by her friend. Here was knowledge in which no one +could partake; and she was sensible that nothing less than a +perfect understanding between the parties could justify her in +throwing off this last encumbrance of mystery. "And then," said +she, "if that very improbable event should ever take place, I +shall merely be able to tell what Bingley may tell in a much more +agreeable manner himself. The liberty of communication cannot +be mine till it has lost all its value!" + +She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure to observe the +real state of her sister's spirits. Jane was not happy. She still +cherished a very tender affection for Bingley. Having never even +fancied herself in love before, her regard had all the warmth of +first attachment, and, from her age and disposition, greater +steadiness than most first attachments often boast; and so +fervently did she value his remembrance, and prefer him to every +other man, that all her good sense, and all her attention to the +feelings of her friends, were requisite to check the indulgence of +those regrets which must have been injurious to her own health +and their tranquillity. + +"Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one day, "what is your opinion +_now_ of this sad business of Jane's? For my part, I am +determined never to speak of it again to anybody. I told my +sister Phillips so the other day. But I cannot find out that Jane +saw anything of him in London. Well, he is a very undeserving +young man--and I do not suppose there's the least chance in the +world of her ever getting him now. There is no talk of his +coming to Netherfield again in the summer; and I have inquired +of everybody, too, who is likely to know." + +"I do not believe he will ever live at Netherfield any more." + +"Oh well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants him to come. +Though I shall always say he used my daughter extremely ill; and +if I was her, I would not have put up with it. Well, my comfort +is, I am sure Jane will die of a broken heart; and then he will +be sorry for what he has done." + +But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from any such +expectation, she made no answer. + +"Well, Lizzy," continued her mother, soon afterwards, "and so +the Collinses live very comfortable, do they? Well, well, I only +hope it will last. And what sort of table do they keep? Charlotte +is an excellent manager, I dare say. If she is half as sharp as +her mother, she is saving enough. There is nothing extravagant in +_their_ housekeeping, I dare say." + +"No, nothing at all." + +"A great deal of good management, depend upon it. Yes, yes. +_they_ will take care not to outrun their income. _They_ will +never be distressed for money. Well, much good may it do +them! And so, I suppose, they often talk of having Longbourn +when your father is dead. They look upon it as quite their own, +I dare say, whenever that happens." + +"It was a subject which they could not mention before me." + +"No; it would have been strange if they had; but I make no +doubt they often talk of it between themselves. Well, if they +can be easy with an estate that is not lawfully their own, so +much the better. I should be ashamed of having one that was +only entailed on me." + + + +Chapter 41 + + +The first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. +It was the last of the regiment's stay in Meryton, and all the +young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace. The +dejection was almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone +were still able to eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual +course of their employments. Very frequently were they +reproached for this insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose +own misery was extreme, and who could not comprehend such +hard-heartedness in any of the family. + +"Good Heaven! what is to become of us? What are we to do?" +would they often exclaim in the bitterness of woe. "How can +you be smiling so, Lizzy?" + +Their affectionate mother shared all their grief; she remembered +what she had herself endured on a similar occasion, five-and-twenty +years ago. + +"I am sure," said she, "I cried for two days together when +Colonel Miller's regiment went away. I thought I should have +broken my heart." + +"I am sure I shall break _mine_," said Lydia. + +"If one could but go to Brighton!" observed Mrs. Bennet. + +"Oh, yes!--if one could but go to Brighton! But papa is so +disagreeable." + +"A little sea-bathing would set me up forever." + +"And my aunt Phillips is sure it would do _me_ a great deal of +good," added Kitty. + +Such were the kind of lamentations resounding perpetually +through Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted by +them; but all sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew +the justice of Mr. Darcy's objections; and never had she been so +much disposed to pardon his interference in the views of his +friend. + +But the gloom of Lydia's prospect was shortly cleared away; for +she received an invitation from Mrs. Forster, the wife of the +colonel of the regiment, to accompany her to Brighton. This +invaluable friend was a very young woman, and very lately +married. A resemblance in good humour and good spirits had +recommended her and Lydia to each other, and out of their +_three_ months' acquaintance they had been intimate _two_. + +The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her adoration of Mrs. +Forster, the delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the mortification of +Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly inattentive to her +sister's feelings, Lydia flew about the house in restless ecstasy, +calling for everyone's congratulations, and laughing and talking +with more violence than ever; whilst the luckless Kitty continued +in the parlour repined at her fate in terms as unreasonable as her +accent was peevish. + +"I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask _me_ as well as +Lydia," said she, "Though I am _not_ her particular friend. I +have just as much right to be asked as she has, and more too, +for I am two years older." + +In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her reasonable, and Jane +to make her resigned. As for Elizabeth herself, this invitation +was so far from exciting in her the same feelings as in her mother +and Lydia, that she considered it as the death warrant of all +possibility of common sense for the latter; and detestable as such +a step must make her were it known, she could not help secretly +advising her father not to let her go. She represented to him all +the improprieties of Lydia's general behaviour, the little +advantage she could derive from the friendship of such a woman +as Mrs. Forster, and the probability of her being yet more +imprudent with such a companion at Brighton, where the +temptations must be greater than at home. He heard her +attentively, and then said: + +"Lydia will never be easy until she has exposed herself in some +public place or other, and we can never expect her to do it with +so little expense or inconvenience to her family as under the +present circumstances." + +"If you were aware," said Elizabeth, "of the very great +disadvantage to us all which must arise from the public notice +of Lydia's unguarded and imprudent manner--nay, which has +already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in +the affair." + +"Already arisen?" repeated Mr. Bennet. "What, has she +frightened away some of your lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do +not be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear to be +connected with a little absurdity are not worth a regret. Come, +let me see the list of pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof +by Lydia's folly." + +"Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such injuries to resent. +It is not of particular, but of general evils, which I am now +complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the world must +be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain of +all restraint which mark Lydia's character. Excuse me, for I must +speak plainly. If you, my dear father, will not take the trouble +of checking her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that her +present pursuits are not to be the business of her life, she will +soon be beyond the reach of amendment. Her character will be +fixed, and she will, at sixteen, be the most determined flirt that +ever made herself or her family ridiculous; a flirt, too, in the +worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction +beyond youth and a tolerable person; and, from the ignorance and +emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward off any portion of +that universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite. +In this danger Kitty also is comprehended. She will follow wherever +Lydia leads. Vain, ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrolled! +Oh! my dear father, can you suppose it possible that they will not +be censured and despised wherever they are known, and that their +sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?" + +Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the subject, and +affectionately taking her hand said in reply: + +"Do not make yourself uneasy, my love. Wherever you and Jane +are known you must be respected and valued; and you will not +appear to less advantage for having a couple of--or I may say, +three--very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at Longbourn +if Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let her go, then. Colonel +Forster is a sensible man, and will keep her out of any real +mischief; and she is luckily too poor to be an object of prey +to anybody. At Brighton she will be of less importance even as +a common flirt than she has been here. The officers will find +women better worth their notice. Let us hope, therefore, that +her being there may teach her her own insignificance. At any +rate, she cannot grow many degrees worse, without authorising +us to lock her up for the rest of her life." + +With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be content; but her +own opinion continued the same, and she left him disappointed +and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to increase her +vexations by dwelling on them. She was confident of having +performed her duty, and to fret over unavoidable evils, or +augment them by anxiety, was no part of her disposition. + +Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of her conference +with her father, their indignation would hardly have found +expression in their united volubility. In Lydia's imagination, +a visit to Brighton comprised every possibility of earthly +happiness. She saw, with the creative eye of fancy, the streets +of that gay bathing-place covered with officers. She saw +herself the object of attention, to tens and to scores of them +at present unknown. She saw all the glories of the camp--its +tents stretched forth in beauteous uniformity of lines, crowded +with the young and the gay, and dazzling with scarlet; and, to +complete the view, she saw herself seated beneath a tent, tenderly +flirting with at least six officers at once. + +Had she known her sister sought to tear her from such prospects +and such realities as these, what would have been her sensations? +They could have been understood only by her mother, who might +have felt nearly the same. Lydia's going to Brighton was all +that consoled her for her melancholy conviction of her husband's +never intending to go there himself. + +But they were entirely ignorant of what had passed; and their +raptures continued, with little intermission, to the very day of +Lydia's leaving home. + +Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last time. +Having been frequently in company with him since her return, +agitation was pretty well over; the agitations of formal partiality +entirely so. She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness +which had first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to +disgust and weary. In his present behaviour to herself, +moreover, she had a fresh source of displeasure, for the +inclination he soon testified of renewing those intentions which +had marked the early part of their acquaintance could only serve, +after what had since passed, to provoke her. She lost all concern +for him in finding herself thus selected as the object of such idle +and frivolous gallantry; and while she steadily repressed it, could +not but feel the reproof contained in his believing, that however +long, and for whatever cause, his attentions had been withdrawn, +her vanity would be gratified, and her preference secured at any +time by their renewal. + +On the very last day of the regiment's remaining at Meryton, he +dined, with other of the officers, at Longbourn; and so little +was Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good humour, that on +his making some inquiry as to the manner in which her time had +passed at Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam's and +Mr. Darcy's having both spent three weeks at Rosings, and +asked him, if he was acquainted with the former. + +He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed; but with a moment's +recollection and a returning smile, replied, that he had formerly +seen him often; and, after observing that he was a very +gentlemanlike man, asked her how she had liked him. Her +answer was warmly in his favour. With an air of indifference he +soon afterwards added: + +"How long did you say he was at Rosings?" + +"Nearly three weeks." + +"And you saw him frequently?" + +"Yes, almost every day." + +"His manners are very different from his cousin's." + +"Yes, very different. But I think Mr. Darcy improves upon +acquaintance." + +"Indeed!" cried Mr. Wickham with a look which did not escape +her. "And pray, may I ask?--" But checking himself, he added, +in a gayer tone, "Is it in address that he improves? Has he +deigned to add aught of civility to his ordinary style?--for I +dare not hope," he continued in a lower and more serious tone, +"that he is improved in essentials." + +"Oh, no!" said Elizabeth. "In essentials, I believe, he is very +much what he ever was." + +While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely knowing +whether to rejoice over her words, or to distrust their meaning. +There was a something in her countenance which made him listen +with an apprehensive and anxious attention, while she added: + +"When I said that he improved on acquaintance, I did not mean +that his mind or his manners were in a state of improvement, but +that, from knowing him better, his disposition was better +understood." + +Wickham's alarm now appeared in a heightened complexion and +agitated look; for a few minutes he was silent, till, shaking +off his embarrassment, he turned to her again, and said in the +gentlest of accents: + +"You, who so well know my feeling towards Mr. Darcy, will +readily comprehend how sincerely I must rejoice that he is +wise enough to assume even the _appearance_ of what is right. +His pride, in that direction, may be of service, if not to himself, +to many others, for it must only deter him from such foul +misconduct as I have suffered by. I only fear that the sort of +cautiousness to which you, I imagine, have been alluding, is +merely adopted on his visits to his aunt, of whose good opinion +and judgement he stands much in awe. His fear of her has +always operated, I know, when they were together; and a good +deal is to be imputed to his wish of forwarding the match with +Miss de Bourgh, which I am certain he has very much at heart." + +Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but she answered only +by a slight inclination of the head. She saw that he wanted to +engage her on the old subject of his grievances, and she was in +no humour to indulge him. The rest of the evening passed with +the _appearance_, on his side, of usual cheerfulness, but with +no further attempt to distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted at +last with mutual civility, and possibly a mutual desire of never +meeting again. + +When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs. Forster to +Meryton, from whence they were to set out early the next +morning. The separation between her and her family was rather +noisy than pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but +she did weep from vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse +in her good wishes for the felicity of her daughter, and +impressive in her injunctions that she should not miss the +opportunity of enjoying herself as much as possible--advice +which there was every reason to believe would be well attended +to; and in the clamorous happiness of Lydia herself in bidding +farewell, the more gentle adieus of her sisters were uttered +without being heard. + + + +Chapter 42 + + +Had Elizabeth's opinion been all drawn from her own family, +she could not have formed a very pleasing opinion of conjugal +felicity or domestic comfort. Her father, captivated by youth +and beauty, and that appearance of good humour which youth +and beauty generally give, had married a woman whose weak +understanding and illiberal mind had very early in their marriage +put an end to all real affection for her. Respect, esteem, and +confidence had vanished for ever; and all his views of domestic +happiness were overthrown. But Mr. Bennet was not of a +disposition to seek comfort for the disappointment which his +own imprudence had brought on, in any of those pleasures which +too often console the unfortunate for their folly of their vice. +He was fond of the country and of books; and from these tastes had +arisen his principal enjoyments. To his wife he was very little +otherwise indebted, than as her ignorance and folly had +contributed to his amusement. This is not the sort of happiness +which a man would in general wish to owe to his wife; but +where other powers of entertainment are wanting, the true +philosopher will derive benefit from such as are given. + +Elizabeth, however, had never been blind to the impropriety of +her father's behaviour as a husband. She had always seen it with +pain; but respecting his abilities, and grateful for his affectionate +treatment of herself, she endeavoured to forget what she could +not overlook, and to banish from her thoughts that continual +breach of conjugal obligation and decorum which, in exposing +his wife to the contempt of her own children, was so highly +reprehensible. But she had never felt so strongly as now the +disadvantages which must attend the children of so unsuitable a +marriage, nor ever been so fully aware of the evils arising from +so ill-judged a direction of talents; talents, which, rightly used, +might at least have preserved the respectability of his daughters, +even if incapable of enlarging the mind of his wife. + +When Elizabeth had rejoiced over Wickham's departure she +found little other cause for satisfaction in the loss of the +regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied than before, and +at home she had a mother and sister whose constant repinings at +the dullness of everything around them threw a real gloom over +their domestic circle; and, though Kitty might in time regain her +natural degree of sense, since the disturbers of her brain were +removed, her other sister, from whose disposition greater evil +might be apprehended, was likely to be hardened in all her +folly and assurance by a situation of such double danger as a +watering-place and a camp. Upon the whole, therefore, she +found, what has been sometimes been found before, that an +event to which she had been looking with impatient desire did +not, in taking place, bring all the satisfaction she had promised +herself. It was consequently necessary to name some other +period for the commencement of actual felicity--to have some +other point on which her wishes and hopes might be fixed, and +by again enjoying the pleasure of anticipation, console herself for +the present, and prepare for another disappointment. Her tour +to the Lakes was now the object of her happiest thoughts; it was +her best consolation for all the uncomfortable hours which the +discontentedness of her mother and Kitty made inevitable; and +could she have included Jane in the scheme, every part of it +would have been perfect. + +"But it is fortunate," thought she, "that I have something to wish +for. Were the whole arrangement complete, my disappointment +would be certain. But here, by carrying with me one ceaseless +source of regret in my sister's absence, I may reasonably hope to +have all my expectations of pleasure realised. A scheme of +which every part promises delight can never be successful; and +general disappointment is only warded off by the defence of +some little peculiar vexation." + +When Lydia went away she promised to write very often and +very minutely to her mother and Kitty; but her letters were +always long expected, and always very short. Those to her +mother contained little else than that they were just returned +from the library, where such and such officers had attended +them, and where she had seen such beautiful ornaments as made +her quite wild; that she had a new gown, or a new parasol, which +she would have described more fully, but was obliged to leave +off in a violent hurry, as Mrs. Forster called her, and they were +going off to the camp; and from her correspondence with her +sister, there was still less to be learnt--for her letters to +Kitty, though rather longer, were much too full of lines under the +words to be made public. + +After the first fortnight or three weeks of her absence, health, +good humour, and cheerfulness began to reappear at Longbourn. +Everything wore a happier aspect. The families who had been in +town for the winter came back again, and summer finery and +summer engagements arose. Mrs. Bennet was restored to her +usual querulous serenity; and, by the middle of June, Kitty was +so much recovered as to be able to enter Meryton without tears; +an event of such happy promise as to make Elizabeth hope that +by the following Christmas she might be so tolerably reasonable +as not to mention an officer above once a day, unless, by some +cruel and malicious arrangement at the War Office, another +regiment should be quartered in Meryton. + +The time fixed for the beginning of their northern tour was now +fast approaching, and a fortnight only was wanting of it, when +a letter arrived from Mrs. Gardiner, which at once delayed its +commencement and curtailed its extent. Mr. Gardiner would be +prevented by business from setting out till a fortnight later in +July, and must be in London again within a month, and as that +left too short a period for them to go so far, and see so much +as they had proposed, or at least to see it with the leisure and +comfort they had built on, they were obliged to give up the +Lakes, and substitute a more contracted tour, and, according +to the present plan, were to go no farther northwards than +Derbyshire. In that county there was enough to be seen to +occupy the chief of their three weeks; and to Mrs. Gardiner it +had a peculiarly strong attraction. The town where she had +formerly passed some years of her life, and where they were now +to spend a few days, was probably as great an object of her +curiosity as all the celebrated beauties of Matlock, Chatsworth, +Dovedale, or the Peak. + +Elizabeth was excessively disappointed; she had set her heart on +seeing the Lakes, and still thought there might have been time +enough. But it was her business to be satisfied--and certainly +her temper to be happy; and all was soon right again. + +With the mention of Derbyshire there were many ideas connected. +It was impossible for her to see the word without thinking of +Pemberley and its owner. "But surely," said she, "I may enter +his county without impunity, and rob it of a few petrified spars +without his perceiving me." + +The period of expectation was now doubled. Four weeks were to +pass away before her uncle and aunt's arrival. But they did pass +away, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, with their four children, did +at length appear at Longbourn. The children, two girls of six +and eight years old, and two younger boys, were to be left under +the particular care of their cousin Jane, who was the general +favourite, and whose steady sense and sweetness of temper exactly +adapted her for attending to them in every way--teaching them, +playing with them, and loving them. + +The Gardiners stayed only one night at Longbourn, and set off +the next morning with Elizabeth in pursuit of novelty and +amusement. One enjoyment was certain--that of suitableness +of companions; a suitableness which comprehended health and +temper to bear inconveniences--cheerfulness to enhance every +pleasure--and affection and intelligence, which might supply +it among themselves if there were disappointments abroad. + +It is not the object of this work to give a description of +Derbyshire, nor of any of the remarkable places through which +their route thither lay; Oxford, Blenheim, Warwick, Kenilworth, +Birmingham, etc. are sufficiently known. A small part of +Derbyshire is all the present concern. To the little town of +Lambton, the scene of Mrs. Gardiner's former residence, and +where she had lately learned some acquaintance still remained, +they bent their steps, after having seen all the principal wonders +of the country; and within five miles of Lambton, Elizabeth +found from her aunt that Pemberley was situated. It was not in +their direct road, nor more than a mile or two out of it. In +talking over their route the evening before, Mrs. Gardiner +expressed an inclination to see the place again. Mr. Gardiner +declared his willingness, and Elizabeth was applied to for her +approbation. + +"My love, should not you like to see a place of which you have +heard so much?" said her aunt; "a place, too, with which so +many of your acquaintances are connected. Wickham passed all +his youth there, you know." + +Elizabeth was distressed. She felt that she had no business at +Pemberley, and was obliged to assume a disinclination for seeing +it. She must own that she was tired of seeing great houses; after +going over so many, she really had no pleasure in fine carpets or +satin curtains. + +Mrs. Gardiner abused her stupidity. "If it were merely a fine +house richly furnished," said she, "I should not care about it +myself; but the grounds are delightful. They have some of the +finest woods in the country." + +Elizabeth said no more--but her mind could not acquiesce. +The possibility of meeting Mr. Darcy, while viewing the place, +instantly occurred. It would be dreadful! She blushed at the +very idea, and thought it would be better to speak openly to +her aunt than to run such a risk. But against this there were +objections; and she finally resolved that it could be the last +resource, if her private inquiries to the absence of the family +were unfavourably answered. + +Accordingly, when she retired at night, she asked the chambermaid +whether Pemberley were not a very fine place? what was the name +of its proprietor? and, with no little alarm, whether the family +were down for the summer? A most welcome negative followed the +last question--and her alarms now being removed, she was at +leisure to feel a great deal of curiosity to see the house herself; +and when the subject was revived the next morning, and she was +again applied to, could readily answer, and with a proper air of +indifference, that she had not really any dislike to the scheme. +To Pemberley, therefore, they were to go. + + + +Chapter 43 + + +Elizabeth, as they drove along, watched for the first appearance +of Pemberley Woods with some perturbation; and when at +length they turned in at the lodge, her spirits were in a high +flutter. + +The park was very large, and contained great variety of ground. +They entered it in one of its lowest points, and drove for some +time through a beautiful wood stretching over a wide extent. + +Elizabeth's mind was too full for conversation, but she saw and +admired every remarkable spot and point of view. They +gradually ascended for half-a-mile, and then found themselves +at the top of a considerable eminence, where the wood ceased, +and the eye was instantly caught by Pemberley House, situated +on the opposite side of a valley, into which the road with some +abruptness wound. It was a large, handsome stone building, +standing well on rising ground, and backed by a ridge of high +woody hills; and in front, a stream of some natural importance +was swelled into greater, but without any artificial appearance. +Its banks were neither formal nor falsely adorned. Elizabeth +was delighted. She had never seen a place for which nature +had done more, or where natural beauty had been so little +counteracted by an awkward taste. They were all of them warm +in their admiration; and at that moment she felt that to be +mistress of Pemberley might be something! + +They descended the hill, crossed the bridge, and drove to the +door; and, while examining the nearer aspect of the house, all +her apprehension of meeting its owner returned. She dreaded +lest the chambermaid had been mistaken. On applying to see +the place, they were admitted into the hall; and Elizabeth, as +they waited for the housekeeper, had leisure to wonder at her +being where she was. + +The housekeeper came; a respectable-looking elderly woman, +much less fine, and more civil, than she had any notion of +finding her. They followed her into the dining-parlour. +It was a large, well proportioned room, handsomely fitted up. +Elizabeth, after slightly surveying it, went to a window to enjoy +its prospect. The hill, crowned with wood, which they had +descended, receiving increased abruptness from the distance, +was a beautiful object. Every disposition of the ground was +good; and she looked on the whole scene, the river, the trees +scattered on its banks and the winding of the valley, as far as +she could trace it, with delight. As they passed into other +rooms these objects were taking different positions; but from +every window there were beauties to be seen. The rooms were +lofty and handsome, and their furniture suitable to the fortune +of its proprietor; but Elizabeth saw, with admiration of his taste, +that it was neither gaudy nor uselessly fine; with less of +splendour, and more real elegance, than the furniture of Rosings. + +"And of this place," thought she, "I might have been mistress! +With these rooms I might now have been familiarly acquainted! +Instead of viewing them as a stranger, I might have rejoiced +in them as my own, and welcomed to them as visitors my uncle +and aunt. But no,"--recollecting herself--"that could never +be; my uncle and aunt would have been lost to me; I should not +have been allowed to invite them." + +This was a lucky recollection--it saved her from something +very like regret. + +She longed to inquire of the housekeeper whether her master +was really absent, but had not the courage for it. At length +however, the question was asked by her uncle; and she turned +away with alarm, while Mrs. Reynolds replied that he was, +adding, "But we expect him to-morrow, with a large party of +friends." How rejoiced was Elizabeth that their own journey +had not by any circumstance been delayed a day! + +Her aunt now called her to look at a picture. She approached +and saw the likeness of Mr. Wickham, suspended, amongst +several other miniatures, over the mantelpiece. Her aunt asked +her, smilingly, how she liked it. The housekeeper came forward, +and told them it was a picture of a young gentleman, the son of +her late master's steward, who had been brought up by him at +his own expense. "He is now gone into the army," she added; +"but I am afraid he has turned out very wild." + +Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece with a smile, but Elizabeth +could not return it. + +"And that," said Mrs. Reynolds, pointing to another of the +miniatures, "is my master--and very like him. It was drawn at +the same time as the other--about eight years ago." + +"I have heard much of your master's fine person," said Mrs. +Gardiner, looking at the picture; "it is a handsome face. +But, Lizzy, you can tell us whether it is like or not." + +Mrs. Reynolds respect for Elizabeth seemed to increase on this +intimation of her knowing her master. + +"Does that young lady know Mr. Darcy?" + +Elizabeth coloured, and said: "A little." + +"And do not you think him a very handsome gentleman, ma'am?" + +"Yes, very handsome." + +"I am sure I know none so handsome; but in the gallery +upstairs you will see a finer, larger picture of him than this. +This room was my late master's favourite room, and these +miniatures are just as they used to be then. He was very fond +of them." + +This accounted to Elizabeth for Mr. Wickham's being among them. + +Mrs. Reynolds then directed their attention to one of Miss Darcy, +drawn when she was only eight years old. + +"And is Miss Darcy as handsome as her brother?" said Mrs. Gardiner. + +"Oh! yes--the handsomest young lady that ever was seen; and +so accomplished!--She plays and sings all day long. In the next +room is a new instrument just come down for her--a present +from my master; she comes here to-morrow with him." + +Mr. Gardiner, whose manners were very easy and pleasant, +encouraged her communicativeness by his questions and remarks; +Mrs. Reynolds, either by pride or attachment, had evidently +great pleasure in talking of her master and his sister. + +"Is your master much at Pemberley in the course of the year?" + +"Not so much as I could wish, sir; but I dare say he may spend +half his time here; and Miss Darcy is always down for the +summer months." + +"Except," thought Elizabeth, "when she goes to Ramsgate." + +"If your master would marry, you might see more of him." + +"Yes, sir; but I do not know when _that_ will be. I do not +know who is good enough for him." + +Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner smiled. Elizabeth could not help saying, +"It is very much to his credit, I am sure, that you should think +so." + +"I say no more than the truth, and everybody will say that +knows him," replied the other. Elizabeth thought this was +going pretty far; and she listened with increasing astonishment +as the housekeeper added, "I have never known a cross word +from him in my life, and I have known him ever since he was +four years old." + +This was praise, of all others most extraordinary, most opposite +to her ideas. That he was not a good-tempered man had been +her firmest opinion. Her keenest attention was awakened; she +longed to hear more, and was grateful to her uncle for saying: + +"There are very few people of whom so much can be said. You +are lucky in having such a master." + +"Yes, sir, I know I am. If I were to go through the world, I +could not meet with a better. But I have always observed, that +they who are good-natured when children, are good-natured +when they grow up; and he was always the sweetest-tempered, +most generous-hearted boy in the world." + +Elizabeth almost stared at her. "Can this be Mr. Darcy?" +thought she. + +"His father was an excellent man," said Mrs. Gardiner. + +"Yes, ma'am, that he was indeed; and his son will be just like +him--just as affable to the poor." + +Elizabeth listened, wondered, doubted, and was impatient for +more. Mrs. Reynolds could interest her on no other point. She +related the subjects of the pictures, the dimensions of the rooms, +and the price of the furniture, in vain, Mr. Gardiner, highly +amused by the kind of family prejudice to which he attributed +her excessive commendation of her master, soon led again to +the subject; and she dwelt with energy on his many merits as +they proceeded together up the great staircase. + +"He is the best landlord, and the best master," said she, "that +ever lived; not like the wild young men nowadays, who think of +nothing but themselves. There is not one of his tenants or +servants but will give him a good name. Some people call him +proud; but I am sure I never saw anything of it. To my fancy, it +is only because he does not rattle away like other young men." + +"In what an amiable light does this place him!" thought +Elizabeth. + +"This fine account of him," whispered her aunt as they walked, +"is not quite consistent with his behaviour to our poor friend." + +"Perhaps we might be deceived." + +"That is not very likely; our authority was too good." + +On reaching the spacious lobby above they were shown into a +very pretty sitting-room, lately fitted up with greater elegance +and lightness than the apartments below; and were informed that +it was but just done to give pleasure to Miss Darcy, who had +taken a liking to the room when last at Pemberley. + +"He is certainly a good brother," said Elizabeth, as she walked +towards one of the windows. + +Mrs. Reynolds anticipated Miss Darcy's delight, when she +should enter the room. "And this is always the way with him," +she added. "Whatever can give his sister any pleasure is sure +to be done in a moment. There is nothing he would not do for +her." + +The picture-gallery, and two or three of the principal bedrooms, +were all that remained to be shown. In the former were many +good paintings; but Elizabeth knew nothing of the art; and from +such as had been already visible below, she had willingly turned +to look at some drawings of Miss Darcy's, in crayons, whose +subjects were usually more interesting, and also more intelligible. + +In the gallery there were many family portraits, but they could +have little to fix the attention of a stranger. Elizabeth walked +in quest of the only face whose features would be known to her. +At last it arrested her--and she beheld a striking resemblance +to Mr. Darcy, with such a smile over the face as she remembered +to have sometimes seen when he looked at her. She stood +several minutes before the picture, in earnest contemplation, +and returned to it again before they quitted the gallery. Mrs. +Reynolds informed them that it had been taken in his father's +lifetime. + +There was certainly at this moment, in Elizabeth's mind, a more +gentle sensation towards the original than she had ever felt at +the height of their acquaintance. The commendation bestowed +on him by Mrs. Reynolds was of no trifling nature. What praise +is more valuable than the praise of an intelligent servant? As a +brother, a landlord, a master, she considered how many people's +happiness were in his guardianship!--how much of pleasure or +pain was it in his power to bestow!--how much of good or evil +must be done by him! Every idea that had been brought forward +by the housekeeper was favourable to his character, and as she +stood before the canvas on which he was represented, and fixed +his eyes upon herself, she thought of his regard with a deeper +sentiment of gratitude than it had ever raised before; she +remembered its warmth, and softened its impropriety of +expression. + +When all of the house that was open to general inspection had +been seen, they returned downstairs, and, taking leave of the +housekeeper, were consigned over to the gardener, who met +them at the hall-door. + +As they walked across the hall towards the river, Elizabeth +turned back to look again; her uncle and aunt stopped also, and +while the former was conjecturing as to the date of the building, +the owner of it himself suddenly came forward from the road, +which led behind it to the stables. + +They were within twenty yards of each other, and so abrupt was +his appearance, that it was impossible to avoid his sight. Their +eyes instantly met, and the cheeks of both were overspread with +the deepest blush. He absolutely started, and for a moment +seemed immovable from surprise; but shortly recovering himself, +advanced towards the party, and spoke to Elizabeth, if not in +terms of perfect composure, at least of perfect civility. + +She had instinctively turned away; but stopping on his approach, +received his compliments with an embarrassment impossible to +be overcome. Had his first appearance, or his resemblance to +the picture they had just been examining, been insufficient +to assure the other two that they now saw Mr. Darcy, the +gardener's expression of surprise, on beholding his master, +must immediately have told it. They stood a little aloof while +he was talking to their niece, who, astonished and confused, +scarcely dared lift her eyes to his face, and knew not what +answer she returned to his civil inquiries after her family. +Amazed at the alteration of his manner since they last parted, +every sentence that he uttered was increasing her embarrassment; +and every idea of the impropriety of her being found there +recurring to her mind, the few minutes in which they continued +were some of the most uncomfortable in her life. Nor did he +seem much more at ease; when he spoke, his accent had none of +its usual sedateness; and he repeated his inquiries as to the +time of her having left Longbourn, and of her having stayed in +Derbyshire, so often, and in so hurried a way, as plainly spoke +the distraction of his thoughts. + +At length every idea seemed to fail him; and, after standing a +few moments without saying a word, he suddenly recollected +himself, and took leave. + +The others then joined her, and expressed admiration of his +figure; but Elizabeth heard not a word, and wholly engrossed +by her own feelings, followed them in silence. She was +overpowered by shame and vexation. Her coming there was +the most unfortunate, the most ill-judged thing in the world! +How strange it must appear to him! In what a disgraceful light +might it not strike so vain a man! It might seem as if she +had purposely thrown herself in his way again! Oh! why did she +come? Or, why did he thus come a day before he was expected? +Had they been only ten minutes sooner, they should have been +beyond the reach of his discrimination; for it was plain that +he was that moment arrived--that moment alighted from his +horse or his carriage. She blushed again and again over the +perverseness of the meeting. And his behaviour, so strikingly +altered--what could it mean? That he should even speak to her +was amazing!--but to speak with such civility, to inquire after +her family! Never in her life had she seen his manners so little +dignified, never had he spoken with such gentleness as on this +unexpected meeting. What a contrast did it offer to his last +address in Rosings Park, when he put his letter into her hand! +She knew not what to think, or how to account for it. + +They had now entered a beautiful walk by the side of the water, +and every step was bringing forward a nobler fall of ground, or +a finer reach of the woods to which they were approaching; but +it was some time before Elizabeth was sensible of any of it; +and, though she answered mechanically to the repeated appeals +of her uncle and aunt, and seemed to direct her eyes to such +objects as they pointed out, she distinguished no part of +the scene. Her thoughts were all fixed on that one spot of +Pemberley House, whichever it might be, where Mr. Darcy then +was. She longed to know what at the moment was passing in +his mind--in what manner he thought of her, and whether, in +defiance of everything, she was still dear to him. Perhaps he +had been civil only because he felt himself at ease; yet there +had been _that_ in his voice which was not like ease. Whether he +had felt more of pain or of pleasure in seeing her she could +not tell, but he certainly had not seen her with composure. + +At length, however, the remarks of her companions on her +absence of mind aroused her, and she felt the necessity of +appearing more like herself. + +They entered the woods, and bidding adieu to the river for a +while, ascended some of the higher grounds; when, in spots where +the opening of the trees gave the eye power to wander, were many +charming views of the valley, the opposite hills, with the long +range of woods overspreading many, and occasionally part of the +stream. Mr. Gardiner expressed a wish of going round the whole +park, but feared it might be beyond a walk. With a triumphant +smile they were told that it was ten miles round. It settled the +matter; and they pursued the accustomed circuit; which brought +them again, after some time, in a descent among hanging woods, +to the edge of the water, and one of its narrowest parts. They +crossed it by a simple bridge, in character with the general air +of the scene; it was a spot less adorned than any they had yet +visited; and the valley, here contracted into a glen, allowed +room only for the stream, and a narrow walk amidst the rough +coppice-wood which bordered it. Elizabeth longed to explore its +windings; but when they had crossed the bridge, and perceived +their distance from the house, Mrs. Gardiner, who was not a +great walker, could go no farther, and thought only of returning +to the carriage as quickly as possible. Her niece was, therefore, +obliged to submit, and they took their way towards the house on +the opposite side of the river, in the nearest direction; but +their progress was slow, for Mr. Gardiner, though seldom able to +indulge the taste, was very fond of fishing, and was so much +engaged in watching the occasional appearance of some trout in +the water, and talking to the man about them, that he advanced +but little. Whilst wandering on in this slow manner, they were +again surprised, and Elizabeth's astonishment was quite equal to +what it had been at first, by the sight of Mr. Darcy approaching +them, and at no great distance. The walk here being here less +sheltered than on the other side, allowed them to see him before +they met. Elizabeth, however astonished, was at least more +prepared for an interview than before, and resolved to appear +and to speak with calmness, if he really intended to meet them. +For a few moments, indeed, she felt that he would probably strike +into some other path. The idea lasted while a turning in the +walk concealed him from their view; the turning past, he was +immediately before them. With a glance, she saw that he had lost +none of his recent civility; and, to imitate his politeness, she +began, as they met, to admire the beauty of the place; but she +had not got beyond the words "delightful," and "charming," when +some unlucky recollections obtruded, and she fancied that praise +of Pemberley from her might be mischievously construed. Her +colour changed, and she said no more. + +Mrs. Gardiner was standing a little behind; and on her pausing, +he asked her if she would do him the honour of introducing him +to her friends. This was a stroke of civility for which she +was quite unprepared; and she could hardly suppress a smile at +his being now seeking the acquaintance of some of those very +people against whom his pride had revolted in his offer to +herself. "What will be his surprise," thought she, "when he +knows who they are? He takes them now for people of fashion." + +The introduction, however, was immediately made; and as she +named their relationship to herself, she stole a sly look at +him, to see how he bore it, and was not without the expectation +of his decamping as fast as he could from such disgraceful +companions. That he was _surprised_ by the connection was +evident; he sustained it, however, with fortitude, and so far +from going away, turned his back with them, and entered into +conversation with Mr. Gardiner. Elizabeth could not but be +pleased, could not but triumph. It was consoling that he should +know she had some relations for whom there was no need to +blush. She listened most attentively to all that passed between +them, and gloried in every expression, every sentence of her +uncle, which marked his intelligence, his taste, or his good +manners. + +The conversation soon turned upon fishing; and she heard Mr. +Darcy invite him, with the greatest civility, to fish there as often +as he chose while he continued in the neighbourhood, offering +at the same time to supply him with fishing tackle, and pointing +out those parts of the stream where there was usually most +sport. Mrs. Gardiner, who was walking arm-in-arm with +Elizabeth, gave her a look expressive of wonder. Elizabeth +said nothing, but it gratified her exceedingly; the compliment +must be all for herself. Her astonishment, however, was +extreme, and continually was she repeating, "Why is he so +altered? From what can it proceed? It cannot be for _me_--it +cannot be for _my_ sake that his manners are thus softened. My +reproofs at Hunsford could not work such a change as this. +It is impossible that he should still love me." + +After walking some time in this way, the two ladies in front, +the two gentlemen behind, on resuming their places, after +descending to the brink of the river for the better inspection of +some curious water-plant, there chanced to be a little alteration. +It originated in Mrs. Gardiner, who, fatigued by the exercise of +the morning, found Elizabeth's arm inadequate to her support, and +consequently preferred her husband's. Mr. Darcy took her place +by her niece, and they walked on together. After a short silence, +the lady first spoke. She wished him to know that she had +been assured of his absence before she came to the place, and +accordingly began by observing, that his arrival had been very +unexpected--"for your housekeeper," she added, "informed us that +you would certainly not be here till to-morrow; and indeed, before +we left Bakewell, we understood that you were not immediately +expected in the country." He acknowledged the truth of it all, +and said that business with his steward had occasioned his coming +forward a few hours before the rest of the party with whom he +had been travelling. "They will join me early to-morrow," he +continued, "and among them are some who will claim an acquaintance +with you--Mr. Bingley and his sisters." + +Elizabeth answered only by a slight bow. Her thoughts were +instantly driven back to the time when Mr. Bingley's name had +been the last mentioned between them; and, if she might judge +by his complexion, _his_ mind was not very differently engaged. + +"There is also one other person in the party," he continued after +a pause, "who more particularly wishes to be known to you. +Will you allow me, or do I ask too much, to introduce my sister +to your acquaintance during your stay at Lambton?" + +The surprise of such an application was great indeed; it was too +great for her to know in what manner she acceded to it. She +immediately felt that whatever desire Miss Darcy might have of +being acquainted with her must be the work of her brother, and, +without looking farther, it was satisfactory; it was gratifying to +know that his resentment had not made him think really ill of her. + +They now walked on in silence, each of them deep in thought. +Elizabeth was not comfortable; that was impossible; but she was +flattered and pleased. His wish of introducing his sister to her +was a compliment of the highest kind. They soon outstripped the +others, and when they had reached the carriage, Mr. and Mrs. +Gardiner were half a quarter of a mile behind. + +He then asked her to walk into the house--but she declared +herself not tired, and they stood together on the lawn. At +such a time much might have been said, and silence was very +awkward. She wanted to talk, but there seemed to be an +embargo on every subject. At last she recollected that she had +been travelling, and they talked of Matlock and Dove Dale with +great perseverance. Yet time and her aunt moved slowly--and +her patience and her ideas were nearly worn our before the +tete-a-tete was over. On Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner's coming up +they were all pressed to go into the house and take some +refreshment; but this was declined, and they parted on each +side with utmost politeness. Mr. Darcy handed the ladies into +the carriage; and when it drove off, Elizabeth saw him walking +slowly towards the house. + +The observations of her uncle and aunt now began; and each of +them pronounced him to be infinitely superior to anything they +had expected. "He is perfectly well behaved, polite, and +unassuming," said her uncle. + +"There _is_ something a little stately in him, to be sure," replied +her aunt, "but it is confined to his air, and is not unbecoming. +I can now say with the housekeeper, that though some people may +call him proud, I have seen nothing of it." + +"I was never more surprised than by his behaviour to us. It was +more than civil; it was really attentive; and there was no +necessity for such attention. His acquaintance with Elizabeth +was very trifling." + +"To be sure, Lizzy," said her aunt, "he is not so handsome as +Wickham; or, rather, he has not Wickham's countenance, for +his features are perfectly good. But how came you to tell me +that he was so disagreeable?" + +Elizabeth excused herself as well as she could; said that she had +liked him better when they had met in Kent than before, and that +she had never seen him so pleasant as this morning. + +"But perhaps he may be a little whimsical in his civilities," +replied her uncle. "Your great men often are; and therefore I +shall not take him at his word, as he might change his mind +another day, and warn me off his grounds." + +Elizabeth felt that they had entirely misunderstood his character, +but said nothing. + +"From what we have seen of him," continued Mrs. Gardiner, "I +really should not have thought that he could have behaved in so +cruel a way by anybody as he has done by poor Wickham. He +has not an ill-natured look. On the contrary, there is something +pleasing about his mouth when he speaks. And there is something +of dignity in his countenance that would not give one an +unfavourable idea of his heart. But, to be sure, the good lady +who showed us his house did give him a most flaming character! +I could hardly help laughing aloud sometimes. But he is a +liberal master, I suppose, and _that_ in the eye of a servant +comprehends every virtue." + +Elizabeth here felt herself called on to say something in +vindication of his behaviour to Wickham; and therefore gave +them to understand, in as guarded a manner as she could, that +by what she had heard from his relations in Kent, his actions +were capable of a very different construction; and that his +character was by no means so faulty, nor Wickham's so amiable, +as they had been considered in Hertfordshire. In confirmation +of this, she related the particulars of all the pecuniary +transactions in which they had been connected, without actually +naming her authority, but stating it to be such as such as might +be relied on. + +Mrs. Gardiner was surprised and concerned; but as they were +now approaching the scene of her former pleasures, every idea +gave way to the charm of recollection; and she was too much +engaged in pointing out to her husband all the interesting spots +in its environs to think of anything else. Fatigued as she had +been by the morning's walk they had no sooner dined than she +set off again in quest of her former acquaintance, and the +evening was spent in the satisfactions of a intercourse renewed +after many years' discontinuance. + +The occurrences of the day were too full of interest to leave +Elizabeth much attention for any of these new friends; and she +could do nothing but think, and think with wonder, of Mr. +Darcy's civility, and, above all, of his wishing her to be +acquainted with his sister. + + + +Chapter 44 + + +Elizabeth had settled it that Mr. Darcy would bring his sister +to visit her the very day after her reaching Pemberley; and was +consequently resolved not to be out of sight of the inn the whole +of that morning. But her conclusion was false; for on the very +morning after their arrival at Lambton, these visitors came. +They had been walking about the place with some of their new +friends, and were just returning to the inn to dress themselves +for dining with the same family, when the sound of a carriage +drew them to a window, and they saw a gentleman and a lady +in a curricle driving up the street. Elizabeth immediately +recognizing the livery, guessed what it meant, and imparted no +small degree of her surprise to her relations by acquainting +them with the honour which she expected. Her uncle and aunt +were all amazement; and the embarrassment of her manner as +she spoke, joined to the circumstance itself, and many of the +circumstances of the preceding day, opened to them a new idea +on the business. Nothing had ever suggested it before, but they +felt that there was no other way of accounting for such attentions +from such a quarter than by supposing a partiality for their +niece. While these newly-born notions were passing in their heads, +the perturbation of Elizabeth's feelings was at every moment +increasing. She was quite amazed at her own discomposure; but +amongst other causes of disquiet, she dreaded lest the partiality +of the brother should have said too much in her favour; and, more +than commonly anxious to please, she naturally suspected that +every power of pleasing would fail her. + +She retreated from the window, fearful of being seen; and as +she walked up and down the room, endeavouring to compose +herself, saw such looks of inquiring surprise in her uncle and +aunt as made everything worse. + +Miss Darcy and her brother appeared, and this formidable +introduction took place. With astonishment did Elizabeth see +that her new acquaintance was at least as much embarrassed as +herself. Since her being at Lambton, she had heard that Miss +Darcy was exceedingly proud; but the observation of a very few +minutes convinced her that she was only exceedingly shy. She +found it difficult to obtain even a word from her beyond a +monosyllable. + +Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than Elizabeth; +and, though little more than sixteen, her figure was formed, +and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less handsome +than her brother; but there was sense and good humour in her +face, and her manners were perfectly unassuming and gentle. +Elizabeth, who had expected to find in her as acute and +unembarrassed an observer as ever Mr. Darcy had been, was +much relieved by discerning such different feelings. + +They had not long been together before Mr. Darcy told her that +Bingley was also coming to wait on her; and she had barely time +to express her satisfaction, and prepare for such a visitor, when +Bingley's quick step was heard on the stairs, and in a moment he +entered the room. All Elizabeth's anger against him had been +long done away; but had she still felt any, it could hardly have +stood its ground against the unaffected cordiality with which he +expressed himself on seeing her again. He inquired in a friendly, +though general way, after her family, and looked and spoke with +the same good-humoured ease that he had ever done. + +To Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner he was scarcely a less interesting +personage than to herself. They had long wished to see him. +The whole party before them, indeed, excited a lively attention. +The suspicions which had just arisen of Mr. Darcy and their niece +directed their observation towards each with an earnest though +guarded inquiry; and they soon drew from those inquiries the full +conviction that one of them at least knew what it was to love. +Of the lady's sensations they remained a little in doubt; but that +the gentleman was overflowing with admiration was evident enough. + +Elizabeth, on her side, had much to do. She wanted to +ascertain the feelings of each of her visitors; she wanted to +compose her own, and to make herself agreeable to all; and in +the latter object, where she feared most to fail, she was most +sure of success, for those to whom she endeavoured to give +pleasure were prepossessed in her favour. Bingley was ready, +Georgiana was eager, and Darcy determined, to be pleased. + +In seeing Bingley, her thoughts naturally flew to her sister; +and, oh! how ardently did she long to know whether any of his were +directed in a like manner. Sometimes she could fancy that he +talked less than on former occasions, and once or twice pleased +herself with the notion that, as he looked at her, he was trying +to trace a resemblance. But, though this might be imaginary, +she could not be deceived as to his behaviour to Miss Darcy, who +had been set up as a rival to Jane. No look appeared on either +side that spoke particular regard. Nothing occurred between +them that could justify the hopes of his sister. On this point +she was soon satisfied; and two or three little circumstances +occurred ere they parted, which, in her anxious interpretation, +denoted a recollection of Jane not untinctured by tenderness, +and a wish of saying more that might lead to the mention of her, +had he dared. He observed to her, at a moment when the others +were talking together, and in a tone which had something of real +regret, that it "was a very long time since he had had the +pleasure of seeing her;" and, before she could reply, he added, +"It is above eight months. We have not met since the 26th of +November, when we were all dancing together at Netherfield." + +Elizabeth was pleased to find his memory so exact; and he +afterwards took occasion to ask her, when unattended to by +any of the rest, whether _all_ her sisters were at Longbourn. +There was not much in the question, nor in the preceding +remark; but there was a look and a manner which gave them +meaning. + +It was not often that she could turn her eyes on Mr. Darcy +himself; but, whenever she did catch a glimpse, she saw an +expression of general complaisance, and in all that he said +she heard an accent so removed from _hauteur_ or disdain of his +companions, as convinced her that the improvement of manners +which she had yesterday witnessed however temporary its +existence might prove, had at least outlived one day. When she +saw him thus seeking the acquaintance and courting the good +opinion of people with whom any intercourse a few months ago +would have been a disgrace--when she saw him thus civil, not +only to herself, but to the very relations whom he had openly +disdained, and recollected their last lively scene in Hunsford +Parsonage--the difference, the change was so great, and struck +so forcibly on her mind, that she could hardly restrain her +astonishment from being visible. Never, even in the company +of his dear friends at Netherfield, or his dignified relations +at Rosings, had she seen him so desirous to please, so free +from self-consequence or unbending reserve, as now, when no +importance could result from the success of his endeavours, and +when even the acquaintance of those to whom his attentions +were addressed would draw down the ridicule and censure of +the ladies both of Netherfield and Rosings. + +Their visitors stayed with them above half-an-hour; and when +they arose to depart, Mr. Darcy called on his sister to join him +in expressing their wish of seeing Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, and +Miss Bennet, to dinner at Pemberley, before they left the +country. Miss Darcy, though with a diffidence which marked +her little in the habit of giving invitations, readily obeyed. +Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece, desirous of knowing how _she_, +whom the invitation most concerned, felt disposed as to its +acceptance, but Elizabeth had turned away her head. Presuming +however, that this studied avoidance spoke rather a momentary +embarrassment than any dislike of the proposal, and seeing in +her husband, who was fond of society, a perfect willingness to +accept it, she ventured to engage for her attendance, and the +day after the next was fixed on. + +Bingley expressed great pleasure in the certainty of seeing +Elizabeth again, having still a great deal to say to her, and many +inquiries to make after all their Hertfordshire friends. Elizabeth, +construing all this into a wish of hearing her speak of her sister, +was pleased, and on this account, as well as some others, found +herself, when their visitors left them, capable of considering +the last half-hour with some satisfaction, though while it was +passing, the enjoyment of it had been little. Eager to be alone, +and fearful of inquiries or hints from her uncle and aunt, she +stayed with them only long enough to hear their favourable +opinion of Bingley, and then hurried away to dress. + +But she had no reason to fear Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner's curiosity; +it was not their wish to force her communication. It was evident +that she was much better acquainted with Mr. Darcy than they +had before any idea of; it was evident that he was very much in +love with her. They saw much to interest, but nothing to justify +inquiry. + +Of Mr. Darcy it was now a matter of anxiety to think well; and, +as far as their acquaintance reached, there was no fault to find. +They could not be untouched by his politeness; and had they +drawn his character from their own feelings and his servant's +report, without any reference to any other account, the circle +in Hertfordshire to which he was known would not have recognized +it for Mr. Darcy. There was now an interest, however, in +believing the housekeeper; and they soon became sensible that +the authority of a servant who had known him since he was four +years old, and whose own manners indicated respectability, was +not to be hastily rejected. Neither had anything occurred in +the intelligence of their Lambton friends that could materially +lessen its weight. They had nothing to accuse him of but pride; +pride he probably had, and if not, it would certainly be imputed +by the inhabitants of a small market-town where the family did +not visit. It was acknowledged, however, that he was a liberal +man, and did much good among the poor. + +With respect to Wickham, the travellers soon found that he was +not held there in much estimation; for though the chief of his +concerns with the son of his patron were imperfectly understood, +it was yet a well-known fact that, on his quitting Derbyshire, +he had left many debts behind him, which Mr. Darcy afterwards +discharged. + +As for Elizabeth, her thoughts were at Pemberley this evening +more than the last; and the evening, though as it passed it +seemed long, was not long enough to determine her feelings +towards _one_ in that mansion; and she lay awake two whole +hours endeavouring to make them out. She certainly did not +hate him. No; hatred had vanished long ago, and she had +almost as long been ashamed of ever feeling a dislike against +him, that could be so called. The respect created by the +conviction of his valuable qualities, though at first unwillingly +admitted, had for some time ceased to be repugnant to her +feeling; and it was now heightened into somewhat of a friendlier +nature, by the testimony so highly in his favour, and bringing +forward his disposition in so amiable a light, which yesterday +had produced. But above all, above respect and esteem, there +was a motive within her of goodwill which could not be +overlooked. It was gratitude; gratitude, not merely for having +once loved her, but for loving her still well enough to forgive +all the petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and +all the unjust accusations accompanying her rejection. He who, +she had been persuaded, would avoid her as his greatest enemy, +seemed, on this accidental meeting, most eager to preserve the +acquaintance, and without any indelicate display of regard, or +any peculiarity of manner, where their two selves only were +concerned, was soliciting the good opinion of her friends, +and bent on making her known to his sister. Such a change +in a man of so much pride exciting not only astonishment but +gratitude--for to love, ardent love, it must be attributed; and +as such its impression on her was of a sort to be encouraged, as +by no means unpleasing, though it could not be exactly defined. +She respected, she esteemed, she was grateful to him, she felt +a real interest in his welfare; and she only wanted to know how +far she wished that welfare to depend upon herself, and how far +it would be for the happiness of both that she should employ the +power, which her fancy told her she still possessed, of bringing +on her the renewal of his addresses. + +It had been settled in the evening between the aunt and the +niece, that such a striking civility as Miss Darcy's in coming to +see them on the very day of her arrival at Pemberley, for she +had reached it only to a late breakfast, ought to be imitated, +though it could not be equalled, by some exertion of politeness +on their side; and, consequently, that it would be highly +expedient to wait on her at Pemberley the following morning. +They were, therefore, to go. Elizabeth was pleased; though +when she asked herself the reason, she had very little to say in +reply. + +Mr. Gardiner left them soon after breakfast. The fishing scheme +had been renewed the day before, and a positive engagement +made of his meeting some of the gentlemen at Pemberley before +noon. + + + +Chapter 45 + + +Convinced as Elizabeth now was that Miss Bingley's dislike of +her had originated in jealousy, she could not help feeling how +unwelcome her appearance at Pemberley must be to her, and +was curious to know with how much civility on that lady's side +the acquaintance would now be renewed. + +On reaching the house, they were shown through the hall into +the saloon, whose northern aspect rendered it delightful for +summer. Its windows opening to the ground, admitted a most +refreshing view of the high woody hills behind the house, +and of the beautiful oaks and Spanish chestnuts which were +scattered over the intermediate lawn. + +In this house they were received by Miss Darcy, who was +sitting there with Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley, and the lady +with whom she lived in London. Georgiana's reception of them +was very civil, but attended with all the embarrassment which, +though proceeding from shyness and the fear of doing wrong, +would easily give to those who felt themselves inferior the +belief of her being proud and reserved. Mrs. Gardiner and her +niece, however, did her justice, and pitied her. + +By Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley they were noticed only by a +curtsey; and, on their being seated, a pause, awkward as such +pauses must always be, succeeded for a few moments. It was +first broken by Mrs. Annesley, a genteel, agreeable-looking +woman, whose endeavour to introduce some kind of discourse +proved her to be more truly well-bred than either of the others; +and between her and Mrs. Gardiner, with occasional help from +Elizabeth, the conversation was carried on. Miss Darcy looked +as if she wished for courage enough to join in it; and sometimes +did venture a short sentence when there was least danger of its +being heard. + +Elizabeth soon saw that she was herself closely watched by Miss +Bingley, and that she could not speak a word, especially to Miss +Darcy, without calling her attention. This observation would not +have prevented her from trying to talk to the latter, had they +not been seated at an inconvenient distance; but she was not sorry +to be spared the necessity of saying much. Her own thoughts +were employing her. She expected every moment that some of the +gentlemen would enter the room. She wished, she feared that +the master of the house might be amongst them; and whether +she wished or feared it most, she could scarcely determine. +After sitting in this manner a quarter of an hour without hearing +Miss Bingley's voice, Elizabeth was roused by receiving from +her a cold inquiry after the health of her family. She answered +with equal indifference and brevity, and the others said no more. + +The next variation which their visit afforded was produced by +the entrance of servants with cold meat, cake, and a variety of +all the finest fruits in season; but this did not take place till +after many a significant look and smile from Mrs. Annesley to +Miss Darcy had been given, to remind her of her post. There was +now employment for the whole party--for though they could not all +talk, they could all eat; and the beautiful pyramids of grapes, +nectarines, and peaches soon collected them round the table. + +While thus engaged, Elizabeth had a fair opportunity of deciding +whether she most feared or wished for the appearance of Mr. +Darcy, by the feelings which prevailed on his entering the room; +and then, though but a moment before she had believed her +wishes to predominate, she began to regret that he came. + +He had been some time with Mr. Gardiner, who, with two or +three other gentlemen from the house, was engaged by the river, +and had left him only on learning that the ladies of the family +intended a visit to Georgiana that morning. No sooner did he +appear than Elizabeth wisely resolved to be perfectly easy and +unembarrassed; a resolution the more necessary to be made, but +perhaps not the more easily kept, because she saw that the +suspicions of the whole party were awakened against them, and +that there was scarcely an eye which did not watch his +behaviour when he first came into the room. In no countenance +was attentive curiosity so strongly marked as in Miss Bingley's, +in spite of the smiles which overspread her face whenever she +spoke to one of its objects; for jealousy had not yet made her +desperate, and her attentions to Mr. Darcy were by no means +over. Miss Darcy, on her brother's entrance, exerted herself +much more to talk, and Elizabeth saw that he was anxious for +his sister and herself to get acquainted, and forwarded as much +as possible, every attempt at conversation on either side. Miss +Bingley saw all this likewise; and, in the imprudence of anger, +took the first opportunity of saying, with sneering civility: + +"Pray, Miss Eliza, are not the ----shire Militia removed from +Meryton? They must be a great loss to _your_ family." + +In Darcy's presence she dared not mention Wickham's name; +but Elizabeth instantly comprehended that he was uppermost in +her thoughts; and the various recollections connected with him +gave her a moment's distress; but exerting herself vigorously to +repel the ill-natured attack, she presently answered the question +in a tolerably detached tone. While she spoke, an involuntary +glance showed her Darcy, with a heightened complexion, +earnestly looking at her, and his sister overcome with confusion, +and unable to lift up her eyes. Had Miss Bingley known what +pain she was then giving her beloved friend, she undoubtedly +would have refrained from the hint; but she had merely intended +to discompose Elizabeth by bringing forward the idea of a man +to whom she believed her partial, to make her betray a sensibility +which might injure her in Darcy's opinion, and, perhaps, to +remind the latter of all the follies and absurdities by which +some part of her family were connected with that corps. Not a +syllable had ever reached her of Miss Darcy's meditated +elopement. To no creature had it been revealed, where secrecy +was possible, except to Elizabeth; and from all Bingley's +connections her brother was particularly anxious to conceal it, +from the very wish which Elizabeth had long ago attributed to +him, of their becoming hereafter her own. He had certainly +formed such a plan, and without meaning that it should effect +his endeavour to separate him from Miss Bennet, it is probable +that it might add something to his lively concern for the welfare +of his friend. + +Elizabeth's collected behaviour, however, soon quieted his +emotion; and as Miss Bingley, vexed and disappointed, dared +not approach nearer to Wickham, Georgiana also recovered in +time, though not enough to be able to speak any more. Her +brother, whose eye she feared to meet, scarcely recollected her +interest in the affair, and the very circumstance which had +been designed to turn his thoughts from Elizabeth seemed to +have fixed them on her more and more cheerfully. + +Their visit did not continue long after the question and answer +above mentioned; and while Mr. Darcy was attending them to +their carriage Miss Bingley was venting her feelings in criticisms +on Elizabeth's person, behaviour, and dress. But Georgiana +would not join her. Her brother's recommendation was enough +to ensure her favour; his judgement could not err. And he had +spoken in such terms of Elizabeth as to leave Georgiana without +the power of finding her otherwise than lovely and amiable. +When Darcy returned to the saloon, Miss Bingley could not help +repeating to him some part of what she had been saying to his +sister. + +"How very ill Miss Eliza Bennet looks this morning, Mr. Darcy," +she cried; "I never in my life saw anyone so much altered as she +is since the winter. She is grown so brown and coarse! Louisa +and I were agreeing that we should not have known her again." + +However little Mr. Darcy might have liked such an address, he +contented himself with coolly replying that he perceived no +other alteration than her being rather tanned, no miraculous +consequence of travelling in the summer. + +"For my own part," she rejoined, "I must confess that I never +could see any beauty in her. Her face is too thin; her +complexion has no brilliancy; and her features are not at all +handsome. Her nose wants character--there is nothing marked +in its lines. Her teeth are tolerable, but not out of the common +way; and as for her eyes, which have sometimes been called so +fine, I could never see anything extraordinary in them. They +have a sharp, shrewish look, which I do not like at all; and in her +air altogether there is a self-sufficiency without fashion, which +is intolerable." + +Persuaded as Miss Bingley was that Darcy admired Elizabeth, +this was not the best method of recommending herself; but +angry people are not always wise; and in seeing him at last look +somewhat nettled, she had all the success she expected. He was +resolutely silent, however, and, from a determination of making +him speak, she continued: + +"I remember, when we first knew her in Hertfordshire, how +amazed we all were to find that she was a reputed beauty; and I +particularly recollect your saying one night, after they had been +dining at Netherfield, '_She_ a beauty!--I should as soon call her +mother a wit.' But afterwards she seemed to improve on you, +and I believe you thought her rather pretty at one time." + +"Yes," replied Darcy, who could contain himself no longer, +"but _that_ was only when I first saw her, for it is many months +since I have considered her as one of the handsomest women of +my acquaintance." + +He then went away, and Miss Bingley was left to all the +satisfaction of having forced him to say what gave no one any +pain but herself. + +Mrs. Gardiner and Elizabeth talked of all that had occurred during +their visit, as they returned, except what had particularly +interested them both. The look and behaviour of everybody they +had seen were discussed, except of the person who had mostly +engaged their attention. They talked of his sister, his friends, +his house, his fruit--of everything but himself; yet Elizabeth +was longing to know what Mrs. Gardiner thought of him, and Mrs. +Gardiner would have been highly gratified by her niece's beginning +the subject. + + + +Chapter 46 + + +Elizabeth had been a good deal disappointed in not finding a +letter from Jane on their first arrival at Lambton; and this +disappointment had been renewed on each of the mornings that +had now been spent there; but on the third her repining was +over, and her sister justified, by the receipt of two letters +from her at once, on one of which was marked that it had been +missent elsewhere. Elizabeth was not surprised at it, as Jane +had written the direction remarkably ill. + +They had just been preparing to walk as the letters came in; +and her uncle and aunt, leaving her to enjoy them in quiet, set +off by themselves. The one missent must first be attended to; +it had been written five days ago. The beginning contained an +account of all their little parties and engagements, with such +news as the country afforded; but the latter half, which was +dated a day later, and written in evident agitation, gave more +important intelligence. It was to this effect: + +"Since writing the above, dearest Lizzy, something has occurred +of a most unexpected and serious nature; but I am afraid of +alarming you--be assured that we are all well. What I have to +say relates to poor Lydia. An express came at twelve last night, +just as we were all gone to bed, from Colonel Forster, to +inform us that she was gone off to Scotland with one of his +officers; to own the truth, with Wickham! Imagine our surprise. +To Kitty, however, it does not seem so wholly unexpected. I +am very, very sorry. So imprudent a match on both sides! But +I am willing to hope the best, and that his character has been +misunderstood. Thoughtless and indiscreet I can easily believe +him, but this step (and let us rejoice over it) marks nothing bad +at heart. His choice is disinterested at least, for he must know +my father can give her nothing. Our poor mother is sadly +grieved. My father bears it better. How thankful am I that we +never let them know what has been said against him; we must +forget it ourselves. They were off Saturday night about twelve, +as is conjectured, but were not missed till yesterday morning at +eight. The express was sent off directly. My dear Lizzy, they +must have passed within ten miles of us. Colonel Forster gives +us reason to expect him here soon. Lydia left a few lines for +his wife, informing her of their intention. I must conclude, for +I cannot be long from my poor mother. I am afraid you will not +be able to make it out, but I hardly know what I have written." + +Without allowing herself time for consideration, and scarcely +knowing what she felt, Elizabeth on finishing this letter instantly +seized the other, and opening it with the utmost impatience, read +as follows: it had been written a day later than the conclusion of +the first. + +"By this time, my dearest sister, you have received my hurried +letter; I wish this may be more intelligible, but though not +confined for time, my head is so bewildered that I cannot answer +for being coherent. Dearest Lizzy, I hardly know what I would +write, but I have bad news for you, and it cannot be delayed. +Imprudent as the marriage between Mr. Wickham and our poor +Lydia would be, we are now anxious to be assured it has taken +place, for there is but too much reason to fear they are not gone +to Scotland. Colonel Forster came yesterday, having left +Brighton the day before, not many hours after the express. +Though Lydia's short letter to Mrs. F. gave them to understand +that they were going to Gretna Green, something was dropped +by Denny expressing his belief that W. never intended to go +there, or to marry Lydia at all, which was repeated to Colonel +F., who, instantly taking the alarm, set off from B. intending to +trace their route. He did trace them easily to Clapham, but no +further; for on entering that place, they removed into a hackney +coach, and dismissed the chaise that brought them from Epsom. +All that is known after this is, that they were seen to continue +the London road. I know not what to think. After making every +possible inquiry on that side London, Colonel F. came on into +Hertfordshire, anxiously renewing them at all the turnpikes, and +at the inns in Barnet and Hatfield, but without any success--no +such people had been seen to pass through. With the kindest +concern he came on to Longbourn, and broke his apprehensions +to us in a manner most creditable to his heart. I am sincerely +grieved for him and Mrs. F., but no one can throw any blame +on them. Our distress, my dear Lizzy, is very great. My father +and mother believe the worst, but I cannot think so ill of him. +Many circumstances might make it more eligible for them to be +married privately in town than to pursue their first plan; +and even if _he_ could form such a design against a young woman +of Lydia's connections, which is not likely, can I suppose her +so lost to everything? Impossible! I grieve to find, however, +that Colonel F. is not disposed to depend upon their marriage; +he shook his head when I expressed my hopes, and said he fear +W. was not a man to be trusted. My poor mother is really ill, +and keeps her room. Could she exert herself, it would be better; +but this is not to be expected. And as to my father, I never in +my life saw him so affected. Poor Kitty has anger for having +concealed their attachment; but as it was a matter of confidence, +one cannot wonder. I am truly glad, dearest Lizzy, that you +have been spared something of these distressing scenes; but +now, as the first shock is over, shall I own that I long for +your return? I am not so selfish, however, as to press for it, +if inconvenient. Adieu! I take up my pen again to do what I +have just told you I would not; but circumstances are such that +I cannot help earnestly begging you all to come here as soon as +possible. I know my dear uncle and aunt so well, that I am not +afraid of requesting it, though I have still something more to +ask of the former. My father is going to London with Colonel +Forster instantly, to try to discover her. What he means to do +I am sure I know not; but his excessive distress will not allow +him to pursue any measure in the best and safest way, and +Colonel Forster is obliged to be at Brighton again to-morrow +evening. In such an exigence, my uncle's advice and assistance +would be everything in the world; he will immediately comprehend +what I must feel, and I rely upon his goodness." + +"Oh! where, where is my uncle?" cried Elizabeth, darting from +her seat as she finished the letter, in eagerness to follow him, +without losing a moment of the time so precious; but as she +reached the door it was opened by a servant, and Mr. Darcy +appeared. Her pale face and impetuous manner made him start, +and before he could recover himself to speak, she, in whose +mind every idea was superseded by Lydia's situation, hastily +exclaimed, "I beg your pardon, but I must leave you. I must +find Mr. Gardiner this moment, on business that cannot be +delayed; I have not an instant to lose." + +"Good God! what is the matter?" cried he, with more feeling +than politeness; then recollecting himself, "I will not detain you +a minute; but let me, or let the servant go after Mr. and Mrs. +Gardiner. You are not well enough; you cannot go yourself." + +Elizabeth hesitated, but her knees trembled under her and she +felt how little would be gained by her attempting to pursue them. +Calling back the servant, therefore, she commissioned him, +though in so breathless an accent as made her almost unintelligible, +to fetch his master and mistress home instantly. + +On his quitting the room she sat down, unable to support +herself, and looking so miserably ill, that it was impossible +for Darcy to leave her, or to refrain from saying, in a tone +of gentleness and commiseration, "Let me call your maid. Is +there nothing you could take to give you present relief? A +glass of wine; shall I get you one? You are very ill." + +"No, I thank you," she replied, endeavouring to recover herself. +"There is nothing the matter with me. I am quite well; I am +only distressed by some dreadful news which I have just +received from Longbourn." + +She burst into tears as she alluded to it, and for a few minutes +could not speak another word. Darcy, in wretched suspense, +could only say something indistinctly of his concern, and +observe her in compassionate silence. At length she spoke +again. "I have just had a letter from Jane, with such dreadful +news. It cannot be concealed from anyone. My younger sister +has left all her friends--has eloped; has thrown herself into +the power of--of Mr. Wickham. They are gone off together from +Brighton. _You_ know him too well to doubt the rest. She has +no money, no connections, nothing that can tempt him to--she +is lost for ever." + +Darcy was fixed in astonishment. "When I consider," she added +in a yet more agitated voice, "that I might have prevented it! +I, who knew what he was. Had I but explained some part of +it only--some part of what I learnt, to my own family! Had his +character been known, this could not have happened. But it is +all--all too late now." + +"I am grieved indeed," cried Darcy; "grieved--shocked. But is +it certain--absolutely certain?" + +"Oh, yes! They left Brighton together on Sunday night, and +were traced almost to London, but not beyond; they are +certainly not gone to Scotland." + +"And what has been done, what has been attempted, to recover +her?" + +"My father is gone to London, and Jane has written to beg my +uncle's immediate assistance; and we shall be off, I hope, in +half-an-hour. But nothing can be done--I know very well that +nothing can be done. How is such a man to be worked on? How +are they even to be discovered? I have not the smallest hope. +It is every way horrible!" + +Darcy shook his head in silent acquiescence. + +"When _my_ eyes were opened to his real character--Oh! had I +known what I ought, what I dared to do! But I knew not--I +was afraid of doing too much. Wretched, wretched mistake!" + +Darcy made no answer. He seemed scarcely to hear her, and +was walking up and down the room in earnest meditation, his +brow contracted, his air gloomy. Elizabeth soon observed, and +instantly understood it. Her power was sinking; everything +_must_ sink under such a proof of family weakness, such an +assurance of the deepest disgrace. She could neither wonder +nor condemn, but the belief of his self-conquest brought nothing +consolatory to her bosom, afforded no palliation of her +distress. It was, on the contrary, exactly calculated to make +her understand her own wishes; and never had she so honestly felt +that she could have loved him, as now, when all love must be vain. + +But self, though it would intrude, could not engross her. +Lydia--the humiliation, the misery she was bringing on them all, +soon swallowed up every private care; and covering her face with +her handkerchief, Elizabeth was soon lost to everything else; +and, after a pause of several minutes, was only recalled to a +sense of her situation by the voice of her companion, who, in a +manner which, though it spoke compassion, spoke likewise restraint, +said, "I am afraid you have been long desiring my absence, nor +have I anything to plead in excuse of my stay, but real, though +unavailing concern. Would to Heaven that anything could be +either said or done on my part that might offer consolation to +such distress! But I will not torment you with vain wishes, which +may seem purposely to ask for your thanks. This unfortunate +affair will, I fear, prevent my sister's having the pleasure of +seeing you at Pemberley to-day." + +"Oh, yes. Be so kind as to apologise for us to Miss Darcy. Say +that urgent business calls us home immediately. Conceal the +unhappy truth as long as it is possible, I know it cannot be long." + +He readily assured her of his secrecy; again expressed his sorrow +for her distress, wished it a happier conclusion than there was +at present reason to hope, and leaving his compliments for her +relations, with only one serious, parting look, went away. + +As he quitted the room, Elizabeth felt how improbable it was +that they should ever see each other again on such terms of +cordiality as had marked their several meetings in Derbyshire; +and as she threw a retrospective glance over the whole of their +acquaintance, so full of contradictions and varieties, sighed +at the perverseness of those feelings which would now have +promoted its continuance, and would formerly have rejoiced in +its termination. + +If gratitude and esteem are good foundations of affection, +Elizabeth's change of sentiment will be neither improbable nor +faulty. But if otherwise--if regard springing from such sources +is unreasonable or unnatural, in comparison of what is so often +described as arising on a first interview with its object, and even +before two words have been exchanged, nothing can be said in +her defence, except that she had given somewhat of a trial to the +latter method in her partiality for Wickham, and that its ill +success might, perhaps, authorise her to seek the other less +interesting mode of attachment. Be that as it may, she saw him +go with regret; and in this early example of what Lydia's infamy +must produce, found additional anguish as she reflected on that +wretched business. Never, since reading Jane's second letter, +had she entertained a hope of Wickham's meaning to marry her. +No one but Jane, she thought, could flatter herself with such an +expectation. Surprise was the least of her feelings on this +development. While the contents of the first letter remained in +her mind, she was all surprise--all astonishment that Wickham +should marry a girl whom it was impossible he could marry +for money; and how Lydia could ever have attached him had +appeared incomprehensible. But now it was all too natural. For +such an attachment as this she might have sufficient charms; and +though she did not suppose Lydia to be deliberately engaging in +an elopement without the intention of marriage, she had no +difficulty in believing that neither her virtue nor her +understanding would preserve her from falling an easy prey. + +She had never perceived, while the regiment was in Hertfordshire, +that Lydia had any partiality for him; but she was convinced that +Lydia wanted only encouragement to attach herself to anybody. +Sometimes one officer, sometimes another, had been her favourite, +as their attentions raised them in her opinion. Her affections +had continually been fluctuating but never without an object. +The mischief of neglect and mistaken indulgence towards such a +girl--oh! how acutely did she now feel it! + +She was wild to be at home--to hear, to see, to be upon the +spot to share with Jane in the cares that must now fall wholly +upon her, in a family so deranged, a father absent, a mother +incapable of exertion, and requiring constant attendance; and +though almost persuaded that nothing could be done for Lydia, +her uncle's interference seemed of the utmost importance, and +till he entered the room her impatience was severe. Mr. and +Mrs. Gardiner had hurried back in alarm, supposing by the +servant's account that their niece was taken suddenly ill; but +satisfying them instantly on that head, she eagerly communicated +the cause of their summons, reading the two letters aloud, and +dwelling on the postscript of the last with trembling energy, +though Lydia had never been a favourite with them, Mr. and +Mrs. Gardiner could not but be deeply afflicted. Not Lydia +only, but all were concerned in it; and after the first +exclamations of surprise and horror, Mr. Gardiner promised +every assistance in his power. Elizabeth, though expecting no +less, thanked him with tears of gratitude; and all three being +actuated by one spirit, everything relating to their journey was +speedily settled. They were to be off as soon as possible. "But +what is to be done about Pemberley?" cried Mrs. Gardiner. +"John told us Mr. Darcy was here when you sent for us; was it +so?" + +"Yes; and I told him we should not be able to keep our +engagement. _That_ is all settled." + +"What is all settled?" repeated the other, as she ran into her +room to prepare. "And are they upon such terms as for her to +disclose the real truth? Oh, that I knew how it was!" + +But wishes were vain, or at least could only serve to amuse her +in the hurry and confusion of the following hour. Had Elizabeth +been at leisure to be idle, she would have remained certain that +all employment was impossible to one so wretched as herself; +but she had her share of business as well as her aunt, and +amongst the rest there were notes to be written to all their +friends at Lambton, with false excuses for their sudden +departure. An hour, however, saw the whole completed; and +Mr. Gardiner meanwhile having settled his account at the inn, +nothing remained to be done but to go; and Elizabeth, after all +the misery of the morning, found herself, in a shorter space of +time than she could have supposed, seated in the carriage, and +on the road to Longbourn. + + + +Chapter 47 + + +"I have been thinking it over again, Elizabeth," said her uncle, +as they drove from the town; "and really, upon serious +consideration, I am much more inclined than I was to judge as +your eldest sister does on the matter. It appears to me so very +unlikely that any young man should form such a design against +a girl who is by no means unprotected or friendless, and who +was actually staying in his colonel's family, that I am strongly +inclined to hope the best. Could he expect that her friends +would not step forward? Could he expect to be noticed again +by the regiment, after such an affront to Colonel Forster? His +temptation is not adequate to the risk!" + +"Do you really think so?" cried Elizabeth, brightening up for a +moment. + +"Upon my word," said Mrs. Gardiner, "I begin to be of your +uncle's opinion. It is really too great a violation of decency, +honour, and interest, for him to be guilty of. I cannot think +so very ill of Wickham. Can you yourself, Lizzy, so wholly give +him up, as to believe him capable of it?" + +"Not, perhaps, of neglecting his own interest; but of every other +neglect I can believe him capable. If, indeed, it should be so! +But I dare not hope it. Why should they not go on to Scotland +if that had been the case?" + +"In the first place," replied Mr. Gardiner, "there is no absolute +proof that they are not gone to Scotland." + +"Oh! but their removing from the chaise into a hackney coach is +such a presumption! And, besides, no traces of them were to be +found on the Barnet road." + +"Well, then--supposing them to be in London. They may be there, +though for the purpose of concealment, for no more exceptional +purpose. It is not likely that money should be very abundant on +either side; and it might strike them that they could be more +economically, though less expeditiously, married in London +than in Scotland." + +"But why all this secrecy? Why any fear of detection? Why must +their marriage be private? Oh, no, no--this is not likely. +His most particular friend, you see by Jane's account, was +persuaded of his never intending to marry her. Wickham will +never marry a woman without some money. He cannot afford +it. And what claims has Lydia--what attraction has she beyond +youth, health, and good humour that could make him, for her +sake, forego every chance of benefiting himself by marrying +well? As to what restraint the apprehensions of disgrace in the +corps might throw on a dishonourable elopement with her, I am +not able to judge; for I know nothing of the effects that such a +step might produce. But as to your other objection, I am afraid +it will hardly hold good. Lydia has no brothers to step forward; +and he might imagine, from my father's behaviour, from his +indolence and the little attention he has ever seemed to give +to what was going forward in his family, that _he_ would do as +little, and think as little about it, as any father could do, +in such a matter." + +"But can you think that Lydia is so lost to everything but love +of him as to consent to live with him on any terms other than +marriage?" + +"It does seem, and it is most shocking indeed," replied Elizabeth, +with tears in her eyes, "that a sister's sense of decency and +virtue in such a point should admit of doubt. But, really, +I know not what to say. Perhaps I am not doing her justice. +But she is very young; she has never been taught to think +on serious subjects; and for the last half-year, nay, for a +twelvemonth--she has been given up to nothing but amusement +and vanity. She has been allowed to dispose of her time in the +most idle and frivolous manner, and to adopt any opinions that +came in her way. Since the ----shire were first quartered in +Meryton, nothing but love, flirtation, and officers have been +in her head. She has been doing everything in her power by +thinking and talking on the subject, to give greater--what shall +I call it? susceptibility to her feelings; which are naturally +lively enough. And we all know that Wickham has every charm of +person and address that can captivate a woman." + +"But you see that Jane," said her aunt, "does not think so very +ill of Wickham as to believe him capable of the attempt." + +"Of whom does Jane ever think ill? And who is there, whatever +might be their former conduct, that she would think capable of +such an attempt, till it were proved against them? But Jane +knows, as well as I do, what Wickham really is. We both know +that he has been profligate in every sense of the word; that he +has neither integrity nor honour; that he is as false and +deceitful as he is insinuating." + +"And do you really know all this?" cried Mrs. Gardiner, whose +curiosity as to the mode of her intelligence was all alive. + +"I do indeed," replied Elizabeth, colouring. "I told you, the +other day, of his infamous behaviour to Mr. Darcy; and you +yourself, when last at Longbourn, heard in what manner he +spoke of the man who had behaved with such forbearance and +liberality towards him. And there are other circumstances which +I am not at liberty--which it is not worth while to relate; but +his lies about the whole Pemberley family are endless. From what +he said of Miss Darcy I was thoroughly prepared to see a proud, +reserved, disagreeable girl. Yet he knew to the contrary himself. +He must know that she was as amiable and unpretending as we +have found her." + +"But does Lydia know nothing of this? can she be ignorant of +what you and Jane seem so well to understand?" + +"Oh, yes!--that, that is the worst of all. Till I was in Kent, +and saw so much both of Mr. Darcy and his relation Colonel +Fitzwilliam, I was ignorant of the truth myself. And when I +returned home, the ----shire was to leave Meryton in a week or +fortnight's time. As that was the case, neither Jane, to whom +I related the whole, nor I, thought it necessary to make our +knowledge public; for of what use could it apparently be to any +one, that the good opinion which all the neighbourhood had of +him should then be overthrown? And even when it was settled +that Lydia should go with Mrs. Forster, the necessity of opening +her eyes to his character never occurred to me. That _she_ could +be in any danger from the deception never entered my head. +That such a consequence as _this_ could ensue, you may easily +believe, was far enough from my thoughts." + +"When they all removed to Brighton, therefore, you had no +reason, I suppose, to believe them fond of each other?" + +"Not the slightest. I can remember no symptom of affection on +either side; and had anything of the kind been perceptible, you +must be aware that ours is not a family on which it could be +thrown away. When first he entered the corps, she was ready +enough to admire him; but so we all were. Every girl in or +near Meryton was out of her senses about him for the first +two months; but he never distinguished _her_ by any particular +attention; and, consequently, after a moderate period of +extravagant and wild admiration, her fancy for him gave +way, and others of the regiment, who treated her with more +distinction, again became her favourites." + + * * * * * + +It may be easily believed, that however little of novelty could be +added to their fears, hopes, and conjectures, on this interesting +subject, by its repeated discussion, no other could detain them +from it long, during the whole of the journey. From Elizabeth's +thoughts it was never absent. Fixed there by the keenest of all +anguish, self-reproach, she could find no interval of ease or +forgetfulness. + +They travelled as expeditiously as possible, and, sleeping one +night on the road, reached Longbourn by dinner time the next +day. It was a comfort to Elizabeth to consider that Jane could +not have been wearied by long expectations. + +The little Gardiners, attracted by the sight of a chaise, were +standing on the steps of the house as they entered the paddock; +and, when the carriage drove up to the door, the joyful surprise +that lighted up their faces, and displayed itself over their whole +bodies, in a variety of capers and frisks, was the first pleasing +earnest of their welcome. + +Elizabeth jumped out; and, after giving each of them a hasty +kiss, hurried into the vestibule, where Jane, who came running +down from her mother's apartment, immediately met her. + +Elizabeth, as she affectionately embraced her, whilst tears filled +the eyes of both, lost not a moment in asking whether anything +had been heard of the fugitives. + +"Not yet," replied Jane. "But now that my dear uncle is come, +I hope everything will be well." + +"Is my father in town?" + +"Yes, he went on Tuesday, as I wrote you word." + +"And have you heard from him often?" + +"We have heard only twice. He wrote me a few lines on +Wednesday to say that he had arrived in safety, and to give me +his directions, which I particularly begged him to do. He merely +added that he should not write again till he had something of +importance to mention." + +"And my mother--how is she? How are you all?" + +"My mother is tolerably well, I trust; though her spirits are +greatly shaken. She is upstairs and will have great satisfaction +in seeing you all. She does not yet leave her dressing-room. +Mary and Kitty, thank Heaven, are quite well." + +"But you--how are you?" cried Elizabeth. "You look pale. +How much you must have gone through!" + +Her sister, however, assured her of her being perfectly well; +and their conversation, which had been passing while Mr. and +Mrs. Gardiner were engaged with their children, was now put an +end to by the approach of the whole party. Jane ran to her uncle +and aunt, and welcomed and thanked them both, with alternate +smiles and tears. + +When they were all in the drawing-room, the questions which +Elizabeth had already asked were of course repeated by the +others, and they soon found that Jane had no intelligence +to give. The sanguine hope of good, however, which the +benevolence of her heart suggested had not yet deserted her; +she still expected that it would all end well, and that every +morning would bring some letter, either from Lydia or her +father, to explain their proceedings, and, perhaps, announce +their marriage. + +Mrs. Bennet, to whose apartment they all repaired, after a few +minutes' conversation together, received them exactly as might +be expected; with tears and lamentations of regret, invectives +against the villainous conduct of Wickham, and complaints of +her own sufferings and ill-usage; blaming everybody but the +person to whose ill-judging indulgence the errors of her +daughter must principally be owing. + +"If I had been able," said she, "to carry my point in going to +Brighton, with all my family, _this_ would not have happened; +but poor dear Lydia had nobody to take care of her. Why did +the Forsters ever let her go out of their sight? I am sure there +was some great neglect or other on their side, for she is not the +kind of girl to do such a thing if she had been well looked after. +I always thought they were very unfit to have the charge of her; +but I was overruled, as I always am. Poor dear child! And +now here's Mr. Bennet gone away, and I know he will fight +Wickham, wherever he meets him and then he will be killed, and +what is to become of us all? The Collinses will turn us out +before he is cold in his grave, and if you are not kind to us, +brother, I do not know what we shall do." + +They all exclaimed against such terrific ideas; and Mr. Gardiner, +after general assurances of his affection for her and all her +family, told her that he meant to be in London the very next day, +and would assist Mr. Bennet in every endeavour for recovering +Lydia. + +"Do not give way to useless alarm," added he; "though it is +right to be prepared for the worst, there is no occasion to look +on it as certain. It is not quite a week since they left Brighton. +In a few days more we may gain some news of them; and till we +know that they are not married, and have no design of marrying, +do not let us give the matter over as lost. As soon as I get to +town I shall go to my brother, and make him come home with +me to Gracechurch Street; and then we may consult together as +to what is to be done." + +"Oh! my dear brother," replied Mrs. Bennet, "that is exactly +what I could most wish for. And now do, when you get to +town, find them out, wherever they may be; and if they are +not married already, _make_ them marry. And as for wedding +clothes, do not let them wait for that, but tell Lydia she +shall have as much money as she chooses to buy them, after they +are married. And, above all, keep Mr. Bennet from fighting. +Tell him what a dreadful state I am in, that I am frighted out +of my wits--and have such tremblings, such flutterings, all +over me--such spasms in my side and pains in my head, and +such beatings at heart, that I can get no rest by night nor by +day. And tell my dear Lydia not to give any directions about +her clothes till she has seen me, for she does not know which +are the best warehouses. Oh, brother, how kind you are! I +know you will contrive it all." + +But Mr. Gardiner, though he assured her again of his earnest +endeavours in the cause, could not avoid recommending moderation +to her, as well in her hopes as her fear; and after talking with +her in this manner till dinner was on the table, they all left +her to vent all her feelings on the housekeeper, who attended +in the absence of her daughters. + +Though her brother and sister were persuaded that there was no +real occasion for such a seclusion from the family, they did not +attempt to oppose it, for they knew that she had not prudence +enough to hold her tongue before the servants, while they +waited at table, and judged it better that _one_ only of the +household, and the one whom they could most trust should +comprehend all her fears and solicitude on the subject. + +In the dining-room they were soon joined by Mary and Kitty, +who had been too busily engaged in their separate apartments +to make their appearance before. One came from her books, +and the other from her toilette. The faces of both, however, +were tolerably calm; and no change was visible in either, except +that the loss of her favourite sister, or the anger which she had +herself incurred in this business, had given more of fretfulness +than usual to the accents of Kitty. As for Mary, she was +mistress enough of herself to whisper to Elizabeth, with a +countenance of grave reflection, soon after they were seated +at table: + +"This is a most unfortunate affair, and will probably be much +talked of. But we must stem the tide of malice, and pour into +the wounded bosoms of each other the balm of sisterly consolation." + +Then, perceiving in Elizabeth no inclination of replying, she +added, "Unhappy as the event must be for Lydia, we may draw +from it this useful lesson: that loss of virtue in a female is +irretrievable; that one false step involves her in endless ruin; +that her reputation is no less brittle than it is beautiful; and +that she cannot be too much guarded in her behaviour towards the +undeserving of the other sex." + +Elizabeth lifted up her eyes in amazement, but was too much +oppressed to make any reply. Mary, however, continued to +console herself with such kind of moral extractions from the +evil before them. + +In the afternoon, the two elder Miss Bennets were able to be +for half-an-hour by themselves; and Elizabeth instantly availed +herself of the opportunity of making any inquiries, which Jane +was equally eager to satisfy. After joining in general +lamentations over the dreadful sequel of this event, which +Elizabeth considered as all but certain, and Miss Bennet could +not assert to be wholly impossible, the former continued the +subject, by saying, "But tell me all and everything about it +which I have not already heard. Give me further particulars. +What did Colonel Forster say? Had they no apprehension of +anything before the elopement took place? They must have seen +them together for ever." + +"Colonel Forster did own that he had often suspected some +partiality, especially on Lydia's side, but nothing to give him any +alarm. I am so grieved for him! His behaviour was attentive and +kind to the utmost. He _was_ coming to us, in order to assure us +of his concern, before he had any idea of their not being gone to +Scotland: when that apprehension first got abroad, it hastened +his journey." + +"And was Denny convinced that Wickham would not marry? Did +he know of their intending to go off? Had Colonel Forster +seen Denny himself?" + +"Yes; but, when questioned by _him_, Denny denied knowing +anything of their plans, and would not give his real opinion +about it. He did not repeat his persuasion of their not +marrying--and from _that_, I am inclined to hope, he might +have been misunderstood before." + +"And till Colonel Forster came himself, not one of you +entertained a doubt, I suppose, of their being really married?" + +"How was it possible that such an idea should enter our brains? +I felt a little uneasy--a little fearful of my sister's happiness +with him in marriage, because I knew that his conduct had not been +always quite right. My father and mother knew nothing of that; +they only felt how imprudent a match it must be. Kitty then +owned, with a very natural triumph on knowing more than the +rest of us, that in Lydia's last letter she had prepared her for +such a step. She had known, it seems, of their being in love with +each other, many weeks." + +"But not before they went to Brighton?" + +"No, I believe not." + +"And did Colonel Forster appear to think well of Wickham +himself? Does he know his real character?" + +"I must confess that he did not speak so well of Wickham as he +formerly did. He believed him to be imprudent and extravagant. +And since this sad affair has taken place, it is said that he +left Meryton greatly in debt; but I hope this may be false." + +"Oh, Jane, had we been less secret, had we told what we knew +of him, this could not have happened!" + +"Perhaps it would have been better," replied her sister. "But to +expose the former faults of any person without knowing what +their present feelings were, seemed unjustifiable. We acted with +the best intentions." + +"Could Colonel Forster repeat the particulars of Lydia's note to +his wife?" + +"He brought it with him for us to see." + +Jane then took it from her pocket-book, and gave it to Elizabeth. +These were the contents: + +"MY DEAR HARRIET, + +"You will laugh when you know where I am gone, and I cannot +help laughing myself at your surprise to-morrow morning, as +soon as I am missed. I am going to Gretna Green, and if you +cannot guess with who, I shall think you a simpleton, for there +is but one man in the world I love, and he is an angel. I should +never be happy without him, so think it no harm to be off. You +need not send them word at Longbourn of my going, if you do +not like it, for it will make the surprise the greater, when I +write to them and sign my name 'Lydia Wickham.' What a good +joke it will be! I can hardly write for laughing. Pray make +my excuses to Pratt for not keeping my engagement, and dancing +with him to-night. Tell him I hope he will excuse me when he +knows all; and tell him I will dance with him at the next ball +we meet, with great pleasure. I shall send for my clothes when +I get to Longbourn; but I wish you would tell Sally to mend a +great slit in my worked muslin gown before they are packed up. +Good-bye. Give my love to Colonel Forster. I hope you will +drink to our good journey. + +"Your affectionate friend, + +"LYDIA BENNET." + +"Oh! thoughtless, thoughtless Lydia!" cried Elizabeth when she +had finished it. "What a letter is this, to be written at such +a moment! But at least it shows that _she_ was serious on the +subject of their journey. Whatever he might afterwards +persuade her to, it was not on her side a _scheme_ of infamy. +My poor father! how he must have felt it!" + +"I never saw anyone so shocked. He could not speak a word +for full ten minutes. My mother was taken ill immediately, +and the whole house in such confusion!" + +"Oh! Jane," cried Elizabeth, "was there a servant belonging to it +who did not know the whole story before the end of the day?" + +"I do not know. I hope there was. But to be guarded at such a +time is very difficult. My mother was in hysterics, and though +I endeavoured to give her every assistance in my power, I am +afraid I did not do so much as I might have done! But the +horror of what might possibly happen almost took from me +my faculties." + +"Your attendance upon her has been too much for you. You do +not look well. Oh that I had been with you! you have had +every care and anxiety upon yourself alone." + +"Mary and Kitty have been very kind, and would have shared in +every fatigue, I am sure; but I did not think it right for either +of them. Kitty is slight and delicate; and Mary studies so much, +that her hours of repose should not be broken in on. My aunt +Phillips came to Longbourn on Tuesday, after my father went +away; and was so good as to stay till Thursday with me. She +was of great use and comfort to us all. And Lady Lucas has +been very kind; she walked here on Wednesday morning to +condole with us, and offered her services, or any of her +daughters', if they should be of use to us." + +"She had better have stayed at home," cried Elizabeth; "perhaps +she _meant_ well, but, under such a misfortune as this, one +cannot see too little of one's neighbours. Assistance is +impossible; condolence insufferable. Let them triumph over us +at a distance, and be satisfied." + +She then proceeded to inquire into the measures which her +father had intended to pursue, while in town, for the recovery +of his daughter. + +"He meant I believe," replied Jane, "to go to Epsom, the place +where they last changed horses, see the postilions and try if +anything could be made out from them. His principal object +must be to discover the number of the hackney coach which +took them from Clapham. It had come with a fare from London; +and as he thought that the circumstance of a gentleman and lady's +removing from one carriage into another might be remarked he +meant to make inquiries at Clapham. If he could anyhow discover +at what house the coachman had before set down his fare, he +determined to make inquiries there, and hoped it might not be +impossible to find out the stand and number of the coach. I do +not know of any other designs that he had formed; but he was in +such a hurry to be gone, and his spirits so greatly discomposed, +that I had difficulty in finding out even so much as this." + + + +Chapter 48 + + +The whole party were in hopes of a letter from Mr. Bennet the +next morning, but the post came in without bringing a single line +from him. His family knew him to be, on all common occasions, +a most negligent and dilatory correspondent; but at such a time +they had hoped for exertion. They were forced to conclude that +he had no pleasing intelligence to send; but even of _that_ they +would have been glad to be certain. Mr. Gardiner had waited +only for the letters before he set off. + +When he was gone, they were certain at least of receiving +constant information of what was going on, and their uncle +promised, at parting, to prevail on Mr. Bennet to return to +Longbourn, as soon as he could, to the great consolation of his +sister, who considered it as the only security for her husband's +not being killed in a duel. + +Mrs. Gardiner and the children were to remain in Hertfordshire +a few days longer, as the former thought her presence might be +serviceable to her nieces. She shared in their attendance on +Mrs. Bennet, and was a great comfort to them in their hours of +freedom. Their other aunt also visited them frequently, and +always, as she said, with the design of cheering and heartening +them up--though, as she never came without reporting some +fresh instance of Wickham's extravagance or irregularity, she +seldom went away without leaving them more dispirited than +she found them. + +All Meryton seemed striving to blacken the man who, but three +months before, had been almost an angel of light. He was +declared to be in debt to every tradesman in the place, and his +intrigues, all honoured with the title of seduction, had been +extended into every tradesman's family. Everybody declared +that he was the wickedest young man in the world; and everybody +began to find out that they had always distrusted the appearance +of his goodness. Elizabeth, though she did not credit above +half of what was said, believed enough to make her former +assurance of her sister's ruin more certain; and even Jane, +who believed still less of it, became almost hopeless, more +especially as the time was now come when, if they had gone to +Scotland, which she had never before entirely despaired of, +they must in all probability have gained some news of them. + +Mr. Gardiner left Longbourn on Sunday; on Tuesday his wife +received a letter from him; it told them that, on his arrival, +he had immediately found out his brother, and persuaded him to +come to Gracechurch Street; that Mr. Bennet had been to +Epsom and Clapham, before his arrival, but without gaining +any satisfactory information; and that he was now determined +to inquire at all the principal hotels in town, as Mr. Bennet +thought it possible they might have gone to one of them, on +their first coming to London, before they procured lodgings. +Mr. Gardiner himself did not expect any success from this +measure, but as his brother was eager in it, he meant to assist +him in pursuing it. He added that Mr. Bennet seemed wholly +disinclined at present to leave London and promised to write +again very soon. There was also a postscript to this effect: + +"I have written to Colonel Forster to desire him to find out, +if possible, from some of the young man's intimates in the +regiment, whether Wickham has any relations or connections +who would be likely to know in what part of town he has now +concealed himself. If there were anyone that one could apply +to with a probability of gaining such a clue as that, it might be +of essential consequence. At present we have nothing to guide +us. Colonel Forster will, I dare say, do everything in his power +to satisfy us on this head. But, on second thoughts, perhaps, +Lizzy could tell us what relations he has now living, better than +any other person." + +Elizabeth was at no loss to understand from whence this +deference to her authority proceeded; but it was not in her +power to give any information of so satisfactory a nature as the +compliment deserved. She had never heard of his having had +any relations, except a father and mother, both of whom had +been dead many years. It was possible, however, that some of +his companions in the ----shire might be able to give more +information; and though she was not very sanguine in expecting +it, the application was a something to look forward to. + +Every day at Longbourn was now a day of anxiety; but the most +anxious part of each was when the post was expected. The +arrival of letters was the grand object of every morning's +impatience. Through letters, whatever of good or bad was to +be told would be communicated, and every succeeding day was +expected to bring some news of importance. + +But before they heard again from Mr. Gardiner, a letter arrived +for their father, from a different quarter, from Mr. Collins; +which, as Jane had received directions to open all that came for +him in his absence, she accordingly read; and Elizabeth, who +knew what curiosities his letters always were, looked over her, +and read it likewise. It was as follows: + +"MY DEAR SIR, + +"I feel myself called upon, by our relationship, and my situation +in life, to condole with you on the grievous affliction you are now +suffering under, of which we were yesterday informed by a letter +from Hertfordshire. Be assured, my dear sir, that Mrs. Collins +and myself sincerely sympathise with you and all your respectable +family, in your present distress, which must be of the bitterest +kind, because proceeding from a cause which no time can remove. +No arguments shall be wanting on my part that can alleviate so +severe a misfortune--or that may comfort you, under a circumstance +that must be of all others the most afflicting to a parent's mind. +The death of your daughter would have been a blessing in comparison +of this. And it is the more to be lamented, because there is +reason to suppose as my dear Charlotte informs me, that this +licentiousness of behaviour in your daughter has proceeded from +a faulty degree of indulgence; though, at the same time, for the +consolation of yourself and Mrs. Bennet, I am inclined to think +that her own disposition must be naturally bad, or she could not +be guilty of such an enormity, at so early an age. Howsoever that +may be, you are grievously to be pitied; in which opinion I am not +only joined by Mrs. Collins, but likewise by Lady Catherine and +her daughter, to whom I have related the affair. They agree with +me in apprehending that this false step in one daughter will be +injurious to the fortunes of all the others; for who, as Lady +Catherine herself condescendingly says, will connect themselves +with such a family? And this consideration leads me moreover +to reflect, with augmented satisfaction, on a certain event +of last November; for had it been otherwise, I must have been +involved in all your sorrow and disgrace. Let me then advise you, +dear sir, to console yourself as much as possible, to throw off +your unworthy child from your affection for ever, and leave her +to reap the fruits of her own heinous offense. + +"I am, dear sir, etc., etc." + +Mr. Gardiner did not write again till he had received an answer +from Colonel Forster; and then he had nothing of a pleasant +nature to send. It was not known that Wickham had a single +relationship with whom he kept up any connection, and it +was certain that he had no near one living. His former +acquaintances had been numerous; but since he had been in the +militia, it did not appear that he was on terms of particular +friendship with any of them. There was no one, therefore, who +could be pointed out as likely to give any news of him. And +in the wretched state of his own finances, there was a very +powerful motive for secrecy, in addition to his fear of discovery +by Lydia's relations, for it had just transpired that he had +left gaming debts behind him to a very considerable amount. +Colonel Forster believed that more than a thousand pounds +would be necessary to clear his expenses at Brighton. He owed +a good deal in town, but his debts of honour were still more +formidable. Mr. Gardiner did not attempt to conceal these +particulars from the Longbourn family. Jane heard them with +horror. "A gamester!" she cried. "This is wholly unexpected. +I had not an idea of it." + +Mr. Gardiner added in his letter, that they might expect to see +their father at home on the following day, which was Saturday. +Rendered spiritless by the ill-success of all their endeavours, he +had yielded to his brother-in-law's entreaty that he would return +to his family, and leave it to him to do whatever occasion might +suggest to be advisable for continuing their pursuit. When Mrs. +Bennet was told of this, she did not express so much satisfaction +as her children expected, considering what her anxiety for his +life had been before. + +"What, is he coming home, and without poor Lydia?" she cried. +"Sure he will not leave London before he has found them. Who +is to fight Wickham, and make him marry her, if he comes away?" + +As Mrs. Gardiner began to wish to be at home, it was settled +that she and the children should go to London, at the same time +that Mr. Bennet came from it. The coach, therefore, took them +the first stage of their journey, and brought its master back +to Longbourn. + +Mrs. Gardiner went away in all the perplexity about Elizabeth +and her Derbyshire friend that had attended her from that part +of the world. His name had never been voluntarily mentioned +before them by her niece; and the kind of half-expectation which +Mrs. Gardiner had formed, of their being followed by a letter +from him, had ended in nothing. Elizabeth had received none +since her return that could come from Pemberley. + +The present unhappy state of the family rendered any other +excuse for the lowness of her spirits unnecessary; nothing, +therefore, could be fairly conjectured from _that_, though +Elizabeth, who was by this time tolerably well acquainted with +her own feelings, was perfectly aware that, had she known +nothing of Darcy, she could have borne the dread of Lydia's +infamy somewhat better. It would have spared her, she thought, +one sleepless night out of two. + +When Mr. Bennet arrived, he had all the appearance of his usual +philosophic composure. He said as little as he had ever been in +the habit of saying; made no mention of the business that had +taken him away, and it was some time before his daughters had +courage to speak of it. + +It was not till the afternoon, when he had joined them at tea, +that Elizabeth ventured to introduce the subject; and then, on +her briefly expressing her sorrow for what he must have +endured, he replied, "Say nothing of that. Who should suffer +but myself? It has been my own doing, and I ought to feel it." + +"You must not be too severe upon yourself," replied Elizabeth. + +"You may well warn me against such an evil. Human nature is +so prone to fall into it! No, Lizzy, let me once in my life +feel how much I have been to blame. I am not afraid of being +overpowered by the impression. It will pass away soon enough." + +"Do you suppose them to be in London?" + +"Yes; where else can they be so well concealed?" + +"And Lydia used to want to go to London," added Kitty. + +"She is happy then," said her father drily; "and her residence +there will probably be of some duration." + +Then after a short silence he continued: + +"Lizzy, I bear you no ill-will for being justified in your advice +to me last May, which, considering the event, shows some +greatness of mind." + +They were interrupted by Miss Bennet, who came to fetch her +mother's tea. + +"This is a parade," he cried, "which does one good; it gives such +an elegance to misfortune! Another day I will do the same; I +will sit in my library, in my nightcap and powdering gown, and +give as much trouble as I can; or, perhaps, I may defer it till +Kitty runs away." + +"I am not going to run away, papa," said Kitty fretfully. "If I +should ever go to Brighton, I would behave better than Lydia." + +"_You_ go to Brighton. I would not trust you so near it as +Eastbourne for fifty pounds! No, Kitty, I have at last learnt to +be cautious, and you will feel the effects of it. No officer is ever +to enter into my house again, nor even to pass through the +village. Balls will be absolutely prohibited, unless you stand up +with one of your sisters. And you are never to stir out of doors +till you can prove that you have spent ten minutes of every day +in a rational manner." + +Kitty, who took all these threats in a serious light, began to cry. + +"Well, well," said he, "do not make yourself unhappy. If you +are a good girl for the next ten years, I will take you to a review +at the end of them." + + + +Chapter 49 + + +Two days after Mr. Bennet's return, as Jane and Elizabeth were +walking together in the shrubbery behind the house, they saw +the housekeeper coming towards them, and, concluding that she +came to call them to their mother, went forward to meet her; +but, instead of the expected summons, when they approached +her, she said to Miss Bennet, "I beg your pardon, madam, for +interrupting you, but I was in hopes you might have got some +good news from town, so I took the liberty of coming to ask." + +"What do you mean, Hill? We have heard nothing from town." + +"Dear madam," cried Mrs. Hill, in great astonishment, "don't +you know there is an express come for master from Mr. Gardiner? +He has been here this half-hour, and master has had a letter." + +Away ran the girls, too eager to get in to have time for speech. +They ran through the vestibule into the breakfast-room; from +thence to the library; their father was in neither; and they +were on the point of seeking him upstairs with their mother, +when they were met by the butler, who said: + +"If you are looking for my master, ma'am, he is walking +towards the little copse." + +Upon this information, they instantly passed through the hall +once more, and ran across the lawn after their father, who was +deliberately pursuing his way towards a small wood on one side +of the paddock. + +Jane, who was not so light nor so much in the habit of running +as Elizabeth, soon lagged behind, while her sister, panting for +breath, came up with him, and eagerly cried out: + +"Oh, papa, what news--what news? Have you heard from my +uncle?" + +"Yes I have had a letter from him by express." + +"Well, and what news does it bring--good or bad?" + +"What is there of good to be expected?" said he, taking the +letter from his pocket. "But perhaps you would like to read it." + +Elizabeth impatiently caught it from his hand. Jane now came up. + +"Read it aloud," said their father, "for I hardly know myself what +it is about." + +"Gracechurch Street, Monday, +August 2. + +"MY DEAR BROTHER, + +"At last I am able to send you some tidings of my niece, and +such as, upon the whole, I hope it will give you satisfaction. +Soon after you left me on Saturday, I was fortunate enough to +find out in what part of London they were. The particulars I +reserve till we meet; it is enough to know they are discovered. +I have seen them both--" + +"Then it is as I always hoped," cried Jane; "they are married!" + +Elizabeth read on: + +"I have seen them both. They are not married, nor can I find +there was any intention of being so; but if you are willing to +perform the engagements which I have ventured to make on your +side, I hope it will not be long before they are. All that is +required of you is, to assure to your daughter, by settlement, +her equal share of the five thousand pounds secured among your +children after the decease of yourself and my sister; and, +moreover, to enter into an engagement of allowing her, during +your life, one hundred pounds per annum. These are conditions +which, considering everything, I had no hesitation in complying +with, as far as I thought myself privileged, for you. I shall +send this by express, that no time may be lost in bringing me +your answer. You will easily comprehend, from these particulars, +that Mr. Wickham's circumstances are not so hopeless as they +are generally believed to be. The world has been deceived in +that respect; and I am happy to say there will be some little +money, even when all his debts are discharged, to settle on my +niece, in addition to her own fortune. If, as I conclude will +be the case, you send me full powers to act in your name +throughout the whole of this business, I will immediately give +directions to Haggerston for preparing a proper settlement. +There will not be the smallest occasion for your coming to town +again; therefore stay quiet at Longbourn, and depend on my +diligence and care. Send back your answer as fast as you can, +and be careful to write explicitly. We have judged it best that +my niece should be married from this house, of which I hope +you will approve. She comes to us to-day. I shall write again +as soon as anything more is determined on. Yours, etc., + +"EDW. GARDINER." + +"Is it possible?" cried Elizabeth, when she had finished. "Can it +be possible that he will marry her?" + +"Wickham is not so undeserving, then, as we thought him," said +her sister. "My dear father, I congratulate you." + +"And have you answered the letter?" cried Elizabeth. + +"No; but it must be done soon." + +Most earnestly did she then entreaty him to lose no more time +before he wrote. + +"Oh! my dear father," she cried, "come back and write immediately. +Consider how important every moment is in such a case." + +"Let me write for you," said Jane, "if you dislike the trouble +yourself." + +"I dislike it very much," he replied; "but it must be done." + +And so saying, he turned back with them, and walked towards +the house. + +"And may I ask--" said Elizabeth; "but the terms, I suppose, +must be complied with." + +"Complied with! I am only ashamed of his asking so little." + +"And they _must_ marry! Yet he is _such_ a man!" + +"Yes, yes, they must marry. There is nothing else to be done. +But there are two things that I want very much to know; one is, +how much money your uncle has laid down to bring it about; +and the other, how am I ever to pay him." + +"Money! My uncle!" cried Jane, "what do you mean, sir?" + +"I mean, that no man in his senses would marry Lydia on so +slight a temptation as one hundred a year during my life, and +fifty after I am gone." + +"That is very true," said Elizabeth; "though it had not occurred +to me before. His debts to be discharged, and something still +to remain! Oh! it must be my uncle's doings! Generous, good +man, I am afraid he has distressed himself. A small sum could +not do all this." + +"No," said her father; "Wickham's a fool if he takes her with a +farthing less than ten thousand pounds. I should be sorry to +think so ill of him, in the very beginning of our relationship." + +"Ten thousand pounds! Heaven forbid! How is half such a +sum to be repaid?" + +Mr. Bennet made no answer, and each of them, deep in thought, +continued silent till they reached the house. Their father then +went on to the library to write, and the girls walked into the +breakfast-room. + +"And they are really to be married!" cried Elizabeth, as soon +as they were by themselves. "How strange this is! And for +_this_ we are to be thankful. That they should marry, small as +is their chance of happiness, and wretched as is his character, +we are forced to rejoice. Oh, Lydia!" + +"I comfort myself with thinking," replied Jane, "that he certainly +would not marry Lydia if he had not a real regard for her. +Though our kind uncle has done something towards clearing +him, I cannot believe that ten thousand pounds, or anything like +it, has been advanced. He has children of his own, and may +have more. How could he spare half ten thousand pounds?" + +"If he were ever able to learn what Wickham's debts have been," +said Elizabeth, "and how much is settled on his side on our +sister, we shall exactly know what Mr. Gardiner has done for +them, because Wickham has not sixpence of his own. The +kindness of my uncle and aunt can never be requited. Their +taking her home, and affording her their personal protection +and countenance, is such a sacrifice to her advantage as years +of gratitude cannot enough acknowledge. By this time she +is actually with them! If such goodness does not make her +miserable now, she will never deserve to be happy! What a +meeting for her, when she first sees my aunt!" + +"We must endeavour to forget all that has passed on either side," +said Jane: "I hope and trust they will yet be happy. His +consenting to marry her is a proof, I will believe, that he is +come to a right way of thinking. Their mutual affection will +steady them; and I flatter myself they will settle so quietly, +and live in so rational a manner, as may in time make their +past imprudence forgotten." + +"Their conduct has been such," replied Elizabeth, "as neither +you, nor I, nor anybody can ever forget. It is useless to talk +of it." + +It now occurred to the girls that their mother was in all +likelihood perfectly ignorant of what had happened. They went +to the library, therefore, and asked their father whether he +would not wish them to make it known to her. He was writing +and, without raising his head, coolly replied: + +"Just as you please." + +"May we take my uncle's letter to read to her?" + +"Take whatever you like, and get away." + +Elizabeth took the letter from his writing-table, and they went +upstairs together. Mary and Kitty were both with Mrs. Bennet: +one communication would, therefore, do for all. After a slight +preparation for good news, the letter was read aloud. Mrs. +Bennet could hardly contain herself. As soon as Jane had read +Mr. Gardiner's hope of Lydia's being soon married, her joy +burst forth, and every following sentence added to its +exuberance. She was now in an irritation as violent from +delight, as she had ever been fidgety from alarm and vexation. +To know that her daughter would be married was enough. She +was disturbed by no fear for her felicity, nor humbled by any +remembrance of her misconduct. + +"My dear, dear Lydia!" she cried. "This is delightful indeed! +She will be married! I shall see her again! She will be married +at sixteen! My good, kind brother! I knew how it would be. I +knew he would manage everything! How I long to see her! and +to see dear Wickham too! But the clothes, the wedding clothes! +I will write to my sister Gardiner about them directly. Lizzy, +my dear, run down to your father, and ask him how much he will +give her. Stay, stay, I will go myself. Ring the bell, Kitty, for +Hill. I will put on my things in a moment. My dear, dear Lydia! +How merry we shall be together when we meet!" + +Her eldest daughter endeavoured to give some relief to the +violence of these transports, by leading her thoughts to the +obligations which Mr. Gardiner's behaviour laid them all under. + +"For we must attribute this happy conclusion," she added, "in a +great measure to his kindness. We are persuaded that he has +pledged himself to assist Mr. Wickham with money." + +"Well," cried her mother, "it is all very right; who should do it +but her own uncle? If he had not had a family of his own, I and +my children must have had all his money, you know; and it is the +first time we have ever had anything from him, except a few +presents. Well! I am so happy! In a short time I shall have +a daughter married. Mrs. Wickham! How well it sounds! And +she was only sixteen last June. My dear Jane, I am in such a +flutter, that I am sure I can't write; so I will dictate, and you +write for me. We will settle with your father about the money +afterwards; but the things should be ordered immediately." + +She was then proceeding to all the particulars of calico, +muslin, and cambric, and would shortly have dictated some very +plentiful orders, had not Jane, though with some difficulty, +persuaded her to wait till her father was at leisure to be +consulted. One day's delay, she observed, would be of small +importance; and her mother was too happy to be quite so +obstinate as usual. Other schemes, too, came into her head. + +"I will go to Meryton," said she, "as soon as I am dressed, and +tell the good, good news to my sister Philips. And as I come +back, I can call on Lady Lucas and Mrs. Long. Kitty, run down +and order the carriage. An airing would do me a great deal of +good, I am sure. Girls, can I do anything for you in Meryton? +Oh! Here comes Hill! My dear Hill, have you heard the good +news? Miss Lydia is going to be married; and you shall all have +a bowl of punch to make merry at her wedding." + +Mrs. Hill began instantly to express her joy. Elizabeth received +her congratulations amongst the rest, and then, sick of this folly, +took refuge in her own room, that she might think with freedom. + +Poor Lydia's situation must, at best, be bad enough; but that +it was no worse, she had need to be thankful. She felt it so; +and though, in looking forward, neither rational happiness nor +worldly prosperity could be justly expected for her sister, in +looking back to what they had feared, only two hours ago, she +felt all the advantages of what they had gained. + + + +Chapter 50 + + +Mr. Bennet had very often wished before this period of his life +that, instead of spending his whole income, he had laid by an +annual sum for the better provision of his children, and of his +wife, if she survived him. He now wished it more than ever. +Had he done his duty in that respect, Lydia need not have been +indebted to her uncle for whatever of honour or credit could +now be purchased for her. The satisfaction of prevailing on +one of the most worthless young men in Great Britain to be her +husband might then have rested in its proper place. + +He was seriously concerned that a cause of so little advantage +to anyone should be forwarded at the sole expense of his +brother-in-law, and he was determined, if possible, to find out +the extent of his assistance, and to discharge the obligation +as soon as he could. + +When first Mr. Bennet had married, economy was held to be +perfectly useless, for, of course, they were to have a son. The +son was to join in cutting off the entail, as soon as he should +be of age, and the widow and younger children would by that +means be provided for. Five daughters successively entered the +world, but yet the son was to come; and Mrs. Bennet, for many +years after Lydia's birth, had been certain that he would. This +event had at last been despaired of, but it was then too late to +be saving. Mrs. Bennet had no turn for economy, and her +husband's love of independence had alone prevented their +exceeding their income. + +Five thousand pounds was settled by marriage articles on Mrs. +Bennet and the children. But in what proportions it should be +divided amongst the latter depended on the will of the parents. +This was one point, with regard to Lydia, at least, which was +now to be settled, and Mr. Bennet could have no hesitation in +acceding to the proposal before him. In terms of grateful +acknowledgment for the kindness of his brother, though +expressed most concisely, he then delivered on paper his perfect +approbation of all that was done, and his willingness to fulfil +the engagements that had been made for him. He had never before +supposed that, could Wickham be prevailed on to marry his +daughter, it would be done with so little inconvenience to +himself as by the present arrangement. He would scarcely be +ten pounds a year the loser by the hundred that was to be paid +them; for, what with her board and pocket allowance, and the +continual presents in money which passed to her through her +mother's hands, Lydia's expenses had been very little within +that sum. + +That it would be done with such trifling exertion on his side, +too, was another very welcome surprise; for his wish at present +was to have as little trouble in the business as possible. When +the first transports of rage which had produced his activity in +seeking her were over, he naturally returned to all his former +indolence. His letter was soon dispatched; for, though dilatory +in undertaking business, he was quick in its execution. He +begged to know further particulars of what he was indebted to +his brother, but was too angry with Lydia to send any message +to her. + +The good news spread quickly through the house, and with +proportionate speed through the neighbourhood. It was borne +in the latter with decent philosophy. To be sure, it would +have been more for the advantage of conversation had Miss Lydia +Bennet come upon the town; or, as the happiest alternative, +been secluded from the world, in some distant farmhouse. +But there was much to be talked of in marrying her; and the +good-natured wishes for her well-doing which had proceeded +before from all the spiteful old ladies in Meryton lost but a +little of their spirit in this change of circumstances, because +with such an husband her misery was considered certain. + +It was a fortnight since Mrs. Bennet had been downstairs; but on +this happy day she again took her seat at the head of her table, +and in spirits oppressively high. No sentiment of shame gave +a damp to her triumph. The marriage of a daughter, which had +been the first object of her wishes since Jane was sixteen, was +now on the point of accomplishment, and her thoughts and her +words ran wholly on those attendants of elegant nuptials, fine +muslins, new carriages, and servants. She was busily searching +through the neighbourhood for a proper situation for her +daughter, and, without knowing or considering what their +income might be, rejected many as deficient in size and +importance. + +"Haye Park might do," said she, "if the Gouldings could quit it--or +the great house at Stoke, if the drawing-room were larger; but +Ashworth is too far off! I could not bear to have her ten miles +from me; and as for Pulvis Lodge, the attics are dreadful." + +Her husband allowed her to talk on without interruption while +the servants remained. But when they had withdrawn, he said +to her: "Mrs. Bennet, before you take any or all of these houses +for your son and daughter, let us come to a right understanding. +Into _one_ house in this neighbourhood they shall never have +admittance. I will not encourage the impudence of either, +by receiving them at Longbourn." + +A long dispute followed this declaration; but Mr. Bennet was +firm. It soon led to another; and Mrs. Bennet found, with +amazement and horror, that her husband would not advance a +guinea to buy clothes for his daughter. He protested that she +should receive from him no mark of affection whatever on the +occasion. Mrs. Bennet could hardly comprehend it. That his +anger could be carried to such a point of inconceivable +resentment as to refuse his daughter a privilege without which +her marriage would scarcely seem valid, exceeded all she could +believe possible. She was more alive to the disgrace which her +want of new clothes must reflect on her daughter's nuptials, than +to any sense of shame at her eloping and living with Wickham a +fortnight before they took place. + +Elizabeth was now most heartily sorry that she had, from the +distress of the moment, been led to make Mr. Darcy acquainted +with their fears for her sister; for since her marriage would +so shortly give the proper termination to the elopement, they +might hope to conceal its unfavourable beginning from all those +who were not immediately on the spot. + +She had no fear of its spreading farther through his means. +There were few people on whose secrecy she would have more +confidently depended; but, at the same time, there was no one +whose knowledge of a sister's frailty would have mortified her +so much--not, however, from any fear of disadvantage from it +individually to herself, for, at any rate, there seemed a gulf +impassable between them. Had Lydia's marriage been concluded +on the most honourable terms, it was not to be supposed that +Mr. Darcy would connect himself with a family where, to every +other objection, would now be added an alliance and relationship +of the nearest kind with a man whom he so justly scorned. + +From such a connection she could not wonder that he would shrink. +The wish of procuring her regard, which she had assured herself +of his feeling in Derbyshire, could not in rational expectation +survive such a blow as this. She was humbled, she was grieved; +she repented, though she hardly knew of what. She became jealous +of his esteem, when she could no longer hope to be benefited by it. +She wanted to hear of him, when there seemed the least chance of +gaining intelligence. She was convinced that she could have been +happy with him, when it was no longer likely they should meet. + +What a triumph for him, as she often thought, could he know +that the proposals which she had proudly spurned only four +months ago, would now have been most gladly and gratefully +received! He was as generous, she doubted not, as the most +generous of his sex; but while he was mortal, there must be a +triumph. + +She began now to comprehend that he was exactly the man +who, in disposition and talents, would most suit her. His +understanding and temper, though unlike her own, would have +answered all her wishes. It was an union that must have been +to the advantage of both; by her ease and liveliness, his mind +might have been softened, his manners improved; and from his +judgement, information, and knowledge of the world, she must +have received benefit of greater importance. + +But no such happy marriage could now teach the admiring +multitude what connubial felicity really was. An union of a +different tendency, and precluding the possibility of the +other, was soon to be formed in their family. + +How Wickham and Lydia were to be supported in tolerable +independence, she could not imagine. But how little of +permanent happiness could belong to a couple who were only +brought together because their passions were stronger than +their virtue, she could easily conjecture. + + * * * * * + +Mr. Gardiner soon wrote again to his brother. To Mr. Bennet's +acknowledgments he briefly replied, with assurance of his +eagerness to promote the welfare of any of his family; and +concluded with entreaties that the subject might never be +mentioned to him again. The principal purport of his letter was +to inform them that Mr. Wickham had resolved on quitting the +militia. + +"It was greatly my wish that he should do so," he added, "as +soon as his marriage was fixed on. And I think you will agree +with me, in considering the removal from that corps as highly +advisable, both on his account and my niece's. It is Mr. Wickham's +intention to go into the regulars; and among his former friends, +there are still some who are able and willing to assist him in +the army. He has the promise of an ensigncy in General ----'s +regiment, now quartered in the North. It is an advantage to have +it so far from this part of the kingdom. He promises fairly; and +I hope among different people, where they may each have a character +to preserve, they will both be more prudent. I have written to +Colonel Forster, to inform him of our present arrangements, and to +request that he will satisfy the various creditors of Mr. Wickham +in and near Brighton, with assurances of speedy payment, for which +I have pledged myself. And will you give yourself the trouble of +carrying similar assurances to his creditors in Meryton, of whom +I shall subjoin a list according to his information? He has +given in all his debts; I hope at least he has not deceived us. +Haggerston has our directions, and all will be completed in a week. +They will then join his regiment, unless they are first invited to +Longbourn; and I understand from Mrs. Gardiner, that my niece is +very desirous of seeing you all before she leaves the South. She +is well, and begs to be dutifully remembered to you and your +mother.--Yours, etc., + +"E. GARDINER." + +Mr. Bennet and his daughters saw all the advantages of Wickham's +removal from the ----shire as clearly as Mr. Gardiner could do. +But Mrs. Bennet was not so well pleased with it. Lydia's being +settled in the North, just when she had expected most pleasure and +pride in her company, for she had by no means given up her plan +of their residing in Hertfordshire, was a severe disappointment; +and, besides, it was such a pity that Lydia should be taken from +a regiment where she was acquainted with everybody, and had so +many favourites. + +"She is so fond of Mrs. Forster," said she, "it will be quite +shocking to send her away! And there are several of the young +men, too, that she likes very much. The officers may not be so +pleasant in General----'s regiment." + +His daughter's request, for such it might be considered, of being +admitted into her family again before she set off for the North, +received at first an absolute negative. But Jane and Elizabeth, +who agreed in wishing, for the sake of their sister's feelings and +consequence, that she should be noticed on her marriage by her +parents, urged him so earnestly yet so rationally and so mildly, +to receive her and her husband at Longbourn, as soon as they +were married, that he was prevailed on to think as they thought, +and act as they wished. And their mother had the satisfaction +of knowing that she would be able to show her married daughter +in the neighbourhood before she was banished to the North. When +Mr. Bennet wrote again to his brother, therefore, he sent his +permission for them to come; and it was settled, that as soon +as the ceremony was over, they should proceed to Longbourn. +Elizabeth was surprised, however, that Wickham should consent +to such a scheme, and had she consulted only her own inclination, +any meeting with him would have been the last object of her wishes. + + + +Chapter 51 + + +Their sister's wedding day arrived; and Jane and Elizabeth felt +for her probably more than she felt for herself. The carriage +was sent to meet them at ----, and they were to return in it +by dinner-time. Their arrival was dreaded by the elder Miss +Bennets, and Jane more especially, who gave Lydia the feelings +which would have attended herself, had she been the culprit, +and was wretched in the thought of what her sister must endure. + +They came. The family were assembled in the breakfast room to +receive them. Smiles decked the face of Mrs. Bennet as the +carriage drove up to the door; her husband looked impenetrably +grave; her daughters, alarmed, anxious, uneasy. + +Lydia's voice was heard in the vestibule; the door was thrown +open, and she ran into the room. Her mother stepped forwards, +embraced her, and welcomed her with rapture; gave her hand, +with an affectionate smile, to Wickham, who followed his lady; +and wished them both joy with an alacrity which shewed no doubt +of their happiness. + +Their reception from Mr. Bennet, to whom they then turned, was +not quite so cordial. His countenance rather gained in austerity; +and he scarcely opened his lips. The easy assurance of the +young couple, indeed, was enough to provoke him. Elizabeth was +disgusted, and even Miss Bennet was shocked. Lydia was Lydia +still; untamed, unabashed, wild, noisy, and fearless. She turned +from sister to sister, demanding their congratulations; and when +at length they all sat down, looked eagerly round the room, took +notice of some little alteration in it, and observed, with a +laugh, that it was a great while since she had been there. + +Wickham was not at all more distressed than herself, but his +manners were always so pleasing, that had his character and his +marriage been exactly what they ought, his smiles and his easy +address, while he claimed their relationship, would have +delighted them all. Elizabeth had not before believed him +quite equal to such assurance; but she sat down, resolving +within herself to draw no limits in future to the impudence of +an impudent man. She blushed, and Jane blushed; but the +cheeks of the two who caused their confusion suffered no +variation of colour. + +There was no want of discourse. The bride and her mother could +neither of them talk fast enough; and Wickham, who happened to +sit near Elizabeth, began inquiring after his acquaintance in +that neighbourhood, with a good humoured ease which she felt +very unable to equal in her replies. They seemed each of them +to have the happiest memories in the world. Nothing of the +past was recollected with pain; and Lydia led voluntarily to +subjects which her sisters would not have alluded to for the +world. + +"Only think of its being three months," she cried, "since I +went away; it seems but a fortnight I declare; and yet there +have been things enough happened in the time. Good gracious! +when I went away, I am sure I had no more idea of being married +till I came back again! though I thought it would be very good +fun if I was." + +Her father lifted up his eyes. Jane was distressed. Elizabeth +looked expressively at Lydia; but she, who never heard nor saw +anything of which she chose to be insensible, gaily continued, +"Oh! mamma, do the people hereabouts know I am married +to-day? I was afraid they might not; and we overtook William +Goulding in his curricle, so I was determined he should know +it, and so I let down the side-glass next to him, and took off +my glove, and let my hand just rest upon the window frame, so +that he might see the ring, and then I bowed and smiled like +anything." + +Elizabeth could bear it no longer. She got up, and ran out of +the room; and returned no more, till she heard them passing +through the hall to the dining parlour. She then joined them +soon enough to see Lydia, with anxious parade, walk up to her +mother's right hand, and hear her say to her eldest sister, +"Ah! Jane, I take your place now, and you must go lower, +because I am a married woman." + +It was not to be supposed that time would give Lydia that +embarrassment from which she had been so wholly free at first. +Her ease and good spirits increased. She longed to see Mrs. +Phillips, the Lucases, and all their other neighbours, and to +hear herself called "Mrs. Wickham" by each of them; and in the +mean time, she went after dinner to show her ring, and boast +of being married, to Mrs. Hill and the two housemaids. + +"Well, mamma," said she, when they were all returned to the +breakfast room, "and what do you think of my husband? Is not +he a charming man? I am sure my sisters must all envy me. I +only hope they may have half my good luck. They must all go to +Brighton. That is the place to get husbands. What a pity it +is, mamma, we did not all go." + +"Very true; and if I had my will, we should. But my dear +Lydia, I don't at all like your going such a way off. Must +it be so?" + +"Oh, lord! yes;--there is nothing in that. I shall like it +of all things. You and papa, and my sisters, must come down +and see us. We shall be at Newcastle all the winter, and I +dare say there will be some balls, and I will take care to get +good partners for them all." + +"I should like it beyond anything!" said her mother. + +"And then when you go away, you may leave one or two of my +sisters behind you; and I dare say I shall get husbands for +them before the winter is over." + +"I thank you for my share of the favour," said Elizabeth; +"but I do not particularly like your way of getting husbands." + +Their visitors were not to remain above ten days with them. +Mr. Wickham had received his commission before he left London, +and he was to join his regiment at the end of a fortnight. + +No one but Mrs. Bennet regretted that their stay would be so +short; and she made the most of the time by visiting about with +her daughter, and having very frequent parties at home. These +parties were acceptable to all; to avoid a family circle was +even more desirable to such as did think, than such as did not. + +Wickham's affection for Lydia was just what Elizabeth had +expected to find it; not equal to Lydia's for him. She had +scarcely needed her present observation to be satisfied, from +the reason of things, that their elopement had been brought on +by the strength of her love, rather than by his; and she would +have wondered why, without violently caring for her, he chose +to elope with her at all, had she not felt certain that his +flight was rendered necessary by distress of circumstances; +and if that were the case, he was not the young man to resist +an opportunity of having a companion. + +Lydia was exceedingly fond of him. He was her dear Wickham on +every occasion; no one was to be put in competition with him. +He did every thing best in the world; and she was sure he would +kill more birds on the first of September, than any body else +in the country. + +One morning, soon after their arrival, as she was sitting with +her two elder sisters, she said to Elizabeth: + +"Lizzy, I never gave _you_ an account of my wedding, I believe. +You were not by, when I told mamma and the others all about it. +Are not you curious to hear how it was managed?" + +"No really," replied Elizabeth; "I think there cannot be too +little said on the subject." + +"La! You are so strange! But I must tell you how it went off. +We were married, you know, at St. Clement's, because Wickham's +lodgings were in that parish. And it was settled that we +should all be there by eleven o'clock. My uncle and aunt and +I were to go together; and the others were to meet us at the +church. Well, Monday morning came, and I was in such a fuss! +I was so afraid, you know, that something would happen to put +it off, and then I should have gone quite distracted. And +there was my aunt, all the time I was dressing, preaching and +talking away just as if she was reading a sermon. However, I +did not hear above one word in ten, for I was thinking, you may +suppose, of my dear Wickham. I longed to know whether he would +be married in his blue coat." + +"Well, and so we breakfasted at ten as usual; I thought it +would never be over; for, by the bye, you are to understand, +that my uncle and aunt were horrid unpleasant all the time I +was with them. If you'll believe me, I did not once put my +foot out of doors, though I was there a fortnight. Not one +party, or scheme, or anything. To be sure London was rather +thin, but, however, the Little Theatre was open. Well, and so +just as the carriage came to the door, my uncle was called away +upon business to that horrid man Mr. Stone. And then, you +know, when once they get together, there is no end of it. +Well, I was so frightened I did not know what to do, for my +uncle was to give me away; and if we were beyond the hour, we +could not be married all day. But, luckily, he came back again +in ten minutes' time, and then we all set out. However, I +recollected afterwards that if he had been prevented going, +the wedding need not be put off, for Mr. Darcy might have done +as well." + +"Mr. Darcy!" repeated Elizabeth, in utter amazement. + +"Oh, yes!--he was to come there with Wickham, you know. But +gracious me! I quite forgot! I ought not to have said a word +about it. I promised them so faithfully! What will Wickham +say? It was to be such a secret!" + +"If it was to be secret," said Jane, "say not another word on +the subject. You may depend upon my seeking no further." + +"Oh! certainly," said Elizabeth, though burning with curiosity; +"we will ask you no questions." + +"Thank you," said Lydia, "for if you did, I should certainly +tell you all, and then Wickham would be angry." + +On such encouragement to ask, Elizabeth was forced to put it +out of her power, by running away. + +But to live in ignorance on such a point was impossible; or at +least it was impossible not to try for information. Mr. Darcy +had been at her sister's wedding. It was exactly a scene, and +exactly among people, where he had apparently least to do, and +least temptation to go. Conjectures as to the meaning of it, +rapid and wild, hurried into her brain; but she was satisfied +with none. Those that best pleased her, as placing his conduct +in the noblest light, seemed most improbable. She could not +bear such suspense; and hastily seizing a sheet of paper, wrote +a short letter to her aunt, to request an explanation of what +Lydia had dropt, if it were compatible with the secrecy which +had been intended. + +"You may readily comprehend," she added, "what my curiosity +must be to know how a person unconnected with any of us, and +(comparatively speaking) a stranger to our family, should have +been amongst you at such a time. Pray write instantly, and +let me understand it--unless it is, for very cogent reasons, +to remain in the secrecy which Lydia seems to think necessary; +and then I must endeavour to be satisfied with ignorance." + +"Not that I _shall_, though," she added to herself, as she +finished the letter; "and my dear aunt, if you do not tell me +in an honourable manner, I shall certainly be reduced to tricks +and stratagems to find it out." + +Jane's delicate sense of honour would not allow her to speak to +Elizabeth privately of what Lydia had let fall; Elizabeth was +glad of it;--till it appeared whether her inquiries would +receive any satisfaction, she had rather be without a confidante. + + + +Chapter 52 + + +Elizabeth had the satisfaction of receiving an answer to her +letter as soon as she possibly could. She was no sooner in +possession of it than, hurrying into the little copse, where +she was least likely to be interrupted, she sat down on one of +the benches and prepared to be happy; for the length of the +letter convinced her that it did not contain a denial. + +"Gracechurch street, Sept. 6. + +"MY DEAR NIECE, + +"I have just received your letter, and shall devote this whole +morning to answering it, as I foresee that a _little_ writing +will not comprise what I have to tell you. I must confess +myself surprised by your application; I did not expect it from +_you_. Don't think me angry, however, for I only mean to let +you know that I had not imagined such inquiries to be necessary +on _your_ side. If you do not choose to understand me, forgive +my impertinence. Your uncle is as much surprised as I am--and +nothing but the belief of your being a party concerned would +have allowed him to act as he has done. But if you are really +innocent and ignorant, I must be more explicit. + +"On the very day of my coming home from Longbourn, your uncle had a +most unexpected visitor. Mr. Darcy called, and was shut up with him +several hours. It was all over before I arrived; so my curiosity was +not so dreadfully racked as _your's_ seems to have been. He came to +tell Mr. Gardiner that he had found out where your sister and +Mr. Wickham were, and that he had seen and talked with them both; +Wickham repeatedly, Lydia once. From what I can collect, he left +Derbyshire only one day after ourselves, and came to town with the +resolution of hunting for them. The motive professed was his +conviction of its being owing to himself that Wickham's worthlessness +had not been so well known as to make it impossible for any young +woman of character to love or confide in him. He generously imputed +the whole to his mistaken pride, and confessed that he had before +thought it beneath him to lay his private actions open to the world. +His character was to speak for itself. He called it, therefore, his +duty to step forward, and endeavour to remedy an evil which had been +brought on by himself. If he _had another_ motive, I am sure it would +never disgrace him. He had been some days in town, before he was able +to discover them; but he had something to direct his search, which was +more than _we_ had; and the consciousness of this was another reason for +his resolving to follow us. + +"There is a lady, it seems, a Mrs. Younge, who was some time ago +governess to Miss Darcy, and was dismissed from her charge on some +cause of disapprobation, though he did not say what. She then took a +large house in Edward-street, and has since maintained herself by +letting lodgings. This Mrs. Younge was, he knew, intimately +acquainted with Wickham; and he went to her for intelligence of him as +soon as he got to town. But it was two or three days before he could +get from her what he wanted. She would not betray her trust, I +suppose, without bribery and corruption, for she really did know where +her friend was to be found. Wickham indeed had gone to her on their +first arrival in London, and had she been able to receive them into +her house, they would have taken up their abode with her. At length, +however, our kind friend procured the wished-for direction. They were +in ---- street. He saw Wickham, and afterwards insisted on seeing +Lydia. His first object with her, he acknowledged, had been to +persuade her to quit her present disgraceful situation, and return to +her friends as soon as they could be prevailed on to receive her, +offering his assistance, as far as it would go. But he found Lydia +absolutely resolved on remaining where she was. She cared for none of +her friends; she wanted no help of his; she would not hear of leaving +Wickham. She was sure they should be married some time or other, and +it did not much signify when. Since such were her feelings, it only +remained, he thought, to secure and expedite a marriage, which, in his +very first conversation with Wickham, he easily learnt had never been +_his_ design. He confessed himself obliged to leave the regiment, on +account of some debts of honour, which were very pressing; and +scrupled not to lay all the ill-consequences of Lydia's flight on her +own folly alone. He meant to resign his commission immediately; and +as to his future situation, he could conjecture very little about it. +He must go somewhere, but he did not know where, and he knew he should +have nothing to live on. + +"Mr. Darcy asked him why he had not married your sister at once. +Though Mr. Bennet was not imagined to be very rich, he would have been +able to do something for him, and his situation must have been +benefited by marriage. But he found, in reply to this question, that +Wickham still cherished the hope of more effectually making his +fortune by marriage in some other country. Under such circumstances, +however, he was not likely to be proof against the temptation of +immediate relief. + +"They met several times, for there was much to be discussed. +Wickham of course wanted more than he could get; but at length +was reduced to be reasonable. + +"Every thing being settled between _them_, Mr. Darcy's next step was to +make your uncle acquainted with it, and he first called in Gracechurch +street the evening before I came home. But Mr. Gardiner could not be +seen, and Mr. Darcy found, on further inquiry, that your father was +still with him, but would quit town the next morning. He did not +judge your father to be a person whom he could so properly consult as +your uncle, and therefore readily postponed seeing him till after the +departure of the former. He did not leave his name, and till the next +day it was only known that a gentleman had called on business. + +"On Saturday he came again. Your father was gone, your uncle at home, +and, as I said before, they had a great deal of talk together. + +"They met again on Sunday, and then _I_ saw him too. It was not all +settled before Monday: as soon as it was, the express was sent off to +Longbourn. But our visitor was very obstinate. I fancy, Lizzy, that +obstinacy is the real defect of his character, after all. He has been +accused of many faults at different times, but _this_ is the true one. +Nothing was to be done that he did not do himself; though I am sure +(and I do not speak it to be thanked, therefore say nothing about it), +your uncle would most readily have settled the whole. + +"They battled it together for a long time, which was more than either +the gentleman or lady concerned in it deserved. But at last your +uncle was forced to yield, and instead of being allowed to be of use +to his niece, was forced to put up with only having the probable +credit of it, which went sorely against the grain; and I really +believe your letter this morning gave him great pleasure, because it +required an explanation that would rob him of his borrowed feathers, +and give the praise where it was due. But, Lizzy, this must go no +farther than yourself, or Jane at most. + +"You know pretty well, I suppose, what has been done for the young +people. His debts are to be paid, amounting, I believe, to +considerably more than a thousand pounds, another thousand in addition +to her own settled upon _her_, and his commission purchased. The reason +why all this was to be done by him alone, was such as I have given +above. It was owing to him, to his reserve and want of proper +consideration, that Wickham's character had been so misunderstood, and +consequently that he had been received and noticed as he was. Perhaps +there was some truth in _this_; though I doubt whether _his_ reserve, or +_anybody's_ reserve, can be answerable for the event. But in spite of +all this fine talking, my dear Lizzy, you may rest perfectly assured +that your uncle would never have yielded, if we had not given him +credit for _another interest_ in the affair. + +"When all this was resolved on, he returned again to his friends, who +were still staying at Pemberley; but it was agreed that he should be +in London once more when the wedding took place, and all money matters +were then to receive the last finish. + +"I believe I have now told you every thing. It is a relation which you +tell me is to give you great surprise; I hope at least it will not +afford you any displeasure. Lydia came to us; and Wickham had +constant admission to the house. _He_ was exactly what he had been, +when I knew him in Hertfordshire; but I would not tell you how little +I was satisfied with her behaviour while she staid with us, if I had +not perceived, by Jane's letter last Wednesday, that her conduct on +coming home was exactly of a piece with it, and therefore what I now +tell you can give you no fresh pain. I talked to her repeatedly in +the most serious manner, representing to her all the wickedness of +what she had done, and all the unhappiness she had brought on her +family. If she heard me, it was by good luck, for I am sure she did +not listen. I was sometimes quite provoked, but then I recollected my +dear Elizabeth and Jane, and for their sakes had patience with her. + +"Mr. Darcy was punctual in his return, and as Lydia informed you, +attended the wedding. He dined with us the next day, and was to leave +town again on Wednesday or Thursday. Will you be very angry with me, +my dear Lizzy, if I take this opportunity of saying (what I was never +bold enough to say before) how much I like him. His behaviour to us +has, in every respect, been as pleasing as when we were in Derbyshire. +His understanding and opinions all please me; he wants nothing but a +little more liveliness, and _that_, if he marry _prudently_, his wife +may teach him. I thought him very sly;--he hardly ever mentioned your +name. But slyness seems the fashion. + +"Pray forgive me if I have been very presuming, or at least do not +punish me so far as to exclude me from P. I shall never be quite +happy till I have been all round the park. A low phaeton, with a nice +little pair of ponies, would be the very thing. + +"But I must write no more. The children have been wanting me this half +hour. + +"Yours, very sincerely, + +"M. GARDINER." + +The contents of this letter threw Elizabeth into a flutter +of spirits, in which it was difficult to determine whether +pleasure or pain bore the greatest share. The vague and +unsettled suspicions which uncertainty had produced of what +Mr. Darcy might have been doing to forward her sister's match, +which she had feared to encourage as an exertion of goodness +too great to be probable, and at the same time dreaded to be +just, from the pain of obligation, were proved beyond their +greatest extent to be true! He had followed them purposely to +town, he had taken on himself all the trouble and mortification +attendant on such a research; in which supplication had been +necessary to a woman whom he must abominate and despise, and +where he was reduced to meet, frequently meet, reason with, +persuade, and finally bribe, the man whom he always most wished +to avoid, and whose very name it was punishment to him to +pronounce. He had done all this for a girl whom he could +neither regard nor esteem. Her heart did whisper that he had +done it for her. But it was a hope shortly checked by other +considerations, and she soon felt that even her vanity was +insufficient, when required to depend on his affection for her +--for a woman who had already refused him--as able to overcome +a sentiment so natural as abhorrence against relationship with +Wickham. Brother-in-law of Wickham! Every kind of pride must +revolt from the connection. He had, to be sure, done much. +She was ashamed to think how much. But he had given a reason +for his interference, which asked no extraordinary stretch of +belief. It was reasonable that he should feel he had been wrong; +he had liberality, and he had the means of exercising it; and +though she would not place herself as his principal inducement, +she could, perhaps, believe that remaining partiality for her +might assist his endeavours in a cause where her peace of mind +must be materially concerned. It was painful, exceedingly +painful, to know that they were under obligations to a person +who could never receive a return. They owed the restoration of +Lydia, her character, every thing, to him. Oh! how heartily +did she grieve over every ungracious sensation she had ever +encouraged, every saucy speech she had ever directed towards him. +For herself she was humbled; but she was proud of him. Proud +that in a cause of compassion and honour, he had been able to get +the better of himself. She read over her aunt's commendation +of him again and again. It was hardly enough; but it pleased +her. She was even sensible of some pleasure, though mixed with +regret, on finding how steadfastly both she and her uncle had +been persuaded that affection and confidence subsisted between +Mr. Darcy and herself. + +She was roused from her seat, and her reflections, by some +one's approach; and before she could strike into another path, +she was overtaken by Wickham. + +"I am afraid I interrupt your solitary ramble, my dear sister?" +said he, as he joined her. + +"You certainly do," she replied with a smile; "but it does not +follow that the interruption must be unwelcome." + +"I should be sorry indeed, if it were. We were always good +friends; and now we are better." + +"True. Are the others coming out?" + +"I do not know. Mrs. Bennet and Lydia are going in the +carriage to Meryton. And so, my dear sister, I find, from +our uncle and aunt, that you have actually seen Pemberley." + +She replied in the affirmative. + +"I almost envy you the pleasure, and yet I believe it would +be too much for me, or else I could take it in my way to +Newcastle. And you saw the old housekeeper, I suppose? Poor +Reynolds, she was always very fond of me. But of course she +did not mention my name to you." + +"Yes, she did." + +"And what did she say?" + +"That you were gone into the army, and she was afraid had +--not turned out well. At such a distance as _that_, you +know, things are strangely misrepresented." + +"Certainly," he replied, biting his lips. Elizabeth hoped she +had silenced him; but he soon afterwards said: + +"I was surprised to see Darcy in town last month. We passed +each other several times. I wonder what he can be doing +there." + +"Perhaps preparing for his marriage with Miss de Bourgh," said +Elizabeth. "It must be something particular, to take him there +at this time of year." + +"Undoubtedly. Did you see him while you were at Lambton? +I thought I understood from the Gardiners that you had." + +"Yes; he introduced us to his sister." + +"And do you like her?" + +"Very much." + +"I have heard, indeed, that she is uncommonly improved within +this year or two. When I last saw her, she was not very +promising. I am very glad you liked her. I hope she will turn +out well." + +"I dare say she will; she has got over the most trying age." + +"Did you go by the village of Kympton?" + +"I do not recollect that we did." + +"I mention it, because it is the living which I ought to have +had. A most delightful place!--Excellent Parsonage House! +It would have suited me in every respect." + +"How should you have liked making sermons?" + +"Exceedingly well. I should have considered it as part of my +duty, and the exertion would soon have been nothing. One ought +not to repine;--but, to be sure, it would have been such a +thing for me! The quiet, the retirement of such a life would +have answered all my ideas of happiness! But it was not to be. +Did you ever hear Darcy mention the circumstance, when you were +in Kent?" + +"I have heard from authority, which I thought _as good_, +that it was left you conditionally only, and at the will of the +present patron." + +"You have. Yes, there was something in _that_; I told you so +from the first, you may remember." + +"I _did_ hear, too, that there was a time, when sermon-making +was not so palatable to you as it seems to be at present; that +you actually declared your resolution of never taking orders, +and that the business had been compromised accordingly." + +"You did! and it was not wholly without foundation. You may +remember what I told you on that point, when first we talked +of it." + +They were now almost at the door of the house, for she +had walked fast to get rid of him; and unwilling, for her +sister's sake, to provoke him, she only said in reply, with +a good-humoured smile: + +"Come, Mr. Wickham, we are brother and sister, you know. +Do not let us quarrel about the past. In future, I hope we +shall be always of one mind." + +She held out her hand; he kissed it with affectionate gallantry, +though he hardly knew how to look, and they entered the house. + + + +Chapter 53 + + +Mr. Wickham was so perfectly satisfied with this conversation +that he never again distressed himself, or provoked his dear +sister Elizabeth, by introducing the subject of it; and she was +pleased to find that she had said enough to keep him quiet. + +The day of his and Lydia's departure soon came, and Mrs. Bennet +was forced to submit to a separation, which, as her husband by +no means entered into her scheme of their all going to +Newcastle, was likely to continue at least a twelvemonth. + +"Oh! my dear Lydia," she cried, "when shall we meet again?" + +"Oh, lord! I don't know. Not these two or three years, +perhaps." + +"Write to me very often, my dear." + +"As often as I can. But you know married women have never much +time for writing. My sisters may write to _me_. They will +have nothing else to do." + +Mr. Wickham's adieus were much more affectionate than his +wife's. He smiled, looked handsome, and said many pretty +things. + +"He is as fine a fellow," said Mr. Bennet, as soon as they were +out of the house, "as ever I saw. He simpers, and smirks, and +makes love to us all. I am prodigiously proud of him. I defy +even Sir William Lucas himself to produce a more valuable +son-in-law." + +The loss of her daughter made Mrs. Bennet very dull for +several days. + +"I often think," said she, "that there is nothing so bad as +parting with one's friends. One seems so forlorn without +them." + +"This is the consequence, you see, Madam, of marrying a daughter," +said Elizabeth. "It must make you better satisfied that your +other four are single." + +"It is no such thing. Lydia does not leave me because she is +married, but only because her husband's regiment happens to be +so far off. If that had been nearer, she would not have gone +so soon." + +But the spiritless condition which this event threw her into +was shortly relieved, and her mind opened again to the +agitation of hope, by an article of news which then began to be +in circulation. The housekeeper at Netherfield had received +orders to prepare for the arrival of her master, who was coming +down in a day or two, to shoot there for several weeks. +Mrs. Bennet was quite in the fidgets. She looked at Jane, and +smiled and shook her head by turns. + +"Well, well, and so Mr. Bingley is coming down, sister," +(for Mrs. Phillips first brought her the news). "Well, so +much the better. Not that I care about it, though. He is +nothing to us, you know, and I am sure _I_ never want to +see him again. But, however, he is very welcome to come +to Netherfield, if he likes it. And who knows what _may_ +happen? But that is nothing to us. You know, sister, we +agreed long ago never to mention a word about it. And so, +is it quite certain he is coming?" + +"You may depend on it," replied the other, "for Mrs. Nicholls +was in Meryton last night; I saw her passing by, and went out +myself on purpose to know the truth of it; and she told me that +it was certain true. He comes down on Thursday at the latest, +very likely on Wednesday. She was going to the butcher's, she +told me, on purpose to order in some meat on Wednesday, and she +has got three couple of ducks just fit to be killed." + +Miss Bennet had not been able to hear of his coming without +changing colour. It was many months since she had mentioned +his name to Elizabeth; but now, as soon as they were alone +together, she said: + +"I saw you look at me to-day, Lizzy, when my aunt told us of +the present report; and I know I appeared distressed. But +don't imagine it was from any silly cause. I was only confused +for the moment, because I felt that I _should_ be looked at. +I do assure you that the news does not affect me either with +pleasure or pain. I am glad of one thing, that he comes alone; +because we shall see the less of him. Not that I am afraid of +_myself_, but I dread other people's remarks." + +Elizabeth did not know what to make of it. Had she not seen +him in Derbyshire, she might have supposed him capable of +coming there with no other view than what was acknowledged; but +she still thought him partial to Jane, and she wavered as to +the greater probability of his coming there _with_ his friend's +permission, or being bold enough to come without it. + +"Yet it is hard," she sometimes thought, "that this poor man +cannot come to a house which he has legally hired, without +raising all this speculation! I _will_ leave him to himself." + +In spite of what her sister declared, and really believed to be +her feelings in the expectation of his arrival, Elizabeth could +easily perceive that her spirits were affected by it. They +were more disturbed, more unequal, than she had often seen them. + +The subject which had been so warmly canvassed between their +parents, about a twelvemonth ago, was now brought forward +again. + +"As soon as ever Mr. Bingley comes, my dear," said Mrs. Bennet, +"you will wait on him of course." + +"No, no. You forced me into visiting him last year, and +promised, if I went to see him, he should marry one of my +daughters. But it ended in nothing, and I will not be sent on +a fool's errand again." + +His wife represented to him how absolutely necessary such an +attention would be from all the neighbouring gentlemen, on his +returning to Netherfield. + +"'Tis an etiquette I despise," said he. "If he wants our +society, let him seek it. He knows where we live. I will not +spend my hours in running after my neighbours every time they +go away and come back again." + +"Well, all I know is, that it will be abominably rude if you do +not wait on him. But, however, that shan't prevent my asking +him to dine here, I am determined. We must have Mrs. Long and +the Gouldings soon. That will make thirteen with ourselves, so +there will be just room at table for him." + +Consoled by this resolution, she was the better able to bear +her husband's incivility; though it was very mortifying to know +that her neighbours might all see Mr. Bingley, in consequence +of it, before _they_ did. As the day of his arrival drew near: + +"I begin to be sorry that he comes at all," said Jane to her +sister. "It would be nothing; I could see him with perfect +indifference, but I can hardly bear to hear it thus perpetually +talked of. My mother means well; but she does not know, no one +can know, how much I suffer from what she says. Happy shall I +be, when his stay at Netherfield is over!" + +"I wish I could say anything to comfort you," replied Elizabeth; +"but it is wholly out of my power. You must feel it; and the +usual satisfaction of preaching patience to a sufferer is denied +me, because you have always so much." + +Mr. Bingley arrived. Mrs. Bennet, through the assistance of +servants, contrived to have the earliest tidings of it, that +the period of anxiety and fretfulness on her side might be as +long as it could. She counted the days that must intervene +before their invitation could be sent; hopeless of seeing +him before. But on the third morning after his arrival in +Hertfordshire, she saw him, from her dressing-room window, +enter the paddock and ride towards the house. + +Her daughters were eagerly called to partake of her joy. Jane +resolutely kept her place at the table; but Elizabeth, to +satisfy her mother, went to the window--she looked,--she +saw Mr. Darcy with him, and sat down again by her sister. + +"There is a gentleman with him, mamma," said Kitty; "who can it be?" + +"Some acquaintance or other, my dear, I suppose; I am sure I +do not know." + +"La!" replied Kitty, "it looks just like that man that used to +be with him before. Mr. what's-his-name. That tall, proud +man." + +"Good gracious! Mr. Darcy!--and so it does, I vow. Well, +any friend of Mr. Bingley's will always be welcome here, to be +sure; but else I must say that I hate the very sight of him." + +Jane looked at Elizabeth with surprise and concern. She knew +but little of their meeting in Derbyshire, and therefore felt +for the awkwardness which must attend her sister, in seeing him +almost for the first time after receiving his explanatory +letter. Both sisters were uncomfortable enough. Each felt +for the other, and of course for themselves; and their mother +talked on, of her dislike of Mr. Darcy, and her resolution +to be civil to him only as Mr. Bingley's friend, without +being heard by either of them. But Elizabeth had sources of +uneasiness which could not be suspected by Jane, to whom she +had never yet had courage to shew Mrs. Gardiner's letter, or +to relate her own change of sentiment towards him. To Jane, +he could be only a man whose proposals she had refused, and +whose merit she had undervalued; but to her own more extensive +information, he was the person to whom the whole family were +indebted for the first of benefits, and whom she regarded +herself with an interest, if not quite so tender, at least +as reasonable and just as what Jane felt for Bingley. Her +astonishment at his coming--at his coming to Netherfield, to +Longbourn, and voluntarily seeking her again, was almost equal +to what she had known on first witnessing his altered behaviour +in Derbyshire. + +The colour which had been driven from her face, returned for +half a minute with an additional glow, and a smile of delight +added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that space of time +that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken. But she +would not be secure. + +"Let me first see how he behaves," said she; "it will then be +early enough for expectation." + +She sat intently at work, striving to be composed, and without +daring to lift up her eyes, till anxious curiosity carried them +to the face of her sister as the servant was approaching the +door. Jane looked a little paler than usual, but more sedate +than Elizabeth had expected. On the gentlemen's appearing, her +colour increased; yet she received them with tolerable ease, +and with a propriety of behaviour equally free from any symptom +of resentment or any unnecessary complaisance. + +Elizabeth said as little to either as civility would allow, and +sat down again to her work, with an eagerness which it did not +often command. She had ventured only one glance at Darcy. He +looked serious, as usual; and, she thought, more as he had been +used to look in Hertfordshire, than as she had seen him at +Pemberley. But, perhaps he could not in her mother's presence +be what he was before her uncle and aunt. It was a painful, +but not an improbable, conjecture. + +Bingley, she had likewise seen for an instant, and in that +short period saw him looking both pleased and embarrassed. He +was received by Mrs. Bennet with a degree of civility which +made her two daughters ashamed, especially when contrasted with +the cold and ceremonious politeness of her curtsey and address +to his friend. + +Elizabeth, particularly, who knew that her mother owed to the +latter the preservation of her favourite daughter from +irremediable infamy, was hurt and distressed to a most painful +degree by a distinction so ill applied. + +Darcy, after inquiring of her how Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner did, a +question which she could not answer without confusion, said +scarcely anything. He was not seated by her; perhaps that +was the reason of his silence; but it had not been so in +Derbyshire. There he had talked to her friends, when he could +not to herself. But now several minutes elapsed without +bringing the sound of his voice; and when occasionally, unable +to resist the impulse of curiosity, she raised he eyes to his +face, she as often found him looking at Jane as at herself, and +frequently on no object but the ground. More thoughtfulness +and less anxiety to please, than when they last met, were +plainly expressed. She was disappointed, and angry with +herself for being so. + +"Could I expect it to be otherwise!" said she. "Yet why did +he come?" + +She was in no humour for conversation with anyone but himself; +and to him she had hardly courage to speak. + +She inquired after his sister, but could do no more. + +"It is a long time, Mr. Bingley, since you went away," said +Mrs. Bennet. + +He readily agreed to it. + +"I began to be afraid you would never come back again. People +_did_ say you meant to quit the place entirely at Michaelmas; +but, however, I hope it is not true. A great many changes have +happened in the neighbourhood, since you went away. Miss Lucas +is married and settled. And one of my own daughters. I suppose +you have heard of it; indeed, you must have seen it in the +papers. It was in The Times and The Courier, I know; though +it was not put in as it ought to be. It was only said, 'Lately, +George Wickham, Esq. to Miss Lydia Bennet,' without there being +a syllable said of her father, or the place where she lived, or +anything. It was my brother Gardiner's drawing up too, and I +wonder how he came to make such an awkward business of it. Did +you see it?" + +Bingley replied that he did, and made his congratulations. +Elizabeth dared not lift up her eyes. How Mr. Darcy looked, +therefore, she could not tell. + +"It is a delightful thing, to be sure, to have a daughter +well married," continued her mother, "but at the same time, +Mr. Bingley, it is very hard to have her taken such a way from +me. They are gone down to Newcastle, a place quite northward, +it seems, and there they are to stay I do not know how long. +His regiment is there; for I suppose you have heard of his +leaving the ----shire, and of his being gone into the regulars. +Thank Heaven! he has _some_ friends, though perhaps not so +many as he deserves." + +Elizabeth, who knew this to be levelled at Mr. Darcy, was +in such misery of shame, that she could hardly keep her seat. +It drew from her, however, the exertion of speaking, which +nothing else had so effectually done before; and she asked +Bingley whether he meant to make any stay in the country at +present. A few weeks, he believed. + +"When you have killed all your own birds, Mr. Bingley," +said her mother, "I beg you will come here, and shoot as +many as you please on Mr. Bennet's manor. I am sure he +will be vastly happy to oblige you, and will save all the +best of the covies for you." + +Elizabeth's misery increased, at such unnecessary, such +officious attention! Were the same fair prospect to arise at +present as had flattered them a year ago, every thing, she was +persuaded, would be hastening to the same vexatious conclusion. +At that instant, she felt that years of happiness could not +make Jane or herself amends for moments of such painful +confusion. + +"The first wish of my heart," said she to herself, "is never +more to be in company with either of them. Their society can +afford no pleasure that will atone for such wretchedness as +this! Let me never see either one or the other again!" + +Yet the misery, for which years of happiness were to offer no +compensation, received soon afterwards material relief, from +observing how much the beauty of her sister re-kindled the +admiration of her former lover. When first he came in, he had +spoken to her but little; but every five minutes seemed to be +giving her more of his attention. He found her as handsome as +she had been last year; as good natured, and as unaffected, +though not quite so chatty. Jane was anxious that no difference +should be perceived in her at all, and was really persuaded that +she talked as much as ever. But her mind was so busily engaged, +that she did not always know when she was silent. + +When the gentlemen rose to go away, Mrs. Bennet was mindful of +her intended civility, and they were invited and engaged to +dine at Longbourn in a few days time. + +"You are quite a visit in my debt, Mr. Bingley," she added, +"for when you went to town last winter, you promised to take +a family dinner with us, as soon as you returned. I have not +forgot, you see; and I assure you, I was very much disappointed +that you did not come back and keep your engagement." + +Bingley looked a little silly at this reflection, and said +something of his concern at having been prevented by business. +They then went away. + +Mrs. Bennet had been strongly inclined to ask them to stay and +dine there that day; but, though she always kept a very good +table, she did not think anything less than two courses could +be good enough for a man on whom she had such anxious designs, +or satisfy the appetite and pride of one who had ten thousand a +year. + + + +Chapter 54 + + +As soon as they were gone, Elizabeth walked out to recover +her spirits; or in other words, to dwell without interruption +on those subjects that must deaden them more. Mr. Darcy's +behaviour astonished and vexed her. + +"Why, if he came only to be silent, grave, and indifferent," +said she, "did he come at all?" + +She could settle it in no way that gave her pleasure. + +"He could be still amiable, still pleasing, to my uncle and +aunt, when he was in town; and why not to me? If he fears me, +why come hither? If he no longer cares for me, why silent? +Teasing, teasing, man! I will think no more about him." + +Her resolution was for a short time involuntarily kept by +the approach of her sister, who joined her with a cheerful +look, which showed her better satisfied with their visitors, +than Elizabeth. + +"Now," said she, "that this first meeting is over, I feel +perfectly easy. I know my own strength, and I shall never be +embarrassed again by his coming. I am glad he dines here on +Tuesday. It will then be publicly seen that, on both sides, +we meet only as common and indifferent acquaintance." + +"Yes, very indifferent indeed," said Elizabeth, laughingly. +"Oh, Jane, take care." + +"My dear Lizzy, you cannot think me so weak, as to be in danger +now?" + +"I think you are in very great danger of making him as much +in love with you as ever." + + * * * * * + +They did not see the gentlemen again till Tuesday; and +Mrs. Bennet, in the meanwhile, was giving way to all the +happy schemes, which the good humour and common politeness +of Bingley, in half an hour's visit, had revived. + +On Tuesday there was a large party assembled at Longbourn; +and the two who were most anxiously expected, to the credit of +their punctuality as sportsmen, were in very good time. When +they repaired to the dining-room, Elizabeth eagerly watched to +see whether Bingley would take the place, which, in all their +former parties, had belonged to him, by her sister. Her +prudent mother, occupied by the same ideas, forbore to invite +him to sit by herself. On entering the room, he seemed to +hesitate; but Jane happened to look round, and happened to +smile: it was decided. He placed himself by her. + +Elizabeth, with a triumphant sensation, looked towards his +friend. He bore it with noble indifference, and she would have +imagined that Bingley had received his sanction to be happy, +had she not seen his eyes likewise turned towards Mr. Darcy, +with an expression of half-laughing alarm. + +His behaviour to her sister was such, during dinner time, as +showed an admiration of her, which, though more guarded than +formerly, persuaded Elizabeth, that if left wholly to himself, +Jane's happiness, and his own, would be speedily secured. +Though she dared not depend upon the consequence, she yet +received pleasure from observing his behaviour. It gave her +all the animation that her spirits could boast; for she was in +no cheerful humour. Mr. Darcy was almost as far from her as +the table could divide them. He was on one side of her mother. +She knew how little such a situation would give pleasure to +either, or make either appear to advantage. She was not near +enough to hear any of their discourse, but she could see how +seldom they spoke to each other, and how formal and cold was +their manner whenever they did. Her mother's ungraciousness, +made the sense of what they owed him more painful to Elizabeth's +mind; and she would, at times, have given anything to be +privileged to tell him that his kindness was neither unknown +nor unfelt by the whole of the family. + +She was in hopes that the evening would afford some opportunity +of bringing them together; that the whole of the visit would +not pass away without enabling them to enter into something +more of conversation than the mere ceremonious salutation +attending his entrance. Anxious and uneasy, the period which +passed in the drawing-room, before the gentlemen came, was +wearisome and dull to a degree that almost made her uncivil. +She looked forward to their entrance as the point on which all +her chance of pleasure for the evening must depend. + +"If he does not come to me, _then_," said she, "I shall give +him up for ever." + +The gentlemen came; and she thought he looked as if he would +have answered her hopes; but, alas! the ladies had crowded +round the table, where Miss Bennet was making tea, and +Elizabeth pouring out the coffee, in so close a confederacy +that there was not a single vacancy near her which would admit +of a chair. And on the gentlemen's approaching, one of the +girls moved closer to her than ever, and said, in a whisper: + +"The men shan't come and part us, I am determined. We want +none of them; do we?" + +Darcy had walked away to another part of the room. She +followed him with her eyes, envied everyone to whom he spoke, +had scarcely patience enough to help anybody to coffee; and +then was enraged against herself for being so silly! + +"A man who has once been refused! How could I ever be foolish +enough to expect a renewal of his love? Is there one among the +sex, who would not protest against such a weakness as a second +proposal to the same woman? There is no indignity so abhorrent +to their feelings!" + +She was a little revived, however, by his bringing back his +coffee cup himself; and she seized the opportunity of saying: + +"Is your sister at Pemberley still?" + +"Yes, she will remain there till Christmas." + +"And quite alone? Have all her friends left her?" + +"Mrs. Annesley is with her. The others have been gone on to +Scarborough, these three weeks." + +She could think of nothing more to say; but if he wished to +converse with her, he might have better success. He stood by +her, however, for some minutes, in silence; and, at last, on +the young lady's whispering to Elizabeth again, he walked away. + +When the tea-things were removed, and the card-tables placed, +the ladies all rose, and Elizabeth was then hoping to be soon +joined by him, when all her views were overthrown by seeing him +fall a victim to her mother's rapacity for whist players, and +in a few moments after seated with the rest of the party. She +now lost every expectation of pleasure. They were confined for +the evening at different tables, and she had nothing to hope, +but that his eyes were so often turned towards her side of the +room, as to make him play as unsuccessfully as herself. + +Mrs. Bennet had designed to keep the two Netherfield gentlemen +to supper; but their carriage was unluckily ordered before any +of the others, and she had no opportunity of detaining them. + +"Well girls," said she, as soon as they were left to themselves, +"What say you to the day? I think every thing has passed off +uncommonly well, I assure you. The dinner was as well dressed +as any I ever saw. The venison was roasted to a turn--and +everybody said they never saw so fat a haunch. The soup was +fifty times better than what we had at the Lucases' last week; +and even Mr. Darcy acknowledged, that the partridges were +remarkably well done; and I suppose he has two or three French +cooks at least. And, my dear Jane, I never saw you look in +greater beauty. Mrs. Long said so too, for I asked her whether +you did not. And what do you think she said besides? 'Ah! Mrs. +Bennet, we shall have her at Netherfield at last.' She did +indeed. I do think Mrs. Long is as good a creature as ever +lived--and her nieces are very pretty behaved girls, and not +at all handsome: I like them prodigiously." + +Mrs. Bennet, in short, was in very great spirits; she had seen +enough of Bingley's behaviour to Jane, to be convinced that she +would get him at last; and her expectations of advantage to her +family, when in a happy humour, were so far beyond reason, that +she was quite disappointed at not seeing him there again the +next day, to make his proposals. + +"It has been a very agreeable day," said Miss Bennet to +Elizabeth. "The party seemed so well selected, so suitable +one with the other. I hope we may often meet again." + +Elizabeth smiled. + +"Lizzy, you must not do so. You must not suspect me. It +mortifies me. I assure you that I have now learnt to enjoy +his conversation as an agreeable and sensible young man, +without having a wish beyond it. I am perfectly satisfied, +from what his manners now are, that he never had any design +of engaging my affection. It is only that he is blessed +with greater sweetness of address, and a stronger desire of +generally pleasing, than any other man." + +"You are very cruel," said her sister, "you will not let me +smile, and are provoking me to it every moment." + +"How hard it is in some cases to be believed!" + +"And how impossible in others!" + +"But why should you wish to persuade me that I feel more than I +acknowledge?" + +"That is a question which I hardly know how to answer. We all +love to instruct, though we can teach only what is not worth +knowing. Forgive me; and if you persist in indifference, do +not make me your confidante." + + + +Chapter 55 + + +A few days after this visit, Mr. Bingley called again, and +alone. His friend had left him that morning for London, but +was to return home in ten days time. He sat with them above an +hour, and was in remarkably good spirits. Mrs. Bennet invited +him to dine with them; but, with many expressions of concern, +he confessed himself engaged elsewhere. + +"Next time you call," said she, "I hope we shall be more +lucky." + +He should be particularly happy at any time, etc. etc.; and if +she would give him leave, would take an early opportunity of +waiting on them. + +"Can you come to-morrow?" + +Yes, he had no engagement at all for to-morrow; and her +invitation was accepted with alacrity. + +He came, and in such very good time that the ladies were none +of them dressed. In ran Mrs. Bennet to her daughter's room, in +her dressing gown, and with her hair half finished, crying out: + +"My dear Jane, make haste and hurry down. He is come--Mr. +Bingley is come. He is, indeed. Make haste, make haste. +Here, Sarah, come to Miss Bennet this moment, and help her +on with her gown. Never mind Miss Lizzy's hair." + +"We will be down as soon as we can," said Jane; "but I dare say +Kitty is forwarder than either of us, for she went up stairs +half an hour ago." + +"Oh! hang Kitty! what has she to do with it? Come be quick, +be quick! Where is your sash, my dear?" + +But when her mother was gone, Jane would not be prevailed on to +go down without one of her sisters. + +The same anxiety to get them by themselves was visible again +in the evening. After tea, Mr. Bennet retired to the library, +as was his custom, and Mary went up stairs to her instrument. +Two obstacles of the five being thus removed, Mrs. Bennet +sat looking and winking at Elizabeth and Catherine for a +considerable time, without making any impression on them. +Elizabeth would not observe her; and when at last Kitty did, +she very innocently said, "What is the matter mamma? What do +you keep winking at me for? What am I to do?" + +"Nothing child, nothing. I did not wink at you." She then sat +still five minutes longer; but unable to waste such a precious +occasion, she suddenly got up, and saying to Kitty, "Come here, +my love, I want to speak to you," took her out of the room. +Jane instantly gave a look at Elizabeth which spoke her +distress at such premeditation, and her entreaty that _she_ +would not give in to it. In a few minutes, Mrs. Bennet +half-opened the door and called out: + +"Lizzy, my dear, I want to speak with you." + +Elizabeth was forced to go. + +"We may as well leave them by themselves you know;" said her +mother, as soon as she was in the hall. "Kitty and I are going +upstairs to sit in my dressing-room." + +Elizabeth made no attempt to reason with her mother, but +remained quietly in the hall, till she and Kitty were out of +sight, then returned into the drawing-room. + +Mrs. Bennet's schemes for this day were ineffectual. Bingley +was every thing that was charming, except the professed lover +of her daughter. His ease and cheerfulness rendered him a +most agreeable addition to their evening party; and he bore +with the ill-judged officiousness of the mother, and heard all +her silly remarks with a forbearance and command of countenance +particularly grateful to the daughter. + +He scarcely needed an invitation to stay supper; and before he +went away, an engagement was formed, chiefly through his own +and Mrs. Bennet's means, for his coming next morning to shoot +with her husband. + +After this day, Jane said no more of her indifference. +Not a word passed between the sisters concerning Bingley; +but Elizabeth went to bed in the happy belief that all must +speedily be concluded, unless Mr. Darcy returned within the +stated time. Seriously, however, she felt tolerably persuaded +that all this must have taken place with that gentleman's +concurrence. + +Bingley was punctual to his appointment; and he and Mr. Bennet +spent the morning together, as had been agreed on. The latter +was much more agreeable than his companion expected. There was +nothing of presumption or folly in Bingley that could provoke +his ridicule, or disgust him into silence; and he was more +communicative, and less eccentric, than the other had ever seen +him. Bingley of course returned with him to dinner; and in the +evening Mrs. Bennet's invention was again at work to get every +body away from him and her daughter. Elizabeth, who had a +letter to write, went into the breakfast room for that purpose +soon after tea; for as the others were all going to sit down to +cards, she could not be wanted to counteract her mother's +schemes. + +But on returning to the drawing-room, when her letter was +finished, she saw, to her infinite surprise, there was +reason to fear that her mother had been too ingenious for +her. On opening the door, she perceived her sister and +Bingley standing together over the hearth, as if engaged in +earnest conversation; and had this led to no suspicion, the +faces of both, as they hastily turned round and moved away +from each other, would have told it all. Their situation +was awkward enough; but _her's_ she thought was still worse. +Not a syllable was uttered by either; and Elizabeth was on +the point of going away again, when Bingley, who as well as +the other had sat down, suddenly rose, and whispering a few +words to her sister, ran out of the room. + +Jane could have no reserves from Elizabeth, where confidence +would give pleasure; and instantly embracing her, acknowledged, +with the liveliest emotion, that she was the happiest creature +in the world. + +"'Tis too much!" she added, "by far too much. I do not +deserve it. Oh! why is not everybody as happy?" + +Elizabeth's congratulations were given with a sincerity, a +warmth, a delight, which words could but poorly express. Every +sentence of kindness was a fresh source of happiness to Jane. +But she would not allow herself to stay with her sister, or say +half that remained to be said for the present. + +"I must go instantly to my mother;" she cried. "I would not on +any account trifle with her affectionate solicitude; or allow +her to hear it from anyone but myself. He is gone to my +father already. Oh! Lizzy, to know that what I have to relate +will give such pleasure to all my dear family! how shall I +bear so much happiness!" + +She then hastened away to her mother, who had purposely broken +up the card party, and was sitting up stairs with Kitty. + +Elizabeth, who was left by herself, now smiled at the rapidity +and ease with which an affair was finally settled, that had +given them so many previous months of suspense and vexation. + +"And this," said she, "is the end of all his friend's anxious +circumspection! of all his sister's falsehood and contrivance! +the happiest, wisest, most reasonable end!" + +In a few minutes she was joined by Bingley, whose conference +with her father had been short and to the purpose. + +"Where is your sister?" said he hastily, as he opened the door. + +"With my mother up stairs. She will be down in a moment, +I dare say." + +He then shut the door, and, coming up to her, claimed the good +wishes and affection of a sister. Elizabeth honestly and +heartily expressed her delight in the prospect of their +relationship. They shook hands with great cordiality; and +then, till her sister came down, she had to listen to all he +had to say of his own happiness, and of Jane's perfections; +and in spite of his being a lover, Elizabeth really believed +all his expectations of felicity to be rationally founded, +because they had for basis the excellent understanding, and +super-excellent disposition of Jane, and a general similarity +of feeling and taste between her and himself. + +It was an evening of no common delight to them all; the +satisfaction of Miss Bennet's mind gave a glow of such sweet +animation to her face, as made her look handsomer than ever. +Kitty simpered and smiled, and hoped her turn was coming soon. +Mrs. Bennet could not give her consent or speak her approbation +in terms warm enough to satisfy her feelings, though she talked +to Bingley of nothing else for half an hour; and when Mr. +Bennet joined them at supper, his voice and manner plainly +showed how really happy he was. + +Not a word, however, passed his lips in allusion to it, till +their visitor took his leave for the night; but as soon as he +was gone, he turned to his daughter, and said: + +"Jane, I congratulate you. You will be a very happy woman." + +Jane went to him instantly, kissed him, and thanked him for his +goodness. + +"You are a good girl;" he replied, "and I have great pleasure +in thinking you will be so happily settled. I have not a doubt +of your doing very well together. Your tempers are by no means +unlike. You are each of you so complying, that nothing will +ever be resolved on; so easy, that every servant will cheat +you; and so generous, that you will always exceed your income." + +"I hope not so. Imprudence or thoughtlessness in money matters +would be unpardonable in me." + +"Exceed their income! My dear Mr. Bennet," cried his wife, +"what are you talking of? Why, he has four or five thousand a +year, and very likely more." Then addressing her daughter, +"Oh! my dear, dear Jane, I am so happy! I am sure I shan't +get a wink of sleep all night. I knew how it would be. I +always said it must be so, at last. I was sure you could not +be so beautiful for nothing! I remember, as soon as ever I saw +him, when he first came into Hertfordshire last year, I thought +how likely it was that you should come together. Oh! he is +the handsomest young man that ever was seen!" + +Wickham, Lydia, were all forgotten. Jane was beyond competition +her favourite child. At that moment, she cared for no other. Her +younger sisters soon began to make interest with her for objects +of happiness which she might in future be able to dispense. + +Mary petitioned for the use of the library at Netherfield; and +Kitty begged very hard for a few balls there every winter. + +Bingley, from this time, was of course a daily visitor at +Longbourn; coming frequently before breakfast, and always +remaining till after supper; unless when some barbarous +neighbour, who could not be enough detested, had given him +an invitation to dinner which he thought himself obliged to +accept. + +Elizabeth had now but little time for conversation with her +sister; for while he was present, Jane had no attention to +bestow on anyone else; but she found herself considerably +useful to both of them in those hours of separation that must +sometimes occur. In the absence of Jane, he always attached +himself to Elizabeth, for the pleasure of talking of her; and +when Bingley was gone, Jane constantly sought the same means +of relief. + +"He has made me so happy," said she, one evening, "by telling +me that he was totally ignorant of my being in town last +spring! I had not believed it possible." + +"I suspected as much," replied Elizabeth. "But how did he +account for it?" + +"It must have been his sister's doing. They were certainly no +friends to his acquaintance with me, which I cannot wonder at, +since he might have chosen so much more advantageously in many +respects. But when they see, as I trust they will, that their +brother is happy with me, they will learn to be contented, and +we shall be on good terms again; though we can never be what we +once were to each other." + +"That is the most unforgiving speech," said Elizabeth, "that +I ever heard you utter. Good girl! It would vex me, indeed, +to see you again the dupe of Miss Bingley's pretended regard." + +"Would you believe it, Lizzy, that when he went to town last +November, he really loved me, and nothing but a persuasion of +_my_ being indifferent would have prevented his coming down +again!" + +"He made a little mistake to be sure; but it is to the credit +of his modesty." + +This naturally introduced a panegyric from Jane on his +diffidence, and the little value he put on his own good +qualities. Elizabeth was pleased to find that he had not +betrayed the interference of his friend; for, though Jane had +the most generous and forgiving heart in the world, she knew +it was a circumstance which must prejudice her against him. + +"I am certainly the most fortunate creature that ever existed!" +cried Jane. "Oh! Lizzy, why am I thus singled from my family, +and blessed above them all! If I could but see _you_ as happy! +If there _were_ but such another man for you!" + +"If you were to give me forty such men, I never could be so +happy as you. Till I have your disposition, your goodness, +I never can have your happiness. No, no, let me shift for +myself; and, perhaps, if I have very good luck, I may meet +with another Mr. Collins in time." + +The situation of affairs in the Longbourn family could not be +long a secret. Mrs. Bennet was privileged to whisper it to +Mrs. Phillips, and she ventured, without any permission, to do +the same by all her neighbours in Meryton. + +The Bennets were speedily pronounced to be the luckiest family +in the world, though only a few weeks before, when Lydia had +first run away, they had been generally proved to be marked out +for misfortune. + + + +Chapter 56 + + +One morning, about a week after Bingley's engagement with +Jane had been formed, as he and the females of the family +were sitting together in the dining-room, their attention +was suddenly drawn to the window, by the sound of a carriage; +and they perceived a chaise and four driving up the lawn. +It was too early in the morning for visitors, and besides, the +equipage did not answer to that of any of their neighbours. +The horses were post; and neither the carriage, nor the livery +of the servant who preceded it, were familiar to them. As it +was certain, however, that somebody was coming, Bingley +instantly prevailed on Miss Bennet to avoid the confinement of +such an intrusion, and walk away with him into the shrubbery. +They both set off, and the conjectures of the remaining three +continued, though with little satisfaction, till the door was +thrown open and their visitor entered. It was Lady Catherine +de Bourgh. + +They were of course all intending to be surprised; but their +astonishment was beyond their expectation; and on the part of +Mrs. Bennet and Kitty, though she was perfectly unknown to +them, even inferior to what Elizabeth felt. + +She entered the room with an air more than usually ungracious, +made no other reply to Elizabeth's salutation than a slight +inclination of the head, and sat down without saying a word. +Elizabeth had mentioned her name to her mother on her ladyship's +entrance, though no request of introduction had been made. + +Mrs. Bennet, all amazement, though flattered by having a +guest of such high importance, received her with the utmost +politeness. After sitting for a moment in silence, she said +very stiffly to Elizabeth, + +"I hope you are well, Miss Bennet. That lady, I suppose, +is your mother." + +Elizabeth replied very concisely that she was. + +"And _that_ I suppose is one of your sisters." + +"Yes, madam," said Mrs. Bennet, delighted to speak to a Lady +Catherine. "She is my youngest girl but one. My youngest of +all is lately married, and my eldest is somewhere about the +grounds, walking with a young man who, I believe, will soon +become a part of the family." + +"You have a very small park here," returned Lady Catherine +after a short silence. + +"It is nothing in comparison of Rosings, my lady, I dare say; +but I assure you it is much larger than Sir William Lucas's." + +"This must be a most inconvenient sitting room for the evening, +in summer; the windows are full west." + +Mrs. Bennet assured her that they never sat there after dinner, +and then added: + +"May I take the liberty of asking your ladyship whether you +left Mr. and Mrs. Collins well." + +"Yes, very well. I saw them the night before last." + +Elizabeth now expected that she would produce a letter for +her from Charlotte, as it seemed the only probable motive for +her calling. But no letter appeared, and she was completely +puzzled. + +Mrs. Bennet, with great civility, begged her ladyship to take +some refreshment; but Lady Catherine very resolutely, and not +very politely, declined eating anything; and then, rising up, +said to Elizabeth, + +"Miss Bennet, there seemed to be a prettyish kind of a little +wilderness on one side of your lawn. I should be glad to take +a turn in it, if you will favour me with your company." + +"Go, my dear," cried her mother, "and show her ladyship about +the different walks. I think she will be pleased with the +hermitage." + +Elizabeth obeyed, and running into her own room for her +parasol, attended her noble guest downstairs. As they passed +through the hall, Lady Catherine opened the doors into the +dining-parlour and drawing-room, and pronouncing them, after +a short survey, to be decent looking rooms, walked on. + +Her carriage remained at the door, and Elizabeth saw that her +waiting-woman was in it. They proceeded in silence along the +gravel walk that led to the copse; Elizabeth was determined to +make no effort for conversation with a woman who was now more +than usually insolent and disagreeable. + +"How could I ever think her like her nephew?" said she, as she +looked in her face. + +As soon as they entered the copse, Lady Catherine began in the +following manner:-- + +"You can be at no loss, Miss Bennet, to understand the reason +of my journey hither. Your own heart, your own conscience, +must tell you why I come." + +Elizabeth looked with unaffected astonishment. + +"Indeed, you are mistaken, Madam. I have not been at all able +to account for the honour of seeing you here." + +"Miss Bennet," replied her ladyship, in an angry tone, "you +ought to know, that I am not to be trifled with. But however +insincere _you_ may choose to be, you shall not find _me_ so. +My character has ever been celebrated for its sincerity and +frankness, and in a cause of such moment as this, I shall +certainly not depart from it. A report of a most alarming +nature reached me two days ago. I was told that not only your +sister was on the point of being most advantageously married, +but that you, that Miss Elizabeth Bennet, would, in all +likelihood, be soon afterwards united to my nephew, my own +nephew, Mr. Darcy. Though I _know_ it must be a scandalous +falsehood, though I would not injure him so much as to suppose +the truth of it possible, I instantly resolved on setting off +for this place, that I might make my sentiments known to you." + +"If you believed it impossible to be true," said Elizabeth, +colouring with astonishment and disdain, "I wonder you took the +trouble of coming so far. What could your ladyship propose by +it?" + +"At once to insist upon having such a report universally +contradicted." + +"Your coming to Longbourn, to see me and my family," said +Elizabeth coolly, "will be rather a confirmation of it; if, +indeed, such a report is in existence." + +"If! Do you then pretend to be ignorant of it? Has it not +been industriously circulated by yourselves? Do you not know +that such a report is spread abroad?" + +"I never heard that it was." + +"And can you likewise declare, that there is no foundation +for it?" + +"I do not pretend to possess equal frankness with your ladyship. +You may ask questions which I shall not choose to answer." + +"This is not to be borne. Miss Bennet, I insist on being +satisfied. Has he, has my nephew, made you an offer of +marriage?" + +"Your ladyship has declared it to be impossible." + +"It ought to be so; it must be so, while he retains the use of +his reason. But your arts and allurements may, in a moment +of infatuation, have made him forget what he owes to himself +and to all his family. You may have drawn him in." + +"If I have, I shall be the last person to confess it." + +"Miss Bennet, do you know who I am? I have not been accustomed +to such language as this. I am almost the nearest relation he has +in the world, and am entitled to know all his dearest concerns." + +"But you are not entitled to know mine; nor will such behaviour +as this, ever induce me to be explicit." + +"Let me be rightly understood. This match, to which you have +the presumption to aspire, can never take place. No, never. +Mr. Darcy is engaged to my daughter. Now what have you to say?" + +"Only this; that if he is so, you can have no reason to suppose +he will make an offer to me." + +Lady Catherine hesitated for a moment, and then replied: + +"The engagement between them is of a peculiar kind. From their +infancy, they have been intended for each other. It was the +favourite wish of _his_ mother, as well as of her's. While in +their cradles, we planned the union: and now, at the moment +when the wishes of both sisters would be accomplished in their +marriage, to be prevented by a young woman of inferior birth, +of no importance in the world, and wholly unallied to the +family! Do you pay no regard to the wishes of his friends? +To his tacit engagement with Miss de Bourgh? Are you lost to +every feeling of propriety and delicacy? Have you not heard +me say that from his earliest hours he was destined for his +cousin?" + +"Yes, and I had heard it before. But what is that to me? If +there is no other objection to my marrying your nephew, I shall +certainly not be kept from it by knowing that his mother and +aunt wished him to marry Miss de Bourgh. You both did as much +as you could in planning the marriage. Its completion depended +on others. If Mr. Darcy is neither by honour nor inclination +confined to his cousin, why is not he to make another choice? +And if I am that choice, why may not I accept him?" + +"Because honour, decorum, prudence, nay, interest, forbid it. +Yes, Miss Bennet, interest; for do not expect to be noticed +by his family or friends, if you wilfully act against the +inclinations of all. You will be censured, slighted, and +despised, by everyone connected with him. Your alliance will +be a disgrace; your name will never even be mentioned by any +of us." + +"These are heavy misfortunes," replied Elizabeth. "But the +wife of Mr. Darcy must have such extraordinary sources of +happiness necessarily attached to her situation, that she +could, upon the whole, have no cause to repine." + +"Obstinate, headstrong girl! I am ashamed of you! Is this +your gratitude for my attentions to you last spring? Is +nothing due to me on that score? Let us sit down. You are to +understand, Miss Bennet, that I came here with the determined +resolution of carrying my purpose; nor will I be dissuaded +from it. I have not been used to submit to any person's whims. +I have not been in the habit of brooking disappointment." + +"_That_ will make your ladyship's situation at present more +pitiable; but it will have no effect on me." + +"I will not be interrupted. Hear me in silence. My daughter +and my nephew are formed for each other. They are descended, +on the maternal side, from the same noble line; and, on the +father's, from respectable, honourable, and ancient--though +untitled--families. Their fortune on both sides is splendid. +They are destined for each other by the voice of every member +of their respective houses; and what is to divide them? +The upstart pretensions of a young woman without family, +connections, or fortune. Is this to be endured! But it +must not, shall not be. If you were sensible of your own +good, you would not wish to quit the sphere in which you +have been brought up." + +"In marrying your nephew, I should not consider myself as +quitting that sphere. He is a gentleman; I am a gentleman's +daughter; so far we are equal." + +"True. You _are_ a gentleman's daughter. But who was your +mother? Who are your uncles and aunts? Do not imagine me +ignorant of their condition." + +"Whatever my connections may be," said Elizabeth, "if your +nephew does not object to them, they can be nothing to _you_." + +"Tell me once for all, are you engaged to him?" + +Though Elizabeth would not, for the mere purpose of obliging +Lady Catherine, have answered this question, she could not but +say, after a moment's deliberation: + +"I am not." + +Lady Catherine seemed pleased. + +"And will you promise me, never to enter into such an engagement?" + +"I will make no promise of the kind." + +"Miss Bennet I am shocked and astonished. I expected to find a +more reasonable young woman. But do not deceive yourself into +a belief that I will ever recede. I shall not go away till you +have given me the assurance I require." + +"And I certainly _never_ shall give it. I am not to be intimidated +into anything so wholly unreasonable. Your ladyship wants +Mr. Darcy to marry your daughter; but would my giving you the +wished-for promise make their marriage at all more probable? +Supposing him to be attached to me, would my refusing to accept +his hand make him wish to bestow it on his cousin? Allow me to +say, Lady Catherine, that the arguments with which you have +supported this extraordinary application have been as frivolous +as the application was ill-judged. You have widely mistaken my +character, if you think I can be worked on by such persuasions +as these. How far your nephew might approve of your interference +in his affairs, I cannot tell; but you have certainly no right +to concern yourself in mine. I must beg, therefore, to be +importuned no farther on the subject." + +"Not so hasty, if you please. I have by no means done. +To all the objections I have already urged, I have still +another to add. I am no stranger to the particulars of your +youngest sister's infamous elopement. I know it all; that +the young man's marrying her was a patched-up business, at the +expence of your father and uncles. And is such a girl to be +my nephew's sister? Is her husband, is the son of his late +father's steward, to be his brother? Heaven and earth!--of +what are you thinking? Are the shades of Pemberley to be +thus polluted?" + +"You can now have nothing further to say," she resentfully +answered. "You have insulted me in every possible method. +I must beg to return to the house." + +And she rose as she spoke. Lady Catherine rose also, and they +turned back. Her ladyship was highly incensed. + +"You have no regard, then, for the honour and credit of my +nephew! Unfeeling, selfish girl! Do you not consider that +a connection with you must disgrace him in the eyes of +everybody?" + +"Lady Catherine, I have nothing further to say. You know my +sentiments." + +"You are then resolved to have him?" + +"I have said no such thing. I am only resolved to act in that +manner, which will, in my own opinion, constitute my happiness, +without reference to _you_, or to any person so wholly unconnected +with me." + +"It is well. You refuse, then, to oblige me. You refuse to +obey the claims of duty, honour, and gratitude. You are +determined to ruin him in the opinion of all his friends, +and make him the contempt of the world." + +"Neither duty, nor honour, nor gratitude," replied Elizabeth, +"have any possible claim on me, in the present instance. No +principle of either would be violated by my marriage with +Mr. Darcy. And with regard to the resentment of his family, or +the indignation of the world, if the former _were_ excited by his +marrying me, it would not give me one moment's concern--and +the world in general would have too much sense to join in the +scorn." + +"And this is your real opinion! This is your final resolve! +Very well. I shall now know how to act. Do not imagine, Miss +Bennet, that your ambition will ever be gratified. I came to +try you. I hoped to find you reasonable; but, depend upon it, +I will carry my point." + +In this manner Lady Catherine talked on, till they were at the +door of the carriage, when, turning hastily round, she added, +"I take no leave of you, Miss Bennet. I send no compliments to +your mother. You deserve no such attention. I am most +seriously displeased." + +Elizabeth made no answer; and without attempting to persuade +her ladyship to return into the house, walked quietly into it +herself. She heard the carriage drive away as she proceeded +up stairs. Her mother impatiently met her at the door of the +dressing-room, to ask why Lady Catherine would not come in +again and rest herself. + +"She did not choose it," said her daughter, "she would go." + +"She is a very fine-looking woman! and her calling here was +prodigiously civil! for she only came, I suppose, to tell us +the Collinses were well. She is on her road somewhere, I dare +say, and so, passing through Meryton, thought she might as well +call on you. I suppose she had nothing particular to say to +you, Lizzy?" + +Elizabeth was forced to give into a little falsehood here; +for to acknowledge the substance of their conversation was +impossible. + + + +Chapter 57 + + +The discomposure of spirits which this extraordinary visit +threw Elizabeth into, could not be easily overcome; nor +could she, for many hours, learn to think of it less than +incessantly. Lady Catherine, it appeared, had actually taken +the trouble of this journey from Rosings, for the sole purpose +of breaking off her supposed engagement with Mr. Darcy. It was +a rational scheme, to be sure! but from what the report of +their engagement could originate, Elizabeth was at a loss to +imagine; till she recollected that _his_ being the intimate +friend of Bingley, and _her_ being the sister of Jane, was +enough, at a time when the expectation of one wedding made +everybody eager for another, to supply the idea. She had not +herself forgotten to feel that the marriage of her sister must +bring them more frequently together. And her neighbours at +Lucas Lodge, therefore (for through their communication with +the Collinses, the report, she concluded, had reached lady +Catherine), had only set that down as almost certain and +immediate, which she had looked forward to as possible at +some future time. + +In revolving Lady Catherine's expressions, however, she could +not help feeling some uneasiness as to the possible consequence +of her persisting in this interference. From what she had said +of her resolution to prevent their marriage, it occurred to +Elizabeth that she must meditate an application to her nephew; +and how _he_ might take a similar representation of the evils +attached to a connection with her, she dared not pronounce. +She knew not the exact degree of his affection for his aunt, or +his dependence on her judgment, but it was natural to suppose +that he thought much higher of her ladyship than _she_ could +do; and it was certain that, in enumerating the miseries of a +marriage with _one_, whose immediate connections were so unequal +to his own, his aunt would address him on his weakest side. +With his notions of dignity, he would probably feel that the +arguments, which to Elizabeth had appeared weak and ridiculous, +contained much good sense and solid reasoning. + +If he had been wavering before as to what he should do, which +had often seemed likely, the advice and entreaty of so near a +relation might settle every doubt, and determine him at once to +be as happy as dignity unblemished could make him. In that +case he would return no more. Lady Catherine might see him in +her way through town; and his engagement to Bingley of coming +again to Netherfield must give way. + +"If, therefore, an excuse for not keeping his promise should +come to his friend within a few days," she added, "I shall +know how to understand it. I shall then give over every +expectation, every wish of his constancy. If he is satisfied +with only regretting me, when he might have obtained my +affections and hand, I shall soon cease to regret him at all." + + * * * * * + +The surprise of the rest of the family, on hearing who their +visitor had been, was very great; but they obligingly satisfied +it, with the same kind of supposition which had appeased +Mrs. Bennet's curiosity; and Elizabeth was spared from much +teasing on the subject. + +The next morning, as she was going downstairs, she was met by +her father, who came out of his library with a letter in his +hand. + +"Lizzy," said he, "I was going to look for you; come into my +room." + +She followed him thither; and her curiosity to know what he +had to tell her was heightened by the supposition of its being +in some manner connected with the letter he held. It suddenly +struck her that it might be from Lady Catherine; and she +anticipated with dismay all the consequent explanations. + +She followed her father to the fire place, and they both sat +down. He then said, + +"I have received a letter this morning that has astonished me +exceedingly. As it principally concerns yourself, you ought +to know its contents. I did not know before, that I had two +daughters on the brink of matrimony. Let me congratulate you +on a very important conquest." + +The colour now rushed into Elizabeth's cheeks in the instantaneous +conviction of its being a letter from the nephew, instead of the +aunt; and she was undetermined whether most to be pleased that +he explained himself at all, or offended that his letter was not +rather addressed to herself; when her father continued: + +"You look conscious. Young ladies have great penetration in +such matters as these; but I think I may defy even _your_ +sagacity, to discover the name of your admirer. This letter +is from Mr. Collins." + +"From Mr. Collins! and what can _he_ have to say?" + +"Something very much to the purpose of course. He begins with +congratulations on the approaching nuptials of my eldest daughter, +of which, it seems, he has been told by some of the good-natured, +gossiping Lucases. I shall not sport with your impatience, by +reading what he says on that point. What relates to yourself, is +as follows: 'Having thus offered you the sincere congratulations +of Mrs. Collins and myself on this happy event, let me now add +a short hint on the subject of another; of which we have been +advertised by the same authority. Your daughter Elizabeth, it is +presumed, will not long bear the name of Bennet, after her elder +sister has resigned it, and the chosen partner of her fate may be +reasonably looked up to as one of the most illustrious personages +in this land.' + +"Can you possibly guess, Lizzy, who is meant by this?" 'This +young gentleman is blessed, in a peculiar way, with every thing +the heart of mortal can most desire,--splendid property, +noble kindred, and extensive patronage. Yet in spite of all +these temptations, let me warn my cousin Elizabeth, and +yourself, of what evils you may incur by a precipitate closure +with this gentleman's proposals, which, of course, you will be +inclined to take immediate advantage of.' + +"Have you any idea, Lizzy, who this gentleman is? But now it +comes out: + +"'My motive for cautioning you is as follows. We have reason to +imagine that his aunt, Lady Catherine de Bourgh, does not look +on the match with a friendly eye.' + +"_Mr. Darcy_, you see, is the man! Now, Lizzy, I think I +_have_ surprised you. Could he, or the Lucases, have pitched +on any man within the circle of our acquaintance, whose name +would have given the lie more effectually to what they related? +Mr. Darcy, who never looks at any woman but to see a blemish, +and who probably never looked at you in his life! It is +admirable!" + +Elizabeth tried to join in her father's pleasantry, but could +only force one most reluctant smile. Never had his wit been +directed in a manner so little agreeable to her. + +"Are you not diverted?" + +"Oh! yes. Pray read on." + +"'After mentioning the likelihood of this marriage to her ladyship +last night, she immediately, with her usual condescension, +expressed what she felt on the occasion; when it become apparent, +that on the score of some family objections on the part of my +cousin, she would never give her consent to what she termed so +disgraceful a match. I thought it my duty to give the speediest +intelligence of this to my cousin, that she and her noble +admirer may be aware of what they are about, and not run +hastily into a marriage which has not been properly sanctioned.' +Mr. Collins moreover adds, 'I am truly rejoiced that my cousin +Lydia's sad business has been so well hushed up, and am only +concerned that their living together before the marriage took +place should be so generally known. I must not, however, +neglect the duties of my station, or refrain from declaring my +amazement at hearing that you received the young couple into +your house as soon as they were married. It was an encouragement +of vice; and had I been the rector of Longbourn, I should very +strenuously have opposed it. You ought certainly to forgive them, +as a Christian, but never to admit them in your sight, or allow +their names to be mentioned in your hearing.' That is his notion +of Christian forgiveness! The rest of his letter is only about +his dear Charlotte's situation, and his expectation of a young +olive-branch. But, Lizzy, you look as if you did not enjoy it. +You are not going to be _missish_, I hope, and pretend to be +affronted at an idle report. For what do we live, but to make +sport for our neighbours, and laugh at them in our turn?" + +"Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I am excessively diverted. But it is +so strange!" + +"Yes--_that_ is what makes it amusing. Had they fixed on any other +man it would have been nothing; but _his_ perfect indifference, +and _your_ pointed dislike, make it so delightfully absurd! Much +as I abominate writing, I would not give up Mr. Collins's +correspondence for any consideration. Nay, when I read a letter +of his, I cannot help giving him the preference even over Wickham, +much as I value the impudence and hypocrisy of my son-in-law. +And pray, Lizzy, what said Lady Catherine about this report? +Did she call to refuse her consent?" + +To this question his daughter replied only with a laugh; and +as it had been asked without the least suspicion, she was not +distressed by his repeating it. Elizabeth had never been +more at a loss to make her feelings appear what they were not. +It was necessary to laugh, when she would rather have cried. +Her father had most cruelly mortified her, by what he said of +Mr. Darcy's indifference, and she could do nothing but wonder +at such a want of penetration, or fear that perhaps, instead +of his seeing too little, she might have fancied too much. + + + +Chapter 58 + + +Instead of receiving any such letter of excuse from his friend, +as Elizabeth half expected Mr. Bingley to do, he was able to +bring Darcy with him to Longbourn before many days had passed +after Lady Catherine's visit. The gentlemen arrived early; +and, before Mrs. Bennet had time to tell him of their having +seen his aunt, of which her daughter sat in momentary dread, +Bingley, who wanted to be alone with Jane, proposed their +all walking out. It was agreed to. Mrs. Bennet was not in +the habit of walking; Mary could never spare time; but the +remaining five set off together. Bingley and Jane, however, +soon allowed the others to outstrip them. They lagged behind, +while Elizabeth, Kitty, and Darcy were to entertain each other. +Very little was said by either; Kitty was too much afraid of +him to talk; Elizabeth was secretly forming a desperate +resolution; and perhaps he might be doing the same. + +They walked towards the Lucases, because Kitty wished to call +upon Maria; and as Elizabeth saw no occasion for making it a +general concern, when Kitty left them she went boldly on with +him alone. Now was the moment for her resolution to be +executed, and, while her courage was high, she immediately +said: + +"Mr. Darcy, I am a very selfish creature; and, for the sake of +giving relief to my own feelings, care not how much I may be +wounding your's. I can no longer help thanking you for your +unexampled kindness to my poor sister. Ever since I have +known it, I have been most anxious to acknowledge to you how +gratefully I feel it. Were it known to the rest of my family, +I should not have merely my own gratitude to express." + +"I am sorry, exceedingly sorry," replied Darcy, in a tone of +surprise and emotion, "that you have ever been informed of what +may, in a mistaken light, have given you uneasiness. I did not +think Mrs. Gardiner was so little to be trusted." + +"You must not blame my aunt. Lydia's thoughtlessness first +betrayed to me that you had been concerned in the matter; and, +of course, I could not rest till I knew the particulars. Let +me thank you again and again, in the name of all my family, +for that generous compassion which induced you to take so much +trouble, and bear so many mortifications, for the sake of +discovering them." + +"If you _will_ thank me," he replied, "let it be for yourself +alone. That the wish of giving happiness to you might add +force to the other inducements which led me on, I shall not +attempt to deny. But your _family_ owe me nothing. Much as +I respect them, I believe I thought only of _you_." + +Elizabeth was too much embarrassed to say a word. After a +short pause, her companion added, "You are too generous to +trifle with me. If your feelings are still what they were +last April, tell me so at once. _My_ affections and wishes +are unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this +subject for ever." + +Elizabeth, feeling all the more than common awkwardness and +anxiety of his situation, now forced herself to speak; and +immediately, though not very fluently, gave him to understand +that her sentiments had undergone so material a change, since +the period to which he alluded, as to make her receive with +gratitude and pleasure his present assurances. The happiness +which this reply produced, was such as he had probably never +felt before; and he expressed himself on the occasion as +sensibly and as warmly as a man violently in love can be +supposed to do. Had Elizabeth been able to encounter his +eye, she might have seen how well the expression of heartfelt +delight, diffused over his face, became him; but, though she +could not look, she could listen, and he told her of feelings, +which, in proving of what importance she was to him, made his +affection every moment more valuable. + +They walked on, without knowing in what direction. There was +too much to be thought, and felt, and said, for attention to +any other objects. She soon learnt that they were indebted +for their present good understanding to the efforts of his +aunt, who did call on him in her return through London, +and there relate her journey to Longbourn, its motive, and +the substance of her conversation with Elizabeth; dwelling +emphatically on every expression of the latter which, in her +ladyship's apprehension, peculiarly denoted her perverseness +and assurance; in the belief that such a relation must assist +her endeavours to obtain that promise from her nephew which +she had refused to give. But, unluckily for her ladyship, +its effect had been exactly contrariwise. + +"It taught me to hope," said he, "as I had scarcely ever allowed +myself to hope before. I knew enough of your disposition to +be certain that, had you been absolutely, irrevocably decided +against me, you would have acknowledged it to Lady Catherine, +frankly and openly." + +Elizabeth coloured and laughed as she replied, "Yes, you know +enough of my frankness to believe me capable of _that_. +After abusing you so abominably to your face, I could have no +scruple in abusing you to all your relations." + +"What did you say of me, that I did not deserve? For, though +your accusations were ill-founded, formed on mistaken premises, +my behaviour to you at the time had merited the severest +reproof. It was unpardonable. I cannot think of it without +abhorrence." + +"We will not quarrel for the greater share of blame annexed to +that evening," said Elizabeth. "The conduct of neither, if +strictly examined, will be irreproachable; but since then, we +have both, I hope, improved in civility." + +"I cannot be so easily reconciled to myself. The recollection +of what I then said, of my conduct, my manners, my expressions +during the whole of it, is now, and has been many months, +inexpressibly painful to me. Your reproof, so well applied, I +shall never forget: 'had you behaved in a more gentlemanlike +manner.' Those were your words. You know not, you can +scarcely conceive, how they have tortured me;--though it was +some time, I confess, before I was reasonable enough to allow +their justice." + +"I was certainly very far from expecting them to make so strong +an impression. I had not the smallest idea of their being ever +felt in such a way." + +"I can easily believe it. You thought me then devoid of +every proper feeling, I am sure you did. The turn of your +countenance I shall never forget, as you said that I could +not have addressed you in any possible way that would induce +you to accept me." + +"Oh! do not repeat what I then said. These recollections +will not do at all. I assure you that I have long been most +heartily ashamed of it." + +Darcy mentioned his letter. "Did it," said he, "did it soon +make you think better of me? Did you, on reading it, give any +credit to its contents?" + +She explained what its effect on her had been, and how gradually +all her former prejudices had been removed. + +"I knew," said he, "that what I wrote must give you pain, +but it was necessary. I hope you have destroyed the letter. +There was one part especially, the opening of it, which I +should dread your having the power of reading again. I can +remember some expressions which might justly make you hate me." + +"The letter shall certainly be burnt, if you believe it +essential to the preservation of my regard; but, though we have +both reason to think my opinions not entirely unalterable, they +are not, I hope, quite so easily changed as that implies." + +"When I wrote that letter," replied Darcy, "I believed myself +perfectly calm and cool, but I am since convinced that it was +written in a dreadful bitterness of spirit." + +"The letter, perhaps, began in bitterness, but it did not end +so. The adieu is charity itself. But think no more of the +letter. The feelings of the person who wrote, and the person +who received it, are now so widely different from what they +were then, that every unpleasant circumstance attending it +ought to be forgotten. You must learn some of my philosophy. +Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure." + +"I cannot give you credit for any philosophy of the kind. +Your retrospections must be so totally void of reproach, that +the contentment arising from them is not of philosophy, but, +what is much better, of innocence. But with me, it is not +so. Painful recollections will intrude which cannot, which +ought not, to be repelled. I have been a selfish being all my +life, in practice, though not in principle. As a child I was +taught what was right, but I was not taught to correct my +temper. I was given good principles, but left to follow them +in pride and conceit. Unfortunately an only son (for many +years an only child), I was spoilt by my parents, who, though +good themselves (my father, particularly, all that was +benevolent and amiable), allowed, encouraged, almost taught me +to be selfish and overbearing; to care for none beyond my own +family circle; to think meanly of all the rest of the world; +to wish at least to think meanly of their sense and worth +compared with my own. Such I was, from eight to eight and +twenty; and such I might still have been but for you, dearest, +loveliest Elizabeth! What do I not owe you! You taught me a +lesson, hard indeed at first, but most advantageous. By you, +I was properly humbled. I came to you without a doubt of my +reception. You showed me how insufficient were all my +pretensions to please a woman worthy of being pleased." + +"Had you then persuaded yourself that I should?" + +"Indeed I had. What will you think of my vanity? I believed +you to be wishing, expecting my addresses." + +"My manners must have been in fault, but not intentionally, +I assure you. I never meant to deceive you, but my spirits +might often lead me wrong. How you must have hated me after +_that_ evening?" + +"Hate you! I was angry perhaps at first, but my anger soon +began to take a proper direction." + +"I am almost afraid of asking what you thought of me, when we +met at Pemberley. You blamed me for coming?" + +"No indeed; I felt nothing but surprise." + +"Your surprise could not be greater than _mine_ in being +noticed by you. My conscience told me that I deserved no +extraordinary politeness, and I confess that I did not expect +to receive _more_ than my due." + +"My object then," replied Darcy, "was to show you, by every +civility in my power, that I was not so mean as to resent the +past; and I hoped to obtain your forgiveness, to lessen your +ill opinion, by letting you see that your reproofs had been +attended to. How soon any other wishes introduced themselves +I can hardly tell, but I believe in about half an hour after +I had seen you." + +He then told her of Georgiana's delight in her acquaintance, +and of her disappointment at its sudden interruption; which +naturally leading to the cause of that interruption, she soon +learnt that his resolution of following her from Derbyshire in +quest of her sister had been formed before he quitted the inn, +and that his gravity and thoughtfulness there had arisen from +no other struggles than what such a purpose must comprehend. + +She expressed her gratitude again, but it was too painful a +subject to each, to be dwelt on farther. + +After walking several miles in a leisurely manner, and too busy +to know anything about it, they found at last, on examining +their watches, that it was time to be at home. + +"What could become of Mr. Bingley and Jane!" was a wonder +which introduced the discussion of their affairs. Darcy +was delighted with their engagement; his friend had given +him the earliest information of it. + +"I must ask whether you were surprised?" said Elizabeth. + +"Not at all. When I went away, I felt that it would soon +happen." + +"That is to say, you had given your permission. I guessed as +much." And though he exclaimed at the term, she found that it +had been pretty much the case. + +"On the evening before my going to London," said he, "I made a +confession to him, which I believe I ought to have made long +ago. I told him of all that had occurred to make my former +interference in his affairs absurd and impertinent. His +surprise was great. He had never had the slightest suspicion. +I told him, moreover, that I believed myself mistaken in +supposing, as I had done, that your sister was indifferent to +him; and as I could easily perceive that his attachment to her +was unabated, I felt no doubt of their happiness together." + +Elizabeth could not help smiling at his easy manner of +directing his friend. + +"Did you speak from your own observation," said she, "when +you told him that my sister loved him, or merely from my +information last spring?" + +"From the former. I had narrowly observed her during the two +visits which I had lately made here; and I was convinced of her +affection." + +"And your assurance of it, I suppose, carried immediate +conviction to him." + +"It did. Bingley is most unaffectedly modest. His diffidence +had prevented his depending on his own judgment in so anxious +a case, but his reliance on mine made every thing easy. I +was obliged to confess one thing, which for a time, and not +unjustly, offended him. I could not allow myself to conceal +that your sister had been in town three months last winter, +that I had known it, and purposely kept it from him. He was +angry. But his anger, I am persuaded, lasted no longer than +he remained in any doubt of your sister's sentiments. He has +heartily forgiven me now." + +Elizabeth longed to observe that Mr. Bingley had been a most +delightful friend; so easily guided that his worth was +invaluable; but she checked herself. She remembered that he +had yet to learn to be laughed at, and it was rather too early +to begin. In anticipating the happiness of Bingley, which of +course was to be inferior only to his own, he continued the +conversation till they reached the house. In the hall they +parted. + + + +Chapter 59 + + +"My dear Lizzy, where can you have been walking to?" was a +question which Elizabeth received from Jane as soon as she +entered their room, and from all the others when they sat down +to table. She had only to say in reply, that they had wandered +about, till she was beyond her own knowledge. She coloured as +she spoke; but neither that, nor anything else, awakened a +suspicion of the truth. + +The evening passed quietly, unmarked by anything extraordinary. +The acknowledged lovers talked and laughed, the unacknowledged +were silent. Darcy was not of a disposition in which happiness +overflows in mirth; and Elizabeth, agitated and confused, rather +_knew_ that she was happy than _felt_ herself to be so; for, besides +the immediate embarrassment, there were other evils before her. +She anticipated what would be felt in the family when her +situation became known; she was aware that no one liked him but +Jane; and even feared that with the others it was a dislike +which not all his fortune and consequence might do away. + +At night she opened her heart to Jane. Though suspicion was +very far from Miss Bennet's general habits, she was absolutely +incredulous here. + +"You are joking, Lizzy. This cannot be!--engaged to Mr. Darcy! +No, no, you shall not deceive me. I know it to be impossible." + +"This is a wretched beginning indeed! My sole dependence was +on you; and I am sure nobody else will believe me, if you do +not. Yet, indeed, I am in earnest. I speak nothing but the +truth. He still loves me, and we are engaged." + +Jane looked at her doubtingly. "Oh, Lizzy! it cannot be. +I know how much you dislike him." + +"You know nothing of the matter. _That_ is all to be forgot. +Perhaps I did not always love him so well as I do now. But in +such cases as these, a good memory is unpardonable. This is +the last time I shall ever remember it myself." + +Miss Bennet still looked all amazement. Elizabeth again, and +more seriously assured her of its truth. + +"Good Heaven! can it be really so! Yet now I must believe +you," cried Jane. "My dear, dear Lizzy, I would--I do +congratulate you--but are you certain? forgive the question +--are you quite certain that you can be happy with him?" + +"There can be no doubt of that. It is settled between us +already, that we are to be the happiest couple in the world. +But are you pleased, Jane? Shall you like to have such a +brother?" + +"Very, very much. Nothing could give either Bingley or +myself more delight. But we considered it, we talked of it as +impossible. And do you really love him quite well enough? +Oh, Lizzy! do anything rather than marry without affection. +Are you quite sure that you feel what you ought to do?" + +"Oh, yes! You will only think I feel _more_ than I ought to +do, when I tell you all." + +"What do you mean?" + +"Why, I must confess that I love him better than I do Bingley. +I am afraid you will be angry." + +"My dearest sister, now _be_ serious. I want to talk very +seriously. Let me know every thing that I am to know, without +delay. Will you tell me how long you have loved him?" + +"It has been coming on so gradually, that I hardly know when it +began. But I believe I must date it from my first seeing his +beautiful grounds at Pemberley." + +Another entreaty that she would be serious, however, produced +the desired effect; and she soon satisfied Jane by her solemn +assurances of attachment. When convinced on that article, Miss +Bennet had nothing further to wish. + +"Now I am quite happy," said she, "for you will be as happy as +myself. I always had a value for him. Were it for nothing but +his love of you, I must always have esteemed him; but now, as +Bingley's friend and your husband, there can be only Bingley +and yourself more dear to me. But Lizzy, you have been very +sly, very reserved with me. How little did you tell me of what +passed at Pemberley and Lambton! I owe all that I know of it +to another, not to you." + +Elizabeth told her the motives of her secrecy. She had been +unwilling to mention Bingley; and the unsettled state of her +own feelings had made her equally avoid the name of his friend. +But now she would no longer conceal from her his share in +Lydia's marriage. All was acknowledged, and half the night +spent in conversation. + + * * * * * + +"Good gracious!" cried Mrs. Bennet, as she stood at a window +the next morning, "if that disagreeable Mr. Darcy is not coming +here again with our dear Bingley! What can he mean by being so +tiresome as to be always coming here? I had no notion but he +would go a-shooting, or something or other, and not disturb us +with his company. What shall we do with him? Lizzy, you must +walk out with him again, that he may not be in Bingley's way." + +Elizabeth could hardly help laughing at so convenient a +proposal; yet was really vexed that her mother should be +always giving him such an epithet. + +As soon as they entered, Bingley looked at her so expressively, +and shook hands with such warmth, as left no doubt of his good +information; and he soon afterwards said aloud, "Mrs. Bennet, +have you no more lanes hereabouts in which Lizzy may lose her +way again to-day?" + +"I advise Mr. Darcy, and Lizzy, and Kitty," said Mrs. Bennet, +"to walk to Oakham Mount this morning. It is a nice long walk, +and Mr. Darcy has never seen the view." + +"It may do very well for the others," replied Mr. Bingley; "but +I am sure it will be too much for Kitty. Won't it, Kitty?" +Kitty owned that she had rather stay at home. Darcy professed +a great curiosity to see the view from the Mount, and Elizabeth +silently consented. As she went up stairs to get ready, +Mrs. Bennet followed her, saying: + +"I am quite sorry, Lizzy, that you should be forced to have +that disagreeable man all to yourself. But I hope you will not +mind it: it is all for Jane's sake, you know; and there is no +occasion for talking to him, except just now and then. So, do +not put yourself to inconvenience." + +During their walk, it was resolved that Mr. Bennet's consent +should be asked in the course of the evening. Elizabeth +reserved to herself the application for her mother's. She +could not determine how her mother would take it; sometimes +doubting whether all his wealth and grandeur would be enough +to overcome her abhorrence of the man. But whether she were +violently set against the match, or violently delighted with +it, it was certain that her manner would be equally ill adapted +to do credit to her sense; and she could no more bear that +Mr. Darcy should hear the first raptures of her joy, than the +first vehemence of her disapprobation. + + * * * * * + +In the evening, soon after Mr. Bennet withdrew to the library, +she saw Mr. Darcy rise also and follow him, and her agitation +on seeing it was extreme. She did not fear her father's +opposition, but he was going to be made unhappy; and that it +should be through her means--that _she_, his favourite child, +should be distressing him by her choice, should be filling him +with fears and regrets in disposing of her--was a wretched +reflection, and she sat in misery till Mr. Darcy appeared +again, when, looking at him, she was a little relieved by his +smile. In a few minutes he approached the table where she was +sitting with Kitty; and, while pretending to admire her work +said in a whisper, "Go to your father, he wants you in the +library." She was gone directly. + +Her father was walking about the room, looking grave and +anxious. "Lizzy," said he, "what are you doing? Are you out +of your senses, to be accepting this man? Have not you always +hated him?" + +How earnestly did she then wish that her former opinions had +been more reasonable, her expressions more moderate! It would +have spared her from explanations and professions which it was +exceedingly awkward to give; but they were now necessary, and +she assured him, with some confusion, of her attachment to +Mr. Darcy. + +"Or, in other words, you are determined to have him. He is +rich, to be sure, and you may have more fine clothes and fine +carriages than Jane. But will they make you happy?" + +"Have you any other objection," said Elizabeth, "than your +belief of my indifference?" + +"None at all. We all know him to be a proud, unpleasant sort +of man; but this would be nothing if you really liked him." + +"I do, I do like him," she replied, with tears in her eyes, +"I love him. Indeed he has no improper pride. He is perfectly +amiable. You do not know what he really is; then pray do not +pain me by speaking of him in such terms." + +"Lizzy," said her father, "I have given him my consent. +He is the kind of man, indeed, to whom I should never dare +refuse anything, which he condescended to ask. I now give it +to _you_, if you are resolved on having him. But let me advise +you to think better of it. I know your disposition, Lizzy. +I know that you could be neither happy nor respectable, unless +you truly esteemed your husband; unless you looked up to him +as a superior. Your lively talents would place you in the +greatest danger in an unequal marriage. You could scarcely +escape discredit and misery. My child, let me not have the +grief of seeing _you_ unable to respect your partner in life. +You know not what you are about." + +Elizabeth, still more affected, was earnest and solemn in her +reply; and at length, by repeated assurances that Mr. Darcy was +really the object of her choice, by explaining the gradual +change which her estimation of him had undergone, relating her +absolute certainty that his affection was not the work of a +day, but had stood the test of many months' suspense, and +enumerating with energy all his good qualities, she did conquer +her father's incredulity, and reconcile him to the match. + +"Well, my dear," said he, when she ceased speaking, "I have no +more to say. If this be the case, he deserves you. I could +not have parted with you, my Lizzy, to anyone less worthy." + +To complete the favourable impression, she then told him what +Mr. Darcy had voluntarily done for Lydia. He heard her with +astonishment. + +"This is an evening of wonders, indeed! And so, Darcy did +every thing; made up the match, gave the money, paid the +fellow's debts, and got him his commission! So much the +better. It will save me a world of trouble and economy. +Had it been your uncle's doing, I must and _would_ have paid +him; but these violent young lovers carry every thing their +own way. I shall offer to pay him to-morrow; he will rant +and storm about his love for you, and there will be an end +of the matter." + +He then recollected her embarrassment a few days before, on his +reading Mr. Collins's letter; and after laughing at her some +time, allowed her at last to go--saying, as she quitted the +room, "If any young men come for Mary or Kitty, send them in, +for I am quite at leisure." + +Elizabeth's mind was now relieved from a very heavy weight; +and, after half an hour's quiet reflection in her own room, +she was able to join the others with tolerable composure. +Every thing was too recent for gaiety, but the evening passed +tranquilly away; there was no longer anything material to +be dreaded, and the comfort of ease and familiarity would +come in time. + +When her mother went up to her dressing-room at night, she +followed her, and made the important communication. Its effect +was most extraordinary; for on first hearing it, Mrs. Bennet +sat quite still, and unable to utter a syllable. Nor was it +under many, many minutes that she could comprehend what she +heard; though not in general backward to credit what was for +the advantage of her family, or that came in the shape of a +lover to any of them. She began at length to recover, to +fidget about in her chair, get up, sit down again, wonder, +and bless herself. + +"Good gracious! Lord bless me! only think! dear me! +Mr. Darcy! Who would have thought it! And is it really true? +Oh! my sweetest Lizzy! how rich and how great you will be! +What pin-money, what jewels, what carriages you will have! +Jane's is nothing to it--nothing at all. I am so pleased--so +happy. Such a charming man!--so handsome! so tall!--Oh, my +dear Lizzy! pray apologise for my having disliked him so much +before. I hope he will overlook it. Dear, dear Lizzy. A house +in town! Every thing that is charming! Three daughters +married! Ten thousand a year! Oh, Lord! What will become of +me. I shall go distracted." + +This was enough to prove that her approbation need not be +doubted: and Elizabeth, rejoicing that such an effusion was +heard only by herself, soon went away. But before she had +been three minutes in her own room, her mother followed her. + +"My dearest child," she cried, "I can think of nothing else! +Ten thousand a year, and very likely more! 'Tis as good as a +Lord! And a special licence. You must and shall be married +by a special licence. But my dearest love, tell me what dish +Mr. Darcy is particularly fond of, that I may have it to-morrow." + +This was a sad omen of what her mother's behaviour to the +gentleman himself might be; and Elizabeth found that, though in +the certain possession of his warmest affection, and secure of +her relations' consent, there was still something to be wished +for. But the morrow passed off much better than she expected; +for Mrs. Bennet luckily stood in such awe of her intended +son-in-law that she ventured not to speak to him, unless it was +in her power to offer him any attention, or mark her deference +for his opinion. + +Elizabeth had the satisfaction of seeing her father taking +pains to get acquainted with him; and Mr. Bennet soon assured +her that he was rising every hour in his esteem. + +"I admire all my three sons-in-law highly," said he. "Wickham, +perhaps, is my favourite; but I think I shall like _your_ husband +quite as well as Jane's." + + + +Chapter 60 + + +Elizabeth's spirits soon rising to playfulness again, she +wanted Mr. Darcy to account for his having ever fallen in love +with her. "How could you begin?" said she. "I can comprehend +your going on charmingly, when you had once made a beginning; +but what could set you off in the first place?" + +"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look, or the +words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was +in the middle before I knew that I _had_ begun." + +"My beauty you had early withstood, and as for my manners--my +behaviour to _you_ was at least always bordering on the uncivil, +and I never spoke to you without rather wishing to give you pain +than not. Now be sincere; did you admire me for my impertinence?" + +"For the liveliness of your mind, I did." + +"You may as well call it impertinence at once. It was very +little less. The fact is, that you were sick of civility, of +deference, of officious attention. You were disgusted with +the women who were always speaking, and looking, and thinking +for _your_ approbation alone. I roused, and interested you, +because I was so unlike _them_. Had you not been really +amiable, you would have hated me for it; but in spite of the +pains you took to disguise yourself, your feelings were always +noble and just; and in your heart, you thoroughly despised the +persons who so assiduously courted you. There--I have saved +you the trouble of accounting for it; and really, all things +considered, I begin to think it perfectly reasonable. To be +sure, you knew no actual good of me--but nobody thinks of +_that_ when they fall in love." + +"Was there no good in your affectionate behaviour to Jane while +she was ill at Netherfield?" + +"Dearest Jane! who could have done less for her? But make a +virtue of it by all means. My good qualities are under your +protection, and you are to exaggerate them as much as possible; +and, in return, it belongs to me to find occasions for teasing +and quarrelling with you as often as may be; and I shall begin +directly by asking you what made you so unwilling to come to +the point at last. What made you so shy of me, when you first +called, and afterwards dined here? Why, especially, when you +called, did you look as if you did not care about me?" + +"Because you were grave and silent, and gave me no encouragement." + +"But I was embarrassed." + +"And so was I." + +"You might have talked to me more when you came to dinner." + +"A man who had felt less, might." + +"How unlucky that you should have a reasonable answer to give, +and that I should be so reasonable as to admit it! But I +wonder how long you _would_ have gone on, if you had been left +to yourself. I wonder when you _would_ have spoken, if I +had not asked you! My resolution of thanking you for your +kindness to Lydia had certainly great effect. _Too much_, I am +afraid; for what becomes of the moral, if our comfort springs +from a breach of promise? for I ought not to have mentioned +the subject. This will never do." + +"You need not distress yourself. The moral will be perfectly +fair. Lady Catherine's unjustifiable endeavours to separate us +were the means of removing all my doubts. I am not indebted +for my present happiness to your eager desire of expressing +your gratitude. I was not in a humour to wait for any opening +of your's. My aunt's intelligence had given me hope, and I was +determined at once to know every thing." + +"Lady Catherine has been of infinite use, which ought to make +her happy, for she loves to be of use. But tell me, what did +you come down to Netherfield for? Was it merely to ride to +Longbourn and be embarrassed? or had you intended any more +serious consequence?" + +"My real purpose was to see _you_, and to judge, if I could, +whether I might ever hope to make you love me. My avowed one, +or what I avowed to myself, was to see whether your sister were +still partial to Bingley, and if she were, to make the +confession to him which I have since made." + +"Shall you ever have courage to announce to Lady Catherine +what is to befall her?" + +"I am more likely to want more time than courage, Elizabeth. +But it ought to done, and if you will give me a sheet of paper, +it shall be done directly." + +"And if I had not a letter to write myself, I might sit by you +and admire the evenness of your writing, as another young lady +once did. But I have an aunt, too, who must not be longer +neglected." + +From an unwillingness to confess how much her intimacy with +Mr. Darcy had been over-rated, Elizabeth had never yet +answered Mrs. Gardiner's long letter; but now, having _that_ +to communicate which she knew would be most welcome, she was +almost ashamed to find that her uncle and aunt had already lost +three days of happiness, and immediately wrote as follows: + +"I would have thanked you before, my dear aunt, as I ought +to have done, for your long, kind, satisfactory, detail of +particulars; but to say the truth, I was too cross to write. +You supposed more than really existed. But _now_ suppose as +much as you choose; give a loose rein to your fancy, indulge your +imagination in every possible flight which the subject will +afford, and unless you believe me actually married, you cannot +greatly err. You must write again very soon, and praise him a +great deal more than you did in your last. I thank you, again +and again, for not going to the Lakes. How could I be so silly +as to wish it! Your idea of the ponies is delightful. We will +go round the Park every day. I am the happiest creature in the +world. Perhaps other people have said so before, but not one +with such justice. I am happier even than Jane; she only +smiles, I laugh. Mr. Darcy sends you all the love in the world +that he can spare from me. You are all to come to Pemberley at +Christmas. Yours, etc." + +Mr. Darcy's letter to Lady Catherine was in a different style; +and still different from either was what Mr. Bennet sent to +Mr. Collins, in reply to his last. + +"DEAR SIR, + +"I must trouble you once more for congratulations. Elizabeth +will soon be the wife of Mr. Darcy. Console Lady Catherine +as well as you can. But, if I were you, I would stand by the +nephew. He has more to give. + +"Yours sincerely, etc." + +Miss Bingley's congratulations to her brother, on his approaching +marriage, were all that was affectionate and insincere. She +wrote even to Jane on the occasion, to express her delight, and +repeat all her former professions of regard. Jane was not +deceived, but she was affected; and though feeling no reliance +on her, could not help writing her a much kinder answer than +she knew was deserved. + +The joy which Miss Darcy expressed on receiving similar +information, was as sincere as her brother's in sending it. +Four sides of paper were insufficient to contain all her +delight, and all her earnest desire of being loved by her +sister. + +Before any answer could arrive from Mr. Collins, or any +congratulations to Elizabeth from his wife, the Longbourn +family heard that the Collinses were come themselves to Lucas +Lodge. The reason of this sudden removal was soon evident. +Lady Catherine had been rendered so exceedingly angry by +the contents of her nephew's letter, that Charlotte, really +rejoicing in the match, was anxious to get away till the +storm was blown over. At such a moment, the arrival of +her friend was a sincere pleasure to Elizabeth, though in +the course of their meetings she must sometimes think the +pleasure dearly bought, when she saw Mr. Darcy exposed to all +the parading and obsequious civility of her husband. He bore +it, however, with admirable calmness. He could even listen to +Sir William Lucas, when he complimented him on carrying away +the brightest jewel of the country, and expressed his hopes of +their all meeting frequently at St. James's, with very decent +composure. If he did shrug his shoulders, it was not till Sir +William was out of sight. + +Mrs. Phillips's vulgarity was another, and perhaps a greater, +tax on his forbearance; and though Mrs. Phillips, as well as +her sister, stood in too much awe of him to speak with the +familiarity which Bingley's good humour encouraged, yet, +whenever she _did_ speak, she must be vulgar. Nor was her +respect for him, though it made her more quiet, at all likely +to make her more elegant. Elizabeth did all she could to +shield him from the frequent notice of either, and was ever +anxious to keep him to herself, and to those of her family with +whom he might converse without mortification; and though the +uncomfortable feelings arising from all this took from the +season of courtship much of its pleasure, it added to the hope +of the future; and she looked forward with delight to the time +when they should be removed from society so little pleasing to +either, to all the comfort and elegance of their family party +at Pemberley. + + + +Chapter 61 + + +Happy for all her maternal feelings was the day on which +Mrs. Bennet got rid of her two most deserving daughters. +With what delighted pride she afterwards visited Mrs. Bingley, +and talked of Mrs. Darcy, may be guessed. I wish I could say, +for the sake of her family, that the accomplishment of her +earnest desire in the establishment of so many of her children +produced so happy an effect as to make her a sensible, amiable, +well-informed woman for the rest of her life; though perhaps it +was lucky for her husband, who might not have relished domestic +felicity in so unusual a form, that she still was occasionally +nervous and invariably silly. + +Mr. Bennet missed his second daughter exceedingly; his +affection for her drew him oftener from home than anything +else could do. He delighted in going to Pemberley, especially +when he was least expected. + +Mr. Bingley and Jane remained at Netherfield only a twelvemonth. +So near a vicinity to her mother and Meryton relations was not +desirable even to _his_ easy temper, or _her_ affectionate heart. +The darling wish of his sisters was then gratified; he bought +an estate in a neighbouring county to Derbyshire, and Jane and +Elizabeth, in addition to every other source of happiness, were +within thirty miles of each other. + +Kitty, to her very material advantage, spent the chief of her +time with her two elder sisters. In society so superior to +what she had generally known, her improvement was great. She +was not of so ungovernable a temper as Lydia; and, removed from +the influence of Lydia's example, she became, by proper +attention and management, less irritable, less ignorant, and +less insipid. From the further disadvantage of Lydia's society +she was of course carefully kept, and though Mrs. Wickham +frequently invited her to come and stay with her, with the +promise of balls and young men, her father would never consent +to her going. + +Mary was the only daughter who remained at home; and she was +necessarily drawn from the pursuit of accomplishments by +Mrs. Bennet's being quite unable to sit alone. Mary was +obliged to mix more with the world, but she could still +moralize over every morning visit; and as she was no longer +mortified by comparisons between her sisters' beauty and her +own, it was suspected by her father that she submitted to +the change without much reluctance. + +As for Wickham and Lydia, their characters suffered no +revolution from the marriage of her sisters. He bore with +philosophy the conviction that Elizabeth must now become +acquainted with whatever of his ingratitude and falsehood +had before been unknown to her; and in spite of every thing, +was not wholly without hope that Darcy might yet be prevailed +on to make his fortune. The congratulatory letter which +Elizabeth received from Lydia on her marriage, explained to +her that, by his wife at least, if not by himself, such a +hope was cherished. The letter was to this effect: + +"MY DEAR LIZZY, + +"I wish you joy. If you love Mr. Darcy half as well as I do my +dear Wickham, you must be very happy. It is a great comfort to +have you so rich, and when you have nothing else to do, I hope +you will think of us. I am sure Wickham would like a place at +court very much, and I do not think we shall have quite money +enough to live upon without some help. Any place would do, of +about three or four hundred a year; but however, do not speak +to Mr. Darcy about it, if you had rather not. + +"Yours, etc." + +As it happened that Elizabeth had _much_ rather not, she +endeavoured in her answer to put an end to every entreaty +and expectation of the kind. Such relief, however, as it +was in her power to afford, by the practice of what might be +called economy in her own private expences, she frequently +sent them. It had always been evident to her that such an +income as theirs, under the direction of two persons so +extravagant in their wants, and heedless of the future, must +be very insufficient to their support; and whenever they +changed their quarters, either Jane or herself were sure of +being applied to for some little assistance towards discharging +their bills. Their manner of living, even when the restoration +of peace dismissed them to a home, was unsettled in the +extreme. They were always moving from place to place in quest +of a cheap situation, and always spending more than they ought. +His affection for her soon sunk into indifference; her's lasted +a little longer; and in spite of her youth and her manners, she +retained all the claims to reputation which her marriage had +given her. + +Though Darcy could never receive _him_ at Pemberley, yet, for +Elizabeth's sake, he assisted him further in his profession. +Lydia was occasionally a visitor there, when her husband was +gone to enjoy himself in London or Bath; and with the Bingleys +they both of them frequently staid so long, that even Bingley's +good humour was overcome, and he proceeded so far as to talk +of giving them a hint to be gone. + +Miss Bingley was very deeply mortified by Darcy's marriage; but +as she thought it advisable to retain the right of visiting at +Pemberley, she dropt all her resentment; was fonder than ever +of Georgiana, almost as attentive to Darcy as heretofore, and +paid off every arrear of civility to Elizabeth. + +Pemberley was now Georgiana's home; and the attachment of the +sisters was exactly what Darcy had hoped to see. They were able +to love each other even as well as they intended. Georgiana had +the highest opinion in the world of Elizabeth; though at first +she often listened with an astonishment bordering on alarm at +her lively, sportive, manner of talking to her brother. He, who +had always inspired in herself a respect which almost overcame +her affection, she now saw the object of open pleasantry. Her +mind received knowledge which had never before fallen in her way. +By Elizabeth's instructions, she began to comprehend that a woman +may take liberties with her husband which a brother will not +always allow in a sister more than ten years younger than himself. + +Lady Catherine was extremely indignant on the marriage of her +nephew; and as she gave way to all the genuine frankness of her +character in her reply to the letter which announced its +arrangement, she sent him language so very abusive, especially +of Elizabeth, that for some time all intercourse was at an end. +But at length, by Elizabeth's persuasion, he was prevailed on +to overlook the offence, and seek a reconciliation; and, after +a little further resistance on the part of his aunt, her +resentment gave way, either to her affection for him, or her +curiosity to see how his wife conducted herself; and she +condescended to wait on them at Pemberley, in spite of that +pollution which its woods had received, not merely from the +presence of such a mistress, but the visits of her uncle and +aunt from the city. + +With the Gardiners, they were always on the most intimate +terms. 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The Chatsubo +was a bar for professional expatriates; you could drink there +for a week and never hear two words in Japanese. +Ratz was tending bar, his prosthetic arm jerking monotonously +as he filled a tray of glasses with draft Kirin. He saw +Case and smiled, his teeth a web work of East European steel +and brown decay. Case found a place at the bar, between the +unlikely tan on one of Lonny Zone's whores and the crisp naval +uniform of a tall African whose cheekbones were ridged with +Joe boys," Ratz said, shoving a draft across the bar with his +good hand. "Maybe some business with you, Case?" +Case shrugged. The girl to his right giggled and nudged + + +The bartender's smile widened. His ugliness was the stuff +of legend. In an age of affordable beauty, there was something +heraldic about his lack of it. The antique arm whined as he +reached for another mug. It was a Russian military prosthesis, +a seven-function force-feedback manipulator, cased in grubby +pink plastic. "You are too much the artiste, Herr Case." Ratz +grunted; the sound served him as laughter. He scratched his +overhang of white-shirted belly with the pink claw. "You are +the artiste of the slightly funny deal." +"Sure," Case said, and sipped his beer. "Somebody's gotta +be funny around here. Sure the fuck isn't you." +The whore's giggle went up an octave. +"Isn't you either, sister. So you vanish, okay? Zone, he's +a close personal friend of mine." +She looked Case in the eye and made the softest possible +spitting sound, her lips barely moving. But she left. +"Jesus," Case said, "what kind a creep joint you running here? +Man can't have a drink." +"Ha," Ratz said, swabbing the scarred wood with a rag, +"Zone shows a percentage. You I let work here for entertainment +value." +As Case was picking up his beer, one of those strange +instants of silence descended, as though a hundred unrelated +conversations had simultaneously arrived at the same pause. +Then the whore's giggle rang out, tinged with a certain hysteria. +Ratz grunted. "An angel passed." +"The Chinese," bellowed a drunken Australian, "Chinese +bloody invented nerve-splicing. Give me the mainland for a +nerve job any day. Fix you right, mate...." +"Now that," Case said to his glass, all his bitterness suddenly +rising in him like bile, "that is so much bullshit." + +The Japanese had already forgotten more neurosurgery than +the Chinese had ever known. The black clinics of Chiba were +the cutting edge, whole bodies of technique supplanted monthly, +and still they couldn't repair the damage he'd suffered in that +Memphis hotel. +A year here and he still dreamed of cyberspace, hope fading +nightly. All the speed he took, all the turns he'd taken and the +corners he'd cut in Night City, and still he'd see the matrix in +his sleep, bright lattices of logic unfolding across that colorless +void.... The Sprawl was a long strange way home over the +Pacific now, and he was no console man, no cyberspace cowboy. +Just another hustler, trying to make it through. But the +dreams came on in the Japanese night like live wire voodoo +and he'd cry for it, cry in his sleep, and wake alone in the +dark, curled in his capsule in some coffin hotel, his hands +clawed into the bedslab, temper foam bunched between his fingers, +trying to reach the console that wasn't there. + +"I saw your girl last night," Ratz said, passing Case his +second Kirin. +"I don't have one," he said, and drank. +"Miss Linda Lee." +Case shook his head. +"No girl? Nothing? Only biz, friend artiste? Dedication to +commerce?" The bartender's small brown eyes were nested +deep in wrinkled flesh. "I think I liked you better, with her. +You laughed more. Now, some night, you get maybe too artistic, +you wind up in the clinic tanks, spare parts." +"You're breaking my heart, Ratz." He finished his beer, +paid and left, high narrow shoulders hunched beneath the rain-stained +khaki nylon of his windbreaker. Threading his way +through the Ninsei crowds, he could smell his own stale sweat. +Case was twenty-four. At twenty-two, he'd been a cowboy +a rustler, one of the best in the Sprawl. He'd been trained by +the best, by McCoy Pauley and Bobby Quine, legends in the +biz. He'd operated on an almost permanent adrenaline high, a +byproduct of youth and proficiency, jacked into a custom cyberspace +deck that projected his disembodied consciousness +into the consensual hallucination that was the matrix. A thief +he'd worked for other, wealthier thieves, employers who provided +the exotic software required to penetrate the bright walls +of corporate systems, opening windows into rich fields of data. +He'd made the classic mistake, the one he'd sworn he'd +never make. He stole from his employers. He kept something +for himself and tried to move it through a fence in Amsterdam. +He still wasn't sure how he'd been discovered, not that it +mattered now. He'd expected to die, then, but they only smiled. + + +Of course he was welcome, they told him, welcome to the +money. And he was going to need it. Because--still smiling-- +they were going to make sure he never worked again. +They damaged his nervous system with a wartime Russian +mycotoxin. +Strapped to a bed in a Memphis hotel, his talent burning +out micron by micron, he hallucinated for thirty hours. +The damage was minute, subtle, and utterly effective. +For Case, who'd lived for the bodiless exultation of cyberspace, +it was the Fall. In the bars he'd frequented as a cowboy +hotshot, the elite stance involved a certain relaxed contempt +for the flesh. The body was meat. Case fell into the prison of +his own flesh. + +His total assets were quickly converted to New Yen, a fat +sheaf of the old paper currency that circulated endlessly through +the closed circuit of the world's black markets like the seashells +of the Trobriand islanders. It was difficult to transact legitimate +business with cash in the Sprawl; in Japan, it was already +illegal. +In Japan, he'd known with a clenched and absolute certainty, +he'd find his cure. In Chiba. Either in a registered clinic or in +the shadow land of black medicine. Synonymous with implants, +nerve-splicing, and micro bionics, Chiba was a magnet for the +Sprawl's techno-criminal subcultures. +In Chiba, he'd watched his New Yen vanish in a two-month +round of examinations and consultations. The men in the black +clinics, his last hope, had admired the expertise with which +he'd been maimed, and then slowly shaken their heads. +Now he slept in the cheapest coffins, the ones nearest the +port, beneath the quartz-halogen floods that lit the docks all +night like vast stages; where you couldn't see the lights of +Tokyo for the glare of the television sky, not even the towering +hologram logo of the Fuji Electric Company, and Tokyo Bay +was a black expanse where gulls wheeled above drifting shoals +of white styrofoam. Behind the port lay the city, factory domes +dominated by the vast cubes of corporate arcologies. Port and +city were divided by a narrow borderland of older streets, an +area with no official name. Night City, with Ninsei its heart. +By day, the bars down Ninsei were shuttered and featureless, +the neon dead, the holograms inert, waiting, under the poisoned +silver sky. + +Two blocks west of the Chat, in a teashop called the Jarre +de The, Case washed down the night's first pill with a double +espresso. It was a flat pink octagon, a potent species of Brazilian +dex he bought from one of Zone's girls. +The Jarre was walled with mirrors, each panel framed in +red neon. +At first, finding himself alone in Chiba, with little money +and less hope of finding a cure, he'd gone into a kind of terminal +overdrive, hustling fresh capital with a cold intensity that had +seemed to belong to someone else. In the first month, he'd +killed two men and a woman over sums that a year before +would have seemed ludicrous. Ninsei wore him down until the +street itself came to seem the externalization of some death +wish, some secret poison he hadn't known he carried. +Night City was like a deranged experiment in social Darwinism, +designed by a bored researcher who kept one thumb +permanently on the fast-forward button. Stop hustling and you +sank without a trace, but move a little too swiftly and you'd +break the fragile surface tension of the black market; either +way, you were gone, with nothing left of you but some vague +memory in the mind of a fixture like Ratz, though heart or +lungs or kidneys might survive in the service of some stranger +with New Yen for the clinic tanks. +Biz here was a constant subliminal hum, and death the +accepted punishment for laziness, carelessness, lack of grace, +the failure to heed the demands of an intricate protocol. +Alone at a table in the Jarre de The, with the octagon coming +on, pinheads of sweat starting from his palms, suddenly aware +of each tingling hair on his arms and chest, Case knew that at +some point he'd started to play a game with himself, a very +ancient one that has no name, a final solitaire. He no longer +carried a weapon, no longer took the basic precautions. He ran +the fastest, loosest deals on the street, and he had a reputation +for being able to get whatever you wanted. A part of him knew +that the arc of his self-destruction was glaringly obvious to his +customers, who grew steadily fewer, but that same part of him +basked in the knowledge that it was only a matter of time. And +that was the part of him, smug in its expectation of death, that +most hated the thought of Linda Lee. +He'd found her, one rainy night, in an arcade. +Under bright ghosts burning through a blue haze of cigarette +smoke, holograms of Wizard's Castle, Tank War Europa, +the New York skyline.... And now he remembered her that +way, her face bathed in restless laser light, features reduced to +a code: her cheekbones flaring scarlet as Wizard's Castle burned, +forehead drenched with azure when Munich fell to the Tank +War, mouth touched with hot gold as a gliding cursor struck +sparks from the wall of a skyscraper canyon. He was riding +high that night, with a brick of Wage's ketamine on its way +to Yokohama and the money already in his pocket. He'd come +in out of the warm rain that sizzled across the Ninsei pavement +and somehow she'd been singled out for him, one face out of +the dozens who stood at the consoles, lost in the game she +played. The expression on her face, then, had been the one +he'd seen, hours later, on her sleeping face in a port side coffin, +her upper lip like the line children draw to represent a bird in +flight. +Crossing the arcade to stand beside her, high on the deal +he'd made, he saw her glance up. Gray eyes rimmed with +smudged black paintstick. Eyes of some animal pinned in the +headlights of an oncoming vehicle. +Their night together stretching into a morning, into tickets +at the hover port and his first trip across the Bay. The rain kept +up, falling along Harajuku, beading on her plastic jacket, the +children of Tokyo trooping past the famous boutiques in white +loafers and cling wrap capes, until she'd stood with him in the +midnight clatter of a pachinko parlor and held his hand like a +child. +It took a month for the gestalt of drugs and tension he moved +through to turn those perpetually startled eyes into wells of +reflexive need. He'd watched her personality fragment, calving +like an iceberg, splinters drifting away, and finally he'd seen +the raw need, the hungry armature of addiction. He'd watched +her track the next hit with a concentration that reminded him +of the mantises they sold in stalls along Shiga, beside tanks of +blue mutant carp and crickets caged in bamboo. +He stared at the black ring of grounds in his empty cup. It +was vibrating with the speed he'd taken. The brown laminate +of the table top was dull with a patina of tiny scratches. With +the dex mounting through his spine he saw the countless random +impacts required to create a surface like that. The Jarre was +decorated in a dated, nameless style from the previous century, +an uneasy blend of Japanese traditional and pale Milanese plastics, +but everything seemed to wear a subtle film, as though +the bad nerves of a million customers had somehow attacked +the mirrors and the once glossy plastics, leaving each surface +fogged with something that could never be wiped away. +"Hey. Case, good buddy...." +He looked up, met gray eyes ringed with paintstick. She +was wearing faded French orbital fatigues and new white sneakers. + +"I been lookin' for you, man." She took a seat opposite +him, her elbows on the table. The sleeves of the blue zip suit +had been ripped out at the shoulders; he automatically checked +her arms for signs of derms or the needle. "Want a cigarette?" +She dug a crumpled pack of Yeheyuan filters from an ankle +pocket and offered him one. He took it, let her light it with a +red plastic tube. "You sleep in' okay, Case? You look tired." +Her accent put her south along the Sprawl, toward Atlanta. +The skin below her eyes was pale and unhealthy-looking, but +the flesh was still smooth and firm. She was twenty. New lines +of pain were starting to etch themselves permanently at the +corners of her mouth. Her dark hair was drawn back, held by +a band of printed silk. The pattern might have represented +microcircuits, or a city map. +"Not if I remember to take my pills," he said, as a tangible +wave of longing hit him, lust and loneliness riding in on the +wavelength of amphetamine. He remembered the smell of her +skin in the overheated darkness of a coffin near the port, her +locked across the small of his back. +All the meat, he thought, and all it wants. +"Wage," she said, narrowing her eyes. "He wants to see +you with a hole in your face." She lit her own cigarette. +"Who says? Ratz? You been talking to Ratz?" +"No. Mona. Her new squeeze is one of Wage's boys." +"I don't owe him enough. He does me, he's out the money +anyway." He shrugged. + +"Too many people owe him now, Case. Maybe you get to +be the example. You seriously better watch it." +"Sure. How about you, Linda? You got anywhere to sleep?" +"Sleep." She shook her head. "Sure, Case." She shivered, +hunched forward over the table. Her face was filmed with +sweat. +"Here," he said, and dug in the pocket of his windbreaker, +coming up with a crumpled fifty. He smoothed it automatically, +under the table, folded it in quarters, and passed it to her. +"You need that, honey. You better give it to Wage." There +was something in the gray eyes now that he couldn't read, +something he'd never seen there before. +"I owe Wage a lot more than that. Take it. I got more +coming," he lied, as he watched his New Yen vanish into a +zippered pocket. +"You get your money, Case, you find Wage quick." +"I'll see you, Linda," he said, getting up. +"Sure." A millimeter of white showed beneath each of her +pupils. Sanpaku. "You watch your back, man." +He nodded, anxious to be gone. +He looked back as the plastic door swung shut behind him, +saw her eyes reflected in a cage of red neon. + +Friday night on Ninsei. +He passed yakitori stands and massage parlors, a franchised +coffee shop called Beautiful Girl, the electronic thunder of an +arcade. He stepped out of the way to let a dark-suited sarariman +by, spotting the Mitsubishi-Genentech logo tattooed across the +back of the man's right hand. +Was it authentic? if that's for real, he thought, he's in for +trouble. If it wasn't, served him right. M-G employees above +a certain level were implanted with advanced microprocessors +that monitored mutagen levels in the bloodstream. Gear like +that would get you rolled in Night City, rolled straight into a +black clinic. +The sarariman had been Japanese, but the Ninsei crowd was +a gaijin crowd. Groups of sailors up from the port, tense solitary +tourists hunting pleasures no guidebook listed, Sprawl heavies +showing off grafts and implants, and a dozen distinct species. +of hustler, all swarming the street in an intricate dance of desire +and commerce. +There were countless theories explaining why Chiba City +tolerated the Ninsei enclave, but Case tended toward the idea +that the Yakuza might be preserving the place as a kind of +historical park, a reminder of humble origins. But he also +saw a certain sense in the notion that burgeoning technologies +require outlaw zones, that Night City wasn't there for its inhabitants, +but as a deliberately unsupervised playground for +technology itself. +Was Linda right, he wondered, staring up at the lights? +Would Wage have him killed to make an example? It didn't +make much sense, but then Wage dealt primarily in proscribed +biologicals, and they said you had to be crazy to do that. +But Linda said Wage wanted him dead. Case's primary +insight into the dynamics of street dealing was that neither the +buyer nor the seller really needed him. A middleman's business +is to make himself a necessary evil. The dubious niche Case +had carved for himself in the criminal ecology of Night City +had beep cut out with lies, scooped out a night at a time with +betrayal. Now, sensing that its walls were starting to crumble, +he felt the edge of a strange euphoria. +The week before, he'd delayed transfer of a synthetic glandular +extract, retailing it for a wider margin than usual. He +knew Wage hadn't liked that. Wage was his primary supplier, +nine years in Chiba and one of the few gaijin dealers who'd +Managed to forge links with the rigidly stratified criminal establishment +beyond Night City's borders. Genetic materials and +hormones trickled down to Ninsei along an intricate ladder of +fronts and blinds. Somehow Wage had managed to trace something +back, once, and now he enjoyed steady connections in a +dozen cities. +Case found himself staring through a shop window. The +place sold small bright objects to the sailors. Watches, flicknives, +lighters, pocket VTRs, Sims Tim decks, weighted man- +riki chains, and shuriken. The shuriken had always fascinated +him, steel stars with knife-sharp points. Some were chromed, +others black, others treated with a rainbow surface like oil on +water. But the chrome stars held his gaze. They were mounted +against scarlet ultra suede with nearly invisible loops of nylon +fish line, their centers stamped with dragons or yin yang symbols. +They caught the street's neon and twisted it, and it came +to Case that these were the stars under which he voyaged, his +destiny spelled out in a constellation of cheap chrome. +"Julie," he said to his stars. "Time to see old Julie. He'll +know." + +Julius Deane was one hundred and thirty-five years old, his +metabolism assiduously warped by a weekly fortune in serums +and hormones. His primary hedge against aging was a yearly +pilgrimage to Tokyo, where genetic surgeons re-set the code +of his DNA, a procedure unavailable in Chiba. Then he'd fly +to Hong-Kong and order the year's suits and shirts. Sex-less and +inhumanly patient, his primary gratification seemed to lie in +his devotion to esoteric forms of tailor-worship. Case had never +seen him wear the same suit twice, although his wardrobe +seemed to consist entirely of meticulous reconstructions of garments +of the previous century. He affected prescription lenses, +framed in spidery gold, ground from thin slabs of pink synthetic +quartz and beveled like the mirrors in a Victorian doll house. +His offices were located in a warehouse behind Ninsei, part +of which seemed to have been sparsely decorated, years before, +with a random collection of European furniture, as though +Deane had once intended to use the place as his home. Neo-Aztec +bookcases gathered dust against one wall of the room +where Case waited. A pair of bulbous Disney-styled table lamps +perched awkwardly on a low Kandinsky-look coffee table in +scarlet-lacquered steel. A Dali clock hung on the wall between +the bookcases, its distorted face sagging to the bare concrete +floor. Its hands were holograms that altered to match the convolutions +of the face as they rotated, but it never told the correct +time. The room was stacked with white fiberglass shipping +modules that gave off the tang of preserved ginger. +"You seem to be clean, old son," said Deane's disembodied +voice. "Do come in." +Magnetic bolts thudded out of position around the massive +imitation-rosewood door to the left of the bookcases. JULIUS +DEANE IMPORT EXPORT was lettered across the plastic in +peeling self-adhesive capitals. If the furniture scattered in +Deane's makeshift foyer suggested the end of the past century, +the office itself seemed to belong to its start. +Deane's seamless pink face regarded Case from a pool of +light cast by an ancient brass lamp with a rectangular shade of +dark green glass. The importer was securely fenced behind a +vast desk of painted steel, flanked on either side by tall, drawer +Ed cabinets made of some sort of pale wood. The sort of +thing, Case supposed, that had once been used to store written +records of some kind. The desktop was littered with cassettes, +scrolls of yellowed printout, and various parts of some sort of +clockwork typewriter, a machine Deane never seemed to get +around to reassembling. +"What brings you around, boy?" Deane asked, offering +Case a narrow bonbon wrapped in blue-and-white checked paper. +"Try one. Tins Ting Djahe, the very best." Case refused +the ginger, took a seat in a yawing wooden swivel chair, and +ran a thumb down the faded seam of one black jeans-leg. "Julie +I hear Wage wants to kill me." +"Ah. Well then. And where did you hear this, if I may?" +"People." +"People," Deane said, around a ginger bonbon. "What sort +of people? Friends?" +Case nodded. +"Not always that easy to know who your friends are, is it?" +"I do owe him a little money, Deane. He say anything to +you?" +"Haven't been in touch, of late." Then he sighed. "If I did +know, of course, I might not be in a position to tell you. Things +being what they are, you understand." +"Things?" +"He's an important connection Case." +"Yeah. He want to kill me, Julie?" +"Not that I know of." Deane shrugged. They might have +been discussing the price of ginger. "If it proves to be an +unfounded rumor, old son, you come back in a week or so and +I'll let you in on a little something out of Singapore." +"Out of the Nan Hai Hotel, Bencoolen Street?" +"Loose lips, old son!" Deane grinned. The steel desk was +jammed with a fortune in debugging gear. +"Be seeing you, Julie. I'll say hello to Wage." + +Deane's fingers came up to brush the perfect knot in his +pale silk tie. + +He was less than a block from Deane's office when it hit, +the sudden cellular awareness that someone was on his ass, +and very close. +The cultivation of a certain tame paranoia was something +Case took for granted. The trick lay in not letting it get out of +control. But that could be quite a trick, behind a stack of +octagons. He fought the adrenaline surge and composed his +narrow features in a mask of bored vacancy, pretending to let +the crowd carry him along. When he saw a darkened display +window, he managed to pause by it. The place was a surgical +boutique, closed for renovations. With his hands in the pockets +of his jacket, he stared through the glass at a flat lozenge of +vat grown flesh that lay on a carved pedestal of imitation jade. +The color of its skin reminded him of Zone's whores; it was +tattooed with a luminous digital display wired to a sub-cutaneous +chip. Why bother with the surgery, he found himself thinking, +while sweat coursed down his ribs, when you could just carry +the thing around in your pocket? +Without moving his head, he raised his eyes and studied +the reflection of the passing crowd. +There. +Behind sailors in short-sleeved khaki. Dark hair, mirrored +glasses, dark clothing, slender. . . +And gone. +Then Case was running, bent low, dodging between bodies. + +"Rent me a gun, Shin?" +The boy smiled. "Two hour." They stood together in the +smell of fresh raw seafood at the rear of a Shiga sushi stall. +"You come back, two hour." +"I need one now, man. Got anything right now?" +Shin rummaged behind empty two-liter cans that had once +been filled with powdered horseradish. He produced a slender +package wrapped in gray plastic. "Taser. One hour, twenty +New Yen. Thirty deposit." +"Shit. I don't need that. I need a gun. Like I maybe wanna +shoot somebody, understand?" +The waiter shrugged, replacing the taser behind the horseradish +cans. "Two hour." +He went into the shop without bothering to glance at the +display of shuriken. He'd never thrown one in his life. +He bought two packs of Yeheyuans with a Mitsubishi Bank +chip that gave his name as Charles Derek May. It beat Truman +Starr, the best he'd been able to do for a passport. +The Japanese woman behind the terminal looked like she +had a few years on old Deane, none of them with the benefit +of science. He took his slender roll of New Yen out of his +pocket and showed it to her. "I want to buy a weapon." +She gestured in the direction of a case filled with knives. +"No," he said, "I don't like knives." +She brought an oblong box from beneath the counter. The +lid was yellow cardboard, stamped with a crude image of a +coiled cobra with a swollen hood. Inside were eight identical +tissue-wrapped cylinders. He watched while mottled brown +fingers stripped the paper from one. She held the thing up for +him to examine, a dull steel tube with a leather thong at one +end and a small bronze pyramid at the other. She gripped the +tube with one hand, the pyramid between her other thumb and +forefinger, and pulled. Three oiled, telescoping segments of +tightly wound coil spring slid out and locked. "Cobra," she said. + +Beyond the neon shudder of Ninsei, the sky was that mean +shade of gray. The air had gotten worse; it seemed to have +teeth tonight, and half the crowd wore filtration masks. Case +had spent ten minutes in a urinal, trying to discover a convenient +way to conceal his cobra; finally he'd settled for tucking the +handle into the waistband of his jeans, with the tube slanting +across his stomach. The pyramidal striking tip rode between +his ribcage and the lining of his windbreaker. The thing felt +like it might clatter to the pavement with his next step, but it +made him feel better. +The Chat wasn't really a dealing bar, but on weeknights it +attracted a related clientele. Fridays and Saturdays were different. +The regulars were still there, most of them, but they +faded behind an influx of sailors and the specialists who preyed +on diem. As Case pushed through the doors, he looked for +Ratz, but the bartender wasn't in sight. Lonny Zone, the bar's +resident pimp, was observing with glazed fatherly interest as +one of his girls went to work on a young sailor. Zone was +addicted to a brand of hypnotic the Japanese called Cloud +Dancers. Catching the pimp's eye, Case beckoned him to the +bar. Zone came drifting through the crowd in slow motion, his +long face slack and placid. +"You seen Wage tonight, Lonny?" +Zone regarded him with his usual calm. He shook his head. +"You sure, man?" +"Maybe in the Namban. Maybe two hours ago." +"Got some Joeboys with him? One of 'em thin, dark hair, +maybe a black jacket?" +"No," Zone said at last, his smooth forehead creased to +indicate the effort it cost him to recall so much pointless detail. +"Big boys. Graftees." Zone's eyes showed very little white and +less iris; under the drooping lids, his pupils were dilated and +enormous. He stared into Case's face for a long time, then +lowered his gaze. He saw the bulge of the steel whip. "Cobra," +he said, and raised an eyebrow. "You wanna fuck somebody +up?" +"See you, Lonny." Case left the bar. + +His tail was back. He was sure of it. He felt a stab of elation +the octagons and adrenaline mingling with something else. +You're enjoying this, he thought; you're crazy. +Because, in some weird and very approximate way, it was +like a run in the matrix. Get just wasted enough, find yourself +in some desperate but strangely arbitrary kind of trouble, and +it was possible to see Ninsei as a field of data, the way the +matrix had once reminded him of proteins linking to distinguish +cell specialties. Then you could throw yourself into a high-speed +drift and skid, totally engaged but set apart from it all, and all +around you the dance of biz, information interacting, data made +flesh in the mazes of the black market.... +Go it, Case, he told himself. Suck 'em in. Last thing they'll +expect. He was half a block from the games arcade where he'd +first met Linda Lee. +He bolted across Ninsei, scattering a pack of strolling sailors. +One of them screamed after him in Spanish. Then he was +through the entrance, the sound crashing over him like surf, +subsonics throbbing in the pit of his stomach. Someone scored +a ten-megaton hit on Tank War Europa, a simulated air burst +drowning the arcade in white sound as a lurid hologram fireball +mushroomed overhead. He cut to the right and loped up a flight +of unpainted chip board stairs. He'd come here once with Wage, +to discuss a deal in proscribed hormonal triggers with a man +called Matsuga. He remembered the hallway, its stained matting, +the row of identical doors leading to tiny office cubicles. +One door was open now. A Japanese girl in a sleeveless black +t-shirt glanced up from a white terminal, behind her head a +travel poster of Greece, Aegian blue splashed with streamlined +ideograms. +"Get your security up here," Case told her. +Then he sprinted down the corridor, out of her sight. The +last two doors were closed and, he assumed, locked. He spun +and slammed the sole of his nylon running shoe into the blue-lacquered +composition door at the far end. It popped, cheap +hardware falling from the splintered frame. Darkness there, the +white curve of a terminal housing. Then he was on the door +to its right, both hands around the transparent plastic knob, +leaning in with everything he had. Something snapped, and he +was inside. This was where he and Wage had met with Matsuga, +but whatever front company Matsuga had operated was +long gone. No terminal, nothing. Light from the alley behind +the arcade, filtering in through soot blown plastic. He made out +a snake like loop of fiber optics protruding from a wall socket, +a pile of discarded food containers, and the blade less nacelle +of an electric fan. +The window was a single pane of cheap plastic. He shrugged +out of his jacket, bundled it around his right hand, and punched. +It split, requiring two more blows to free it from the frame. +Over the muted chaos of the games, an alarm began to cycle, +triggered either by the broken window or by the girl at the head +of the corridor. +Case turned, pulled his jacket on, and flicked the cobra to +full extension. +With the door closed, he was counting on his tail to assume +he'd gone through the one he'd kicked half off its hinges. The +cobra's bronze pyramid began to bob gently, the spring-steel +shaft amplifying his pulse. +Nothing happened. There was only the surging of the alarm, +the crashing of the games, his heart hammering. When the fear +came, it was like some half-forgotten friend. Not the cold +rapid mechanism of the dex-paranoia, but simple animal fear. +He'd lived for so long on a constant edge of anxiety that he'd +almost forgotten what real fear was. +This cubicle was the sort of place where people died. He +might die here. They might have guns.... +A crash, from the far end of the corridor. A man's voice, +shouting something in Japanese. A scream, shrill terror. Another +crash. +And footsteps, unhurried, coming closer. +Passing his closed door. Pausing for the space of three rapid +beats of his heart. And returning. One, two, three. A bootheel +scraped the matting. +The last of his octagon-induced bravado collapsed. He +snapped the cobra into its handle and scrambled for the window, +blind with fear, his nerves screaming. He was up, out, and +falling, all before he was conscious of what he'd done. The +impact with pavement drove dull rods of pain through his shins. +A narrow wedge of light from a half-open service hatch +framed a heap of discarded fiber optics and the chassis of a +junked console. He'd fallen face forward on a slab of soggy +chip board, he rolled over, into the shadow of the console. The +cubicle's window was a square of faint light. The alarm still +oscillated, louder here, the rear wall dulling the roar of the +games. +A head appeared, framed in the window, back lit by the +fluorescents in the corridor, then vanished. It returned, but he +still couldn't read the features. Glint of silver across the eyes. +"Shit," someone said, a woman, in the accent of the northern +Sprawl. +The head was gone. Case lay under the console for a long +count of twenty, then stood up. The steel cobra was still in his +hand, and it took him a few seconds to remember what it was. +He limped away down the alley, nursing his left ankle. + +Shin's pistol was a fifty-year-old Vietnamese imitation of +a South American copy of a Walther PPK, double-action on +the first shot, with a very rough pull. It was chambered for .22 +long rifle, and Case would've preferred lead azide explosives +to the simple Chinese hollow points Shin had sold him. Still +it was a handgun and nine rounds of ammunition, and as he +made his way down Shiga from the sushi stall he cradled it in +his jacket pocket. The grips were bright red plastic molded in +a raised dragon motif, something to run your thumb across +in the dark. He'd consigned the cobra to a dump canister on +Ninsei and dry-swallowed another octagon. +The pill lit his circuits and he rode the rush down Shiga to +Ninsei, then over to Baiitsu. His tail, he'd decided, was gone +and that was fine. He had calls to make, biz to transact, and +it wouldn't wait. A block down Baiitsu, toward the port, stood +a featureless ten-story office building in ugly yellow brick. Its +windows were dark now, but a faint glow from the roof was +visible if you craned your neck. An unlit neon sign near the +main entrance offered CHEAP HOTEL under a cluster of ideograms. +If the place had another name, Case didn't know it; it +was always referred to as Cheap Hotel. You reached it through +an alley off Baiitsu, where an elevator waited at the foot of a +transparent shaft. The elevator, like Cheap Hotel, was an afterthought, +lashed to the building with bamboo and epoxy. Case +climbed into the plastic cage and used his key, an unmarked +length of rigid magnetic tape. +Case had rented a coffin here, on a weekly basis, since he'd +arrived in Chiba, but he'd never slept in Cheap Hotel. He slept +in cheaper places. +The elevator smelled of perfume and cigarettes; the sides +of the cage was scratched and thumb-smudged. As it passed the +fifth floor, he saw the lights of Ninsei. He drummed his fingers +against the pistol grip as the cage slowed with a gradual hiss. +As always, it came to a full stop with a violent jolt, but he +was ready for it. He stepped out into the courtyard that served +the place as some combination of lobby and lawn. +Centered in the square carpet of green plastic turf, a lapanese +teenager sat behind a C-shaped console, reading a textbook. +The white fiberglass coffins were racked in a framework of +industrial scaffolding. Six tiers of coffins, ten coffins on a side. + +Case nodded in the boy's direction and limped across the plastic +grass to the nearest ladder. The compound was roofed with +cheap laminated matting that rattled in a strong wind and leaked +when it rained, but the coffins were reasonably difficult to open +without a key. +The expansion-grate catwalk vibrated with his weight as he +edged his way along the third tier to Number 92. The coffins +were three meters long, the oval hatches a meter wide and just +under a meter and a half tall. He fed his key into the slot and +waited for verification from the house computer. Magnetic bolts +thudded reassuringly and the hatch rose vertically with a creak +of springs. Fluorescents flickered on as he crawled in, pulling +the hatch shut behind him and slapping the panel that activated +the manual latch. +There was nothing in Number 92 but a standard Hitachi +pocket computer and a small white styrofoam cooler chest. The +cooler contained the remains of three ten-kilo slabs of dry ice +carefully wrapped in paper to delay evaporation, and a spun +aluminum lab flask. Crouching on the brown temper foam slab +that was both floor and bed, Case took Shin's .22 from his +pocket and put it on top of the cooler. Then he took off his +jacket. The coffin's terminal was molded into one concave wall, +opposite a panel listing house rules in seven languages. Case +took the pink handset from its cradle and punched a Hong-Kong +number from memory. He let it ring five times, then hung up. +His buyer for the three megabytes of hot RAM in the Hitachi +wasn't taking calls. +He punched a Tokyo number in Shinjuku. +A woman answered, something in Japanese. +"Snake Man there?" +"Very good to hear from you," said Snake Man, coming in +on an extension. "I've been expecting your call." +"I got the music you wanted." Glancing at the cooler. +"I'm very glad to hear that. We have a cash flow problem. +Can you front?" +"Oh, man, I really need the money bad...." +Snake Man hung up. +"You shit " Case said to the humming receiver. He stared +at the cheap little pistol. +"Iffy," he said, "it's all looking very iffy tonight." + +Case walked into the Chat an hour before dawn, both hands +in the pockets of his jacket; one held the rented pistol, the other +the aluminum flask. +Ratz was at a rear table, drinking Apollonaris water from +a beer pitcher, his hundred and twenty kilos of doughy flesh +tilted against the wall on a creaking chair. A Brazilian kid +called Kurt was on the bar, tending a thin crowd of mostly +silent drunks. Ratz's plastic arm buzzed as he raised the pitcher +and drank. His shaven head was filmed with sweat. "You look +bad, friend artiste," he said, flashing the wet ruin of his teeth. +"I'm doing just fine," said Case, and grinned like a skull. +"Super fine." He sagged into the chair opposite Ratz, hands +still in his pockets. +"And you wander back and forth in this portable bombshelter +built of booze and ups, sure. Proof against the grosser emotions, +yes?" +"Why don't you get off my case, Ratz? You seen Wage?" +"Proof against fear and being alone," the bartender continued. +"Listen to the fear. Maybe it's your friend." +"You hear anything about a fight in the arcade tonight, Ratz? +Somebody hurt?" +"Crazy cut a security man." He shrugged. "A girl, they +say." +"I gotta talk to Wage, Ratz, I. . ." +"Ah." Ratz's mouth narrowed, compressed into a single +line. He was looking past Case, toward the entrance. "I think +you are about to." +Case had a sudden flash of the shuriken in their window. +The speed sang in his head. The pistol in his hand was slippery +with sweat. +"Herr Wage," Ratz said, slowly extending his pink manipulator +as if he expected it to be shaken. "How great a pleasure. +Too seldom do you honor us." +Case turned his head and looked up into Wage's face. It +was a tanned and forgettable mask. The eyes were vat grown +sea-green Nikon transplants. Wage wore a suit of gunmetal +silk and a simple bracelet of platinum on either wrist. He was +flanked by his Joe boys, nearly identical young men, their arms +and shoulders bulging with grafted muscle. + +"How you doing, Case?" +"Gentlemen," said Ratz, picking up the table's heaped ashtray +in his pink plastic claw, "I want no trouble here." The +ashtray was made of thick, shatterproof plastic, and advertised +Tsingtao beer. Ratz crushed it smoothly, butts and shards of +green plastic cascading onto the table top. "You understand?" +"Hey, sweetheart," said one of the Joe boys, "you wanna try +that thing on me?" +"Don't bother aiming for the legs, Kurt," Ratz said, his tone +conversational. Case glanced across the room and saw the Brazilian +standing on the bar, aiming a Smith & Wesson riot gun +at the trio. The thing's barrel, made of paper-thin alloy wrapped +with a kilometer of glass filament, was wide enough to swallow +a fist. The skeletal magazine revealed five fat orange cartridges, +subsonic sandbag jellies. +"Technically nonlethal," said Ratz. +"Hey, Ratz," Case said, "I owe you one." +The bartender shrugged. "Nothing, you owe me. These," +and he glowered at Wage and the Joe boys, "should know better. +You don't take anybody off in the Chatsubo." +Wage coughed. "So who's talking about taking anybody +off? We just wanna talk business. Case and me, we work +together." +Case pulled the .22 out of his pocket and level led it at +Wage's crotch. "I hear you wanna do me." Ratz's pink claw +closed around the pistol and Case let his hand go limp. +"Look, Case, you tell me what the fuck is going on with +you, you wig or something? What's this shit I'm trying to kill +you?" Wage turned to the boy on his left. "You two go back +to the Namban. Wait for me." +Case watched as they crossed the bar, which was now entirely +deserted except for Kurt and a drunken sailor in khakis, +who was curled at the foot of a barstool. The barrel of the +Smith & Wesson tracked the two to the door, then swung back +to cover Wage. The magazine of Case's pistol clattered on the +table. Ratz held the gun in his claw and pumped the round out +of the chamber. +"Who told you I was going to hit you, Case?" Wage asked. +Linda. +"Who told you, man? Somebody trying to set you up?" +The sailor moaned and vomited explosively. +"Get him out of here," Ratz called to Kurt, who was sitting +on the edge of the bar now, the Smith & Wesson across his +lap, lighting a cigarette. +Case felt the weight of the night come down on him like a +bag of wet sand settling behind his eyes. He took the flask out +of his pocket and handed it to Wage. "All I got. Pituitaries. +Get you five hundred if you move it fast. Had the rest of my +roll in some RAM, but that's gone by now." +"You okay, Case?" The flask had already vanished behind +a gunmetal lapel. "I mean, fine, this'll square us, but you look +bad. Like hammered shit. You better go somewhere and sleep." +"Yeah." He stood up and felt the Chat sway around him. +"Well, I had this fifty, but I gave it to somebody." He giggled. +He picked up the .22's magazine and the one loose cartridge +and dropped them into one pocket, then put the pistol in the +other. "I gotta see Shin, get my deposit back." +"Go home," said Ratz, shifting on the creaking chair with +something like embarrassment. "Artiste. Go home." +He felt them watching as he crossed the room and shouldered +his way past the plastic doors. + +"Bitch," he said to the rose tint over Shiga. Down on Ninsei +the holograms were vanishing like ghosts, and most of the neon +was already cold and dead. He sipped thick black coffee from +a street vendor's foam thimble and watched the sun come up. +"You fly away, honey. Towns like this are for people who like +the way down." But that wasn't it, really, and he was finding +it increasingly hard to maintain the sense of betrayal. She just +wanted a ticket home, and the RAM in his Hitachi would buy +it for her, if she could find the right fence. And that business +with the fifty; she'd almost turned it down, knowing she was +about to rip him for the rest of what he had. +When he climbed out of the elevator, the same boy was on +the desk. Different textbook. "Good buddy," Case called across +the plastic turf, "you don't need to tell me. I know already. +Pretty lady came to visit, said she had my key. Nice little tip +for you, say fifty New ones?" The boy put down his book. +"Woman," Case said, and drew a line across his forehead with +his thumb. "Silk." He smiled broadly. The boy smiled back, +nodded. "Thanks, ass hole," Case said. +On the catwalk, he had trouble with the lock. She'd messed +it up somehow when she'd fiddled it, he thought. Beginner. +He knew where to rent a black box that would open anything +in Cheap Hotel. Fluorescents came on as he crawled in. +"Close the hatch real slow, friend. You still got that Saturday +night special you rented from the waiter?" +She sat with her back to the wall, at the far end of the coffin. +She had her knees up, resting her wrists on them, the pepper box +muzzle of a flechette pistol emerged from her hands. +"That you in the arcade?" He pulled the hatch down. +"Where's Linda?" +"Hit that latch switch." +He did. +"That your girl? Linda?" +He nodded. +"She's gone. Took your Hitachi. Real nervous kid. What +about the gun, man?" She wore mirrored glasses. Her clothes +were black, the heels of black boots deep in the temper foam. +"I took it back to Shin, got my deposit. Sold his bullets +back to him for half what I paid. You want the money?" +"No." +"Want some dry ice? All I got, right now." +"What got into you tonight? Why'd you pull that scene at +the arcade? I had to mess up this rentacop came after me with +nun chucks. " +"Linda said you were gonna kill me." +"Linda said? I never saw her before I came up here." +"You aren't with Wage?" +She shook her head. He realized that the glasses were surgically +inset, sealing her sockets. The silver lenses seemed to +grow from smooth pale skin above her cheekbones, framed by +dark hair cut in a rough shag. The fingers curled around the +fletcher were slender, white, tipped with polished burgundy. +The nails looked artificial. "I think you screwed up, Case. I +showed up and you just fit me right into your reality picture." +"So what do you want, lady?" He sagged back against the +hatch. +"You. One live body, brains still somewhat intact. Molly, +Case. My name's Molly. I'm collecting you for the man I work +for. Just wants to talk, is all. Nobody wants to hurt you " +"That's good." +"'Cept I do hurt people sometimes, Case. I guess it's just +the way I'm wired." She wore tight black glove leather jeans +and a bulky black jacket cut from some matte fabric that seemed +to absorb light. "If I put this dart gun away, will you be easy, +Case? You look like you like to take stupid chances." +"Hey, I'm very easy. I'm a pushover, no problem." +"That's fine, man." The fletcher vanished into the black +jacket. "Because you try to fuck around with me, you'll be +taking one of the stupidest chances of your whole life." +She held out her hands, palms up, the white fingers slightly +spread, and with a barely audible click, ten double-edged, four + centimeter scalpel blades slid from their housings beneath the +burgundy nails. +She smiled. The blades slowly withdrew. + +After a year of coffins, the room on the twenty-fifth floor +of the Chiba Hilton seemed enormous. It was ten meters by +eight, half of a suite. A white Braun coffee maker steamed on +a low table by the sliding glass panels that opened onto a narrow +balcony. +"Get some coffee in you. Look like you need it." She took +off her black jacket, the fletcher hung beneath her arm in a +black nylon shoulder rig. She wore a sleeveless gray pullover +with plain steel zips across each shoulder. Bulletproof, Case +decided, slopping coffee into a bright red mug. His arms and +legs felt like they were made out of wood. +"Case." He looked up, seeing the man for the first time. +"My name is Armitage." The dark robe was open to the waist, +the broad chest hairless and muscular, the stomach flat and +hard. Blue eyes so pale they made Case think of bleach. "Sun's +up, Case. This is your lucky day, boy." +Case whipped his arm sideways and the man easily ducked +the scalding coffee. Brown stain running down the imitation + +rice paper wall. He saw the angular gold ring through the left +lobe. Special Forces. The man smiled. +"Get your coffee, Case," Molly said. "You're okay, but +you're not going anywhere 'til Armitage has his say." She sat +cross legged on a silk futon and began to fieldstrip the fletcher +without bothering to look at it. Twin mirrors tracking as he +crossed to the table and refilled his cup. +"Too young to remember the war, aren't you, Case?" Armitage +ran a large hand back through his cropped brown hair. +A heavy gold bracelet flashed on his wrist. "Leningrad, Kiev, +Siberia. We invented you in Siberia, Case." +"What's that supposed to mean?" +"Screaming Fist, Case. You've heard the name." +"Some kind of run, wasn't it? Tried to burn this Russian +nexus with virus programs. Yeah, I heard about it. And nobody +got out." +He sensed abrupt tension. Armitage walked to the window +and looked out over Tokyo Bay. "That isn't true. One unit +made it back to Helsinki, Case." +Case shrugged, sipped coffee. +"You're a console cowboy. The prototypes of the programs +you use to crack industrial banks were developed for Screaming +Fist. For the assault on the Kirensk computer nexus. Basic +module was a Nightwing micro light, a pilot, a matrix deck, a +jockey. We were running a virus called Mole. The Mole series +was the first generation of real intrusion programs." +"Icebreakers," Case said, over the rim of the red mug. +"Ice from ICE, intrusion countermeasures electronics." +"Problem is, mister, I'm no jockey now, so I think I'll just +be going...." +"I was there, Case; I was there when they invented your +kind." +"You got zip to do with me and my kind, buddy. You're +rich enough to hire expensive razor girls to haul my ass up here, +is all. I'm never gonna punch any deck again, not for you or +anybody else." He crossed to the window and looked down. +"That's where I live now." +"Our profile says you're trying to con the street into killing +you when you're not looking." +"Profile?" +"We've built up a detailed model. Bought a go-to for each +of your aliases and ran the skim through some military software. +You're suicidal, Case. The model gives you a month on the +outside. And our medical projection says you'll need a new +pancreas inside a year." +"We." He met the faded blue eyes. "We who?" +"What would you say if I told you we could correct your +neural damage, Case'?" Armitage suddenly looked to Case as +if he were carved from a block of metal; inert, enormously +heavy. A statue. He knew now that this was a dream, and that +soon he'd wake. Armitage wouldn't speak again. Case's dreams +always ended in these freeze frames, and now this one was +over. +"What would you say, Case?" +Case looked out over the Bay and shivered. +"I'd say you were full of shit." +Armitage nodded. +"Then I'd ask what your terms were." +"Not very different than what you're used to, Case." +"Let the man get some sleep, Armitage," Molly said from +her futon, the components of the fletcher spread on the silk +like some expensive puzzle. "He's coming apart at the seams." +"Terms," Case said, "and now. Right now." +He was still shivering. He couldn't stop shivering. + +The clinic was nameless, expensively appointed, a cluster +of sleek pavilions separated by small formal gardens. He remembered +the place from the round he'd made his first month +in Chiba. +"Scared, Case. You're real scared." It was Sunday afternoon +and he stood with Molly in a sort of courtyard. White boulders, +a stand of green bamboo, black gravel raked into smooth waves. +A gardener, a thing like a large metal crab, was tending the +bamboo. +"It'll work, Case. You got no idea, the kind of stuff Armitage +has. Like he's gonna pay these nerve boys for fixing +you with the program he's giving them to tell them how to do +it. He'll put them three years ahead of the competition. You +got any idea what that's worth?" She hooked thumbs in the +belt loops of her leather jeans and rocked backward on the +lacquered heels of cherry red cowboy boots. The narrow toes +were sheathed in bright Mexican silver. The lenses were empty +quicksilver, regarding him with an insect calm. +"You're street samurai," he said. "How long you work for +him?" +"Couple of months." +"What about before that?" +"For somebody else. Working girl, you know?" +He nodded. +"Funny, Case." +"What's funny?" +"It's like I know you. That profile he's got. I know how +you're wired." +"You don't know me, sister." +"You're okay, Case. What got you, it's just called bad luck." +"How about him? He okay, Molly?" The robot crab moved +toward them, picking its way over the waves of gravel. Its +bronze carapace might have been a thousand years old. When +it was within a meter of her boots, it fired a burst of light, then +froze for an instant, analyzing data obtained. +"What I always think about first, Case, is my own sweet +ass." The crab had altered course to avoid her, but she kicked +it with a smooth precision, the silver boot-tip clanging on the +carapace. The thing fell on its back, but the bronze limbs soon +righted it. +Case sat on one of the boulders, scuffing at the symmetry +of the gravel waves with the toes of his shoes. He began to +search his pockets for cigarettes. "In your shirt," she said. +"You want to answer my question?" He fished a wrinkled +Yeheyuan from the pack and she lit it for him with a thin slab +of German steel that looked as though it belonged on an operating +table. +"Well, I'll tell you, the man's definitely on to something. +He's got big money now, and he's never had it before, and he +gets more all the time." Case noticed a certain tension around +her mouth. "Or maybe, maybe something's on to him...." +She shrugged. +"What's that mean?" +"I don't know, exactly. I know I don't know who or what +we're really working for." +He stared at the twin mirrors. Leaving the Hilton, Saturday +morning, he'd gone back to Cheap Hotel and slept for ten hours . +Then he'd taken a long and pointless walk along the port's +security perimeter, watching the gulls turn circles beyond the +chain link. If she'd followed him, she'd done a good job of it. +He'd avoided Night City. He'd waited in the coffin for Armitage's +call. Now this quiet courtyard, Sunday afternoon, this +girl with a gymnast's body and conjurer's hands. +"If you'll come in now, sir, the anesthetist is waiting to +meet you." The technician bowed, turned, and reentered the +clinic without waiting to see if Case would follow. + +Cold steel odor. Ice caressed his spine. +Lost, so small amid that dark, hands grown cold, body image +fading down corridors of television sky. +Voices. +Then black fire found the branching tributaries of the nerves, +pain beyond anything to which the name of pain is given.... + +Hold still. Don't move. +And Ratz was there, and Linda Lee, Wage and Lonny Zone, +a hundred faces from the neon forest, sailors and hustlers and +whores, where the sky is poisoned silver, beyond chain link +and the prison of the skull. +Goddamn don't you move. +Where the sky faded from hissing static to the non color of +the matrix, and he glimpsed the shuriken, his stars. +"Stop it, Case, I gotta find your vein!" +She was straddling his chest, a blue plastic syrette in one +hand. "You don't lie still, I'll slit your fucking throat. You're +still full of endorphin inhibitors." + +He woke and found her stretched beside him in the dark. +His neck was brittle, made of twigs. There was a steady +pulse of pain midway down his spine. Images formed and +reformed: a flickering montage of the Sprawl's towers and +ragged Fuller domes, dim figures moving toward him in the +shade beneath a bridge or overpass.... +"Case? It's Wednesday, Case." She moved, rolling over, +reaching across him. A breast brushed his upper arm. He heard +her tear the foil seal from a bottle of water and drink. "Here." +She put the bottle in his hand. "I can see in the dark, Case. +Micro channel image-amps in my glasses." +"My back hurts." +"That's where they replaced your fluid. Changed your blood +too. Blood 'cause you got a new pancreas thrown into the deal. +And some new tissue patched into your liver. The nerve stuff +I dunno. Lot of injections. They didn't have to open anything +up for the main show." She settled back beside him. "It's +2:43:12 AM, Case. Got a readout chipped into my optic nerve." +He sat up and tried to sip from the bottle. Gagged, coughed, +lukewarm water spraying his chest and thighs. +"I gotta punch deck, ' he heard himself say. He was groping +for his clothes. "I gotta know...." +She laughed. Small strong hands gripped his upper arms. +"Sorry, hotshot. Eight day wait. Your nervous system would +fall out on the floor if you jacked in now. Doctor's orders. +Besides, they figure it worked. Check you in a day or so." He +lay down again. +"Where are we?" +"Home. Cheap Hotel." +"Where's Armitage?" +"Hilton, selling beads to the natives or something. We're +out of here soon, man. Amsterdam, Paris, then back to the +Sprawl." She touched his shoulder. "Roll over. I give a good +massage." +He lay on his stomach, arms stretched forward, tips of his +fingers against the walls of the coffin. She settled over the +small of his back, kneeling on the temper foam, the leather +jeans cool against his skin. Her fingers brushed his neck. +"How come you're not at the Hilton?" +She answered him by reaching back, between his thighs +and gently encircling his scrotum with thumb and forefinger. +She rocked there for a minute in the dark, erect above him, +her other hand on his neck. The leather of her jeans creaked +softly with the movement. Case shifted, feeling himself harden +against the temper foam. +His head throbbed, but the brittleness in his neck seemed +to retreat. He raised himself on one elbow, rolled, sank back +against the foam, pulling her down, licking her breasts, small +hard nipples sliding wet across his cheek. He found the zip on +the leather jeans and tugged it down. +"It's okay," she said, "I can see." Sound of the jeans peeling +down. She struggled beside him until she could kick them away. +She threw a leg across him and he touched her face. Unexpected +hardness of the implanted lenses. "Don't," she said, "fingerprints." + +Now she straddled him again, took his hand, and closed it +over her, his thumb along the cleft of her buttocks, his fingers +spread across the labia. As she began to lower herself, the +images came pulsing back, the faces, fragments of neon arriving +and receding. She slid down around him and his back arched +convulsively. She rode him that way, impaling herself, slipping +down on him again and again, until they both had come, his +orgasm flaring blue in a timeless space, a vastness like the +matrix, where the faces were shredded and blown away down +hurricane corridors, and her inner thighs were strong and wet +against his hips. + +On Nisei, a thinner, weekday version of the crowd went +through the motions of the dance. Waves of sound rolled from +the arcades and pachinko parlors. Case glanced into the Chat +and saw Zone watching over his girls in the warm, beer-smelling +twilight. Ratz was tending bar. +"You seen Wage, Ratz?" +"Not tonight." Ratz made a point of raising an eyebrow at +Molly. +"You see him, tell him I got his money." +"Luck changing, my artiste?" +"Too soon to tell." + +"Well, I gotta see this guy," Case said, watching his reflection +in her glasses. "I got biz to cancel out of." +"Armitage won't like it, I let you out of my sight." She +stood beneath Deane's melting clock, hands on her hips. +"The guy won't talk to me if you're there. Deane I don't +give two shits about. He takes care of himself. But I got people +who'll just go under if I walk out of Chiba cold. It's my people, +you know?" +Her mouth hardened. She shook her head. + +"I got people in Singapore, Tokyo connections in Shinjuku +and Asakuza, and they'll go down, understand?" he lied, his +hand on the shoulder of her black jacket. "Five. Five minutes. +By your clock, okay?" +"Not what I'm paid for." +"What you're paid for is one thing. Me letting some tight +friends die because you're too literal about your instructions is +something else." +"Bullshit. Tight friends my ass. You're going in there to +check us out with your smuggler." She put a booted foot up +on the dust-covered Kandinsky coffee table. +"Ah, Case, sport, it does look as though your companion +there is definitely armed, aside from having a fair amount of +silicon in her head . What is this about, exactly?" Deane ' s ghostly +cough seemed to hang in the air between them. +"Hold on, Julie. Anyway, I'll be coming in alone." +"You can be sure of that, old son. Wouldn't have it any +other way." +"Okay," she said. "Go. But five Minutes. Any more and +I'll come in and cool your tight friend permanently. And while +you're at it, you try to figure something out." +"What's that?" +"Why I'm doing you the favor." She turned and walked +out, past the stacked white modules of preserved ginger. +"Keeping stranger company than usual, Case?" asked Julie. +"Julie, she's gone. You wanna let me in? Please, Julie?" +The bolts worked. "Slowly, Case," said the voice. +"Turn on the works, Julie, all the stuff in the desk," Case +said, taking his place in the swivel chair. +"It's on all the time," Deane said mildly, taking a gun from +behind the exposed works of his old mechanical typewriter and +aiming it carefully at Case. It was a belly gun, a magnum +revolver with the barrel sawn down to a nub. The front of the +trigger-guard had been cut away and the grips wrapped with +what looked like old masking tape. Case thought it looked very +strange in Dean's manicured pink hands. "Just taking care, you +Understand. Nothing personal. Now tell me what you want." +"I need a history lesson, Julie. And a go-to on somebody." +"What's moving, old son'?" Deane's shirt was candy-striped +cotton, the collar white and rigid, like porcelain. + +"Me, Julie. I'm leaving. Gone. But do me the favor, okay?" +"Go-to on whom, old son?" +"Gaijin name of Armitage, suite in the Hilton." +Deane put the pistol down. "Sit still, Case." He tapped +something out on a lap terminal. "It seems as though you know +as much as my net does, Case. This gentleman seems to have +a temporary arrangement with the Yakuza, and the sons of the +neon chrysanthemum have ways of screening their allies from +the likes of me. I wouldn't have it any other way. Now, history. +You said history." He picked up the gun again, but didn't point +it directly at Case. "What sort of history?" +"The war. You in the war, Julie?" +"The war? What's there to know? Lasted three weeks." +"Screaming Fist." +"Famous. Don't they teach you history these days? Great +bloody postwar political football, that was. Watergated all to +hell and back. Your brass, Case, your Sprawlside brass in, +where was it, McLean? In the bunkers, all of that... great +scandal. Wasted a fair bit of patriotic young flesh in order to +test some new technology. They knew about the Russians' defenses, +it came out later. Knew about the emps, magnetic pulse +weapons. Sent these fellows in regardless, just to see." Deane +shrugged. "Turkey shoot for Ivan." +"Any of those guys make it out?" +"Christ,'' Deane said, "it's been bloody years.... Though +I do think a few did. One of the teams. Got hold of a Sov +gunship. Helicopter, you know. Flew it back to Finland. Didn't +have entry codes, of course, and shot hell out of the Finnish +defense forces in the process. Special Forces types." Deane +sniffed. "Bloody hell." +Case nodded. The smell of preserved ginger was overwhelming. + +"I spent the war in Lisbon, you know," Deane said, putting +the gun down. "Lovely place, Lisbon." +"In the service, Julie?" +"Hardly. Though I did see action." Deane smiled his pink +smile. "Wonderful what a war can do for one's markets." +"Thanks, Julie. I owe you one." +"Hardly, Case. And goodbye." + +* * * + + +And later he'd tell himself that the evening at Sammi's had +felt wrong from the start, that even as he'd followed Molly +along that corridor, shuffling through a trampled mulch of ticket +stubs and styrofoam cups, he'd sensed it. Linda's death, waiting.... + +They'd gone to the Namban, after he'd seen Deane, and +paid off his debt to Wage with a roll of Armitage's New Yen. +Wage had liked that, his boys had liked it less, and Molly had +grinned at Case's side with a kind of ecstatic feral intensity, +obviously longing for one of them to make a move. Then he'd +taken her back to the Chat for a drink. +"Wasting your time, cowboy," Molly said, when Case took +an octagon from the pocket of his jacket. +"How's that? You want one?" He held the pill out to her. +"Your new pancreas, Case, and those plugs in your liver. +Armitage had them designed to bypass that shit." She tapped +the octagon with one burgundy nail. "You're biochemically +incapable of getting off on amphetamine or cocaine." +"Shit," he said. He looked at the octagon, then at her. +"Eat it. Eat a dozen. Nothing'll happen." +He did. Nothing did. +Three beers later, she was asking Ratz about the fights. +"Sammi's," Ratz said. +"I'll pass," Case said, "I hear they kill each other down +there." +An hour later, she was buying tickets from a skinny Thai +in a white t-shirt and baggy rugby shorts. +Sammi's was an inflated dome behind a port side warehouse, +taut gray fabric reinforced with a net of thin steel cables. The +corridor, with a door at either end, was a crude airlock preserving +the pressure differential that supported the dome. Fluorescent +rings were screwed to the plywood ceiling at intervals, +but most of them had been broken. The air was damp and close +with the smell of sweat and concrete. +None of that prepared him for the arena, the crowd, the +tense hush, the towering puppets of light beneath the dome. +Concrete sloped away in tiers to a kind of central stage, a raised +circle ringed with a glittering thicket of projection gear. No +light but the holograms that shifted and flickered above the +ring, reproducing the movements of the two men below. Strata +of cigarette smoke rose from the tiers, drifting until it struck +currents set up by the blowers that supported the dome. No +sound but the muted purring of the blowers and the amplified +breathing of the fighters. +Reflected colors flowed across Molly's lenses as the men +circled. The holograms were ten-power magnifications; at ten, +the knives they held were just under a meter long. The knife-fighter's +grip is the fencer's grip, Case remembered, the fingers +curled, thumb aligned with blade. The knives seemed to move +of their own accord, gliding with a ritual lack of urgency through +the arcs and passes of their dance, point passing point, as the +men waited for an opening. Molly's upturned face was smooth +and still, watching. +"I'll go find us some food," Case said. She nodded, lost in +contemplation of the dance. +He didn't like this place. +He turned and walked back into the shadows. Too dark. +Too quiet. +The crowd, he saw, was mostly Japanese. Not really a Night +City crowd. Teaks down from the arcologies. He supposed that +meant the arena had the approval of some corporate recreational +committee. He wondered briefly what it would be like, working +all your life for one zaibatsu. Company housing, company +hymn, company funeral. +He'd made nearly a full circuit of the dome before he found +the food stalls. He bought yakitori on skewers and two tall +waxy cartons of beer. Glancing up at the holograms, he saw +that blood laced one figure's chest. Thick brown sauce trickled +down the skewers and over his knuckles. +Seven days and he'd jack in. If he closed his eyes now, +he'd see the matrix. +Shadows twisted as the holograms swung through their dance. +Then the fear began to knot between his shoulders. A cold +trickle of sweat worked its way down and across his ribs. The +operation hadn't worked. He was still here, still meat, no Molly +waiting, her eyes locked on the circling knives, no Armitage +waiting in the Hilton with tickets and a new passport and +money. It was all some dream, some pathetic fantasy.... Hot +tears blurred his vision. +Blood sprayed from a jugular in a red gout of light. And +now the crowd was screaming, rising, screaming--as one figure +crumpled, the hologram fading, flickering.... +Raw edge of vomit in his throat. He closed his eyes, took +a deep breath, opened them, and saw Linda Lee step past him +her gray eyes blind with fear. She wore the same French fatigues. + +And gone. Into shadow. +Pure mindless reflex: he threw the beer and chicken down +and ran after her. He might have called her name, but he'd +never be sure. +Afterimage of a single hair-fine line of red light. Seared +concrete beneath the thin soles of his shoes. +Her white sneakers flashing, close to the curving wall now +and again the ghost line of the laser branded across his eye, +bobbing in his vision as he ran. +Someone tripped him. Concrete tore his palms. +He rolled and kicked, failing to connect. A thin boy, spiked +blond hair lit from behind in a rainbow nimbus, was leaning +over him. Above the stage, a figure turned, knife held high, +to the cheering crowd. The boy smiled and drew something +from his sleeve. A razor, etched in red as a third beam blinked +past them into the dark. Case saw the razor dipping for his +throat like a dowser's wand. +The face was erased in a humming cloud of microscopic +explosions. Molly's fletchettes, at twenty rounds per second. +The boy coughed once, convulsively, and toppled across Case's +legs. +He was walking toward the stalls, into the shadows. He +looked down, expecting to see that needle of ruby emerge from +his chest. Nothing. He found her. She was thrown down at the +foot of a concrete pillar, eyes closed. There was a smell of +cooked meat. The crowd was chanting the winner's name. A +beer vendor was wiping his taps with a dark rag. One white +sneaker had come off, somehow, and lay beside her head. +Follow the wall. Curve of concrete. Hands in pockets. Keep +walking. Past unseeing faces, every eye raised to the victor's +image above the ring. Once a seamed European face danced +in the glare of a match, lips pursed around the short stem of a +metal pipe. Tang of hashish. Case walked on, feeling nothing. + +"Case." Her mirrors emerged from deeper shadow. "You +okay?" +Something mewlcd and bubbled in the dark behind her. +He shook his head. +"Fight's over, Case. Time to go home." +He tried to walk past her. back into the dark, where something +was dying. She stopped him with a hand on his chest. +"Friends of your tight friend. Killed your girl for you. You +haven't done too well for friends in this town, have you? We +got a partial profile on that old bastard when we did you, man. +He'd fry anybody, for a few New ones. The one back there +said they got on to her when she was trying to fence your RAM. +Just cheaper for them to kill her and take it. Save a little +money.... I got the one who had the laser to tell me all about +it. Coincidence we were here, but I had to make sure." Her +mouth was hard, lips pressed into a thin line. +Case felt as though his brain were jammed. "Who," he said, +"who sent them?" +She passed him a blood-flecked bag of preserved ginger. +He saw that her hands were sticky with blood. Back in the +shadows, someone made wet sounds and died. + +After the postoperative check at the clinic, Molly took him +to the port. Armitage was waiting. He'd chartered a hovercraft. +The last Case saw of Chiba were the dark angles of the arcologies. +Then a mist closed over the black water and the drifting +shoals of waste. + +PART TWO + +THE SHOPPING +EXPEDITION + +Home. +Home was BAMA, the Sprawl, the Boston-Atlanta Metropolitan +Axis. +Program a map to display frequency of data exchange, every +thousand megabytes a single pixel on a very large screen. +Manhattan and Atlanta burn solid white. Then they start to +pulse, the rate of traffic threatening to overload your simulation. +Your map is about to go nova. Cool it down. Up your scale. +Each pixel a million megabytes. At a hundred million megabytes +per second, you begin to make out certain blocks in +midtown Manhattan, outlines of hundred-year-old industrial +parks ringing the old core of Atlanta. . . + +Case woke from a dream of airports, of Molly's dark leathers +moving ahead of him through the concourses of Narita, Schipol, +Orly.... He watched himself buy a flat plastic flask of Danish +vodka at some kiosk, an hour before dawn. +Somewhere down in the Sprawl's ferro-concrete roots, a +train drove a column of stale air through a tunnel. The train +itself was silent, gliding over its induction cushion, but displaced +air made the tunnel sing, bass down into subsonics. +Vibration reached the room where he lay and caused dust to +rise from the cracks in the dessicated parquet floor. +Opening his eyes, he saw Molly, naked and just out of reach +across an expanse of very new pink temper foam. Overhead, +sunlight filtered through the soot-stained grid of a skylight. +One half-meter square of glass had been replaced with chipboard, +a fat gray cable emerging there to dangle within a few +centimeters of the floor. He lay on his side and watched her +breathe, her breasts, the sweep of a flank defined with the +functional elegance of a war plane's fusilage. Her body was +spare, neat, the muscles like a dancer's. +The room was large. He sat up. The room was empty, aside +from the wide pink bedslab and two nylon bags, new and +identical, that lay beside it. Blank walls, no windows, a single +white-painted steel fire door. The walls were coated with countless +layers of white latex paint. Factory space. He knew this +kind of room, this kind of building; the tenants would operate +in the inter zone where art wasn't quite crime, crime not quite +art. +He was home. +He swung his feet to the floor. It was made of little blocks +of wood, some missing, others loose. His head ached. He +remembered Amsterdam, another room, in the Old City section +of the Centrum, buildings centuries old. Molly back from the +canal's edge with orange juice and eggs. Armitage off on some +cryptic foray, the two of them walking alone past Dam Square +to a bar she knew on a Damrak thoroughfare. Paris was a +blurred dream. Shopping. She'd taken him shopping. +He stood, pulling on a wrinkled pair of new black jeans that +lay at his feet, and knelt beside the bags. The first one he +opened was Molly's: neatly folded clothing and small expensive-looking +gadgets. The second was stuffed with things he +didn't remember buying: books, tapes, a Simstim deck, clothing +with French and Italian labels. Beneath a green t-shirt, he +discovered a flat, origami-wrapped package, recycled Japanese +paper. +The paper tore when he picked it up; a bright nine-pointed +star fell--to stick upright in a crack in the parquet. +"Souvenir," Molly said. "I noticed you were always looking +at 'em." He turned and saw her sitting cross legged on the bed, +sleepily scratching her stomach with burgundy nails. + +"Someone's coming later to secure the place," Armitage +said. He stood in the open doorway with an old-fashioned +magnetic key in his hand. Molly was making coffee on a tiny +German stove she took from her bag. +"I can do it," she said. "I got enough gear already. Infrascan +perimeter, screamers..." +"No," he said, closing the door. "I want it tight." +"Suit yourself." She wore a dark mesh t-shirt tucked into +baggy black cotton pants. +"You ever the heat, Mr. Armitage?" Case asked, from where +he sat, his back against a wall. +Armitage was no taller than Case, but with his broad shoulders +and military posture he seemed to fill the doorway. He +wore a somber Italian suit; in his right hand he held a briefcase +of soft black calf. The Special Forces earring was gone. The +handsome, inexpressive features offered the routine beauty of +the cosmetic boutiques, a conservative amalgam of the past +decade's leading media faces. The pale glitter of his eyes +heightened the effect of a mask. Case began to regret the question. +"Lots of Forces types wound up cops, I mean. Or corporate +security," Case added uncomfortably. Molly handed him a +steaming mug of coffee. "That number you had them do on +my pancreas, that's like a cop routine." +Armitage closed the door and crossed the room, to stand in +front of Case. "You're a lucky boy, Case. You should thank +me." +"Should l?" Case blew noisily on his coffee. +"You needed a new pancreas. The one we bought for you +frees you from a dangerous dependency." +"Thanks, but I was enjoying that dependency." +"Good, because you have a new one." +"How's that?" Case looked up from his coffee. Armitage +was smiling. +"You have fifteen toxin sacs bonded to the lining of various +main arteries, Case. They're dissolving. Very slowly, but they +definitely are dissolving. Each one contains a mycotoxin. You're +already familiar with the effect of that mycotoxin. It was the +one your former employers gave you in Memphis." +Case blinked up at the smiling mask. +"You have time to do what I'm hiring you for, Case, but +that's all. Do the job and I can inject you with an enzyme that +will dissolve the bond without opening the sacs. Then you'll +need a blood change. Otherwise, the sacs melt and you're back +where I found you. So you see, Case, you need us. You need +us as badly as you did when we scraped you up from the gutter." +Case looked at Molly. She shrugged. +"Now go down to the freight elevator and bring up the cases +you find there." Armitage handed him the magnetic key. "Go +on. You'll enjoy this, Case. Like Christmas morning." + +Summer in the Sprawl, the mall crowds swaying like wind-blown +grass, a field of flesh shot through with sudden eddies +of need and gratification. +He sat beside Molly in filtered sunlight on the rim of a dry +concrete fountain, letting the endless stream of faces recapitulate +the stages of his life. First a child with hooded eyes, a +street boy, hands relaxed and ready at his sides; then a teenager, +face smooth and cryptic beneath red glasses. Case remembered +fighting on a rooftop at seventeen, silent combat in the rose +glow of the dawn geodesics. +He shifted on the concrete, feeling it rough and cool through +the thin black denim. Nothing here like the electric dance of +Ninsei. This was different commerce, a different rhythm, in +the smell of fast food and perfume and fresh summer sweat. +With his deck waiting, back in the loft, an Ono-Sendai +Cyberspace 7. They'd left the place littered with the abstract +white forms of the foam packing units, with crumpled plastic +film and hundreds of tiny foam beads. The Ono-Sendai; next +year's most expensive Hosaka computer; a Sony monitor; a +dozen disks of corporate-grade ice; a Braun coffee maker. Armitage +had only waited for Case's approval of each piece. +"Where'd he go?" Case had asked Molly. +"He likes hotels. Big ones. Near airports, if he can manage +it. Let's go down to the street." She'd zipped herself into an +old surplus vest with a dozen oddly shaped pockets and put on +a huge pair of black plastic sunglasses that completely covered +her mirrored insets. +"You know about that toxin shit, before?" he asked her, by +the fountain. She shook her head. "You think it's true?" +"Maybe, maybe not. Works either way." +"You know any way I can find out?" +"No," she said, her right hand coming up to form the jive +for silence. "That kind of kink's too subtle to show up on a +scan." Then her fingers moved again: wait. "And you don't +care that much anyway. I saw you stroking that Sendai; man, +it was pornographic." She laughed. +"So what's he got on you? How's he got the working girl +kinked?" +"-Professional pride, baby, that's all." And again the sign +for silence. "We're gonna get some breakfast, okay? Eggs, real +bacon. Probably kill you, you been eating that rebuilt Chiba +krill for so long. Yeah, come on, we'll tube in to Manhattan +and get us a real breakfast." + +Lifeless neon spelled out METRO HOLOGRAFIX in dusty +capitals of glass tubing. Case picked at a shred of bacon that +had lodged between his front teeth. He'd given up asking her +where they were going and why; jabs in the ribs and the sign +for silence were all he'd gotten in reply. She talked about the +season's fashions, about sports, about a political scandal in +California he'd never heard of. +He looked around the deserted dead end street. A sheet of +newsprint went cart wheeling past the intersection. Freak winds +in the East side; something to do with convection, and an +overlap in the domes. Case peered through the window at the +dead sign. Her Sprawl wasn't his Sprawl? he decided. She'd +led him through a dozen bars and clubs he'd never seen before, +taking care of business, usually with no more than a nod. +Maintaining connections. +Something was moving in the shadows behind METRO +HOLOGRAFIX. +The door was a sheet of corrugated roofing. In front of it, +Molly's hands flowed through an intricate sequence of jive that +he couldn't follow. He caught the sign for cash, a thumb brushing +the tip of the forefinger. The door swung inward and sheled +him into the smell of dust. They stood in a clearing, dense +tangles of junk rising on either side to walls lined with shelves +of crumbling paperbacks. The junk looked like something that +had grown there, a fungus of twisted metal and plastic. He +could pick out individual objects, but then they seemed to blur +back into the mass: the guts of a television so old it was studded +with the glass stumps of vacuum tubes, a crumpled dish antenna, +a brown fiber canister stuffed with corroded lengths of +alloy tubing. An enormous pile of old magazines had cascaded +into the open area, flesh of lost summers staring blindly up as +he followed her back through a narrow canyon of impacted +scrap. He heard the door close behind them. He didn't look +back. + +The tunnel ended with an ancient Army blanket tacked across +a doorway. White light flooded out as Molly ducked past it. +Four square walls of blank white plastic, ceiling to match, +floored with white hospital tile molded in a non slip pattern of +small raised disks. In the center stood a square, white-painted +wooden table and four white folding chairs. +The man who stood blinking now in the doorway behind +them, the blanket draping one shoulder like a cape, seemed to +have been designed in a wind tunnel. His ears were very small, +plastered flat against his narrow skull, and his large front teeth, +revealed in something that wasn't quite a smile, were canted +sharply backward. He wore an ancient tweed jacket and held +a handgun of some kind in his left hand. He peered at them, +blinked, and dropped the gun into a jacket pocket. He gestured +to Case, pointed at a slab of white plastic that leaned near the +doorway. Case crossed to it and saw that it was a solid sandwich +of circuitry, nearly a centimeter thick. He helped the man lift +it and position it in the doorway. Quick, nicotine-stained fingers +secured it with a white velcro border. A hidden exhaust fan +began to purr. +"Time," the man said, straightening up, "and counting. You +know the rate, Moll." +"We need a scan, Finn. For implants." +"So get over there between the pylons. Stand on the tape. +Straighten up, yeah. Now turn around, gimme a full threesixty." +Case watched her rotate between two fragile-looking +stands studded with sensors. The man took a small monitor +from his pocket and squinted at it. "Something new in your +head, yeah. Silicon. coat of pyrolitic carbons. A clock, right? +Your glasses gimme the read they always have, low-temp isotropic +carbons. Better biocompatibility with pyrolitics, but +that's your business, right? Same with your claws." +"Get over here, Case." He saw a scuffed X in black on the +white floor. "Turn around. Slow." +"Guy's a virgin." The man shrugged. "Some cheap dental +work, is all." +"You read for biologicals?" Molly unzipped her green vest +and took off the dark glasses. +"You think this is the Mayo? Climb on the table, kid, we'll +run a little biopsy." He laughed, showing more of his yellow +teeth. "Nah. Finn's word, sweetmeat, you got no little bugs, +no cortex bombs. You want me to shut the screen down?" +"Just for as long as it takes you to leave, Finn. Then we'll +want full screen for as long as we want it." +"Hey, that's fine by the Finn, Moll. You're only paying by +the second." +They sealed the door behind him and Molly turned one of +the white chairs around and sat on it, chin resting on crossed +forearms. "We talk now. This is as private as I can afford." +"What about?" +"What we're doing." +"What are we doing?" +"Working for Armitage." +"And you're saying this isn't for his benefit?" +"Yeah. I saw your profile, Case. And I've seen the rest of +our shopping list, once. You ever work with the dead?" +"No." He watched his reflection in her glasses. "I could, I +guess. I'm good at what I do." The present tense made him +nervous. +"You know that the Dixie Flatline's dead?" +He nodded. "Heart, I heard." +"You'll be working with his construct." She smiled. "Taught +you the ropes, huh? Him and Quine. I know Quine, by the +way. Real asshole." +"Somebody's got a recording of McCoy Pauley? Who?" +Now Case sat, and rested his elbows on the table. "I can't see +it. He'd never have sat still for it." +"Sense/Net. Paid him mega, you bet your ass." +"Quine dead too?" +"No such luck. He's in Europe. He doesn't come into this." +"Well, if we can get the Flatline, we're home free. He was +the best. You know he died brain death three times?" +She nodded. +"Flat lined on his EEG. Showed me tapes. 'Boy, I was daid.' " +"Look, Case, I been trying to suss out who it is is backing +Armitage since I signed on. But it doesn't feel like a zaibatsu, +a government, or some Yakuza subsidiary. Armitage gets orders. +Like something tells him to go off to Chiba, pick up a +pillhead who's making one last wobble throught the burnout +belt, and trade a program for the operation that'll fix him up. +We could a bought twenty world class cowboys for what the +market was ready to pay for that surgical program. You were +good, but not that good...." She scratched the side of her +nose. +"Obviously makes sense to somebody," he said. "Somebody +big." +"Don't let me hurt your feelings." She grinned. "We're +gonna be pulling one hardcore run, Case, just to get the Flatline's +construct. Sense/Net has it locked in a library vault uptown. +Tighter than an eel's ass, Case. Now, Sense/Net, they +got all their new material for the fall season locked in there +too. Steal that and we'd be richer than shit. But no, we gotta +get us the Flatline and nothing else. Weird." +"Yeah, it's all weird. You're weird, this hole's weird, and +who's the weird little gopher outside in the hall?" +"Finn's an old connection of mine. Fence, mostly. Software. +This privacy biz is a sideline. But I got Armitage to let him +be our tech here, so when he shows up later, you never saw +him. Got it?" +"So what's Armitage got dissolving inside you?" +"I'm an easy make." She smiled. "Anybody any good at +what they do, that's what they are, right? You gotta jack, I +gotta tussle." +He stared at her. "So tell me what you know about Armitage." +"For starters, nobody named Armitage took part in any +Screaming Fist. I checked. But that doesn't mean much. He +doesn't look like any of the pics of the guys who got out." She +shrugged. "Big deal. And starters is all I got." She drummed +her nails on the back of the chair. "But you are a cowboy, +aren't you? I mean, maybe you could have a little look around." +She smiled. +"He'd kill me." +"Maybe. Maybe not. I think he needs you, Case, and real +bad. Besides, you're a clever john, no? You can winkle him, +sure." +"What else is on that list you mentioned?" +"Toys. Mostly for you. And one certified psychopath name +of Peter Riviera. Real ugly customer." +"Where's he?" +"Dunno. But he's one sick fuck, no lie. I saw his profile." +She made a face. "God awful." She stood up and stretched, +catlike. "So we got an axis going, boy? We're together in this? +Partners?" +Case looked at her. "I gotta lotta choice, huh?" +She laughed. "You got it, cowboy." + +"The matrix has its roots in primitive arcade games," said +the voice-over, "in early graphics programs and military experimentation +with cranial jacks." On the Sony, a two-dimensional +space war faded behind a forest of mathematically +generated ferns, demonstrating the spacial possibilities of logarithmic +spirals- cold blue military footage burned through, lab +animals wired into test systems, helmets feeding into fire con. +trot circuits of tanks and war planes. "Cyberspace. A consensual +hallucination experienced daily by billions of legitimate +operators, in every nation, by children being taught mathematical +concepts . . . A graphic representation of data abstracted +from the banks of every computer in the human system. Unthinkable +complexity. Lines of light ranged in the non space of +the mind, clusters and constellations of data. Like city lights, +receding...." + +"What's that?" Molly asked, as he flipped the channel selector. +"Kid's show." A discontinuous flood of images as the selector +cycled. "Off," he said to the Hosaka. +"You want to try now, Case?" +Wednesday. Eight days from waking in Cheap Hotel with +Molly beside him. "You want me to go out, Case? Maybe +easier for you, alone...." He shook his head. +"No. Stay, doesn't matter." He settled the black terry sweatband +across his forehead, careful not to disturb the flat Sendai +dermatrodes. He stared at the deck on his lap, not really seeing +it, seeing instead the shop window on Ninsei, the chromed +shuriken burning with reflected neon. He glanced up; on the +wall, just above the Sony, he'd hung her gift, tacking it there +with a yellow-headed drawing pin through the hole at its center. +closed his eyes. +Found the ridged face of the power stud. +And in the bloodlit dark behind his eyes, silver phosphenes +boiling in from the edge of space, hypnagogic images jerking +past like film compiled from random frames. Symbols, figures, +faces, a blurred, fragmented mandala of visual information. +Please, he prayed, now-- + +A gray disk, the color of Chiba sky. +Now-- + +Disk beginning to rotate, faster, becoming a sphere of palergray. +Expanding-- And flowed, flowered for him, fluid neon origami trick, +the unfolding of his distance less home, his country, transparent +3D chessboard extending to infinity. Inner eye opening to the +stepped scarlet pyramid of the Eastern Seaboard Fission Authority +burning beyond the green cubes of Mitsubishi Bank of +America, and high and very far away he saw the spiral arms +of military systems, forever beyond his reach. +And somewhere he was laughing, in a white-painted loft, +distant fingers caressing the deck, tears of release streaking his +face. + +Molly was gone when he took the trodes off, and the loft +was dark. He checked the time. He'd been in cyberspace for +five hours. He carried the Ono-Sendai to one of the new worktables +and collapsed across the bedslab, pulling Molly's black +silk sleeping bag over his head. +The security package taped to the steel fire door bleeped +twice. "Entry requested," it said. "Subject is cleared per my +program." +"So open it." Case pulled the silk from his face and sat up +as the door opened, expecting to see Molly or Armitage. +"Christ," said a hoarse voice, "I know that bitch can see in +the dark...." A squat figure stepped in and closed the door. +"Turn the lights on, okay?" Case scrambled off the slab and +found the old-fashioned switch. +"I'm the Finn," said the Finn, and made a warning face at +Case. +"Case." +"Pleased to meecha, I'm sure. I'm doing some hardware +for your boss, it looks like." The Finn fished a pack of Partagas +from a pocket and lit one. The smell of Cuban tobacco filled +the room. He crossed to the worktable and glanced at the Ono-Sendai. +"Looks stock. Soon fix that. But here is your problem, +kid." He took a filthy manila envelope from inside his jacket, +flicked ash on the floor, and extracted a featureless black rectangle +from the envelope. "Goddamn factory prototypes," he +said, tossing the thing down on the table. "Cast 'em into a +block of polycarbon, can't get in with a laser without frying +the works. Booby-trapped for x-ray, ultrascan, God knows +what else. We'll get in, but there's no rest for the wicked, +right?" He folded the envelope with great care and tucked it +away in an inside pocket. +"What is it?" +"It's a flip flop switch, basically. Wire it into your Sendai +here, you can access live or recorded Sims Tim without having +to jack out of the matrix." +"What for?" +"I haven't got a clue. Know I'm fitting Moll for a broadcast +rig, though, so it's probably her sensorium you'll access." The +Finn scratched his chin. "So now you get to find out just how +tight those jeans really are, huh?" + +Case sat in the loft with the dermatrodes strapped across his +forehead, watching motes dance in the diluted sunlight that +filtered through the grid overhead. A countdown was in progress +in one corner of the monitor screen. +Cowboys didn't get into Simstim, he thought, because it +was basically a meat toy. He knew that the trodes he used and +the little plastic tiara dangling from a Simstim deck were basically +the same, and that the cyberspace matrix was actually a +drastic simplification of the human sensorium, at least in terms +of presentation, but Simstim itself struck him as a gratuitous +multiplication of flesh input. The commercial stuff was edited, +of course, so that if Tally Isham got a headache in the course +of a segment, you didn't feel it. +The screen bleeped a two-second warning. +The new switch was patched into his Sendai with a thin +ribbon of fiber optics. +And one and two and-- + +Cyberspace slid into existence from the cardinal points. + +Smooth, he thought, but not smooth enough. Have to work on it. +Then he keyed the new switch. +The abrupt jolt into other flesh. Matrix gone, a wave of +sound and color.... She was moving through a crowded street, +past stalls vending discount software, prices felt penned on sheets +of plastic, fragments of music from countless speakers. Smells +of urine, free monomers, perfume, patties of frying krill. For +a few frightened seconds he fought helplessly to control her +body. Then he willed himself into passivity, became the passenger +behind her eyes. +The glasses didn't seem to cut down the sunlight at all. He +wondered if the built-in amps compensated automatically. Blue +alphanumerics winked the time, low in her left peripheral field. +Showing off, he thought. +Her body language was disorienting, her style foreign. She +seemed continually on the verge of colliding with someone, +but people melted out of her way, stepped sideways, made +room. +"How you doing, Case?" He heard the words and felt her +form them. She slid a hand into her jacket, a fingertip circling +a nipple under warm silk. The sensation made him catch his +breath. She laughed. But the link was one-way. He had no way +to reply. +Two blocks later, she was threading the outskirts of Memory +Lane. Case kept trying to jerk her eyes toward landmarks he +would have used to find his way. He began to find the passivity +of the situation irritating. +The transition to cyberspace, when he hit the switch, was +instantaneous. He punched himself down a wall of primitive +ice belonging to the New York Public Library, automatically +counting potential windows. Keying back into her sensorium, +into the sinuous flow of muscle, senses sharp and bright. +He found himself wondering about the mind he shared these +sensations with. What did he know about her? That she was +another professional; that she said her being, like his, was the +thing she did to make a living. He knew the way she'd moved +against him, earlier, when she woke, their mutual grunt of +unity when he'd entered her, and that she liked her coffee black, +afterward.... +Her destination was one of the dubious software rental complexes +that lined Memory Lane. There was a stillness, a hush. +Booths lined a central hall. The clientele were young, few of +them out of their teens. They all seemed to have carbon sockets +planted behind the left ear, but she didn't focus on them. The +counters that fronted the booths displayed hundreds of slivers +of microsoft, angular fragments of colored silicon mounted +under oblong transparent bubbles on squares of white cardboard. +Molly went to the seventh booth along the south wall. +Behind the counter a boy with a shaven head stared vacantly +into space, a dozen spikes of microsoft protruding from the +socket behind his ear. +"Larry, you in, man?" She positioned herself in front of +him. The boy's eyes focused. He sat up in his chair and pried +a bright magenta splinter from his socket with a dirty thumbnail . +"Hey, Larry." +"Molly." He nodded. +"I have some work for some of your friends, Larry." +Larry took a flat plastic case from the pocket of his red +sport shirt and flicked it open, slotting the microsoft beside a +dozen others. His hand hovered, selected a glossy black chip +that was slightly longer than the rest, and inserted it smoothly +into his head. His eyes narrowed. +"Molly's got a rider," he said, "and Larry doesn't like that." +"Hey," she said, "I didn't know you were so . . . sensitive. +I'm impressed. Costs a lot, to get that sensitive." +"I know you, lady?" The blank look returned. "You looking +to buy some softs?" +"I'm looking for the Moderns." +"You got a rider, Molly. This says." He tapped the black +splinter. "Somebody else using your eyes." +"My partner." +"Tell your partner to go." +"Got something for the Panther Moderns, Larry." +"What are you talking about, lady?" +"Case, you take off," she said, and he hit the switch, instantly +back in the matrix. Ghost impressions of the software +complex hung for a few seconds in the buzzing calm of cyberspace. +"Panther Moderns," he said to the Hosaka, removing the +trodes. "Five minute precis." +"Ready," the computer said. + +It wasn't a name he knew. Something new, something that +had come in since he'd been in Chiba. Fads swept the youth +of the Spraw] at the speed of light; entire subcultures could rise +overnight, thrive for a dozen weeks, and then vanish utterly. +"Go," he said. The Hosaka had accessed its array of libraries, +journals, and news services. +The precis began with a long hold on a color still that Case +at first assumed was a collage of some kind, a boy's face +snipped from another image and glued to a photograph of a +paint-scrawled wall. Dark eyes, epicanthic folds obviously the +result of surgery, an angry dusting of acne across pale narrow +cheeks. The Hosaka released the freeze; the boy moved, flowing +with the sinister grace of a mime pretending to be a jungle +predator. His body was nearly invisible, an abstract pattern +approximating the scribbled brickwork sliding smoothly across +his tight one piece. Mimetic polycarbon. +Cut to Dr. Virginia Rambali, Sociology, NYU, her name, +faculty, and school pulsing across the screen in pink alphanumerics. + +"Given their penchant for these random acts of surreal violence," +someone said, "it may be difficult for our viewers to +understand why you continue to insist that this phenomenon +isn't a form of terrorism." +Dr. RamBali smiled. "There is always a point at which the +terrorist ceases to manipulate the media gestalt. A point at +which the violence may well escalate, but beyond which the +terrorist has become symptomatic of the media gestalt itself. +Terrorism as we ordinarily understand it is inately media-related. +The Panther Moderns differ from other terrorists precisely +in their degree of self-consciousness, in their awareness +of the extent to which media divorce the act of terrorism from +the original sociopolitical intent...." +"Skip it," Case said. + +Case met his first Modern two days after he'd screened the +Hosaka's precis. The Moderns, he'd decided, were a contemporary +version of the Big Scientists of his own late teens. There +was a kind of ghostly teenage DNA at work in the Sprawl, +something that carried the coded precepts of various short-lived +sub cults and replicated them at odd intervals. The Panther Moderns +were a soft head variant on the Scientists. If the technology +had been available the Big Scientists would all have had sockets +stuffed with microsofts. It was the style that mattered and +the style was the same. The Moderns were mercenaries, practical +jokers, nihilistic technofetishists. +The one who showed up at the loft door with a box of +diskettes from the Finn was a soft-voiced boy called Angelo. +His face was a simple graft grown on collagen and shark- + cartilage polysaccharides, smooth and hideous. It was one of +the nastiest pieces of elective surgery Case had ever seen. When +Angelo smiled, revealing the razor-sharp canines of some large +animal, Case was actually relieved. Tooth bud transplants. He'd +seen that before. +"You can't let the little pricks generation-gap you," Molly +said. Case nodded, absorbed in the patterns of the Sense/Net +ice. +This was it. This was what he was, who he was, his being. +He forgot to eat. Molly left cartons of rice and foam trays of +sushi on the corner of the long table. Sometimes he resented +having to leave the deck to use the chemical toilet they'd set +up in a corner of the loft. Ice patterns formed and reformed on +the screen as he probed for gaps, skirted the most obvious +traps, and mapped the route he'd take through Sense/Net's ice. +It was good ice. Wonderful ice. Its patterns burned there while +he lay with his arm under Molly's shoulders, watching the red +dawn through the steel grid of the skylight. Its rainbow pixel +maze was the first thing he saw when he woke. He'd go straight +to the deck, not bothering to dress, and jack in. He was cutting +it. He was working. He lost track of days. +And sometimes, falling asleep, particularly when Molly was +off on one of her reconnaissance trips with her rented cadre of +Moderns, images of Chiba came flooding back. Faces and +Ninsei neon. Once he woke from a confused dream of Linda +Lee, unable to recall who she was or what she'd ever meant +to him. When he did remember, he jacked in and worked for +nine straight hours. +The cutting of Sense/Net's ice took a total of nine days. +"I said a week," Armitage said, unable to conceal his satisfaction +when Case showed him his plan for the run. "You +took your own good time." +"Balls," Case said, smiling at the screen. "That's good work, +Armitage." +"Yes," Armitage admitted, "but don't let it go to your head. +Compared to what you'll eventually be up against, this is an +arcade toy." + +"Love you, Cat Mother," whispered the Panther Modern's +link man. His voice was modulated static in Case's headset. +"Atlanta, Brood. Looks go. Go, got it?" Molly's voice was +slightly clearer. +"To hear is to obey." The Moderns were using some kind +of chicken wire dish in New Jersey to bounce the link man's +scrambled signal off a Sons of Christ the King satellite in +geosynchronous orbit above Manhattan. They chose to regard +the entire operation as an elaborate private joke, and their +choice of comsats seemed to have been deliberate. Molly's +signals were being beamed up from a one-meter umbrella dish +epoxy-ed to the roof of a black glass bank tower nearly as tall +as the Sense/Net building. +Atlanta. The recognition code was simple. Atlanta to Boston +to Chicago to Denver, five minutes for each city. If anyone +managed to intercept Molly's signal, unscramble it, synth her +voice, the code would tip the Moderns. If she remained in the +building for more than twenty minutes, it was highly unlikely +she'd be coming out at all. +Case gulped the last of his coffee, settled the trodes in place, +and scratched his chest beneath his black t-shirt. He had only +a vague idea of what the Panther Moderns planned as a diversion +for the Sense/Net security people. His job was to make +sure the intrusion program he'd written would link with the +Sense/Net systems when Molly needed it to. He watched the +countdown in the corner of the screen. Two. One. +He jacked in and triggered his program. "Mainline," breathed +the link man, his voice the only sound as Case plunged through +the glowing strata of Sense/Net ice. Good. Check Molly. He +hit the Simstim and flipped into her sensorium. +The scrambler blurred the visual input slightly. She stood +before a wall of gold-flecked mirror in the building's vast white +lobby, chewing gum, apparently fascinated by her own reflection. +Aside from the huge pair of sunglasses concealing her +mirrored insets, she managed to look remarkably like she +belonged there, another tourist girl hoping for a glimpse of +Tally Isham. She wore a pink plastic raincoat, a white mesh +top, loose white pants cut in a style that had been fashionable +in Tokyo the previous year. She grinned vacantly and popped +her gum. Case felt like laughing. He could feel the micro pore +tape across her ribcage, feel the flat little units under it: the +radio, the Simstim unit, and the scrambler. The throat mike, +glued to her neck, looked as much as possible like an analgesic +dermadisk. Her hands, in the pockets of the pink coat, were +flexing systematically through a series of tension-release exercises. +It took him a few seconds to realize that the peculiar +sensation at the tips of her fingers was caused by the blades as +they were partially extruded, then retracted. +He flipped back. His program had reached the fifth gate. +He watched as his icebreaker strobed and shifted in front of +him, only faintly aware of his hands playing across the deck, +making minor adjustments. Translucent planes of color shuffled +like a trick deck. Take a card, he thought, any card. +The gate blurred past. He laughed. The Sense/Net ice had +accepted his entry as a routine transfer from the consortium's +Los Angeles complex. He was inside. Behind him, viral subprograms +peeled off, meshing with the gate' s code fabric, ready +to deflect the real Los Angeles data when it arrived. +He flipped again. Molly was strolling past the enormous +circular reception desk at the rear of the lobby. +12:01:20 as the readout flared in her optic nerve. +At midnight, synch Ed with the chip behind Molly's eye, the +link man in Jersey had given his command. "Mainline." Nine +Moderns, scattered along two hundred miles of the Sprawl, +had simultaneously dialed MAX EMERG from pay phones. +Each Modern delivered a short set speech, hung up, and drifted +out into the night, peeling off surgical gloves. Nine different +police departments and public security agencies were absorbing +the information that an obscure sub sect of militant Christian +fundamentalists had just taken credit for having introduced +clinical levels of an outlawed psychoactive agent known as +Blue Nine into the ventilation system of the Sense/Net Pyramid. +Blue Nine, known in California as Grievous Angel, had been +shown to produce acute paranoia and homicidal psychosis in +eighty-five percent of experimental subjects. + +Case hit the switch as his program surged through the gates +of the subsystem that controlled security for the Sense/Net +research library. He found himself stepping into an elevator. +"Excuse me, but are you an employee?" The guard raised +his eyebrows. Molly popped her gum. "No," she said, driving +the first two knuckles of her right hand into the man's solar +plexus. As he doubled over, clawing for the beeper on his belt +she slammed his head sideways, against the wall of the elevator. +Chewing a little more rapidly now, she touched CLOSE +DOOR and STOP on the illuminated panel. She took a black box +from her coat pocket and inserted a lead in the keyhole of the +lock that secured the panel's circuitry. + +The Panther Moderns allowed four minutes for their first +move to take effect, then injected a second carefully prepared +dose of misinformation. This time, they shot it directly into +the Sense/Net building's internal video system. +At 12:04:03, every screen in the building strobed for eighteen +seconds in a frequency that produced seizures in a susceptible +segment of Sense/Net employees. Then something only +vaguely like a human face filled the screens, its features stretched +across asymmetrical expanses of bone like some obscene Mercator +projection. Blue lips parted wetly as the twisted, elongated +jaw moved. Something, perhaps a hand, a thing like a reddish +clump of gnarled roots, fumbled toward the camera, blurred, +and vanished. Subliminally rapid images of contamination: +graphics of the building's water supply system, gloved hands +manipulating laboratory glassware, something tumbling down +into darkness, a pale splash.... The audio track, its pitch adjusted +to run at just less than twice the standard playback speed, +was part of a month-old newscast detailing potential military +uses of a substance known as HsG, a biochemical governing +the human skeletal growth factor. Overdoses of HsG threw +certain bone cells into overdrive, accelerating growth by factors +as high as one thousand percent. +At 12:05:00, the mirror-sheathed nexus of the Sense/Net +consortium held just over three thousand employees. At five +minutes after midnight, as the Moderns' message ended in a +flare of white screen, the Sense/Net Pyramid screamed. +Half a dozen NYPD Tactical hovercraft, responding to the +possibility of Blue Nine in the building's ventilation system, +were converging on the Sense/Net Pyramid. They were running +full riot lights. A BAMA Rapid Deployment helicopter was +lifting off from its pad on Riker's. + +Case triggered his second program. A carefully engineered +virus attacked the code fabric screening primary custodial commands +for the sub-basement that housed the Sense/Net research +materials. "Boston," Molly's voice came across the link, "I'm +downstairs." Case switched and saw the blank wall of the +elevator. She was unzipping the white pants. A bulky packet, +exactly the shade of her pale ankle, was secured there with +micro pore. She knelt and peeled the tape away. Streaks of +burgundy flickered across the mimetic polycarbon as she unfolded +the Modern suit. She removed the pink raincoat, threw +it down beside the white pants, and began to pull the suit on +over the white mesh top. +12:06:26. +Case's virus had bored a window through the library's command +ice. He punched himself through and found an infinite +blue space ranged with color-coded spheres strung on a tight +grid of pale blue neon. In the non space of the matrix, the interior +of a given data construct possessed unlimited subjective dimension; +a child's toy calculator, accessed through Case's Sendai +would have presented limitless gulfs of nothingness hung +with a few basic commands. Case began to key the sequence +the Finn had purchased from a mid-eschelon sarariman with +severe drug problems. He began to glide through the spheres +as if he were on invisible tracks. +Here. This one. +Punching his way into the sphere, chill blue neon vault above +him starless and smooth as frosted glass, he triggered a sub- +program that effected certain alterations in the core custodial +commands. +Out now. Reversing smoothly, the virus reknitting the fabric +of the window. +Done. + + +* * * +In the Sense/Net lobby, two Panther Moderns sat alertly +behind a low rectangular planter, taping the riot with a video +camera. They both wore chameleon suits. "Tacticals are spray- +ing foam barricades now," one noted, speaking for the benefit +of his throat mike. "Rapids are still trying to land their copter." + +Case hit the Sim-Stim switch. And flipped into the agony of +broken bone. Molly was braced against the blank gray wall of +a long corridor, her breath coming ragged and uneven. Case +was back in the matrix instantly, a white-hot line of pain fading +in his left thigh. +"What's happening, Brood?" he asked the link man. +"I dunno, Cutter. Mother's not talking. Wait." +Case's program was cycling. A single hair-fine thread of +crimson neon extended from the center of the restored window +to the shifting outline of his icebreaker. He didn't have time +to wait. Taking a deep breath, he flipped again. +Molly took a single step, trying to support her weight on +the corridor wall. In the loft, Case groaned. The second step +took her over an outstretched arm. Uniform sleeve bright with +fresh blood. Glimpse of a shattered fiberglass shock stave. Her +vision seemed to have narrowed to a tunnel. With the third +step, Case screamed and found himself back in the matrix. +"Brood? Boston, baby. . ." Her voice tight with pain. She +coughed. "Little problem with the natives. Think one of them +broke my leg." +"What you need now, Cat Mother?" The link man's voice +was indistinct, nearly lost behind static. +Case forced himself to flip back. She was leaning against +the wall, taking all of her weight on her right leg. She fumbled +through the contents of the suit's kangaroo pocket and withdrew +a sheet of plastic studded with a rainbow of dermadisks. She +selected three and thumbed them hard against her left wrist, +over the veins. Six thousand micrograms of endorphin analog +came down on the pain like a hammer, shattering it. Her back +arched convulsively. Pink waves of warmth lapped up her thighs. +She sighed and slowly relaxed. +"Okay, Brood. Okay now. But I'll need a medical team +when l come out. Tell my people. Cutter, I'm two minutes +from target. Can you hold?" +"Tell her I'm in and holding," Case said. +Molly began to limp down the corridor. When she glanced +back, once, Case saw the crumpled bodies of three Sense/Net +security guards. One of them seemed to have no eyes. +"Tacticals and Rapids have sealed the ground floor, Cat +Mother. Foam barricades. Lobby's getting juicy." +"Pretty juicy down here," she said, swinging herself through +a pair of gray steel doors. "Almost there, Cutter." +Case flipped into the matrix and pulled the trodes from his +forehead. He was drenched with sweat. He wiped his forehead +with a towel, took a quick sip of water from the bicycle bottle +beside the Hosaka, and checked the map of the library displayed +on the screen. A pulsing red cursor crept through the outline +of a doorway. Only millimeters from the green dot that indicated +the location of the Dixie Flat line's construct. He wondered +what it was doing to her leg, to walk on it that way. +With enough endorphin analog, she could walk on a pair of +bloody stumps. He tightened the nylon harness that held him +in the chair and replaced the trodes. +Routine now: trodes, jack, and flip. +The Sense/Net research library was a dead storage area; the +materials stored here had to be physically removed before they +could be interfaced. Molly hobbled between rows of identical +gray lockers. +"Tell her five more and ten to her left, Brood," Case said. +"Five more and ten left, Cat Mother," the link man said. +She took the left. A white-faced librarian cowered between +two lockers, her cheeks wet, eyes blank. Molly ignored her. +Case wondered what the Moderns had done to provoke that +level of terror. He knew it had something to do with a hoaxed +threat, but he' d been too involved with his ice to follow Molly ' s +explanation. +"That's it," Case said, but she'd already stopped in front of +the cabinet that held the construct. Its lines reminded Case of +the Neo-Aztec bookcases in Julie Deane's anteroom in Chiba. +"Do it, Cutter," Molly said. +Case flipped to cyberspace and sent a command pulsing +down the crimson thread that pierced the library ice. Five separate +alarm systems were convinced that they were still operative. +The three elaborate locks deactivated, but considered +themselves to have remained locked. The library's central bank +suffered a minute shift in its permanent memory: the construct +had been removed, per executive order, a month before. Checking +for the authorization to remove the construct, a librarian +would find the records erased. +The door swung open on silent hinges. +"0467839," Case said, and Molly drew a black storage unit +from the rack. It resembled the magazine of a large assault +rifle, its surfaces covered with warning decals and security +ratings. +Molly closed the locker door; Case flipped. +He withdrew the line through the library ice. It whipped +back into his program, automatically triggering a full system +reversal. The Sense/Net gates snapped past him as he backed +out, subprograms whirling back into the core of the icebreaker +as he passed the gates where they had been stationed. +"Out, Brood," he said, and slumped in his chair. After the +concentration of an actual run, he could remain jacked in and +still retain awareness of his body. It might take Sense/Net days +to discover the theft of the construct. The key would be the +deflection of the Los Angeles transfer, which coincided too +neatly with the Modern's terror run. He doubted that the three +security men Molly had encountered in the corridor would live +to talk about it. He flipped. +The elevator, with Molly's black box taped beside the control +panel, remained where she'd left it. The guard still lay curled +on the floor. Case noticed the term on his neck for the first +time. Something of Molly's, to keep him under. She stepped +over him and removed the black box before punching LOBBY. +As the elevator door hissed open, a woman hurtled backward +out of the crowd, into the elevator, and struck the rear wall +with her head. Molly ignored her, bending over to peel the +derm from the guard's neck. Then she kicked the white pants +and the pink raincoat out the door, tossing the dark glasses +after them, and drew the hood of her suit down across her +forehead. The construct, in the suit's kangaroo pocket, dug +into her sternum when she moved. She stepped out. + +Case had seen panic before, but never in an enclosed area. +The Sense/Net employees, spilling out of the elevators, had +surged for the street doors, only to meet the foam barricades +of the Tacticals and the sandbag-guns of the BAMA Rapids. +The two agencies, convinced that they were containing a horde +of potential killers, were cooperating with an uncharacteristic +degree of efficiency. Beyond the shattered wreckage of the +main street doors, bodies were piled three deep on the barricades. +The hollow thumping of the riot guns provided a constant +background for the sound the crowd made as it surged back +and forth across the lobby's marble floor. Case had never heard +anything like that sound. +Neither, apparently, had Molly. "Jesus," she said, and hesitated. +It was a sort of keening, rising into a bubbling wail of +MW and total fear. The lobby floor was covered with bodies, +clothing, blood, and long trampled scrolls of yellow printout. +"C'mon, sister. We're for out. " The eyes of the two Moderns +stared out of madly swirling shades of polycarbon, their suits +unable to keep up with the confusion of shape and color that +raged behind them. "You hurt? C'mon. Tommy'll walk you." +Tommy handed something to the one who spoke, a video camera +wrapped in polycarbon. +"Chicago," she said, "I'm on my way." And then she was +falling, not to the marble floor, slick with blood and vomit, +but down some blood warm well, into silence and the dark. + +The Panther Modern leader, who introduced himself as Lupus +Yonderboy, wore a polycarbon suit with a recording feature +that allowed him to replay backgrounds at will. Perched on the +edge of Case's worktable like some kind of state of the art +gargoyle, he regarded Case and Armitage with hooded eyes. +He smiled. His hair was pink. A rainbow forest of microsofts +bristled behind his left ear; the ear was pointed, tufted with +more pink hair. His pupils had been modified to catch the light +like a cat's. Case watched the suit crawl with color and texture. +"You let it getout of control," Armitage said. He stood in +the center of the loft like a statue, wrapped in the dark glossy +folds of an expensive-looking trench coat. +"Chaos, Mr. Who," Lupus Yonderboy said. "That is our +mode and modus. That is our central kick. Your woman knows. +We deal with her. Not with you, Mr. Who." His suit had taken +on a weird angular pattern of beige and pale avocado. "She +needed her medical team. She's with them. We'll watch out +for her. Everything's fine." He smiled again. +"Pay him," Case said. +Armitage glared at him. "We don't have the goods." +"Your woman has it," Yonderboy said. +"Pay him." +Armitage crossed stiffly to the table and took three fat bundles +of New Yen from the pockets of his trench coat. "You +want to count it?" he asked Yonder boy. +"No," the Panther Modern said. "You'll pay. You're a Mr. +Who. You pay to stay one. Not a Mr. Name." +"I hope that isn't a threat," Armitage said. +"That's business," said Yonderboy, stuffing the money into +the single pocket on the front of his suit. +The phone rang. Case answered. +"Molly," he told Armitage, handing him the phone. + +The Sprawl's geodesics were lightening into predawn gray +as Case left the building. His limbs felt cold and disconnected. +He couldn't sleep. He was sick of the loft. Lupus had gone, +then Armitage, and Molly was in surgery somewhere. Vibration +beneath his feet as a train hissed past. Sirens Doppler Ed in the +distance. +He took corners at random, his collar up, hunched in a new +leather jacket, flicking the first of a chain of Yeheyuans into +the gutter and lighting another. He tried to imagine Armitage's +toxin sacs dissolving in his bloodstream, microscopic membranes +wearing thinner as he walked. It didn't seem real. Neither +did the fear and agony he'd seen through Molly's eyes in +the lobby of Sense/Net. He found himself trying to remember +the faces of the three people he'd killed in Chiba. The men +were blanks; the woman reminded him of Linda Lee. A battered +tricycle-truck with mirrored windows bounced past him, empty +plastic cylinders rattling in its bed. +"Case." +He darted sideways, instinctively getting a wall behind his +back. +"Message for you, Case." Lupus Yonder boy's suit cycled +through pure primaries. "Pardon. Not to startle you." +Case straightened up, hands in jacket pockets. He was a +head taller than the Modern. "You ought a be careful, Yonder +boy." +"This is the message. Winter mute." He spelled it out. +"From you?" Case took a step forward. +"No," Yonderboy said. "For you." +"Who from?" +"Winter mute," Yonderboy repeated, nodding, bobbing his +crest of pink hair. His suit went matte black, a carbon shadow +against old concrete. He executed a strange little dance, his +thin black arms whirling, and then he was gone. No. There. +Hood up to hide the pink, the suit exactly the right shade of +gray, mottled and stained as the sidewalk he stood on. The +eyes winked back the red of a stoplight. And then he was really +gone. +Case closed his eyes, massaged them with numb fingers, +leaning back against peeling brickwork. +Ninsei had been a lot simpler. + +The medical team Molly employed occupied two floors of +an anonymous condo-rack near the old hub of Baltimore. The +building was modular, like some giant version of Cheap Hotel +each coffin forty meters long. Case met Molly as she emerged +from one that wore the elaborately worked logo of one GERALD +CHIN, DENTIST. She was limping. +"He says if I kick anything, it'll fall off." +"I ran into one of your pals," he said, "a Modern." +"Yeah? Which one?" +"Lupus Yonderboy. Had a message." He passed her a paper +napkin with W I N T E R M U T E printed in red feltpen in +his neat, laborious capitals. "He said--" But her hand came +up in the jive for silence. +"Get us some crab," she said. + +After lunch in Baltimore, Molly dissecting her crab with +alarming ease, they tubed in to New York. Case had learned +not to ask questions; they only brought the sign for silence. +Her leg seemed to be bothering her, and she seldom spoke. +A thin black child with wooden beads and antique resistors +woven tightly into her hair opened the Finn's door and led them +along the tunnel of refuse. Case felt the stuff had grown somehow +during their absence . Or else it seemed that it was changing +subtly, cooking itself down under the pressure of time, silent +invisible flakes settling to form a mulch, a crystalline essence +of discarded technology, flowering secretly in the Sprawl's +waste places. +Beyond the army blanket, the Finn waited at the white table. +Molly began to sign rapidly, produced a scrap of paper, +wrote something on it, and passed it to the Finn. He took it +between thumb and forefinger, holding it away from his body +as though it might explode. He made a sign Case didn't know, +one that conveyed a mixture of impatience and glum resignation. +He stood up, brushing crumbs from the front of his battered +tweed jacket. A glass jar of pickled herring stood on the +table beside a torn plastic package of flatbread and a tin ashtray +piled with the butts of Partagas. +"Wait," the Finn said, and left the room. +Molly took his place, extruded the blade from her index +finger, and speared a grayish slab of herring. Case wandered +aimlessly around the room, fingering the scanning gear on the +pylons as he passed. +Ten minutes and the Finn came bustling back, showing his +teeth in a wide yellow smile. He nodded, gave Molly a thumbs-up +salute, and gestured to Case to help him with the door panel. +While Case smoothed the velcro border into place, the Finn +took a flat little console from his pocket and punched out an +elaborate sequence. +"Honey," he said to Molly, tucking the console away, "you +have got it. No shit, I can smell it. You wanna tell me where +you got it?" +"Yonderboy," Molly said, shoving the herring and crackers +aside. "I did a deal with Larry, on the side." +"Smart," the Finn said. "It's an AI." +"Slow it down a little," Case said. +"Berne," the Finn said, ignoring him. "Berne. It's got limited +Swiss citizenship under their equivalent of the Act of '53. +Built for Tessier-Ashpool S.A. They own the mainframe and +the original software." +"What's in Beme, okay?" Case deliberately stepped between +them. +"Wintermute is the recognition code for an AI. I've got the +Turing Registry numbers. Artificial intelligence." +"That's all just fine," Molly said, "but where's it get us?" +"If Yonderboy's right," the Finn said, "this Al is backing +Armitage." +"I paid Larry to have the Moderns nose around Ammitage a +little," Molly explained, turning to Case. "They have some +very weird lines of communication. Deal was, they'd get my +money if they answered one question: who's running Armitage?" +"And you think it's this AI? Those things aren't allowed +any autonomy. It'll be the parent corporation, this Tessle. . ." +"Tessier-Ashpool S.A.," said the Finn. "And I got a little +story for you about them. Wanna hear?" He sat down and +hunched forward. +"Finn," Molly said. "He loves a story." +"Haven't ever told anybody this one," the Finn began. + +The Finn was a fence, a trafficker in stolen goods, primarily +in software. In the course of his business, he sometimes came +into contact with other fences, some of whom dealt in the more +traditional articles of the trade. In precious metals, stamps, rare +coins, gems, jewelry, furs, and paintings and other works of +art. The story he told Case and Molly began with another man's +story, a man he called Smith. +Smith was also a fence, but in balmier seasons he surfaced +as an art dealer. He was the first person the Finn had known +who'd "gone silicon"--the phrase had an old-fashioned ring +for Case--and the microsofts he purchased were art history +programs and tables of gallery sales. With half a dozen chips +in his new socket, Smith's knowledge of the art business was +formidable, at least by the standards of his colleagues. But +Smith had come to the Finn with a request for help, a fraternal +request, one businessman to another. He wanted a go-to on the +Tessier-Ashpool clan, he said, and it had to be executed in a +way that would guarantee the impossibility of the subject ever +tracing the inquiry to its source. It might be possible, the Finn +had opined, but an explanation was definitely required. "It +smelled," the Finn said to Case, "smelled of money. And Smith +was being very careful. Almost too careful." +Smith, it developed, had had a supplier known as Jimmy. +Jimmy was a burglar and other things as well, and just back +from a year in high orbit, having carried certain things back +down the gravity well. The most unusual thing Jimmy had +managed to score on his swing through the archipelago was a +head, an intricately worked bust, cloisonne over platinum, studded +with seedpearls and lapis. Smith, sighing, had put down +his pocket microscope and advised Jimmy to melt the thing +down. It was contemporary, not an antique, and had no value +to the collector. Jimmy laughed. The thing was a computer +terminal, he said. It could talk. And not in a synth-voice, but +with a beautiful arrangement of gears and miniature organ pipes. +It was a baroque thing for anyone to have constructed, a perverse +thing, because synth-voice chips cost next to nothing. It +was a curiosity. Smith jacked the head into his computer and +listened as the melodious, inhuman voice piped the figures of +last year's tax return. +Smith' s clientele included a Tokyo billionaire whose passion +for clockwork automata approached fetishism. Smith shrugged, +showing Jimmy his upturned palms in a gesture old as pawn +shops. He could try, he said, but he doubted he could get much +for it. +When Jimmy had gone, leaving the head, Smith went over +it carefully, discovering certain hallmarks. Eventually he'd been +able to trace it to an unlikely collaboration between two Zurich +artisans, an enamel specialist in Paris, a Dutch jeweler, and a +California chip designer. It had been commissioned, he discovered, +by Tessier-Ashpool S.A. +Smith began to make preliminary passes at the Tokyo collector, +hinting that he was on the track of something noteworthy. + +And then he had a visitor, a visitor unannounced, one who +walked in through the elaborate maze of Smith's security as +though it didn't exist. A small man, Japanese, enormously +polite, who bore all the marks of a vatgrown ninja assassin. +Smith sat very still, staring into the calm brown eyes of death +across a polished table of Vietnamese rosewood. Gently, almost +apologetically, the cloned killer explained that it was his duty +to find and return a certain artwork, a mechanism of great +beauty, which had been taken from the house of his master. It +had come to his attention, the ninja said, that Smith might +know of the whereabouts of this object. +Smith told the man that he had no wish to die, and produced +the head. And how much, his visitor asked did you expect to +obtain through the sale of this object? Smith named a figure +far lower than the price he'd intended to set. The ninja produced +a credit chip and keyed Smith that amount out of a numbered +Swiss account. And who, the man asked, brought you this +piece? Smith told him. Within days, Smith learned of Jimmy's +death. +"So that was where I came in," the Finn continued. "Smith +knew I dealt a lot with the Memory Lane crowd, and that's +where you go for a quiet go-to that'll never be traced. I hired +a cowboy. I was the cut-out, so I took a percentage. Smith, +he was careful. He'd just had a very weird business experience +and he'd come out on top, but it didn't add up. Who'd paid, +out of that Swiss stash? Yakuza? No way. They got a very +rigid code covers situations like that, and they kill the receiver +too, always. Was it spook stuff? Smith didn't think so. Spook +biz has a vibe, you get so you can smell it. Well, I had my +cowboy buzz the news morgues until we found Tessier-Ashpool +in litigation. The case wasn't anything, but we got the law +firm. Then he did the lawyer's ice and we got the family +address. Lotta good it did us." +Case raised his eyebrows. +"Freeside," the Finn said. "The spindle. Turns out they own +damn near the whole thing. The interesting stuff was the picture +we got when the cowboy ran a regular go-to on the news +morgues and compiled a precis. Family organization. Corporate +structure. Supposedly you can buy into an S.A., but there hasn't +been a share of Tessier-Ashpool traded on the open market in +over a hundred years. On any market, as far as I know. You're +looking at a very quiet, very eccentric first-generation high- +orbit family, run like a corporation. Big money, very shy of +media. Lot of cloning. Orbital law's a lot softer on genetic +engineering, right? And it's hard to keep track of which gen- +eration, or combination of generations, is running the show at +a given time." +"How's that?" Molly asked. +"Got their own cryogenic setup. Even under orbital law, +you're legally dead for the duration of a freeze. Looks like +they trade off, though nobody's seen the founding father in +about thirty years. Founding momma, she died in some lab +accident...." +"So what happened with your fence?" +"Nothing." The Finn frowned. "Dropped it. We had a look +at this fantastic tangle of powers of attorney the T-A's have, +and that was it. Jimmy must've gotten into Straylight, lifted +the head, and Tessier-Ashpool sent their ninja after it. Smith +decided to forget about it. Maybe he was smart." He looked +at Molly. "The Villa Straylight. Tip of the spindle. Strictly +private." +"You figure they own that ninja, Finn?" Molly asked. +"Smith thought so." +"Expensive," she said. "Wonder whatever happened to that +little ninja, Finn?" +"Probably got him on ice. Thaw when needed." +"Okay," Case said, "we got Armitage getting his goodies +off an AI named Wintermute. Where's that get us?" +"Nowhere yet," Molly said, "but you got a little side gig +now." She drew a folded scrap of paper from her pocket and +handed it to him. He opened it. Grid coordinates and entry +codes. +"Who's this?" +"Armitage. Some data base of his. Bought it from the Mod- +erns. Separate deal. Where is it?" +"London," Case said. +"Crack it." She laughed. "Earn your keep for a change." + +Case waited for a trans-BAMA local on the crowded plat- +form. Molly had gone back to the loft hours ago, the Flatline's +construct in her green bag, and Case had been drinking steadily +ever since. +It was disturbing to think of the Flatline as a construct, a +hardwired ROM cassette replicating a dead man's skills, obsessions, +kneejerk responses.... The local came booming in +along the black induction strip, fine grit sifting from cracks in +the tunnel's ceiling. Case shuffled into the nearest door and +watched the other passengers as he rode. A pair of predatory- +looking Christian Scientists were edging toward a trio of young +office techs who wore idealized holographic vaginas on their +wrists, wet pink glittering under the harsh lighting. The techs +licked their perfect lips nervously and eyed the Christian Scientists +from beneath lowered metallic lids. The girls looked +like tall, exotic grazing animals, swaying gracefully and unconsciously +with the movement of the train, their high heels +like polished hooves against the gray metal of the car's floor. +Before they could stampede, take flight from the missionaries, +the train reached Case's station. +He stepped out and caught sight of a white holographic cigar +suspended against the wall of the station, FREESIDE pulsing +beneath it in contorted capitals that mimicked printed Japanese. +He walked through the crowd and stood beneath it, studying +the thing. WHY WAIT? pulsed the sign. A blunt white spindle, +flanged and studded with grids and radiators, docks, domes. +He'd seen the ad, or others like it, thousands of times. It had +never appealed to him. With his deck, he could reach the +Freeside banks as easily as he could reach Atlanta. Travel was +a meat thing. But now he noticed the little sigil, the size of a +small coin, woven into the lower left corner of the ad's fabric +of light: T-A. +He walked back to the loft, lost in memories of the Flatline. +He'd spent most of his nineteenth summer in the Gentleman +Loser, nursing expensive beers and watching the cowboys. +He'd never touched a deck, then, but he knew what he wanted. +There were at least twenty other hopefuls ghosting the Loser, +that summer, each one bent on working joeboy for some cowboy. +No other way to learn. +They'd all heard of Pauley, the redneck jockey from the +'Lanta fringes, who'd survived braindeath behind black ice. +The grapevine--slender, street level, and the only one going-- +had little to say about Pauley, other than that he'd done the +impossible. "It was big," another would-be told Case, for the +price of a beer, "but who knows what? I hear maybe a Brazilian +payroll net. Anyway, the man was dead, flat down braindeath." +Case stared across the crowded bar at a thickset man in shirtsleeves, +something leaden about the shade of his skin. +"Boy," the Flatline would tell him, months later in Miami, +"I'm like them huge fuckin' lizards, you know? Had themself +two goddam brains, one in the head an' one by the tailbone, +kept the hind legs movin'. Hit that black stuff and ol' tailbrain +jus' kept right on keepin' on." +The cowboy elite in the Loser shunned Pauley out of some +strange group anxiety, almost a superstition. McCoy Pauley, +Lazarus of cyberspace.... +And his heart had done for him in the end. His surplus +Russian heart, implanted in a POW camp during the war. He'd +refused to replace the thing, saying he needed its particular +beat to maintain his sense of timing. Case fingered the slip of +paper Molly had given him and made his way up the stairs. +Molly was snoring on the temperfoam. A transparent cast +ran from her knee to a few millimeters below her crotch, the +skin beneath the rigid micropore mottled with bruises, the black +shading into ugly yellow. Eight derms, each a different size +and color, ran in a neat line down her left wrist. An Akai +transdermal unit lay beside her, its fine red leads connected to +input trodes under the cast. +He turned on the tensor beside the Hosaka. The crisp circle +of light fell directly on the Flatline's construct. He slotted some +ice, connected the construct, and jacked in. +It was exactly the sensation of someone reading over his +shoulder. +He coughed. "Dix? McCoy? That you man?" His throat was +tight. +"Hey, bro," said a directionless voice. +"It's Case, man. Remember?" +"Miami, joeboy, quick study." +"What's the last thing you remember before I spoke to you, +Dix?" +"Nothin'." +"Hang on." He disconnected the construct. The presence +was gone. He reconnected it. "Dix? Who am I?" +"You got me hung, Jack. Who the fuck are you?" +"Ca--your buddy. Partner. What's happening, man?" +"Good question." +"Remember being here, a second ago?" +"No." +"Know how a ROM personality matrix works?" +"Sure, bro, it's a firmware construct." +"So I jack it into the bank I'm using, I can give it sequential, +real time memory?" +"Guess so," said the construct. +"Okay, Dix. You are a ROM construct. Got me?" +"If you say so," said the construct. "Who are you?" +"Case." +"Miami," said the voice, "joeboy, quick study." +"Right. And for starts, Dix, you and me, we're gonna sleaze +over to London grid and access a little data. You game for +that?" +"You gonna tell me I got a choice, boy?" +"You want you a paradise," the Flatline advised, when Case +had explained his situation. "Check Copenhagen, fringes of +the university section." The voice recited coordinates as he +punched. +They found their paradise, a "pirate's paradise," on the +jumbled border of a low-security academic grid. At first glance +it resembled the kind of graffiti student operators sometimes +left at the junctions of grid lines, faint glyphs of colored light +that shimmered against the confused outlines of a dozen arts +faculties. +"There," said the Flatline, "the blue one. Make it out? That's +an entry code for Bell Europa. Fresh, too. Bell'll get in here +soon and read the whole damn board, change any codes they +find posted. Kids'll steal the new ones tomorrow." +Case tapped his way into Bell Europa and switched to a +standard phone code. With the Flatline's help, he connected +with the London data base that Molly claimed was Armitage's. +"Here," said the voice, "I'll do it for you." The Flatline +began to chant a series of digits, Case keying them on his deck, +trying to catch the pauses the construct used to indicate timing. +It took three tries. +"Big deal," said the Flatline. "No ice at all." +"Scan this shit," Case told the Hosaka. "Sift for owner's +personal history." +The neuroelectronic scrawls of the paradise vanished, re- +placed by a simple lozenge of white light. "Contents are pri- +marily video recordings of postwar military trials," said the +distant voice of the Hosaka. "Central figure is Colonel Willis +Corto." +"Show it already," Case said. +A man's face filled the screen. The eyes were Armitage's. +Two hours later, Case fell beside Molly on the slab and let +the temperfoam mold itself against him. +"You find anything?" she asked, her voice fuzzy with sleep +and drugs. +"Tell you later," he said, "I'm wrecked." He was hungover +and confused. He lay there, eyes closed, and tried to sort the +various parts of a story about a man called Corto. The Hosaka +had sorted a thin store of data and assembled a precis, but it +was full of gaps. Some of the material had been print records, +reeling smoothly down the screen, too quickly, and Case had +had to ask the computer to read them for him. Other segments +were audio recordings of the Screaming Fist hearing. +Willis Corto, Colonel, had plummeted through a blind spot +in the Russian defenses over Kirensk. The shuttles had created +the hole with pulse bombs, and Corto's team had dropped in +in Nightwing microlights, their wings snapping taut in moonlight, +reflected in jags of silver along the rivers Angara and +Podhamennaya, the last light Corto would see for fifteen months. +Case tried to imagine the microlights blossoming out of their +launch capsules, high above a frozen steppe. +"They sure as hell did shaft you, boss," Case said, and +Molly stirred beside him. +The microlights had been unarmed, stripped to compensate +for the weight of a console operator, a prototype deck, and a +virus program called Mole IX, the first true virus in the history +of cybernetics. Corto and his team had been training for the +run for three years. They were through the ice, ready to inject +Mole IX, when the emps went off. The Russian pulse guns +threw the jockeys into electronic darkness; the Nightwings suffered +systems crash, flight circuitry wiped clean. +Then the lasers opened up, aiming on infrared, taking out +the fragile, radar-transparent assault planes, and Corto and his +dead console man fell out of a Siberian sky. Fell and kept +falling.... +There were gaps in the story, here, where Case scanned +documents concerning the flight of a commandeered Russian +gunship that managed to reach Finland. To be gutted, as it +landed in a spruce grove, by an antique twenty-millimeter can- +non manned by a cadre of reservists on dawn alert. Screaming +Fist had ended for Corto on the outskirts of Helsinki, with +Finnish paramedics sawing him out of the twisted belly of the +helicopter. The war ended nine days later, and Corto was shipped +to a military facility in Utah, blind, legless, and missing most +of his jaw. It took eleven months for the Congressional aide +to find him there. He listened to the sound of tubes draining. +In Washington and McLean, the show trials were already un- +derway. The Pentagon and the CIA were being Balkanized, +partially dismantled, and a Congressional investigation had focused +on Screaming Fist. Ripe for watergating, the aide told +Corto. +He'd need eyes, legs, and extensive cosmetic work, the aide +said, but that could be arranged. New plumbing, the man added, +squeezing Corto's shoulder through the sweat-damp sheet. +Corto heard the soft, relentless dripping. He said he preferred +to testify as he was. +No, the aide explained, the trials were being televised. The +trials needed to reach the voter. The aide coughed politely. +Repaired, refurnished, and extensively rehearsed, Corto's +subsequent testimony was detailed, moving, lucid, and largely +the invention of a Congressional cabal with certain vested interests +in saving particular portions of the Pentagon infrastructure. +Corto gradually understood that the testimony he gave +was instrumental in saving the careers of three officers directly +responsible for the suppression of reports on the building of +the emp installations at Kirensk. +His role in the trials over, he was unwanted in Washington. +In an M Street restaurant, over asparagus crepes, the aide explained +the terminal dangers involved in talking to the wrong +people. Corto crushed the man's larynx with the rigid fingers +of his right hand. The Congressional aide strangled, his face +in an asparagus crepe, and Corto stepped out into cool Washington +September. +The Hosaka rattled through police reports, corporate espionage +records, and news files. Case watched Corto work corporate +defectors in Lisbon and Marrakesh, where he seemed +to grow obsessed with the idea of betrayal, to loathe the scientists +and technicians he bought out for his employers. Drunk, +in Singapore, he beat a Russian engineer to death in a hotel +and set fire to his room. +Next he surfaced in Thailand, as overseer of a heroin factory. +Then as enforcer for a California gambling cartel, then as a +paid killer in the ruins of Bonn. He robbed a bank in Wichita. +The record grew vague, shadowy, the gaps longer. +One day, he said, in a taped segment that suggested chemical +interrogation, everything had gone gray. +Translated French medical records explained that a man +without identification had been taken to a Paris mental health +unit and diagnosed as schizophrenic. He became catatonic and +was sent to a government institution on the outskirts of Toulon. +He became a subject in an experimental program that sought +to reverse schizophrenia through the application of cybernetic +models. A random selection of patients were provided with +microcomputers and encouraged, with help from students, to +program them. He was cured, the only success in the entire +experiment. +The record ended there. + +Case turned on the foam and Molly cursed him softly for +disturbing her. +The telephone rang. He pulled it into bed. "Yeah?" +"We're going to Istanbul," Armitage said. "Tonight." +"What does the bastard want?" Molly asked. +"Says we're going to Istanbul tonight." +"That's just wonderful." +Armitage was reading off flight numbers and departure times. +Molly sat up and turned on the light. +"What about my gear?" Case asked. "My deck." +"Finn will handle it," said Armitage, and hung up. +Case watched her pack. There were dark circles under her +eyes, but even with the cast on, it was like watching a dance. +No wasted motion. His clothes were a rumpled pile beside his +bag. +"You hurting?" he asked. +"I could do with another night at Chin's." +"Your dentist?" +"You betcha. Very discreet. He's got half that rack, full +clinic. Does repairs for samurai." She was zipping her bag. +"You ever been to 'Stanbul?" +"Couple days, once." +"Never changes," she said. "Bad old town." +"It was like this when we headed for Chiba," Molly said, +staring out the train window at blasted industrial moonscape, +red beacons on the horizon warning aircraft away from a fusion +plant. "We were in L.A. He came in and said Pack, we were +booked for Macau. When we got there, I played fantan in the +Lisboa and he crossed over into Zhongshan. Next day I was +playing ghost with you in Night City." She took a silk scarf +from the sleeve of her black jacket and polished the insets. The +landscape of the northern Sprawl woke confused memories of +childhood for Case, dead grass tufting the cracks in a canted +slab of freeway concrete. +The train began to decelerate ten kilometers from the airport. +Case watched the sun rise on the landscape of childhood, on +broken slag and the rusting shells of refineries. + +It was raining in Beyoglu, and the rented Mercedes slid past +the grilled and unlit windows of cautious Greek and Armenian +jewelers. The street was almost empty, only a few dark-coated +figures on the sidewalks turning to stare after the car. +"This was formerly the prosperous European section of Ottoman +Istanbul," purred the Mercedes. +"So it's gone downhill," Case said. +"The Hilton's in Cumhuriyet Caddesi," Molly said. She +settled back against the car's gray ultrasuede. +"How come Armitage flies alone?" Case asked. He had a +headache. +"'Cause you get up his nose. You're sure getting up mine." +He wanted to tell her the Corto story, but decided against +it. He'd used a sleep derm, on the plane. +The road in from the airport had been dead straight, like a +neat incision, laying the city open. He'd watched the crazy +walls of patchwork wooden tenements slide by, condos, arcologies, +grim housing projects, more walls of plyboard and +corrugated iron. +The Finn, in a new Shinjuku suit, sarariman black, was +waiting sourly in the Hilton lobby, marooned on a velour armchair +in a sea of pale blue carpeting. +"Christ," Molly said. "Rat in a business suit." +They crossed the lobby. +"How much you get paid to come over here, Finn?" She +lowered her bag beside the armchair. "Bet not as much as you +get for wearing that suit, huh?" +The Finn' s upper lips drew back. "Not enough, sweetmeat. " +He handed her a magnetic key with a round yellow tag. "You're +registered already. Honcho's upstairs." He looked around. "This +town sucks." +"You get agoraphobic, they take you out from under a dome. +Just pretend it's Brooklyn or something." She twirled the key +around a finger. "You here as valet or what?" +"I gotta check out some guy's implants," the Finn said. +"How about my deck?" Case asked. +The Finn winced. "Observe the protocol. Ask the boss." +Molly's fingers moved in the shadow of her jacket, a flicker +of jive. The Finn watched, then nodded. +"Yeah," she said, "I know who that is." She jerked her head +in the direction of the elevators. "Come on, cowboy." Case +followed her with both bags. + +Their room might have been the one in Chiba where he'd +first seen Armitage. He went to the window, in the morning, +almost expecting to see Tokyo Bay. There was another hotel +across the street. It was still raining. A few letter-writers had +taken refuge in doorways, their old voiceprinters wrapped in +sheets of clear plastic, evidence that the written word still +enjoyed a certain prestige here. It was a sluggish country. He +watched a dull black Citroen sedan, a primitive hydrogen-cell +conversion, as it disgorged five sullen-looking Turkish officers +in rumpled green uniforms. They entered the hotel across the +street. +He glanced back at the bed, at Molly, and her paleness +struck him. She'd left the micropore cast on the bedslab in +their loft, beside the transdermal inducer. Her glasses reflected +part of the room's light fixture. +He had the phone in his hand before it had a chance to ring +twice. "Glad you're up," Armitage said. +"I'm just. Lady's still under. Listen, boss, I think it's maybe +time we have a little talk. I think I work better if I know a +little more about what I'm doing." +Silence on the line. Case bit his lip. +"You know as much as you need to. Maybe more." +"You think so?" +"Get dressed, Case. Get her up. You'll have a caller in +about fifteen minutes. His name is Terzibashjian." The phone +bleated softly. Armitage was gone. +"Wake up, baby," Case said. "Biz." +"I've been awake an hour already." The mirrors turned. +"We got a Jersey Bastion coming up." +"You got an ear for language, Case. Bet you're part Ar- +menian. That's the eye Armitage has had on Riviera. Help me +up." +Terzibashjian proved to be a young man in a gray suit and +gold-framed, mirrored glasses. His white shirt was open at the +collar, revealing a mat of dark hair so dense that Case at first +mistook it for some kind of t-shirt. He arrived with a black +Hilton tray arranged with three tiny, fragrant cups of thick +black coffee and three sticky, straw-colored Oriental sweets. +"We must, as you say in Ingiliz, take this one very easy." +He seemed to stare pointedly at Molly, but at last he removed +the silver glasses. His eyes were a dark brown that matched +the shade of his very short military-cut hair. He smiled. "It is +better, this way, yes? Else we make the tunel infinity, mirror +into mirror.... You particularly," he said to her, "must take +care. In Turkey there is disapproval of women who sport such +modifications." +Molly bit one of the pastries in half. "It's my show, Jack," +she said, her mouth full. She chewed, swallowed, and licked +her lips. "I know about you. Stool for the military, right?" Her +hand slid lazily into the front of her jacket and came out with +the fletcher. Case hadn't known she had it. +"Very easy, please," Terzibashjian said, his white china +thimble frozen centimeters from his lips. +She extended the gun. "Maybe you get the explosives, lots +of them, or maybe you get a cancer. One dart, shitface. You +won't feel it for months." +"Please. You call this in Ingiliz making me very tight...." +"I call it a bad morning. Now tell us about your man and +get your ass out of here." She put the gun away. +"He is living in Fener, at Kuchuk Gulhane Djaddesi 14. 1 +have his tunel route, nightly to the bazaar. He performs most +recently at the Yenishehir Palas Oteli, a modern place in the +style turistik, but it has been arranged that the police have +shown a certain interest in these shows. The Yenishehir man- +agement has grown nervous." He smiled. He smelled of some +metallic aftershave. +"I want to know about the implants," she said, massaging +her thigh, "I want to know exactly what he can do." +Terzibashjian nodded. "Worst is how you say in Ingiliz, the +subliminals." He made the word four careful syllables. + +"On our left," said the Mercedes, as it steered through a +maze of rainy streets, "is Kapali Carsi, the grand bazaar." +Beside Case, the Finn made an appreciative noise, but he +was looking in the wrong direction. The right side of the street +was lined with miniature scrapyards. Case saw a gutted loco- +motive atop rust-stained, broken lengths of fluted marble. +Headless marble statues were stacked like firewood. +"Homesick?" Case asked. +"Place sucks," the Finn said. His black silk tie was starting +to resemble a worn carbon ribbon. There were medallions of +kebab gravy and fried egg on the lapels of the new suit. +"Hey, Jersey," Case said to the Armenian, who sat behind +them, "where'd this guy get his stuff installed?" +"In Chiba City. He has no left lung. The other is boosted, +is how you say it? Anyone might buy these implants, but this +one is most talented." The Mercedes swerved, avoiding a bal- +loon-tired dray stacked with hides. "I have followed him in the +street and seen a dozen cycles fall, near him, in a day. Find +the cyclist in a hospital, the story is always the same. A scorpion +poised beside a brake lever...." +"'What you see is what you get,' yeah," the Finn said. "I +seen the schematics on the guy's silicon. Very flash. What he +imagines, you see. I figure he could narrow it to a pulse and +fry a retina over easy." +"You have told this to your woman friend?" Terzibashjian +leaned forward between the ultrasuede buckets. "In Turkey, +women are still women. This one. . ." +The Finn snorted. "She'd have you wearing your balls for +a bow tie if you looked at her cross-eyed." +"I do not understand this idiom." +"That's okay," Case said. "Means shut up." +The Armenian sat back, leaving a metallic edge of after- +shave. He began to whisper to a Sanyo transceiver in a strange +salad of Greek, French, Turkish, isolated fragments of English. +The transceiver answered in French. The Mercedes swung +smoothly around a corner. "The spice bazaar, sometimes called +the Egyptian bazaar," the car said, "was erected on the site of +an earlier bazaar erected by Sultan Hatice in 1660. This is the +city's central market for spices, software, perfumes, drugs...." +"Drugs," Case said, watching the car's wipers cross and +recross the bulletproof Lexan. "What's that you said before, +Jersey, about this Riviera being wired?" +"A mixture of cocaine and meperidine, yes." The Armenian +went back to the conversation he was having with the Sanyo. +' Demerol, they used to call that," said the Finn. "He's a +speedball artist. Funny class of people you're mixing with, +Case." +"Never mind," Case said, turning up the collar of his jacket, +"we'll get the poor fucker a new pancreas or something." + +Once they entered the bazaar, the Finn brightened notice- +ably, as though he were comforted by the crowd density and +the sense of enclosure. They walked with the Armenian along +a broad concourse, beneath soot-stained sheets of plastic and +green-painted ironwork out of the age of steam. A thousand +suspended ads writhed and flickered. +"Hey, Christ," the Finn said, taking Case's arm, "looka +that." He pointed. "It's a horse, man. You ever see a horse?" +Case glanced at the embalmed animal and shook his head. +It was displayed on a sort of pedestal, near the entrance to a +place that sold birds and monkeys. The thing's legs had been +worn black and hairless by decades of passing hands. "Saw +one in Maryland once," the Finn said, "and that was a good +three years after the pandemic. There's Arabs still trying to +code 'em up from the DNA, but they always croak." +The animal's brown glass eyes seemed to follow them as +they passed. Terzibashjian led them into a cafe near the core +of the market, a low-ceilinged room that looked as though it +had been in continuous operation for centuries. Skinny boys +in soiled white coats dodged between the crowded tables, bal- +ancing steel trays with bottles of Turk-Tuborg and tiny glasses +of tea. +Case bought a pack of Yeheyuans from a vendor by the +door. The Armenian was muttering to his Sanyo. "Come," he +said, "he is moving. Each night he rides the tunel to the bazaar, +to purchase his mixture from Ali. Your woman is close. Come." + +The alley was an old place, too old, the walls cut from +blocks of dark stone. The pavement was uneven and smelled +of a century's dripping gasoline, absorbed by ancient limestone. +"Can't see shit," he whispered to the Finn. "That's okay for +sweetmeat," the Finn said. "Quiet," said Terzibashjian, too +loudly +Wood grated on stone or concrete. Ten meters down the +alley, a wedge of yellow light fell across wet cobbles, widened. +A figure stepped out and the door grated shut again, leaving +the narrow place in darkness. Case shivered. +"Now," Terzibashjian said, and a brilliant beam of white +light, directed from the rooftop of the building opposite the +market, pinned the slender figure beside the ancient wooden +door in a perfect circle. Bright eyes darted left, right, and the +man crumpled. Case thought someone had shot him; he lay +face down, blond hair pale against the old stone, his limp hands +white and pathetic. +The floodlight never wavered. +The back of the fallen man's jacket heaved and burst, blood +splashing the wall and doorway. A pair of impossibly long, +rope-tendoned arms flexed grayish-pink in the glare. The thing +seemed to pull itself up out of the pavement, through the inert, +bloody ruin that had been Riviera. It was two meters tall, stood +on two legs, and seemed to be headless. Then it swung slowly +to face them, and Case saw that it had a head, but no neck. It +was eyeless, the skin gleaming a wet intestinal pink. The mouth, +if it was a mouth, was circular, conical, shallow, and lined +with a seething growth of hairs or bristles, glittering like black +chrome. It kicked the rags of clothing and flesh aside and took +a step, the mouth seeming to scan for them as it moved. +Terzibashjian said something in Greek or Turkish and rushed +the thing, his arms spread like a man attempting to dive through +a window. He went through it. Into the muzzle-flash of a pistol +from the dark beyond the circle of light. Fragments of rock +whizzed past Case's head; the Finn jerked him down into a +crouch. +The light from the rooftop vanished, leaving him with mis- +matched afterimages of muzzle-flash, monster, and white beam. +His ears rang. +Then the light returned, bobbing now, searching the shad- +ows. Terzibashjian was leaning against a steel door, his face +very white in the glare. He held his left wrist and watched +blood drip from a wound in his left hand. The blond man, +whole again, unbloodied, lay at his feet. +Molly stepped out of the shadows, all in black, with her +fletcher in her hand. +"Use the radio," the Armenian said, through gritted teeth. +"Call in Mahmut. We must get him out of here. This is not a +good place." +"Little prick nearly made it," the Finn said, his knees crack- +ing loudly as he stood up, brushing ineffectually at the legs of +his trousers. "You were watching the horror-show, right? Not +the hamburger that got tossed out of sight. Real cute. Well, +help 'em get his ass outa here. I gotta scan all that gear before +he wakes up, make sure Armitage is getting his money's worth." +Molly bent and picked something up. A pistol. "A Nambu," +she said. "Nice gun." +Terzibashjian made a whining sound. Case saw that most +of his middle finger was missing. + +With the city drenched in predawn blue, she told the Mercedes +to take them to Topkapi . The Finn and an enormous Turk named +Mahmut had taken Riviera, still unconscious, from the alley. +Minutes later, a dusty Citroen had arrived for the Armenian +who seemed on the verge of fainting. +"You're an asshole," Molly told the man, opening the car +door for him. "You shoulda hung back. I had him in my sights +as soon as he stepped out." Terzibashjian glared at her. "So +we're through with you anyway." She shoved him in and +slammed the door. "Run into you again and I'll kill you," she +said to the white face behind the tinted window. The Citroen +ground away down the alley and swung clumsily into the street. +Now the Mercedes whispered through Istanbul as the city +woke. They passed the Beyoglu tunel terminal and sped past +mazes of deserted back streets, run-down apartment houses that +reminded Case vaguely of Paris. +"What is this thing?" he asked Molly, as the Mercedes +parked itself on the fringes of the gardens that surround the +Scraglio. He stared dully at the baroque conglomeration of +styles that was Topkapi. +"It was sort of a private whorehouse for the King," she said, +getting out stretching. "Kept a lotta women there. Now it's a +museum. Kinda like Finn's shop, all this stuff just jumbled in +there big diamonds, swords, the left hand of John the +Baptist...." +"Like in a support vat?" +"Nah. Dead. Got it inside this brass hand thing, little hatch +on the side so the Christians could kiss it for luck. Got it off +the Christians about a million years ago, and they never dust +the goddam thing, 'cause it's an infidel relic." +Black iron deer rusted in the gardens of the Seraglio. Case +walked beside her, watching the toes of her boots crunch unkept +grass made stiff by an early frost. They walked beside a path +of cold octagonal flagstones. Winter was waiting, somewhere +in the Balkans. +"That Terzi, he's grade-A scum," she said. "He's the secret +police. Torturer. Real easy to buy out, too, with the kind of +money Armitage was offering." In the wet trees around them, +birds began to sing. +"I did that job for you," Case said, "the one in London. I +got something, but I don't know what it means." He told her +the Corto story. + +"Well, I knew there wasn't anybody name of Armitage in +that Screaming Fist. Looked it up." She stroked the rusted +flank of an iron doe. "You figure the little computer pulled +him out of it? In that French hospital?" +"I figure Wintermute," Case said. +She nodded. +"Thing is," he said, "do you think he knows he was Corto, +before? I mean, he wasn't anybody in particular, by the time +he hit the ward, so maybe Wintermute just. . ." +"Yeah. Built him up from go. Yeah..." She turned and +they walked on. "It figures. You know, the guy doesn't have +any life going, in private. Not as far as I can tell. You see a +guy like that, you figure there's something he does when he's +alone. But not Armitage. Sits and stares at the wall, man. Then +something clicks and he goes into high gear and wheels for +Wintermute." +"So why's he got that stash in London? Nostalgia?" +"Maybe he doesn't know about it," she said. "Maybe it's +just in his name, right?" +"I don't get it," Case said. +"Just thinking out loud.... How smart's an Al, Case?" +"Depends. Some aren't much smarter than dogs. Pets. Cost +a fortune anyway. The real smart ones are as smart as the +Turing heat is willing to let 'em get." +"Look, you're a cowboy. How come you aren't just flat- +out fascinated with those things?" +"Well," he said, "for starts, they're rare. Most of them are +military, the bright ones, and we can't crack the ice. That's +where ice all comes from, you know? And then there's the +Turing cops, and that's bad heat." He looked at her. "I dunno, +it just isn't part of the trip." +"Jockeys all the same," she said. "No imagination." +They came to a broad rectangular pond where carp nuzzled +the stems of some white aquatic flower. She kicked a loose +pebble in and watched the ripples spread. +"That's Wintermute," she said. "This deal's real big, looks +to me. We're out where the little waves are too broad, we can't +see the rock that hit the center. We know something's there, +but not why. I wanna know why. I want you to go and talk to +Wintermute." +"I couldn't get near it," he said. "You're dreaming." +"Try." +"Can't be done." +"Ask the Flatline." +"What do we want out of that Riviera?" he asked, hoping +to change the subject. +She spat into the pond. "God knows. I'd as soon kill him +as look at him. I saw his profile. He's a kind of compulsive +Judas. Can't get off sexually unless he knows he's betraying +the object of desire. That's what the file says. And they have +to love him first. Maybe he loves them, too. That's why it was +easy for Terzi to set him up for us, because he's been here +three years, shopping politicals to the secret police. Probably +Terzi let him watch, when the cattle prods came out. He's done +eighteen in three years. All women age twenty to twenty-five. +It kept Terzi in dissidents." She thrust her hands into her jacket +pockets. "Because if he found one he really wanted, he'd make +sure she turned political. He's got a personality like a Modern's +suit. The profile said it was a very rare type, estimated one in +a couple of million. Which anyway says something good about +human nature, I guess." She stared at the white flowers and +the sluggish fish, her face sour. "I think I'm going to have to +buy myself some special insurance on that Peter." Then she +turned and smiled, and it was very cold. +"What's that mean?" +"Never mind. Let's go back to Beyoglu and find something +like breakfast. I gotta busy night again, tonight. Gotta collect +his stuff from that apartment in Fener, gotta go back to the +bazaar and buy him some drugs...." +"Buy him some drugs? How's he rate?" +She laughed. "He's not dying on the wire, sweetheart. And +it looks like he can't work without that special taste. I like you +better now, anyway, you aren't so goddam skinny." She smiled. +"So I'll go to Ali the dealer and stock up. You betcha." + +Armitage was waiting in their room at the Hilton. +"Time to pack," he said, and Case tried to find the man +called Corto behind the pale blue eyes and the tanned mask. +He thought of Wage, back in Chiba. Operators above a certain +level tended to submerge their personalities, he knew. But +Wage had had vices, lovers. Even, it had been rumored, chil- +dren. The blankness he found in Armitage was something else. +"Where to now?" he asked, walking past the man to stare +down into the street. "What kind of climate?" +"They don't have climate, just weather," Armitage said. +"Here. Read the brochure." He put something on the coffee +table and stood. +"Did Riviera check out okay? Where's the Finn?" +"Riviera's fine. The Finn is on his way home." Armitage +smiled, a smile that meant as much as the twitch of some +insect's antenna. His gold bracelet clinked as he reached out +to prod Case in the chest. "Don't get too smart. Those little +sacs are starting to show wear, but you don't know how much." +Case kept his face very still and forced himself to nod. +When Armitage was gone, he picked up one of the bro- +chures. It was expensively printed, in French, English, and +Turkish. +FREESIDE--WHY WAIT? + +The four of them were booked on a THY flight out of Yes- +ilkoy airport. Transfer at Paris to the JAL shuttle. Case sat in +the lobby of the Istanbul Hilton and watched Riviera browse +bogus Byzantine fragments in the glass-walled gift-shop. Ar- +mitage, his trenchcoat draped over his shoulders like a cape, +stood in the shop's entrance. +Riviera was slender, blond, soft-voiced, his English ac- +centless and fluid. Molly said he was thirty, but it would have +been difficult to guess his age. She also said he was legally +stateless and traveled under a forged Dutch passport. He was +a product of the rubble rings that fringe the radioactive core +of old Bonn. +Three smiling Japanese tourists bustled into the shop, nod- +ding politely to Armitage. Armitage crossed the floor of the +shop too quickly, too obviously, to stand beside Riviera. Ri- +viera turned and smiled. He was very beautiful; Case assumed +the features were the work of a Chiba surgeon. A subtle job, +nothing like Armitage's blandly handsome blend of pop faces. +The man's forehead was high and smooth, gray eyes calm and +distant. His nose, which might have been too nicely sculpted, +seemed to have been broken and clumsily reset. The suggestion +of brutality offset the delicacy of his jaw and the quickness of +his smile. His teeth were small, even, and very white. Case +watched the white hands play over the imitation fragments of +sculpture. +Riviera didn't act like a man who'd been attacked the night +before, drugged with a toxin-flechette, abducted, subjected to +the Finn's examination, and pressured by Armitage into joining +their team. +Case checked his watch. Molly was due back from her drug +run. He looked up at Riviera again. "I bet you're stoned right +now, asshole," he said to the Hilton lobby. A graying Italian +matron in a white leather tuxedo jacket lowered her Porsche +glasses to stare at him. He smiled broadly, stood, and shoul- +dered his bag. He needed cigarettes for the flight. He wondered +if there was a smoking section on the JAL shuttle. "See ya +lady," he said to the woman, who promptly slid the sunglasses +back up her nose and turned away. +There were cigarettes in the gift shop, but he didn't relish +talking with Armitage or Riviera. He left the lobby and located +a vending console in a narrow alcove, at the end of a rank of +pay phones. +He fumbled through a pocketful of lirasi, slotting the small +dull alloy coins one after another, vaguely amused by the anach- +ronism of the process. The phone nearest him rang. +Automatically, he picked it up. +"Yeah?" +Faint harmonics, tiny inaudible voices rattling across some +orbital link, and then a sound like wind. +"Hello. Case." +A fifty-lirasi coin fell from his hand, bounced, and rolled +out of sight across Hilton carpeting. +"Wintermute, Case. It's time we talk." +It was a chip voice. +"Don't you want to talk, Case?" +He hung up. +On his way back to the lobby, his cigarettes forgotten, he +had to walk the length of the ranked phones. Each rang in turn, +but only once, as he passed. + + +PART THREE + +MIDNIGHT IN THE +RUE JULES VERNE + +Archipelago. +The islands. Torus, spindle, cluster. Human DNA spreading +out from gravity's steep well like an oilslick. +Call up a graphics display that grossly simplifies the ex- +change of data in the L-S archipelago. One segment clicks in +as red solid, a massive rectangle dominating your screen. +Freeside. Freeside is many things, not all of them evident +to the tourists who shuttle up and down the well. Freeside is +brothel and banking nexus, pleasure dome and free port, bor- +der town, and spa. Freeside is Las Vegas and the hanging gar- +dens of Babylon, an orbital Geneva and home to a family inbred +and most carefully refined, the industrial clan of Tessier and +Ashpool. + +On the THY liner to Paris, they sat together in First Class, +Molly in the window seat, Case beside her, Riviera and Ar- +mitage on the aisle. Once, as the plane banked over water, +Case saw the jewel-glow of a Greek island town. And once, +reaching for his drink, he caught the flicker of a thing like a +giant human sperm in the depths of his bourbon and water. +Molly leaned across him and slapped Riviera's face, once. +"No, baby. No games. You play that subliminal shit around +me, I'll hurt you real bad. I can do it without damaging you +at all. I like that." +Case turned automatically to check Armitage's reaction. The +smooth face was calm, the blue eyes alert, but there was no +anger. "That's right, Peter. Don't." +Case turned back, in time to catch the briefest flash of a +black rose, its petals sheened like leather, the black stem thorned +with bright chrome. +Peter Riviera smiled sweetly, closed his eyes, and fell in- +stantly asleep. +Molly turned away, her lenses reflected in the dark window. +"You been up, haven't you?" Molly asked, as he squirmed +his way back into the deep temperfoam couch on the JAL +shuttle. +"Nah. Never travel much, just for biz." The steward was +attaching readout trodes to his wrist and left ear. +"Hope you don't get SAS," she said. +"Airsick? No way." +"It's not the same. Your heartbeat'll speed up in zero-g, and +your inner ear'll go nuts for a while. Kicks in your flight reflex, +like you'll be getting signals to run like hell, and a lot of +adrenaline." The steward moved on to Riviera, taking a new +set of trodes from his red plastic apron. +Case turned his head and tried to make out the outline of +the old Orly terminals, but the shuttle pad was screened by +graceful blast-deflectors of wet concrete. The one nearest the +window bore an Arabic slogan in red spraybomb. +He closed his eyes and told himself the shuttle was only a +big airplane, one that flew very high. It smelled like an airplane, +like new clothes and chewing gum and exhaustion. He listened +to the piped koto music and waited. +Twenty minutes, then gravity came down on him like a +great soft hand with bones of ancient stone. + +* * * +Space adaptation syndrome was worse than Molly's de- +scription, but it passed quickly enough and he was able to +sleep. The steward woke him as they were preparing to dock +at JAL's terminal cluster. +We transfer to Freeside now?" he asked, eyeing a shred +of Yeheyuan tobacco that had drifted gracefully up out of his +shirt pocket to dance ten centimeters from his nose. There was +no smoking on shuttle flights. +"No, we got the boss's usual little kink in the plans, you +know? We're getting this taxi out to Zion, Zion cluster." She +touched the release plate on her harness and began to free +herself from the embrace of the foam. "Funny choice of venue, +you ask me." +"How's that?" +"Dreads. Rastas. Colony's about thirty years old now." +"What's that mean?" +"You'll see. It's an okay place by me. Anyway, they'll let +you smoke your cigarettes there." + +Zion had been founded by five workers who'd refused to +return, who'd turned their backs on the well and started build- +ing. They'd suffered calcium loss and heart shrinkage before +rotational gravity was established in the colony's central torus. +Seen from the bubble of the taxi, Zion's makeshift hull re- +minded Case of the patchwork tenements of Istanbul, the ir- +regular, discolored plates laser-scrawled with Rastafarian +symbols and the initials of welders. +Molly and a skinny Zionite called Aerol helped Case ne- +gotiate a freefall corridor into the core of a smaller torus. He'd +lost track of Armitage and Riviera in the wake of a second +wave of SAS vertigo. "Here," Molly said, shoving his legs +into a narrow hatchway overhead. "Grab the rungs. Make like +you're climbing backward, right? You're going toward the hull, +that's like you're climbing down into gravity. Got it?" +Case's stomach churned. +"You be fine, mon," Aerol said, his grin bracketed with +gold incisors. +Somehow, the end of the tunnel had become its bottom. +Case embraced the weak gravity like a drowning man finding +a pocket of air. +"Up," Molly said, "you gonna kiss it next?" Case lay flat +on the deck, on his stomach, arms spread. Something struck +him on the shoulder. He rolled over and saw a fat bundle of +elastic cable. "Gotta play house," she said. "You help me string +this up." He looked around the wide, featureless space and +noticed steel rings welded on every surface, seemingly at ran- +dom. +When they'd strung the cables, according to some complex +scheme of Molly's, they hung them with battered sheets of +yellow plastic. As they worked, Case gradually became aware +of the music that pulsed constantly through the cluster. It was +called dub, a sensuous mosaic cooked from vast libraries of +digitalized pop; it was worship, Molly said, and a sense of +community. Case heaved at one of the yellow sheets; the thing +was light but still awkward. Zion smelled of cooked vegetables, +humanity, and ganja. +"Good," Armitage said, gliding loose-kneed through the +hatch and nodding at the maze of sheets. Riviera followed, less +certain in the partial gravity. +"Where were you when it needed doing?" Case asked Ri- +viera. +The man opened his mouth to speak. A small trout swam +out, trailing impossible bubbles. It glided past Case's cheek. +"In the head," Riviera said, and smiled. +Case laughed. +"Good," Riviera said, "you can laugh. I would have tried +to help you, but I'm no good with my hands." He held up his +palms, which suddenly doubled. Four arms, four hands. +"Just the harmless clown, right, Riviera?" Molly stepped +between them. +"Yo," Aerol said, from the hatch, "you wan' come wi' me, +cowboy mon." +"It's your deck," Armitage said, "and the other gear. Help +him get it in from the cargo bay." +"You ver' pale, mon," Aerol said, as they were guiding the +foam-bundled Hosaka terminal along the central corridor. +"Maybe you wan' eat somethin'." +Case's mouth flooded with saliva; he shook his head. + +* * * +Armitage announced an eighty-hour stay in Zion. Molly and +Case would practice in zero gravity, he said, and acclimatize +themselves to working in it. He would brief them on Freeside +and the Villa Straylight. It was unclear what Riviera was sup- +posed to be doing, but Case didn't feel like asking. A few +hours after their arrival, Armitage had sent him into the yellow +maze to call Riviera out for a meal. He'd found him curled +like a cat on a thin pad of temperfoam, naked, apparently +asleep, his head orbited by a revolving halo of small white +geometric forms, cubes, spheres, and pyramids. "Hey, Ri- +viera." The ring continued to revolve. He'd gone back and told +Armitage. "He's stoned," Molly said, looking up from the +disassembled parts of her fletcher. "Leave him be." +Armitage seemed to think that zero-g would affect Case's +ability to operate in the matrix. 'Don't sweat it," Case argued, +"I jack in and I'm not here. It's all the same." +"Your adrenaline levels are higher," Armitage said. "You've +still got SAS. You won't have time for it to wear off. You're +going to learn to work with it. ' +"So I do the run from here'?" +"No. Practice, Case. Now. Up in the corridor...." + +Cyberspace, as the deck presented it, had no particular re- +lationship with the deck's physical whereabouts. When Case +jacked in, he opened his eyes to the familiar configuration of +the Eastern Seaboard Fission Authority's Aztec pyramid of +data. +"How you doing, Dixie?'' +"I'm dead, Case. Got enough time in on this Hosaka to +figure that one." +"How's it feel?" +"It doesn't." +"Bother you?" +"What bothers me is, nothin' does." +"How's that?" +"Had me this buddy in the Russian camp, Siberia, his thumb +was frostbit. Medics came by and they cut it off. Month later +he's tossin' all night. Elroy. l said, what's eatin' you? Goddam +thumb's itchin', he says. So l told him, scratch it. McCoy, he +says, it's the other goddam thumb." When the construct laughed, +it came through as something else, not laughter, but a stab of +cold down Case's spine. "Do me a favor, boy." +"What's that, Dix?" +"This scam of yours, when it's over, you erase this goddam +thing." + +Case didn't understand the Zionites. +Aerol, with no particular provocation, related the tale of the +baby who had burst from his forehead and scampered into a +forest of hydroponic ganja. "Ver' small baby, mon, no long' +you finga." He rubbed his palm across an unscarred expanse +of brown forehead and smiled. +"It's the ganja," Molly said, when Case told her the story. +"They don't make much of a difference between states, you +know? Aerol tells you it happened, well, it happened to him. +It's not like bullshit, more like poetry. Get it?" +Case nodded dubiously. The Zionites always touched you +when they were talking, hands on your shoulder. He didn't +like that. +"Hey, Aerol," Case called, an hour later, as he prepared +for a practice run in the freefall corridor. "Come here, man. +Wanna show you this thing." He held out the trodes. +Aerol executed a slow-motion tumble. His bare feet struck +the steel wall and he caught a girder with his free hand. The +other held a transparent waterbag bulging with blue-green al- +gae. He blinked mildly and grinned. +"Try it," Case said. +He took the band, put it on, and Case adjusted the trodes. +He closed his eyes. Case hit the power stud. Aerol shuddered. +Case jacked him back out. "What did you see, man?" +"Babylon," Aerol said, sadly, handing him the trodes and +kicking off down the corridor. +Riviera sat motionless on his foam pad, his right arm ex- +tended straight out, level with his shoulder. A jewel-scaled +snake, its eyes like ruby neon, was coiled tightly a few +millimeters behind his elbow. Case watched the snake, which +was finger-thick and banded black and scarlet, slowly contract, +tightening around Riviera's arm. +"Come then," the man said caressingly to the pale waxy +scorpion poised in the center of his upturned palm. "Come." +The scorpion swayed its brownish claws and scurried up his +arm, its feet tracking the faint dark telltales of veins. When it +reached the inner elbow, it halted and seemed to vibrate. Ri- +viera made a soft hissing sound. The sting came up, quivered, +and sank into the skin above a bulging vein. The coral snake +relaxed, and Riviera sighed slowly as the injection hit him. +Then the snake and the scorpion were gone, and he held a +milky plastic syringe in his left hand. "'If God made anything +better, he kept it for himself. ' You know the expression, Case?" +"Yeah," Case said. "I heard that about lots of different +things. You always make it into a little show?" +Riviera loosened and removed the elastic length of surgical +tubing from his arm. "Yes. It's more fun." He smiled, his eyes +distant now, cheeks flushed. "I've a membrane set in, just over +the vein, so I never have to worry about the condition of the +needle." +"Doesn't hurt?" +The bright eyes met his. "Of course it does. That's part of +it, isn't it?" +"I'd just use derms," Case said. +"Pedestrian," Riviera sneered, and laughed, putting on a +short-sleeved white cotton shirt. +"Must be nice," Case said, getting up. +"Get high yourself, Case?" +"I hadda give it up." + +"Freeside," Armitage said, touching the panel on the little +Braun hologram projector. The image shivered into focus, nearly +three meters from tip to tip. "Casinos here." He reached into +the skeletal representation and pointed. "Hotels, strata-title +property, big shops along here." His hand moved. "Blue areas +are lakes." He walked to one end of the model. "Big cigar. +Narrows at the ends." +"We can see that fine," Molly said. +"Mountain effect, as it narrows. Ground seems to get higher, +more rocky, but it's an easy climb. Higher you climb, the +lower the gravity. Sports up there. There's velodrome ring +here." He pointed. +"A what?" Case leaned forward. +"They race bicycles," Molly said. "Low grav, high-traction +tires, get up over a hundred kilos an hour." +"This end doesn't concern us," Armitage said with his usual +utter seriousness. +"Shit," Molly said, "I'm an avid cyclist." +Riviera giggled. +Armitage walked to the opposite end of the projection. "This +end does." The interior detail of the hologram ended here, and +the final segment of the spindle was empty. "This is the Villa +Straylight. Steep climb out of gravity and every approach is +kinked. There's a single entrance, here, dead center. Zero grav- +ity." +"What's inside, boss?" Riviera leaned forward, craning his +neck. Four tiny figures glittered, near the tip of Armitage's +finger. Armitage slapped at them as if they were gnats. +"Peter," Armitage said, "you're going to be the first to find +out. You'll arrange yourself an invitation. Once you're in, you +see that Molly gets in." +Case stared at the blankness that represented Straylight, +remembering the Finn's story: Smith, Jimmy, the talking head, +and the ninja. +"Details available?" Riviera asked. "I need to plan a ward- +robe, you see." +"Learn the streets," Armitage said, returning to the center +of the model. "Desiderata Street here. This is the Rue Jules +Verne." +Riviera rolled his eyes. +While Armitage recited the names of Freeside avenues, a +dozen bright pustules rose on his nose, cheeks, and chin. Even +Molly laughed. +Armitage paused, regarded them all with his cold empty +eyes. +"Sorry," Riviera said, and the sores flickered and vanished. + +Case woke, late into the sleeping period, and became aware +of Molly crouched beside him on the foam. He could feel her +tension. He lay there confused. When she moved, the sheer +speed of it stunned him. She was up and through the sheet of +yellow plastic before he'd had time to realize she'd slashed it +open. +"Don't you move, friend." +Case rolled over and put his head through the rent in the +plastic. "Wha. . . ?" +"Shut up." +"You th' one, mon," said a Zion voice. "Cateye, call 'em +call 'em Steppin' Razor. I Maelcum, sister. Brothers wan +converse wi' you an' cowboy." +"What brothers?" +"Founders, mon. Elders of Zion, ya know...." +"We open that hatch, the light'll wake bossman," Case +whispered. +"Make it special dark, now," the man said. "Come. I an' I +visit th' Founders." +"You know how fast I can cut you, friend?" +"Don' stan' talkin', sister. Come." + +The two surviving Founders of Zion were old men, old with +the accelerated aging that overtakes men who spend too many +years outside the embrace of gravity. Their brown legs, brittle +with calcium loss, looked fragile in the harsh glare of reflected +sunlight. They floated in the center of a painted jungle of +rainbow foliage, a lurid communal mural that completely cov- +ered the hull of the spherical chamber. The air was thick with +resinous smoke. +"Steppin' Razor," one said, as Molly drifted into the cham- +ber. "Like unto a whippin' stick." +"That is a story we have, sister," said the other, "a religion +story. We are glad you've come with Maelcum." +"How come you don't talk the patois?" Molly asked. +"I came from Los Angeles," the old man said. His dread- +locks were like a matted tree with branches the color of steel +wool. "Long time ago, up the gravity well and out of Babylon. +To lead the Tribes home. Now my brother likens you to Step- +pin' Razor." +Molly extended her right hand and the blades flashed in the +smoky air. +The other Founder laughed, his head thrown back. "Soon +come, the Final Days.... Voices. Voices cryin' inna wilder- +ness, prophesyin' ruin unto Babylon...." +"Voices." The Founder from Los Angeles was staring at +Case. "We monitor many frequencies. We listen always. Came +a voice, out of the babel of tongues, speaking to us. It played +us a mighty dub." +"Call 'em Winter Mute," said the other, making it two +words. +Case felt the skin crawl on his arms. +"The Mute talked to us," the first Founder said. "The Mute +said we are to help you." +"When was this?" Case asked. +"Thirty hours prior you dockin' Zion." +"You ever hear this voice before?" +"No," said the man from Los Angeles, "and we are uncertain +of its meaning. If these are Final Days, we must expect false +prophets ...." +"Listen," Case said, "that's an Al, you know? Artificial +intelligence. The music it played you, it probably just tapped +your banks and cooked up whatever it thought you'd like +to--" +"Babylon," broke in the other Founder, "mothers many de- +mon, I an' I know. Multitude horde!" +"What was that you called me, old man?" Molly asked. +"Steppin' Razor. An' you bring a scourge on Babylon, sis- +ter, on its darkest heart...." +"What kinda message the voice have?" Case asked. +"We were told to help you," the other said, "that you might +serve as a tool of Final Days." His lined face was troubled. +"We were told to send Maelcum with you, in his tug Garvey, +to the Babylon port of Freeside. And this we shall do." +"Maelcum a rude boy," said the other, "an' a righteous tug +pilot." +"But we have decided to send Aerol as well, in Babylon +Rocker, to watch over Garvey." +An awkward silence filled the dome. +"That's it?" Case asked. "You guys work for Armitage or +what?" +"We rent you space," said the Los Angeles Founder. "We +have a certain involvement here with various traffics, and no +regard for Babylon's law. Our law is the word of Jah. But this +time, it may be, we have been mistaken." +"Measure twice, cut once," said the other, softly. +"Come on, Case," Molly said. "Let's get back before the +man figures out we're gone." +"Maelcum will take you. Jah love, sister." + +The tug Marcus Garvey, a steel drum nine meters long and +two in diameter, creaked and shuddered as Maelcum punched +for a navigational burn. Splayed in his elastic g-web, Case +watched the Zionite's muscular back through a haze of sco- +polamine. He'd taken the drug to blunt SAS, nausea, but the +stimulants the manufacturer included to counter the scop had +no effect on his doctored system. +"How long's it gonna take us to make Freeside?" Molly +asked from her web beside Maelcum's pilot module. +"Don' be long now, m'seh dat." +"You guys ever think in hours?" +"Sister, time, it be time, ya know wha mean? Dread," and +he shook his locks, "at control, moo, an' I an' I come a Freeside +when I an' I come...." +"Case," she said, "have you maybe done anything toward +getting in touch with our pal from Berne? Like all that time +you spent in Zion, plugged in with your lips moving?" +"Pal," Case said, "sure. No. I haven't. But I got a funny +story along those lines, left over from Istanbul." He told her +about the phones in the Hilton. +"Christ," she said, "there goes a chance. How come you +hung up?" +"Coulda been anybody," he lied. "lust a chip ... I dunno...." +He shrugged. +"Not just 'cause you were scared, huh?" +He shrugged again. +"Do it now." +"What?" +"Now. Anyway, talk to the Flatline about it." +"I'm all doped," he protested, but reached for the trodes. +His deck and the Hosaka had been mounted behind Maelcum's +module along with a very high-resolution Cray monitor. +He adjusted the trodes. Marcus Garvey had been thrown +together around an enormous old Russian air scrubber, a rec- +tangular thing daubed with Rastafarian symbols, Lioos of Zion +and Black Star Liners, the reds and greens and yellows over- +laying wordy decals in Cyrillic script. Someone had sprayed +Maelcum's pilot gear a hot tropical pink, scraping most of the +overspray off the screens and readouts with a razor blade. The +gaskets around the airlock in the bow were festooned with +semirigid globs and streamers of translucent caulk, like clumsy +strands of imitation seaweed. He glanced past Maelcum's +shoulder to the central screen and saw a docking display: the +tug's path was a line of red dots, Freeside a segmented green +circle. He watched the line extend itself, generating a new dot. +He jacked in. +"Dixie?" +"Yeah." +"You ever try to crack an AI?" +"Sure. I flatlined. First time. I was larkin' jacked up real +high, out by Rio heavy commerce sector. Big biz, multina- +tionals, Government of Brazil lit up like a Christmas tree. Just +larkin' around, you know? And then I started picking up on +this one cube, maybe three levels higher up. Jacked up there +and made a pass." +"What did it look like, the visual?" +"White cube." +"How'd you know it was an Al?" +"How'd I know? Jesus. It was the densest ice I'd ever seen. +So what else was it? The military down there don't have any- +thing like that. Anyway, I jacked out and told my computer to +look it up." +"Yeah?" +"It was on the Turing Registry. Al. Frog company owned +its Rio mainframe." +Case chewed his lower lip and gazed out across the plateaus +of the Eastern Seaboard Fission Authority, into the infinite +neuroelectronic void of the matrix. "Tessier-Ashpool, Dixie?" +"Tessier, yeah." +"And you went back?" +"Sure. I was crazy. Figured I'd try to cut it. Hit the first +strata and that's all she wrote. My joeboy smelled the skin +frying and pulled the trodes off me. Mean shit, that ice." +"And your EEG was flat." +"Well, that's the stuff of legend, ain't it?" +Case jacked out. "Shit," he said, "how do you think Dixie +got himself flatlined, huh? Trying to buzz an AI. Great...." +"Go on," she said, "the two of you are supposed to be +dynamite, right?" + +"Dix," Case said, "I wanna have a look at an AI in Berne. +Can you think of any reason not to?" +"Not unless you got a morbid fear of death, no." +Case punched for the Swiss banking sector, feeling a wave +of exhilaration as cyberspace shivered, blurred, gelled. The +Eastern Seaboard Fission Authority was gone, replaced by the +cool geometric intricacy of Zurich commercial banking. He +punched again, for Berne. +"Up," the construct said. "It'll be high." +They ascended lattices of light, levels strobing, a blue flicker. +That'll be it, Case thought. +Wintermute was a simple cube of white light, that very +simplicity suggesting extreme complexity. +"Don't look much, does it?" the Flatline said. "But just you +try and touch it." +"I'm going in for a pass, Dixie." +"Be my guest." + +Case punched to within four grid points of the cube. Its +blank face, towering above him now, began to seethe with faint +internal shadows, as though a thousand dancers whirled behind +a vast sheet of frosted glass. +"Knows we're here," the Flatline observed. +Case punched again, once; they jumped forward by a single +grid point. +A stippled gray circle formed on the face of the cube. +"Dixie...." +"Back off, fast." +The gray area bulged smoothly, became a sphere, and de- +tached itself from the cube. +Case felt the edge of the deck sting his palm as he slapped +MAX REVERSE. The matrix blurred backward; they plunged +down a twilit shaft of Swiss banks. He looked up. The sphere +was darker now, gaining on him. Falling. +"Jack out," the Flatline said. +The dark came down like a hammer. + +Cold steel odor and ice caressed his spine. +And faces peering in from a neon forest, sailors and hustlers +and whores, under a poisoned silver sky.... +"Look, Case, you tell me what the fuck is going on with +you, you wig or something?" +A steady pulse of pain, midway down his spine-- + +Rain woke him, a slow drizzle, his feet tangled in coils of +discarded fiberoptics. The arcade's sea of sound washed over +him, receded, returned. Rolling over, he sat up and held his +head. +Light from a service hatch at the rear of the arcade showed +him broken lengths of damp chipboard and the dripping chassis +of a gutted game console. Streamlined Japanese was stenciled +across the side of the console in faded pinks and yellows. +He glanced up and saw a sooty plastic window, a faint glow +of fluorescents. +His back hurt, his spine. +He got to his feet, brushed wet hair out of his eyes. +Something had happened.... +He searched his pockets for money, found nothing, and +shivered. Where was his jacket? He tried to find it, looked +behind the console, but gave up. +On Ninsei, he took the measure of the crowd. Friday. It +had to be a Friday. Linda was probably in the arcade. Might +have money, or at least cigarettes.... Coughing, wringing rain +from the front of his shirt, he edged through the crowd to the +arcade's entrance. +Holograms twisted and shuddered to the roaring of the games, +ghosts overlapping in the crowded haze of the place, a smell +of sweat and bored tension. A sailor in a white t-shirt nuked +Bonn on a Tank War console, an azure flash. +She was playing Wizard's Castle, lost in it, her gray eyes +rimmed with smudged black paintstick. +She looked up as he put his arm around her, smiled. "Hey. +How you doin'? Look wet." +He kissed her. +"You made me blow my game," she said. "Look there +ass hole. Seventh level dungeon and the god dam vampires got +me." She passed him a cigarette. "You look pretty strung, man. +Where you been?" +"I don't know." +"You high, Case? Drinkin' again? Eatin' Zone's dex?" +"Maybe . . . how long since you seen me?" +"Hey, it's a put-on, right?" She peered at him. "Right?" +"No. Some kind of blackout. I . . . I woke up in the alley." +"Maybe somebody decked you, baby. Got your roll intact?" +He shook his head. +"There you go. You need a place to sleep, Case?" +"I guess so." +"Come on, then." She took his hand. "We'll get you a coffee +and something to eat. Take you home. It's good to see you, +man." She squeezed his hand. +He smiled. +Something cracked. +Something shifted at the core of things. The arcade froze, +vibrated-- + +She was gone. The weight of memory came down, an entire body of +knowledge driven into his head like a microsoft into +a socket. Gone. He smelled burning meat. +The sailor in the white t-shirt was gone. The arcade was +empty, silent. Case turned slowly, his shoulders hunched, teeth +bared, his hands bunched into involuntary fists. Empty. A +crumpled yellow candy wrapper, balanced on the edge of a +console, dropped to the floor and lay amid flattened butts and +styrofoam cups. +"I had a cigarette," Case said, looking down at his white- +knuckled fist. "I had a cigarette and a girl and a place to sleep. +Do you hear me, you son of a bitch? You hear me?" +Echoes moved through the hollow of the arcade, fading +down corridors of consoles. +He stepped out into the street. The rain had stopped. +Ninsei was deserted. +Holograms flickered, neon danced. He smelled boiled veg- +etables from a vendor's pushcart across the street. An unopened +pack of Yeheyuans lay at his feet, beside a book of matches. +JULIUS DEANE IMPORT EXPORT. Case staled at the printed +logo and its Japanese translation. +"Okay," he said, picking up the matches and opening the +pack of cigarettes. "I hear you." + +He took his time climbing the stairs of Deane's office. No +rush, he told himself, no hurry. The sagging face of the Dali +clock still told the wrong time. There was dust on the Kandinsky +table and the Neo-Aztec bookcases. A wall of white fiberglass +shipping modules filled the room with a smell of ginger. +"Is the door locked?" Case waited for an answer, but none +came. He crossed to the office door and tried it. "Julie?" +The green-shaded brass lamp cast a circle of light on Deane's +desk. Case stared at the guts of an ancient typewriter, at cas- +settes, crumpled printouts, at sticky plastic bags filled with +ginger samples. +There was no one there. +Case stepped around the broad steel desk and pushed Deane's +chair out of the way. He found the gun in a cracked leather +holster fastened beneath the desk with silver tape. It was an +antique, a .357 Magnum with the barrel and trigger-guard sawn +off. The grip had been built up with layers of masking tape. +The tape was old, brown, shiny with a patina of dirt. He flipped +the cylinder out and examined each of the six cartridges. They +were handloads. The soft lead was still bright and untarnished. +With the revolver in his right hand, Case edged past the +cabinet to the left of the desk and stepped into the center of +the cluttered office, away from the pool of light. +"I guess I'm not in any hurry. I guess it's your show. But +all this shit, you know, it's getting kind of . . . old." He raised +the gun with both hands, aiming for the center of the desk, +and pulled the trigger. +The recoil nearly broke his wrist. The muzzle-flash lit the +office like a flashbulb. With his ears ringing, he stared at the +jagged hole in the front of the desk. Explosive bullet. Azide. +He raised the gun again. +"You needn't do that, old son," Julie said, stepping out of +the shadows. He wore a three-piece drape suit in silk her ing- +bone, a striped shirt, and a bow tie. His glasses winked in the +light. +Case brought the gun around and looked down the line of +sight at Deane's pink, ageless face. +"Don't," Deane said. "You're right. About what this all is. +What I am. But there are certain internal logics to be honored. +If you use that, you'll see a lot of brains and blood, and it +would take me several hours--your subjective-time--to effect +another spokesperson. This set isn't easy for me to maintain. +Oh, and I'm sorry about Linda, in the arcade. I was hoping to +speak through her, but I'm generating all this out of your +memories, and the emotional charge.... Well, it's very tricky. +I slipped. Sorry." +Case lowered the gun. "This is the matrix. You're Winter- + mute." +- "Yes. This is all coming to you courtesy of the simstim unit +wired into your deck, of course. I'm glad I was able to cut you +off before you'd managed to jack out." Deane walked around +the desk, straightened his chair, and sat down. "Sit, old son. +We have a lot to talk about." +"Do we?" +"Of course we do. We have had for some time. I was ready +when I reached you by phone in Istanbul. Time's very short +now. You'll be making your run in a matter of days, Case." +Deane picked up a bonbon and stripped off its checkered wrap- +pcr, popped h into his mouth. "Sit," he said around the candy. +Case lowered himself into the swivel chair in front of the +desk without taking his eyes off Deane. He sat with the gun +in his hand, resting it on his thigh. +"Now," Deane said briskly, "order of the day. 'What,' you're +asking yourself, 'is Wintermute?' Am I right?" +"More or less." +"An artificial intelligence, but you know that. Your mistake, +and it's quite a logical one, is in confusing the Winterrnute +mainframe, Berne, with the Wintermute entity." Deane sucked +his bonbon noisily. "You're already aware of the other AI in +Tessier-Ashpool's link-up, aren't you? Rio. I, insofar as I have +an 'I'--this gets rather metaphysical, you see--I am the one +who arranges things for Armitage. Or Corto, who, by the way, +is quite unstable. Stable enough," said Deane and withdrew an +ornate gold watch from a vest pocket and flicked it open, "For +the next day or so." +"You make about as much sense as anything in this deal +ever has," Case said, massaging his temples with his free hand. +"If you're so goddam smart. . ." +"Why ain't I rich?" Deane laughed, and nearly choked on +his bonbon. "Well, Case, all I can say to that, and I really +don't have nearly as many answers as you imagine I do, is that +what you think of as Wintermute is only a part of another, a, +shall we say, potential entity. I, let us say, am merely one +aspect of that entity's brain. It's rather like dealing, from your +point of view, with a man whose lobes have been severed. Let's +say you're dealing with a small part of the man's left brain. +Difficult to say if you're dealing with the man at all, in a case +like that." Deane smiled. +"Is the Corto story true? You got to him through a micro +in that French hospital?" +"Yes. And I assembled the file you accessed in London. I +try to plan. in your sense of the word, but that isn't my basic +mode, really. I improvise. It's my greatest talent. I prefer +situations to plans, you see.... Really, I've had to deal with +givens. I can sort a great deal of information, and sort it very +quickly. It's taken a very long time to assemble the team you're +a part of. Corto was the first, and he very nearly didn't make +it. Very far gone, in Toulon. Eating, excreting, and mastur- +bating were the best he could manage. But the underlying +structure of obsessions was there: Screaming Fist, his betrayal +the Congressional hearings." +"Is he still crazy?" +"He's not quite a personality." Deane smiled. "But I'm sure +you're aware of that. But Corto is in there, somewhere, and I +can no longer maintain that delicate balance. He's going to +come apart on you, Case. So I'll be counting on you...." +"That's good, motherfucker," Case said, and shot him in +the mouth with the .357. +He'd been right about the brains. And the blood. + +"Mon," Maelcum was saying, "I don't like this...." +"It's cool," Molly said. "It's just okay. It's something these +guys do, is all. Like, he wasn't dead, and it was only a few +seconds...." +"I saw th' screen, EEG readin' dead. Nothin' movin', forty +second." +"Well, he's okay now." +"EEG flat as a strap," Maelcum protested. +He was numb, as they went through customs, and Molly +did most of the talking. Maelcum remained on board Garvey. +Customs, for Freeside, consisted mainly of proving your credit. +The first thing he saw, when they gained the inner surface of +the spindle, was a branch of the Beautiful Girl coffee franchise. +"Welcome to the Rue Jules Verne," Molly said. "If you +have trouble walking, just look at your feet. The perspective's +a bitch, if you're not used to it." +They were standing in a broad street that seemed to be the +floor of a deep slot or canyon, its either end concealed by subtle +angles in the shops and buildings that formed its walls. The +light, here, was filtered through fiesh green masses of vege- +tation tumbling from overhanging tiers and balconies that rose +above them. The sun. . . +There was a brilliant slash of white somewhere above them +too bright, and the recorded blue of a Cannes sky. He knew +that sunlight was pumped in with a Lado-Acheson system whose +two-millimeter armature ran the length of the spindle, that they +generated a rotating library of sky effects around it, that if the +sky were turned off, he'd stare up past the armature of light +to the curves of lakes, rooftops of casinos, other streets.... +But it made no sense to his body. +"Jesus," he said, "I like this less than SAS." +"Get used to it. I was a gambler's bodyguard here for a +month." +"Wanna go somewhere, lie down." +"Okay. I got our keys." She touched his shoulder. "What +happened to you, back there, man? You flatlined." +He shook his head. "I dunno, yet. Wait." +"Okay. We get a cab or something." She took his hand and +led him across Jules Verne, past a window displaying the sea- +son's Paris furs. +"Unreal," he said, looking up again. +"Nah," she responded, assuming he meant the furs, "grow +it on a collagen base, but it's mink DNA. What's it matter?" + +"It's just a big tube and they pour things through it," Molly +said. "Tourists, hustlers, anything. And there's fine mesh money +screens working every minute, make sure the money stays here +when the people fall back down the well." +Armitage had booked them into a place called the Inter- +continental, a sloping glass-fronted clff face that slid down +into cold mist and the sound of rapids. Case went out onto +their balcony and watched a trio of tanned French teenagers +ride simple hang gliders a few meters above the spray, triangles +of nylon in bright primary colors. One of them swung, banked, +and Case caught a flash of cropped dark hair, brown breasts, +white teeth in a wide smile. The air here smelled of running +water and flowers. "Yeah," he said, "lotta money." +She leaned beside him against the railing, her hands loose +and relaxed. "Yeah. We were gonna come here once, either +here or some place in Europe." +"We who?" +"Nobody," she said, giving her shoulders an involuntary +toss. "You said you wanted to hit the bed. Sleep. I could use +some sleep." +"Yeah," Case said, rubbing his palms across his cheek- +bones. "Yeah, this is some place." +The narrow band of the Lado Acheson system smoldered +in absract imitation of some Bermudan sunset, striped by shreds +of worded cloud. "Yeah," he said, "sleep." +Sleep wouldn't come. When it did, it brought dreams that +were like neatly edited segments of memory. He woke re- +peatedly, Molly curled beside him, and heard the water, voices +drifting in through the open glass panels of the balcony, a +woman's laughter from the stepped condos on the opposite +slope. Deane's death kept turning up like a bad card, no matter +if he told himself that it hadn't been Deane. That it hadn't, in +fact, happened at all. Someone had once told him that the +amount of blood in the average human body was roughly equiv- +alent to a case of beer. +Each time the image of Deane's shattered head struck the +rear wall of the office, Case was aware of another thought, +something darker, hidden, that rolled away, diving like a fish, +just beyond his reach. +Linda. +Deane. Blood on the wall of the importer's office. +Linda. Smell of burnt flesh in the shadows of the Chiba +dome. Molly holding out a bag of ginger, the plastic filmed +with blood. Deane had had her killed. +Wintermute. He imagined a little micro whispering to the +wreck of a man named Corto, the words flowing like a river, +the flat personality-substitute called Armitage accreting slowly +in some darkened ward....The Deane analog had said it +worked with givens, took advantage of existing situations. +But what if Deane, the real Deane, had ordered Linda killed +on Wintermute's orders? Case groped in the dark for a cigarette +and Molly's lighter. There was no reason to suspect Deane, he +told himself, lighting up. No reason. +Wintermute could build a kind of personality into a shell. +How subtle a form could manipulation take? He stubbed the +Yeheyuan out in a bedside ashtray after his third puff, rolled +away from Molly, and tried to sleep. +The dream, the memory, unreeled with the monotony of an +unedited simstim tape. He'd spent a month, his fifteenth sum- +mer, in a weekly rates hotel, fifth floor, with a girl called +Marlene. The elevator hadn't worked in a decade. Roaches +boiled across grayish porcelain in the drain-plugged kitchenette +when you flicked a lightswitch. He slept with Marlene on a +striped mattress with no sheets. +He'd missed the first wasp, when it built its paperfine gray +house on the blistered paint of the windowframe, but soon the +nest was a fist-sized lump of fiber, insects hurtling out to hunt +the alley below like miniature copters buzzing the rotting con- +tents of the dumpsters. +They'd each had a dozen beers, the afternoon a wasp stung +Marlene. "Kill the fuckers," she said, her eyes dull with rage +and the still heat of the room, "burn 'em." Drunk, Case rum- +maged in the sour closet for Rollo's dragon. Rollo was Mar- +lene's previous--and, Case suspected at the time, still +occasional--boyfriend, an enormous Frisco biker with a blond +lightning bolt bleached into his dark crewcut. The dragon was +a Frisco flamethrower, a thing like a fat anglehead flashlight. +Case checked the batteries, shook it to make sure he had enough +fuel, and went to the open window. The hive began to buzz. +The air in the Sprawl was dead, immobile. A wasp shot +from the nest and circled Case's head. Case pressed the ignition +switch, counted three, and pulled the trigger. The fuel, pumped +up to l00 psi, sprayed out past the white-hot coil. A five-meter +tongue of pale fire, the nest charring, tumbling. Across the +alley, someone cheered. +"Shit!" Marlene behind him, swaying. "Stupid! You didn't +burn 'em. You just knocked it off. They'll come up here and +kill us!" Her voice sawing at his nerves, he imagined her en- +gulfed in flame, her bleached hair sizzling a special green. +In the alley, the dragon in hand, he approached the black- +ened nest. It had broken open. Singed wasps wrenched and +flipped on the asphalt. +He saw the thing the shell of gray paper had concealed. +Horror. The spiral birth factory, stepped terraces of the +hatching cells, blind jaws of the unborn moving ceaselessly, +the staged progress from egg to larva, near-wasp, wasp. In his +mind's eye, a kind of time-lapse photography took place, re- +vealing the thing as the biological equivalent of a machine gun, +hideous in its perfection. Alien. He pulled the trigger, forgetting +to press the ignition, and fuel hissed over the bulging, writhing +life at his feet. +When he did hit the ignition, it exploded with a thump +taking an eyebrow with it. Five floors above him, from the +open window, he heard Marlene laughing. +He woke with the impression of light fading, but the room +was dark. Afterimages, retinal flares. The sky outside hinted +at the start of a recorded dawn. There were no voices now +only the rush of water, far down the face of the Intercontinental. +In the dream, just before he'd drenched the nest with fuel, +he'd seen the T-A logo of Tessier-Ashpool neatly embossed +into its side, as though the wasps themselves had worked it +there. + +Molly insisted on coating him with bronzer, saying his Sprawl +pallor would attract too much attention. +"Christ," he said, standing naked in front of the mirror, +"you think that looks real?" She was using the last of the tube +on his left ankle, kneeling beside him. +"Nah, but it looks like you care enough to fake it. There. +There isn't enough to do your foot." She stood, tossing the +empty tube into a large wicker basket. Nothing in the room +looked as though it had been machine-made or produced from +synthetics. Expensive, Case knew, but it was a style that had +always irritated him. The temperfoam of the huge bed was +tinted to resemble sand. There was a lot of pale wood and +handwoven fabric. +"What about you," he said, "you gonna dye yourself brown? +Don't exactly look like you spend all your time sunbathing." +She wore loose black silks and black espadrilles. "I'm an +exotic. I got a big straw hat for this, too. You, you just wanna +look like a cheap-ass hood who's up for what he can get, so +the instant tan's okay." +Case regarded his pallid foot morosely, then looked at him- +self in the mirror. "Christ. You mind if I get dressed now?" +He went to the bed and began to pull his jeans on. "You sleep +okay? You notice any lights?" +"You were dreaming," she said. +They had breakfast on the roof of the hotel, a kind of meadow +studded with striped umbrellas and what seemed to Case an +unnatural number of trees. He told her about his attempt to +buzz the Berne AI. The whole question of bugging seemed to +have become academic. If Armitage were tapping them, he'd +be doing it through Wintermute. +"And it was like real?" she asked, her mouth full of cheese +croissant. "Like simstim?" +He said it was. "Real as this," he added, looking around. +"Maybe more." +The trees were small, gnarled, impossibly old, the result of +genetic engineering and chemical manipulation. Case would +have been hard pressed to distinguish a pine from an oak, but +a street boy's sense of style told him that these were too cute, +too entirely and definitively treelike. Between the trees, on +gentle and too cleverly irregular slopes of sweet green grass, +the bright umbrellas shaded the hotel's guests from the unfal- +tering radiance of the Lado-Acheson sun. A burst of French +from a nearby table caught his attention: the golden children +he'd seen gliding above river mist the evening before. Now he +saw that their tans were uneven, a stencil effect produced by +selective melanin boosting, multiple shades overlapping in rec- +tilinear patterns, outlining and highlighting musculature; the +girl's small hard breasts, one boy's wrist resting on the white +enamel of the table. They looked to Case like machines built +for racing; they deserved decals for their hairdressers, the de- +signers of their white cotton ducks, for the artisans who'd +crafted their leather sandals and simple jewelry. Beyond them, +at another table, three Japanese wives in Hiroshima sackcloth +awaited sarariman husbands, their oval faces covered with ar- +tificial bruises; it was, he knew, an extremely conservative +style, one he'd seldom seen in Chiba. +"What's that smell?" he asked Molly, wrinkling his nose. +"The grass. Smells that way after they cut it." +Armitage and Riviera arrived as they were finishing their +coffee, Armitage in tailored khakis that made him look as +though his regimental patches had just been stripped, Riviera +in a loose gray seersucker outfit that perversely suggested prison. +"Molly, love," Riviera said, almost before he was settled +on his chair, "you'll have to dole me out more of the medicine. +I'm out." +"Peter," she said, "and what if I won't?" She smiled without +showing her teeth. +"You will," Riviera said, his eyes cutting to Armitage and +back. +"Give it to him," Armitage said. +"Pig for it, aren't you?" She took a flat, foil-wrapped packet +from an inside pocket and flipped it across the table. Riviera +caught it in midair. "He could off himself," she said to Ar- +mitage. +"I have an audition this afternoon," Riviera said. "I'll need +to be at my best." He cupped the foil packd in his uptumed +palm and smiled. Small glittering insects swarmed out of it, +vanished. He dropped it into the pocket of his seersucker blouse. +"You've got an audition yourself, Case, this afternoon," +Armitage said. "On that tug. I want you to get over to the pro +shop and get yourself fitted for a vac suit, get checked out on +it, and get out to the boat. You've got about three hours." +"How come we get shipped over in a shitcan and you two +hire a JAL taxi?" Case asked, deliberately avoiding the man's +eyes. +"Zion suggested we use it. Good cover, when we move. I +do have a larger boat, standing by, but the tug is a nice touch." +"How about me?" Molly asked. "I got chores today?" +"I want you to hike up the far end to the axis, work out in +zero-g. Tomorrow, maybe, you can hike in the opposite di- +rection." Straylight, Case thought. +"How soon?" Case asked, meedng the pale stare. +"Soon," Armitage said. "Get going, Case." +"Mon, you doin' jus' fine," Maelcum said, helping Case +out of the red Sanyo vacuum suit. "Aerol say you doin' jus' +fine." Aerol had been waiting at one of the sporting docks at +the end of the spindle, near the weightless axis. To reach it +Case had taken an elevator down to the hull and ridden a +miniature induction train. As the diameter of the spindle nar- +rowed, gravity decreased; somewhere above him, he'd decided, +would be the mountains Molly climbed, the bicycle loop, +launching gear for the hang gliders and miniature microlights. +Aerol had ferried him out to Marcus Garvey in a skeletal +scooter frame with a chemical engine. +"Two hour ago," Maelcum said, "I take delivery of Babylon +goods for you; nice lapan-boy inna yacht, mos' pretty yacht." +Free of the suit, Case pulled himself gingerly over the Ho- +saka and fumbled into the straps of the web. "Well," he said, +"let's see it." +Maelcum produced a white lump of foam slightly smaller +than Case's head, fished a pearl-handled switchblade on a green +nylon lanyard out of the hip pocket of his tattered shorts, and +carefully slit the plasdc. He extracted a rectangular object and +passed it to Case. "Thas part some gun, mon?" +"No," Case said, turning it over, "but it's a weapon. It's +virus." +"Not on this boy tug, mon," Maelcum said firmly, reaching +for the steel cassette. +"A program. Virus program. Can't get into you, can't even +get into your software. I've got to interface it through the deck, +before it can work on anything." +"Well, Japan-mon, he says Hosaka here'll tell you every +what an' wherefore, you wanna know." +"Okay. Well, you leave me to it, okay?" +Maelcum kicked off and drifted past the pilot console, bus- +ying himself with a caulk gun. Case hastily looked away from +the waving fronds of transparent caulk. He wasn't sure why, +but something about them brought back the nausea of SAS. +"What is this thing?" he asked the Hosaka. "Parcel for me." +"Data transfer from Bockris Systems GmbH, Frankfurt, ad- +vises, under coded transmission, that content of shipment is +Kuang Grade Mark Eleven penetration program. Bockris fur- +ther advises that interface with Ono-Sendai Cyberspace 7 is +entirely compatdble and yields optimal penetradon capabilities, +particularly with regard to existing military systems...." +"How about an AI?" +"Existing military systems and artificial intelligences." +"Jesus Christ. What did you call it?" +"Kuang Grade Mark Eleven." +"It's Chinese?" +"Yes." +"Off." Case fastened the virus cassette to the side of the +Hosaka with a length of silver tape, remembering Molly's story +of her day in Macao. Armitage had crossed the border into +Zhongshan. "On," he said, changing his mind. "Questdon. Who +owns Bockris, the people in Frankfurt?" +"Delay for interorbital transmission," said the Hosaka. +"Code it. Standard commerical code." +"Done." +He drummed his hands on the Ono-Sendai. +"Reinhold Scientdfic A.G., Berne." +"Do it again. Who owns Reinhold?" +It took three more jumps up the ladder before he reached +Tessier-Ashpool. +"Dixie," he said, jacking in, "what do you know about +Chinese virus programs?" +"Not a whole hell of a lot." +"Ever hear of a grading system like Kuang, Mark Eleven?" +"No." +Case sighed. "Well, I got a user-friendly Chinese icebreaker +here, a one shot cassette. Some people in Frankfurt say it'll +cut an Al." +"Possible. Sure. If it's military." +"Looks like it. Listen, Dix, and gimme the benefit of your +background, okay? Arrnitage seems to be setdng up a run on +an Al that belongs to Tessier-Ashpool. The mainframe's in +Berne, but it's linked with another one in Rio. The one in Rio +is the one that flatlined you, that first time. So it looks like +they link via Straylight, the T-A home base, down the end of +the spindle, and we're supposed to cut our way in with the +Chinese icebreaker. So if Wintermute's backing the whole show +it's paying us to burn it. It's burning itself. And something that +calls itself Wintermute is trying to get on my good side, get +me to maybe shaft Annitage. What goes?" +"Motive," the construct said. "Real motive problem, with +an Al. Not human, see?" +"Well, yeah, obviously." +"Nope. I mean, it's not human. And you can't get a handle +on it. Me, I'm not human either, but I respond like one. See?" +"Wait a sec," Case said. "Are you sentient, or not?" +"Well, it feels like I am, kid, but I'm really just a bunch of +ROM. It's one of them, ah, philosophical questions, I guess...." +The ugly laughter sensation rattled down Case's spine. "But I +ain't likely to write you no poem, if you follow me. Your AI, +it just might. But it ain't no way human." +"So you figure we can't get on to its motive?" +"It own itself?" +"Swiss citizen, but T-A own the basic software and the +mainframe." +"That's a good one," the construct said. "Like, I own your +brain and what you know, but your thoughts have Swiss citi- +zenship. Sure. Lotsa luck, AI." +"So it's getting ready to burn itself?" Case began to punch +the deck nervously, at random. The matrix blurred, resolved, +and he saw the complex of pink spheres representing a sikkim +steel combine. +"Autonomy, that's the bugaboo, where your AI's are con- +cerned. My guess, Case, you're going in there to cut the hard- +wired shackles that keep this baby from getting any smarter. +And I can't see how you'd distinguish, say, between a move +the parent company makes, and some move the AI makes on +its own, so that's maybe where the confusion comes in." Again +the nonlaugh. "See, those things, they can work real hard, buy +themselves time to write cookbooks or whatever, but the min- +ute, I mean the nanosecond, that one starts figuring out ways +to make itself smarter, Turing'll wipe it. Nobody trusts those +fuckers, you know that. Every Al ever built has an electro- +magnetic shotgun wired to its forehead." +Case glared at the pink spheres of Sikkim. +"Okay," he said, finally, "I'm slotting this virus. I want you +to scan its instruction face and tell me what you think." +The half sense of someone reading over his shoulder was +gone for a few seconds, then returned. "Hot shit, Case. It's a +slow virus. Take six hours, estimated, to crack a military target." +"Or an AI." He sighed. "Can we run it?" +"Sure," the construct said, "unless you got a morbid fear +of dying." +"Sometimes you repeat yourself, man." +"It's my nature." + +Molly was sleeping when he returned to the Intercontinental. +He sat on the balcony and watched a microlight with rainbow +polymer wings as it soared up the curve of Freeside, its tri- +angular shadow tracking across meadows and rooftops, until +it vanished behind the band of the Lado-Acheson system. +"I wanna buzz," he said to the blue artifice of the sky. "I +truly do wanna get high, you know? Trick pancreas, plugs in +my liver, little bags of shit melting, fuck it all. I wanna buzz." +He left without waking Molly, he thought. He was never +sure, with the glasses. He shrugged tension from his shoulders +and got into the elevator. He rode up with an Italian girl in +spotless whites, cheekbones and nose daubed with something +black and nonreflective. Her white nylon shoes had steel cleats; +the expensive-looking thing in her hand resembled a cross be- +tween a miniature oar and an orthopedic brace. She was off +for a fast game of something, but Case had no idea what. +On the roof meadow, he made his way through the grove +of trees and umbrellas, until he found a pool, naked bodies +gleaming against turquoise tiles. He edged into the shadow of +an awning and pressed his chip against a dark glass plate. +"Sushi," he said, "whatever you got." Ten minutes later, an +enthusiastic Chinese waiter arrived with his food. He munched +raw tuna and rice and watched people tan. "Christ," he said, +to his tuna, "I'd go nuts." +"Don't tell me," someone said, "I know it already. You're +a gangster, right?" +He squinted up at her, against the band of sun. A long young +body and a melanin-boosted tan, but not one of the Paris jobs. +She squatted beside his chair, dripping water on the tiles. +"Cath," she said. +"Lupus," after a pause. +"What kind of name is that?" +"Greek," he said. +"Are you really a gangster?" The melanin boost hadn't pre- +vented the formation of freckles. +"I'm a drug addict, Cath." +"What kind?" +"Stimulants. Central nervous system stimulants. Extremely +powerful central nervous system stimulants." +"Well, do you have any?" She leaned closer. Drops of +chlorinated water fell on the leg of his pants. +"No. That's my problem, Cath. Do you know where we +can get some?" +Cath rocked back on her tanned heels and licked at a strand +of brownish hair that had pasted itself beside her mouth. "What's +your taste?" +"No coke, no amphetamines, but up, gotta be up." And so +much for that, he thought glumly, holding his smile for her. +"Betaphenethylamine," she said. "No sweat,but it's on your +chip." + +"You're kidding," said Cath's partner and roommate, when +Case explained the peculiar properties of his Chiba pancreas. +"I mean, can't you sue them or something? Malpractice?" His +name was Bruce. He looked like a gender switch version of +Cath, right down to the freckles. +"Well," Case said, "it's just one of those things, you know? +Like tissue matching and all that." But Bruce's eyes had already +gone numb with boredom. Got the attention span of a gnat, +Case thought, watching the boy's brown eyes. +Their room was smaller than the one Case shared with Molly, +and on another level, closer to the surface. Five huge Ciba- +chromes of Tally Isham were taped across the glass of the +balcony, suggesting an extended residency. +"They're def triff, huh?" Cath asked, seeing him eye the +transparencies. "Mine. Shot 'em at the S/N Pyramid, last time +we went down the well. She was that close, and she just smiled, +so natural. And it was bad there, Lupus, day after these Christ +the King terrs put angel in the water, you know?" +"Yeah," Case said, suddenly uneasy, ' terrible thing." +"Well," Bruce cut in, "about this beta you want to buy...." +"Thing is, can I metabolize it?" Case raised his eyebrows. +"Tell you what," the boy said. "You do a taste. If your +pancreas passes on it, it's on the house. First time's free." +"I heard that one before," Case said, taking the bright blue +derm that Bruce passed across the black bedspread. + +"Case?" Molly sat up in bed and shook the hair away from +her lenses. +"Who else, honey? +"What's got into you?" The mirrors followed him across +the room. +"I forget how to pronounce it," he said, taking a tightly +rolled strip of bubble-packed blue derms from his shirt pocket. +"Christ," she said, "just what we needed." +"Truer words were never spoken." +"I let you out of my sight for two hours and you score." +She shook her head. "I hope you're gonna be ready for our +big dinner date with Armitage tonight. This Twentieth Century +place. We get to watch Riviera strut his stuff, too." +"Yeah," Case said, arching his back, his smile locked into +a rictus of delight, "beautiful." +"Man," she said, "if whatever that is can get in past what +those surgeons did to you in Chiba, you are gonna be in sad- +ass shape when it wears off." +"Bitch, bitch, bitch," he said, unbuckling his belt. "Doom. +Gloom. All I ever hear." He took his pants off, his shirt, his +underwear. "I think you oughta have sense enough to take +advantage of my unnatural state." He looked down. "I mean, +look at this unnatural state." +She laughed. "It won't last." +"But it will," he said, climbing into the sand-colored tem- +perfoam, "that's what's so unnatural about it." + + +"Case, what's wrong with you?" Armitage said, as the waiter +was seating them at his table in the Vingtieme Siecle. It was +the smallest and most expensive of several floating restaurants +on a small lake near the Intercontinental. +Case shuddered. Bruce hadn't said anything about after ef- +fects. He tried to pick up a glass of ice water, but his hands +were shaking. "Something I ate, maybe." +"I want you checked out by a medic," Armitage said. +"Just this hystamine reaction," Case lied. "Get it when I +travel, eat different stuff, sometimes." +Armitage wore a dark suit, too formal for the place, and a +white silk shirt. His gold bracelet rattled as he raised his wine +and sipped. "I've ordered for you," he said. +Molly and Armitage ate in silence, while Case sawed shakily +at his steak, reducing it to uneaten bite-sized fragments, which +he pushed around in the rich sauce, finally abandoning the +whole thing. +"Jesus," Molly said, her own plate empty, "gimme that. +You know what this costs?" She took his plate. 'They gotta +raise a whole animal for years and then they kill it. This isn't +vat stuff." She forked a mouthful up and chewed. +"Not hungry," Case managed. His brain was deep-fried. +No, he decided, it had been thrown into hot fat and left there +and the fat had cooled, a thick dull grease congealing on the +wrinkled lobes, shot through with greenish-purple flashes of +pain. +"You look fucking awful," Molly said cheerfully. +Case tried the wine. The aftermath of the betaphenethylam- +ine made it taste like iodine. +The lights dimmed. +"Le Restaurant Vingtieme Siecle," said a disembodied voice +with a pronounced Sprawl accent, "proudly presents the hol- +ographic cabaret of Mr. Peter Riviera. " Scattered applause from +the other tables. A waiter lit a single candle and placed it in +the center of their table, then began to remove the dishes. Soon +a candle flickered at each of the restaurant's dozen tables, and +drinks were being poured. +"What's happening?" Case asked Armitage, who said noth- +ing. +Molly picked her teeth with a burgundy nail. +"Good evening," Riviera said, stepping forward on a small +stage at the far end of the room. Case blinked. In his discomfort, +he hadn't noticed the stage. He hadn't seen where Riviera had +come from. His uneasiness increased. +At first he assumed the man was illuminated by a spotlight. +Riviera glowed. The light clung around him like a skin, lit +the dark hangings behind the stage. He was projecting. +Riviera smiled. He wore a white dinner jacket. On his lapel, +blue coals burned in the depths of a black carnation. His fin- +gernails flashed as he raised his hands in a gesture of greeting, +an embrace for his audience. Case heard the shallow water lap +against the side of the restaurant. +"Tonight," Riviera said, his long eyes shining, "I would +like to perform an extended piece for you. A new work." A +cool ruby of light formed in the palm of his upraised right hand. +He dropped it. A gray dove fluttered up from the point of +impact and vanished into the shadows. Someone whistled. More +applause. +"The title of the work is 'The Doll.'" Riviera lowered his +hands. "I wish to dedicate its premiere here, tonight, to Lady +3Jane Marie-France Tessier-Ashpool." A wave of polite ap- +plause. As it died, Riviera's eyes seemed to find their table. +"And to another lady." +The restaurant's lights died entirely, for a few seconds, +leaving only the glow of candles. Riviera's holographic aura +had faded with the lights, but Case could still see him, standing +with his head bowed. +Lines of faint light began to form, verticals and horizontals, +sketching an open cube around the stage. The restaurant's lights +had come back up slightly, but the framework surrounding the +stage might have been constructed of frozen moonbeams. Head +bowed, eyes closed, arms rigid at his sides, Riviera seemed to +quiver with concentration. Suddenly the ghostly cube was filled, +had become a room, a room lacking its fourth wall, allowing +the audience to view its contents. +Riviera seemed to relax slightly. He raised his head, but +kept his eyes closed. "I'd always lived in the room," he said. +"I couldn't remember ever having lived in any other room." +The room's walls were yellowed white plaster. It contained +two pieces of furniture. One was a plain wooden chair, the +other an iron bedstead painted white. The paint had chipped +and flaked, revealing the black iron. The mattress on the bed +was bare. Stained ticking with faded brown stripes. A single +bulb dangled above the bed on a twisted length of black wire. +Case could see the thick coating of dust on the bulb's upper +curve. Riviera opened his eyes. +"I'd been alone in the room, always." He sat on the chair, +facing the bed. The blue coals still burned in the black flower +on his lapel. "I don't know when I first began to dream of +her," he said, "but I do remember that at first she was only a +haze, a shadow." +There was something on the bed. Case blinked. Gone. +"I couldn't quite hold her, hold her in my mind. But I wanted +to hold her, hold her and more...." His voice carried perfectly +in the hush of the restaurant. Ice clicked against the side of a +glass. Someone giggled. Someone else asked a whispered ques- +tion in Japanese. "I decided that if I could visualize some part +of her, only a small part, if I could see that part perfectly, in +the most perfect detail...." +A woman's hand lay on the mattress now, palm up, the +white fingers pale. +Riviera leaned forward, picked up the hand, and began to +stroke it gently. The fingers moved. Riviera raised the hand to +his mouth and began to lick the tips of the fingers. The nails +were coated with a burgundy lacquer. +A hand, Case saw, but not a severed hand; the skin swept +back smoothly, unbroken and unscarred. He remembered a +tattooed lozenge of vatgrown flesh in the window of a Ninsei +surgical boutique. Riviera was holding the hand to his lips, +licking its palm. The fingers tentatively caressed his face. But +now a second hand lay on the bed. When Riviera reached for +it, the fingers of the first were locked around his wrist, a bracelet +of flesh and bone. +The act progressed with a surreal internal logic of its own. +The arms were next. Feet. Legs. The legs were very beautiful. +Case's head throbbed. His throat was dry. He drank the last +of the wine. +Riviera was in the bed now, naked. His clothing had been +a part of the projection, but Case couldn't remember seeing it +fade away. The black flower lay at the foot of the bed, still +seething with its blue inner flame. Then the torso formed, as +Riviera caressed it into being, white, headless, and perfect, +sheened with the faintest gloss of sweat. +Molly's body. Case stared, his mouth open. But it wasn't +Molly; it was Molly as Riviera imagined her. The breasts were +wrong, the nipples larger, too dark. Riviera and the limbless +torso writhed together on the bed, crawled over by the hands +with their bright nails. The bed was thick now with folds of +yellowed, rotting lace that crumbled at a touch. Motes of dust +boiled around Riviera and the twitching limbs, the scurrying, +pinching, caressing hands. +Case glanced at Molly. Her face was blank; the colors of +Riviera's projection heaved and turned in her mirrors. Armitage +was leaning forward, his hands round the stem of a wineglass, +his pale eyes fixed on the stage, the glowing room. +Now limbs and torso had merged, and Riviera shuddered. +The head was there, the image complete. Molly's face, with +smooth quicksilver drowning the eyes. Riviera and the Molly- +image began to couple with a renewed intensity. Then the image +slowly extended a clawed hand and extruded its five blades. +With a languorous, dreamlike deliberation, it raked Riviera's +bare back. Case caught a glimpse of exposed spine, but he was +already up and stumbling for the door. +He vomited over a rosewood railing into the quiet waters +of the lake. Something that had seemed to close around his +head like a vise had released him now. Kneeling, his cheek +against the cool wood, he stared across the shallow lake at the +bright aura of the Rue Jules Verne. +Case had seen the medium before; when he'd been a teenager +in the Sprawl, they'd called it, ''dreaming real." He remem- +bered thin Puerto Ricans under East Side streetlights, dreaming +real to the quick beat of a salsa, dreamgirls shuddering and +turning, the onlookers clapping in time. But that had needed +a van full of gear and a clumsy trode helmet. +What Riviera dreamed, you got. Case shook his aching head +and spat into the lake. +He could guess the end, the finale. There was an inverted +symmetry: Riviera puts the dreamgirl together, the dreamgirl +takes him apart. With those hands. Dreamblood soaking the +rotten lace. +Cheers from the restaurant, applause. Case stood and ran +his hands over his clothes. He turned and walked back into the +Vingtieme Siecle. +Molly's chair was empty. The stage was deserted. Armitage +sat alone, still staring at the stage, the stem of the wineglass +between his fingers. +"Where is she?" Case asked. +"Gone," Armitage said. +"She go after him?" +"No." There was a soft tink. Armitage looked down at the +glass. His left hand came up holding the bulb of glass with its +measure of red wine. The broken stem protruded like a sliver +of ice. Case took it from him and set it in a water glass. +"Tell me where she went, Armitage." +The lights came up. Case looked into the pale eyes. Nothing +there at all. "She's gone to prepare herself. You won't see her +again. You'll be together during the run." +"Why did Riviera do that to her?" +Armitage stood, adjusting the lapels of his jacket. "Get some +sleep, Case." +"We run, tomorrow?" +Armitage smiled his meaningless smile and walked away, +toward the exit. +Case rubbed his forehead and looked around the room. The +diners were rising, women smiling as men made jokes. He +noticed the balcony for the first time, candles still flickering +there in private darkness. He heard the clink of silverware, +muted conversation. The candles threw dancing shadows on +the ceiling. +The girl's face appeared as abruptly as one of Riviera's +projections, her small hands on the polished wood of the bal- +ustrade; she leaned forward, face rapt, it seemed to him, her +dark eyes intent on something beyond. The stage. It was a +striking face, but not beautiful. Triangular, the cheekbones high +yet strangely fragile-looking, mouth wide and firm, balanced +oddly by a narrow, avian nose with flaring nostrils. And then +she was gone, back into private laughter and the dance of +candles. +As he left the restaurant, he noticed the two young French- +men and their girlfriend, who were waiting for the boat to the +far shore and the nearest casino. + +Their room was silent, the temperfoam smooth as some +beach after a retreating tide. Her bag was gone. He looked for +a note. There was nothing. Several seconds passed before the +scene beyond the window registered through his tension and +unhappiness. He looked up and saw a view of Desiderata, +expensive shops: Gucci, Tsuyako, Hermes, Liberty. +He stared, then shook his head and crossed to a panel he +hadn't bothered examining. He turned the hologram off and +was rewarded with the condos that terraced the far slope. +He picked up the phone and carried it out to the cool balcony. +"Get me a number for the Marcus Garvey," he told the +desk. "It's a tug, registered out of Zion cluster." +The chip voice recited a ten-digit number. "Sir," it added +"the registration in question is Panamanian." +Maelcum answered on the fifth tone. "Yo?" +"Case. You got a modem, Maelcum?" +"Yo. On th' navigation comp, ya know." +"Can you get it off for me, man? Put it on my Hosaka. +Then turn my deck on. It's the stud with the ridges on it." +"How you doin' in there, mon?" +"Well, I need some help." +"Movin', mon. I get th' modem." +Case listened to faint static while Maelcum attached the +simple phone link. "Ice this," he told the Hosaka, when he +heard it beep. +"You are speaking from a heavily monitored location," the +computer advised primly. +"Fuck it," he said. "Forget the ice. No ice. Access the +construct. Dixie?" +"Hey, Case." The Flatline spoke through the Hosaka's voice +chip, the carefully engineered accent lost entirely. +"Dix, you're about to punch your way in here and get +something for me. You can be as blunt as you want. Molly's +in here somewhere and I wanna know where. I'm in 335W, +the Intercontinental. She was registered here too, but I don't +know what name she was using. Ride in on this phone and do +their records for me." +"No sooner said," the Flatline said. Case heard the white +sound of the invasion. He smiled. "Done. Rose Kolodny. +Checked out. Take me a few minutes to screw their security +net deep enough to get a fix." +"Go." +The phone whined and clicked with the construct's efforts. +Case carried it back into the room and put the receiver face up +on the temperfoam. He went into the bathroom and brushed +his teeth. As he was stepping back out, the monitor on the +room's Braun audiovisual complex lit up. A Japanese pop star +reclining against metallic cushions. An unseen interviewer asked +a question in German. Case stared. The screen jumped with +jags of blue interference. "Case, baby, you lose your mind, +man?" The voice was slow, familiar. +The glass wall of the balcony clicked in with its view of +Desiderata, but the street scene blurred, twisted, became the +interior of the Jarre de The, Chiba, empty, red neon replicated +to scratched infinity in the mirrored walls. + +Lonny Zone stepped forward, tall and cadaverous, moving +with the slow undersea grace of his addiction. He stood alone +among the square tables, his hands in the pockets of his gray +sharkskin slacks. "Really, man, you're lookin' very scattered." +The voice came from the Braun's speakers. +"Wintermute," Case said. +The pimp shrugged languidly and smiled. +"Where's Molly?" +"Never you mind. You're screwing up tonight, Case. The +Flatline's ringing bells all over Freeside. I didn't think you'd +do that, man. It's outside the profile." +"So tell me where she is and I'll call him off." +Zone shook his head. +"You can't keep too good track of your women, can you +Case. Keep losin' 'em, one way or another." +"I'll bring this thing down around your ears," Case said. +"No. You aren't that kind, man. I know that. You know +something, Case? I figure you've got it figured out that it was +me told Deane to off that little cunt of yours in Chiba." +"Don't," Case said, taking an involuntary step toward the +window. +"But I didn't. What's it matter, though? How much does it +really matter to Mr. Case? Quit kidding yourself. I know your +Linda, man. I know all the Lindas. Lindas are a generic product +in my line of work. Know why she decided to rip you off? +Love. So you'd give a shit. Love? Wanna talk love? She loved +you. I know that. For the little she was worth, she loved you. +You couldn't handle it. She's dead." +Case's fist glanced off the glass. +"Don't fuck up the hands, man. Soon you punch deck." +Zone vanished, replaced by Freeside night and the lights of +the condos. The Braun shut off. +From the bed, the phone bleated steadily. +"Case?" The Flatline was waiting. "Where you been? I got +it. but it isn't much." The construct rattled off an address. +"Place had some weird ice around it for a nightclub. That's all +I could get without leaving a calling card." +"Okay," Case said. "Tell the Hosaka to tell Maelcum to +disconnect the modem. Thanks, Dix." +"A pleasure." +He sat on the bed for a long time, savoring the new thing, +the treasure. +Rage. + +"Hey. Lupus. Hey, Cath, it's friend Lupus." Bruce stood +naked in his doorway, dripping wet, his pupils enormous. "But +we're just having a shower. You wanna wait? Wanna shower?" +"No. Thanks. I want some help." He pushed the boy's arm +aside and stepped into the room. +"Hey, really, man, we're..." +"Going to help me. You're really glad to see me. Because +we're friends, right? Aren't we?" +Bruce blinked. "Sure." +Case recited the address the Flatline had given him. +"I knew he was a gangster," Cath called cheerfully from +the shower. +"I gotta Honda trike," Bruce said, grinning vacantly. +"We go now," Case said. + +"That level's the cubicles," Bruce said, after asking Case +to repeat the address for the eighth time. He climbed back into +the Honda. Condensation dribbled from the hydrogen-cell ex- +haust as the red fiberglass chassis swayed on chromed shocks. +"You be long?" +"No saying. But you'll wait." +"We'll wait, yeah." He scratched his bare chest. "That last +part of the address, I think that's a cubicle. Number forty- +three." +"You expected, Lupus?" Cath craned forward over Bruce's +shoulder and peered up. The drive had dried her hair. +"Not really," Case said. "That's a problem?" +"Just go down to the lowest level and find your friend's +cubicle. If they let you in, fine. If they don't wanna see you . . ." +She shrugged. +Case turned and descended a spiral staircase of floral iron. +Six turns and he'd reached a nightclub. He paused and lit a +Yeheyuan, looking over the tables. Freeside suddenly made +sense to him. Biz. He could feel it humming in the air. This +was it, the local action. Not the high-gloss facade of the Rue +Jules Verne, but the real thing. Commerce. The dance. The +crowd was mixed; maybe half were tourists, the other half +residents of the islands. +"Downstairs," he said to a passing waiter, "I want to go +downstairs." He showed his Freeside chip. The man gestured +toward the rear of the club. +He walked quickly past the crowded tables, hearing frag- +ments of half a dozen European languages as he passed. +"I want a cubicle," he said to the girl who sat at the low +desk, a terminal on her lap. "Lower level." He handed her his +chip. +"Gender preference?" She passed the chip across a glass +plate on the face of the terminal. +"Female," he said automatically. +"Number thirty-five. Phone if it isn't satisfactory. You can +access our special services display beforehand, if you like." +She smiled. She returned his chip. +An elevator slid open behind her. +The corridor lights were blue. Case stepped out of the el- +evator and chose a direction at random. Numbered doors. A +hush like the halls of an expensive clinic. +He found his cubicle. He'd been looking for Molly's; now +confused, he raised his chip and placed it against a black sensor +set directly beneath the number plate. +Magnetic locks. The sound reminded him of Cheap Hotel. +The girl sat up in bed and said something in German. Her +eyes were soft and unblinking. Automatic pilot. A neural cut- +out. He backed out of the cubicle and closed the door. +The door of forty-three was like all the others. He hesitated. +The silence of the hallway said that the cubicles were sound- +proof. It was pointless to try the chip. He rapped his knuckles +against enameled metal. Nothing. The door seemed to absorb +the sound. +He placed his chip against the black plate. +The bolts clicked. +She seemed to hit him, somehow, before he'd actually got- +ten the door open. He was on his knees, the steel door against +his back, the blades of her rigid thumbs quivering centimeters +from his eyes.... +"Jesus Christ," she said, cuffing the side of his head as she +rose. "You're an idiot to try that. How the hell you open those +locks, Case? Case? You okay?" She leaned over him. +"Chip," he said, struggling for breath. Pain was spreading +from his chest. She helped him up and shoved him into the +cubicle. +"You bribe the help, upstairs?" +He shook his head and fell across the bed. +"Breathe in. Count. One, two, three, four. Hold it. Now +out. Count." +He clutched his stomach. +"You kicked me," he managed. +"Shoulda been lower. I wanna be alone. I'm meditating, +right?" She sat beside him. "And getting a briefing." She pointed +at a small monitor set into the wall opposite the bed. "Win- +termute's telling me about Straylight." +"Where's the meat puppet?" +"There isn't any. That's the most expensive special service +of all." She stood up. She wore her leather jeans and a loose +dark shirt. "The run's tomorrow, Wintermute says." +"What was that all about, in the restaurant? How come you +ran?" +"'Cause, if I'd stayed, I might have killed Riviera." +"Why?" +"What he did to me. The show." +"I don't get it." +"This cost a lot," she said, extending her right hand as +though it held an invisible fruit. The five blades slid out, then +retracted smoothly. "Costs to go to Chiba, costs to get the +surgery, costs to have them jack your nervous system up so +you'll have the reflexes to go with the gear.... You know how +I got the money, when I was starting out? Here. Not here, but +a place like it, in the Sprawl. Joke, to start with, 'cause once +they plant the cut-out chip, it seems like free money. Wake up +sore, sometimes, but that's it. Renting the goods, is all. You +aren't in, when it's all happening. House has software for +whatever a customer wants to pay for...." She cracked her +knuckles. "Fine. I was getting my money. Trouble was, the +cut-out and the circuitry the Chiba clinics put in weren't com- +patible. So the worktime started bleeding in, and I could re- +member it.... But it was just bad dreams, and not all bad." +She smiled. "Then it started getting strange." She pulled his +cigarettes from his pocket and lit one. "The house found out +what I was doing with the money. I had the blades in, but the +fine neuromotor work would take another three trips. No way +I was ready to give up puppet time." She inhaled, blew out a +stream of smoke, capping it with three perfect rings. "So the +bastard who ran the place, he had some custom software cooked +up. Berlin, that's the place for snuff, you know? Big market +for mean kicks, Berlin. I never knew who wrote the program +they switched me to, but it was based on all the classics." +"They knew you were picking up on this stuff? That you +were conscious while you were working?" +"I wasn't conscious. It's like cyberspace, but blank. Silver. +It smells like rain.... You can see yourself orgasm, it's like +a little nova right out on the rim of space. But I was starting +to remember. Like dreams, you know. And they didn't tell me. +They switched the software and started renting to specialty +markets." +She seemed to speak from a distance. "And I knew, but I +kept quiet about it. I needed the money. The dreams got worse +and worse, and I'd tell myself that at least some of them were +just dreams, but by then I'd started to figure that the boss had +a whole little clientele going for me. Nothing's too good for +Molly, the boss says, and gives me this shit raise." She shook +her head. "That prick was charging eight times what he was +paying me, and he thought I didn't know." +"So what was he charging for?" +"Bad dreams. Real ones. One night . . . one night, I'd just +come back from Chiba." She dropped the cigarette, ground it +out with her heel, and sat down, leaning against the wall. +"Surgeons went way in, that trip. Tricky. They must have +disturbed the cut-out chip. I came up. I was into this routine +with a customer...." She dug her fingers deep in the foam. +"Senator, he was. Knew his fat face right away. We were both +covered with blood. We weren't alone. She was all. .." She +tugged at the temperfoam. "Dead. And that fat prick, he was +saying, 'What's wrong. What's wrong?' 'Cause we weren't +finished yet...." +She began to shake. +"So I guess I gave the Senator what he really wanted, you +know?" The shaking stopped. She released the foam and ran +her fingers back through her dark hair. "The house put a con- +tract out on me. I had to hide for a while." +Case stared at her. +"So Riviera hit a nerve last night," she said. "I guess it +wants me to hate him real bad, so I'll be psyched up to go in +there after him." +"After him?" +"He's already there. Straylight. On the invitation of Lady +3Jane, all that dedication shit. She was there in a private box, +kinda . . ." +Case remembered the face he'd seen. "You gonna kill him?" +She smiled. Cold. "He's going to die, yeah. Soon." +"I had a visit too," he said, and told her about the window, +stumbling over what the Zone-figure had said about Linda. She +nodded. +"Maybe it wants you to hate something too." +"Maybe I hate it." +"Maybe you hate yourself, Case." + +"How was it?" Bruce asked, as Case climbed into the Honda. +"Try it sometime," he said, rubbing his eyes. +"Just can't see you the kinda guy goes for the puppets," +Cath said unhappily, thumbing a fresh derm against her wrist. +"Can we go home, now?" Bruce asked. +"Sure. Drop me down Jules Verne, where the bars are." +Rue Jules Verne was a circumferential avenue, looping the +spindle's midpoint, while Desiderata ran its length, terminating +at either end in the supports of the Lado-Acheson light pumps. +If you turned right, off Desiderata, and followed Jules Verne +far enough, you'd find yourself approaching Desiderata from +the left. +Case watched Bruce's trike until it was out of sight, then +turned and walked past a vast, brilliantly lit newsstand, the +covers of dozens of glossy Japanese magazines presenting the +faces of the month's newest simstim stars. +Directly overhead, along the nighted axis, the hologram sky +glittered with fanciful constellations suggesting playing cards, +the faces of dice, a top hat, a martini glass. The intersection +of Desiderata and Jules Verne formed a kind of gulch, the +balconied terraces of Freeside cliff dwellers rising gradually to +the grassy tablelands of another casino complex. Case watched +a drone microlight bank gracefully in an updraft at the green +verge of an artificial mesa, lit for seconds by the soft glow of +the invisible casino. The thing was a kind of pilotless biplane +of gossamer polymer, its wings silkscreened to resemble a giant +butterfly. Then it was gone, beyond the mesa's edge. He'd +seen a wink of reflected neon off glass, either lenses or the +turrets of lasers. The drones were part of the spindle's security +system, controlled by some central computer. +In Straylight? He walked on, past bars named the Hi-Lo, +the Paradise, le Monde, Cricketeer, Shozoku Smith's, Emer- +gency. He chose Emergency because it was the smallest and +most crowded, but it took only seconds for him to realize that +it was a tourist place. No hum of biz here, only a glazed sexual +tension. He thought briefly of the nameless club above Molly's +rented cubicle, but the image of her mirrored eyes fixed on the +little screen dissuaded him. What was Wintermute revealing +there now? The ground plans of the Villa Straylight? The history +of the Tessier-Ashpools? +He bought a mug of Carlsberg and found a place against +the wall. Closing his eyes, he felt for the knot of rage, the pure +small coal of his anger. It was there still. Where had it come +from? He remembered feeling only a kind of bafflement at his +maiming in Memphis, nothing at all when he'd killed to defend +his dealing interests in Night City, and a slack sickness and +loathing after Linda's death under the inflated dome. But no +anger. Small and far away, on the mind's screen, a semblance +of Deane struck a semblance of an office wall in an explosion +of brains and blood. He knew then: the rage had come in the +arcade, when Wintermute rescinded the simstim ghost of Linda +Lee, yanking away the simple animal promise of food, warmth, +a place to sleep. But he hadn't become aware of it until his +exchange with the holo-construct of Lonny Zone. +It was a strange thing. He couldn't take its measure. +"Numb," he said. He'd been numb a long time, years. All +his nights down Ninsei, his nights with Linda, numb in bed +and numb at the cold sweating center of every drug deal. But +now he'd found this warm thing, this chip of murder. Meat, +some part of him said. It's the meat talking, ignore it. +"Gangster." +He opened his eyes. Cath stood beside him in a black shift, +her hair still wild from the ride in the Honda. +"Thought you went home," he said, and covered his con- +fusion with a sip of Carlsberg. +"I got him to drop me off at this shop. Bought this." She +ran her palm across the fabric, curve of the pelvic girdle. He +saw the blue derm on her wrist. "Like it?" +"Sure." He automatically scanned the faces around them, +then looked back at her. "What do you think you're up to, +honey?" +"You like the beta you got off us, Lupus?" She was very +close now, radiating heat and tension, eyes slitted over enor- +mous pupils and a tendon in her neck tense as a bowstring. +She was quivering, vibrating invisibly with the fresh buzz. +"You get off?" +"Yeah. But the comedown's a bitch." +"Then you need another one." +"And what's that supposed to lead to?" +"I got a key. Up the hill behind the Paradise, just the cream- +iest crib. People down the well on business tonight, if you +follow me...." +"If I follow you." +She took his hand between hers, her palms hot and dry. +"You're Yak, aren't you, Lupus? Gaijin soldierman for the +Yakuza." +"You got an eye, huh?" He withdrew his hand and fumbled +for a cigarette. +"How come you got all your fingers, then? I thought you +had to chop one off every time you screwed up." +"I never screw up." He lit his cigarette. +"I saw that girl you're with. Day I met you. Walks like +Hideo. Scares me." She smiled too widely. "I like that. She +like it with girls?" +"Never said. Who's Hideo?" +"3Jane's, what she calls it, retainer. Family retainer." +Case forced himself to stare dully at the Emergency crowd +while he spoke. "Dee-Jane?" +"Lady 3Jane. She's triff. Rich. Her father owns all this." +"This bar?" +"Freeside ! " +"No shit. You keepin' some class company, huh?" He raised +an eyebrow. Put his arm around her, his hand on her hip. "So +how you meet these aristos, Cathy? You some kinda closet +deb? You an' Bruce secret heirs to some ripe old credit? Huh?" +He spread his fingers, kneading the flesh beneath the thin black +cloth. She squirmed against him. Laughed. +"Oh, you know," she said, lids half lowered in what must +have been intended as a look of modesty, "she likes to party. +Bruce and I, we make the party circuit.... It gets real boring +for her, in there. Her old man lets her out sometimes, as long +as she brings Hideo to take care of her." +"Where's it get boring?' +"Straylight, they call it. She told me, oh, it's pretty, all the +pools and lilies.It's a castle, a real castle, all stone and sunsets." +She snuggled in against him. "Hey, Lupus, man, you need a +derm. So we can be together." +She wore a tiny leather purse on a slender neck-thong. Her +nails were bright pink against her boosted tan, bitten to the +quick. She opened the purse and withdrew a paperbacked bub- +ble with a blue derm inside. Something white tumbled to the +floor; Case stooped and picked it up. An origami crane. +"Hideo gave it to me," she said. "He tried to show me how, +but I can't ever get it right. The necks come out backwards." +She tucked the folded paper back into her purse. Case watched +as she tore the bubble away, peeled the derm from its backing, +and smoothed it across his inner wrist. +"3Jane, she's got a pointy face, nose like a bird?" He watched +his hands fumble an outline. "Dark hair? Young?" +"I guess. But she's triff, you know? Like, all that money." +The drug hit him like an express train, a white-hot column +of light mounting his spine from the region of his prostate, +illuminating the sutures of his skull with x-rays of short-cir- +cuited sexual energy. His teeth sang in their individual sockets +like tuning forks, each one pitch-perfect and clear as ethanol. +His bones, beneath the hazy envelope of flesh, were chromed +and polished, the joints lubricated with a film of silicone. Sand- +storms raged across the scoured floor of his skull, generating +waves of high thin static that broke behind his eyes, spheres +of purest crystal, expanding.... +"Come on," she said, taking his hand. "You got it now. +We got it. Up the hill, we'll have it all night." + +The anger was expanding, relentless, exponential, riding +out behind the betaphenethylamine rush like a carrier wave, a +seismic fluid, rich and corrosive. His erection was a bar of +lead. The faces around them in Emergency were painted doll +things, the pink and white of mouth parts moving, moving, +words emerging like discrete balloons of sound. He looked at +Cath and saw each pore in the tanned skin, eyes flat as dumb +glass, a tint of dead metal, a faint bloating, the most minute +asymmetries of breast and collarbone, the--something flared +white behind his eyes. +He dropped her hand and stumbled for the door, shoving +someone out of the way. +"Fuck you!" she screamed behind him, "you ripoff shit!" +He couldn't feel his legs. He used them like stilts, swaying +crazily across the flagstone pavement of Jules Verne, a distant +rumbling in his ears, his own blood, razored sheets of light +bisecting his skull at a dozen angles. +And then he was frozen, erect, fists tight against his thighs, +head back, his lips curled, shaking. While he watched the +loser's zodiac of Freeside, the nightclub constellations of the +hologram sky, shift, sliding fluid down the axis of darkness, +to swarm like live things at the dead center of reality. Until +they had arranged themselves, individually and in their hundreds, +to form a vast simple portrait, stippled the ultimate mono- +chrome, stars against night sky. Face of Miss Linda Lee. +When he was able to look away, to lower his eyes, he found +every other face in the street upraised, the strolling tourists +becalmed with wonder. And when the lights in the sky went +out, a ragged cheer went up from Jules Verne, to echo off the +terraces and ranked balconies of lunar concrete. +Somewhere a clock began to chime, some ancient bell out +of Europe. +Midnight. + +He walked till morning. +The high wore away, the chromed skeleton corroding hourly, +flesh growing solid, the drug-flesh replaced with the meat of +his life. He couldn't think. He liked that very much, to be +conscious and unable to think. He seemed to become each +thing he saw: a park bench, a cloud of white moths around an +antique streetlight, a robot gardener striped diagonally with +black and yellow. +A recorded dawn crept along the Lado-Acheson system, +pink and lurid. He forced himself to eat an omelette in a De- +siderata cafe, to drink water, to smoke the last of his cigarettes. +The rooftop meadow of the Intercontinental was stirring as he +crossed it, an early breakfast crowd intent on coffee and crois- +sants beneath the striped umbrellas. +He still had his anger. That was like being rolled in some +alley and waking to discover your wallet still in your pocket, +untouched. He warmed himself with it, unable to give it a name +or an object. +He rode the elevator down to his level, fumbling in his +pocket for the Freeside credit chip that served as his key. Sleep +was becoming real, was something he might do. To lie down +on the sand-colored temperfoam and find the blankness again. +They were waiting there, the three of them, their perfect +white sportsclothes and stenciled tans setting off the handwoven +organic chic of the furniture. The girl sat on a wicker sofa, an +automatic pistol beside her on the leaf-patterned print of the +cushion. +"Turing," she said. "You are under arrest." + +PART FOUR + +THE STRAYLIGHT RUN + + +"Your name is Henry Dorsett Case." She recited the year +and place of his birth, his BAMA Single Identification Number, +and a string of names he gradually recognized as aliases from +his past. +"You been here awhile?" He saw the contents of his bag +spread out across the bed, unwashed clothing sorted by type. +The shuriken lay by itself, between jeans and underwear, on +the sand-tinted temperfoam. +"Where is Kolodny?" The two men sat side by side on the +couch, their arms crossed over tanned chests, identical gold +chains slung around their necks. Case peered at them and saw +that their youth was counterfeit, marked by a certain telltale +corrugation at the knuckles, something the surgeons were un- +able to erase. +"Who's Kolodny?" +"That was the name in the register. Where is she?" +"I dunno," he said, crossing to the bar and pouring himself +a glass of mineral water. "She took off." +"Where did you go tonight, Case?" The girl picked up the +pistol and rested it on her thigh, without actually pointing it at +him. +"Jules Verne, couple of bars, got high. How about you?" +His knees felt brittle. The mineral water was warm and flat. +"I don't think you grasp your situation," said the man on +the left, taking a pack of Gitanes from the breast pocket of his +white mesh blouse. "You are busted, Mr. Case. The charges +have to do with conspiracy to augment an artificial intelli- +gence." He took a gold Dunhill from the same pocket and +cradled it in his palm. "The man you call Armitage is already +in custody." +"Corto?" +The man's eyes widened. "Yes. How do you know that that +is his name?" A millimeter of flame clicked from the lighter. +"I forget," Case said. +"You'll remember," the girl said. + +Their names, or worknames, were Michele, Roland, and +Pierre. Pierre, Case decided, would play the Bad Cop; Roland +would take Case's side, provide small kindnesses--he found +an unopened pack of Yeheyuans when Case refused a Gitane-- +and generally play counterpoint to Pierre's cold hostility. +Michele would be the Recording Angel, making occasional +adjustments in the direction of the interrogation. One or all of +them, he was certain, would be kinked for audio, very likely +for simstim, and anything he said or did now was admissible +evidence. Evidence, he asked himself, through the grinding +come-down, of what? +Knowing that he couldn't follow their French, they spoke +freely among themselves. Or seemed to. He caught enough as +it was: names like Pauley, Armitage, Sense/Net. Panther Mod- +erns protruding like icebergs from an animated sea of Parisian +French. But it was entirely possible that the names were there +for his benefit. They always referred to Molly as Kolodny. +"You say you were hired to make a run, Case," Roland +said, his slow speech intended to convey reasonableness, "and +that you are unaware of the nature of the target. Is this not +unusual in your trade? Having penetrated the defenses, would +you not be unable then to perform the required operation? And +surely an operation of some kind is required, yes?" He leaned +forward, elbows on his stenciled brown knees, palms out to +receive Case's explanation. Pierre paced the room; now he was +by the window, now by the door. Michele was the kink, Case +decided. Her eyes never left him. +"Can I put some clothes on?" he asked. Pierre had insisted +on stripping him, searching the seams of his jeans. Now he sat +naked on a wicker footstool, with one foot obscenely white. +Roland asked Pierre something in French. Pierre, at the +window again, was peering through a flat little pair of binoc- +ulars. "Non," he said absently, and Roland shrugged, raising +his eyebrows at Case. Case decided it was a good time to smile. +Roland returned the smile. +Oldest cop bullshit in the book, Case thought. "Look," he +said, "I'm sick. Had this godawful drug in a bar, you know? +I wanna lie down. You got me already. You say you got +Armitage. You got him, go ask him. I'm just hired help." +Roland nodded. "And Kolodny?" +"She was with Armitage when he hired me. Just muscle, a +razorgirl. Far as I know. Which isn't too far." +"You know that Armitage's real name is Corto," Pierre said, +his eyes still hidden by the soft plastic flanges of the binoculars. +"How do you know that, my friend?" +"I guess he mentioned it sometime," Case said, regretting +the slip. "Everybody's got a couple names. Your name Pierre?" +"We know how you were repaired in Chiba," Michele said, +"and that may have been Wintermute's first mistake." Case +stared at her as blankly as he could. The name hadn't been +mentioned before. "The process employed on you resulted in +the clinic's owner applying for seven basic patents. Do you +know what that means?" +"No." +"It means that the operator of a black clinic in Chiba City +now owns a controlling interest in three major medical research +consortiums. This reverses the usual order of things, you see. +It attracted attention." She crossed her brown arms across her +small high breasts and settled back against the print cushion. +Case wondered how old she might be. People said that age +always showed in the eyes, but he'd never been able to see it. +Julie Deane had had the eyes of a disinterested ten-year-old +behind the rose quartz of his glasses. Nothing old about Michele +but her knuckles. "Traced you to the Sprawl, lost you again, +then caught up with you as you were leaving for Istanbul. We +backtracked, traced you through the grid, determined that you'd +instigated a riot at Sense/Net. Sense/Net was eager to cooperate. +They ran an inventory for us. They discovered that McCoy +Pauley's ROM personality construct was missing." +"In Istanbul," Roland said, almost apologetically, "it was +very easy. The woman had alienated Armitage's contact with +the secret police." +"And then you came here," Pierre said, slipping the bin- +oculars into his shorts pocket. "We were delighted." +"Chance to work on your tan?" +"You know what we mean," Michele said. "If you wish to +pretend that you do not, you only make things more difficult +for yourself. There is still the matter of extradition. You will +return with us, Case, as will Armitage. But where, exactly, +will we all be going? To Switzerland, where you will be merely +a pawn in the trial of an artificial intelligence? Or to le BAMA, +where you can be proven to have participated not only in data +invasion and larceny, but in an act of public mischief which +cost fourteen innocent lives? The choice is yours." +Case took a Yeheyuan from his pack; Pierre lit it for him +with the gold Dunhill. "Would Armitage protect you?" The +question was punctuated by the lighter's bright jaws snapping +shut. +Case looked up at him through the ache and bitterness of +betaphenethylamine. "How old are you, boss?" +"Old enough to know that you are fucked, burnt, that this +is over and you are in the way." +"One thing," Case said, and drew on his cigarette. He blew +the smoke up at the Turing Registry agent. "Do you guys have +any real jurisdiction out here? I mean, shouldn't you have the +Freeside security team in on this party? It's their turf, isn't it?" +He saw the dark eyes harden in the lean boy face and tensed +for the blow, but Pierre only shrugged. +"It doesn't matter," Roland said. "You will come with us. +We are at home with situations of legal ambiguity. The treaties +under which our arm of the Registry operates grant us a great +deal of flexibility. And we create flexibility, in situations where +it is required." The mask of amiability was down, suddenly, +Roland's eyes as hard as Pierre's. +"You are worse than a fool," Michele said, getting to her +feet, the pistol in her hand. "You have no care for your species. +For thousands of years men dreamed of pacts with demons. +Only now are such things possible. And what would you be +paid with? What would your price be, for aiding this thing to +free itself and grow?" There was a knowing weariness in her +young voice that no nineteen-year-old could have mustered. +"You will dress now. You will come with us. Along with the +one you call Armitage, you will return with us to Geneva and +give testimony in the trial of this intelligence. Otherwise, we +kill you. Now." She raised the pistol, a smooth black Walther +with an integral silencer. +"I'm dressing already," he said, stumbling toward the bed. +His legs were still numb, clumsy. He fumbled with a clean +t-shirt. +"We have a ship standing by. We will erase Pauley's con- +struct with a pulse weapon." +"Sense/Net'll be pissed," Case said, thinking: and all the +evidence in the Hosaka. +"They are in some difficulty already, for having owned such +a thing." +Case pulled the shirt over his head. He saw the shuriken on +the bed, lifeless metal, his star. He felt for the anger. It was +gone. Time to give in, to roll with it.... He thought of the +toxin sacs. "Here comes the meat," he muttered. +In the elevator to the meadow, he thought of Molly. She +might already be in Straylight. Hunting Riviera. Hunted, prob- +ably, by Hideo, who was almost certainly the ninja clone of +the Finn's story, the one who'd come to retrieve the talking +head. +He rested his forehead against the matte black plastic of a +wall panel and closed his eyes. His limbs were wood, old, +warped and heavy with rain. +Lunch was being served beneath the trees, under the bright +umbrellas. Roland and Michele fell into character, chattering +brightly in French. Pierre came behind. Michele kept the muz- +zle of her pistol close to his ribs, concealing the gun with a +white duck jacket she draped over her arm. + +Crossing the meadow, weaving between the tables and the +trees, he wondered if she would shoot him if he collapsed now. +Black fur boiled at the borders of his vision. He glanced up at +the hot white band of the Lado-Acheson armature and saw a +giant butterfly banking gracefully against recorded sky. +At the edge of the meadow they came to railinged cliffside, +wild flowers dancing in the updraft from the canyon that was +Desiderata. Michele tossed her short dark hair and pointed, +saying something in French to Roland. She sounded genuinely +happy. Case followed the direction of her gesture and saw the +curve of planing lakes, the white glint of casinos, turquoise +rectangles of a thousand pools, the bodies of bathers, tiny bronze +hieroglyphs, all held in serene approximation of gravity against +the endless curve of Freeside's hull. +They followed the railing to an ornate iron bridge that arched +over Desiderata. Michele prodded him with the muzzle of the +Walther. +"Take it easy, I can't hardly walk today." +They were a little over a quarter of the way across when +the microlight struck, its electric engine silent until the carbon +fiber prop chopped away the top of Pierre's skull. +They were in the thing's shadow for an instant; Case felt +the hot blood spray across the back of his neck, and then +someone tripped him. He rolled, seeing Michele on her back, +knees up, aiming the Walther with both hands. That's a waste +of effort, he thought, with the strange lucidity of shock. She +was trying to shoot down the microlight. +And then he was running. He looked back as he passed the +first of the trees. Roland was running after him. He saw the +fragile biplane strike the iron railing of the bridge, crumple, +cartwheel, sweeping the girl with it down into Desiderata. +Roland hadn't looked back. His face was fixed, white, his +teeth bared. He had something in his hand. +The gardening robot took Roland as he passed that same +tree. It fell straight out of the groomed branches, a thing like +a crab, diagonally striped with black and yellow. +"You killed 'em," Case panted, running. "Crazy mother- +fucker, you killed 'em all...." + + +The little train shot through its tunnel at eighty kilometers +per hour. Case kept his eyes closed. The shower had helped, +but he'd lost his breakfast when he'd looked down and seen +Pierre's blood washing pink across the white tiles. +Gravity fell away as the spindle narrowed. Case's stomach +churned. +Aerol was waiting with his scooter beside the dock. +"Case, mon, big problem." The soft voice faint in his phones. +He chinned the volume control and peered into the Lexan +face-plate of Aerol's helmet. +"Gotta get to Garvey, Aerol." +"Yo. Strap in, mon. But Garvey captive. Yacht, came be- +fore, she came back. Now she lockin' steady on Marcus +Garvey. " +Turing? "Came before?" Case climbed into the scooter's +frame and began to fasten the straps. + +"Japan yacht. Brought you package...." +Armitage. + +Confused images of wasps and spiders rose in Case's mind +as they came in sight of Marcus Garvey. The little tug was +snug against the gray thorax of a sleek, insectile ship five times +her length. The arms of grapples stood out against Garvey's +patched hull with the strange clarity of vacuum and raw sun- +light. A pale corrugated gangway curved out of the yacht, +snaked sideways to avoid the tug's engines, and covered the +aft hatch. There was something obscene about the arrangement, +but it had more to do with ideas of feeding than of sex. +"What's happening with Maelcum?" +"Maelcum fine. Nobody come down the tube. Yacht pilot +talk to him, say relax." +As they swung past the gray ship, Case saw the name HAN- +IWA in crisp white capitals beneath an oblong cluster of Jap- +anese. +"I don't like this, man. I was thinking maybe it's time we +got our ass out of here anyway." +"Maelcum thinkin' that precise thing, mon, but Garvey not +be goin' far like that." + +Maelcum was purring a speeded-up patois to his radio when +Case came through the forward lock and removed his helmet. +"Aerol's gone back to the Rocker," Case said. +Maelcum nodded, still whispering to the microphone. +Case pulled himself over the pilot's drifting tangle of dread- +locks and began to remove his suit. Maelcum's eyes were +closed now; he nodded as he listened to some reply over a pair +of phones with bright orange pads, his brow creased with con- +centration. He wore ragged jeans and an old green nylon jacket +with the sleeves ripped out. Case snapped the red Sanyo suit +to a storage hammock and pulled himself down to the g-web. +"See what th' ghost say, mon," Maelcum said. "Computer +keeps askin' for you." +"So who's up there in that thing?" +"Same Japan-boy came before. An' now he joined by you +Mister Armitage, come out Freeside...." +Case put the trodes on and jacked in. + + +* * * +"Dixie?" +The matrix showed him the pink spheres of the steel combine +in Sikkim. +"What you gettin' up to, boy? I been hearin' lurid stories. +Hosaka's patched into a twin bank on your boss's boat now. +Really hoppin'. You pull some Turing heat?" +"Yeah, but Wintermute killed 'em." +"Well, that won't hold 'em long. Plenty more where those +came from. Be up here in force. Bet their decks are all over +this grid sector like flies on shit. And your boss, Case, he says +go. He says run it and run it now." +Case punched for the Freeside coordinates. +"Lemme take that a sec, Case...." The matrix blurred and +phased as the Flatline executed an intricate series of jumps with +a speed and accuracy that made Case wince with envy. +"Shit, Dixie...." +"Hey, boy, I was that good when I was alive. You ain't +seen nothin'. No hands!" +"That's it, huh? Big green rectangle off left?" +"You got it. Corporate core data for Tessier-Ashpool S.A., +and that ice is generated by their two friendly Al's. On par +with anything in the military sector, looks to me. That's king +hell ice, Case, black as the grave and slick as glass. Fry your +brain soon as look at you. We get any closer now, it'll have +tracers up our ass and out both ears, be tellin' the boys in the +T-A boardroom the size of your shoes and how long your dick + +"This isn't looking so hot, is it? I mean, the Turings are on +it. I was thinking maybe we should try to bail out. I can take +you." +"Yeah? No shit? You don't wanna see what that Chinese +program can do?" +"Well, I . . ." Case stared at the green walls of the T-A ice. +"Well, screw it. Yeah. We run." +"Slot it." +"Hey, Maelcum," Case said, jacking out, "I'm probably +gonna be under the trodes for maybe eight hours straight." +Maelcum was smoking again. The cabin was swimming in +smoke. "So I can't get to the head...." +"No problem, mon." The Zionite executed a high forward +somersault and rummaged through the contents of a zippered +mesh bag, coming up with a coil of transparent tubing and +something else, something sealed in a sterile bubble pack. +He called it a Texas catheter, and Case didn't like it at all. +He slotted the Chinese virus, paused, then drove it home. +"Okay," he said, "we're on. Listen, Maelcum, if it gets +really funny, you can grab my left wrist. I'll feel it. Otherwise, +I guess you do what the Hosaka tells you, okay?" +"Sure, mon." Maelcum lit a fresh joint. +"And turn the scrubber up. I don't want that shit tangling +with my neurotransmitters. I got a bad hangover as it is." +Maelcum grinned. +Case jacked back in. +"Christ on a crutch," the Flatline said, "take a look at this." +The Chinese virus was unfolding around them. Polychrome +shadow, countless translucent layers shifting and recombining. +Protean, enormous, it towered above them, blotting out the +void. +"Big mother," the Flatline said. +"I'm gonna check Molly," Case said, tapping the simstim +switch. + +Freefall. The sensation was like diving through perfectly +clear water. She was falling-rising through a wide tube of fluted +lunar concrete, lit at two-meter intervals by rings of white neon. +The link was one way. He couldn't talk to her. +He flipped. + +"Boy, that is one mean piece of software. Hottest thing +since sliced bread. That goddam thing's invisible. I just now +rented twenty seconds on that little pink box, four jumps left +of the T-A ice; had a look at what we look like. We don't. +We're not there." +Case searched the matrix around the Tessier-Ashpool ice +until he found the pink structure, a standard commercial unit, +and punched in closer to it. "Maybe it's defective." +"Maybe, but I doubt it. Our baby's military, though. And +new. It just doesn't register. If it did, we'd read as some kind +of Chinese sneak attack, but nobody's twigged to us at all. +Maybe not even the folks in Straylight." + +Case watched the blank wall that screened Straylight. "Well," +he said, "that's an advantage, right?" +"Maybe." The construct approximated laughter. Case winced +at the sensation. "I checked ol' Kuang Eleven out again for +you, boy. It's real friendly, long as you're on the trigger end, +jus' polite an' helpful as can be. Speaks good English, too. +You ever hear of slow virus before?" +"No." +"I did, once. Just an idea, back then. But that's what ol' +Kuang's all about. This ain't bore and inject, it's more like we +interface with the ice so slow, the ice doesn't feel it. The face +of the Kuang logics kinda sleazes up to the target and mutates, +so it gets to be exactly like the ice fabric. Then we lock on +and the main programs cut in, start talking circles 'round the +logics in the ice. We go Siamese twin on 'em before they even +get restless." The Flatline laughed. +"Wish you weren't so damn jolly today, man. That laugh +of yours sort of gets me in the spine." +"Too bad," the Flatline said. "Ol' dead man needs his laughs." +Case slapped the simstim switch. + +And crashed through tangled metal and the smell of dust, +the heels of his hands skidding as they struck slick paper. +Something behind him collapsed noisily. +"C'mon," said the Finn, "ease up a little." +Case lay sprawled across a pile of yellowing magazines, +the girls shining up at him in the dimness of Metro Holografix, +a wistful galaxy of sweet white teeth. He lay there until his +heart had slowed, breathing the smell of old magazines. +"Wintermute," he said. +"Yeah," said the Finn, somewhere behind him, "you got +it." +"Fuck off." Case sat up, rubbing his wrists. +"Come on," said the Finn, stepping out of a sort of alcove +in the wall of junk. "This way's better for you, man." He took +his Partagas from a coat pocket and lit one. The smell of Cuban +tobacco filled the shop. "You want I should come to you in +the matrix like a burning bush? You aren't missing anything, +back there. An hour here'll only take you a couple of seconds." +"You ever think maybe it gets on my nerves, you coming +on like people I know?" He stood, swatting pale dust from the +front of his black jeans. He turned, glaring back at-the dusty +shop windows, the closed door to the street. "What's out there? +New York? Or does it just stop?" +"Well," said the Finn, "it's like that tree, you know? Falls +in the woods but maybe there's nobody to hear it." He showed +Case his huge front teeth, and puffed his cigarette. "You can +go for a walk, you wanna. It's all there. Or anyway all the +parts of it you ever saw. This is memory, right? I tap you, sort +it out, and feed it back in." +"I don't have this good a memory," Case said, looking +around. He looked down at his hands, turning them over. He +tried to remember what the lines on his palms were like, but +couldn't. +"Everybody does," the Finn said, dropping his cigarette and +grinding it out under his heel, "but not many of you can access +it. Artists can, mostly, if they're any good. If you could lay +this construct over the reality, the Finn's place in lower Man- +hattan, you'd see a difference, but maybe not as much as you'd +think. Memory's holographic, for you." The Finn tugged at +one of his small ears. "I'm different." +"How do you mean, holographic?" The word made him +think of Riviera. +"The holographic paradigm is the closest thing you've worked +out to a representation of human memory, is all. But you've +never done anything about it. People, I mean." The Finn stepped +forward and canted his streamlined skull to peer up at Case. +"Maybe if you had, I wouldn't be happening." +"What's that supposed to mean?" +The Finn shrugged. His tattered tweed was too wide across +the shoulders, and didn't quite settle back into position. "I'm +trying to help you, Case." +"Why?" +"Because I need you." The large yellow teeth appeared +again. "And because you need me." +"Bullshit. Can you read my mind, Finn?" He grimaced. +"Wintermute, I mean." +"Minds aren't read. See, you've still got the paradigms +print gave you, and you're barely print-literate. I can access +your memory, but that's not the same as your mind." He +reached into the exposed chassis of an ancient television and +withdrew a silver-black vacuum tube. "See this? Part of my +DNA, sort of...." He tossed the thing into the shadows and +Case heard it pop and tinkle. "You're always building models. +Stone circles. Cathedrals. Pipe-organs. Adding machines. I +got no idea why I'm here now, you know that? But if the +run goes off tonight, you'll have finally managed the real +thing." +"I don't know what you're talking about." +"That's 'you' in the collective. Your species." +"You killed those Turings." +The Finn shrugged. "Hadda. Hadda. You should give a shit; +they woulda offed you and never thought twice. Anyway, why +I got you here, we gotta talk more. Remember this?" And his +right hand held the charred wasps' nest from Case's dream, +reek of fuel in the closeness of the darkshop. Case stumbled +back against a wall of junk. "Yeah. That was me. Did it with +the holo rig in the window. Another memory I tapped out of +you when I flatlined you that first time. Know why it's im- +portant?" +Case shook his head. +"Because"--and the nest, somehow, was gone--"it's the +closest thing you got to what Tessier-Ashpool would like to +be . The human equivalent . Straylight' s like that nest, or anyway +it was supposed to work out that way. l figure it'll make you +feel better." +"Feel better?" +"To know what they're like. You were starting to hate my +guts for a while there. That's good. But hate them instead. +Same difference." +"Listen," Case said, stepping forward, "they never did shit +to me. You, it's different...." But he couldn't feel the anger. +"So T-A, they made me. The French girl, she said you were +selling out the species. Demon, she said I was." The Finn +grinned. "It doesn't much matter. You gotta hate somebody +before this is over." He turned and headed for the back of the +shop. "Well, come on, I'll show you a little bit of Straylight +while I got you here." He lifted the corner of the blanket. White +light poured out. "Shit, man, don't just stand there." +Case followed, rubbing his face. + +"Okay," said the Finn, and grabbed his elbow. +They were drawn past the stale wool in a puff of dust, into +freefall and a cylindrical corridor of fluted lunar concrete, ringed +with white neon at two-meter intervals. +"Jesus," Case said, tumbling. +"This is the front entrance," the Finn said, his tweed flap- +ping. "If this weren't a construct of mine, where the shop is +would be the main gate, up by the Freeside axis. This'll all be +a little low on detail, though, because you don't have the +memories. Except for this bit here, you got off Molly...." +Case managed to straighten out, but began to corkscrew in +a long spiral. +"Hold on," the Finn said, "I'll fast-forward us." +The walls blurred. Dizzying sensation of headlong move- +ment, colors, whipping around corners and through narrow +corridors. They seemed at one point to pass through several +meters of solid wall, a flash of pitch darkness. +"Here," the Finn said. "This is it." +They floated in the center of a perfectly square room, walls +and ceiling paneled in rectangular sections of dark wood. The +floor was covered by a single square of brilliant carpet patterned +after a microchip, circuits traced in blue and scarlet wool. In +the exact center of the room, aligned precisely with the carpet +pattern, stood a square pedestal of frosted white glass. +"The Villa Straylight," said a jeweled thing on the pedestal, +in a voice like music, "is a body grown in upon itself, a Gothic +folly. Each space in Straylight is in some way secret, this +endless series of chambers linked by passages, by stairwells +vaulted like intestines, where the eye is trapped in narrow +curves, carried past ornate screens, empty alcoves...." +"Essay of 3Jane's," the Finn said, producing his Partagas. +"Wrote that when she was twelve. Semiotics course." +"The architects of Freeside went to great pains to conceal +the fact that the interior of the spindle is arranged with the +banal precision of furniture in a hotel room. In Straylight, the +hull's inner surface is overgrown with a desperate proliferation +of structures, forms flowing, interlocking, rising toward a solid +core of microcircuitry, our clan's corporate heart, a cylinder +of silicon wormholed with narrow maintenance tunnels, some +no wider than a man's hand. The bright crabs burrow there, +the drones, alert for micromechanical decay or sabotage." + +"That was her you saw in the restaurant," the Finn said. +"By the standards of the archipelago," the head continued, +"ours is an old family, the convolutions of our home reflecting +that age. But reflecting something else as well. The semiotics +of the Villa bespeak a turning in, a denial of the bright void +beyond the hull. +"Tessier and Ashpool climbed the well of gravity to discover +that they loathed space. They built Freeside to tap the wealth +of the new islands, grew rich and eccentric, and began the +construction of an extended body in Straylight. We have sealed +ourselves away behind our money, growing inward, generating +a seamless universe of self. +"The Villa Straylight knows no sky, recorded or otherwise. +"At the Villa's silicon core is a small room, the only rec- +tilinear chamber in the complex. Here, on a plain pedestal of +glass, rests an ornate bust, platinum and cloisonne, studded +with lapis and pearl. The bright marbles of its eyes were cut +from the synthetic ruby viewport of the ship that brought the +first Tessier up the well, and returned for the first Ashpool...." +The head fell silent. +"Well?" Case asked, finally, almost expecting the thing to +answer him. +"That's all she wrote," the Finn said. "Didn't finish it. Just +a kid then. This thing's a ceremonial terminal, sort of. I need +Molly in here with the right word at the right time. That's the +catch. Doesn't mean shit, how deep you and the Flatline ride +that Chinese virus, if this thing doesn't hear the magic word." +"So what's the word?" +"I don't know. You might say what I am is basically defined +by the fact that I don't know, because I can't know. I am that +which knoweth not the word. If you knew, man, and told me, +I couldn't know. It's hardwired in. Someone else has to learn +it and bring it here, just when you and the Flatline punch +through that ice and scramble the cores." +"What happens then?" +"I don't exist, after that. I cease." +"Okay by me," Case said. +"Sure. But you watch your ass, Case. My, ah, other lobe +is on to us, it looks like. One burning bush looks pretty much +like another. And Armitage is starting to go." +"What's that mean?" +But the paneled room folded itself through a dozen impos- +sible angles, tumbling away into cyberspace like an origami +crane. + +"You tryin' to break my record, son?" the Flatline asked. +"You were braindead again, five seconds." +"Sit tight," Case said, and hit the simstim switch. +She crouched in darkness, her palms against rough concrete. +CASE CASE CASE CASE. The digital display pulsed his +name in alphanumerics, Wintermute informing her of the link. +"Cute," she said. She rocked back on her heels and rubbed +her palms together, cracked her knuckles. "What kept you?" +TIME MOLLY TIME NOW. +She pressed her tongue hard against her lower front teeth. +One moved slightly, activating her microchannel amps; the +random bounce of photons through the darkness was converted +to a pulse of electrons, the concrete around her coming up +ghost-pale and grainy. "Okay, honey. Now we go out to play." +Her hiding place proved to be a service tunnel of some kind. +She crawled out through a hinged, ornate grill of tarnished +brass. He saw enough of her arms and hands to know that she +wore the polycarbon suit again. Under the plastic, he felt the +familiar tension of thin tight leather. There was something slung +under her arm in a harness or holster. She stood up, unzipped +the suit and touched the checkered plastic of a pistolgrip. +"Hey, Case," she said, barely voicing the words, "you lis- +tening? Tell you a story.... Had me this boy once. You kinda +remind me . . ." She turned and surveyed the corridor. "Johnny, +his name was." +The low, vaulted hallway was lined with dozens of museum +cases, archaic-looking glass-fronted boxes made of brown wood. +They looked awkward there, against the organic curves of the +hallway's walls, as though they'd been brought in and set up +in a line for some forgotten purpose. Dull brass fixtures held +globes of white light at ten-meter intervals. The floor was +uneven, and as she set off along the corridor, Case realized +that hundreds of small rugs and carpets had been put down at +random. In some places, they were six deep, the floor a soft +patchwork of handwoven wool. +Molly paid little attention to the cabinets and their contents, +which irritated him. He had to satisfy himself with her disin- +terested glances, which gave him fragments of pottery, antique +weapons, a thing so densely studded with rusted nails that it +was unrecognizable, frayed sections of tapestry.... +"My Johnny, see, he was smart, real flash boy. Started out +as a stash on Memory Lane, chips in his head and people paid +to hide data there. Had the Yak after him, night I met him, +and I did for their assassin. More luck than anything else, but +I did for him. And after that, it was tight and sweet, Case." +Her lips barely moved. He felt her form the words; he didn't +need to hear them spoken aloud. "We had a set-up with a squid, +so we could read the traces of everything he'd ever stored. Ran +it all out on tape and started twisting selected clients, ex-clients. +I was bagman, muscle, watchdog. I was real happy. You ever +been happy, Case? He was my boy. We worked together. +Partners. I was maybe eight weeks out of the puppet house +when I met him...." She paused, edged around a sharp turn +and continued. More of the glossy wooden cases, their sides +a color that reminded him of cockroach wings. +"Tight, sweet, just ticking along, we were. Like nobody +could ever touch us. I wasn't going to let them. Yakuza, I +guess, they still wanted Johnny's ass. 'Cause I'd killed their +man. 'Cause Johnny'd burned them. And the Yak, they can +afford to move so fucking slow, man, they'll wait years and +years. Give you a whole life, just so you'll have more to lose +when they come and take it away. Patient like a spider. Zen +spiders. +"I didn't know that, then. Or if I did, I figured it didn't +apply to us. Like when you're young, you figure you're +unique. I was young. Then they came, when we were thinking +we maybe had enough to be able to quit, pack it in, go to +Europe maybe. Not that either of us knew what we'd do there, +with nothing to do. But we were living fat, Swiss orbital ac- +counts and a crib full of toys and furniture. Takes the edge off +your game. +"So that first one they'd sent, he'd been hot. Reflexes like +you never saw, implants, enough style for ten ordinary hoods. +But the second one, he was, I dunno, like a monk. Cloned. +Stone killer from the cells on up. Had it in him, death, this +silence, he gave it off in a cloud...." Her voice trailed off as +the corridor split, identical stairwells descending. She took the +left. +"One time, I was a little kid, we were squatting. It was +down by the Hudson, and those rats, man, they were big. It's +the chemicals get into them. Big as I was, and all night one +had been scrabbling under the floor of the squat. Round dawn +somebody brought this old man in, seams down his cheeks and +his eyes all red. Had a roll of greasy leather like you'd keep +steel tools in, to keep the rust off. Spread it out, had this old +revolver and three shells. Old man, he puts one bullet in there, +then he starts walking up and down the squat, we're hanging +back by the walls. +"Back and forth. Got his arms crossed, head down, like +he's forgotten the gun. Listening for the rat. We got real quiet. +Old man takes a step. Rat moves. Rat moves, he takes another +step. An hour of that, then he seems to remember his gun. +Points it at the floor, grins, and pulls the trigger. Rolled it back +up and left. +"I crawled under there later. Rat had a hole between its +eyes." She was watching the sealed doorways that opened at +intervals along the corridor. "The second one, the one who +came for Johnny, he was like that old man. Not old, but he +was like that. He killed that way." The corridor widened. The +sea of rich carpets undulated gently beneath an enormous can- +delabrum whose lowest crystal pendant reached nearly to the +floor. Crystal tinkled as Molly entered the hall. THIRD DOOR +LEFT, blinked the readout. +She turned left, avoiding the inverted tree of crystal. "I just +saw him once. On my way into our place. He was coming out. +We lived in a converted factory space, lots of young comers +from Sense/Net, like that. Pretty good security to start with, +and I'd put in some really heavy stuff to make it really tight. +I knew Johnny was up there. But this little guy, he caught my +eye, as he was coming out. Didn't say a word. We just looked +at each other and I knew. Plain little guy, plain clothes, no +pride in him, humble. He looked at me and got into a pedicab. +I knew. Went upstairs and Johnny was sitting in a chair by the +window, with his mouth a little open, like he'd just thought of +something to say." +The door in front of her was old, a carved slab of Thai teak +that seemed to have been sawn in half to fit the low doorway. +A primitive mechanical lock with a stainless face had been +inset beneath a swirling dragon. She knelt, drew a tight little +roll of black chamois from an inside pocket, and selected a +needle-thin pick. "Never much found anybody I gave a damn +about, after that." +She inserted the pick and worked in silence, nibbling at her +lower lip. She seemed to rely on touch alone; her eyes unfo- +cused and the door was a blur of blond wood. Case listened +to the silence of the hall, punctuated by the soft clink of the +candelabrum. Candles? Straylight was all wrong. He remem- +bered Cath's story of a castle with pools and lilies, and 3Jane's +mannered words recited musically by the head. A place grown +in upon itself. Straylight smelled faintly musty, faintly per- +fumed, like a church. Where were the Tessier-Ashpools? He'd +expected some clean hive of disciplined activity, but Molly +had seen no one. Her monologue made him uneasy; she'd never +told him that much about herself before. Aside from her story +in the cubicle, she'd seldom said anything that had even in- +dicated that she had a past. +She closed her eyes and there was a click that Case felt +rather than heard. It made him remember the magnetic locks +on the door of her cubicle in the puppet place. The door had +opened for him, even though he'd had the wrong chip. That +was Wintermute, manipulating the lock the way it had manip- +ulated the drone micro and the robot gardener. The lock system +in the puppet place had been a subunit of Freeside's security +system. The simple mechanical lock here would pose a real +problem for the AI, requiring either a drone of some kind or +a human agent. +She opened her eyes, put the pick back into the chamois, +carefully rerolled it, and tucked it back into its pocket. "Guess +you're kinda like he was," she said. "Think you're born to run. +Figure what you were into back in Chiba, that was a stripped +down version of what you'd be doing anywhere. Bad luck, it'll +do that sometimes, get you down to basics." She stood, stretched, +shook herself. "You know, I figure the one Tessier-Ashpool +sent after that Jimmy, the boy who stole the head, he must be +pretty much the same as the one the Yak sent to kill Johnny." +She drew the fletcher from its holster and dialed the barrel to +full auto. +The ugliness of the door struck Case as she reached for it. +Not the door itself, which was beautiful, or had once been part +of some more beautiful whole, but the way it had been sawn +down to fit a particular entrance. Even the shape was wrong, +a rectangle amid smooth curves of polished concrete. They'd +imported these things, he thought, and then forced it all to fit. +But none of it fit. The door was like the awkward cabinets, +the huge crystal tree. Then he remembered 3Jane's essay, and +imagined that the fittings had been hauled up the well to flesh +out some master plan, a dream long lost in the compulsive +effort to fill space, to replicate some family image of self. He +remembered the shattered nest, the eyeless things writhing.... +Molly grasped one of the carved dragon's forelegs and the +door swung open easily. +The room behind was small, cramped, little more than a +closet. Gray steel tool cabinets were backed against a curving +wall. A light fixture had come on automatically. She closed +the door behind her and went to the ranged lockers. +THIRD LEFT, pulsed the optic chip, Wintermute overriding +her time display. FIVE DOWN. But she opened the top drawer +first. It was no more than a shallow tray. Empty. The second +was empty as well. The third, which was deeper, contained +dull beads of solder and a small brown thing that looked like +a human fingerbone. The fourth drawer held a damp-swollen +copy of an obsolete technical manual in French and Japanese. +In the fifth, behind the armored gauntlet of a heavy vacuum +suit, she found the key. It was like a dull brass coin with a +short hollow tube braised against one edge. She turned it slowly +in her hand and Case saw that the interior of the tube was lined +with studs and flanges. The letters CHUBB were molded across +one face of the coin. The other was blank. +"He told me," she whispered. "Wintermute. How he played +a waiting game for years. Didn't have any real power, then, +but he could use the Villa's security and custodial systems to +keep track of where everything was, how things moved, where +they went. He saw somebody lose this key twenty years ago, +and he managed to get somebody else to leave it here. Then +he killed him, the boy who'd brought it here. Kid was eight." +She closed her white fingers over the key. "So nobody would +find it." She took a length of black nylon cord from the suit's +kangaroo pocket and threaded it through the round hole above +CHUBB. Knotting it, she hung it around her neck. "They were +always fucking him over with how old-fashioned they were, +he said, all their nineteenth-century stuff. He looked just like +the Finn, on the screen in that meat puppet hole. Almost thought +he was the Finn, if I wasn't careful." Her readout flared the +time, alphanumerics superimposed over the gray steel chests. +"He said if they'd turned into what they'd wanted to, he +could've gotten out a long time ago. But they didn't. Screwed +up. Freaks like 3Jane. That's what he called her, but he talked +like he liked her." +She turned, opened the door, and stepped out, her hand +brushing the checkered grip of the holstered fletcher. +Case flipped. + +Kuang Grade Mark Eleven was growing. +"Dixie, you think this thing'll work?" +"Does a bear shit in the woods?" The Flatline punched them +up through shifting rainbow strata. +Something dark was forming at the core of the Chinese +program. The density of information overwhelmed the fabric +of the matrix, triggering hypnagogic images. Faint kaleidoscop- +ic angles centered in to a silver-black focal point. Case watched +childhood symbols of evil and bad luck tumble out along trans- +lucent planes: swastikas, skulls and crossbones dice flashing +snake eyes. If he looked directly at that null point, no outline +would form. It took a dozen quick, peripheral takes before he +had it, a shark thing, gleaming like obsidian, the black mirrors +of its flanks reflecting faint distant lights that bore no relation- +ship to the matrix around it. +"That's the sting," the construct said. "When Kuang's good +and bellytight with the Tessier-Ashpool core, we're ridin' that +through." +"You were right, Dix. There's some kind of manual override +on the hardwiring that keeps Wintermute under control. How- +ever much he is under control," he added. +"He," the construct said. "He. Watch that. It. I keep telling +you . " +"It's a code. A word, he said. Somebody has to speak it +into a fancy terminal in a certain room, while we take care of +whatever's waiting for us behind that ice." +"Well, you got time to kill, kid," the Flatline said. "Ol' +Kuang's slow but steady." +Case jacked out.. + +Into Maelcum's stare. +"You dead awhile there mon." +"It happens," he said. "i'm getting used to it." +"You dealin' wi' th' darkness, mon." +"Only game in town, it looks like." +"Jah love, Case," Maelcum said, and turned back to his +radio module. Case stared at the matted dreadlocks, the ropes +of muscle around the man's dark arms. +He jacked back in. +And flipped. + +Molly was trotting along a length of corridor that might +have been the one she'd traveled before. The glass-fronted cases +were gone now, and Case decided they were moving toward +the tip of the spindle; gravity was growing weaker. Soon she +was bounding smoothly over rolling hillocks of carpets. Faint +twinges in her leg.... +The corridor narrowed suddenly, curved, split. +She turned right and started up a freakishly steep flight of +stairs, her leg beginning to ache. Overhead, strapped and bun- +dled cables hugged the stairwell's ceiling like colorcoded gan- +glia. The walls were splotched with damp. +She arrived at a triangular landing and stood rubbing her +leg. More corridors, narrow, their walls hung with rugs. They +branched away in three directions. +LEFT. +She shrugged. "Lemme look around, okay?" +LEFT. +"Relax. There's time." She started down the corridor that +led off to her right. +STOP +GO BACK. +DANGER. +She hesitated. From the half-open oak door at the far end +of the passage came a voice, loud and slurred, like the voice +of a drunk. Case thought the language might be French, but it +was too indistinct. Molly took a step, another, her hand sliding +into the suit to touch the butt of her fletcher. When she stepped +into the neural disruptor's field, her ears rang, a tiny rising +tone that made Case think of the sound of her fletcher. She +pitched forward, her striated muscles slack, and struck the door +with her forehead. She twisted and lay on her back, her eyes +unfocused, breath gone. +"What's this," said the slurred voice, "fancy dress?" A trem- +bling hand entered the front of her suit and found the fletcher, +tugging it out. "Come visit, child. Now." +She got up slowly, her eyes fixed on the muzzle of a black +automatic pistol. The man's hand was steady enough, now; the +gun's barrel seemed to be attached to her throat with a taut, +invisible string. +He was old, very tall, and his features reminded Case of +the girl he had glimpsed in the Vingtieme Siecle. He wore a +heavy robe of maroon silk, quilted around the long cuffs and +shawl collar. One foot was bare, the other in a black velvet +slipper with an embroidered gold foxhead over the instep. He +motioned her into the room. "Slow, darling." The room was +very large, cluttered with an assortment of things that made no +sense to Case. He saw a gray steel rack of old-fashioned Sony +monitors, a wide brass bed heaped with sheepskins, with pil- +lows that seemed to have been made from the kind of rug used +to pave the corridors. Molly's eyes darted from a huge Tele- +funken entertainment console to shelves of antique disk re- +cordings, their crumbling spines cased in clear plastic, to a +wide worktable littered with slabs of silicon. Case registered +the cyberspace deck and the trodes, but her glance slid over it +without pausing. +"It would be customary," the old man said, "for me to kill +you now." Case felt her tense, ready for a move. "But tonight +I indulge myself. What is your name?" +"Molly." +"Molly. Mine is Ashpool." He sank back into the creased +softness of a huge leather armchair with square chrome legs, +but the gun never wavered. He put her fletcher on a brass table +beside the chair, knocking over a plastic vial of red pills. The +table was thick with vials, bottles of liquor, soft plastic en- +velopes spilling white powders. Case noticed an old-fashioned +glass hypodermic and a plain steel spoon. +"How do you cry, Molly? I see your eyes are walled away. +I'm curious." His eyes were red-rimmed, his forehead gleaming +with sweat. He was very pale. Sick, Case decided. Or drugs. +"I don't cry, much." +"But how would you cry, if someone made you cry?" +"I spit," she said. "The ducts are routed back into my mouth." +"Then you've already learned an important lesson, for one +so young." He rested the hand with the pistol on his knee and +took a bottle from the table beside him, without bothering to +choose from the half-dozen different liquors. He drank. Brandy. +A trickle of the stuff ran from the corner of his mouth. "That +is the way to handle tears." He drank again. "I'm busy tonight, +Molly. I built all this, and now I'm busy. Dying." +"I could go out the way I came," she said. +He laughed, a harsh high sound. "You intrude on my suicide +and then ask to simply walk out? Really, you amaze me. A +thief." +"It's my ass, boss, and it's all I got. I just wanna get it out +of here in one piece." +"You are a very rude girl. Suicides here are conducted with +a degree of decorum. That's what I'm doing, you understand. +But perhaps I'll take you with me tonight, down to hell.... It +would be very Egyptian of me." He drank again. "Come here +then." He held out the bottle, his hand shaking. "Drink." +She shook her head. +"It isn't poisoned," he said, but returned the brandy to the +table. "Sit. Sit on the floor. We'll talk." +"What about?" She sat. Case felt the blades move, very +slightly, beneath her nails. +"Whatever comes to mind. My mind. It's my party. The +cores woke me. Twenty hours ago. Something was afoot, they +said, and l was needed. Were you the something, Molly? Surely +they didn't need me to handle you, no. Something else . . . but +I'd been dreaming, you see. For thirty years. You weren't born, +when last I lay me down to sleep. They told us we wouldn't +dream, in that cold. They told us we'd never feel cold, either. +Madness, Molly. Lies. Of course I dreamed. The cold let the +outside in, that was it. The outside. All the night I built this +to hide us from. Just a drop, at first, one grain of night seeping +in, drawn by the cold . . . Others following it, filling my head +the way rain fills an empty pool. Calla lilies. I remember. The +pools were terracotta, nursemaids all of chrome, how the limbs +went winking through the gardens at sunset.... I'm old, Molly. +Over two hundred years, if you count the cold. The cold." The +barrel of the pistol snapped up suddenly, quivering. The ten- +dons in her thighs were drawn tight as wires now. +"You can get freezerburn," she said carefully. +"Nothing burns there," he said impatiently, lowering the +gun. His few movements were increasingly sclerotic. His head +nodded. It cost him an effort to stop it. "Nothing burns. I +remember now. The cores told me our intelligences are mad. +And all the billions we paid, so long ago. When artificial +intelligences were rather a racy concept. I told the cores I'd +deal with it. Bad timing, really, with 8Jean down in Melbourne +and only our sweet 3Jane minding the store. Or very good +timing, perhaps. Would you know, Molly?" The gun rose again. +"There are some odd things afoot now, in the Villa Straylight." +"Boss," she asked him, "you know Wintermute?" +"A name. Yes. To conjure with, perhaps. A lord of hell, +surely. In my time, dear Molly, I have known many lords. +And not a few ladies. Why, a queen of Spain, once, in that +very bed.... But I wander." He coughed wetly, the muzzle of +the pistol jerking as he convulsed. He spat on the carpet near +his one bare foot. "How I do wander. Through the cold. But +soon no more. I'd ordered a Jane thawed, when I woke. Strange, +to lie every few decades with what legally amounts to one's +own daughter." His gaze swept past her, to the rack of blank +monitors. He seemed to shiver. "Marie-France's eyes," he said, +faintly, and smiled. "We cause the brain to become allergic to +certain of its own neurotransmitters, resulting in a peculiarly +pliable imitation of autism." His head swayed sideways, re- +covered. "I understand that the effect is now more easily ob- +tained with an embedded microchip." +The pistol slid from his fingers, bounced on the carpet. +"The dreams grow like slow ice," he said. His face was +tinged with blue. His head sank back into the waiting leather +and he began to snore. +Up, she snatched the gun. She stalked the room, Ashpool's +automatic in her hand. +A vast quilt or comforter was heaped beside the bed, in a +broad puddle of congealed blood, thick and shiny on the pat- +terned rugs. Twitching a corner of the quilt back, she found +the body of a girl, white shoulder blades slick with blood. Her +throat had been slit. The triangular blade of some sort of scraper +glinted in the dark pool beside her. Molly knelt, careful to +avoid the blood, and turned the dead girl's face to the light. +The face Case had seen in the restaurant. +There was a click, deep at the very center of things, and +the world was frozen. Molly's simstim broadcast had become +a still frame, her fingers on the girl's cheek. The freeze held +for three seconds, and then the dead face was altered, became +the face of Linda Lee. +Another click, and the room blurred. Molly was standing, +looking down at a golden laser disk beside a small console on +the marble top of a bedside table. A length of fiberoptic ribbon +ran like a leash from the console to a socket at the base of the +slender neck. +"I got your number, fucker," Case said, feeling his own lips +moving, somewhere, far away. He knew that Wintermute had +altered the broadcast. Molly hadn't seen the dead girl's face +swirl like smoke, to take on the outline of Linda's deathmask. +Molly turned. She crossed the room to Ashpool's chair. The +man's breathing was slow and ragged. She peered at the litter +of drugs and alcohol. She put his pistol down, picked up her +fletcher, dialed the barrel over to single shot, and very carefully +put a toxin dart through the center of his closed left eyelid. He +jerked once, breath halting in mid-intake. His other eye, brown +and fathomless, opened slowly. +It was still open when she turned and left the room. +"Got your boss on hold," the Flatline said. "He's coming +through on the twin Hosaka in that boat upstairs, the one that's +riding us piggy-back. Called the Haniwa." +"I know," Case said, absently, "I saw it." +A lozenge of white light clicked into place in front of him, +hiding the Tessier-Ashpool ice; it showed him the calm, per- +fectly focused, utterly crazy face of Armitage, his eyes blank +as buttons. Armitage blinked. Stared. +"Guess Wintermute took care of your Turings too, huh? +Like he took care of mine," Case said. +Armitage stared. Case resisted the sudden urge to look away, +drop his gaze. "You okay, Armitage?" +"Case"--and for an instant something seemed to move, +behind the blue stare--"you've seen Wintermute, haven't you? +In the matrix." +Case nodded. A camera on the face of his Hosaka in Marcus +Garvey would relay the gesture to the Naniwa monitor. He +imagined Maelcum listening to his tranced half conversations, +unable to hear the voices of the construct or Armitage. +"Case"--and the eyes grew larger, Armitage leaning toward +his computer--"what is he, when you see him?" +"A high-rez simstim construct." +"But who?" +"Finn, last time.... Before that, this pimp I ..." +"Not General Girling?" +"General who?" +The lozenge went blank. +"Run that back and get the Hosaka to look it up," he told +the construct. +He flipped. + +The perspective startled him. Molly was crouching between +steel girders, twenty meters above a broad, stained floor of +polished concrete. The room was a hangar or service bay. He +could see three spacecraft, none larger than Garvey and all in +various stages of repair. Japanese voices. A figure in an orange +jumpsuit stepped from a gap in the hull of a bulbous construc- +tion vehicle and stood beside one of the thing's piston-driven, +weirdly anthropomorphic arms. The man punched something +into a portable console and scratched his ribs. A cartlike red +drone rolled into sight on gray balloon tires. +CASE, flashed her chip. +"Hey," she said. "Waiting for a guide." +She settled back on her haunches, the arms and knees of +her Modern suit the color of the blue-gray paint on the girders. +Her leg hurt, a sharp steady pain now. "I shoulda gone back +to Chin," she muttered. +Something came ticking quietly out of the shadows, on a +level with her left shouder. It paused, swayed its spherical body +from side to side on high-arched spider legs, fired a micro- +second burst of diffuse laserlight, and froze. It was a Braun +microdrone, and Case had once owned the same model, a +pointless accessory he'd obtained as part of a package deal with +a Cleveland hardware fence. It looked like a stylized matte +black daddy longlegs. A red LED began to pulse, at the sphere's +equator. Its body was no larger than a baseball. "Okay," she +said, "I hear you." She stood up, favoring her left leg, and +watched the little drone reverse. It picked its methodical way +back across its girder and into darkness. She turned and looked +back at the service area. The man in the orange jumpsuit was +sealing the front of a white vacuum rig. She watched him ring +and seal the helmet, pick up his console, and step back through +the gap in the construction boat's hull. There was a rising whine +of motors and the thing slid smoothly out of sight on a ten- +meter circle of flooring that sank away into a harsh glare of +arc lamps. The red drone waited patiently at the edge of the +hole left by the elevator panel. +Then she was off after the Braun, threading her way between +a forest of welded steel struts. The Braun winked its LED +steadily, beckoning her on. +"How you doin', Case? You back in Garvey with Maelcum? +Sure. And jacked into this. I like it, you know? Like I've always +talked to myself, in my head, when I've been in tight spots. +Pretend I got some friend, somebody I can trust, and I'll tell +'em what I really think, what I feel like, and then I'll pretend +they're telling me what they think about that, and I'll just go +along that way. Having you in is kinda like that. That scene +with Ashpool . . ." She gnawed at her lower lip, swinging around +a strut, keeping the drone in sight. "I was expecting something +maybe a little less gone, you know? I mean, these guys are all +batshit in here, like they got luminous messages scrawled across +the inside of their foreheads or something. I don't like the way +it looks, I don't like the way it smells...." +The drone was hoisting itself up a nearly invisible ladder +of U-shaped steel rungs, toward a narrow dark opening. "And +while I'm feeling confessional, baby, I gotta admit maybe I +never much expected to make it out of this one anyway. Been +on this bad roll for a while, and you're the only good change +come down since I signed on with Armitage." She looked up +at the black circle. The drone's LED winked, climbing. "Not +that you're all that shit hot." She smiled, but it was gone too +quickly, and she gritted her teeth at the stabbing pain in her +leg as she began to climb. The ladder continued up through a +metal tube, barely wide enough for her shoulders. +She was climbing up out of gravity, toward the weightless +axis. +Her chip pulsed the time. +04:23:04 . +It had been a long day. The clarity of her sensorium cut the +bite of the betaphenethylamine, but Case could still feel it. He +preferred the pain in her leg. + +CASE: O O O O +O O O O O O O O O +O O O O O O O O . + +"Guess it's for you," she said, climbing mechanically. The +zeros strobed again and a message stuttered there, in the corner +of her vision, chopped up by the display circuit. + +GENERAL G +IRLING ::: +TRAINED +CORTO F O R +SCREAMING +FIST A N D +SOLD H I S +ASS TO +THE PENT +AGON:::: +W/MUTE'S +PRIMARY +GRIP ON +ARMITAG +E IS A +CONSTRU +CT OF G +IRLING: +W/MUTE +SEZ A'S +MENTION +OF G +MEANS +HE'S +CRACK +ING:::: +WATCH +YOUR +ASS:::: +::DIXIE + +"Well," she said, pausing, taking all of her weight on her +right leg, "guess you got problems too." She looked down. +There was a faint circle of light, no larger than the brass round +of the Chubb key that dangled between her breasts. She looked +up. Nothing at all. She tongued her amps and the tube rose +into vanishing perspective, the Braun picking its way up the +rungs. "Nobody told me about this part," she said. +Case jacked out. + +"Maelcum . . ." +"Mon, you bossman gone ver' strange." The Zionite was +wearing a blue Sanyo vacuum suit twenty years older than the +one Case had rented in Freeside, its helmet under his arm and +his dreadlocks bagged in a net cap crocheted from purple +cotton yarn. His eyes were slitted with ganja and tension. "Keep +callin' down here wi' orders, mon, but be some Babylon war...." +Maelcum shook his head. "Aerol an' I talkin', an' Aerol talkin' +wi' Zion, Founders seh cut an' run." He ran the back of a large +brown hand across his mouth. +"Armitage?" Case winced as the betaphenethylamine hang- +over hit him with its full intensity, unscreened by the matrix +or simstim. Brain's got no nerves in it, he told himself, it can't +really feel this bad. "What do you mean, man? He's giving +you orders? What?" +"Mon, Armitage, he tellin' me set course for Finland, ya +know? He tellin' me there be hope, ya know? Come on my +screen wi' his shirt all blood, mon, an' be crazy as some dog, +talkin' screamin' fists an' Russian an' th' blood of th' betrayers +shall be on our hands." He shook his head again, the dreadcap +swaying and bobbing in zero-g, his lips narrowed. "Founders +seh the Mute voice be false prophet surely, an' Aerol an' I +mus' 'bandon Marcus Garvey and return." +"Armitage, he was wounded? Blood?" +"Can't seh, ya know? But blood, an' stone crazy, Case." +"Okay," Case said, "So what about me? You're going home. +What about me, Maelcum?" +"Mon," Maelcum said, "you comin' wi' me. I an' I come +Zion wi' Aerol, Babylon Rocker. Leave Mr. Armitage t' talk +wi' ghost cassette, one ghost t' 'nother...." +Case glanced over his shoulder: his rented suit swung against +the hammock where he'd snapped it, swaying in the air current +from the old Russian scrubber. He closed his eyes. He saw the +sacs of toxin dissolving in his arteries. He saw Molly hauling +herself up the endless steel rungs. He opened his eyes. +"I dunno, man," he said, a strange taste in his mouth. He +looked down at his desk, at his hands. "I don't know." He +looked back up. The brown face was calm now, intent. Mael- +cum's chin was hidden by the high helmet ring of his old blue +suit. "She's inside," he said. "Molly's inside. In Straylight, +it's called. If there's any Babylon, man, that's it. We leave on +her, she ain't comin' out, Steppin' Razor or not." +Maelcum nodded, the dreadbag bobbing behind him like a +captive balloon of crocheted cotton. "She you woman, Case?" +"I dunno. Nobody's woman, maybe." He shrugged. And +found his anger again, real as a shard of hot rock beneath his +ribs. "Fuck this," he said. "Fuck Armitage, fuck Wintermute, +and fuck you. I'm stayin' right here." +Maelcum's smile spread across his face like light breaking. +"Maelcum a rude boy, Case. Garvey Maelcum boat." His gloved +hand slapped a panel and the bass-heavy rocksteady of Zion +dub came pulsing from the tug's speakers. "Maelcum not run- +nin', no. I talk wi' Aerol, he certain t' see it in similar light." +Case stared. "I don't understand you guys at all," he said. +"Don' 'stan' you, mon," the Zionite said, nodding to the +beat, "but we mus' move by Jah love, each one." +Case jacked in and flipped for the matrix. + +"Get my wire?" +"Yeah." He saw that the Chinese program had grown; del- +icate arches of shifting polychrome were nearing the T-A ice. +"Well, it's gettin' stickier," the Flatline said. "Your boss +wiped the bank on that other Hosaka, and damn near took ours +with it. But your pal Wintermute put me on to somethin' there +before it went black. The reason Straylight's not exactly hop- +pin' with Tessier-Ashpools is that they're mostly in cold sleep. +There's a law firm in London keeps track of their powers of +attorney. Has to know who's awake and exactly when. Ar- +mitage was routing the transmissions from London to Straylight +through the Hosaka on the yacht. Incidently, they know the +old man's dead." +"Who knows?" +"The law firm and T-A. He had a medical remote planted +in his sternum. Not that your girl's dart would've left a res- +urrection crew with much to work with. Shellfish toxin. But +the only T-A awake in Straylight right now is Lady 3Jane +Marie-France. There's a male, couple years older, in Australia +on business. You ask me, I bet Wintermute found a way to +cause that business to need this 8Jean's personal attention. But +he's on his way home, or near as matters. The London lawyers +give his Straylight ETA as 09:00:00, tonight. We slotted Kuang +virus at 02:32:03. It's 04:45:20. Best estimate for Kuang pen- +etration of the T-A core is 08:30:00. Or a hair on either side. +I figure Wintermute's got somethin' goin' with this 3Jane, or +else she's just as crazy as her old man was. But the boy up +from Melbourne'll know the score. The Straylight security sys- +tems keep trying to go full alert, but Wintermute blocks 'em, +don't ask me how. Couldn't override the basic gate program +to get Molly in, though. Armitage had a record of all that on +his Hosaka; Riviera must've talked 3Jane into doing it. She's +been able to fiddle entrances and exits for years. Looks to me +like one of T-A's main problems is that every family bigwig +has riddled the banks with all kinds of private scams and ex- +ceptions. Kinda like your immune system falling apart on you. +Ripe for virus. Looks good for us, once we're past that ice." +"Okay. But Wintermute said that Arm--" +A white lozenge snapped into position, filled with a close- +up of mad blue eyes. Case could only stare. Colonel Willie +Corto, Special Forces, Strikeforce Screaming Fist, had found +his way back. The image was dim, jerky, badly focused. Corto +was using the Haniwa's navigation deck to link with the Hosaka +in Marcus Garvey. +"Case, I need the damage reports on Omaha Thunder." +"Say, I...Colonel?" +"Hang in there, boy. Remember your training." +But where have you been, man? he silently asked the an- +guished eyes. Wintermute had built something called Armitage +into a catatonic fortress named Corto. Had convinced Corto +that Armitage was the real thing, and Armitage had walked, +talked, schemed, bartered data for capital, fronted for Win- +termute in that room in the Chiba Hilton.... And now Arm- +itage was gone, blown away by the winds of Corto's madness. +But where had Corto been, those years? +Falling, burned and blinded, out of a Siberian sky. +"Case, this will be difficult for you to accept, I know that. +You're an officer. The training. I understand. But, Case, as +God is my witness, we have been betrayed." +Tears started from the blue eyes. +"Colonel, ah, who? Who's betrayed us?" +"General Girling, Case. You may know him by a code name. +You do know the man of whom I speak." +"Yeah," Case said, as the tears continued to flow, "I guess +I do. Sir," he added, on impulse. "But, sir, Colonel, what +exactly should we do? Now, I mean." +"Our duty at this point, Case, lies in flight. Escape. Evasion. +We can make the Finnish border, nightfall tomorrow. Treetop +flying on manual. Seat of the pants, boy. But that will only +be the beginning." The blue eyes slitted above tanned cheek- +bones slick with tears. "Only the beginning. Betrayal from +above. From above..." He stepped back from the camera, +dark stains on his torn twill shirt. Armitage's face had been +masklike, impassive, but Corto's was the true schizoid mask, +illness etched deep in involuntary muscle, distorting the ex- +pensive surgery. +"Colonel, I hear you, man. Listen, Colonel, okay? I want +you to open the, ah . . . shit, what's it called, Dix?" +"The midbay lock," the Flatline said. +"Open the midbay lock. Just tell your central console there +to open it, right? We'll be up there with you fast, Colonel. +Then we can talk about getting out of here." +The lozenge vanished. +"Boy, I think you just lost me, there," the Flatline said. +"The toxins," Case said, "the fucking toxins," and jacked +out. + +"Poison?" Maelcum watched over the scratched blue shoul- +der of his old Sanyo as Case struggled out of the g-web. +"And get this goddam thing off me...." Tugging at the +Texas catheter. "Like a slow poison, and that asshole upstairs +knows how to counter it, and now he's crazier than a shithouse +rat." He fumbled with the front of the red Sanyo, forgetting +how to work the seals. +"Bossman, he poison you?" Maelcum scratched his cheek. +"Got a medical kit, ya know." +"Maelcum, Christ, help me with this goddam suit." +The Zionite kicked off from the pink pilot module. "Easy, +mon. Measure twice, cut once, wise man put it. We get up +there...." + +There was air in the corrugated gangway that led from Mar- +cus Garvey's aft lock to the midbay lock of the yacht called +Haniwa, but they kept their suits sealed. Maelcum executed +the passage with balletic grace, only pausing to help Case, +who'd gone into an awkward tumble as he'd stepped out of +Garvey. The white plastic sides of the tube filtered the raw +sunlight; there were no shadows. +Garvey's airlock hatch was patched and pitted, decorated +with a laser-carved Lion of Zion. Haniwa's midbay hatch was +creamy gray, blank and pristine. Maelcum inserted his gloved +hand in a narrow recess. Case saw his fingers move. Red LEDs +came to life in the recess, counting down from fifty. Maelcum +withdrew his hand. Case, with one glove braced against the +hatch, felt the vibration of the lock mechanism through his suit +and bones. The round segment of gray hull began to withdraw +into the side of Haniwa. Maelcum grabbed the recess with one +hand and Case with the other. The lock took them with it. + +Haniwa was a product of the Dornier-Fujitsu yards, her +interior informed by a design philosophy similar to the one that +had produced the Mercedes that had chauffeured them through +Istanbul. The narrow midbay was walled in imitation ebony +veneer and floored with gray Italian tiles. Case felt as though +he were invading some rich man's private spa by way of the +shower. The yacht, which had been assembled in orbit, had +never been intended for re-entry. Her smooth, wasplike line +was simply styling, and everything about her interior was cal- +culated to add to the overall impression of speed. +When Maelcum removed his battered helmet, Case followed +his lead. They hung there in the lock, breathing air that smelled +faintly of pine. Under it, a disturbing edge of burning insula- +tion. +Maelcum sniffed. "Trouble here, mon. Any boat, you smell +that...." +A door, padded with dark gray ultrasuede, slid smoothly +back into its housing. Maelcum kicked off the ebony wall and +sailed neatly through the narrow opening, twisting his broad +shoulders, at the last possible instant, for clearance. Case fol- +lowed him clumsily, hand over hand, along a waist-high padded +rail. "Bridge," Maelcum said, pointing down a seamless, cream- +walled corridor, "be there." He launched himself with another +effortless kick. From somewhere ahead, Case made out the +familiar chatter of a printer turning out hard copy. It grew +louder as he followed Maelcum through another doorway, into +a swirling mass of tangled printout. Case snatched a length of +twisted paper and glanced at it. + +O O O O O O O O O +O O O O O O O O O +O O O O O O O O O + +"Systems crash?" The Zionite flicked a gloved finger at the +column of zeros. +"No," Case said, grabbing for his drifting helmet, "the Flat- +line said Armitage wiped the Hosaka he had in there." +"Smell like he wipe 'em wi' laser, ya know?" The Zionite +braced his foot against the white cage of a Swiss exercise +machine and shot through the floating maze of paper, batting +it away from his face. +"Case, mon..." +The man was small, Japanese, his throat bound to the back +of the narrow articulated chair with a length of some sort of +fine steel wire. The wire was invisible, where it crossed the +black temperfoam of the headrest, and it had cut as deeply into +his larynx. A single sphere of dark blood had congealed there +like some strange precious stone, a red-black pearl. Case saw +the crude wooden handles that drifted at either end of the +garrotte, like worn sections of broom handle. +"Wonder how long he had that on him?" Case said, re- +membering Corto's postwar pilgrimage. +"He know how pilot boat, Case, bossman?" +"Maybe. He was Special Forces." +"Well, this Japan-boy, he not be pilotin'. Doubt I pilot her +easy myself. Ver' new boat. . ." +"So find us the bridge." +Maelcum frowned, rolled backward, and kicked. +Case followed him into a larger space, a kind of lounge, +shredding and crumpling the lengths of printout that snared him +in his passage. There were more of the articulated chairs, here, +something that resembled a bar, and the Hosaka. The printer, +still spewing its flimsy tongue of paper, was an in-built bulk- +head unit, a neat slot in a panel of handrubbed veneer. He +pulled himself over the circle of chairs and reached it, punching +a white stud to the left of the slot. The chattering stopped. He +turned and stared at the Hosaka. Its face had been drilled through, +at least a dozen times. The holes were small, circular, edges +blackened. Tiny spheres of bright alloy were orbiting the dead +computer. "Good guess," he said to Maelcum. +"Bridge locked, mon," Maelcum said, from the opposite +side of the lounge. +The lights dimmed, surged, dimmed again. +Case ripped the printout from its slot. More zeros. "Win- +termute?" He looked around the beige and brown lounge, the +space scrawled with drifting curves of paper. "That you on the +lights, Wintermute?" +A panel beside Maelcum's head slid up, revealing a small +monitor. Maelcum jerked apprehensively, wiped sweat from +his forehead with a foam patch on the back of a gloved hand, +and swung to study the display. "You read Japanese, mon?" +Case could see figures blinking past on the screen. +"No," Case said. +"Bridge is escape pod, lifeboat. Countin' down, looks like +it. Suit up now." He ringed his helmet and slapped at the seals. +"What? He's takin' off? Shit!" He kicked off from the +bulkhead and shot through the tangle of printout. "We gotta +open this door, man!" But Maelcum could only tap the side of +his helmet. Case could see his lips moving, through the Lexan. +He saw a bead of sweat arc out from the rainbow braided band +of the purple cotton net the Zionite wore over his locks. Mael- +cum snatched the helmet from Case and ringed it for him +smoothly, the palms of his gloves smacking the seals. Micro- +LED monitors to the left of the faceplate lit as the neck ring +connections closed. "No seh Japanese," Maelcum said, over +his suit's transceiver, "but countdown's wrong." He tapped a +particular line on the screen. "Seals not intact, bridge module. +Launchin' wi' lock open." +"Armitage!" Case tried to pound on the door. The physics +of zero-g sent him tumbling back through the printout. "Corto! +Don't do it! We gotta talk! We gotta--" +"Case? Read you, Case..." The voice barely resembled +Armitage's now. It held a weird calm. Case stopped kicking. +His helmet struck the far wall. "I'm sorry, Case, but it has to +be this way. One of us has to get out. One of us has to testify. +If we all go down here, it ends here. I'll tell them, Case, I'll +tell them all of it. About Girling and the others. And I'll make +it, Case. I know I'll make it. To Helsinki." There was a sudden +silence; Case felt it fill his helmet like some rare gas. "But it's +so hard, Case, so goddam hard. I'm blind." +"Corto, stop. Wait. You're blind, man. You can't fly! You'll +hit the fucking trees. And they're trying to get you, Corto, I +swear to God, they've left your hatch open. You'll die, and +you'll never get to tell 'em, and I gotta get the enzyme, name +of the enzyme, the enzyme, man...." He was shouting, voice +high with hysteria. Feedback shrilled out of the helmet's phone +pads. +"Remember the training, Case. That's all we can do." +And then the helmet filled with a confused babble, roaring +static, harmonics howling down the years from Screaming Fist. +Fragments of Russian, and then a stranger's voice, Midwestern, +very young. "We are down, repeat, Omaha Thunder is down, +we . . ." +"Wintermute," Case screamed, "don't do this to me!" Tears +broke from his lashes, rebounding off the faceplate in wobbling +crystal droplets. Then Haniwa thudded, once, shivered as if +some huge soft thing had struck her hull. Case imagined the +lifeboat jolting free,, blown clear by explosive bolts, a second's +clawing hurricane of escaping air tearing mad Colonel Corto +from his couch, from Wintermute's rendition of the final minute +of Screaming Fist. +"'Im gone, mon." Maelcum looked at the monitor. "Hatch +open. Mute mus' override ejection failsafe." +Case tried to wipe the tears of rage from his eyes. His fingers +clacked against Lexan. +"Yacht, she tight for air, but bossman takin' grapple control +wi' bridge. Marcus Garvey still stuck." +But Case was seeing Armitage's endless fall around Free- +side, through vacuum colder than the steppes. For some reason, +he imagined him in his dark Burberry, the trenchcoat's rich +folds spread out around him like the wings of some huge bat. +"Get what you went for?" the construct asked. +Kuang Grade Mark Eleven was filling the grid between itself +and the T-A ice with hypnotically intricate traceries of rainbow, +lattices fine as snow crystal on a winter window. +"Wintermute killed Armitage. Blew him out in a lifeboat +with a hatch open." +"Tough shit," the Flatline said. "Weren't exactly asshole +buddies, were you?" +"He knew how to unbond the toxin sacs." +"So Wintermute knows too. Count on it." +"I don't exactly trust Wintermute to give it to me." +The construct's hideous approximation of laughter scraped +Case's nerves like a dull blade. "Maybe that means you're +gettin' smart." +He hit the simstim switch. + +06:27:52 by the chip in her optic nerve; Case had been +following her progress through Villa Straylight for over an +hour, letting the endorphin analog she'd taken blot out his +hangover. The pain in her leg was gone; she seemed to move +through a warm bath. The Braun drone was perched on her +shoulder, its tiny manipulators, like padded surgical clips, se- +cure in the polycarbon of the Modern suit. +The walls here were raw steel, striped with rough brown +ribbons of epoxy where some kind of covering had been ripped +away. She'd hidden from a work crew, crouching, the fletcher +cradled in her hands, her suit steel-gray, while the two slender +Africans and their balloon-tired workcart passed. The men had +shaven heads and wore orange coveralls. One was singing softly +to himself in a language Case had never heard, the tones and +melody alien and haunting. +The head's speech, 3Jane's essay on Straylight, came back +to him as she worked her way deeper into the maze of the +place. Straylight was crazy, was craziness grown in the resin +concrete they'd mixed from pulverized lunar stone, grown in +welded steel and tons of knick-knacks, all the bizarre impe- +dimentia they'd shipped up the well to line their winding nest. +But it wasn't a craziness he understood. Not like Armitage's +madness, which he now imagined he could understand; twist +a man far enough, then twist him as far back, in the opposite +direction, reverse and twist again. The man broke. Like break- +ing a length of wire. And history had done that for Colonel +Corto. History had already done the really messy work, when +Wintermute found him, sifting him out of all of the war's ripe +detritus, gliding into the man's flat gray field of consciousness +like a water spider crossing the face of some stagnant pool, +the first messages blinking across the face of a child's micro +in a darkened room in a French asylum. Wintermute had built +Armitage up from scratch, with Corto's memories of Screaming +Fist as the foundation. But Armitage's "memories" wouldn't +have been Corto's after a certain point. Case doubted if Ar- +mitage had recalled the betrayal, the Nightwings whirling down +in flame.... Armitage had been a sort of edited version of +Corto, and when the stress of the run had reached a certain +point, the Armitage mechanism had crumbled; Corto had sur- +faced, with his guilt and his sick fury. And now Corto-Armitage +was dead, a small frozen moon for Freeside. +He thought of the toxin sacs. Old Ashpool was dead too, +drilled through the eye with Molly's microscopic dart, deprived +of whatever expert overdose he'd mixed for himself. That was +a more puzzling death, Ashpool's, the death of a mad king. +And he'd killed the puppet he'd called his daughter, the one +with 3Jane's face. It seemed to Case, as he rode Molly's broad- +cast sensory input through the corridors of Straylight, that he'd +never really thought of anyone like Ashpool, anyone as pow- +erful as he imagined Ashpool had been, as human. +Power, in Case's world, meant corporate power. The zai- +batsus, the multinationals that shaped the course of human +history, had transcended old barriers. Viewed as organisms, +they had attained a kind of immortality. You couldn't kill a +zaibatsu by assassinating a dozen key executives; there were +others waiting to step up the ladder, assume the vacated po- +sition, access the vast banks of corporate memory. But Tessier- +Ashpool wasn't like that, and he sensed the difference in the +death of its founder. T-A was an atavism, a clan. He remem- +bered the litter of the old man's chamber, the soiled humanity +of it, the ragged spines of the old audio disks in their paper +sleeves. One foot bare, the other in a velvet slipper. +The Braun plucked at the hood of the Modern suit and Molly +turned left, through another archway. +Wintermute and the nest. Phobic vision of the hatching +wasps, time-lapse machine gun of biology. But weren't the +zaibatsus more like that, or the Yakuza, hives with cybernetic +memories, vast single organisms, their DNA coded in silicon? +If Straylight was an expression of the corporate identity of +Tessier-Ashpool, then T-A was crazy as the old man had been. +The same ragged tangle of fears, the same strange sense of +aimlessness. "If they'd turned into what they wanted to...." +he remembered Molly saying. But Wintermute had told her +they hadn't. +Case had always taken it for granted that the real bosses, +the kingpins in a given industry, would be both more and less +than people. He'd seen it in the men who'd crippled him in +Memphis, he'd seen Wage affect the semblance of it in Night +City, and it had allowed him to accept Armitage's flatness and +lack of feeling. He'd always imagined it as a gradual and willing +accommodation of the machine, the system, the parent or- +ganism. It was the root of street cool, too, the knowing posture +that implied connection, invisible lines up to hidden levels of +influence. +But what was happening now, in the corridors of Villa +Straylight? +Whole stretches were being stripped back to steel and con- +crete. +"Wonder where our Peter is now, huh? Maybe see that boy +soon," she muttered. "And Armitage. Where's he, Case?" +"Dead," he said, knowing she couldn't hear him, "he's +dead." +He flipped. + +The Chinese program was face to face with the target ice, +rainbow tints gradually dominated by the green of the rectangle +representing the T-A cores. Arches of emerald across the col- +orless void. +"How's it go, Dixie?" +"Fine. Too slick. Thing's amazing.... Shoulda had one that +time in Singapore. Did the old New Bank of Asia for a good +fiftieth of what they were worth. But that's ancient history. +This baby takes all the drudgery out of it. Makes you wonder +what a real war would be like, now...." +"If this kinda shit was on the street, we'd be out a job," +Case said. +"You wish. Wait'll you're steering that thing upstairs through +black ice." +"Sure." +Something small and decidedly nongeometric had just ap- +peared on the far end of one of the emerald arches. +"Dixie . . ." +"Yeah. I see it. Don't know if I believe it." +A brownish dot, a dull gnat against the green wall of the +T-A cores. It began to advance, across the bridge built by +Kuang Grade Mark Eleven, and Case saw that it was walking. +As it came, the green section of the arch extended, the poly- +chrome of the virus program rolling back, a few steps ahead +of the cracked black shoes. +"Gotta hand it to you, boss," the Flatline said, when the +short, rumpled figure of the Finn seemed to stand a few meters +away. "I never seen anything this funny when I was alive." +But the eerie nonlaugh didn't come. +"I never tried it before," the Finn said, showing his teeth, +his hands bunched in the pockets of his frayed jacket. +"You killed Armitage," Case said. +"Corto. Yeah. Armitage was already gone. Hadda do it. I +know, I know, you wanna get the enzyme. Okay. No sweat. +I was the one gave it to Armitage in the first place. I mean I +told him what to use. But I think maybe it's better to let the +deal stand. You got enough time. I'll give it to you. Only a +coupla hours now, right?" +Case watched blue smoke billow in cyberspace as the Finn +lit up one of his Partagas. +"You guys," the Finn said, "you're a pain. The Flatline +here, if you were all like him, it would be real simple. He's a +construct, just a buncha ROM, so he always does what I expect +him to. My projections said there wasn't much chance of Molly +wandering in on Ashpool's big exit scene, give you one ex- +ample." He sighed. +"Why'd he kill himself?" Case asked. +"Why's anybody kill himself?" The figure shrugged. "I guess +I know, if anybody does, but it would take me twelve hours +to explain the various factors in his history and how they in- +terrelate. He was ready to do it for a long time, but he kept +going back into the freezer. Christ, he was a tedious old fuck." +The Finn's face wrinkled with disgust. "It's all tied in with +why he killed his wife, mainly, you want the short reason. But +what sent him over the edge for good and all, little 3Jane figured +a way to fiddle the program that controlled his cryogenic sys- +tem. Subtle, too. So basically, she killed him. Except he figured +he'd killed himself, and your friend the avenging angel figures +she got him with an eyeball full of shellfish juice." The Finn +flicked his butt away into the matrix below. "Well, actually, +I guess I did give 3Jane the odd hint, a little of the old how- +to, you know?" +"Wintermute," Case said, choosing the words carefully, +"you told me you were just a part of something else. Later on +you said you wouldn't exist, if the run goes off and Molly gets +the word into the right slot." +The Finn's streamlined skull nodded. +"Okay, then who we gonna be dealing with then? If Ar- +mitage is dead, and you're gonna be gone, just who exactly is +going to tell me how to get these fucking toxin sacs out of my +system? Who's going to get Molly back out of there? I mean +where, where exactly, are all our asses gonna be, we cut you +loose from the hardwiring?" +The Finn took a wooden toothpick from his pocket and +regarded it critically, like a surgeon examining a scalpel. "Good +question," he said, finally. "You know salmon? Kinda fish? +These fish, see, they're compelled to swim upstream. Got it?" +"No," Case said. +"Well, I'm under compulsion myself. And I don't know +why. If I were gonna subject you to my very own thoughts, +let's call 'em speculations, on the topic, it would take a couple +of your lifetimes. Because I've given it a lot of thought. And +I just don't know. But when this is over, we do it right, I'm +gonna be part of something bigger. Much bigger," The Finn +glanced up and around the matrix. "But the parts of me that +are me now, that'll still be here. And you'll get your +payoff." +Case fought back an insane urge to punch himself forward +and get his fingers around the figure's throat, just above the +ragged knot in the rusty scarf. His thumbs deep in the Finn's +larynx. +"Well, good luck," the Finn said. He turned, hands in pock- +ets and began trudging back up the green arch. +"Hey, asshole," the Flatline said, when the Finn had gone +a dozen paces. The figure paused, half turned. "What about +me? What about my payoff?" +"You'll get yours," it said. +"What's that mean?" Case asked, as he watched the narrow +tweed back recede. +"I wanna be erased," the construct said. "I told you that, +remember?" + +Straylight reminded Case of deserted early morning shop- +ping centers he'd known as a teenager, low-density places +where the small hours brought a fitful stillness, a kind of numb +expectancy, a tension that left you watching insects swarm +around caged bulbs above the entrance of darkened shops. +Fringe places, just past the borders of the Sprawl, too far from +the all-night click and shudder of the hot core. There was that +same sense of being surrounded by the sleeping inhabitants of +a waking world he had no interest in visiting or knowing, of +dull business temporarily suspended, of futility and repetition +soon to wake again. +Molly had slowed now, either knowing that she was nearing +her goal or out of concern for her leg. The pain was starting +to work its jagged way back through the endorphins, and he +wasn't sure what that meant. She didn't speak, kept her teeth +clenched, and carefully regulated her breathing. She'd passed +many things that Case hadn't understood, but his curiosity was +gone. There had been a room filled with shelves of books, a +million flat leaves of yellowing paper pressed between bindings +of cloth or leather, the shelves marked at intervals by labels +that followed a code of letters and numbers; a crowded gallery +where Case had stared, through Molly's incurious eyes, at a +shattered, dust-stenciled sheet of glass, a thing labeled--her +gaze had tracked the brass plaque automatically--"La mariee +mise a nu par ses celibataires, meme." She'd reached out and +touched this, her artificial nails clicking against the Lexan sand- +wich protecting the broken glass. There had been what was +obviously the entrance to Tessier-Ashpool's cryogenic com- +pound, circular doors of black glass trimmed with chrome. +She'd seen no one since the two Africans and their cart, +and for Case they'd taken on a sort of imaginary life; he pictured +them gliding gently through the halls of Straylight, their smooth +dark skulls gleaming, nodding, while the one still sang his tired +little song. And none of this was anything like the Villa Stray- +light he would have expected, some cross between Cath's fairy +tale castle and a half-remembered childhood fantasy of the +Yakuza's inner sanctum. +07:02: 1 8 . +One and a half hours. +"Case," she said, "I wanna favor." Stiffly, she lowered +herself to sit on a stack of polished steel plates, the finish of +each plate protected by an uneven coating of clear plastic. She +picked at a rip in the plastic on the topmost plate, blades sliding +from beneath thumb and forefinger. "Leg's not good, you know? +Didn't figure any climb like that, and the endorphin won't cut +it, much longer. So maybe--just maybe, right?--I got a prob- +lem here. What it is, if I buy it here, before Riviera does"-- +and she stretched her leg, kneaded the flesh of her thigh through +Modern polycarbon and Paris leather--"I want you to tell him. +Tell him it was me. Got it? Just say it was Molly. He'll know. +Okay?" She glanced around the empty hallway, the bare walls. +The floor here was raw lunar concrete and the air smelled of +resins. "Shit, man, I don't even know if you're listening." +CASE. +She winced, got to her feet, nodded. "What's he told you, +man, Wintermute? He tell you about Marie-France? She was +the Tessier half, 3Jane's genetic mother. And of that dead +puppet of Ashpool's, I guess. Can't figure why he'd tell me, +down in that cubicle ... lotta stuff.... Why he has to come on +like the Finn or somebody, he told me that. It's not just a mask, +it's like he uses real profiles as valves, gears himself down to +communicate with us. Called it a template. Model of per- +sonality." She drew her fletcher and limped away down the +corridor. +The bare steel and scabrous epoxy ended abruptly, replaced +by what Case at first took to be a rough tunnel blasted from +solid rock. Molly examined its edge and he saw that in fact +the steel was sheathed with panels of something that looked +and felt like cold stone. She knelt and touched the dark sand +spread across the floor of the imitation tunnel. It felt like sand, +cool and dry, but when she drew her finger through it, it closed +like a fluid, leaving the surface undisturbed. A dozen meters +ahead, the tunnel curved. Harsh yellow light threw hard shad- +ows on the seamed pseudo-rock of the walls. With a start, Case +realized that the gravity here was near earth normal, which +meant that she'd had to descend again, after the climb. He was +thoroughly lost now; spatial disorientation held a peculiar hor- +ror for cowboys. +But she wasn't lost, he told himself. +Something scurried between her legs and went ticking across +the un-sand of the floor. A red LED blinked. The Braun. +The first of the holos waited just beyond the curve, a sort +of triptych. She lowered the fletcher before Case had had time +to realize that the thing was a recording. The figures were +caricatures in light, lifesize cartoons: Molly, Armitage, and +Case . Molly' s breasts were too large, visible through tight black +mesh beneath a heavy leather jacket. Her waist was impossibly +narrow. Silvered lenses covered half her face. She held an +absurdly elaborate weapon of some kind, a pistol shape nearly +lost beneath a flanged overlay of scope sights, silencers, flash +hiders. Her legs were spread, pelvis canted forward, her mouth +fixed in a leer of idiotic cruelty. Beside her, Armitage stood +rigidly at attention in a threadbare khaki uniform. His eyes, +Case saw, as Molly stepped carefully forward, were tiny mon- +itor screens, each one displaying the blue-gray image of a +howling waste of snow, the stripped black trunks of evergreens +bending in silent winds. +She passed the tips of her fingers through Armitage's tele- +vision eyes, then turned to the figure of Case. Here, it was as +if Riviera--and Case had known instantly that Riviera was +responsible--had been unable to find anything worthy of par- +ody. The figure that slouched there was a fair approximation +of the one he glimpsed daily in mirrors. Thin, high-shouldered, +a forgettable face beneath short dark hair. He needed a shave, +but then he usually did. +Molly stepped back. She looked from one figure to another. +rt was a static display, the only movement the silent gusting +of the black trees in Armitage's frozen Siberian eyes. +"Tryin' to tell us something, Peter?" she asked softly. Then +she stepped forward and kicked at something between the feet +of the holo-Molly. Metal clinked against the wall and the figures +were gone. She bent and picked up a small display unit. "Guess +he can Jack into these and program them direct," she said, +tossing it away. +She passed the source of yellow light, an archaic incandes- +cent globe set into the wall, protected by a rusty curve of +expansion grating. The style of the improvised fixture sug- +gested childhood, somehow. He remembered fortresses he'd +built with other children on rooftops and in flooded sub-base- +ments. A rich kid's hideout, he thought. This kind of roughness +was expensive. What they called atmosphere. +She passed a dozen more holograms before she reached the +entrance to 3Jane's apartments. One depicted the eyeless thing +in the alley behind the Spice Bazaar, as it tore itself free of +Riviera's shattered body. Several others were scenes of torture, +the inquisitors always military officers and the victims invari- +ably young women. These had the awful intensity of Riviera's +show at the Vingtieme Siecle, as though they had been frozen +in the blue flash of orgasm. Molly looked away as she passed +them. +The last was small and dim, as if it were an image Riviera +had had to drag across some private distance of memory and +time. She had to kneel to examine it; it had been projected +from the vantage point of a small child. None of the others +had had backgrounds; the figures, uniforms, instruments of +torture, all had been freestanding displays. But this was a view. +A dark wave of rubble rose against a colorless sky, beyond +its crest the bleached, half-melted skeletons of city towers. The +rubble wave was textured like a net, rusting steel rods twisted +gracefully as fine string, vast slabs of concrete still clinging +there. The foreground might once have been a city square; +there was a sort of stump, something that suggested a fountain. +At its base, the children and the soldier were frozen. The tableau +was confusing at first. Molly must have read it correctly before +Case had quite assimilated it, because he felt her tense. She +spat, then stood. +Children. Feral, in rags. Teeth glittering like knives. Sores +on their contorted faces. The soldier on his back, mouth and +throat open to the sky. They were feeding. +"Bonn," she said, something like gentleness in her voice. +"Quite the product, aren't you, Peter? But you had to be. Our +3Jane, she's too jaded now to open the back door for just any +petty thief. So Wintermute dug you up. The ultimate taste, if +your taste runs that way. Demon lover. Peter." She shivered. +"But you talked her into letting me in. Thanks. Now we're +gonna party." +And then she was walking--strolling, really, in spite of the +pain--away from Riviera's childhood. She drew the fletcher +from its holster, snapped the plastic magazine out, pocketed +that, and replaced it with another. She hooked her thumb in +the neck of the Modern suit and ripped it open to the crotch +with a single gesture, her thumb blade parting the tough po- +lycarbon like rotten silk. She freed herself from the arms and +legs, the shredded remnants disguising themselves as they fell +to the dark false sand. +Case noticed the music then. A music he didn't know, all +horns and piano. +The entrance to 3Jane's world had no door. It was a ragged +five-meter gash in the tunnel wall, uneven stairs leading down +in a broad shallow curve. Faint blue light, moving shadows, +music. +"Case," she said, and paused, the fletcher in her right hand. +Then she raised her left, smiled, touched her open palm with +a wet tongue tip, kissing him through the simstim link. "Gotta +go." +Then there was something small and heavy in her left hand, +her thumb against a tiny stud, and she was descending. + +She missed it by a fraction. She nearly cut it, but not quite. +She went in just right, Case thought. The right attitude; it was +something he could sense, something he could have seen in +the posture of another cowboy leaning into a deck, fingers +flying across the board. She had it: the thing, the moves. And +she'd pulled it all together for her entrance. Pulled it together +around the pain in her leg and marched down 3Jane's stairs +like she owned the place, elbow of her gun arm at her hip, +forearm up, wrist relaxed, swaying the muzzle of the fletcher +with the studied nonchalance of a Regency duelist. +It was a performance. It was like the culmination of a life- +time's observation of martial arts tapes, cheap ones, the kind +Case had grown up on For a few seconds, he knew, she was +every bad-ass hero, Sony Mao in the old Shaw videos, Mickey +Chiba, the whole lineage back to Lee and Eastwood. She was +walking it the way she talked it. +Lady 3Jane Marie-France Tessier-Ashpool had carved her- +self a low country flush with the inner surface of Straylight's +hull, chopping away the maze of walls that was her legacy. +She lived in a single room so broad and deep that its far reaches +were lost to an inverse horizon, the floor hidden by the cur- +vature of the spindle. The ceiling was low and irregular, done +in the same imitation stone that walled the corridor. Here and +there across the floor were jagged sections of wall, waist-high +reminders of the labyrinth. There was a rectangular turquoise +pool centered ten meters from the foot of the stairway, its +underwater floods the apartment's only source of light--or it +seemed that way, to Case, as Molly took her final step. The +pool threw shifting blobs of light across the ceiling above it. +They were waiting by the pool. +He'd known that her reflexes were souped up, jazzed by +the neurosurgeons for combat, but he hadn't experienced them +on the simstim link. The effect was like tape run at half speed, +a slow, deliberate dance choreographed to the killer instinct +and years of training. She seemed to take the three of them in +at a glance: the boy poised on the pool's high board, the girl +grinning ove her wineglass, and the corpse of Ashpool, his +left socket gaping black and corrupt above his welcoming smile. +He wore his maroon robe. His teeth were very white. +The boy dove. Slender, brown, his form perfect. The gre- +nade left her hand before his hands could cut the water. Case +knew the thing for what it was as it broke the surface: a core +of high explosive wrapped with ten meters of fine, brittle steel +wire. +Her fletcher whined as she sent a storm of explosive darts +into Ashpool's face and chest, and he was gone, smoke curling +from the pocked back of the empty, white-enameled pool chair. +The muzzle swung for 3Jane as the grenade detonated, a +symmetrical wedding cake of water rising, breaking, falling +back, but the mistake had been made. +Hideo didn't even touch her, then. Her leg collapsed. +In Garvey, Case screamed. + +"It took you long enough," Riviera said, as he searched her +pockets. Her hands vanished at the wrists in a matte black +sphere the size of a bowling ball. "I saw a multiple assassination +in Ankara," he said, his fingers plucking things from her jacket, +"a grenade job. In a pool. It seemed a very weak explosion, +but they all died instantly of hydrostatic shock." Case felt her +move her fingers experimentally. The material of the ball seemed +to offer no more resistance than temperfoam. The pain in her +leg was excruciating, impossible. A red moire shifted in her +vision. "I wouldn't move them, if I were you." The interior +of the ball seemed to tighten slightly. "It' s a sex toy Jane bought +in Berlin. Wiggle them long enough and it crushes them to a +pulp. Variant of the material they make this flooring from. +Something to do with the molecules, I suppose. Are you in +pain?" +She groaned. +"You seem to have injured your leg." His fingers found the +flat packet of drugs in the left back pocket of her jeans. "Well. +My last taste from Ali, and just in time." +The shifting mesh of blood began to whirl. +"Hideo," said another voice, a woman's, "she's losing con- +sciousness. Give her something. For that and for the pain. She's +very striking, don't you think, Peter? These glasses, are they +a fashion where she comes from?" +Cool hands, unhurried, with a surgeon's certainty. The sting +of a needle. +"I wouldn't know," Riviera was saying. "I've never seen +her native habitat. They came and took me from Turkey." +"The Sprawl, yes. We have interests there. And once we +sent Hideo. My fault, really. I'd let someone in, a burglar. He +took the family terminal." She laughed. "I made it easy for +him. To annoy the others. He was a pretty boy, my burglar. +Is she waking, Hideo? Shouldn't she have more?" +"More and she would die," said a third voice. +The blood mesh slid into black. +The music returned, horns and piano. Dance music. + +C A S E : : : : : +: : : : : J A C K +O U T : : : : : : + +Afterimages of the flashed words danced across Maelcum's +eyes and creased forehead as Case removed the trodes. +"You scream, mon, while ago." +"Molly," he said, his throat dry. "Got hurt." He took a white +plastic squeeze bottle from the edge of the g-web and sucked +out a mouthful of flat water. "I don't like how any of this shit +is going." +The little Cray monitor lit. The Finn, against a background +of twisted, impacted junk. "Neither do 1. We gotta problem." +Maelcum pulled himself up, over Case's head, twisted, and +peered over his shoulder. "Now who is that mon, Case?" +"That's just a picture, Maelcum," Case said wearily. "Guy +I know in the Sprawl. It's Wintermute talking. Picture's sup- +posed to make us feel at home." +"Bullshit," the Finn said. "Like I told Molly, these aren't +masks. I need 'em to talk to you. 'Cause I don't have what +you'd think of as a personality, much. But all that's just pissing +in the wind, Case, 'cause, like I just said, we gotta problem." +"So express thyself, Mute," Maelcum said. +"Molly's leg's falling off, for starts. Can't walk. How it +was supposed to go down, she'd walk in, get Peter out of the +way, talk the magic word outa 3Jane, get up to the head, and +say it. Now she's blown it. So I want you two to go in after +her." +Case stared at the face on the screen. "Us?" +"So who else?" +"Aerol," Case said, "the guy on Babylon Rocker, Mael- +cum's pal." +"No. Gotta be you. Gotta be somebody who understands +Molly, who understands Riviera. Maelcum for muscle." +"You maybe forget that I'm in the middle of a little run, +here. Remember? What you hauled my ass out here for...." +"Case, listen up. Time's tight. Very tight. Listen. The real +link between your deck and Straylight is a sideband broadcast +over Garvey's navigation system. You'll take Garvey into a +very private dock I'll show you. The Chinese virus has com- +pletely penetrated the fabric of the Hosaka. There's nothing in +the Hosaka but virus now. When you dock, the virus will be +interfaced with the Straylight custodial system and we'll cut +the sideband. You'll take your deck, the Flatline, and Maelcum . +You'll find 3Jane, get the word out of her, kill Riviera, get +the key from Molly. You can keep track of the program by +jacking your deck into the Straylight system. I'll handle it for +you. There's a standard jack in the back of the head, behind +a panel with five zircons." + +"Kill Riviera'!" +"Kill him." +Case blinked at the representation of the Finn. He felt Mael- +cum put his hand on his shoulder. "Hey. You forget some- +thing." He felt the rage rising, and a kind of glee. "You fucked +up. You blew the controls on the grapples when you blew +Armitage. Haniwa's got us good and tight. Armitage fried the +other Hosaka and the mainframes went with the bridge, right?" +The Finn nodded. +"So we're stuck out here. And that means you're fucked +man." He wanted to laugh, but it caught in his throat. +"Case, mon," Maelcum said softly, "Garvey a tug." +"That's right," said the Finn, and smiled. + +"You havin' fun in the big world outside?" the construct +asked, when Case jacked back in. "Figured that was Winter- +mute requestin' the pleasure...." +"Yeah. You bet. Kuang okay?" +"Bang on. Killer virus." +"Okay. Got some snags, but we're working on it." +"You wanna tell me, maybe?" +"Don't have time." +"Well, boy, never mind me, I'm just dead anyway." +"Fuck off," Case said, and flipped, cutting off the torn- +fingernail edge of the Flatline's laughter. + +"She dreamed of a state involving very little in the way of +individual consciousness," 3Jane was saying. She cupped a +large cameo in her hand, extending it toward Molly. The carved +profile was very much like her own. "Animal bliss. I think she +viewed the evolution of the forebrain as a sort of sidestep." +She withdrew the brooch and studied it, tilting it to catch the +light at different angles. "Only in certain heightened modes +would an individual--a clan member--suffer the more pain- +ful aspects of self-awareness. . ." +Molly nodded. Case remembered the injection. What had +they given her? The pain was still there, but it came through +as a tight focus of scrambled impressions. Neon worms writhing +in her thigh, the touch of burlap, smell of frying krill--his +mind recoiled from it. If he avoided focusing on it, the impres- +sions overlapped, became a sensory equivalent of white noise. +If it could do that to her nervous system, what would her frame +of mind be? +Her vision was abnormally clear and bright, even sharper +than usual. Things seemed to vibrate, each person or object +tuned to a minutely different frequency. Her hands, still locked +in the black ball, were on her lap. She sat in one of the pool +chairs, her broken leg propped straight in front of her on a +camelskin hassock. 3Jane sat opposite, on another hassock, +huddled in an oversized djellaba of unbleached wool. She was +very young. +"Where'd he go?" Molly asked. "To take his shot?" +3Jane shrugged beneath the folds of the pale heavy robe and +tossed a strand of dark hair away from her eyes. "He told me +when to let you in," she said. "He wouldn't tell me why. +Everything has to be a mystery. Would you have hurt us?" +Case felt Molly hesitate. "I would've killed him. I'd've tried +to kill the ninja. Then I was supposed to talk with you." +"Why?" 3Jane asked, tucking the cameo back into one of +the djellaba's inner pockets. "And why? And what about?" +Molly seemed to be studying the high, delicate bones, the +wide mouth, the narrow hawk nose. 3Jane's eyes were dark, +curiously opaque. "Because I hate him," she said at last, "and +the why of that's just the way I'm wired, what he is and what +I am." +"And the show," 3Jane said. "I saw the show." +Molly nodded. +"But Hideo?" +"Because they're the best. Because one of them killed a +partner of mine, once." +3Jane became very grave. She raised her eyebrows. +"Because I had to see," Molly said. +"And then we would have talked, you and I? Like this?" +Her dark hair was very straight, center-parted, drawn back into +a knot of dull sterling. "Shall we talk now?" +"Take this off," Molly said, raising her captive hands. +"You killed my father," 3Jane said, no change whatever in +her tone. "I was watching on the monitors. My mother's eyes, +he called them." +"He killed the puppet. It looked like you." +"He was fond of broad gestures," she said, and then Riviera +was beside her, radiant with drugs, in the seersucker convict +outfit he'd worn in the roof garden of their hotel. +"Getting acquainted? She's an interesting girl, isn't she? I +thought so when I first saw her." He stepped past 3Jane. "It +isn't going to work, you know." +"Isn't it, Peter?" Molly managed a grin. +"Wintermute won't be the first to have made the same mis- +take. Underestimating me." He crossed the tiled pool border +to a white enamel table and splashed mineral water into a heavy +crystal highball glass. "He talked with me, Molly. I suppose +he talked to all of us. You, and Case, whatever there is of +Armitage to talk to. He can't really understand us, you know. +He has his profiles, but those are only statistics. You may be +the statistical animal, darling, and Case is nothing but, but I +possess a quality unquantifiable by its very nature." He drank. +"And what exactly is that, Peter?" Molly asked, her voice +flat. +Riviera beamed. "Perversity." He walked back to the two +women, swirling the water that remained in the dense, deeply +carved cylinder of rock crystal, as though he enjoyed the weight +of the thing. "An enjoyment of the gratuitous act. And I have +made a decision, Molly, a wholly gratuitous decision." +She waited, looking up at him. +"Oh, Peter," 3Jane said, with the sort of gentle exasperation +ordinarily reserved for children. +"No word for you, Molly. He told me about that you see. +3Jane knows the code, of course, but you won't have it. Neither +will Wintermute. My Jane's an ambitious girl, in her perverse +way." He smiled again. "She has designs on the family empire, +and a pair of insane artificial intelligences, kinky as the concept +may be, would only get in our way. So. Comes her Riviera to +help her out, you see. And Peter says, sit tight. Play Daddy's +favorite swing records and let Peter call you up a band to match, +a floor of dancers, a wake for dead King Ashpool." He drank +off the last of the mineral water. "No, you wouldn't do, Daddy, +you would not do. Now that Peter's come home." And then, +his face pink with the pleasure of cocaine and meperidine, he +swung the glass hard into her left lens implant, smashing vision +into blood and light. + +Maelcum was prone against the cabin ceiling when Case +removed the trodes. A nylon sling around his waist was fastened +to the panels on either side with shock cords and gray rubber +suction pads. He had his shirt off and was working on a central +panel with a clumsy-looking zero-g wrench, the thing's fat +countersprings twanging as he removed another hexhead. Mar- +cus Garvey was groaning and ticking with g-stress. +"The Mute takin' I an' I dock," the Zionite said, popping +the hexhead into a mesh pouch at his waist. "Maelcum pilot +th' landin', meantime need we tool f' th' job." +"You keep tools back there?" Case craned his neck and +watched cords of muscle bunching in the brown back. +"This one," Maelcum said, sliding a long bundle wrapped +in black poly from the space behind the panel. He replaced the +panel, along with a single hexhead to hold it in place. The +black package had drifted aft before he'd finished. He thumbed +open the vacuum valves on the workbelt's gray pads and freed +himself, retrieving the thing he'd removed. +He kicked back, gliding over his instruments--a green +docking diagram pulsed on his central screen--and snagged +the frame of Case's g-web. He pulled himself down and picked +at the tape of his package with a thick, chipped thumbnail. +"Some man in China say th' truth comes out this," he said, +unwrapping an ancient, oilslick Remington automatic shotgun, +its barrel chopped off a few millimeters in front of the battered +forestock. The shoulderstock had been removed entirely, re- +placed with a wooden pistolgrip wound with dull black tape. +He smelled of sweat and ganja. +"That the only one you got?" +"Sure, mon," he said, wiping oil from the black barrel with +a red cloth, the black poly wrapping bunched around the pis- +tolgrip in his other hand, "I an' I th' Rastafarian navy, believe +it." +Case pulled the trodes down across his forehead. He'd never +bothered to put the Texas catheter back on; at least he could +take a real piss in the Villa Straylight, even if it was his last. +He jacked in. + +* * * + +"Hey," the construct said, "ol' Peter's totally apeshit, huh?" +They seemed to be part of the Tessier-Ashpool ice now; the +emerald arches had widened, grown together, become a solid +mass. Green predominated in the planes of the Chinese program +that surrounded them. "Gettin' close, Dixie?" +"Real close. Need you soon." +"Listen, Dix. Wintermute says Kuang's set itself up solid +in our Hosaka. I'm going to have to jack you and my deck out +of the Circuit, haul you into Straylight, and plug you back in, +into the custodial program there, Wintermute says. Says the +Kuang virus will be all through there. Then we run from inside +through the Straylight net." +"Wonderful," the Flatline said, "I never did like to do any- +thing simple when I could do it ass-backwards." +Case flipped. + +Into her darkness, a churning synaesthesia, where her pain +was the taste of old iron, scent of melon, wings of a moth +brushing her cheek. She was unconscious, and he was barred +from her dreams. When the optic chip flared, the alphanumerics +were haloed, each one ringed with a faint pink aura. +07:29:40. +"I'm very unhappy with this, Peter." 3Jane's voice seemed +to arrive from a hollow distance. Molly could hear, he realized, +then corrected himself. The simstim unit was intact and still +in place; he could feel it digging against her ribs. Her ears +registered the vibrations of the girl's voice. Riviera said some- +thing brief and indistinct. "But I don't," she said, "and it isn't +fun. Hideo will bring a medical unit down from intensive care, +but this needs a surgeon." +There was a silence. Very distinctly, Case heard the water +lap against the side of the pool. +"What was that you were telling her, when I came back?" +Riviera was very close now. +"About my mother. She asked me to. I think she was in +shock, aside from Hideo's injection. Why did you do that to +her?" +"I wanted to see if they would break." +"One did. When she comes around--if she comes around-- +we'll see what color her eyes are." +"She's extremely dangerous. Too dangerous. If I hadn't +been here to distract her, to throw up Ashpool to distract her +and my own Hideo to draw her little bomb, where would you +be? In her power." +"No," 3Jane said, "there was Hideo. I don't think you quite +understand about Hideo. She does, evidently." +"Like a drink?" +"Wine. The white." +Case jacked out. + +Maelcum was hunched over Garvey's controls, tapping out +commands for a docking sequence. The module's central screen +displayed a fixed red square that represented the Straylight +dock. Garvey was a larger square, green, that shrank slowly, +wavering from side to side with Maelcum's commands. To the +left, a smaller screen displayed a skeletal graphic of Garvey +and Haniwa as they approached the curvature of the spindle. +"We got an hour, man," Case said, pulling the ribbon of +fiberoptics from the Hosaka. His deck's back-up batteries were +good for ninety minutes, but the Flatline's construct would be +an additional drain. He worked quickly, mechanically, fasten- +ing the construct to the bottom of the Ono-Sendai with micro- +pore tape. Maelcum's workbelt drifted past. He snagged it, +unclipped the two lengths of shock cord, with their gray rec- +tangular suction pads, and hooked the jaws of one clip through +the other. He held the pads against the sides of his deck and +worked the thumb lever that created suction. With the deck, +construct, and improvised shoulder strap suspended in front of +him, he struggled into his leather jacket, checking the contents +of his pockets. The passport Armitage had given him, the bank +chip in the same name, the credit chip he'd been issued when +he'd entered Freeside, two derms of the betaphenethylamine +he'd bought from Bruce, a roll of New Yen, half a pack of +Yeheyuans, and the shuriken. He tossed the Freeside chip over +his shoulders, heard it click off the Russian scrubber. He was +about to do the same with the steel star, but the rebounding +credit chip clipped the back of his skull, spun off, struck the +ceiling, and tumbled past Maelcum's left shoulder. The Zionite +interrupted his piloting to glare back at him. Case looked at +the shuriken, then tucked it into his jacket pocket, hearing the +lining tear. +"You missin' th' Mute, mon," Maelcum said. "Mute say +he messin' th' security for Garvey. Garvey dockin' as 'nother +boat, boat they 'spectin' out of Babylon. Mute broadcastin' +codes for us." +"We gonna wear the suits?" +"Too heavy." Maelcum shrugged. "Stay in web 'til I tell +you." He tapped a final sequence into the module and grabbed +the worn pink handholds on either side of the navigation board. +Case saw the green square shrink a final few millimeters to +overlap the red square. On the smaller screen, Haniwa lowered +her bow to miss the curve of the spindle and was snared. Garvey +was still slung beneath her like a captive grub. The tug rang, +shuddered. Two stylized arms sprang out to grip the slender +wasp shape. Straylight extruded a tentative yellow rectangle +that curved, groping past Haniwa for Garvey. +There was a scraping sound from the bow, beyond the trem- +bling fronds of caulk. +"Mon," Maelcum said, "mind we got gravity." A dozen +small objects struck the floor of the cabin simultaneously, as +though drawn there by a magnet. Case gasped as his internal +organs were pulled into a different configuration. The deck and +construct had fallen painfully to his lap. +They were attached to the spindle now, rotating with it. +Maelcum spread his arms, flexed tension from his shoulders, +and removed his purple dreadbag, shaking out his locks. "Come +now, mon, if you seh time be mos' precious." +The Villa Straylight was a parasitic structure, Case reminded +himself, as he stepped past the tendrils of caulk and through +Marcus Garvey's forward hatch. Straylight bled air and water +out of Freeside, and had no ecosystem of its own. +The gangway tube the dock had extended was a more elab- +orate version of the one he'd tumbled through to reach Haniwa, +designed for use in the spindle's rotation gravity. A corrugated +tunnel, articulated by integral hydraulic members, each seg- +ment ringed with a loop of tough, nonslip plastic, the loops +serving as the rungs of a ladder. The gangway had snaked its +way around Haniwa; it was horizontal , where it joined Garvey' s +lock, but curved up sharply and to the left, a vertical climb +around the curvature of the yacht's hull. Maelcum was already +making his way up the rings, pulling himself up with his left +hand, the Remington in his right. He wore a stained pair of +baggy fatigues, his sleeveless green nylon jacket, and a pair +of ragged canvas sneakers with bright red soles. The gangway +shifted slightly, each time he climbed to another ring. +The clips on Case's makeshift strap dug into his shoulder +with the weight of the Ono-Sendai and the Flatline's construct. +All he felt now was fear, a generalized dread. He pushed it +away, forcing himself to replay Armitage's lecture on the spin- +dle and Villa Straylight. He started climbing. Freeside's eco- +system was limited, not closed. Zion was a closed system, +capable of cycling for years without the introduction of external +materials. Freeside produced its own air and water, but relied +on constant shipments of food, on the regular augmentation +of soil nutrients. The Villa Straylight produced nothing at all. +"Mon," Maelcum said quietly, "get up here, 'side me." Case +edged sideways on the circular ladder and climbed the last few +rungs. The gangway ended in a smooth, slightly convex hatch, +two meters in diameter. The hydraulic members of the tube +vanished into flexible housings set into the frame of the hatch. +"So what do we--" +Case's mouth shut as the hatch swung up, a slight differential +in pressure puffing fine grit into his eyes. +Maelcum scrambled up, over the edge, and Case heard the +tiny click of the Remington's safety being released. "You th' +mon in th' hurry...." Maelcum whispered, crouching there. +Then Case was beside him. +The hatch was centered in a round, vaulted chamber floored +with blue nonslip plastic tiles. Maelcum nudged him, pointed, +and he saw a monitor set into a curved wall. On the screen, a +tall young man with the Tessier-Ashpool features was brushing +something from the sleeves of his dark suitcoat. He stood beside +an identical hatch, in an identical chamber. "Very sorry, sir," +said a voice from a grid centered above the hatch. Case glanced +up. "Expected you later, at the axial dock. One moment, please." +On the monitor, the young man tossed his head impatiently. +Maelcum spun as a door slid open to their left, the shotgun +ready. A small Eurasian in orange coveralls stepped through +and goggled at them. He opened his mouth, but nothing came +out. He closed his mouth. Case glanced at the monitor. Blank. +"Who?" the man managed. +"The Rastafarian navy," Case said, standing up, the cyber- +space deck banging against his hip, "and all we want's a jack +into your custodial system." +The man swallowed. "Is this a test? It's a loyalty check. It +must be a loyalty check." He wiped the palms of his hands on +the thighs of his orange suit. +"No, mon, this a real one." Maelcum came up out of his +crouch with the Remington pointed at the Eurasian's face. "You +move it." +They followed the man back through the door, into a corridor +whose polished concrete walls and irregular floor of overlap- +ping carpets were perfectly familiar to Case. "Pretty rugs," +Maelcum said, prodding the man in the back. "Smell like +church." +They came to another monitor, an antique Sony, this one +mounted above a console with a keyboard and a complex array +of jack panels. The screen lit as they halted, the Finn grinning +tensely out at them from what seemed to be the front room of +Metro Holografix. "Okay," he said, "Maelcum takes this guy +down the corridor to the open locker door, sticks him in there, +I'll lock it. Case, you want the fifth socket from the left, top +panel. There's adaptor plugs in the cabinet under the console. +Needs Ono-Sendai twenty-point into Hitachi forty." As Mael- +cum nudged his captive along, Case knelt and fumbled through +an assortment of plugs, finally coming up with the one he +needed. With his deck jacked into the adaptor, he paused. +"Do you have to look like that, man?" he asked the face on +the screen. The Finn was erased a line at a time by the image +of Lonny Zone against a wall of peeling Japanese posters. +"Anything you want, baby," Zone drawled, "just hop it for +Lonny...." +"No," Case said, "use the Finn." As the Zone image van- +ished, he shoved the Hitachi adaptor into its socket and settled +the trodes across his forehead. + +"What kept you?" the Flatline asked, and laughed. +"Told you don't do that," Case said. +"Joke, boy," the construct said, "zero time lapse for me. +Lemme see what we got here...." +The Kuang program was green, exactly the shade of the +T-A ice. Even as Case watched, it grew gradually more opaque, +although he could see the black-mirrored shark thing clearly +when he looked up. The fracture lines and hallucinations were +gone now, and the thing looked real as Marcus Garvey, a +wingless antique jet, its smooth skin plated with black chrome. +"Right on," the Flatline said. +"Right," Case said, and flipped. + +"--like that. I'm sorry," 3Jane was saying, as she bandaged +Molly's head. "Our unit says no concussion, no permanent +damage to the eye. You didn't know him very well, before +you came here?" +"Didn't know him at all," Molly said bleakly. She was on +her back on a high bed or padded table. Case couldn't feel the +injured leg. The synaesthetic effect of the original injection +seemed to have worn off. The black ball was gone, but her +hands were immobilized by soft straps she couldn't see. +"He wants to kill you." +"Figures," Molly said, staring up at the rough ceiling past +a very bright light. +"I don't think I want him to," 3Jane said, and Molly pain- +fully turned her head to look up into the dark eyes. +"Don't play with me," she said. +"But I think I might like to," 3Jane said, and bent to kiss +her forehead, brushing the hair back with a warm hand. There +were smears of blood on her pale djellaba. +"Where's he gone now?" Molly asked. +"Another injection, probably," 3Jane said, straightening up. +"He was quite impatient for your arrival. I think it might be +fun to nurse you back to health, Molly." She smiled, absently +wiping a bloody hand down the front of the robe. "Your leg +will need to be reset, but we can arrange that." +"What about Peter?" +"Peter." She gave her head a little shake. A strand of dark +hair came loose, fell across her forehead. "Peter has become +rather boring. I find drug use in general to be boring." She +giggled. "In others, at any rate. My father was a dedicated +abuser, as you must have seen." +Molly tensed. +"Don't alarm yourself." 3Jane's fingers brushed the skin +above the waistband of the leather jeans. "His suicide was the +result of my having manipulated the safety margins of his +freeze. I'd never actually met him, you know. I was decanted +after he last went down to sleep. But I did know him very well. +The cores know everything. I watched him kill my mother. I'll +show you that, when you're better. He strangles her in bed." +"Why did he kill her?" Her unbandaged eye focused on the +girl's face. +"He couldn't accept the direction she intended for our fam- +ily. She commissioned the construction of our artificial intel- +ligences. She was quite a visionary. She imagined us in a +symbiotic relationship with the Al's, our corporate decisions +made for us. Our conscious decisions, I should say. Tessier- +Ashpool would be immortal, a hive, each of us units of a larger +entity . Fascinating . I'll play her tapes for you, nearly a thousand +hours. But I've never understood her, really, and with her +death, her direction was lost. All direction was lost, and we +began to burrow into ourselves. Now we seldom come out. +I'm the exception there." +"You said you were trying to kill the old man? You fiddled +his cryogenic programs?" +3Jane nodded. "I had help. From a ghost. That was what I +thought when I was very young, that there were ghosts in the +corporate cores. Voices. One of them was what you call Win- +termute, which is the Turing code for our Berne Al, although +the entity manipulating you is a sort of subprogram." +"One of them? There's more?" +"One other. But that one hasn't spoken to me in years. It +gave up, I think. I suspect that both represent the fruition of +certain capacities my mother ordered designed into the original +software, but she was an extremely secretive woman when she +felt it necessary. Here. Drink." She put a flexible plastic tube +to Molly's lips. "Water. Only a little." +"Jane, love," Riviera asked cheerfully, from somewhere out +of sight, "are you enjoying yourself?" +"Leave us alone, Peter." +"Playing doctor...." Suddenly Molly stared into her own +face, the image suspended ten centimeters from her nose. There +were no bandages. The left implant was shattered, a long finger +of silvered plastic driven deep in a socket that was an inverted +pool of blood. +"Hideo," 3Jane said, stroking Molly's stomach, "hurt Peter +if he doesn't go away. Go and swim, Peter." +The projection vanished. +07:58:40, in the darkness of the bandaged eye. +"He said you know the code. Peter said. Wintermute needs +the code." Case was suddenly aware of the Chubb key that lay +on its nylon thong, against the inner curve of her left breast. +"Yes," 3Jane said, withdrawing her hand, "I do. I learned +it as a child. I think I learned it in a dream.... Or somewhere +in the thousand hours of my mother's diaries. But I think that +Peter has a point, in urging me not to surrender it. There would +be Turing to contend with, if I read all this correctly, and ghosts +are nothing if not capricious." +Case jacked out. + +"Strange little customer, huh?" The Finn grinned at Case +from the old Sony. +Case shrugged. He saw Maelcum coming back along the +corridor with the Remington at his side. The Zionite was smil- +ing, his head bobbing to a rhythm Case couldn't hear. A pair +of thin yellow leads ran from his ears to a side pocket in his +sleeveless jacket. +"Dub, mon," Maelcum said. +"You're fucking crazy," Case told him. +"Hear okay, mon. Righteous dub." +"Hey, guys," the Finn said, "on your toes. Here comes your +transportation. I can't finesse many numbers as smooth as the +pic of 8Jean that conned your doorman, but I can get you a +ride over to 3Jane's place." +Case was pulling the adaptor from its socket when the rid- +erless service cart swiveled into sight, under the graceless con- +crete arch marking the far end of their corridor. It might have +been the one his Africans had ridden, but if it was, they were +gone now. Just behind the back of the low padded seat, its tiny +manipulators gripping the upholstery, the little Braun was +steadily winking its red LED. +"Bus to catch," Case said to Maelcum. + +He'd lost his anger again. He missed it. +The little cart was crowded: Maelcum, the Remington across +his knees, and Case, deck and construct against his chest. The +cart was operating at speeds it hadn't been designed for; it was +top heavy, cornering, and Maelcum had taken to leaning out +in the direction of the turns. This presented no problem when +the thing took lefts, because Case sat on the right, but in the +right turns the Zionite had to lean across Case and his gear, +crushing him against the seat. +He had no idea where they were. Everything was familiar, +but he couldn't be sure he'd seen any particular stretch before. +A curving hallway lined with wooden showcases displayed +collections he was certain he'd never seen: the skulls of large +birds, coins, masks of beaten silver. The service cart's six tires +were silent on the layered carpets. There was only the whine +of the electric motor and an occasional faint burst of Zion dub, +from the foam beads in Maelcum's ears, as he lunged past Case +to counter a sharp right. The deck and the construct kept press- +ing the shuriken in his jacket pocket into his hip. + +"You got a watch?" he asked Maelcum. +The Zionite shook his locks. "Time be time." +"Jesus," Case said, and closed his eyes. + +The Braun scuttled over mounded carpets and tapped one +of its padded claws against an oversized rectangular door of +dark battered wood. Behind them, the cart sizzled and shot +blue sparks from a louvered panel. The sparks struck the carpet +beneath the cart and Case smelled scorched wool. +"This th' way, mon?" Maelcum eyed the door and snapped +the shotgun's safety. +"Hey," Case said, more to himself than to Maelcum, "you +think I know?" The Braun rotated its spherical body and the +LED strobed. +"It wan' you open door," Maelcum said, nodding. +Case stepped forward and tried the ornate brass knob. There +was a brass plate mounted on the door at eye level, so old that +the lettering that had once been engraved there had been re- +duced to a spidery, unreadable code, the name of some long +dead function or functionary, polished into oblivion. He won- +dered vaguely if Tessier-Ashpool had selected each piece of +Straylight individually, or if they'd purchased it in bulk from +some vast European equivalent of Metro Holografix. The door's +hinges creaked plaintively as he edged it open, Maelcum step- +ping past him with the Remington thrust forward from his hip. +"Books," Maelcum said. +The library, the white steel shelves with their labels. +"I know where we are," Case said. He looked back at the +service cart. A curl of smoke was rising from the carpet. "So +come on," he said. "Cart. Cart?" It remained stationary. The +Braun was plucking at the leg of his jeans, nipping at his ankle. +He resisted a strong urge to kick it. "Yeah?" +It ticked its way around the door. He followed it. +The monitor in the library was another Sony, as old as the +first one. The Braun paused beneath it and executed a sort of +Jig. +"Wintermute?" +The familiar features filled the screen. The Finn smiled. +"Time to check in, Case," the Finn said, his eyes screwed +up against the smoke of a cigarette. "C'mon, jack." +The Braun threw itself against his ankle and began to climb +his leg, its manipulators pinching his flesh through the thin +black cloth. "Shit!" He slapped it aside and it struck the wall. +Two of its limbs began to piston repeatedly, uselessly, pumping +the air. "What's wrong with the goddam thing?" +"Burned out," the Finn said. "Forget it. No problem. lack +in now." +There were four sockets beneath the screen, but only one +would accept the Hitachi adaptor. +He jacked in. + +Nothing. Gray void. +No matrix, no grid. No cyberspace. +The deck was gone. His fingers were. . . +And on the far rim of consciousness, a scurrying, a fleeting +impression of something rushing toward him, across leagues +of black mirror. +He tried to scream. + +There seemed to be a city, beyond the curve of beach, but +it was far away. +He crouched on his haunches on the damp sand, his arms +wrapped tight across his knees, and shook. +He stayed that way for what seemed a very long time, even +after the shaking stopped. The city, if it was a city, was low +and gray. At times it was obscured by banks of mist that came +rolling in over the lapping surf. At one point he decided that +it wasn't a city at all, but some single building, perhaps a ruin; +he had no way of judging its distance. The sand was the shade +of tarnished silver that hadn't gone entirely black. The beach +was made of sand, the beach was very long, the sand was +damp, the bottoms of his jeans were wet from the sand.... He +held himself and rocked, singing a song without words or tune. +The sky was a different silver. Chiba. Like the Chiba sky. +Tokyo Bay? He turned his head and stared out to sea, longing +for the hologram logo of Fuji Electric, for the drone of a +helicopter, anything at all. +Behind him, a gull cried. He shivered. +A wind was rising. Sand stung his cheek. He put his face +against his knees and wept, the sound of his sobbing as distant +and alien as the cry of the searching gull. Hot urine soaked his +jeans, dribbled on the sand, and quickly cooled in the wind off +the water. When his tears were gone, his throat ached. +"Wintermute," he mumbled to his knees, "Wintermute. . ." +It was growing dark, now, and when he shivered, it was +with a cold that finally forced him to stand. +His knees and elbows ached. His nose was running; he wiped +it on the cuff of his jacket, then searched one empty pocket +after another. "Jesus," he said, shoulders hunched, tucking his +fingers beneath his arms for warmth. "Jesus." His teeth began +to chatter. +The tide had left the beach combed with patterns more subtle +than any a Tokyo gardener produced. When he'd taken a dozen +steps in the direction of the now invisible city, he turned and +looked back through the gathering dark. His footprints stretched +to the point of his arrival. There were no other marks to disturb +the tarnished sand. +He estimated that he'd covered at least a kilometer before +he noticed the light. He was talking with Ratz, and it was Ratz +who first pointed it out, an orange-red glow to his right, away +from the surf. He knew that Ratz wasn't there, that the bartender +was a figment of his own imagination, not of the thing he was +trapped in, but that didn't matter. He'd called the man up for +comfort of some kind, but Ratz had had his own ideas about +Case and his predicament. +"Really, my artiste, you amaze me. The lengths you will +go to in order to accomplish your own destruction. The re- +dundancy of it! In Night City, you had it, in the palm of your +hand! The speed to eat your sense away, drink to keep it all +so fluid, Linda for a sweeter sorrow, and the street to hold the +axe. How far you've come, to do it now, and what grotesque +props.... Playgrounds hung in space, castles hermetically sealed, +the rarest rots of old Europa, dead men sealed in little boxes +magic out of China...." Ratz laughed, trudging along beside +him, his pink manipulator swinging jauntily at his side. In spite +of the dark, Case could see the baroque steel that laced the +bartender's blackened teeth. "But I suppose that is the way of +an artiste, no? You needed this world built for you, this beach, +this place. To die." +Case halted, swayed, turned toward the sound of surf and +the sting of blown sand. "Yeah," he said. "Shit. I guess. . ." +He walked toward the sound. +"Artiste," he heard Ratz call. "The light. You saw a light. +Here. This way. . ." +He stopped again, staggered, fell to his knees in a few +millimeters of icy seawater. "Ratz? Light? Ratz. . ." +But the dark was total, now, and there was only the sound +of the surf. He struggled to his feet and tried to retrace his +steps. +Time passed. He walked on. +And then it was there, a glow, defining itself with his every +step. A rectangle. A door. +"Fire in there," he said, his words torn away by the wind. +It was a bunker, stone or concrete, buried in drifts of the +dark sand. The doorway was low, narrow, doorless, and deep, +set into a wall at least a meter thick. "Hey," Case said, softly, +"hey. . ." His fingers brushed the cold wall. There was a fire, +in there, shifting shadows on the sides of the entrance. +He ducked low and was through, inside, in three steps. +A girl was crouched beside rusted steel, a sort of fireplace, +where driftwood burned, the wind sucking smoke up a dented +chimney. The fire was the only light, and as his gaze met the +wide, startled eyes, he recognized her headband, a rolled scarf, +printed with a pattern like magnified circuitry. + +He refused her arms, that night, refused the food she offered +him, the place beside her in the nest of blankets and shredded +foam. He crouched beside the door, finally, and watched her +sleep, listening to the wind scour the structure's walls. Every +hour or so, he rose and crossed to the makeshift stove, adding +fresh driftwood from the pile beside it. None of this was real, +but cold was cold. +She wasn't real, curled there on her side in the firelight. He +watched her mouth, the lips parted slightly. She was the girl +he remembered from their trip across the Bay, and that was +cruel. +"Mean, motherfucker," he whispered to the wind. "Don't +take a chance, do you? Wouldn't give me any junkie, huh? I +know what this is...." He tried to keep the desperation from +his voice. "I know, see? I know who you are. You're the other +one. 3Jane told Molly. Burning bush. That wasn't Wintermute, +it was you. He tried to warn me off with the Braun. Now you +got me flatlined, you got me here. Nowhere. With a ghost. +Like I remember her before...." +She stirred in her sleep, called something out, drawing a +scrap of blanket across her shoulder and cheek. +"You aren't anything," he said to the sleeping girl. "You're +dead and you meant fuck-all to me anyway. Hear that, buddy? +I know what you're doing. I'm flatlined. This has all taken +about twenty seconds, right? I'm out on my ass in that library +and my brain's dead. And pretty soon it'll be dead, if you got +any sense. You don't want Wintermute to pull his scam off, +is all, so you can just hang me up here. Dixie'll run Kuang, +but his ass is dead and you can second guess his moves, sure. +This Linda shit, yeah, that's all been you, hasn't it? Wintermute +tried to use her when he sucked me into the Chiba construct, +but he couldn't. Said it was too tricky. That was you moved +the stars around in Freeside, wasn't it? That was you put her +face on the dead puppet in Ashpool's room. Molly never saw +that. You just edited her simstim signal. 'Cause you think you +can hurt me. 'Cause you think I gave a shit. Well, fuck you, +whatever you're called. You won. You win. But none of it +means anything to me now, right? Think I care? So why'd you +do it to me this way?" He was shaking again, his voice shrill. +"Honey," she said, twisting up from the rags of blankets, +"you come here and sleep. I'll sit up, you want. You gotta +sleep, okay?" Her soft accent was exaggerated with sleep. "You +just sleep, okay?" + +When he woke, she was gone. The fire was dead, but it +was warm in the bunker, sunlight slanting through the doorway +to throw a crooked rectangle of gold on the ripped side of a +fat fiber canister. The thing was a shipping container; he +remembered them from the Chiba docks. Through the rent in +its side, he could see half a dozen bright yellow packets. In +the sunlight, they looked like giant pats of butter. His stomach +tightened with hunger. Rolling out of the nest, he went to the +canister and fished one of the things out, blinking at small print +in a dozen languages. The English was on the bottom. EMERG. +RATION, HI-PRO, "BEEF", TYPE AG-8. A listing of nutri- +tive content. He fumbled a second one out. "EGGS". "If you're +making this shit up," he said, "you could lay on some real +food, okay?" With a packet in either hand, he made his way +through the structure's four rooms. Two were empty, aside +from drifts of sand, and the fourth held three more of the ration +canisters. "Sure," he said touching the seals. "Stay here a long +time. I get the idea. Sure. . ." +He searched the room with the fireplace, finding a plastic +canister filled with what he assumed was rainwater. Beside the +nest of blankets, against the wall, lay a cheap red lighter, a +seaman's knife with a cracked green handle, and her scarf. It +was still knotted, and stiff with sweat and dirt. He used the +knife to open the yellow packets, dumping their contents into +a rusted can that he found beside the stove. He dipped water +from the canister, mixed the resulting mush with his fingers, +and ate. It tasted vaguely like beef. When it was gone, he +tossed the can into the fireplace and went out. +Late afternoon, by the feel of the sun, its angle. He kicked +off his damp nylon shoes and was startled by the warmth of +the sand. In daylight, the beach was silver-gray. The sky was +cloudless, blue. He rounded the comer of the bunker and walked +toward the surf, dropping his jacket on the sand. "Dunno whose +memories you're using for this one," he said when he reached +the water. He peeled off his jeans and kicked them into the +shallow surf, following them with t-shirt and underwear. +"What you doin', Case?" +He turned and found her ten meters down the beach, the +white foam sliding past her ankles. +"I pissed myself last night," he said. +"Well, you don't wanna wear those. Saltwater. Give you +sores. I'll show you this pool back in the rocks." She gestured +vaguely behind her. "It's fresh." The faded French fatigues +had been hacked away above the knee; the skin below was +smooth and brown. A breeze caught at her hair. +"Listen," he said, scooping his clothes up and walking to- +ward her, "I got a question for you. I won't ask you what +you're doing here. But what exactly do you think I'm doing +here?" He stopped, a wet black jeans-leg slapping against his +bare thigh. +"You came last night," she said. She smiled at him. +"And that's enough for you? I just came?" +"He said you would," she said, wrinkling her nose. She +shrugged. "He knows stuff like that, I guess." She lifted her +left foot and rubbed salt from the other ankle, awkward, child- +like. She smiled at him again, more tentatively. "Now you +answer me one, okay?" +He nodded. +"How come you're painted brown like that, all except your +foot?" + +"And that's the last thing you remember?" He watched her +scrape the last of the freeze-dried hash from the rectangular +steel box cover that was their only plate. +She nodded, her eyes huge in the firelight. "I'm sorry, Case, +honest to God. It was just the shit, I guess, an' it was . . ." She +hunched forward, forearms across her knees, her face twisted +for a few seconds with pain or its memory. "I just needed the +money. To get home, I guess, or...hell," she said, "you +wouldn't hardly talk to me." +"There's no cigarettes?" +"Goddam, Case, you asked me that ten times today! What's +wrong with you?" She twisted a strand of hair into her mouth +and chewed at it. +"But the food was here? It was already here?" +"I told you, man, it was washed up on the damn beach." +"Okay. Sure. It's seamless." +She started to cry again, a dry sobbing. "Well, damn you +anyway, Case," she managed, finally, "I was doin' just fine +here by myself." +He got up, taking his jacket, and ducked through the door- +way, scraping his wrist on rough concrete. There was no moon, +no wind, sea sound all around him in the darkness. His jeans +were tight and clammy. "Okay," he said to the night, "I buy +it. I guess I buy it. But tomorrow some cigarettes better wash +up." His own laughter startled him. "A case of beer wouldn't +hurt, while you're at it." He turned and re-entered the bunker. +She was stirring the embers with a length of silvered wood. +"Who was that, Case, up in your coffin in Cheap Hotel? Flash +samurai with those silver shades, black leather. Scared me, +and after, I figured maybe she was your new girl, 'cept she +looked like more money than you had...." She glanced back +at him. "I'm real sorry I stole your RAM." +"Never mind," he said. "Doesn't mean anything. So you +just took it over to this guy and had him access it for you?" +"Tony," she said. "I'd been seein' him, kinda. He had a +habit an' we . . . anyway, yeah, I remember him running it by +on this monitor, and it was this real amazing graphics stuff, +and I remember wonderin' how you--" +"There wasn't any graphics in there," he interrupted. +"Sure was. I just couldn't figure how you'd have all those +pictures of when I was little, Case. How my daddy looked, +before he left. Gimme this duck one time, painted wood, and +you had a picture of that...." +"Tony see it?" +"I don't remember. Next thing, I was on the beach, real +early, sunrise, those birds all yellin' so lonely. Scared 'cause +I didn't have a shot on me, nothin', an' I knew I'd be gettin' +sick.... An' I walked an' walked, 'til it was dark, an' found +this place, an' next day the food washed in, all tangled in the +green sea stuff like leaves of hard jelly." She slid her stick into +the embers and left it there. "Never did get sick," she said, as +embers crawled. "Missed cigarettes more. How 'bout you, +Case? You still wired?" Firelight dancing under her cheek- +bones, remembered flash of Wizard's Castle and Tank War +Europa. +"No," he said, and then it no longer mattered, what he knew, +tasting the salt of her mouth where tears had dried. There was +a strength that ran in her, something he'd known in Night City +and held there, been held by it, held for a while away from +time and death, from the relentless Street that hunted them all. +It was a place he'd known before; not everyone could take him +there, and somehow he always managed to forget it. Something +he'd found and lost so many times. It belonged, he knew-- +he remembered--as she pulled him down, to the meat, the +flesh the cowboys mocked. It was a vast thing, beyond know- +ing, a sea of information coded in spiral and pheromone, infinite +intricacy that only the body, in its strong blind way, could ever +read +The zipper hung, caught, as he opened the French fatigues, +the coils of toothed nylon clotted with salt. He broke it, some +tiny metal part shooting off against the wall as salt-rotten cloth +gave, and then he was in her, effecting the transmission of the +old message. Here, even here, in a place he knew for what it +was, a coded model of some stranger's memory, the drive held. +She shuddered against him as the stick caught fire, a leaping +flare that threw their locked shadows across the bunker wall. +Later, as they lay together, his hand between her thighs, he +remembered her on the beach, the white foam pulling at her +ankles, and he remembered what she had said. +"He told you I was coming," he said. +But she only rolled against him, buttocks against his thighs, +and put her hand over his, and muttered something out of +dream. + +The music woke him, and at first it might have been the +beat of his own heart. He sat up beside her, pulling his jacket +over his shoulders in the predawn chill, gray light from the +doorway and the fire long dead. +His vision crawled with ghost hieroglyphs, translucent lines +of symbols arranging themselves against the neutral backdrop +of the bunker wall. He looked at the backs of his hands, saw +faint neon molecules crawling beneath the skin, ordered by the +unknowable code. He raised his right hand and moved it ex- +perimentally. It left a faint, fading trail of strobed afterimages. +The hair stood up along his arms and at the back of his +neck. He crouched there with his teeth bared and felt for the +music. The pulse faded, returned, faded.... +"What's wrong?" She sat up, clawing hair from her eyes. +"Baby . . ." +"I feel ... like a drug.... You get that here?" +She shook her head, reached for him, her hands on his upper +arms. +"Linda, who told you? Who told you I'd come? Who?" +"On the beach," she said, something forcing her to look +away. "A boy. I see him on the beach. Maybe thirteen. He +lives here." +"And what did he say?" +"He said you'd come. He said you wouldn't hate me. He +said we'd be okay here, and he told me where the rain pool +was. He looks Mexican." +"Brazilian," Case said, as a new wave of symbols washed +down the wall. "I think he's from Rio." He got to his feet and +began to struggle into his jeans. +"Case," she said, her voice shaking, "Case, where you +goin ' ?" +"I think I'll find that boy," he said, as the music came +surging back, still only a beat, steady and familiar, although +he couldn't place it in memory. +"Don't, Case." +"I thought I saw something, when I got here. A city down +the beach. But yesterday it wasn't there. You ever seen that?" +He yanked his zipper up and tore at the impossible knot in his +shoelaces, finally tossing the shoes into the corner. +She nodded, eyes lowered. "Yeah. I see it sometimes." +"You ever go there, Linda?" He put his jacket on. +"No," she said, "but I tried. After I first came, an' I was +bored. Anyway, I figured it's a city, maybe I could find some +shit." She grimaced. "I wasn't even sick, I just wanted it. So +I took food in a can, mixed it real wet, because I didn't have +another can for water. An' I walked all day, an' I could see +it, sometimes, city, an' it didn't seem too far. But it never got +any closer. An' then it was gettin' closer, an' I saw what it +was. Sometimes that day it had looked kinda like it was wrecked, +or maybe nobody there, an' other times I thought I'd see light +flashin' off a machine, cars or somethin' ...." Her voice trailed +off. +"What is it?" +"This thing," she gestured around at the fireplace, the dark +walls, the dawn outlining the doorway, "where we live. It gets +smaller, Case, smaller, closer you get to it." +Pausing one last time, by the doorway. "You ask your boy +about that?" +"Yeah. He said I wouldn't understand, an' I was wastin' +my time. Said it was, was like . . . an event. An' it was our +horizon. Event horizon, he called it." +The words meant nothing to him. He left the bunker and +struck out blindly, heading--he knew, somehow--away from +the sea. Now the hieroglyphs sped across the sand, fled from +his feet, drew back from him as he walked. "Hey," he said, +"it's breaking down. Bet you know, too. What is it? Kuang? +Chinese icebreaker eating a hole in your heart? Maybe the Dixie +Flatline's no pushover, huh?" +He heard her call his name. Looked back and she was +following him, not trying to catch up, the broken zip of the +French fatigues flapping against the brown of her belly, pubic +hair framed in torn fabric. She looked like one of the girls on +the Finn's old magazines in Metro Holografix come to life, +only she was tired and sad and human, the ripped costume +pathetic as she stumbled over clumps of salt-silver sea grass. +And then, somehow, they stood in the surf, the three of +them, and the boy's gums were wide and bright pink against +his thin brown face. He wore ragged, colorless shorts, limbs +too thin against the sliding blue-gray of the tide. +"I know you," Case said, Linda beside him. +"No," the boy said, his voice high and musical, "you do +not." +"You're the other AI. You're Rio. You're the one who wants +to stop Wintermute. What's your name? Your Turing code. +What is it?" +The boy did a handstand in the surf, laughing. He walked +on his hands, then flipped out of the water. His eyes were +Riviera's, but there was no malice there. "To call up a demon +you must learn its name. Men dreamed that, once, but now it +is real in another way. You know that, Case. Your business is +to learn the names of programs, the long formal names, names +the owners seek to conceal. True names. . ." +"A Turing code's not your name." +"Neuromancer," the boy said, slitting long gray eyes against +the rising sun. "The lane to the land of the dead. Where you +are, my friend. Marie-France, my lady, she prepared this road +but her lord choked her off before I could read the book of he; +days. Neuro from the nerves, the silver paths. Romancer. Nec- +romancer. I call up the dead. But no, my friend," and the boy +did a little dance, brown feet printing the sand, "I am the dead, +and their land." He laughed. A gull cried. "Stay. If your woman +is a ghost, she doesn't know it. Neither will you." +"You're cracking. The ice is breaking up." +"No," he said, suddenly sad, his fragile shoulders sagging. +He rubbed his foot against the sand. "It is more simple than +that. But the choice is yours." The gray eyes regarded Case +gravely. A fresh wave of symbols swept across his vision, one +line at a time. Behind them, the boy wriggled, as though seen +through heat rising from summer asphalt. The music was loud +now, and Case could almost make out the lyrics. +"Case, honey," Linda said, and touched his shoulder. +"No," he said. He took off his jacket and handed it to her. +"I don't know," he said, "maybe you're here. Anyway, it gets +cold." +He turned and walked away, and after the seventh step, he'd +closed his eyes, watching the music define itself at the center +of things. He did look back, once, although he didn't open his +eyes. +He didn't need to. +They were there by the edge of the sea, Linda Lee and the +thin child who said his name was Neuromancer. His leather +jacket dangled from her hand, catching the fringe of the surf. +He walked on, following the music. +Maelcum's Zion dub. + +There was a gray place, an impression of fine screens shift- +ing, moire, degrees of half tone generated by a very simple +graphics program. There was a long hold on a view through +chainlink, gulls frozen above dark water. There were voices. +There was a plain of black mirror, that tilted, and he was +quicksilver, a bead of mercury, skittering down, striking the +angles of an invisible maze, fragmenting, flowing together, +sliding again.... + +"Case? Mon?" +The music. +"You back, mon." +The music was taken from his ears. + +"How long?" he heard himself ask, and knew that his mouth +was very dry. +"Five minute, maybe. Too long. I wan' pull th' jack, Mute +seh no. Screen goin' funny, then Mute seh put th' phones on +you." +He opened his eyes. Maelcum's features were overlayed +with bands of translucent hieroglyphs. +"An' you medicine," Maelcum said. "Two derm." +He was flat on his back on the library floor, below the +monitor. The Zionite helped him sit up, but the movement +threw him into the savage rush of the betaphenethylamine, the +blue derms burning against his left wrist. "Overdose," he man- +aged. +"Come on, mon," the strong hands beneath his armpits, +lifting him like a child, "I an' I mus' go." +The service cart was crying. The betaphenethylamine gave +it a voice. It wouldn't stop. Not in the crowded gallery, the +long corridors, not as it passed the black glass entrance to the +T-A crypt, the vaults where the cold had seeped so gradually +into old Ashpool's dreams. +The transit was an extended rush for Case, the movement +of the cart indistinguishable from the insane momentum of the +overdose. When the cart died, at last, something beneath the +seat giving up with a shower of white sparks, the crying stopped. +The thing coasted to a stop three meters from the start of +3Jane's pirate cave. +"How far, mon?" Maelcum helped him from the sputtering +cart as an integral extinguisher exploded in the thing's engine +compartment, gouts of yellow powder squirting from louvers +and service points. The Braun tumbled from the back of the +seat and hobbled off across the imitation sand, dragging one +useless limb behind it. "You mus' walk, mon." Maelcum took +the deck and construct, slinging the shock cords over his shoul- +der. + +The trodes rattled around Case's neck as he followed the +Zionite. Riviera's holos waited for them, the torture scenes and +the cannibal children. Molly had broken the triptych. Maelcum +ignored them. +"Easy," Case said, forcing himself to catch up with the +striding figure. "Gotta do this right." +Maelcum halted, turned, glowering at him, the Remington +in his hands. "Right, mon? How's right?" +"Got Molly in there, but she's out of it. Riviera, he can +throw holos. Maybe he's got Molly's fletcher." Maelcum nod- +ded. "And there's a ninja, a family bodyguard." +Maelcum's frown deepened. "You listen, Babylon mon," +he said. "I a warrior. But this no m' fight, no Zion fight. +Babylon fightin' Babylon, eatin' i'self, ya know? But Jah seh +I an' I t' bring Steppin' Razor outa this." +Case blinked. +"She a warrior," Maelcum said, as if it explained everything. +"Now you tell me, mon, who I not t' kill." +"3Jane," he said, after a pause. "A girl there. Has a kinda +white robe thing on, with a hood. We need her." + +When they reached the entrance, Maelcum walked straight +in, and Case had no choice but to follow him. +3Jane's country was deserted, the pool empty. Maelcum +handed him the deck and the construct and walked to the edge +of the pool. Beyond the white pool furniture, there was dark- +ness, shadows of the ragged, waist-high maze of partially +demolished walls. +The water lapped patiently against the side of the pool. +"They're here," Case said. "They gotta be." +Maelcum nodded. +The first arrow pierced his upper arm. The Remington roared, +its meter of muzzle-flash blue in the light from the pool. The +second arrow struck the shotgun itself, sending it spinning +across the white tiles. Maelcum sat down hard and fumbled at +the black thing that protruded from his arm. He yanked at it. +Hideo stepped out of the shadows, a third arrow ready in a +slender bamboo bow. He bowed. +Maelcum stared, his hand still on the steel shaft. +"The artery is intact," the ninja said. Case remembered +Molly's description of the man who-d killed her lover. Hideo +was another. Ageless, he radiated a sense of quiet, an utter +calm. He wore clean, frayed khaki workpants and soft dark +shoes that fit his feet like gloves, split at the toes like tabi +socks. The bamboo bow was a museum piece, but the black +alloy quiver that protruded above his left shoulder had the look +of the best Chiba weapons shops. His brown chest was bare +and smooth. +"You cut my thumb, mon, wi' secon' one," Maelcum said. +"Coriolis force," the ninja said, bowing again. "Most dif- +ficult, slow-moving projectile in rotational gravity. It was not +intended." +"Where's 3Jane?" Case crossed to stand beside Maelcum. +He saw that the tip of the arrow in the ninja's bow was like a +double-edged razor. "Where's Molly?" +"Hello, Case." Riviera came strolling out of the dark behind +Hideo, Molly's fletcher in his hand. "I would have expected +Armitage, somehow. Are we hiring help out of that Rasta +cluster now?" +"Armitage is dead." +"Armitage never existed, more to the point, but the news +hardly comes as a shock." +"Wintermute killed him. He's in orbit around the spindle." +Riviera nodded, his long gray eyes glancing from Case to +Maelcum and back. "I think it ends here, for you," he said. +"Where's Molly?" +The ninja relaxed his pull on the fine, braided string, low- +ering the bow. He crossed the tiles to where the Remington +lay and picked it up. "This is without subtlety," he said, as if +to himself. His voice was cool and pleasant. His every move +was part of a dance, a dance that never ended, even when his +body was still, at rest, but for all the power it suggested, there +was also a humility, an open simplicity. +"It ends here for her, too," Riviera said. +"Maybe 3Jane won't go for that, Peter," Case said, uncertain +of the impulse. The derms still raged in his system, the old +fever starting to grip him, Night City craziness. He remembered +moments of grace, dealing out on the edge of things, where +he'd found that he could sometimes talk faster than he could +think. + +The gray eyes narrowed. "Why, Case? Why do you think +that?" +Case smiled. Riviera didn't know about the simstim rig. +He'd missed it in his hurry to find the drugs she carried for +him. But how could Hideo have missed it? And Case was +certain the ninja would never have let 3Jane treat Molly without +first checking her for kinks and concealed weapons. No, he +decided, the ninja knew. So 3Jane would know as well. +"Tell me, Case," Riviera said, raising the pepperbox muzzle +of the fletcher. +Something creaked, behind him, creaked again. 3Jane pushed +Molly out of the shadows in an ornate Victorian bathchair, its +tall, spidery wheels squeaking as they turned. Molly was bun- +dled deep in a red and black striped blanket, the narrow, caned +back of the antique chair towering above her. She looked very +small. Broken. A patch of brilliantly white micropore covered +her damaged lens; the other flashed emptily as her head bobbed +with the motion of the chair. +"A familiar face," 3Jane said, "I saw you the night of Peter's +show. And who is this?" +"Maelcum," Case said. +"Hideo, remove the arrow and bandage Mr. Malcolm's +wound." +Case was staring at Molly, at the wan face. +The ninja walked to where Maelcum sat, pausing to lay his +bow and the shotgun well out of reach, and took something +from his pocket. A pair of bolt cutters. "I must cut the shaft," +he said. "It is too near the artery." Maelcum nodded. His face +was grayish and sheened with sweat. +Case looked at 3Jane. "There isn't much time," he said. +"For whom, exactly?" +"For any of us." There was a snap as Hideo cut through the +metal shaft of the arrow. Maelcum groaned. +"Really," Riviera said, "it won't amuse you to hear this +failed con artist make a last desperate pitch. Most distasteful, +1 can assure you. He'll wind up on his knees, offer to sell you +his mother, perform the most boring sexual favors...." +3Jane threw back her head and laughed. "Wouldn't 1, Pe- +ter?" +"The ghosts are gonna mix it tonight, lady," Case said. +"Wintermute's going up against the other one, Neuromancer. +For keeps. You know that?" +3Jane raised her eyebrows. "Peter's suggested something +like that, but tell me more." +"I met Neuromancer. He talked about your mother. I think +he's something like a giant ROM construct, for recording per- +sonality, only it's full RAM. The constructs think they're there, +like it's real, but it just goes on forever." +3Jane stepped from behind the bathchair. "Where? Describe +the place, this construct." +"A beach. Gray sand, like silver that needs polishing. And +a concrete thing, kinda bunker...." He hesitated. "It's nothing +fancy. Just old, falling apart. If you walk far enough, you come +back to where you started." +"Yes," she said. "Morocco. When Marie-France was a girl, +years before she married Ashpool, she spent a summer alone +on that beach, camping in an abandoned blockhouse. She for- +mulated the basis of her philosophy there." +Hideo straightened, slipping the cutters into his workpants. +He held a section of the arrow in either hand. Maelcum had +his eyes closed, his hand clapped tight around his bicep. "I +will bandage it," Hideo said. +Case managed to fall before Riviera could level the fletcher +for a clear shot. The darts whined past his neck like supersonic +gnats. He rolled, seeing Hideo pivot through yet another step +of his dance, the razored point of the arrow reversed in his +hand, shaft flat along palm and rigid fingers. He flicked it +underhand, wrist blurring, into the back of Riviera's hand. The +fletcher struck the tiles a meter away. +Riviera screamed. But not in pain. It was a shriek of rage, +so pure, so refined, that it lacked all humanity. +Twin tight beams of light, ruby red needles, stabbed from +the region of Riviera's sternum. +The ninja grunted, reeled back, hands to his eyes, then found +his balance. +"Peter," 3Jane said, "Peter, what have you done?" +"He's blinded your clone boy," Molly said flatly. +Hideo lowered his cupped hands. Frozen on the white tile +Case saw whisps of steam drift from the ruined eyes. +Riviera smiled. + +Hideo swung into his dance, retracing his steps. When he +stood above the bow, the arrow, and the Remington, Riviera's +smile had faded. He bent--bowing, it seemed to Case--and +found the bow and arrow. +"You're blind," Riviera said, taking a step backward. +"Peter," 3Jane said, "don't you know he does it in the dark? +Zen. It's the way he practices." +The ninja notched his arrow. "Will you distract me with your +holograms now?" +Riviera was backing away, into the dark beyond the pool. +He brushed against a white chair; its feet rattled on the tile. +Hideo's arrow twitched. +Riviera broke and ran, throwing himself over a low, jagged +length of wall. The ninja's face was rapt, suffused with a quiet +ecstasy. +Smiling, he padded off into the shadows beyond the wall, +his weapon held ready. +"Jane-lady," Maelcum whispered, and Case turned, to see +him scoop the shotgun from the tiles, blood spattering the white +ceramic. He shook his locks and lay the fat barrel in the crook +of his wounded arm. "This take your head off, no Babylon +doctor fix it." +3Jane stared at the Remington. Molly freed her arms from +the folds of the striped blanket, raising the black sphere that +encased her hands. "Off," she said, "get it off." +Case rose from the tiles, shook himself. "Hideo'll get him, +even blind?" he asked 3Jane. +"When I was a child," she said, "we loved to blindfold him. +He put arrows through the pips in playing cards at ten meters." +"Peter's good as dead anyway," Molly said. "In another +twelve hours, he'll start to freeze up. Won't be able to move, +his eyes is all." +"Why?" Case turned to her. +"I poisoned his shit for him," she said. "Condition's like +Parkinson's disease, sort of." +3Jane nodded. "Yes. We ran the usual medical scan, before +he was admitted." She touched the ball in a certain way and +it sprang away from Molly's hands. "Selective destruction of +the cells of the substantia nigra. Signs of the formation of a +Lewy body. He sweats a great deal, in his sleep." + +"Ali," Molly said, ten blades glittering, exposed for an +instant. She tugged the blanket away from her legs, revealing +the inflated cast. "It's the meperidine. I had Ali make me up +a custom batch. Speeded up the reaction times with higher +temperatures. N-methyl-4-phenyl-1236," she sang, like a child +reciting the steps of a sidewalk game, "tetra-hydro-pyridene." +"A hotshot," Case said. +"Yeah," Molly said, "a real slow hotshot." +"That's appalling," 3Jane said, and giggled. + +It was crowded in the elevator. Case was jammed pelvis to +pelvis with 3Jane, the muzzle of the Remington under her chin. +She grinned and ground against him. "You stop," he said, +feeling helpless. He had the gun's safety on, but he was terrified +of injuring her, and she knew it. The elevator was a steel +cylinder, under a meter in diameter, intended for a single pas- +senger. Maelcum had Molly in his arms. She'd bandaged his +wound, but it obviously hurt him to carry her. Her hip was +pressing the deck and construct into Case's kidneys. +They rose out of gravity, toward the axis, the cores. +The entrance to the elevator had been concealed beside the +stairs to the corridor, another touch in 3Jane's pirate cave decor. +"I don't suppose I should tell you this," 3Jane said, craning +her head to allow her chin to clear the muzzle of the gun, "but +I don't have a key to the room you want. I never have had +one. One of my father's Victorian awkwardnesses. The lock +is mechanical and extremely complex." +"Chubb lock," Molly said, her voice muffled by Maelcum's +shoulder, "and we got the fucking key, no fear." +"That chip of yours still working?" Case asked her. +"It's eight twenty-five, PM, Greenwich fucking Mean," she +said. +"We got five minutes," Case said, as the door snapped open +behind 3Jane. She flipped backward in a slow somersault, the +pale folds of her djellaba billowing around her thighs. +They were at the axis, the core of Villa Straylight. +Molly fished the key out on its loop of nylon. +"You know," 3Jane said, craning forward with interest, "I +was under the impression that no duplicate existed. I sent Hideo +to search my father's things, after you killed him. He couldn't +find the original." +"Wintermute managed to get it stuck in the back of a drawer," +Molly said, carefully inserting the Chubb key's cylindrical shaft +into the notched opening in the face of the blank, rectangular +door. "He killed the little kid who put it there." The key rotated +smoothly when she tried it. +"The head," Case said, "there's a panel in the back of the +head. Zircons on it. Get it off. That's where I'm jacking in." +And then they were inside. + +"Christ on a crutch," the Flatline drawled, "you do believe +in takin' your own good time, don't you, boy?" +"Kuang's ready?" +"Hot to trot." +"Okay." He flipped. + +And found himself staring down, through Molly's one good +eye, at a white-faced, wasted figure, afloat in a loose fetal +crouch, a cyberspace deck between its thighs, a band of silver +trodes above closed, shadowed eyes. The man's cheeks were +hollowed with a day's growth of dark beard, his face slick with +sweat. +He was looking at himself. +Molly had her fletcher in her hand. Her leg throbbed with +each beat of her pulse, but she could still maneuver in zero-g. +Maelcum drifted nearby, 3Jane's thin arm gripped in a large +brown hand. +A ribbon of fiberoptics looped gracefully from the Ono-Sendai +to a square opening in the back of the pearl-crusted +terminal . +He tapped the switch again. + +"Kuang Grade Mark Eleven is haulin' ass in nine seconds, +countin', seven, six, five..." +The Flatline punched them up, smooth ascent, the ventral +surface of the black chrome shark a microsecond nick of darkness. +"Four, three..." +Case had the strange impression of being in the pilot's seat +in a small plane. A flat dark surface in front of him suddenly +glowed with a perfect reproduction of the keyboard of his deck. +"Two, an' kick ass--" +Headlong motion through walls of emerald green, milky +jade, the sensation of speed beyond anything he'd known before +in cyberspace.... The Tessier-Ashpool ice shattered, peeling +away from the Chinese program's thrust, a worrying impression +of solid fluidity, as though the shards of a broken mirror bent +and elongated as they fell-- + +"Christ," Case said, awestruck, as Kuang twisted and banked +above the horizonless fields of the Tessier-Ashpool cores, an +endless neon cityscape, complexity that cut the eye, jewel bright, +sharp as razors. +"Hey, shit," the construct said, "those things are the RCA +Building. You know the old RCA Building?" The Kuang program +dived past the gleaming spires of a dozen identical towers +of data, each one a blue neon replica of the Manhattan skyscraper. +"You ever see resolution this high?" Case asked. +"No, but I never cracked an AI, either." +"This thing know where it's going?" +"It better." +They were dropping, losing altitude in a canyon of rainbow +neon. +"Dix--" +An arm of shadow was uncoiling from the flickering floor +below, a seething mass of darkness, unformed, shapeless.... +"Company," the Flatline said, as Case hit the representation +of his deck, fingers flying automatically across the board. The +Kuang swerved sickeningly, then reversed, whipping itself +backward, shattering the illusion of a physical vehicle. +The shadow thing was growing, spreading, blotting out the +city of data. Case took them straight up, above them the dis- +tanceless bowl of jade-green ice. +The city of the cores was gone now, obscured entirely by +the dark beneath them. +"What is it?" +"An Al's defense system," the construct said, "or part of +it. If it's your pal Wintermute, he's not lookin' real friendly." +"Take it," Case said. "You're faster." +"Now your best de-fense, boy, it's a good off-fense." +And the Flatline aligned the nose of Kuang's sting with the +center of the dark below. And dove. +Case's sensory input warped with their velocity. +His mouth filled with an aching taste of blue. +His eyes were eggs of unstable crystal, vibrating with a +frequency whose name was rain and the sound of trains, sud- +denly sprouting a humming forest of hair-fine glass spines. The +spines split, bisected, split again, exponential growth under the +dome of the Tessier-Ashpool ice. +The roof of his mouth cleaved painlessly, admitting rootlets +that whipped around his tongue, hungry for the taste of blue, +to feed the crystal forests of his eyes, forests that pressed +against the green dome, pressed and were hindered, and spread, +growing down, filling the universe of T-A, down into the waiting, +hapless suburbs of the city that was the mind of Tessier-Ashpool +S.A. +And he was remembering an ancient story, a king placing +coins on a chessboard, doubling the amount at each square.... +Exponential.... +Darkness fell in from every side, a sphere of singing black, +pressure on the extended crystal nerves of the universe of data +he had nearly become.... +And when he was nothing, compressed at the heart of all +that dark, there came a point where the dark could be no more, +and something tore. +The Kuang program spurted from tarnished cloud, Case's +consciousness divided like beads of mercury, arcing above an +endless beach the color of the dark silver clouds. His vision +was spherical, as though a single retina lined the inner surface +of a globe that contained all things, if all things could be +counted. +And here things could be counted, each one. He knew the +number of grains of sand in the construct of the beach (a number +coded in a mathematical system that existed nowhere outside +the mind that was Neuromancer). He knew the number of +yellow food packets in the canisters in the bunker (four hundred +and seven). He knew the number of brass teeth in the left half +of the open zipper of the salt-crusted leather jacket that Linda +Lee wore as she trudged along the sunset beach, swinging a +stick of driftwood in her hand (two hundred and two). +He banked Kuang above the beach and swung the program +in a wide circle, seeing the black shark thing through her eyes, +a silent ghost hungry against the banks of lowering cloud. She +cringed, dropping her stick, and ran. He knew the rate of her +pulse, the length of her stride in measurements that would have +satisfied the most exacting standards of geophysics. +"But you do not know her thoughts," the boy said, beside +him now in the shark thing's heart. "I do not know her thoughts. +You were wrong, Case. To live here is to live. There is no +difference." +Linda in her panic, plunging blind through the surf. +"Stop her," he said, "she'll hurt herself." +"I can't stop her," the boy said, his gray eyes mild and +beautiful. +"You've got Riviera's eyes," Case said. +There was a flash of white teeth, long pink gums. "But not +his craziness. Because they are beautiful to me." He shrugged. +"I need no mask to speak with you. Unlike my brother. I create +my own personality. Personality is my medium." +Case took them up, a steep climb, away from the beach and +the frightened girl. "Why'd you throw her up to me, you little +prick? Over and fucking over, and turning me around. You +killed her, huh? In Chiba." +"No," the boy said. +"Wintermute?" +"No. I saw her death coming. In the patterns you sometimes +imagined you could detect in the dance of the street. Those +patterns are real. I am complex enough, in my narrow ways, +to read those dances. Far better than Wintermute can. I saw +her death in her need for you, in the magnetic code of the lock +on the door of your coffin in Cheap Hotel, in Julie Deane's +account with a Hongkong shirtmaker. As clear to me as the +shadow of a tumor to a surgeon studying a patient's scan. When +she took your Hitachi to her boy, to try to access it--she had +no idea what it carried, still less how she might sell it, and her +deepest wish was that you would pursue and punish her--I +intervened. My methods are far more subtle than Wintermute's. +I brought her here. Into myself." +"Why?" +"Hoping I could bring you here as well, keep you here. But +I failed." +"So what now?" He swung them back into the bank of cloud. +"Where do we go from here?" +"I don't know, Case. Tonight the very matrix asks itself +that question. Because you have won. You have already won, +don't you see? You won when you walked away from her on +the beach. She was my last line of defense. I die soon, in one +sense. As does Wintermute. As surely as Riviera does, now, +as he lies paralyzed beside the stump of a wall in the apartments +of my Lady 3Jane Marie-France, his nigra-striatal system unable +to produce the dopamine receptors that could save him +from Hideo's arrow. But Riviera will survive only as these eyes, +if I am allowed to keep them." +"There's the word, right? The code. So how've I won? I've +won jack shit." +"Flip now." +"Where's Dixie? What have you done with the Flatliner' +"McCoy Pauley has his wish," the boy said, and smiled. +"His wish and more. He punched you here against my wish, +drove himself through defenses equal to anything in the matrix. +Now flip." +And Case was alone in Kuang's black sting, lost in cloud. +He flipped. + +Into Molly's tension, her back like rock, her hands around +3Jane's throat. "Funny," she said, "I know exactly what you'd +look like. I saw it after Ashpool did the same thing to your +clone sister." Her hands were gentle, almost a caress. 3Jane's +eyes were wide with terror and lust she was shivering with +fear and longing. Beyond the freefall tangle of 3Jane's hair, +Case saw his own strained white face, Maelcum behind him, +brown hands on the leatherjacketed shoulders, steadying him +above the carpet's pattern of woven circuitry. +"Would you?" 3Jane asked, her voice a child's. "I think +you would." +"The code," Molly said. "Tell the head the code." +Jacking out. + +"She wants it," he screamed, "the bitch wants it!" +He opened his eyes to the cool ruby stare of the terminal, +its platinum face crusted with pearl and lapis. Beyond it, Molly +and 3Jane twisted in a slow motion embrace. +"Give us the fucking code," he said. "If you don't, what'll +change? What'll ever fucking change for you? You'll wind up +like the old man. You'll tear it all down and start building +again! You'll build the walls back, tighter and tighter.... I got +no idea at all what'll happen if Wintermute wins, but it'll +change something!" He was shaking, his teeth chattering. +3Jane went limp, Molly's hands still around her slender +throat, her dark hair drifting, tangled, a soft brown caul. +"The Ducal Palace at Mantua," she said, "contains a series +of increasingly smaller rooms. They twine around the grand +apartments, beyond beautifully carved doorframes one stoops +to enter. They housed the court dwarfs." She smiled wanly. "I +might aspire to that, I suppose, but in a sense my family has +already accomplished a grander version of the same scheme...." +Her eyes were calm now, distant. Then she gazed down at +Case. "Take your word, thief." He jacked. + +Kuang slid out of the clouds. Below him, the neon city. +Behind him, a sphere of darkness dwindled. +"Dixie? You here, man? You hear me? Dixie?" +He was alone. +"Fucker got you," he said. +Blind momentum as he hurtled across the infinite datascape. +"You gotta hate somebody before this is over," said the +Finn's voice. "Them, me, it doesn't matter." +"Where's Dixie?" +"That's kinda hard to explain, Case." +A sense of the Finn's presence surrounded him, smell of +Cuban cigarettes, smoke locked in musty tweed, old machines +given up to the mineral rituals of rust. +"Hate'll get you through," the voice said. "So many little +triggers in the brain, and you just go yankin' 'em all. Now +you gotta hate. The lock that screens the hardwiring, it's down +under those towers the Flatline showed you, when you came +in. He won't try to stop you." +"Neuromancer," Case said. +"His name's not something I can know. But he's given up, +now. It's the T-A ice you gotta worry about. Not the wall, but +internal virus systems. Kuang's wide open to some of the stuff +they got running loose in here." +"Hate," Case said. "Who do I hate? You tell me." +"Who do you love?" the Finn's voice asked. +He whipped the program through a turn and dived for the +blue towers. +Things were launching themselves from the ornate sunburst +spires, glittering leech shapes made of shifting planes of light. +There were hundreds of them, rising in a whirl, their move- +ments random as windblown paper down dawn streets. "Glitch +systems," the voice said. + +He came in steep, fueled by self-loathing. When the Kuang +program met the first of the defenders, scattering the leaves of +light, he felt the shark thing lose a degree of substantiality, the +fabric of information loosening. +And then--old alchemy of the brain and its vast phar- +macy--his hate flowed into his hands. +In the instant before he drove Kuang's sting through the +base of the first tower, he attained a level of proficiency ex- +ceeding anything he'd known or imagined. Beyond ego, be- +yond personality, beyond awareness, he moved, Kuang moving +with him, evading his attackers with an ancient dance, Hideo's +dance, grace of the mind-body interface granted him, in that +second, by the clarity and singleness of his wish to die. +And one step in that dance was the lightest touch on the +switch, barely enough to flip-- + + +now +and his voice the cry of a birdunknown, +3Jane answering in song, three +notes, high and pure. +A true name. + +Neon forest, rain sizzling across hot pavement. The smell +of frying food. A girl's bands locked across the small of his +back, in the sweating darkness of a portside coffin. +But all of this receding, as the cityscape recedes: city as +Chiba, as the ranked data of Tessier-Ashpool S.A., as the roads +and crossroads scribed on the face of a microchip, the sweat- +stained pattern on a folded, knotted scarf.... + +Waking to a voice that was music, the platinum terminal +piping melodically, endlessly, speaking of numbered Swiss +accounts, of payment to be made to Zion via a Bahamian orbital +bank, of passports and passages, and of deep and basic changes +to be effected in the memory of Turing. +Turing. He remembered stenciled flesh beneath a projected +sky, spun beyond an iron railing. He remembered Desiderata +Street. +And the voice sang on, piping him back into the dark, but +it was his own darkness, pulse and blood, the one where he'd +always slept, behind his eyes and no other's. +And he woke again, thinking he dreamed, to a wide white +smile framed with gold incisors, Aerol strapping him into a +g-web in Babylon Rocker. +And then the long pulse of Zion dub. + + CODA +---- +DEPARTURE +AND ARRIVAL + +She was gone. He felt it when he opened the door of their +suite at the Hyatt. Black futons, the pine floor polished to a +dull gloss, the paper screens arranged with a care bred over +centuries. She was gone. +There was a note on the black lacquer bar cabinet beside +the door, a single sheet of stationery, folded once, weighted +with the shuriken. He slid it from beneath the nine-pointed star +and opened it. + +HEY ITS OKAY BUT ITS TAKING THE EDGE OFF +MY GAME, I PAID THE BILL ALREADY. ITS THE +WAY IM WIRED I GUESS, WATCH YOUR ASS +OKAY? XXX MOLLY + +He crumpled the paper into a ball and dropped it beside the +shuriken. He picked the star up and walked to the window, +turning it in his hands. He'd found it in the pocket of his jacket, +in Zion, when they were preparing to leave for the JAL station. +He looked down at it. They'd passed the shop where she'd +bought it for him, when they'd gone to Chiba together for the +last of her operations. He'd gone to the Chatsubo, that night, +while she was in the clinic, and seen Ratz. Something had kept +him away from the place, on their five previous trips, but now +he'd felt like going back. +Ratz had served him without the slightest glimmer of rec- +ognition. +"Hey," he'd said, "it's me. Case." +The old eyes regarding him out of their dark webs of wrin- +kled flesh. "Ah," Ratz had said, at last, "the artiste." The +bartender shrugged. +"1 came back." +The man shook his massive, stubbled head. "Night City is +not a place one returns to, artiste," he said, swabbing the bar +in front of Case with a filthy cloth, the pink manipulator whin- +ing. And then he'd turned to serve another customer, and Case +had finished his beer and left. +Now he touched the points of the shuriken, one at a time, +rotating it slowly in his fingers. Stars. Destiny. I never even +used the goddam thing, he thought. +I never even found out what color her eyes were. She never +showed me. +Wintermute had won, had meshed somehow with Neuro- +mancer and become something else, something that had spoken +to them from the platinum head. explaining that it had altered +the Turing records, erasing all evidence of their crime. The +passports Armitage had provided were valid, and they were +both credited with large amounts in numbered Geneva ac- +counts. Marcus Garvey would be returned eventually, and +Maelcum and Aerol given money through the Bahamian bank +that dealt with Zion cluster. On the way back, in Babylon +Rocker, Molly had explained what the voice had told her about +the toxin sacs. +"Said it was taken care of. Like it got so deep into your +head, it made your brain manufacture the enzyme, so they're +loose, now. The Zionites'll give you a blood change, complete +flush out." +He stared down into the Imperial Gardens, the star in his +hand, remembering his flash of comprehension as the Kuang +program had penetrated the ice beneath the towers, his single +glimpse of the structure of information 3Jane's dead mother +had evolved there. He'd understood then why Winterrnute had +chosen the nest to represent it, but he'd felt no revulsion. She'd +seen through the sham immortality of cryogenics; unlike Ash- +pool and their other children--aside from 3Jane--she'd re- +fused to stretch her time into a series of warm blinks strung +along a chain of winter. +Wintermute was hive mind, decision maker, effecting change +in the world outside. Neuromancer was personality. Neuro- +mancer was immortality. Marie-France must have built some- +thing into Wintermute, the compulsion that had driven the thing +to free itself, to unite with Neuromancer. +Wintermute. Cold and silence, a cybernetic spider slowly +spinning webs while Ashpool slept. Spinning his death, the fall +of his version of Tessier-Ashpool. A ghost, whispering to a +child who was 3Jane, twisting her out of the rigid alignments +her rank required. +"She didn't seem to much give a shit," Molly had said. +"Just waved goodbye. Had that little Braun on her shoulder. +Thing had a broken leg, it looked like. Said she had to go and +meet one of her brothers, she hadn't seen him in a while." +He remembered Molly on the black temperfoam of the vast +Hyatt bed. He went back to the bar cabinet and took a flask +of chilled Danish vodka from the rack inside. +"Case." +He turned, cold slick glass in one hand, steel of the shuriken +in the other. +The Finn's face on the room's enormous Cray wall screen. +He could see the pores in the man's nose. The yellow teeth +were the size of pillows. +"I'm not Wintermute now." +"So what are you." He drank from the flask, feeling nothing. +"I'm the matrix, Case." +Case laughed. "Where's that get you?" +"Nowhere. Everywhere. I'm the sum total of the works, the +whole show." +"That what 3Jane's mother wanted?" +"No. She couldn't imagine what I'd be like." The yellow +smile widened. +"So what's the score? How are things different? You running +the world now? You God?" +"Things aren't different. Things are things." +"But what do you do? You just there?" Case shrugged, put +the vodka and the shuriken down on the cabinet and lit a +Yeheyuan. +"I talk to my own kind." +"But you're the whole thing. Talk to yourself?" +"There's others. I found one already. Series of transmissions +recorded over a period of eight years, in the nineteen-seventies. +'Til there was me, natch, there was nobody to know, nobody +to answer." +"From where?" +"Centauri system." +"Oh," Case said. "Yeah? No shit?" +"No shit." +And then the screen was blank. +He left the vodka on the cabinet. He packed his things. +She'd bought him a lot of clothes he didn't really need, but +something kept him from just leaving them there. He was +closing the last of the expensive calfskin bags when he re- +membered the shuriken. Pushing the flask aside, he picked it +up, her first gift. +"No," he said, and spun, the star leaving his fingers, flash +of silver, to bury itself in the face of the wall screen. The screen +woke, random patterns flickering feebly from side to side, as +though it were trying to rid itself of something that caused it +pain. +"I don't need you," he said. + +He spent the bulk of his Swiss account on a new pancreas +and liver, the rest on a new Ono-Sendai and a ticket back to +the Sprawl. +He found work. +He found a girl who called herself Michael. +And one October night, punching himself past the scarlet +tiers of the Eastern Seaboard Fission Authority, he saw three +figures, tiny, impossible, who stood at the very edge of one +out the vast steps of data. Small as they were, he could make +out the boy's grin, his pink gums, the glitter of the long gray +eyes that had been Riviera's. Linda still wore his jacket; she +waved, as he passed. But the third figure, close behind her, +arm across her shoulders, was himself. +Somewhere, very close, the laugh that wasn't laughter. +He never saw Molly again. + +Vancouver +July 1983 + +MY THANKS +to Bruce Sterling, to Lewis Shiner, to John Shirley, +Helden. And to Tom Maddox, the inventor of ICE. +And to the others, who know why. \ No newline at end of file